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Need to rise some quick cash, interest check for comms?
Posted a year agoIt's been a long time since I posted here. I have had many ups and downs and now I find myself in need of 360USD. I am just curious if anyone would be interested in small commissions, 2K words maximum at like 40USD a pop? I am hoping if I can write nine of these I can meet my goal. I can write just about anything not illegal and my gallery shows a wide range.
Like I need this cash fast and don't know if this is a good idea. Life has been incredibly rough and I burned out hard, got sick, and all sorts of stuff...but I need cash and that's just how things are.
If I were to do this and open up, would anyone be interested?
Like I need this cash fast and don't know if this is a good idea. Life has been incredibly rough and I burned out hard, got sick, and all sorts of stuff...but I need cash and that's just how things are.
If I were to do this and open up, would anyone be interested?
Emotional Event
Posted 4 years agoSomething major and hurtful just happened to me today, I am not ready to share super public about it.
I just needed to share that I am feeling hurt and sad and numb and it's all a mess inside.
I just needed to share that I am feeling hurt and sad and numb and it's all a mess inside.
The Good News
Posted 5 years agoTo those that I have been in contact with, and then dropped out of contact with. I have had a stressful, stressful quarantine, and I thought I was going to declare the entirety of 2020 a loss.
Though out of the blue, out of an incredible sense of happenstance, I was accepted into a Graduate Program for a doctoral degree just this month. I started classes on the 7th and it was a whirlwind of joining.
I had attempted to keep on top of some things and I thought they were all a wash, but I got there. I am now on my journey on becoming a doctor. Not a MD, just to note.
So, while I won't have time for writing any more. I had slowed way down due to just how things were going, now it's going to be a real drip. I will attempt to continue to write, I need some recreational activities in my life, now that I will be entering a real stressful five year journey.
Hopefully, I can get a few things out before the end of the year. I really want to finish some stories that I had started, but not been able to continue.
We shall see.
Thank you my FA friends and acquaintances, I really do love the positive relations I have made so far.
Sincerely,
Eight88
Though out of the blue, out of an incredible sense of happenstance, I was accepted into a Graduate Program for a doctoral degree just this month. I started classes on the 7th and it was a whirlwind of joining.
I had attempted to keep on top of some things and I thought they were all a wash, but I got there. I am now on my journey on becoming a doctor. Not a MD, just to note.
So, while I won't have time for writing any more. I had slowed way down due to just how things were going, now it's going to be a real drip. I will attempt to continue to write, I need some recreational activities in my life, now that I will be entering a real stressful five year journey.
Hopefully, I can get a few things out before the end of the year. I really want to finish some stories that I had started, but not been able to continue.
We shall see.
Thank you my FA friends and acquaintances, I really do love the positive relations I have made so far.
Sincerely,
Eight88
Lost my Telegram Account and got some good news.
Posted 5 years agoI seemed to have lost access to my Telegram account, apologies to anyone who had been in contact with me on that platform.
When I tried to get back onto it on my phone, after a long time away, it prompted me to create a new account. Which I did. I assume my previous account was deleted due to inactivity?
In any case, if anyone wants to get in touch over Telegram again, I should have an account again.
Life's been a trip. Some big news hit me yesterday and now I got some life-changing stuff to get ready for.
Another journal will come up soon once I get my head on straight.
When I tried to get back onto it on my phone, after a long time away, it prompted me to create a new account. Which I did. I assume my previous account was deleted due to inactivity?
In any case, if anyone wants to get in touch over Telegram again, I should have an account again.
Life's been a trip. Some big news hit me yesterday and now I got some life-changing stuff to get ready for.
Another journal will come up soon once I get my head on straight.
My birthday, 2020
Posted 5 years agoSo, I am turning 29 on the 4th. That's a lot to think about. I am not happy where my life is now, but I can only accept that I am moving forward the best I can. Hopefully this year will bring an acceptance...
But man, how I am disappointed still. The stress of being robbed really didn't help me recover from a lingering cold and it turned into a full born case of flu. I am still struggling on getting out of this rut it has left me in.
It's February...and time is so fast.
But man, how I am disappointed still. The stress of being robbed really didn't help me recover from a lingering cold and it turned into a full born case of flu. I am still struggling on getting out of this rut it has left me in.
It's February...and time is so fast.
Starting off 2020.
Posted 5 years agoI have been having a tough time the last year, my grad school applications did not go through, was interviewed but not accepted. This time I am adding in some master's programs and the like, hopefully I can get in somewhere. It is a journey, but I am hopeful. I am hopeful and I am doing my best and that's all I can do.
Just need to find a new job in my field to get a little bit more experience. Lose weight. That's my lifestyle goal for 2020, to loose weight.
My goals here is to finally post a few more stories, see what happens. Open commissions in a lull time, but I may be delaying that for a while longer.
My car was broken into and they stole a lot of stuff. Maybe up to $1,500USD in losses. Broken window, and a lot of stuff gone. My father left a power drill in there and that's gone...but more heart-breakingly, it was my first cosplay that the thieves took for some reason. I had a PUBG cosplay that was so excellent, and they even took the rusted cast iron pan.
I only was able to cosplay in it three times, and I loved it. Went to PAX West 2018, Anime Expo LA 2019, and SDCC 2019. Though the last one was only me hanging around outside. It even got me a drink from a local restaurant. I even got invited to the Blue Hole PUBG DEV party at PAX West. That breaks my heart so much, that my cosplay, and the patches are all gone. Though I can rebuild. Ultimately it was all commercial items. So it can be replaced, and the memories remain, but it hurts.
Worryingly they also stole my prop airsoft M249 I used for cosplay, so that's just...yeah. Worrying. The officer that took my report figures that they will realize it isn't a real gun and toss it, and if they find it, they'll return it, but...yeah, even the reporting officer is a little sketched out with that in the wild in the hands of thieves.
What can you do? I can only hope insurance will cover it. And if not...well...sigh. I guess I will work to rebuild. Take commissions that go towards cosplay...life is a mess, and all you can do is take it a day at a time.
I hope 2020 treats you all better than me. I hope 2020 will get better for myself.
Please have a safe start to a new year and new decade everyone.
Just need to find a new job in my field to get a little bit more experience. Lose weight. That's my lifestyle goal for 2020, to loose weight.
My goals here is to finally post a few more stories, see what happens. Open commissions in a lull time, but I may be delaying that for a while longer.
My car was broken into and they stole a lot of stuff. Maybe up to $1,500USD in losses. Broken window, and a lot of stuff gone. My father left a power drill in there and that's gone...but more heart-breakingly, it was my first cosplay that the thieves took for some reason. I had a PUBG cosplay that was so excellent, and they even took the rusted cast iron pan.
I only was able to cosplay in it three times, and I loved it. Went to PAX West 2018, Anime Expo LA 2019, and SDCC 2019. Though the last one was only me hanging around outside. It even got me a drink from a local restaurant. I even got invited to the Blue Hole PUBG DEV party at PAX West. That breaks my heart so much, that my cosplay, and the patches are all gone. Though I can rebuild. Ultimately it was all commercial items. So it can be replaced, and the memories remain, but it hurts.
Worryingly they also stole my prop airsoft M249 I used for cosplay, so that's just...yeah. Worrying. The officer that took my report figures that they will realize it isn't a real gun and toss it, and if they find it, they'll return it, but...yeah, even the reporting officer is a little sketched out with that in the wild in the hands of thieves.
What can you do? I can only hope insurance will cover it. And if not...well...sigh. I guess I will work to rebuild. Take commissions that go towards cosplay...life is a mess, and all you can do is take it a day at a time.
I hope 2020 treats you all better than me. I hope 2020 will get better for myself.
Please have a safe start to a new year and new decade everyone.
Update on Life. Possible opening of commissions and musing.
Posted 6 years agoIn the last eight to ten weeks, I have probably traveled over 7,000 miles. Of which over 2,400 miles I drove. I have stayed in back rooms, on couches, in driveway parked RV trailers. I have met some online friends for the first time ever during these journies, but really this is all in service of one thing. Getting myself into grad school. I wish to become the first doctor in my family. My family is a family of merchants and farmers, with some soldiers of one sort or another here and there. Both sides of my family at that.
I turned 28 this year, and I am still in school more or less. 10 years in higher education, not joining the workforce heavily or otherwise not living a life I should be living now. But I am doing what I am doing now, and that's all that matters. I applied to nine doctoral graduate school programs for psychology, and so far I have had six interview requests, one rejection to interview, and two applications still pending. Of the six interviews, I have received rejections from two programs, with three outstanding pending selection decisions, and one interview scheduled for the 22nd and 23rd of April. Of the two applications pending, I have until the 15th to get the truly finished, all I am missing is one letter I believe. I will be making contact with that person as soon as possible.
It is my hope that of the four interviews still active, any of them extend an offer. They all have something interesting about them, and all have their pros and cons. I think I would be happy at any of them, and I would be glad to have a doctorate at any of them. So please send your good vibes, your prayers, and anything at all. I have done all I can, and now it is outside my hands. If I do not get into graduate school this year, it may be five years or more before I get the opportunity to reapply. And that is something I am worried deeply about. I cannot allow myself to be afraid, because it is a realistic possibility, but my life plans will have to hit fallback points and that is very concerning.
I hope, after I get a bit of rest, I will be able to open one or two spots for $20 fast commissions, of one I think someone may have dibs. I have been suffering from an ability to get things done, so I will have to say these will be raw, highly focused and fast-paced stories focusing on one character or adding a story description to an image. 1500 to 2000 words. I do not think I can world build or justify the development of story or character. These will be specific custom transformation porn without plot. So aside from no celebrity/real person fiction(outside commissioners themselves) and underage characters, I will literally write anything you want.
I wish to get some spending money, as I have been relying on family support and what I have leftover from Christmas and my Birthday to fund all these interviews. Flights are expensive, as is gas, lodging, and food.
I hope to hear back from at least two of these programs over the next two to three weeks, and if accepted to any, I will take it and I will hold it dear because I know my next five years will be 50 hour weeks and doing my due diligence. The training wheels are off, this ain't a panty-ante bachelor's. A C is a failure, and Bs are the minimum.
Though it isn't all doom and gloom. I am hopeful, and I feel like in my time on FA I have made things for everyone to enjoy. I think I am going to investigate on how to accept tips from people that enjoy my work. I think that there are people that enjoy what I write, and if some good kind furs wish to support me a little, I will accept it. I am unsure how to do that legally, I would need to ask someone who already knows how that works. If I get an acceptance, I do hope to then raise $2,000 for my last(second ever) summer vacation to a Gaming Convention(PAX West probably). Continuing the idea of fast commissions, I think if I have a month or two free and the security of an acceptance letter, I might be able to do something. I would limit them in small batches and manage my workload so I would be writing short punchy custom stories for $20 a piece at 1,800 to 2,000 words that I could theoretically get done in two hours if I put my mind to it. If I do a hundred of them, then I can have a good adventure.
However, being a realist, I have tried to open commissions before, and while I can write stories fast for free. Writing for pay has been a bit of a nightmare due to how I scheduled my life, and by mistiming things, it resulted in huge mismanagement. It was a learning experience, and I now know what my strengths and weaknesses are. I cannot overthink, and I cannot overdevelop. Once given a premise, I must execute that premise with the guidance of my commissioner and nail down everything quickly and get the work done. Faffing about with long discussions and brainstorming is what kills my pacing. Over the last five years of writing stories, I know I can get things done in one night quickly and efficiently. Over the last ten years of school, I know how to set deadlines, manage workflow, and god-damn cram in the last few hours before it's due. So it should be possible, but I don't know if it is a good idea or if there is any interest.
Frankly, I am a very low key FA member, hanging about the sidelines...but between opening up small batches of commissions, a tips jar, and maybe doing some other side hustles, if I do get accepted, I will work my fat horse ass off to be able to take a trip. I cosplayed, been invited to a dev party once, it was so good and I wish to do it again! Because the first two years of graduate school is the critical No-Life transition period, if you don't get used it fast, it will definitely be a struggle. So who knows, I definitely hope to hear back from three schools over the next two weeks...so...here's hoping.
Thanks for reading this, if you did, please leave a comment. I crave comments and I just wish more furs would leave them so I know what the consensus is on what I write.
I turned 28 this year, and I am still in school more or less. 10 years in higher education, not joining the workforce heavily or otherwise not living a life I should be living now. But I am doing what I am doing now, and that's all that matters. I applied to nine doctoral graduate school programs for psychology, and so far I have had six interview requests, one rejection to interview, and two applications still pending. Of the six interviews, I have received rejections from two programs, with three outstanding pending selection decisions, and one interview scheduled for the 22nd and 23rd of April. Of the two applications pending, I have until the 15th to get the truly finished, all I am missing is one letter I believe. I will be making contact with that person as soon as possible.
It is my hope that of the four interviews still active, any of them extend an offer. They all have something interesting about them, and all have their pros and cons. I think I would be happy at any of them, and I would be glad to have a doctorate at any of them. So please send your good vibes, your prayers, and anything at all. I have done all I can, and now it is outside my hands. If I do not get into graduate school this year, it may be five years or more before I get the opportunity to reapply. And that is something I am worried deeply about. I cannot allow myself to be afraid, because it is a realistic possibility, but my life plans will have to hit fallback points and that is very concerning.
I hope, after I get a bit of rest, I will be able to open one or two spots for $20 fast commissions, of one I think someone may have dibs. I have been suffering from an ability to get things done, so I will have to say these will be raw, highly focused and fast-paced stories focusing on one character or adding a story description to an image. 1500 to 2000 words. I do not think I can world build or justify the development of story or character. These will be specific custom transformation porn without plot. So aside from no celebrity/real person fiction(outside commissioners themselves) and underage characters, I will literally write anything you want.
I wish to get some spending money, as I have been relying on family support and what I have leftover from Christmas and my Birthday to fund all these interviews. Flights are expensive, as is gas, lodging, and food.
I hope to hear back from at least two of these programs over the next two to three weeks, and if accepted to any, I will take it and I will hold it dear because I know my next five years will be 50 hour weeks and doing my due diligence. The training wheels are off, this ain't a panty-ante bachelor's. A C is a failure, and Bs are the minimum.
Though it isn't all doom and gloom. I am hopeful, and I feel like in my time on FA I have made things for everyone to enjoy. I think I am going to investigate on how to accept tips from people that enjoy my work. I think that there are people that enjoy what I write, and if some good kind furs wish to support me a little, I will accept it. I am unsure how to do that legally, I would need to ask someone who already knows how that works. If I get an acceptance, I do hope to then raise $2,000 for my last(second ever) summer vacation to a Gaming Convention(PAX West probably). Continuing the idea of fast commissions, I think if I have a month or two free and the security of an acceptance letter, I might be able to do something. I would limit them in small batches and manage my workload so I would be writing short punchy custom stories for $20 a piece at 1,800 to 2,000 words that I could theoretically get done in two hours if I put my mind to it. If I do a hundred of them, then I can have a good adventure.
However, being a realist, I have tried to open commissions before, and while I can write stories fast for free. Writing for pay has been a bit of a nightmare due to how I scheduled my life, and by mistiming things, it resulted in huge mismanagement. It was a learning experience, and I now know what my strengths and weaknesses are. I cannot overthink, and I cannot overdevelop. Once given a premise, I must execute that premise with the guidance of my commissioner and nail down everything quickly and get the work done. Faffing about with long discussions and brainstorming is what kills my pacing. Over the last five years of writing stories, I know I can get things done in one night quickly and efficiently. Over the last ten years of school, I know how to set deadlines, manage workflow, and god-damn cram in the last few hours before it's due. So it should be possible, but I don't know if it is a good idea or if there is any interest.
Frankly, I am a very low key FA member, hanging about the sidelines...but between opening up small batches of commissions, a tips jar, and maybe doing some other side hustles, if I do get accepted, I will work my fat horse ass off to be able to take a trip. I cosplayed, been invited to a dev party once, it was so good and I wish to do it again! Because the first two years of graduate school is the critical No-Life transition period, if you don't get used it fast, it will definitely be a struggle. So who knows, I definitely hope to hear back from three schools over the next two weeks...so...here's hoping.
Thanks for reading this, if you did, please leave a comment. I crave comments and I just wish more furs would leave them so I know what the consensus is on what I write.
Happy Birthday to me
Posted 6 years ago2019 is off to an okay start, I gained back a few pounds over the holidays...and I did lose a tooth a little before that too, but I am going to be 28 in about two hours. Some exciting things are going on, I am managing to score some graduate school interviews, and I am very hopeful, but sometimes the world just seems like an anxious and fearful place. Very stressful. I really need to break out of my shell and do more, work out more, live more.
I hope that things continue to progress nicely.
I hope that things continue to progress nicely.
Kandlin Anniversary and Free Art Raffle Signal Boost
Posted 6 years agoI was directed to post this to enter a free art raffle, Kandlin is a very excellent artist, been a long time fan.
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9031582/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9031582/
Merry Christmas Day
Posted 6 years agoWhile there is a yesterday and a tomorrow, let today be a day of peace and comfort for you all out there.
Hold you cups high and cheer for all the good in the world, we are all siblings of this earth.
Hold you cups high and cheer for all the good in the world, we are all siblings of this earth.
Possibly opening stream commissions? Interest check.
Posted 7 years agoJust curious, but if I were to start stream writing would anyone be interested? Like I am still studying for my Graduate Records Exam and concentrating on trying to get into Grad School, but I did want to celebrate my graduation with a summer trip. Which I prepared for before I was hit with some dental problems, which I got help from my family with, so I am not in the hole there. I am not fully committed to the idea, again because of graduate school prep, but I wouldn't mind spending my weekends trying to write for people. Earn a little money. If not, I just won't be spending large at PAX.
Something like a pay by the hour Transformation/NSFW stories, would anyone be interested? I have been wiped out by some dental problems, and I already got a trip to PAX West ready. It will be my first solo trip convention...and I don't really have a lot of cash earmarked for fun stuff like souvenirs. I got airfare, a room, and passes more or less paid for before my dental troubles started, but outside of that I find myself a lot light on some summer fun money.
So I was wondering if I could maybe do some light stream writing, build up a little fun money. Short TF scenes or other stuff. Like I am not the best writer, but I am a fast one. I usually average out at 60 words a minute, maybe I can get a raw 3,000 word story out in two hours if I am on point. I wouldn't know what to charge for now, but this is mainly an interest check.
I tend to write pretty much anything, sans illegal content, and I take direction pretty well. Like almost all the stories in my gallery are basically free versions of what I am thinking of doing. I don't think I will be doing major editing passes, but if I catch a mistake I will go back and fix it. Most of the things I have written seem readable enough, and from what I got back from those I wrote for, it was to their likings.
Though I have a couple of gifts I do need to finish up. A huge hit to my energy when my graduation finished let to a big spike in my writer's block, and then a tooth got infected and required a root canal, that and a few other things. So my last couple months have not been the greatest. But hopefully I can dig myself out of this hole in this heat wave, and who knows.
Maybe this will turn out all right.
Or maybe this doesn't get off the ground.
All I can hope is to stay positive and see if a solution can't be found.
Something like a pay by the hour Transformation/NSFW stories, would anyone be interested? I have been wiped out by some dental problems, and I already got a trip to PAX West ready. It will be my first solo trip convention...and I don't really have a lot of cash earmarked for fun stuff like souvenirs. I got airfare, a room, and passes more or less paid for before my dental troubles started, but outside of that I find myself a lot light on some summer fun money.
So I was wondering if I could maybe do some light stream writing, build up a little fun money. Short TF scenes or other stuff. Like I am not the best writer, but I am a fast one. I usually average out at 60 words a minute, maybe I can get a raw 3,000 word story out in two hours if I am on point. I wouldn't know what to charge for now, but this is mainly an interest check.
I tend to write pretty much anything, sans illegal content, and I take direction pretty well. Like almost all the stories in my gallery are basically free versions of what I am thinking of doing. I don't think I will be doing major editing passes, but if I catch a mistake I will go back and fix it. Most of the things I have written seem readable enough, and from what I got back from those I wrote for, it was to their likings.
Though I have a couple of gifts I do need to finish up. A huge hit to my energy when my graduation finished let to a big spike in my writer's block, and then a tooth got infected and required a root canal, that and a few other things. So my last couple months have not been the greatest. But hopefully I can dig myself out of this hole in this heat wave, and who knows.
Maybe this will turn out all right.
Or maybe this doesn't get off the ground.
All I can hope is to stay positive and see if a solution can't be found.
Graduated University, May 19th, 2018! Bachelor of Arts!
Posted 7 years agoHey Y'all, Eight88 here. Been online very sporadically these last few months, if not years, and that's probably not going to change given I am planning on going to graduate school for my doctorate!
I am just so happy to share I just returned from my commencement with a great time, though I missed some picture opportunities with my professors, my family, and my comrades in the meat grinder that is university.
I might share some pictures later in my scraps, but I just want to say I am going to be taking a break for the next few weeks and I might be going to PAX West in September to celebrate!
Regarding my content, I am unsure if I can ever really get commissions going, but I am still hopeful. In more just creative news, I am getting some commissions and I want to write accompanying pieces for them, so please look forward to that.
It is my goal that I get some new stories and things for all my watchers to enjoy as soon as possible...or at least before 2019! Because yeah...I really need to get the creative juices flowing again.
Though given I wrote 25 pages worth of essay the morning it was due just on Thursday, the 17th...I am a bit disgusted with keyboard right now. Gahhhhh...I want more art and content and just bask in the kink, fetish, and porny goodness!
Non-porny content also appreciated, but right now it is full on PORN WITHOUT PLOT Time!
I am just so happy to share I just returned from my commencement with a great time, though I missed some picture opportunities with my professors, my family, and my comrades in the meat grinder that is university.
I might share some pictures later in my scraps, but I just want to say I am going to be taking a break for the next few weeks and I might be going to PAX West in September to celebrate!
Regarding my content, I am unsure if I can ever really get commissions going, but I am still hopeful. In more just creative news, I am getting some commissions and I want to write accompanying pieces for them, so please look forward to that.
It is my goal that I get some new stories and things for all my watchers to enjoy as soon as possible...or at least before 2019! Because yeah...I really need to get the creative juices flowing again.
Though given I wrote 25 pages worth of essay the morning it was due just on Thursday, the 17th...I am a bit disgusted with keyboard right now. Gahhhhh...I want more art and content and just bask in the kink, fetish, and porny goodness!
Non-porny content also appreciated, but right now it is full on PORN WITHOUT PLOT Time!
Happy Birthday to me.
Posted 7 years agoI am feeling that I am in a much better spot than I was in 2016, and I didn't make a post in 2017...so 2018, I guess I will say some things. I am getting my degree soon, school's been keeping me from writing more, and I feel I have a good chance of getting into grad school, so there's that. Man, real life and being an adult is hard.
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2018, Eleven Years, and Thirteen Days!
Posted 7 years agoEleven Years, and Thirteen Days! Let's see what happens in 2018.
Hopefully more smut.
Hopefully more smut.
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Eleven Years on FA
Posted 7 years agoI seem to keep missing my anniversary date. This one slipped my mind. So an update to those who are interested. I am nearly complete with my Bachelor's Degree, I should be graduating in May of next year. Hopefully, the new Tax code doesn't doom me. Regarding my health, got some minor issues, and I am down around 40 pounds from September 2016, and 100 pounds to go. So hopefully that's good. I have been digging around my brickabrack in my computer, and found some gift art, trades, and requests that kind folk have done for me over the years, and I feel like I should post them soon. If anyone would be interested. I have also begun exploring commissioning, and have a few pieces there too.
I haven't been able to write original work in a while, I have been too busy with school. I hope to be able maybe write a few things soon, and post them for everyone's enjoyment.
I am curious as to if anyone actually reads these, so feel free to leave a comment.
I haven't been able to write original work in a while, I have been too busy with school. I hope to be able maybe write a few things soon, and post them for everyone's enjoyment.
I am curious as to if anyone actually reads these, so feel free to leave a comment.
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Shockley23. She's great, please check her out and mention you found her from this. Sketches start at $20. Example Ref: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25348633/'Taking commissions tonight, If you want to post an Ad up ----If people get at minimum a sketch from your Ad you can get $5/towards a commission.Tell them to say where they came from to gain this perk. ' https://picarto.tv/Shockley23
Ten Years and Ten Days
Posted 8 years agoWell, it looks like I have been on FA for ten years now, missed my ten year anniversary post due to being sick and then the holidays. Wow. Been here a long time, and I get this feeling I should have done more. That I was not as active as I should have been, that I was too much of an airhead and never behaved as I should have been.
Ten years...wonder if I will make a twenty years post. Man. I need to step up my life game. 2017, got to be the year I get myself right. Get myself on track. Loose the weight. Get fit. Get serious. Get social. Get my life goals in my sights and get ready to take my shot. Not going to waste my shot, which is my mandatory Hamilton reference.
Will probably edit more things in later.
Ten years...wonder if I will make a twenty years post. Man. I need to step up my life game. 2017, got to be the year I get myself right. Get myself on track. Loose the weight. Get fit. Get serious. Get social. Get my life goals in my sights and get ready to take my shot. Not going to waste my shot, which is my mandatory Hamilton reference.
Will probably edit more things in later.
So...our 45th President...my thoughts and anxieties.
Posted 9 years agoIt is interesting to think, that on the day of the election, it began with Hillary Clinton having a 85% chance of victory, at lunch the New York Times was reporting that ratio. 85% to 15%. Six hours later, it was 10% and 90%. I do not have the necessary educational background to think I have any real clue as to how this occurred, or why, or even if it will turn out good or bad.
The system has spoken, there will be a peaceful transition of power, and we can only hope that what is said, what is done, what the American system of politics has turned into...is just theater. The rapid and extreme polarization and calcification of the Two Party system, the reality television esque manner we have turned politics into. People say we are looking to the past, and taking the worst parts of it, and calling them the good old days. Perhaps we are. There has been a uptick in open bigotry, though perhaps that is just again news being entertainment, which does not excuse the fact it is happening. That people think the results of this election can justify this or that.
Same goes for the protests against the results, protests that started peaceful, but had violence seep in. Unacceptable. That all sides decry we are standing on a knife's edge, but willing to push and prod regardless. With California fringe groups calling for a Calexit, chortling as already promises are starting to strain and break, a wave of fear and alienation across all sectors. Sure, sure, on one side you can call out the revitalizing of a dying beast that we were slowly killing in its liar, on the other a blind hypocrisy and misapplied values and principles...but in the end, the system is working, and we can only hope it will continue to work.
The people still have their voice, they still have the power to influence the way things are done, they need only express themselves and put forth the effort. Because in four years there will be another election, one filled with more teeth gnashing, more tv spots, and bad ethics, and it will have to keep to our values. Another peaceful transition above all else. That is what we must take away from this, that we have had forty four peaceful transitions of power more or less.
But if we are to look to the past, to glory in the ages where colored and whites were separated, where violence reigned, and there was a "proper" way of things...we must not forget what it was like, we must never let it be white washed or fall silent. If they did win because of this feeling that there was a "good old days", then let us take the things that really mattered. The ability for a bipartisan government to function and not the world of racial hierarchy, bigotry and intolerance. To work together without needless heel digging stone walling adversarial madness. Nixon may have been a crook, but he made the EPA. Johnson may have been a bully, but he was able to finangle Civil Rights into existence. The world they lived in was one that is qualitatively worse than the age we live in now, but there is one thing to be said. Their politics was not entertainment like it is now.
What it looks like now, seems so new, so unexpected, but we have had "bad" presidents before. Ones that did damage, and shook confidence in our way of life...and we will have them in the future. We must only hold onto that light of liberty and freedom, and not let our fears and our hates turn this nation into something it is not. We must learn from this, and turn what should be a thoughtful and serious thing back into a thoughtful and serious thing. Not dross for us to laugh and gasp at. We will just have to wait and see.
Will reality tv and clickbait finally become truth and let the nation burn? I certainly hope not, I certainly pray not.
Will we regress and backslide and let the world suffer for our heel digging conflicts and fearful paranoia? I do not know.
Will things just be mediocre? I wish so much for that to be true, to come to pass. That our sanity will reign, that even if what we see is truly what we are getting, that no. No, we will not let fall the rights and freedoms so hard fought for and won. That no, we will not open the door to rebuilding and refortifying an America that we should be shameful of. That progress, logic, and understanding will win over irrational nostalgia, adversarial alienation, and the burning return of open bigotry and violence.
Hope that behind the theater, there is self-awareness and understanding...even if it is a dim hope.
But who can say really? After all, it was said that he couldn't win.
So let us focus on improving ourselves, that we may weather the storms, and take the reigns when it is our time. Let us please remember, the world we live in now is still so much better than the world our parents were born into, their parents, and theirs. It is fearful, it is infinitely more dangerous, but it is better. So let us keep it better, and continue to make it better.
We must try.
We must be brave enough to try.
Thank you for taking the time to read this.
The system has spoken, there will be a peaceful transition of power, and we can only hope that what is said, what is done, what the American system of politics has turned into...is just theater. The rapid and extreme polarization and calcification of the Two Party system, the reality television esque manner we have turned politics into. People say we are looking to the past, and taking the worst parts of it, and calling them the good old days. Perhaps we are. There has been a uptick in open bigotry, though perhaps that is just again news being entertainment, which does not excuse the fact it is happening. That people think the results of this election can justify this or that.
Same goes for the protests against the results, protests that started peaceful, but had violence seep in. Unacceptable. That all sides decry we are standing on a knife's edge, but willing to push and prod regardless. With California fringe groups calling for a Calexit, chortling as already promises are starting to strain and break, a wave of fear and alienation across all sectors. Sure, sure, on one side you can call out the revitalizing of a dying beast that we were slowly killing in its liar, on the other a blind hypocrisy and misapplied values and principles...but in the end, the system is working, and we can only hope it will continue to work.
The people still have their voice, they still have the power to influence the way things are done, they need only express themselves and put forth the effort. Because in four years there will be another election, one filled with more teeth gnashing, more tv spots, and bad ethics, and it will have to keep to our values. Another peaceful transition above all else. That is what we must take away from this, that we have had forty four peaceful transitions of power more or less.
But if we are to look to the past, to glory in the ages where colored and whites were separated, where violence reigned, and there was a "proper" way of things...we must not forget what it was like, we must never let it be white washed or fall silent. If they did win because of this feeling that there was a "good old days", then let us take the things that really mattered. The ability for a bipartisan government to function and not the world of racial hierarchy, bigotry and intolerance. To work together without needless heel digging stone walling adversarial madness. Nixon may have been a crook, but he made the EPA. Johnson may have been a bully, but he was able to finangle Civil Rights into existence. The world they lived in was one that is qualitatively worse than the age we live in now, but there is one thing to be said. Their politics was not entertainment like it is now.
What it looks like now, seems so new, so unexpected, but we have had "bad" presidents before. Ones that did damage, and shook confidence in our way of life...and we will have them in the future. We must only hold onto that light of liberty and freedom, and not let our fears and our hates turn this nation into something it is not. We must learn from this, and turn what should be a thoughtful and serious thing back into a thoughtful and serious thing. Not dross for us to laugh and gasp at. We will just have to wait and see.
Will reality tv and clickbait finally become truth and let the nation burn? I certainly hope not, I certainly pray not.
Will we regress and backslide and let the world suffer for our heel digging conflicts and fearful paranoia? I do not know.
Will things just be mediocre? I wish so much for that to be true, to come to pass. That our sanity will reign, that even if what we see is truly what we are getting, that no. No, we will not let fall the rights and freedoms so hard fought for and won. That no, we will not open the door to rebuilding and refortifying an America that we should be shameful of. That progress, logic, and understanding will win over irrational nostalgia, adversarial alienation, and the burning return of open bigotry and violence.
Hope that behind the theater, there is self-awareness and understanding...even if it is a dim hope.
But who can say really? After all, it was said that he couldn't win.
So let us focus on improving ourselves, that we may weather the storms, and take the reigns when it is our time. Let us please remember, the world we live in now is still so much better than the world our parents were born into, their parents, and theirs. It is fearful, it is infinitely more dangerous, but it is better. So let us keep it better, and continue to make it better.
We must try.
We must be brave enough to try.
Thank you for taking the time to read this.
Things are pretty alright...at least personally.
Posted 9 years agoRight, it's been too long since I have been on FA. I haven't been writing stories, I have been silent for a long time. I hope to post some stuff later, but in any case here is some status updates.
I finally have transferred out of Community College and into University, I am going to a commuter school. That is going to be a drag, but I am out and working on my BA. 50 credits left, and then I need to try for my Masters. Very exciting, but still. I am 25 and still only working on my BA...could be worse, could be better. I am thankful in any case. I have resolved to get fit, and I have started on monitoring my calorie intake as well as walking at least 1 mile a day. Pokemon Go has been helpful with that, and I am happy that over the last week I have been able to walk at least a mile a day. I plan on saving up for a bike, but that is 350 dollars at least.
I hope to post some more stories here when I get the opportunity, and while I never ever was able to actually get someone to commission me, I hope to try and get slightly more active here on FA. I am also entertaining the idea of maybe trying to self-publish some stories and get some minor spending money. Or maybe a paypal tip jar?
I do not believe I can produce content regularly enough for a Patreon and given the last three to four years, I have unable to get a commissioner, but I do wish to try and earn a little bit of spending money if only to be able support other artists and writers and maybe able to put some towards that bike.
In any case, if anyone has advice on that front I will take it. :)
I finally have transferred out of Community College and into University, I am going to a commuter school. That is going to be a drag, but I am out and working on my BA. 50 credits left, and then I need to try for my Masters. Very exciting, but still. I am 25 and still only working on my BA...could be worse, could be better. I am thankful in any case. I have resolved to get fit, and I have started on monitoring my calorie intake as well as walking at least 1 mile a day. Pokemon Go has been helpful with that, and I am happy that over the last week I have been able to walk at least a mile a day. I plan on saving up for a bike, but that is 350 dollars at least.
I hope to post some more stories here when I get the opportunity, and while I never ever was able to actually get someone to commission me, I hope to try and get slightly more active here on FA. I am also entertaining the idea of maybe trying to self-publish some stories and get some minor spending money. Or maybe a paypal tip jar?
I do not believe I can produce content regularly enough for a Patreon and given the last three to four years, I have unable to get a commissioner, but I do wish to try and earn a little bit of spending money if only to be able support other artists and writers and maybe able to put some towards that bike.
In any case, if anyone has advice on that front I will take it. :)
Happy Birthday to me.
Posted 9 years ago2016, I'm 25 and a day. Huh...I hope...I hope that I am not in a rut. That I have not peaked. I feel apprehensive of the future, and anxious as to where my life will lead. I hope my hopes come true. And that my future is not bleak.
Sometimes it's best to share one's feelings. Forgive me for my angst. Please have a wonderful day whoever reads this.
Sometimes it's best to share one's feelings. Forgive me for my angst. Please have a wonderful day whoever reads this.
Apologies for low online presense. Life has knee capped me.
Posted 10 years agoReal life has been getting to me, it's a old excuse, but it is what it is. I had a car accident, the damage so bad my family needed to junk it. My school is stressful. My grandmother is ill, I need to visit her after this post is done.
Life took a baseball bat to my knees it feels, and it wants its due.
To those I offered free stories to, and still have not completed. My apologies. I will try to get them done as soon as possible. If you are uninterested in me continuing them, I understand, as I have been unreliable due to my IRL issues. Though yes, I hope to devote this next few weekends finishing up the few that I know are still needed. Once they are done, I will post whatever stories I can that I have had in the backlog so to speak.
In future, 2015, I hope to finally start taking minor paid commissions here on FA.
From what I can tell, the best guarantee I can give is if I sell short personalized stories written streaming style on a Google Doc for people. I am hoping to charge something like ten dollars per for something like a thousand to a thousand two hundred words. It would be done in about a hour or two, with the commissioner sitting in on its writing to do in stream directing.
Basically a detailed short scene with little build up. Straight to the action, be it sex or TF.
I am hoping to make a little spending money this way. Hopefully more info soon.
To gauge interest, would anyone be interested in such a thing that I am proposing?
Life took a baseball bat to my knees it feels, and it wants its due.
To those I offered free stories to, and still have not completed. My apologies. I will try to get them done as soon as possible. If you are uninterested in me continuing them, I understand, as I have been unreliable due to my IRL issues. Though yes, I hope to devote this next few weekends finishing up the few that I know are still needed. Once they are done, I will post whatever stories I can that I have had in the backlog so to speak.
In future, 2015, I hope to finally start taking minor paid commissions here on FA.
From what I can tell, the best guarantee I can give is if I sell short personalized stories written streaming style on a Google Doc for people. I am hoping to charge something like ten dollars per for something like a thousand to a thousand two hundred words. It would be done in about a hour or two, with the commissioner sitting in on its writing to do in stream directing.
Basically a detailed short scene with little build up. Straight to the action, be it sex or TF.
I am hoping to make a little spending money this way. Hopefully more info soon.
To gauge interest, would anyone be interested in such a thing that I am proposing?
Je Suis Charlie, Je Suis Ahmed
Posted 10 years agoThe world gives us horror, and it gives us miracles and wonders.
But what it gives, these things, do not titillate our imaginations. They do not seep into the collective soul of mankind as deep as the things we do to each other.
The horrors humanity does against their fellows in the name of country, god, or self are not insubstantial things. They are the things that keep us awake at night, that stoke our paranoia and divide the world itself. For every horror our earth gives us, every disaster and tragedy, the dark machinations of man and woman are those that bring our own darknesses to bear. Our pet hates and irrational fears, our psychosis and neurosis, the twists and unbidden changes to our minds. To make us hate each other and claw our souls apart.
They are real and they hurt us all, but in pain and loss we must not succumb.
For in these horrors, wonders and miracles are born. That for every act of terror, of harm, of evil, there are those that would come together and do good. Of hope, of soothing, of good.
Let it be known that for every horror, there is a wonder. That such terrors and brutalities are not the face of mankind.
For progress, we will endure, and in the face of disaster we will bind together. In the name of country, god, or self, we will bind together. Let not the states of strife and war be what humanity uses to define itself, for in the darkness we will hold a light. We are not afraid, and we will not be made to be afraid. Terror will not hold in our hearts, for we will build a better tomorrow.
We are not afraid.
Je Suis Ahmed, Je Suis Charlie
Liberté, Égalité, Fraternité
In Memorandum, 1-7-15, Charlie Hebdo
Frédéric Boisseau
Franck Brinsolaro
Cabu (Jean Cabut)
Elsa Cayat
Charb (Stéphane Charbonnier)
Philippe Honoré
Bernard Maris
Ahmed Merabet
Moustapha Ourrad,
Michel Renaud
Tignous (Bernard Verlhac)
Georges Wolinski
In Memorandum, 1-8-15, Currently Unknown Connection
Clarissa Jean-Philippe
But what it gives, these things, do not titillate our imaginations. They do not seep into the collective soul of mankind as deep as the things we do to each other.
The horrors humanity does against their fellows in the name of country, god, or self are not insubstantial things. They are the things that keep us awake at night, that stoke our paranoia and divide the world itself. For every horror our earth gives us, every disaster and tragedy, the dark machinations of man and woman are those that bring our own darknesses to bear. Our pet hates and irrational fears, our psychosis and neurosis, the twists and unbidden changes to our minds. To make us hate each other and claw our souls apart.
They are real and they hurt us all, but in pain and loss we must not succumb.
For in these horrors, wonders and miracles are born. That for every act of terror, of harm, of evil, there are those that would come together and do good. Of hope, of soothing, of good.
Let it be known that for every horror, there is a wonder. That such terrors and brutalities are not the face of mankind.
For progress, we will endure, and in the face of disaster we will bind together. In the name of country, god, or self, we will bind together. Let not the states of strife and war be what humanity uses to define itself, for in the darkness we will hold a light. We are not afraid, and we will not be made to be afraid. Terror will not hold in our hearts, for we will build a better tomorrow.
We are not afraid.
Je Suis Ahmed, Je Suis Charlie
Liberté, Égalité, Fraternité
In Memorandum, 1-7-15, Charlie Hebdo
Frédéric Boisseau
Franck Brinsolaro
Cabu (Jean Cabut)
Elsa Cayat
Charb (Stéphane Charbonnier)
Philippe Honoré
Bernard Maris
Ahmed Merabet
Moustapha Ourrad,
Michel Renaud
Tignous (Bernard Verlhac)
Georges Wolinski
In Memorandum, 1-8-15, Currently Unknown Connection
Clarissa Jean-Philippe
Still super sad, but going to try and get content out.
Posted 11 years agoI am still super sad, and due to my trip, I forgot to do some stuff and now my Paypal is probably gone and my bank account is closed because I owe eight dollars.
Life does not like me at the moment. What with my stolen stuff. Just realized they also took three seasons of CSI dvds I loved, and my insurance card!
So much stuff. Hopefully the cops will find it, but probably not.
In any case, I am going to be posting a few stories I have in backlogs.
I need to get in touch with some people I wrote for, but I want to start posting again.
If I wrote for you, and you are okay with me posting the story, feel free to to comment here before I contact you.
Thanks.
Life does not like me at the moment. What with my stolen stuff. Just realized they also took three seasons of CSI dvds I loved, and my insurance card!
So much stuff. Hopefully the cops will find it, but probably not.
In any case, I am going to be posting a few stories I have in backlogs.
I need to get in touch with some people I wrote for, but I want to start posting again.
If I wrote for you, and you are okay with me posting the story, feel free to to comment here before I contact you.
Thanks.
