Me: Are you going to the thingie?
Him: What thingie?
Me: The big hard pulsing red thingie.
Him: *blinks 50 times and blushes*
Me: *laughs hysterically*
Him: Uh......
Me: Let's hope it doesn't rain or it'll be really wet.
Him: *blushes more*
Me: *laughs hysterically again*
Him: Oh my.
Me: I have a question.
Him: Oh god, I'm gonna regret this. What is it?
Me: Are you going to come?
Him: *blushes redder than a strawberry*
Me: *laughs hysterically and starts to cry and cramp from laughing*
Him:You are an evil cookie.
Me: *gasping for breath* I..... know......
Me: Did you enjoy riding the wet rapids?
Him: *Blushes and hums "London Brigde is Falling Down"*
Me: I really enjoyed riding the big hard thingie.
Him: *blushes more and starts humming again*
Me: My favorite part was when our rides came together.
Him: *stops breathing for a few seconds and gasps for air, hides face*
Me: *rolls off the bed, holding my sides as my eyes water laughing harder than I ever have in my entire life*

A while back I found a wonderful friend. He was smart, funny, compassionate, and all around great. After a while of being best friends I started to have feelings for him, but was to afraid of getting hurt to say anything. He liked and agreed on just about everything I did. I kept thinking 'He's perfect, just tell him.' but I never could. Being so far away from him was hard with us just being friends, I knew a relationship would never work. So, I gave up on love and happiness. To my suprise he asked me for advice on telling someone he had feelings for them. My heart sank, I wanted to cry. I knew we would never be together once he said that. I slipped up and said I hoped to find a guy like him someday. He said he needed to tell me something, my heart stopped. He sent me a beautiful and lovely poem. This is what he wrote: A strange uncertainty builds within. At the center where my heart once was. Is this it? It can not be so. I can not, yet I do. If it doesn't exist why is it here? Can you see the truth hidden in my eyes? Do you feel the blue beyond the sky? I can say without hesitation it's new. I no longer have to fall and cry. When there's nothing left for me, there's you. I can't hold back what I've never had. But I found something I thought was a lie. Is this it? Must be so. Yes, it feels as if I am. I can, and I am. It's always existed right here. Can you see the truth hidden in my eyes? Do you feel the blus beyond the sky. I can say without hesitation it's new. I no longer have to fall and cry. When there's nothing left for me, there's you. That is the sweetest, most beautiful thing anyone has done for me. I have finally found my happiness, my light in the darkness. I no longer have to face this world alone, no longer must I wander through the pain and darkness of this world. To my wonderful mate I have one simple thing to say. Thank you! You make me smile and laugh when I feel like crying, you helped me keep hope when I wanted to give up. You are the most wonderful, amazing and fantastic person in the world. I'm glad to be you're friend and mate. <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

My internet is going to be disconeccted until I can find a new provider. For the few that talk to me on here I can use my phone to get on but I wont check in as often. Hopefully I will find a new internet provider soon. Have a great Thanksgiving my furry friends. I love you all

Halloween has always been my favorite holiday, not because when your a kid you get candy but because of all the horror, mystery, and everything that we all fear. I love the spooky things that keep us up for hours til the sun rises, makes us afraid to be alone at night, and makes us think that every little bump is a monster or killer coming for us. To bad its almost over v_v but there's always next year ^_^ One of my other favorite things about halloween is seeing all the adorable kids and babies dressed up. They are so cute even when they are trying to be terrifying. I love halloween, its my favorite holiday and needless to say October is my favorite month. Happy Halloween all my horrifyingly wonderful fur friends

After wonderful months of being your's you say we should be friends. I gave you everything I had and you break my heart without feeling anything. I trusted you, loved you, and believed you loved me. I was a fool to think anyone could ever love someone like me. You were everything to me and you left me alone, hurt, broken, and afraid. I love you more than everything and everyone in the universe but I wasn't good enough for you. I never was and never will be. I would do anything to have you back in my life and by my side, but you don't want me anymore. Like every other male human you used me and left me. My heart is broken and can never be healed, I will never love anyone again.

After spending a week being miserable my best friend has everything better. My best friend has now become my boyfriend. ^_^ I am so happy but at the same time really sad about how it happened. I'm glad to be his girlfriend but I still love my ex and I hope we can get back together someday.

I don't expect anyone to read this or any other journals, these are just for me to get my feeling off my chest and not stay bottled up inside.

Anyway I'm happy I'm not alone anymore but I hope Lucca and I can get back together someday. He will always hold my heart.

I feel alone and abandoned, like no one cares. If I died tomorrow, would anyone be hurt? If I kissed someone, would anyone be jealous? I feel unloved and unwanted. I lie awake every night, staring at the ceiling with tears streaming down my face and there's no one to comfort me. I think to myself every day 'no one can love me, I'm to hideous to love.' and I know its true. I feel like everyone would be better off without me. If I ran away no one would miss me, if I died no one would care. I have always been alone, and I always will. Everyone else gets to find love and happiness. All I get to find is misery and sorrow. I am left to wander this world alone, forgotten and tossed aside like a childhood toy. I will be forever alone.

I understand that life isn't suppose to be easy or fair but with all the bad things that has happened to me my entire life, shouldn't I get to be able to see my mate every day? I think I should but life, fate, destiny, God, or whatever you want to call it... moreI understand that life isn't suppose to be easy or fair but with all the bad things that has happened to me my entire life, shouldn't I get to be able to see my mate every day? I think I should but life, fate, destiny, God, or whatever you want to call it has a sick, twisted, fucked up sense of humor and apparently likes to see me suffer and cry myself to sleep every night because I can't be with my mate every day or even every weekend. No, I have to wait a month or longer to see him and once he goes to college it will be even worse. I hate life, fate, destiny, God, karma and whatever else is doing this to me. Why can't something go right for once in my miserable fucking life?!? Why must I suffer so much? I'm sorry, I just needed to get that off my chest. I feels alot better now ^_^