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Posted 11 years agoTHIS IS ONE OF THOSE WEIRD NOSTALGIA JOURNALS. IF YOU'RE ALLERGIC TO SUCH THINGS THEN I SUGGEST YOU LOOK AWAY.
Hey guys. Sorry for disappearing. For almost a year.
...again. Shit has been just so real you don't even know.
As some of you may or may not know, I'm almost done with college (hopefully), and that means most of my time has been spent preparing to, you know. Enter the real world. Job interviews, job fairs, assaulting people at job fairs because they refuse to take my resume, stuff like that. So I haven't had time to write stuff really.
This last semester I barely had time to sleep. I slept at the library almost once a week this semester. It was awful.
Anyways, I don't really know what made me log back on to fA here, now. Today.
I was scrolling through the list of people who are "watching" me right now, and I couldn't help but to notice the number of people whose great art I used to look at late in the night, the muscle hyper fetish fuel that basically inspired me to do what I'm doing, are currently watching me. And I have to take that to mean I don't completely fucking suck at this, right?
Anyways, I was reading through some of my old stuff for, you know, nostalgia, I guess... and it made me remember...
A whole bunch of stuff. I don't know. Writing and submitting my first story here when I was a freshman while my dorm mate was at his girlfriend's for the weekend.
God I have no idea where this is going. At all.
I'm just gonna spiral down to the inevitable conclusion here: I have no idea what I'm gonna be doing with my life in like, 6 months (like many college graduates), and that means I don't know what's gonna happen with all of... this, here. And there are at least three things I want to write before graduation.
I guess I just feel like if I say it here then I'll be honor bound to actually pull through with it, make it happen.
Which brings me to my final point. Two of the things I want to write are very, very much porn related. And I'm sure you're all excited for that. There's one thing that's, not... exactly porn, technically.
Can you tell how hard I'm freaking out right now?
There's this one thing I want to write that's not porn, and I'm going to put it up here. I's just...
It's gonna happen, people. Brace yourselves.
Hey guys. Sorry for disappearing. For almost a year.
...again. Shit has been just so real you don't even know.
As some of you may or may not know, I'm almost done with college (hopefully), and that means most of my time has been spent preparing to, you know. Enter the real world. Job interviews, job fairs, assaulting people at job fairs because they refuse to take my resume, stuff like that. So I haven't had time to write stuff really.
This last semester I barely had time to sleep. I slept at the library almost once a week this semester. It was awful.
Anyways, I don't really know what made me log back on to fA here, now. Today.
I was scrolling through the list of people who are "watching" me right now, and I couldn't help but to notice the number of people whose great art I used to look at late in the night, the muscle hyper fetish fuel that basically inspired me to do what I'm doing, are currently watching me. And I have to take that to mean I don't completely fucking suck at this, right?
Anyways, I was reading through some of my old stuff for, you know, nostalgia, I guess... and it made me remember...
A whole bunch of stuff. I don't know. Writing and submitting my first story here when I was a freshman while my dorm mate was at his girlfriend's for the weekend.
God I have no idea where this is going. At all.
I'm just gonna spiral down to the inevitable conclusion here: I have no idea what I'm gonna be doing with my life in like, 6 months (like many college graduates), and that means I don't know what's gonna happen with all of... this, here. And there are at least three things I want to write before graduation.
I guess I just feel like if I say it here then I'll be honor bound to actually pull through with it, make it happen.
Which brings me to my final point. Two of the things I want to write are very, very much porn related. And I'm sure you're all excited for that. There's one thing that's, not... exactly porn, technically.
Can you tell how hard I'm freaking out right now?
There's this one thing I want to write that's not porn, and I'm going to put it up here. I's just...
It's gonna happen, people. Brace yourselves.
Has it really been TWO YEARS since I've written something?
Posted 12 years agoI should seriously, like, write something.
God, I have stuff that I want to say, but I have no idea how I should say it.
So here goes. Lately I've been feeling really, bummed out about the path I chose in college (it's a science based path, rather than anything focused on art or writing or creativity), and I really like, miss writing.
And this is where it gets a little weird. The whole reason I stopped writing was because I was ashamed, for a couple of reasons. First off (obviously) I was ashamed because all of the stuff I ended up writing was just, pure masturbation fuel. Like, no depth of any kind beyond that. Second, I was ashamed because all of the stuff I DID write that was supposed to have meaning was just fucking terrible. Like, just pure, stereotypic garbage. So I kind of drew into myself, and stopped writing.
But, BUT! I had a really big series of... "events", I guess they were, that made me feel a lot better about who I am and what I do.
I'm just a guy who writes for the sake of the medium. I don't want or care about being acknowledged as a "writer" or an "artist", and I don't care about making a statement of any kind. I just want to write little short stories full of furries and pokemon and muscles and dicks and balls, for no other reason than there aren't enough of those out there. It's what I want to do, and if people can enjoy them half as much as I do then that's fucking awesome.
So, sorry to keep you guys waiting.
God, I have stuff that I want to say, but I have no idea how I should say it.
So here goes. Lately I've been feeling really, bummed out about the path I chose in college (it's a science based path, rather than anything focused on art or writing or creativity), and I really like, miss writing.
And this is where it gets a little weird. The whole reason I stopped writing was because I was ashamed, for a couple of reasons. First off (obviously) I was ashamed because all of the stuff I ended up writing was just, pure masturbation fuel. Like, no depth of any kind beyond that. Second, I was ashamed because all of the stuff I DID write that was supposed to have meaning was just fucking terrible. Like, just pure, stereotypic garbage. So I kind of drew into myself, and stopped writing.
But, BUT! I had a really big series of... "events", I guess they were, that made me feel a lot better about who I am and what I do.
I'm just a guy who writes for the sake of the medium. I don't want or care about being acknowledged as a "writer" or an "artist", and I don't care about making a statement of any kind. I just want to write little short stories full of furries and pokemon and muscles and dicks and balls, for no other reason than there aren't enough of those out there. It's what I want to do, and if people can enjoy them half as much as I do then that's fucking awesome.
So, sorry to keep you guys waiting.
Did Ya Miss Me? A Brief Explanation of my Absence
Posted 12 years agoI bet you did.
Anyways, I suppose I owe all of you some sort of explanation for my absence of... like over a year.
Well, it first started out as a break to deal with school work, because that was piling up. Then it turned into my stupid dorm-mate deciding he didn't want to go to class ever so I never had any privacy with which to craft my special stories. Then it turned into a sort of shame spiral because the only thing I was ever writing was embarassingly specific furry porn, and that made me feel that I wasn't a good writer.
So I tool a break. Took a creative writing class (since I'm in college and it counts as a general art credit), wrote some stuff that wasn't just furry porn.
Learned to play the drums. Started a band, wrote some songs, disbanded due to the main guitarist being to "apathetic". Which is bullshit, but you know.
Took up drawing again (if you didn't know, I used to draw in high school, but then my High School art teacher was like "You suck. Just go do something else". So that killed art dreams I had way back when. But I picked it up again.
Tried to draw comics, but that didn't really work out so well because I have no idea how to draw comics.
Got an internship studying quazars over the summer. Recorded some low-fi cover songs. Started writing my own music. Dated a girl for a while, but then she moved out to Boston. We tried to do the long distance thing, but it just didn't work out.
Got banned from a small video game retailer here in town. That was a fun experience.
And that pretty much leads us to here, today. That's what I've been up to.
Now, the sad-ish part. I don't have any plans on writing any erotica anytime soon. Or anything for that matter. See, I'm actually really absorbed in writing my music and trying to draw comics/cartoons right now, and I don't have an unlimited amount of time. That doesn't mean I won't write something soon, it just means that, unless I encounter something that is just SO HOT I CAN'T HELP BUT TO WRITE ABOUT IT BEFORE MY DICK EXPLODES FROM PRESSURE, then I don't forsee myself writing anytime soon.
Stay beautiful, guys.
Anyways, I suppose I owe all of you some sort of explanation for my absence of... like over a year.
Well, it first started out as a break to deal with school work, because that was piling up. Then it turned into my stupid dorm-mate deciding he didn't want to go to class ever so I never had any privacy with which to craft my special stories. Then it turned into a sort of shame spiral because the only thing I was ever writing was embarassingly specific furry porn, and that made me feel that I wasn't a good writer.
So I tool a break. Took a creative writing class (since I'm in college and it counts as a general art credit), wrote some stuff that wasn't just furry porn.
Learned to play the drums. Started a band, wrote some songs, disbanded due to the main guitarist being to "apathetic". Which is bullshit, but you know.
Took up drawing again (if you didn't know, I used to draw in high school, but then my High School art teacher was like "You suck. Just go do something else". So that killed art dreams I had way back when. But I picked it up again.
Tried to draw comics, but that didn't really work out so well because I have no idea how to draw comics.
Got an internship studying quazars over the summer. Recorded some low-fi cover songs. Started writing my own music. Dated a girl for a while, but then she moved out to Boston. We tried to do the long distance thing, but it just didn't work out.
Got banned from a small video game retailer here in town. That was a fun experience.
And that pretty much leads us to here, today. That's what I've been up to.
Now, the sad-ish part. I don't have any plans on writing any erotica anytime soon. Or anything for that matter. See, I'm actually really absorbed in writing my music and trying to draw comics/cartoons right now, and I don't have an unlimited amount of time. That doesn't mean I won't write something soon, it just means that, unless I encounter something that is just SO HOT I CAN'T HELP BUT TO WRITE ABOUT IT BEFORE MY DICK EXPLODES FROM PRESSURE, then I don't forsee myself writing anytime soon.
Stay beautiful, guys.
DUDES! I'M FRESH OUT OF IDEAS! HELP!
Posted 13 years agoOkay. So, over the next few days I'm going to have A LOT of free time before classes start back up again. And I would like to finish another story for our mutual pleasure.
But I am TOTALLY OUT OF IDEAS! I mean, I have some "scenes" worked out that I enjoy (mostly because my penis tells me so), but nothing that has any actual plot.
So, this is your chance, everyone! If YOU have something you wanted to see me do, just let me know. If it's hot enough, I'll totally do it. For free! No strings attached!
So get crackin' everyone!
But I am TOTALLY OUT OF IDEAS! I mean, I have some "scenes" worked out that I enjoy (mostly because my penis tells me so), but nothing that has any actual plot.
So, this is your chance, everyone! If YOU have something you wanted to see me do, just let me know. If it's hot enough, I'll totally do it. For free! No strings attached!
So get crackin' everyone!
Hey watchers. I have a question:
Posted 14 years agoOkay, so as many of you may or may not be aware, I am a furry (no duh...)
But, being a furry, I feel like I should have, like, some sort of fursona. Because then you could all associate that creature to me, and the world would just be so much better and more colorful if that were to happen.
But the thing is, I have no idea what creature I would be, and I honestly don't think I care (as long as it's not an insect of some kind. I hate bugs...)
So, I want to ask you all: Based on the very, very limited interactions we've had over the internet, if you were to place me as a species of animal, what would it be?
I'm just trying to do this to like, get an idea of what my fursona would be, so I could like, actually start to squeeze my way into the furry community.
Like a jumping off point. I need a jumping off point.
So, to reiterate, what animal do I most remind you of based on our minimal interactions (And, if you've read them, my writings?)
Also, as soon as I decide on a species for this, then I'll be putting up a new story, since it's been a while. That's called incentive.
Consequentially, second prize is a blow to the chops.
I shall await your reply.
But, being a furry, I feel like I should have, like, some sort of fursona. Because then you could all associate that creature to me, and the world would just be so much better and more colorful if that were to happen.
But the thing is, I have no idea what creature I would be, and I honestly don't think I care (as long as it's not an insect of some kind. I hate bugs...)
So, I want to ask you all: Based on the very, very limited interactions we've had over the internet, if you were to place me as a species of animal, what would it be?
I'm just trying to do this to like, get an idea of what my fursona would be, so I could like, actually start to squeeze my way into the furry community.
Like a jumping off point. I need a jumping off point.
So, to reiterate, what animal do I most remind you of based on our minimal interactions (And, if you've read them, my writings?)
Also, as soon as I decide on a species for this, then I'll be putting up a new story, since it's been a while. That's called incentive.
Consequentially, second prize is a blow to the chops.
I shall await your reply.
So, you know what I hate?
Posted 14 years agoPEOPLE LOOKING OVER THE DIVIDER BETWEEN THE SHOWERS IN MY DORM'S BATHROOM.
YOU ALL KNOW THAT THERE'S A SMALL, NAKED, SOAPY GUY ON THE OTHER SIDE. SO STOP DOING THAT.
ALSO, STOP HAVING WEIRD RAP BATTLES WHILE YOU'RE SHOWERING. IT'S SO WRONG AND DISTURBING. OR, FAILING THIS, AT LEAST LEARN TO RAP. DON'T JUST KEEP REPEATING THE PHRASE "I'm Dirty Dan!" OVER AND OVER GETTING LOUDER AND MORE GUIDO-ISH EACH TIME. THAT IS NOT RAP IT IS JUST BALLS.
ALSO ALSO, STOP MEDIATING THE RAP BATTLES WHEN THEY INVOLVE PEOPLE IN THE SHOWERS THAT ARE TOO FAR AWAY TO TALK TO EACH OTHER DIRECTLY. IT IS SUPER ANNOYING AND IS PREVENTING ME FROM READING AGNES GREY.
YOU ALL KNOW THAT THERE'S A SMALL, NAKED, SOAPY GUY ON THE OTHER SIDE. SO STOP DOING THAT.
ALSO, STOP HAVING WEIRD RAP BATTLES WHILE YOU'RE SHOWERING. IT'S SO WRONG AND DISTURBING. OR, FAILING THIS, AT LEAST LEARN TO RAP. DON'T JUST KEEP REPEATING THE PHRASE "I'm Dirty Dan!" OVER AND OVER GETTING LOUDER AND MORE GUIDO-ISH EACH TIME. THAT IS NOT RAP IT IS JUST BALLS.
ALSO ALSO, STOP MEDIATING THE RAP BATTLES WHEN THEY INVOLVE PEOPLE IN THE SHOWERS THAT ARE TOO FAR AWAY TO TALK TO EACH OTHER DIRECTLY. IT IS SUPER ANNOYING AND IS PREVENTING ME FROM READING AGNES GREY.
To All of My Glourious Watchers
Posted 14 years agoSo, many of you may have noticed that I haven't been writing anything for the past few weeks. The reason for that is that school's been really, really hectic lately, and combine that with Spring Break and, well...
You all can understand why I haven't had the time to log on lately, right?
Well, a few days ago I finally had time to like, write and stuff, and log on and all of that good stuff.
And I have like, 20 new watchers since I got on, and many more favorites besides that.
And I'm really sorry to say that while I was gawking at my new found sense of popularity, I kind of accidentally nuked all of my new watchers.
I really, really wanted to like, personally thank all of you (after all, it's you people I'm doing this for, as well as myself), but I don't want to go through the arduous process of like, actually finding the list of watchers and thanking them that way. It's just too time consuming.
Anyways, I'm really sorry I can't thank you all personally, but just know that I really, really wanted to. And it's really the thought that counts.
You all can understand why I haven't had the time to log on lately, right?
Well, a few days ago I finally had time to like, write and stuff, and log on and all of that good stuff.
And I have like, 20 new watchers since I got on, and many more favorites besides that.
And I'm really sorry to say that while I was gawking at my new found sense of popularity, I kind of accidentally nuked all of my new watchers.
I really, really wanted to like, personally thank all of you (after all, it's you people I'm doing this for, as well as myself), but I don't want to go through the arduous process of like, actually finding the list of watchers and thanking them that way. It's just too time consuming.
Anyways, I'm really sorry I can't thank you all personally, but just know that I really, really wanted to. And it's really the thought that counts.
It's a First Journal!
Posted 14 years agoSo, um... hey, everyone.
How's it goin'? How is everyone?
Well, since I feel like I'm fairly acclimated to the site and everything, I wanted to ask you guys and gals (as the case may be) what you wanted to see in like, my stuff or whatever.
Things like hyper vs. inflation, gender preferences, the number of people involved (because honestly I've never thought about more than two), if pokemon is okay, or if you guys wanna see like, more straight up furry stuff.
After all, I aim to please with this, sexual undertone intended XD.
So, yeah... lemme know if you have like, a preference, or whatever. 'Cause to be truly honest, I am entirely out of ideas right now. Like, I'm working with some stuff, but it's just not quite... "there" yet. And maybe I'll like your idea even more, or something. Or it'll give me the one thing that I need to finish the idea, make it complete. And then I'll post it. Because that's how the internet works, from what I understand.
I honestly have no idea what I'm saying, or who I'm saying it to, or whatever. Can you tell I don't do this regularly?
How's it goin'? How is everyone?
Well, since I feel like I'm fairly acclimated to the site and everything, I wanted to ask you guys and gals (as the case may be) what you wanted to see in like, my stuff or whatever.
Things like hyper vs. inflation, gender preferences, the number of people involved (because honestly I've never thought about more than two), if pokemon is okay, or if you guys wanna see like, more straight up furry stuff.
After all, I aim to please with this, sexual undertone intended XD.
So, yeah... lemme know if you have like, a preference, or whatever. 'Cause to be truly honest, I am entirely out of ideas right now. Like, I'm working with some stuff, but it's just not quite... "there" yet. And maybe I'll like your idea even more, or something. Or it'll give me the one thing that I need to finish the idea, make it complete. And then I'll post it. Because that's how the internet works, from what I understand.
I honestly have no idea what I'm saying, or who I'm saying it to, or whatever. Can you tell I don't do this regularly?
