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Need help: dad is very bummed out about broken lawn mower
Posted a year agoHow can I get $1000 or $3000 to either fix or just get a new lawn mower?
I just got done talking to my dad and he's very bummed about the lawn mower being broken and no one else he knows could fix it. We'd have to uptake it to a place that charges $80 an ***HOUR** to fix it. I was even willing to offer to make money or EVEN use a weed wick or EVEN a fuckin scythe to cut the grass. However, he said it wouldn't be possible with how large our yard is.
He said there's nothing I or he could do. "I can never get $3000", he said. I mean, it'll be hard to get that much but idk. He was just gonna drink and smoke weed to feel better, later on tonight.
Just has a very defeatist attitude about it. I have no clue how the fuck I can get so much cash ASAP. I've barely even tried launching my freelance career and even then, I'll probably won't be able to get enough asap.
The only other way is to get a loan and try to pay it off. I'm willing to pay for it. But I think my parents would be against me doing that.
I just got done talking to my dad and he's very bummed about the lawn mower being broken and no one else he knows could fix it. We'd have to uptake it to a place that charges $80 an ***HOUR** to fix it. I was even willing to offer to make money or EVEN use a weed wick or EVEN a fuckin scythe to cut the grass. However, he said it wouldn't be possible with how large our yard is.
He said there's nothing I or he could do. "I can never get $3000", he said. I mean, it'll be hard to get that much but idk. He was just gonna drink and smoke weed to feel better, later on tonight.
Just has a very defeatist attitude about it. I have no clue how the fuck I can get so much cash ASAP. I've barely even tried launching my freelance career and even then, I'll probably won't be able to get enough asap.
The only other way is to get a loan and try to pay it off. I'm willing to pay for it. But I think my parents would be against me doing that.
Reminder: I'm taking Comissions
Posted a year agoHey, I'm still open for comissions. DM me on FA, Twitter, or Discord if you're curious!
You can check out my updayed comission sheet, here:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56451833/
You can check out my updayed comission sheet, here:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56451833/
Still Open for Comissions!
Posted a year agoWantedto give people a reminder that I've started taking on comissions.
Check the FA submission for the sheet! https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56451833/
Check the FA submission for the sheet! https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56451833/
Mai Birfday: BIG 3-0 Wizard
Posted a year agoYup, it's my birthday. Yes, I'm aware of Star Wars.
I'm 30 years old. I'm a fuckin wizard now. I can now cast magic missile.
I don't got any specific plans for today besides go outside.
I'm 30 years old. I'm a fuckin wizard now. I can now cast magic missile.
I don't got any specific plans for today besides go outside.
COMISSIONS NOW OPEN!
Posted a year agoYup, I'm officially open for commissions! At least for sketch and rough colors. I've been offering these on my streams for awhile now but I wanted to make them available for non-streams. I'll still work on them on-streams except if they're private/personal.
Check the FA submission for the sheet! https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56451833/
As for the other comms/YCH I owe, I'm still working on them. I'm very sorry it's been taking me so long but you know the whole story for what's happened for more over a year, now. I''ve just had to open up comms like this since not many folks can catch my streams. I figured I can always work on other's stuff, even if they're not in the stream and just send WIP, if needed.
Check the FA submission for the sheet! https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56451833/
As for the other comms/YCH I owe, I'm still working on them. I'm very sorry it's been taking me so long but you know the whole story for what's happened for more over a year, now. I''ve just had to open up comms like this since not many folks can catch my streams. I figured I can always work on other's stuff, even if they're not in the stream and just send WIP, if needed.
LIVE NOW!!!! ON-STREAM COMMS
Posted a year agoQuestion: Opening up non-stream commissions?
Posted a year agoWhat this means is basically doing commissions that don't need to be processed or completed on-stream via Picarto. Basically just a plain-old comission. I know some folks want to approach artist and want an illustration to remain private. While I've been enjoying streaming art comms, I understand some folks would prefer reaching me without having to catch a stream.
I'm not officially open yet but if you want a commission, feel free to contact me either way. The prices I charge for a sketch ($45) and a rough color ($60) are the same.
I'm not officially open yet but if you want a commission, feel free to contact me either way. The prices I charge for a sketch ($45) and a rough color ($60) are the same.
[LIVE!] On-Stream Comms!
Posted a year agoOn-Stream Sketch Comms @ around 4PM EST
Posted a year agoI MIGHT be earlier than that. I'll be streaming on Picarto.
ON-STREAM Sketch Stream @ 5PM EST
Posted a year agoI need to make some money for groceries since I got barely anything. I've been on the groove with churning out some art so I wanna keep up the streak.
While waiting, I'll be working on other comms.
Stream will be on Picarto!
While waiting, I'll be working on other comms.
Stream will be on Picarto!
[LIVE] Quick sketch Comm stream
Posted a year agoDoing a quick sketch stream
https://picarto.tv/Elpida
https://picarto.tv/Elpida
https://picarto.tv/Elpida
https://picarto.tv/Elpida
https://picarto.tv/Elpida
https://picarto.tv/Elpida
Vibe check: how are you doing?
Posted a year agoI made a tweet on here but I wanted to also post this on here:
If you're reading this, I hope you are doing ok. 🫂
I want to reach out to anyone who is going through a rough time right now. It doesn't matter how small you might think your issues are.
You're a lot stronger than you might think.
If you're reading this, I hope you are doing ok. 🫂
I want to reach out to anyone who is going through a rough time right now. It doesn't matter how small you might think your issues are.
You're a lot stronger than you might think.
[🔴 LIVE] Sketch Comm Stream IS A GO!
Posted a year agoPLEASE READ: Gonna increase my commission prices
Posted 2 years agoHey.
I've been dealing with some hard-to-explain crap over the past year or so (If you want more info, just check my previous vent journals). I've also been putting more time and effort into commissions (ESPECIALLY for sketch comms). I'm working towards doing art as my main source of income for awhile now. However, it's been difficult to do so for a myriad of reasons (distractions from my borther's kids, health, fatigue, stress). Shit has been piling on me. I won't be able to get as much government assistance as I thought (even if I did, it feels like I would be more stressed making sure I didn't go over a limit unless I intentionally kept ANY earnings/income "hush-hush"). I still owe money towards my electric bike (that was paid two years before being laid off; I was constantly paying for it each month in increments). Due to my health, I require a diet free from dairy and (mostly) gluten. More importantly, inflation and the cost of living has gone up. So I'm just gonna flatout say it:
I'm gonna increase my commission prices.
Long story short, the current commission sheet I've used to base my prices around was made in 2022. Things changed. So I'm reflecting that in my current prices.
I've been flirting with the idea for many many MANY months now. The only reason why I haven't is because of the existing commissions I need to work on and me questioning my work ethic (how fast I can churn out a commission, especially at the prices I charge). It's clear that due to my circumstances, I need to increase my prices. It's a double-edge sword; I feel more motivated to work on comissions when I feel like the work I put into it is equal to the amount I pay for it. For sketches, I feel like I spend too much time for how little I charge for them. ESPECIALLY in case someone wants tiny little adjustments or if it requires getting a ton of reference photos. I COULD just spend more time working on comissions but I feel like for the amount I charge, it would drive me FUCKIN INSANE.
I thought about doing artpacks or selling goods like stickers (either physically made or via redbubble) to make up for my situation but I think for right now, those wouldn't turn a high profit. At least, enough to also do commissions on the side. That and I stuck to the idea of finishing the existing comissions before even doing those. As one person I talked to said: it wouldn't feel fair to the others I still owe commissions to. Even if it would help me EVEN REFUND SOME, if needed. It's clear that it's all just a fuckin' mess.
However, I also feel like my artistic skills have improved since 2022. I'll let you decide how much but it's enough to justify an increase, at least.
For those I still owe commissions: THE NEW PRICES WILL NOT BE RETROACTIVELY APPLIED!!! I repeat: the comissions I still owe to you WILL NOT BE CHANGED BY THIS. If you paid for a $25 sketch, you will still owe $25. NO ADDED AMOUNT WILL BE CHARGED.
I'm just fuckin' tired of being in a rutt and doing nothing. I've asked many other artist about this idea in the past and I did jack shit out of fear or retaliation from others, especially towards others that I owe comissions or YCHs towards. I'm very sorry it's taken so long to get to you. I wanna deliver a good product to you.
I've been dealing with some hard-to-explain crap over the past year or so (If you want more info, just check my previous vent journals). I've also been putting more time and effort into commissions (ESPECIALLY for sketch comms). I'm working towards doing art as my main source of income for awhile now. However, it's been difficult to do so for a myriad of reasons (distractions from my borther's kids, health, fatigue, stress). Shit has been piling on me. I won't be able to get as much government assistance as I thought (even if I did, it feels like I would be more stressed making sure I didn't go over a limit unless I intentionally kept ANY earnings/income "hush-hush"). I still owe money towards my electric bike (that was paid two years before being laid off; I was constantly paying for it each month in increments). Due to my health, I require a diet free from dairy and (mostly) gluten. More importantly, inflation and the cost of living has gone up. So I'm just gonna flatout say it:
I'm gonna increase my commission prices.
Long story short, the current commission sheet I've used to base my prices around was made in 2022. Things changed. So I'm reflecting that in my current prices.
I've been flirting with the idea for many many MANY months now. The only reason why I haven't is because of the existing commissions I need to work on and me questioning my work ethic (how fast I can churn out a commission, especially at the prices I charge). It's clear that due to my circumstances, I need to increase my prices. It's a double-edge sword; I feel more motivated to work on comissions when I feel like the work I put into it is equal to the amount I pay for it. For sketches, I feel like I spend too much time for how little I charge for them. ESPECIALLY in case someone wants tiny little adjustments or if it requires getting a ton of reference photos. I COULD just spend more time working on comissions but I feel like for the amount I charge, it would drive me FUCKIN INSANE.
I thought about doing artpacks or selling goods like stickers (either physically made or via redbubble) to make up for my situation but I think for right now, those wouldn't turn a high profit. At least, enough to also do commissions on the side. That and I stuck to the idea of finishing the existing comissions before even doing those. As one person I talked to said: it wouldn't feel fair to the others I still owe commissions to. Even if it would help me EVEN REFUND SOME, if needed. It's clear that it's all just a fuckin' mess.
However, I also feel like my artistic skills have improved since 2022. I'll let you decide how much but it's enough to justify an increase, at least.
For those I still owe commissions: THE NEW PRICES WILL NOT BE RETROACTIVELY APPLIED!!! I repeat: the comissions I still owe to you WILL NOT BE CHANGED BY THIS. If you paid for a $25 sketch, you will still owe $25. NO ADDED AMOUNT WILL BE CHARGED.
I'm just fuckin' tired of being in a rutt and doing nothing. I've asked many other artist about this idea in the past and I did jack shit out of fear or retaliation from others, especially towards others that I owe comissions or YCHs towards. I'm very sorry it's taken so long to get to you. I wanna deliver a good product to you.
HELP: Need to resque a wild kitten under the deck
Posted 2 years agoFor the past few days, my niece and I have been hearing the cries of a kitten of sorts. Last night, we got confirmation after it showed up by the basement window but I was too much of a dumbass not to open it (even if it would have ran away) and went outside in the cold snow. I LITERALLY CANT FIND IT ANYWHERE. IT STOPS MEOWING AS SOON AS I GET OUT THERE.
I've made a shelter out of a plastic tub. I've tapped cardboard on the inside and there's a styrofoam board on the bottom, with a blanket on top and a small towel drape over the entrance. I've tried also setting up a humane cage trap in hopes to trap it.
I literally have no fuckin' clue what else to do besides frequently check up on the traps/shelter.
I've made a shelter out of a plastic tub. I've tapped cardboard on the inside and there's a styrofoam board on the bottom, with a blanket on top and a small towel drape over the entrance. I've tried also setting up a humane cage trap in hopes to trap it.
I literally have no fuckin' clue what else to do besides frequently check up on the traps/shelter.
Hope everyone has a Merry Christmas
Posted 2 years agoI don't have much else to say. I wanted to make this in case I couldn't message everyone at once.
I don't celebrate it exactly (I'm agnostic) but it's been something I've grown up with.
I don't celebrate it exactly (I'm agnostic) but it's been something I've grown up with.
Best Place to Make/Sell Stickers?
Posted 2 years agoI know StickerMule is one place but I wasn't sure what other places are there. I had a RedBubble but I quit after they enforced certain changes that would make it a lot harder to sell stuff, there.
Get the $4 '22 Halloween Artpack!
Posted 2 years agoHey, it's that time of year. Time for some spooky fats!
Includes:
4 Illustrations!
(2 male and female characters!)
1 Thank-You Picture!
Featuring 4 fan-favorite characters!:
Fox McCloud - Space Fox!
Loona - The Hell Hound Receptionist!
Kass - Accordion Bird Dad
Mae - Trash Mammal!
If you either missed out on last year's artpack or just discovered my stuff, now's the time to check it out!
https://payhip.com/b/14oCH
https://payhip.com/b/14oCH
https://payhip.com/b/14oCH
https://payhip.com/b/14oCH
https://payhip.com/b/14oCH
https://payhip.com/b/14oCH
https://payhip.com/b/14oCH
Includes:
4 Illustrations!
(2 male and female characters!)
1 Thank-You Picture!
Featuring 4 fan-favorite characters!:
Fox McCloud - Space Fox!
Loona - The Hell Hound Receptionist!
Kass - Accordion Bird Dad
Mae - Trash Mammal!
If you either missed out on last year's artpack or just discovered my stuff, now's the time to check it out!
https://payhip.com/b/14oCH
https://payhip.com/b/14oCH
https://payhip.com/b/14oCH
https://payhip.com/b/14oCH
https://payhip.com/b/14oCH
https://payhip.com/b/14oCH
https://payhip.com/b/14oCH
Need money for groceries (also selling my stuff on ebay))
Posted 2 years agoI hate doing this, but I'll be literally suffering if I don't; whether through starvation, fatigue, or anxiety attacks.
I need money for groceries, again.
I thought I'd be fine with just using the money from my ebay sells but, well...
I've been having issues trying to get my bank account accepted, recently, so I haven't been able to get the money ASAP. As a result, I don't have the funds to ship the items nor the rest to purchase groceries. I don't know how long it'll take to get it set but I need to get groceries ASAP. I don't have any protein or even rice. The only thing I have right now is packets of apple sauce and potatoes.
If you can support me on my Ko-fi, I'd really appreciate it: https://ko-fi.com/elpida
Here's my ebay, if you're curious: https://www.ebay.com/usr/agartha1994
I need money for groceries, again.
I thought I'd be fine with just using the money from my ebay sells but, well...
I've been having issues trying to get my bank account accepted, recently, so I haven't been able to get the money ASAP. As a result, I don't have the funds to ship the items nor the rest to purchase groceries. I don't know how long it'll take to get it set but I need to get groceries ASAP. I don't have any protein or even rice. The only thing I have right now is packets of apple sauce and potatoes.
If you can support me on my Ko-fi, I'd really appreciate it: https://ko-fi.com/elpida
Here's my ebay, if you're curious: https://www.ebay.com/usr/agartha1994
Need grocery money, today. Willing to work on a deal
Posted 2 years agotl;dr at most, I need $200 for grocery money today. For someone willing to give $150 or even $200, I'm willing to work out a deal. It can be a comission or whatever else you have in mind. My bout of fatigue has been decreasing, so I'm finding myself more focused on art. Thus, I'm willing to take on a comm if needed.
Link to my Ko-Fi ☕️ 💵: https://ko-fi.com/elpida
https://ko-fi.com/elpida https://ko-fi.com/elpida
Since my mom didn't work last week, we don't have much for groceries. We only got $60, probably alot less now, since a few days back. She has since started working as a cashier again so the pay is definitely not as much. If you want to learn more about my situation, I recommend checking out my previous journals.
For those that know, I've been on a special diet free of gluten, dairy, and soy. This makes it alot more expensive to buy groceries for myself.
Why? Because these things have caused me debilitating symptoms like anxiety and fatigue, especially if eaten often. I haven't gotten officially tested for sensitivity for these but I've noticed improvements to my overall health since then.
I'm in the process of getting some state/gov assistance via a Bridge card so I'm able to purchase certain groceries. A good friend of mine is helping out with the process. They've went through the same thing so it's nice to have someone help with something that can feel overwhelming.
At most, $200 would be enough for now. Depending on how things go, I'm willing to work out a comission deal if someone just straight up donates $150+. Either one full illustration or a sequence or whatnot. I also offer an option for the comm to be private: either for your own enjoyment only or for whatnot
I'm aware that I still owe comissions to others and I'm very sorry for any frustration this whole entire ordeal has been. I want to focus on finishing any remaining comms and YCHs I owe before moving on to artpacks. I have no clue if I'd make any gains from the artpacks (enough for groceries and bills, right now). Instead of making others wait longer, my main goal is to finish up the current comm list. It's been a process trying to improve not only habit/commitment-wise but DEFINITELY health. The past week, I've noticed an improvement on my well-being after getting more than 8 hours of sleep (9 to 10). I don't know if this is due to my natural sleep needs or due to my situation. I likely owe alot of sleep debt. It's allowed me to focus more easily.
Anyhow, whether you're curious about the deal or just want to donate, you can do so via my Ko-Fi. If you want my paypal instead, simply message me and I'll give you the address.
My Ko-fi ☕️ 💵: https://ko-fi.com/elpida
https://ko-fi.com/elpida
https://ko-fi.com/elpida
https://ko-fi.com/elpida
Link to my Ko-Fi ☕️ 💵: https://ko-fi.com/elpida
https://ko-fi.com/elpida https://ko-fi.com/elpida
Since my mom didn't work last week, we don't have much for groceries. We only got $60, probably alot less now, since a few days back. She has since started working as a cashier again so the pay is definitely not as much. If you want to learn more about my situation, I recommend checking out my previous journals.
For those that know, I've been on a special diet free of gluten, dairy, and soy. This makes it alot more expensive to buy groceries for myself.
Why? Because these things have caused me debilitating symptoms like anxiety and fatigue, especially if eaten often. I haven't gotten officially tested for sensitivity for these but I've noticed improvements to my overall health since then.
I'm in the process of getting some state/gov assistance via a Bridge card so I'm able to purchase certain groceries. A good friend of mine is helping out with the process. They've went through the same thing so it's nice to have someone help with something that can feel overwhelming.
At most, $200 would be enough for now. Depending on how things go, I'm willing to work out a comission deal if someone just straight up donates $150+. Either one full illustration or a sequence or whatnot. I also offer an option for the comm to be private: either for your own enjoyment only or for whatnot
I'm aware that I still owe comissions to others and I'm very sorry for any frustration this whole entire ordeal has been. I want to focus on finishing any remaining comms and YCHs I owe before moving on to artpacks. I have no clue if I'd make any gains from the artpacks (enough for groceries and bills, right now). Instead of making others wait longer, my main goal is to finish up the current comm list. It's been a process trying to improve not only habit/commitment-wise but DEFINITELY health. The past week, I've noticed an improvement on my well-being after getting more than 8 hours of sleep (9 to 10). I don't know if this is due to my natural sleep needs or due to my situation. I likely owe alot of sleep debt. It's allowed me to focus more easily.
Anyhow, whether you're curious about the deal or just want to donate, you can do so via my Ko-Fi. If you want my paypal instead, simply message me and I'll give you the address.
My Ko-fi ☕️ 💵: https://ko-fi.com/elpida
https://ko-fi.com/elpida
https://ko-fi.com/elpida
https://ko-fi.com/elpida
Main goal: Finish All Comms/YCH, and then make an Artpack
Posted 2 years agoSo after talking with someone a week ago, I want to finish all the commissions and YCHs I owe before moving on to releasing another artpack. This is to ensure the relationship between my clients and myself, even if the financial situation on my end makes it really hard to do so when food is scarce.
Thanks to a few generous folks who donated via Ko-fi, I'm able to focus on commission/YCHs, first. At least for this week. After I finish all comms and YCHs, I'm gonna consider what to do with my rates. My hope was to make money through artpacks/comics and keep the comms prices the same, if not slight increases. Something where there's not as much stress over delivering a satisfactory product for each individual while I'm dealing with my fatigue/health. That and/or make money if the ArtStation/LinkedIn thing works out.
I had made the previous comission sheet back when I was still working at my previous job before getting laid off. They prices were made when I had another source of income. Now, I'd have to reconsider.
I am very sorry for those that have been waiting for a long time. I will work on each commission and YCH so I can have the clear consciousness to work on other things.
Thanks to a few generous folks who donated via Ko-fi, I'm able to focus on commission/YCHs, first. At least for this week. After I finish all comms and YCHs, I'm gonna consider what to do with my rates. My hope was to make money through artpacks/comics and keep the comms prices the same, if not slight increases. Something where there's not as much stress over delivering a satisfactory product for each individual while I'm dealing with my fatigue/health. That and/or make money if the ArtStation/LinkedIn thing works out.
I had made the previous comission sheet back when I was still working at my previous job before getting laid off. They prices were made when I had another source of income. Now, I'd have to reconsider.
I am very sorry for those that have been waiting for a long time. I will work on each commission and YCH so I can have the clear consciousness to work on other things.
"Buy now, pay later." option for groceries? VERY DESPERAT...
Posted 2 years agoShould I take out a loan in order to get grocery money? That or use 'buy now/pay later' options (Klarna, Affirm, Zilch, etc).
I wanted to work on and release an artpack involving Nick Wilde getting fat. Even including some brap in it. Maybe charge $10 for a flat-colored 10-page and two illustration packs.
However, someone told me that if I just worked on and published it, those who I owe commissions will either be pissed or worse. However, I can not work on commissions in the current state I'm in. I can not work while I'm risking being malnutrition. My hashimoto's and dairy/gluten/soy sensitivity make it to where I'm struggling more with groceries. I feel like a burden to my family. HOWEVER, I'm not even sure how much I would even make with the artpacks. Would I make enough to cover for groceries for at least three weeks?
I'm trying to set up a professional ArtStation and LinkedIn account so I can hopefully make more money as a freelancer and/or a contractor. That doesn't mean I'm immediately stopping all production here. I don't know how long it'll take until I get a gig. I don't know if I'll even make a good sum. I read that some beggingers would charge $46/hr or $65/hr. But I have no clue if I'm even good enough to charge that much. I'd LOVE to but I feel like if I make myself too expensive, no job would contact me.
I still want to finish the comissions I owe. I still want to even finish up the two YCHs I've yet to finish, long ago. If I did yet another YCH, I'm afraid I'll piss even more people off. There's alot on my plate and I feel like I'm stuck.
I feel like I can't work on commissions confidently without a back-up of finances for the special groceries I need in order to thrive.
I wanted to work on and release an artpack involving Nick Wilde getting fat. Even including some brap in it. Maybe charge $10 for a flat-colored 10-page and two illustration packs.
However, someone told me that if I just worked on and published it, those who I owe commissions will either be pissed or worse. However, I can not work on commissions in the current state I'm in. I can not work while I'm risking being malnutrition. My hashimoto's and dairy/gluten/soy sensitivity make it to where I'm struggling more with groceries. I feel like a burden to my family. HOWEVER, I'm not even sure how much I would even make with the artpacks. Would I make enough to cover for groceries for at least three weeks?
I'm trying to set up a professional ArtStation and LinkedIn account so I can hopefully make more money as a freelancer and/or a contractor. That doesn't mean I'm immediately stopping all production here. I don't know how long it'll take until I get a gig. I don't know if I'll even make a good sum. I read that some beggingers would charge $46/hr or $65/hr. But I have no clue if I'm even good enough to charge that much. I'd LOVE to but I feel like if I make myself too expensive, no job would contact me.
I still want to finish the comissions I owe. I still want to even finish up the two YCHs I've yet to finish, long ago. If I did yet another YCH, I'm afraid I'll piss even more people off. There's alot on my plate and I feel like I'm stuck.
I feel like I can't work on commissions confidently without a back-up of finances for the special groceries I need in order to thrive.
I'm in a really shitty mental state. Feeling shitty.
Posted 2 years agoHey, everyone,
I hope this journal finds you well. Today, I want to open up about something deeply personal and significant that's been happening in my life. As an artist and someone with Asperger's Syndrome (ASD) and Hashimoto's Disease, the recent turn of events has left me feeling overwhelmed and uncertain about the future.
For years, my parents have been considering selling our family home, but it always got delayed. The original plan was to sell it within two years, but fate had different plans for us. Recently, the same job I was laid off from, the one my mom worked at, unexpectedly and without warning, laid off the entire 2nd shift staff. It was a huge blow, and although we saw signs of slowdown, it was still a shock to everyone.
Now, my parents are saying that we have no choice but to sell the house within the next six months. The contingency plan is to move into a mobile home on one of our relative's properties. While I'm thankful for the support of my cousin, I can't help but worry about the challenges that lie ahead.
One of my major concerns is the impact on my privacy, especially if I'm unable to take my PC with me. As an artist, my creative space is essential, and I fear not having enough privacy or the right tools to draw. Moreover, we might have to get rid of the printer/scanner, making it difficult for me to scan my drawings and share them in the same quality. Taking photos is an option, but it's not the same, and uploading larger files online will become a struggle.
On top of that, there's the worry about my health. Since my layoff in February 2023, I've been trying to get on disability due to my health conditions. While I've been doing relatively better than before, there are still times when I feel tired and fatigued. The uncertainty around my health situation only adds to the stress.
The thought of having limited internet access in our new living situation also troubles me. It means I won't be able to stay connected with my internet friends as much, and making money through commissions will become even harder. As an artist, those connections and opportunities are essential for me.
Moving, selling, and downsizing in such a short notice is an emotional rollercoaster. While I can manage with some belongings, it will be particularly tough if I have to let go of my computer, which is vital for my work and personal life.
I'm sharing this because I feel helpless and vulnerable right now. The sudden changes have me freaking out, and I can't help but feel like a pathetic piece of shit, worrying about my future and fearing the worst.
To those who have shown understanding and support during this time, thank you from the bottom of my heart. I am sharing this not to seek pity, but to process my emotions and find strength in knowing that others might have faced similar challenges.
If you have any advice, kind words, or stories to share, please feel free to do so. As an artist, your support means the world to me. Let's hope for better days ahead and keep pushing forward together.
Thank you for reading and being part of my journey.
With love,
Elpida
I hope this journal finds you well. Today, I want to open up about something deeply personal and significant that's been happening in my life. As an artist and someone with Asperger's Syndrome (ASD) and Hashimoto's Disease, the recent turn of events has left me feeling overwhelmed and uncertain about the future.
For years, my parents have been considering selling our family home, but it always got delayed. The original plan was to sell it within two years, but fate had different plans for us. Recently, the same job I was laid off from, the one my mom worked at, unexpectedly and without warning, laid off the entire 2nd shift staff. It was a huge blow, and although we saw signs of slowdown, it was still a shock to everyone.
Now, my parents are saying that we have no choice but to sell the house within the next six months. The contingency plan is to move into a mobile home on one of our relative's properties. While I'm thankful for the support of my cousin, I can't help but worry about the challenges that lie ahead.
One of my major concerns is the impact on my privacy, especially if I'm unable to take my PC with me. As an artist, my creative space is essential, and I fear not having enough privacy or the right tools to draw. Moreover, we might have to get rid of the printer/scanner, making it difficult for me to scan my drawings and share them in the same quality. Taking photos is an option, but it's not the same, and uploading larger files online will become a struggle.
On top of that, there's the worry about my health. Since my layoff in February 2023, I've been trying to get on disability due to my health conditions. While I've been doing relatively better than before, there are still times when I feel tired and fatigued. The uncertainty around my health situation only adds to the stress.
The thought of having limited internet access in our new living situation also troubles me. It means I won't be able to stay connected with my internet friends as much, and making money through commissions will become even harder. As an artist, those connections and opportunities are essential for me.
Moving, selling, and downsizing in such a short notice is an emotional rollercoaster. While I can manage with some belongings, it will be particularly tough if I have to let go of my computer, which is vital for my work and personal life.
I'm sharing this because I feel helpless and vulnerable right now. The sudden changes have me freaking out, and I can't help but feel like a pathetic piece of shit, worrying about my future and fearing the worst.
To those who have shown understanding and support during this time, thank you from the bottom of my heart. I am sharing this not to seek pity, but to process my emotions and find strength in knowing that others might have faced similar challenges.
If you have any advice, kind words, or stories to share, please feel free to do so. As an artist, your support means the world to me. Let's hope for better days ahead and keep pushing forward together.
Thank you for reading and being part of my journey.
With love,
Elpida
Not doing well. Need Groceries.
Posted 2 years agoI got a lot of commissions on my plate, already. I'm also trying to make artpacks that folks can buy but it's been difficult when your stomach is panging from the lack of calories and proper nutrition. I know some of this is my fault but it's been difficult trying to thrive.
If you don't believe me, when it arrives, I'm gonna take a picture of my package of 40 pages of A4 manga paper I plan on using for upcoming artpacks. If I had no intentions of using them, my purchase would be a massive waste of time.
I need to get the records to support me getting social security, on Monday. I'm tired of others denying me while people who are WAY LESS fucked than me get it with ease. Otherwise, I need to plan on selling things.
I still have my traditional paints for sale, including one of my fursona!
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52150084/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52150084/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52150084/
Please consider donating either Ko-Fi or my paypal:
My paypal is g3ndoman[at]gmail.com
https://ko-fi.com/elpida
https://ko-fi.com/elpida
https://ko-fi.com/elpida
https://ko-fi.com/elpida
https://ko-fi.com/elpida
https://ko-fi.com/elpida
If you don't believe me, when it arrives, I'm gonna take a picture of my package of 40 pages of A4 manga paper I plan on using for upcoming artpacks. If I had no intentions of using them, my purchase would be a massive waste of time.
I need to get the records to support me getting social security, on Monday. I'm tired of others denying me while people who are WAY LESS fucked than me get it with ease. Otherwise, I need to plan on selling things.
I still have my traditional paints for sale, including one of my fursona!
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52150084/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52150084/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52150084/
Please consider donating either Ko-Fi or my paypal:
My paypal is g3ndoman[at]gmail.com
https://ko-fi.com/elpida
https://ko-fi.com/elpida
https://ko-fi.com/elpida
https://ko-fi.com/elpida
https://ko-fi.com/elpida
https://ko-fi.com/elpida
