That brown eyes are literally one of the least common eye colours in furry characters? Like, what is going on? Should we declare a brown eyes crisis?

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Just wanted to let you know.

Morning, FA! Just wanted to wish y'all a merry Christmas!

This year's christmas is gonna be extra weird, surely because it's gonna be the first year we're going to celebrate it with one less family member. However, I think that Christmas is for healing those old wounds, and therefore, I am quite glad that it's that time of the year again.

Wherever you are, stay safe, and celebrate. :3

So, here is a question that I have been thinking about for a while. I have been looking at this massive writer's block for a long time, and I was too stressed to climb it for a long time, since the passing of my dad. I need to recuperate, but around every corner, there's something else that stresses me. More issues with family, more fear of losing everything we have, no time to properly mourn. I can say that it's all been too much for me, and writing was rightfully placed on the back burner while I worked on getting more energy to just do stuff.

Sure, I know, some of authors don't believe that a writer's block even exist, yadda yadda, I should just get off my ass and force myself to write, but, you know, screw that. Stress is seriously debilitating, let alone the migraines I am getting pretty much once a month.

That is not to say I don't want to get back into writing around the end of this year. I think I am ready to scale this humongous cliff of a block, but before I do that, I need some feedback on this.

Does Joey's story need a complete rewrite?

I have been thinking this over and over. I definitely don't want the entire story scrapped, but to be completely honest, looking at the writing, it feels more like a draft, and it needs some serious reworking before I can be satisfied with it. Hell, the story that currently exists definitely didn't hold true to its original concept. I wanted it to be a series of short, somewhat childhood adventury stories to give Joey some character. It was going to be cool, zany, slice of lifey, no deep underlying messages. Yeah, well, that didn't work out as intended.

So, when I did end up writing it, I got tangled up with all kinds of stupid subject matters I wanted to bring up: traditional family values, morality, religion, bullying; and I feel like I handled them poorly from the start, and they require a redo to give these topics the respectful platform they deserve. Right now, more than a year after, I've become more literate, more aware of my own writing, and I know I could do better.

I am kind of inclined to scrap or delete the first three chapters, and start the story over under some new title, but only if I can be sure that would be the right thing. I don't want to lose the premise of the story. I don't want to ditch all of the characters. I don't want to ditch the general idea of this story, but it needs to be torn down and rebuilt to make it work.

So...yeah, that's it really. I'm ranting about shit I should have taken care of months ago, but now I just don't know. Is the writing really bad, immature maybe? Does it require a redo?

Because I am bored and I want to update my journal with something.

[x] the dark
[ ] staying single forever
[ ] being a parent
[ ] giving birth
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[x] closed spaces
[x] heights
[x] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] fish
[x] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants
Total so far: 5

[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
[x] deep water
[ ] snakes
[ ] silk
[ ] failure
[ ] success
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] girlfriends/boyfriend's dad
[ ] girlfriends/boyfriend's mom
[ ] rats
[x] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
Total so far: 7

[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] crossing hanging bridges
[x] death
[ ] heaven
[ ] being robbed
[ ] falling
[x] clown
[x] dolls
[ ] large crowds of people
[ ] men
[ ] women
[ ] having great responsibilities
[ ] doctors, including dentists
[ ] tornadoes
Total so far: 10

[ ] hurricanes
[ ] incurable diseases
[ ] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[x] ghosts
[ ] poverty
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[ ] becoming blind
[ ] becoming deaf
[ ] growing up
Total so far: 11

[x] creepy noises in the night
[x] bee stings
[ ] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[ ] blood
[ ] dinosaurs
[ ] the welcome mat
[ ] high speed
[ ] throwing up
[ ] falling in love
[ ] super secrets
Total: 13

If you wish to post this journal, it's been requested that you title it, "I'm afraid of 1 out of 72 fears"

if you get more than 30, I highly suggest counseling
if you get more than 20, you're paranoid
if you get 10-20, you're normal.
*if you get 1-9, you're difficult to frighten.
*If you get 0, you're fearless.

Yay, I am normal...sort of.

I have barely slept. If one can call closing eyes sleeping at all, I might have counted a whopping two hours of sleep this bizarre night.

I write with pain in my heart that yesterday, 18 July, between 20:30 and 21:00, my father is no longer here. After a long period of battling with illnesses, having had close calls with death before from a leaking aorta, and pneumonia, he made his slow walk to the door of death, and he stepped over the threshold. He died a natural death.

For three years, he had been sick at home, and the family and I had done everything we possibly could to offer him the help he needed. Most of it may have been too little too late, as he ran out of his energy to keep going on when he came back after his last hospitalisation when he suffered pneumonia. Since then, it became increasingly prevalent that he quite simply gave up.

Right now. I still cannot quite fathom what has happened. What I'm supposed to do with this. I've imagined it time and time again that this day would eventually happen, but now that it's happened, it feels like he took just one, almost unremarkable, step out of life.

There's a thing that people say that successes slowly happen over time, and disasters happen all at once. Sometimes, it's just the other way around.

I haven't written a lot in the past few months. I don't think I'll be writing much more in the time after this either. I think I will be back here to submit new works of Joey's Short Stories some time after I have processed this, and hopefully make something much better out of it. I think that it deserves to be finished.

That's all.

And no. I am not leaving 'teh fa 5eva'.

https://www.weasyl.com/~egkangaroo Here is that drongo's account!

This is probably a terrible time to announce that I created an account on Weasyl, given the circumstances, but I did.

So, yes, I am well aware of the recent issues regarding a certain individual that is causing much furry drama and an apparent mass exodus from FA to Weasyl, and I am just sitting here thinking about whether or not it is important that I care about who codes the website that I use.

I think the answer is quite plain that I should care what's going on in the community that I am a part of, because it reflects on me just like everybody else if bad things happen. However, much like everyone else, I don't know the full story, so I am not going to jump to any conclusions as to who is guilty of what.

If you're generally interested in knowing what is going on in your own community, feel free to read other people's journals or something. There's like tonnes of them out there. I just want to make art and not feel bad because I am doing that on a dodgy website, and I just feel sorry that so much grief has been caused.

I'll probably still be using both FA and Weasyl, so I am not going to dramatically wave goodbye and hop into the sunset or...something. I'm still figuring out how the site works and all, and I'll see if I can't post some of my older works on there. And if I am not opening an account there in protest for the things that are going on, then still it's probably a good idea to just have an escape route if there is any proof behind the whole ordeal. And moreover, I am still just a writer who would like to expand his audience. Weasyl means a new audience. That's also important.

Not so long, not farewell, not auf wiedersehen, not goodbye

Sorry for the lack of total outrage.

Just here to wish my watchers, and everyone reading this a merry christmas, or kwanzaa, or whatever it is you are celebrating at the moment or not celebrating at all. Happy holidays, and have a good one!

Firstly, I am holyshit glad that I am finally getting into a consistent writing buzz. I have been working a lot on Joey's Short Stories as of late, and admittedly, I have been neglecting Slaves' Hell (Expect that series to be continued somewhere around the start of the new year). Also, I hope to post the third chapter of Joey's Short Stories before new year's eve. Hell, I have written more for actual stories the past months than I would normally finish in a whole year, and I hope to explode it exponentially the next one.

Secondly, it's kind of been a hectic year for me, and the final days of the year are giving me some time to reflect on the past and summarise the year for myself at new year's eve. I have been on top, at the very bottom and back on top again, and there is still more to come before 2013 is over.

I can say without kidding that this has been the most exciting, unpredictable year I've experienced, and absolutely one of the most important ones for my personal growth and shapeing as a person so far. Not to sound like a motivational poster or anything.

Again, happy holidays!

So, it's been taking us a while, but it's finally here! The start of our first new series, co-authored by  Doveen and myself! Slaves' Hell. The first three chapters are being posted. The first one right here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12114769/

So what will this story be about?

Well, first off, you should just go read that for yourself. However, we have thought of it as this:

It's a sci-fi novel, where the rising of a new technology rocketed the entertainment industry. Artipets, artificially created anthropomorphs, are the main focus of this series that takes place in New York, centred on the modern Cyrus Gates Tower, where the main characters live.

The story focusses on 5 arti-pets. Each of them has a different experience of the ethics on owning artipets. Their interactions will form the drive for the whole story, set in a neo art-deco futuristic world where urbanity is sprawling and the politics are consumerist.

So go ahead, give that thing a read, comment on it, leave your thoughts, fave it if you like it, and give that thing a watch because you don't wanna miss this series!