It was a good thing I did stay, but I do feel a bit sad that the con is over, but I do feel that there will always be another time. Alas, one would say that there will never be a tomorrow, and that it will never be the same. One could say that the time here could be the best, and the next year could be bad or it could be the last year. So it is that little bit of uncertainty that could make you sad, but know that if there is no news going on that would bring down the con, you can see that there will be another year, whether or not mother nature or even a virus can stop it.
In what was done today, I did attend the annual Coffee Homebrew and International Snack Exchange to have little bits of talk with remaining attendees that are there. Thankfully, I was able to connect with a few local furs in NorCal and got either a discord or even telegram. For Hiss and Purr, there were a bit of jeer about the parade and masking, but they will improve, but basically, there are praises. In the time I had to wait for Dead Dog to start, I did dance to a local song that is synonym to the cultural center of the Bay Area-Tony Bennett’s “I left my heart in San Francisco” as many things are happening-he’s retiring from singing and has dementia, and that Union Bank is merging with US Bank. Hopefully after edits, you will like.

NOw to tell you that if you are a commuting attendee, and want to be economical, I will highly recommend Motel 6 at 2560 Fontaine Rd. in San Jose, CA. It was OK, and though there was a bit of smoking and the flood was a bit scary, it did not reach my room on ground floor. So if you want to go to FC, and don't mind the commute, here is where you go: https://www.motel6.com/en/home/mote.....jose.9608.html And it is close to Chuck E. Cheese!

Well, I will be at Dead Dog, I will journal one final time after I dance the night away... Stay tuned!

Went to Fists of Improv to enjoy how to act like Wayne Brady. Though I was not participating, I did get a good way of educating myself to try to think quick on how to perfom unscripted- something that Brady does so perfectly when he hosts "Let's Make a Deal" on the American channel, CBS: https://www.cbs.com/shows/lets_make_a_deal/ . Evan Johnathan Magnum and Tiffany Coyne would be naturals as well!

Initially, I was going to the AAE meeting, but I feel that I should change my schedule. Instead, I went to the Mindfulness and Meditation panel hosted by Kannik the Lynx: https://twitter.com/LynxThoughts . He's not just for Tai Chi and even martial arts, but also a great adviser and counselor for relaxation. Of course, I still feel the sting about my aunt's passing just a little, but it was more of FurCon winding down and I was feeling sad already. Kannik did give a good example for these things I have and he said that it's good to have pain and sadness, but NEVER good to have suffering from it. For that, he did give a lot of lecture, but the one give away is that if you have something in your mind, do meditate and think that it will pass-if you have a block in your way, clear it up with your slow breathing in meditation. You can see more from this Sunnyvale, CA fur on his website: https://www.canadianwilds.org/ . He was a fine person, and after the con is over, I will see him again soon.

Thereafter, I had fun with Clicker Training, and I had seen that if you are trying to act out something to one that guesses, you would want to use the clicker to say that is the way! Same as dogs- so if you get the clicker, try it for the performer to do what the scene is supposed to be! It was fun, I did record a few vids, and if you want to see some that have gone more than 10 minutes to guess what the scene should be and have a laugh, let me know! Nope, I will not use YouTube this time.

In the same room, I did get a little bit of FurScience & Psychology. I did cut it short, but as it is just a little bit of multiculturality, the FF'dom is welcome to all, but there is still a dominant white population everywhere. The main problem is the transgender ones as they do feel a little bit of shunning within the FF'dom, and it is not direct all the time, but the group does notice and feels it.

I happen to leave that panel to see FC: Unleashed!, it was all singing this talent show con, but what was incredible was that the suiter named Chester (  fabgeroo ) was the winner for singing opera from "Carmen." BRAVO, BRAVISSIMO! The Iron Artist in between, there was a charity bid for an art that was for $500+! With that, the local charity that FC was doing was Muttville, a shelter that saves old dogs and keeps them from being euthanized: https://muttville.org/ (Twitter: https://twitter.com/Muttville ) For this con, the attendees have raised a sensational amount of $17,457.35! WE CARE A LOT!
In the closing, there was the fursuit parade numbers-in the preliminary, it was a record and it was EYE POPPING FOR ME-MORE THAN 980 FURSUITERS ATTENDED THE FURSUIT PARADE!! SO, THE TOTAL ATTENDANCE WOULD BE THROUGH THE ROOF TOO!!

Thereafter, it was me going to the stand-up comedian, and there wasn't much laughs, but somehow, I did help him in doing swag distribution! So this would be a little volunteer I did! (Though, I was actually picked and have no other choice to do the distribution!)
I was about to go to the Dating Game show, but in seeing that the contestants were all men, and there were very few women, I decided to not participate. I was waiting for some fursuiters like  pineapplefoxeh, Pizza Shep ( rumwolf) and  NosHyena. I never saw them before I went to dancing a little earlier than 22:30 PM. Little did I know that while I was away, I was storing my fursuit Cory away, but it was a major change-now I cannot do it anymore because they do not want to have liabilities to having my box be in the fursuit lounge. I was able to fursuit, but I had to get it at Con Ops. And, I did try it to go dancing, but near the end, they don't want me to do that. I was resting a bit and was putting away my lightbox: https://twitter.com/alandcory/statu.....84953933893632 , they representative for the lounge said to remove it. I did, but when I was taking it to the dance, it ended!! I had to go to the bathroom to de-suit.

Despite of the blunder, it was a great day for me and I had good fun! Of course, there was rain, and  Gale_Frostbane in her Twitter said that she loved the con, BUT THE ONLY THING THOUGH THAT WAS BAD, was that the associated weather made the con humid and the suits were very wet! : https://twitter.com/NexusFolf/statu.....04919013498880 I can agree, if it were that the rain was not on, then it would have been better, and what was worse was that there were no more of those fans with tubing to make faster drying of a fursuit head available-it is related to the current COVID situation. Anyway, as I'm a commuting fursuiter, I can go ahead and leave the fursuit parts in the Motel 6 Restroom with a ceiling exhaust fan to wick away the moisture. It did help with my fullsuit! Today in the wee hours of MLK Day, I will do this again to have the parts dry.

Well, that is the end of day 4. I will attend the last day despite that there is a light schedule, but I will continue uploads of fursuit pics I got during the con before Dead Dog starts, but I will do a personal dance if the convention center lets me do so, and will take a nap as on average, I sleep for 4-5 hours! So I will get that 6-2-1 (AT LEAST) rule in play for the last day, and I will make the last day count! Until then, for those staying for the last 4 events on MLK day, I hope to see you then- let's make the final goodbye to Furcon a memorable one, and have great memories of the good things that the con had brought despite of what Gale brought up as a blunder for us fursuiters.

If you have not left yet, I'll see you around!!
Help me in not crying because the con has ended and that you all will return and keep in contact with me when the con ends! (I'm such a baby!)

It is a good day really. I will say to those who are watching me and are either representatives of a con or a regular con attendee, if you do want to be fit, you will want to think about lobbying the con chairs to try and schedule an exercise panel at least once. YOU WILL PREVENT YOURSELF FROM BEING OVERWEIGHT SIGNIFICANTLY. The panel on exercise, Silk and Steel was fun, and I did manage to get relaxed and burn calories. The good thing is that this is Tai Chi, and I have been doing it for many years at a con, and I have been praised by others that I did well… in my Cory fursuit-this my first time ever! One other thing here is that few weeks ago, I did do yoga, so it did prepare me to be more fluid for what was coming. I will do more yoga when the con ends. There is also Qi Gong-it lowers blood pressure a LOT, and you would want to do it if you are hypertensious. Since I do have a book on yoga, well, let me in the future teach it at a con!

Thereafter, I did participate fullsuit in the Fursuit Parade. I did have my lightbox with me, and the theme on it while there are heavy downpours in the San Francisco Bay Area, I put, “DON’T LET RAIN STOP US!” It was wet outside and the whole parade was inside. I was in the front holding that lightbox in the front so to give the audience some recognition that we have the brains to make the con experiences be well NO MATTER WHAT NATURE THROWS AT US, esp., if there is a risk of a flood or earthquake that is quite serious, BUT NOT DAMAGING. The lightbox I have is something to see and think about as it is important to have the FF’dom alive and well in any place.

To continue with the parade, there was a picture at the END. The picture was not held in the main auditorium, believe it or not! However, it was managed well, and in the parade and picture, it was mind-blowing; there were MORE AND MORE attendees coming in, and I predict that it will be the largest FC EVER as there were more fursuiters coming in! The photo was no problem, hopefully, but I will see on their Twitter.

After a bit of rest, I did see the meet up for California furries. Of course, I was already in, but it was for newbies on info on what is going on regionally. If you want to know what regions there are here is the list of fur areas:

Inland Empire
San Bernadino
High Desert
San Diego
LA metro
Central Valley (Not including places north of Merced)
Central Coast
SF Bay Area
Sacramento metro
Chico area
Redding/Red Bluff area
Far NorCal (Jefferson) area

If you live in these areas or are going to move to them, the groups are happy to have you around, and they can help you in moving. It was not too much activity there in my SFBAF group, but I made do of the quiet opportunity.
After, I did see Masha and the Swingin’ tails, and though I was uploading pics to FA, I was listening, and I enjoyed the music.
I did have to rush to see the FC Dance comp, and I liked it. Awtter came in third, Rahne (not Helo) came in Second, and a pair of black striped blue cats by Kip and NotKip came in first. I took a photo of the winners! There was honorable mention of one suiter who goes by the name of “Not Fluke”! And ironically, Fluke Husky was a judge! He was in a bit of fun with him, but if you were there, he did feel offended by the name, the similar look of this fursuiter, and he wore a cardboard crown to intimidate and imitate him!

I was going to Night Market, but it was a new thing here in FC-the line was nearly a block long and it exited the con space for those to attend the pron themed merch there and the “Anything Goes” dances!! There were some that were nearly naked, and there were pups, there was rap and other music by the DJ’s, and many other horny stuff! I did not have a clue until the standard overnight dance ended, but WOW, that was spicy!
The thing was, I did not get into that line, and decided to just wait it out by taking fursuit pictures and even looking for prolific fursuiters. I was able to dance in the standard overnight Dance in fullsuit. BUT I will confess, with a few fursuiters, I actually danced with the same sex!*
After the dance ended, I did go to the Night Market, but I did not want to get too comfortable with the lewd despite that I had lewdness go on, but I did want to be a bit clean for another time.
So that is it for the day, I hope to see what Sunday will bring!

*: I have to note, if it is that I would dance in fullsuit, I CAN DANCE WITH MALES AS LONG AS THEY DO NOT KNOW ME, I AM STRAIGHT, AND IT WILL BE KEPT THAT WAY. If it were me in fullsuit, I will do, BUT NOT IN PARTIAL OR COMPLETELY OUT OF SUIT. I want to be remaining anonymous as much as possible if the same sex wants to dance with me and rub the pubic area a bit with consent. If it does go to the next level, I will refuse. PLEASE NO ALCOHOL! I did enjoy the time, and I will not want to list who is the ones that danced with me, but please, if it is that you bring this up on other social media, I will block and shun you! Let what happened in the con STAY in the con. It will be the only time I bring this up, but I will not say it again if I dance with males again. I will hope that I will dance with a female as I might have learned how to dance with a partner, but let me keep being straight-I want to be a biological father. If it is friends with benefits and no ass involved, I have to trust you enough for that and respect my boundaries. Anyway, I have enjoyed the dances, but I will not do it often, and I want others to respect me as a being that knows what he wants- to be in a husband-and-wife family. I'll keep searching for that perfect woman (longshot!) that likes me who I am and respects me to the very end when we marry in church. Thank you!

So far I'm enjoying myself after having to endure a long time away from being at the convention. The main thing I'd like to do here this year, is to try to make more friends while at FC.
To bring up that I missed doing a journal for yesterday, I did miss the first con I wanted to go to, Archives of Furry. Oh well. But, I did get to have a bit of fun on hypnosis. Really, it does work, and it does relax you. I will tell you even if you are sitting on the floor with knees bent up and hands on your knees, you will be entranced. You will be in a lot of relaxation that you can lose control of your arms on your knees! If you ever try to get entranced by hypnosis, make sure you have your back against the wall if you want to be sitting on your floor being hypnotized so you don't tip over! Still, the hypnotist will tell you to keep control of yourself while you're under his control.

ABOVE ALL, EVEN IF THERE IS LEWD INVOLVED, DO GET OR GIVE CONSENT IF YOU WANT TO BE IN A TRANCE OR HAVE SOMEONE BE IN A TRANCE! IN AMERICA'S GOT TALENT, GERMAPHOBE HOWIE MANDEL WAS HYPNOTIZED:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q0cDh7NjhRo

HE WAS SO SCARED AND SHOCKED AFTER SEEING THIS THAT HE IMMEDIATELY WASHED HIS HANDS MANY TIMES OVER AND WAS VERY MAD.

PLEASE, PLEASE, HAVE CONSENT.

I was able to go to the opening ceremony, and thereafter, I was able to have fun making friends in the associated panel, How to Make Friends at Cons. The presenter wanted to be friends with me, and I did accept! After, I danced.


Today, as it is the unluckiest day in a month if you believe in superstitions (I do believe!), I did go to the 8 panels I had interest in, though I did get to sleep in one, I managed to listen.
I got my exercise at the Furry Boxing Workout despite that I was late after I had to go to the bank and eat breakfast. I did at some point want to change to a more comfortable workout attire, and it was the last minute. Because of the pandemic, I did lose my touch in agility, but I will regain it, I believe! I got through whatever I can do despite some mistakes.

It was a short time meeting with Bay Area Furs Telegram in the Meet and Greet-I did cut it short because I wanted to see Fursuiting 101 with  Gale_Frostbane. What was incredible, was that a huge majority of fursuiters that were there are from the East, and they made their appearance to FC some for the first time, especially  Jibbin_Kodiyak And  JFETspeaks! WOW!! Imagine all the pictures I have taken these fursuiters in this group! at first the room was really packed, but there was a room transfer, and everyone got in, and we had a great time. Do I mean a great time - those suiters attacked Gale and pulled off her shoes and lots of craziness ensued, the got the sock to levitate!! The day before, I was able to get her husband  Strobes- it was a surprise, because I didn't see him on his Twitter account say that he was going to attend further confusion! I got a great picture out of him! if you have seen it already on Twitter, is there with a Christmas tree still standing-, but at least it shows that he likes the holiday- Gale LOVED my photo of him!
I hope to find her in her suit, but also, she is a coyote.

After, it is Fur the Grey-We Ain't Old Yet! Learned that the FF'dom is getting older but I did hear about the average age of it: 28.9 years old, and it will be older soon. NOw, there is the instance that furs are saying that if you are at a certain age in the Fandom, you should leave.

NO!!!

You can still be at age 70 and enjoy the FF'dom! Although as you age, it can be a little challenging as the FF'dom is more to the younger generation, you should keep mingling with your peers at your age, but you will have to try and acclimate with what the cons and the arts are showing as it tends to be with the young gens. Put it as a way to say that it keeps you young, if you know what I mean, and DON'T FEEL ALIENATED, KEEP MAINTAINING EXISTING YOUNG FRIENDSHIPS, AND MAKE NEW ONES WITH YOUNGER GENERATIONS SO THE HISTORY OF THE FF'DOM WILL NOT BE LOST IF YOU HAVE TO TEACH THEM ABOUT IT.

Had attended Speed Dating, and after 7 talks, I was having a headache. I was really an introvert. But I was able to meet many within the West Coast. There was just a few in the Rocky Mountains States and Eastward attending this panel, but I got to have more practice in talking. Heck, I saw an FC attendee who lives in the Santa Cruz, CA area for the FIFTH time! He's an artist and fursuit maker who is a raptor with feathers.

The next one was unexpectedly huge, Who is Grimace? Notable McDonald's character who is violet/purple colored and is like a blob-he's strong and a bit dim witted, and regards Ronald McDonald as his superior. Some say he's from Ireland and he inflates with milkshakes! He does get grumpy at times, but milkshakes are what calms him down. Well, we do not know what species Grimace is, but this is from me- if you look at his mouth, I would imagine that he would be a porpoise with legs. Do take my hypothesis with a grain of salt, but it is valid! Don't be surprised that this panel will be showing again at another con, it was at MWFurfest, and I would imagine that there was A LOT of attendees there!

Then, I did go to Vore/Micro-Macro Meetup. I did see a dragon there that likes to attack! If you follow my YouTube, I did see him in 2015 roaring at the laptop that records the Fursuit Parade. Funny!
Lastly before I go to dancing, I did see How to Garden. It was useful esp, when I do compost. So I will have to watch my fertilizer and compost to see how the ground is. I do have a clay ground and my family is trying to grow avocados, but this panel did give me insight on how plants compete with each other, and how to grow them effectively.

Well, this journal was done before I go to dances! On a persona note, I have been using smartphone to take fursuit pictures instead of using the Canon Elph digital camera. It was yesterday I took pictures on SM, and when the con was over, I hurriedly returned home to to get the Canon Elph battery charger-it was dead, but I again today have a dead battery. So to note to myself, Denver Akita who is Jake TT Tiger was the last fursuiter I got today on the Elph, then it was from here on, Peche (Eclair) and  kodi_pup. I should keep this in mind. Better upload today before I forget!

Anyways, time to dance, see you morrow! (We're actually in tomorrow, it is 00:21 PST Saturday 14. You will NEVER reach morrow, as it is the from dawn the next day until night.)

Well now, this is interesting because I was in a little bit of complicated actions, but finally, I get to have a schedule set for myself. Of course, it's not set in stone, and things can change. The thing that will happen here is that, I might have a tough time having to schedule personal time to eat, that I will try to squeeze in. So, if you are at FC, this is my schedule :

Friday 13
Furry boxing workout 10-12:30
Bay Area Furries Meet and Greet 12:30-13
Fursuiting 101 13-14:30
Fur the Grey 15-16:30
Lunch 16-16:30 (or 17)
Open Mic (17-17:30 optional)
Speed Dating 17:30-19:00
About Grimace 19-20:30
Vore/Macro meets 20:30-21:30
Gardening 21:30-22:30
Dance 22:30-1:00 Saturday

Saturday 14
Silk and steel 11-12:30
Fursuit Parade and photo 12:30-14
Cali furs meet and greet 14:30-16
Lunch 16-17
Masha / swingin tails 17-18
Fursuit dance comp 18-20
Night Market 20-21 or Art show
Dance 21-1 next day
Night Market 1-2 next day


Sunday 15
Fists of Improv 11-12:30
AAE public Board meeting 13:00-14:30 OR Survivifur FC 2023 13-15
Clicker Training 15-16:30
Furry psych 17-18
FC-U! 18-20
What the Luck?! 20-21
Find my furry mate 21-22:30
Dance 22:30-1:00 next day

Monday 16
Coffee homebrew 101 11-12:30
Int’l snack exchange 13-14:30
Hiss and Purr 15-16
Lunch 16-17
Personal dance 17-18
Free/unorganized 18-19
Dead Dog/ closing 19-23
Final preps 23-1
Leave 1:00

Yes, I did include the 13th-it passed. Just wanted to copy and paste everything. Anyway if you're there, hope to see you there!

Well now, time to make an obligatory meme for FC 2022! I did recycle what I did for 2020 and put it here. Here, you will see something different - a LONG list of fursuit attendees. I did make something, if I can get at least ½ of them on camera, then my visit is complete. I did compile the list based on what I found on Twitter; the PROMINENTLY show it on their name! If you're on this list let me know. And do tell wherever you will be and if you want to have your pictures taken by me. Hope to see you there!


Days staying:
Arriving January 12 around 16:00 (4 pm )ish. I finally see the wisdom in arriving a day early!
Staying till Mon 1/16 after Dead Dog.

Staying at:
Motel 6 at Fontaine Ave.- where Chuck E. Cheese is located

How are you traveling?
Driving-I live just 25 miles away from the con

Who are you rooming with?
NONE EXPECTED-planned on rooming alone.

Who will you be with?
New friends, old friends, anybody, everybody!

Where will you be?
All over the map. Socializing in random places. Hanging out till the wee hours. The Dances. Roaming the hallways. Anyplace with coffee!

How is the best way to find you?
Will be open on FA notes or journal, even Twitter, Ferzu, Telegram and going to activate my Discord. Note me for my accounts! Likely at the Hilton or Marriott lobbies.

What do you look like?
Fursuit: a white wolf with red eyes and nose. Pawpads are pink on hands and indoor feet.
RL: light brown with black, short curly hair, brown eyes and can be a bit introverted and likely solo.

What is your gender?
Guy (PRONOUNS: He/him)

Are you mated/in a relationship?
No-Single. I would love to be in a hetero relationship. If I find you or you find me appealing, don't hesitate to talk to me!

How tall are you?
6'3"

Can I talk to you?
Of course!

Can I hug and/or snuggle you?
Usually, I can't turn them down! Do ask first!

Are you nice?
YES!

Are you cliquey?
Nope.

Are you fursuiting?
CERTAINLY! I will have hours of fursuiting provided on a journal with my schedule on FA-look for me!

Which suit(s) will you be bringing?
Cory Markham Flugelschmidt-Kooser, of course! (Yep, this is his full name.)

Can I try on your suit?
Please, no. I'm going to be a commuting fursuiter, and I will not likely wash it much. IF you successfully beg me to wear and promise to take care of it and bring it back to me, keep in mind of this warning if I forget to bring Febreeze.

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Yell "CORY!!"(<<Preferably when I wear him) or "EXCELSIOR!" Or even 'ALFRED!"

Do you take commissions?
I don't art, but I may start to since I will have some free time after the convention to do.

Dealers den?
I'll be there, checking stuff out.

Can I draw in your sketchbook?
I will bring one!

Can we hang out?
Sure! I can be social, but I may be quiet sometimes. Help me get rid of my shyness and have me be more extroverted!

Can I talk to you?
Of course! Please do! I am always up for meeting new people and hanging with friends! Please feel free to come up and say hello!
I do warn as Cory is more into vore-I may strike at you and bite!

Where will you be eating?
I do not know yet.

Can I come to dinner with you?
Clearly so! If as Cory who likes to vore, YOU ARE THE DINNER!

Can I ask ya to dance with me during the dances?
Sure-we can do as long as we keep it PG-13.

Can I buy you drinks?
I wish, but because I'm going on the commute, no.

Do you attend parties?
I may not.

Can I take your picture?
If you ask, YES, ABSOLUTELY! If you take mine, can you also use my camera, please?! I'm one of the active fursuit photografurs!

May I kidnap you to my room?
Maaaybee... Whaddya got in mind? ;)

Attending any events?
All the main events on the main stage if they accommodate to my schedule!-I will attend panels, so pay attention to my upcoming journal. Once the FC schedule appears on www.sched.com, mine will pop up here. Do note that changes can come at any time!

What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
Though I will not be in the FC Dance Competition, I will hope to do a choreographed dance while there! (I will find a place where the room is not used and put something from my BIG music playlist to dance to.) I do hope to find a girlfriend as well-remember, I'm single and looking for a heterosexual one!
Other than that, it is: Learn, make friends, have fun and repeat!

See you there!

And here are the ones attending!: (I put the Twitter name, but if there is an FA account, that will be posted instead.)
FerrixGulo
 DisjointWolfy
RingerShep
 BreastBiscuit
 lmrtigerl (Tyggz & Byte)
Jayfoxcat
 tundru
 Polycereal
 Squiperrino
Stuffymiko
Jjxph
KuramaSoCalFox
 Rumwolf Pizzamutt
 CaptainChaotika
Radicalpuma (TheEternalFloof)
 cavendishfox
 Emosnowmew (Alexmagenta)
Kaspar_Doberman
one_horse_dodge
 Calzone
 DayzerHusky
 TimberPuppers
 flame10885 (October_tiger)
 Daruin
soapheeler (aesop)
IzaiahWedge
kelldurr
 Arrow
 Rivalo
 Cindercrist (Carmen cross fox/honeyaue)
NephthysRex
 jindo12345 (Antares)
Sunscholar
thehypercoyote
husko_estin
Chaokita (borkehlicious)
ArcticDalmatian
 Rhapsodie
KairuKins
 aripup
Svixy
Kai wolf (Kai_Wooof)
 Revy
CycurCanine
Azure_Barks
 MintHusky
 Yoshi_Yosuke (Mokie)
MackAttack158 (Mackie Pittie)
raitobimu_i
 AlpineDeerWolf
ScottyWuff
ShepEvan
Tiger_bunni (Minnow bunny &/or unlikely, Jasper)
 sikdrift (SKdrift)
 TheModestWolf (Flint Wolfie)
 BearPaw93 (BearClawWaffles)
 fabgeroo (Chester Geroo)
 SwitchMegaWolf
Talienn

WHEW!

EVEN COMPOSING THIS IS A LOT OF WORK!

However, this is doable, so wish me luck in getting at least half of these suiters listed!

Next up is my schedule for FC.

I'm happy to say that it's a great time for me. There's no way I could trade it in for something else. Being in the fandom has changed me a lot- things to do, making new friends, learning new things, and it's therapeutic for me. January 9 is of course, the time I entered the FF'dom, and I'm looking forward to more years!
I did choose to enter early in the year because it'll help me keep track of when I entered. In fact, many things that I want to try have occurred at the beginning of the year, the end of the year, or around a holiday. It never dawned on me that there were conventions- Further Confusion occurs around Martin Luther King Jr. Day in the US, but you notice that if I did decide to enter that fandom on the 10th, at some point, it will be the day before FC! If only!
Oh well, as I do live in the San Francisco Bay area, one can say that if FC does start on 11, it's just one day away. (That will happen next year.) In any case, it is good to say, that I started on a one-digit day so it will be easy to remember.
No matter what, even though we are still in a pandemic, I feel the years will still count- although me, because I feel like I lost years in the pandemic, I still feel that I am 3 years younger. You can still sing that I have a greymuzzle, but I still feel young and look young for my age. So come March 3, once that pandemic ends, I can add standard, a year to my life- sentimentally.
No, the pandemic did not rob me from what I like in the fandom, I just had to find other ways to enjoy it- and it did work out for me. I'm not leaving it!
Even though Twitter was messed up by Elon Musk, at least it's going to get a little better once he leaves. I have been there for six years- little less than the time I'm on FA, but with both of them in the FF'dom, I have a great exposure towards others.
Yes, things have changed but still, the core values of being in the fandom are still there. I will keep being in for years ahead, friends do come and go, but it can be a turn for the better. For those who are with me in these 11 years, I thank you so much for following me; I can never be happier with your presence as, you do care about me, you think about my problems, you're there when I'm sad or angry to give me consolation and ways to calm me down, you laud my successes, and for the most loyal friends I have here on FA and Twitter, you're the closest to me calling you family.
So, of course there are resolutions and I have not done any yet, but after a little bit of thought, I will make some that that would relate to the FF'dom. It's because in these years, I should give back, and I have a lot to give.

Once again everyone, thank you so much for following me in these 11 years I have. I could not have imagined another fandom that would be as great as this. Let's hope for more to come and I hope to see you all still with me for many years ahead!!

It is fast approaching! I cannot wait!

It was on the last few days that I was granted off day from my work that I got this opportunity to go, and I am glad to have some diversion at least. As it will be a hype going on, and I will be attending all 5 days, I will be posting things that relate from here on. We cannot forget that I will soon be celebrating on the 9th of January, my 11th year in the FF'dom, and being here has been a blessing as I'm more extroverted, and I get to appreciate contact. It is a big iffy that I will fursuit as Cory again, but the gist is that I will have to wear a mask for the ENTIRETY of the convention as per Santa Clara County standards: https://covid19.sccgov.org/health-o.....-health-orders (Despite that it is a convention, it could qualify as a business as FC wants to use the money to educate and entertain while being nonprofit. Do look up #3 in the website.) I will have to get used to having the mask while being Cory in fursuit and his head on me. The good thing here is that I got a surplus of masks from work, and I will have the freedom to change masks if possible, 2x per day. I will see.

The Sched website has the schedule of events now! In addition, there is the pdf of the conbook I will get soon:
Sched: https://sched.furtherconfusion.org/
PDF: https://furtherconfusion.org/progra.....gram-web-e.pdf

I will look it over, and I will post my personal schedule up here once finished. Keep in mind that after I journal here, I will right away be leaving to my motel suite. Yes, Once again, I will be commuting, but this time, I'm closer to the con and within city limits. I feel that I don't want to get too tired traveling to the con. Like the previous journal: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10427421/ , being close to that entertainment place, if I do see it open before I go, I will hope to get a prize that we furries could enjoy from there as a game or toy-I got about 13000 tickets! If anyone is at that motel or the more expensive one right by it, let me know.

In the next journal after, I will also note personally who is attending so then I will try to find them at some point if they're a famed artist, or a fursuiter. I will be ready to take pictures of them, of course! Notably for the first-ever time,  GaleFrostbane (AKA:  Nexus_Folf) will attend, I can't wait to see her and personally welcome her to Furcon. She looks like a cool dudette!

Stay tuned, if you want to know how I'll do, these upcoming journals will come up. After 2 years of hiatus, FINALLY, I'm going to a furry con!! If you are attending, I hope to see you there!

This is a repost as a way to go ahead and have a reference. It was originally posted in 2015.

This word I will very likely use more often as I am in RL quite bubbly, and I get to laugh often, but not like the Sesame Street monster that laughs so much while happy that it's bothersome-Elmo....

TITTER
(NO!! I did not misspell. I never meant to say TWITTER!)

(v.): To laugh in a restrained, self-conscious, partly suppressed, or affected way, as from nervousness or in ill-suppressed amusement.

(n.): The act of making a nervous laugh that can be of any volume.

Usually if you are embarrassed, you would be likely in doing this, or you are not sure, then you would laugh this way, and by what is seen on Vocabulary.com, it is nicer than a snicker (a direct synonym is snigger.) , which you would laugh quietly but in an unkind way-likely after you say or hear something stupid about someone or something (on purpose, and more mean, but more control). Tittering is the more uncontrollable way, but more allowable.
Ranking of laughs (this would be how you would hear me laugh in intensity if I do an RP; sometimes, it can also show how polite and/or confident my laughing is...):


snort < snicker/snigger < titter < chuckle < giggle < chortle / guffaw < laugh < cachinnate (in a mean way, sometimes) / roar with laughter

Now a more colorful way of "seeing" how I'd laugh! So, I will show how eventually the levels of some feelings soon in future journals, and you will have some idea in how much emotion I have. Of course, if you have been a user on www.neopets.com, you have seen your Neopet have some levels in mood. This article is very likely what I will use when I show levels of happiness and sadness, but I will add more words for sadness and maybe one or two in happiness, and I will order them to how I feel is an appropriate level of mood: http://www.neopets.com/ntimes/index.phtml?section=374946&week=320

RP'ers, hope this helps in what feeling I'll show when I am Alfred or Cory in our RP's! Thanks for reading!

They can be solitary or interaction avoiding.

It just hits me when I was watching a few vids on YouTube of animals and in some cases, attacks on humans. As much as I'm an introvert, I do my best in being more open towards others, however, I may be thinking too deep, and I wish I did not do that.

If you want to understand, most of my life, I have been picked on because I'm naive or that I like being solo while at school. It is just that the FF'dom is having me be more comfortable to having friends that I can trust despite that it is getting a bit toxic. Well, after learning a few things about red pandas and wolves, they do fit me well in terms of personality, and having Alfred and Cory on my mind cold make me feel like I have a curse on myself after seeing that knowledge is power, but it can be on the negative side.

So for Alfred, the red panda is a cute being, and in the zoo, they are living well with others, and it can be possible with such interactions, they would be social. BUT IN THE WILD, if you ever encounter one, they will likely be solitary and be quite individualistic. They may be naturally introverted and selfish as they are in competition with mother nature and predators like the snow leopards, and I can hypothesize that it is possible, but never documented, Bengal tigers as their predators since they can have territories existing in India. They would also be watching out for eagles and other birds of prey as well. Would it be that in the wild, they would live in fear? I do doubt, but that is plausible.

And here is Cory in RL. Well, almost all species of wolves are living in a pack, and they would be living as extroverts. They, like humans would not inbreed, and they would see another wolf from another pack to be their mate and have pups. They do however try to avoid confrontation with other species, but in general, they would avoid humans. It would be innate after the many interactions with them that they would run away from them. Well, that won't help me in the FF'dom much. Of course, I could be blessed to be Cory and not a coyote or even a dog (Sorry,  PepperCoyote if I single your species out, and other dog furs.) as they are suddenly getting more destructive towards the human race. We haven't had much news of wolf attacks on livestock, poultry or hogs, nor on humans lately. But really, Canis lupus is not like the otter (Ashley) where it can interact with other species easier than the other two.

So, ugh, I don't feel dejected too much that I'm Alfred and Cory, but you would see that my personality would fit well with these two species. Ashley is new, but he seems to be like me trying to be a happy-go-lucky being and being a friendly furry a bit more than Alfred. Yes, I can be like my fursonas in many ways, but oy, believe it or not, if you do see some negatives to being a fursona in which you see the RL behaviors of that species, get ready to try to combat those.

I'm thankful to be in the Fandom, just last Saturday, I got to go to a baseball game with  KhordKitty, and I'm hoping that I could build on that interaction with furs as friends so then I can enjoy life a bit more. Overall, sometimes I'd say I'd hate my life because of a lack of friendship, but I hope that changes before the year ends.

After the horrifying suicide that Myst Dingo did, it does bring light on why I would be a useful photographer. Though I have been only for Further Confusion, I do have plans to go to other cons as well. For a good reason, though some of you would say that me doing such uploads to FA and even on Twitter can be annoying, I feel that it is necessary, because like what happened to Myst, these photos are priceless-you would never know what will happen, and we can't see what they have in their private lives. Pictures do say a thousand words, but it is to me, AT LEAST. There can be more into a picture of a fursuiter than seeing the design, of course even if they just pose for the camera, it does say a lot about the character in suit. Although there can be some without an FA account, I will still upload so they can be recognized-Myst is a good example. Another example-and he does have an account, is  KonaRoo/ houndoom2542. It was last year that he died of a workplace-related injury, and I would be one of the very last posters of him in an unadulterated photo: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/41721043/ you could see he likes to sing, and I have seen him regularly at the FC karaoke.

Really, I was not going to upload the rest-I have just about 40 to go, but because of the aforementioned, I had to fight against negativity to do it. It is these unexpected things that could happen, and it's like the song when it comes to pictures, "The story of my life" by One Direction:
https://youtu.be/eQmVAq4Sdww

_{(Note that there is in the song, reference of being broken, and death. And to relate to picture taking, "time is frozen"... Something to reminisce, especially for Myst... This would be a good song to play at his funeral-I recommend  Rumwolf to have this, and to find any related fursuit pics and RL pics of him while the song plays.)}

And really, if you are living, and have depression and are in a crisis, do look over your pictures and see how much of an impact you have done to others as a fursuiter, and how fun it is to be with others WHO CARE AND LIKE YOU. Pictures of you when uploaded from others show that you are appreciated, and I do appreciate you all in either partial or fullsuit in brightening our days. I do hope that you appreciate what I upload and that you cherish these pictures all your life.

Please, do take care of your mind and soul- you are important despite that you're one in nearly 8 billion inhabitants. For the USA, it was just a few months ago that you can just dial 988 for the suicide/life crisis/mental health hotline-no more 800 number. Please take advantage of the easier number to remember by. USA furs, you're not alone and there's always someone who cares.

Ugh, really, I have been lazy because of life, but as a futographer, I will want to have some fursuiters be represented, and I will want to post those pics up again! OY, really, the pandemic has made me a bit lazy in the FF'dom as there is the thought of uncertainty looming over my head. Also my job is okay, and being part time as of now, and I have accrued sick leave, I could have time on the upcoming MLK weekend to enjoy some 5 day enjoyment. It does not mean that I WILL go as we're still considered to be in a pandemic, but with our knowledge of self-care, and the sciences, COVID-19 is starting to be under control, and it could be soon that the virus pandemic will soon be a virus nuisance. It may not be that we'll wipe out that virus like humans did with smallpox, but let's hope that despite that the virus is fast evolving and you will get sicker faster, we can still enjoy meeting each other.
Let's not disregard Monkeypox floating around. For that reason, if it is still around by late December, I will NOT share a room and do commuting again; I was going for the first time to be rooming at-con, but with this other virus here, I will not risk it.
ON THAT NOTE, as it is very likely that I will go, I do have to clear out the past photos of the fursuiters of 2020 at FC so I can make room for FC'23 photos IF NOTHING IS IN MY WAY. (Yes, sometimes, my current job calls me to work, and I will be going to hopefully go to another job too, and I don't know if after 3-4 months on, I will be granted some days off. Also, still living with parents, and if they know I'm in what they call "Cat People", they may look down on me negatively and one of them who is overbearing and controlling could say "no," I can't go-but that person can't control me... I'm an adult! )

So this would be a fair warning to those watching me-if you don't like photos in RL and do not like me to spam your inbox for the next few weeks, I would recommend you unwatching me. I am a furtographer, and I do want to contribute to the FF'dom by showing my photo skills and the notable fursuiters and the designs they all have so you could go to their page to see possibly who designed them. I could be an advertiser for future fursuiters.

Now yes, if you know me well, I do believe of the saying, "A picture is worth 1000 words." I will put what had happened at the time I took the photo and a bit of background of the fursuiter or the maker; well, so much time has elapsed, and I may forget a lot about the setting and story behind the scenery and fursuiter! I will do my best in remembering, though, but I am lucky to take the badges of most of the fursuiters, so if any of you remember the time you had in 2020 fursuiting in San José and want to put your memories there, you are free to do so!

Now I will say 5 uploads a day, but need be, I could go for a bit more. So I do hope you enjoy the fursuit photos I upload.

GET READY, I WILL START MY UPLOADS ON FRIDAY 8/26.

In US/CAN Pacific Daylight Time (UTC-7), I will start at 19:00.

Fursuit fans and fursuiters, ahead of time, if you fave, comment or even watch me for the photos I upload, I thank you-it means a lot to me, and I will keep going in being a furtographer!

Let's not forget, FC will be held January 12-16, 2023. When given the all-clear, I hope to see you then!!

IT IS IN RL, NOT FOOTPAWS UNFORTUNATELY. Any friendly dog that wants pets before I go home.

Yes, quite specific. It is what happened before yesterday that got me exhausted- me delivering almost to the length of travel from San Francisco to Los Angeles in total, but starting at a later time. Me working at the grocery delivery company that specializes in local foods had a major backup in the warehouse end and I had to wait almost 3 hours to have my route. I had to deal with an angry customer too. Once I finally finished my route, it was another whammy that occurred- one working the night shift had her car broke down, and I had to do a rescue. From one end of a county to the other, I had to take half of the stops remaining.
I was working for nearly 10 hours, basically!! ?You can say that all the driving can take its toll on me-I do enjoy exploring lands, but I do have to take breaks, but for this despite breaks, I was hot, thirsty, and I was so tired from driving-I did do the rescue because soon there will be cons returning, and I would like to accrue sick hours so I can go to a con with paid time off. In the rescue part of deliveries, I finally got to my last stop. It was fenced with dogs, and I was worried that if it opens, they will go get me. I was wrong. I had to do two rounds in putting parcels of food at the gate, and after getting one pair of boxes down, I got the second-I went "OH!" as the border collie dog was peering in the small space under the gate-head trying to go through. It was as if it were trying to go to me, but it was whining! I thought he was stuck, but he was able to move his head easily. Somehow, as I have heard that doge can sense fear in an individual, maybe it could sense other emotions. I did sense it was trying to get my attention and have me pet him. I did remember that I can't be friends with any pets, but with what I have been through, I would want a bit of comfort.
He was then licking my shoe that was near him-that got me thinking that he does sense that I have had a bad day after I did have some loud groans and sighs of anguish for the day. AS it would be a precaution to go slowly to the dog, I did have my palm out to him to show no harm- but he was eagerly trying to lick it. I did eventually boop its nose and I did pet his jaw and patted his muzzle. My heart was warmed and it melted when his eyes closed-savouring the hand cuddle, and liking my hand. I did have to leave as I was still on the clock, but right away after saying goodbye, the dog left, but the next thing that surprised me was that he was barking in a way to say happiness, but somehow, it was like he was encouraging me or cheering me on! Was it a thank you to me too? Did it sense my feelings have changed to happiness after petting him??
I will never know what the dog was thinking, not have I took dog psychology classes, if ever. Wherewith, it seemed that that friendly dog actually felt what I felt, and was somehow mentoring me in saying "Be happy, everything's going to be OK." It is one of these little, unexplained things that another species would do to a hooman. It did give me insight that really, dogs are a man's best friend. The border collie did end my day on a good note, and I did go home a bit happier.

Can it ever be that the barrier of talking to animals could be broken? It is close to being reality as some cats and dogs are able to talk, but they could have the ability to give and feel, I'll say.

So yep, dog furs, take this as an example if you are furred...you may not be alone in perhaps 1/4 millennium from now...

Here is the previous journal that I posted if you aren't aware: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10296729/

It is just today that we have news that  Yappyfox has changed his mind on retiring. He had returned to FA to compose a rare journal to tell you about his status: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10299264/ . It is just almost what I have brought up, but it was a bit more after shelling money to keep Megaplex afloat, a death of a family member and more. He has made an appearance at Megaplex this year though, and he needed help- one of his friends saw him break down, and by the journal you would read, it would relate to his current condition mentally as he has been taking meds and is socially anxious.

As yes, the FF'dom is getting toxic, it was one factor of him thinking about leaving. I may see this the wrong way, but I feel that it was so toxic for him and the related pressures that he had to endure in his life inside and outside of the FF'dom that he was thinking of suicide. At least, he is on good footing, for now, but if you know him very well, you would want to care about him more.

Just know though, with all the problems that relate to the FF'dom, he will stay back and be less in scope, but he will still be a fursuiter-he LOVES it.

So one of the first founders of the FF'dom is going to be around, but for how long? We will have to cherish his time as much as we can and learn from him as he has been a furry that has the most experience. Let's give him all the respect he needs, and we hope that if he does have to leave, it will be on a positive note and for us to take his words on making the Fandom better.

He has officially un-retired! Let's hope to see him soon in a future con or on the airwaves-I believe he still has a lot to offer in the 25+ years he has been in the FF'dom.

It is amazing that for half a century,  Yappyfox was fursuiting and being active in the FF'dom-now via a journal I read from  Rif_Foxworthy ( https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10295864/ ), it is true, Yappy is going to retire.

From his Twitter on August 4th: https://twitter.com/Yappyfox , he has cleaned up his Twitter account (Hurry, we don't know how long his page will be up!), and with those two Tweets he has posted, it would be clear that he's exiting for good, the FF'dom. For fans who regularly go in the past, Funday Pawpet Show (Webpage is still on: https://pawpet.tv/ and the Twitter account is active as of July 31: https://twitter.com/FundayPawpet ), I don't think that when one host, Bandit, died that would be the end of the show despite that in 2017 many said that it was the end, but it keeps going. Unfortunately for Yappy, Bandit's death wasn't the same for him, and he never appeared again. Now, with the poison and hostility that is going on in the FF'dom, Yappy has decided that as of now, he is departing from it altogether. You will see that he's a mainstay to the FF'dom since the Internet was born and active for general use. It was in 1998 that there was his webpage, and now, the site https://www.thefoxden.com is just a white canvas. We can however, thanks to the Wayback machine, go back to his first page and see it progress to the most recent before it got shut down: https://web.archive.org/web/1998121.....foxden.com:80/ (This "photo" was taken on December 12, 1998- the one before it had nothing related to Yappy.) We can't unfortunately do much to talk to this Florida fur here as he did abandon it, but he did have a good run.

Peronally, when I was exploring the Web in the beginning of the 2000's, I did run into Yappy's page, and at one point, I remember him posting something about South Florida's channel, https://www.wsvn.com (Yes, Miami's Channel 7!) covering furry culture-it was saved and shown in one panel at Further Confusion sone years ago, but it was one of the first vids of furries I've seen. Luckily, another furry named  Aberguine covered it and you can see it in Furries in the Media:

https://youtu.be/8ZrHXTo96_4

It is him talking when WSVN interviewed Sly! (His name is actually Yappy Sly Fox.) Yes, he was the one who got me exposed to the Fandom for the first time.

I would call him a trailblazer as he has had in his heyday, a lot of exposure to media. Of course, things do have to come to an end for nearly everything, and it is sad that his end to the FF'dom was based on negative news and fallout that has been going on, and he gave in to such hatred inside and outside of the Fandom, and shut the door on it.
I do not know about the status of the fursona, but I feel that the fox with the noticeable orange around his eyes will be retired-character & fursuit. However, here is one very last art of Yappy done and posted on FA as a farewell to what he has done, and that FPW was a great show to watch: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/47907878/

Yappy Fox- (1997-2022) it was a great 1/4 century of existence, and from us old timers, you will be missed. Thank you. 🥲

I blame the pandemic, but it should not be totally on covid - although it has a hampered me from doing some vigorous activity, like going to the gym, I could be at fault primarily. Of course, I may not be the only one having such problems as one time, I saw a very muscular man over at the gym and, to my amazement, he has said that he is 50 lb overweight! However, I cannot let myself be happy that I'm part of a possible majority population that could be overweight while the pandemic is still around. It is my own health, and I have to maintain it for myself.
So here's the skinny (I wish to be!):
I did have a recent physical and things don't seem so good - after having the physical - it was a long time between the last physical and the most recent one, I see that I am at 213.4 lbs (96.797 kgs). I have in terms of measuring diabetes, the A1C being elevated - it's supposed to be 5.5% or lower - it is at 5.7%. the most striking thing is that my blood pressure when I went to the doctor is 133/88. Yesterday, doing a self-check of blood pressure, it was 144/101.

I would say that I was healthier before I took a job, but, I may have to think about having to make my own food. And it would be a good thing instead of having to go do fast food, in fact, I've decided that today I'm going to start eating less from outside. It's not just because the food is less healthy, but too, it is getting more expensive to eat out. Even the self-touted healthiest food chain, Subway ( https://www.subway.com ) is surprisingly pricey with their new menu lineup, "Subway Series", you will no longer put your own veggies on your selected subs! In addition, making your own sub is going to be penny pinching for you. If you go there, this is how much I paid for a footlong cheesesteak (#3 on menu), and I do not have the option of adding my vegetables: https://twitter.com/alandcory/status/1554229045625102336?t=PCXA6EfZqjjRn_g-kv-JMA&s=19 . Yep, you saw in the Tweet, no more $5 footlong-gone for good!

So have seen it-eating out is expensive (Thank you, inflation! ) but also unhealthy, I'll have to option to get a salad made by me or in the store as long as it doesn't have dressing, and I will return to Noom for weight control and health improvement ( https://www.noom.com ).

It is one of the reasons why I'm scared of fursuiting now-more, being in the fullsuit of Cory wolf. I fear that I will not fit in it in the current health and weight that I'm in - and I may not last long in it with the possible hypertension readings I have now. So my plans for getting Cory life will have to be on hold, but I don't know how long.

I do have to be optimistic though, it's not too late. So, wish me luck guys and having me be healthy - will take a lot of work and sacrifice, but it's doable.

It was in a yard sale for US$2, but bargained for a $1.

I felt that I should buy one since I have pastels and watercolor paints with me, and therefore, would want something to stand them up on. I do have a canvas that is gathering dust, and so, it would be time to put some use into it....
Of course, when I will do traditional visual arts, it does not have to be on a table at 0° angle or 0/2π in radians, sometimes, it would be good to have a different take on how to draw on other inclines. I will not be right away do arts from the FF'dom as I'm not advanced enough, but yes, watercolor would be the hardest to use, and it would be better to use first before using the easier acrylic and oil-based paints. Of course, I have done one for the first ever draw of Ashley otter (noite a bit of help with crayons): https://www.furaffinity.net/view/36173519/ , and yes, I will have to perfect a little bit with some practice before going more advanced. In any case, I will stick to Bob Ross in his show, "The Joy of Painting" on YouTube, but there are others that you can see with watercolor too here is one from Doug LaMorte for example:

https://youtu.be/6ohBD_9500g


I will see if the easel will give me inspiration for great arts soon. As FA is an art site, I can see soon if it can be possible to post non-furry material for the first few times, then when ready, I will. Hopefully, I can be commissioned soon!

I do not know as it is in the FF'dom that it's always Homo sapiens sapiens to a furry,, and it has been popular. The thing here is that I do have an idea for a comic and I do have TF-I will do human to furry, but in my plan, it will be the reverse. Well, if you were looking at this where it is based on the Nashville mascots in sports: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10217420/ , it will be about them, and yes, all of them are anthro. But there is more to them that makes me want to do them, and I will be glad to incorporate all my three fursonas, Alfred, Ashley and Cory in this comic. It is still a WIP, but soon, I will post a pic that acts like a cover-quite like a "cold open" in TV shows. I did have an artist that did the art-  Zelaum-Hunter, but after this, it will be another artist that will do the actual comic.

I do have to ask- if you are a fan of transformation, do you feel that it would not be a good idea to have a TF from furry to human? Would a story be better if the characters end up PERMANENTLY furry?

Do answer, and I will think about it when I conjure up the storyline for the comic.

It has been a time when we do have to give thanks and to extol those who served, and we do have the tragedies that many of the commonfolk have endured in history. Well, with what has happened recently, it is those in law enforcement too that are defending the people too that may have to be remembered as well. Although, there were 19 children and 2 teachers that have been killed in Texas- https://www.cnn.com/2022/05/25/us/u.....now/index.html , today has a special meaning, especially last year when in my metro city, the VTA shooting where Further Confusion & Pac Anthro Weekend are held: https://www.kron4.com/news/bay-area.....ne-year-later/ , we cannot care less about the children who were going to make a difference ahead and possibly become part of the civic duties and military-they would have been part of VTA, and they would learn from that tragedy last year and honor those who would have made the city run well in the maintenance facilities or while driving the trolleys. We'd hope that these people and possible, furries did not die in vain. We celebrate, but let's be humble of the tragedies that have happened in the past 2 years.

An important announcement- if you are watching today, if you never or have seen Zootopia and live in the USA, there will be a live showing on the channel, ABC ( https://www.abc.com ) if you do not have cable! Do put your recorder on, and don't miss it- it will be showing at 8/7 central. ENJOY!

Of course that whoever is a wah, you'd appreciate some great vids that you could see online, and I did come across a devoted channel that you would want to see. I you want to take a gander on the channel, "Red Panda Lover": https://www.youtube.com/c/RedPandaLover , this can be a place where you can see some behavior of these firefoxes that are always cute and AREN'T related to the vulpines nor the trash pandas (raccoons) that they were initially by scientists, classified as closely related. So far, I would like to take some of the vids that are there and acreete the behavior on to Alfred!

There will be more come International Red Panda Day on the third Saturday of September, but would like to show a few now:

Well, of course, when this journal was posted, it was Paw Day and I did miss it. HOWEVER, as it is the weekend, there is lots of time to enjoy that area that is used for mobility often. SO, here are a few red panda feets that you will enjoy! Note that RL firefox paws have five toes:

1-S/He does want to wear shoes?
https://youtu.be/1S4NHOVDuUg

2: If that is the case, s/he will have to clean them before trying them on. Tasty?
https://youtu.be/Pk-m80d2aqk

Of course if you're firefox, you should watch that channel, Red Panda Lover!: https://www.youtube.com/c/RedPandaLoverThey are cute, in their own way, and we'd be good to have a reference to act like them! Do take a visit, he does have many more than the others! Hope you liked wah peets!

Here's an adorable bonus- let's now see how the panda tails get their action from the same author!:

I guess they like to care for their own tails:
https://youtu.be/DQamh9OkMto

UM, I stand corrected... (wait for it at 1:01.... Very funny! )
https://youtu.be/_43gEWrZzKA

I have made the cardinal sin- I left my US social security number in my wallet and it was 2 weeks ago that while I was exercising at a place not known for crime, someone broke into my locker and stole my wallet. It was definitely a theft as my lock was gone, someone took my clothes to a bathroom stall to search for anything of value, and left them there without my wallet. I was able to freeze my cards right away and got a replacement driver's licence with Real ID to travel anywhere, go to courts and to be at military bases. The old one does not have this, but with the SSN with that ID, I'm in IMMENSE TROUBLE because today, someone tried to to open an account with my name to a credit card company. THAT DEVASTATED ME.

I don't know, having to have this happen to me, because I may have to be scrutinized for such purchases that may cost lots of money, I may have to give up having to have another fursuit as they can cost US$2400 to have, and now having to contact my credit report companies, they will put a possible freeze on any new applications for credit or block me from any such transactions that I would like to do. At least the police and the banks are investigating this matter, and I will be fighting a lot perhaps forever to get my credit score up and to even get my first house and/or second car.

*SIGH*

Honestly, what do you see me as? After these big mishaps, I feel that I'm an easy target for robbers and I'm scared. I don't know how I will be in this cruel world as it seems that I'm an unaware person and even naïve despite that I'm highly educated. Upcoming, I will officially go to commencement to a college, but for what?! There is no degree for the school of hard knocks, so UGH. I feel so emotionally unstable that I would go as far as cutting myself on the elbow. If you ask me if I'm happy with life now, I'm at 36% happy and getting more miserable with life.

Wow, the furry fursuiters are starting to be on TV more! So far, since  BucktownTiger was on Jeopardy! the year before last, we do have had  IantheGecko on NBC's Weakest Link,  CassidytheCivet on Canada's Got Talent on CityTV, and now we have  PineReese who in RL goes by the name of Michael Graff who appeared with legendary Ken Jennings to play for money!

I will not say what was the final standings, but if you are interested, you can take a look at the link from J! Archive below:

>> https://j-archive.com/showgame.php?game_id=7338 <<

Now for those that are oversesas, not including Canada which can get the American airings of Jeopardy!, if you know him very well, and you watched the episode from the beginning, you would feel a little bit of uneasiness as his job was "mascot"- for a few that know him very well, we have seen his After Dark side, esp., some that you see right now on FA...: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/33979993/ (No, to abide by FA rules, I will post what is ONLY found on FA and nothing else, but I can say that he's been in AD sites as well-you will have to find and look at them yourself...) It did make me nervous that in the nature of Jeopardy! when after the first half of the first round is played, The host-Jennings at the time Reese was a contestant-would interview the players. Of course, we do know that he has his fursuit, but when it came to Jennings going to interview him, it was OK-just that you would want to try to stay clean as he actually is a mascot for some firm, sports team, or organization- he did have his time as mascot of the Texas Longhorns ( https://www.utexas.edu <academic/athletic [I put the link to the mascot named Hook'em!]> https://texassports.com/news/2013/2.....3/021313aab_93 ) and dancing against another mascot-note he said "danced our butts off..." and it did strike me that as of now, I noticed by how he waves LGBTQIA-ish, the school would be the best for him in terms of nickname... () BUT we can see how Reese got to be a very good dancer at con dance competitions!
In his questions correct, at least he knows Disney! And do look at the first question of the category that he answered right, "I'll follow you"... PERFECT FOR THE FF'DOM-NOT JUST FURSUITERS! () Ugh, I did wish though he got the 28th question in Double Jeopardy!-I would have liked to see how he answered it, but did not... () But is his efforts enough to defeat the 14-day champion from Toronto, Mattea Roach? I'll let you figure it out-though I know the result; but for those that have not seen, I will say, good luck to Reese-let's hope he wins!

(And yes, if you don't want to see J! Archive, you can go to https://www.jeopardy.com to see the tables. I don't think that you can see an episode there, but try anyway to see him go and be champion and return for another day! [AMERICAN AND CANADIAN FURS-PLEASE DO NOT SPOIL FOR THOSE OUTSIDE OF OUR LANDS! LET THEM GET THE SUSPENSE AND THE ENERGY OF CHEERING FOR REESE IF THEY FIND A WAY TO WATCH THIS EPISODE!])

If you're a game show fan, you would appreciate this show that aired in the 1990's. If you have seen the The Travel Channel on cable back then ( https://www.travelchannel.com A Discovery Network now), there is the one show hosted by the legendary Wink Martindale that we have forgotten, but it would have had a great future if it continued on. Called "The Great Getaway Game", it is a game where you as a contestant get quizzed on places of interest, history, landmarks and culture whenever you go to another place. Of course, there is the jumble of letters that is the theme to winning the game- when you find the word in the word search, in both regular rounds and bonus round, you will win.

https://youtu.be/PUWXw1xlqD0

Are you going somewhere for the weekend, hopefully you enjoy on this Easter as you will have fun with searching for eggs, being friendly to bunnies, lambs and chickens. I know they are all edible () but vorers, have yourself some ham as the traditional meat to feast. and OH FINALLY, Lent is over! We can return to indulging things again and to eating meat on Fridays! Hope you have happy travels and getting lots of info on your excursions- you may learn something and it can be useful at some point, especially on this show if it ever returns.

HAPPY EASTER!


# There will be more game show journals coming up, but this next one, it will be sad news as ABC in the USA ( https://www.abc.com ) is doing a "cleansing." You'll be upset, game show fans....

Oh heck, here's an unclean journal from deep in my libido mind. It just dawned on me that I would have this feeling of having a number 1 be useful-no, the OTHER #1.

In having to hear that the in reproduction studies, "swimming" sperm need sugar to maneuver their way to an egg, it would mean, of course, if it is that I would ejaculate, then there would be suger leaving my body! Interestingly enough, I have not read this yet or found proof, but I hypothesize that if it is done enough, for anyone with diabetes melitus, it could be beneficial in lowering a man's blood sugar. And, how cum is good for sperm, there is from the paracrine glands of the prostate, bulbourethral (Cowper's) and vesicular (seminal vesicles). Of course when one reads the articles on Wikipedia, you sill soon see that there are proteins and even some vitamins and minerals secreted- prominently, zinc.

YOU SEE WHERE I'M GOING WITH THIS??

As too, I do have a history of family members having prostate cancer, I would wank off often. Well, at some points, I would be using a Fleshlight, but if it happens that I do not have it with me and I am at a con, I will want whatever I'm keeping inside for at least 2 days to be expelled. Now yes, I know, the furry women and for many men who are gay, you would do a blow job to get the other to splurt out the concoction that is white and is nourishing for sperm and THEM. I can tell that there is that taste that you like-it can be bitter, or sweet or chalky (I did taste my own once, and it was chalky.) Well, if it is that you would want to have that taste from ME, I can safely say that in this journal, it is official-PROVIDED THAT YOU DO CONSENT (AND DO IT DISCREETLY), you can blow me off. THIS DOES NOT MEAN THAT I WILL BE GAY IF IT WERE THE SAME GENDER BLOWING ME, THOUGH. I DO HAVE DREAMS OF BEING MARRIED TO A FEMALE AND HAVE A BIOLOGICAL CHILD, AND I WILL STAY HETERO-SO NO INTERCOURSE. RESPECT IT. If it is a female, I could do intercourse if, we both consent, and I do not want children until we are committed to live out our lives together. (Yes, condom, diaphragm, IUD.) Let's not forget though the STI's/venereal diseases.

The idea I had did stem from a comic. If you know the all of a sudden notorious  Kabier, there was the one titled, "Secrets of the Serpent", and it was from page 23-25 that I got the preliminary info that what she says is really true-
23: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/21490761/
24: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/21601286/
25: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/21709005/
... is it filling? I guess.

You can say then that what would be potential poison for me can be healthy for another, in this case. At least it will not go to waste, for anyone who is willing to have my liquid as a snack-it can be better than the protein bars, esp, Tiger's Milk!

It will not mean I will strip totally naked, but if you want that precum and the eventual white, sticky near-gel that comes, I do not mind giving it to you orally. Anally, NO-it can go with females too almost every time. Vaginally, I could give with protection, but no matter what, we should wash ourselves thoroughly for biological safety.

Now I did not say that I will be blowing or wanking somebody after I had that time of tasting my own cum, but I will think about it. Of course, as he does have benefits to another individual getting cum, it is likely that I will take it-it is just that I will have to push myself to trying it out for the first time on a male. And call me wussy or a wimp, I do not know how HER cum tastes-I'm a virgin. AND I'm 39, DAMMIT!! I do hope I will end my virginity if I go to a con, but yes, I feel like I'm late, and it is time for me to be participating in erotica for real....

PS: If you do ask-NO, urolagnia (watersports) is out of the question! If you ever involve your pee on me-it's over- cum sharing & friendship.

It could be soon that I will have another fursuit, this time, Alfred! WELL, on the condition that I will move away from my dad as he does not approve me being in the FF'dom. However, from what I saw, I will have an unbelievable return on taxes from the US Government- while being with H&R Block ( https://www.hrblock.com ), I was allowed to do my own taxes for free, 100%-AND I WAS LUCKY TO DO SO. If it were that I did my taxes on Turbotax ( https://www.turbotax.com ) I would be paying for filing since I have some stock and crypto investments-they all were failures. Also, YEESH! If I weren't an employee of H&R Block, I would have paid US$450 for the service!! (I will tell you, if you want your taxes done by someone at a lower price, I recommend in the USA, Jackson Hewitt ( https://www.jacksonhewitt.com/ ).
What is good is that the IRS ( https://www.irs.gov ) and local/state tax board would recognize this loss, and will somehow have sympathy. Also with one job, since I was caring for a disabled person, I would be considered exempt. SO, along with deductions, I will end up with a near grand total of more than US$7500 refund!!
I'm trying to decide what I should do as I do have a student debt to pay, and I will need a new car too. I have decided to put a more careful approach to stocks and I'm gaining, so I do not know if I should invest in them again after a crippling plunge of one stock called Sphere 3D- a crypto mining company in Toronto that will be merging soon, and investors are saying that it is best to buy and hold as once the merger is complete, the stock will shoot up... ( https://sphere3d.com/ NASDAQ ticker: ANY) I lost nearly half of my bankroll in that stock. I will not let such stocks take my money with me, and I will ALWAYS use the movable floor called the trailing stock on Robinhood ( https://www.robinhood.com ). I will hope that this approach will soon have me go move out of my parents' wings and in my own place, and to even go to cons outside of the San Francisco-Oakland-San José-Sacramento-Monterey megapolis. My dad is planning on having me move with him to Québac, but I hope that if I have enough of my own money, I will not have to. Anyway, if it benefits me OUTSIDE OF MY DAD'S INFLUENCE, I could settle for Furnal Equinox and CanFURence. I will see what I will do with the money...
Segueing, if it is that I go to cons no matter where I go-I can bring toys with me- I did find a HUGE stash of tickets from Chuck E. Cheese ( https://www.chuckecheese.com/ ), and WOW, I got close to 8900 tickets! NO, right now, there is no longer paper tickets or ticket vouchers- it is all on card. With that, the ticket vouchers had to be put into the card, and I can easily keep track of the amount of tickets I have. Now, despite that I did not see what I wanted at a location I went, I was lucky to get more tickets and I might get some additional items from the prize shop. It was a BIG help today-I had to look closely at some games; if you are lucky when you have to do the scans of your card, there are times when they glitch. I was able to take advantage of this, and I got an additional 1500+ tickets in one setting! HOWEVER, if you are able to play an unglitchable game, I would recommend playing that game where you toss a ball into the milk jug-this is an example:
https://youtu.be/poj_hjXD2QM
....if you throw it right, you get a HUGE bonus of tickets! With that game, I got now the 10000+ level of tickets! I will get that soccerball chair I'd like to get, but there is in one location, a large badminton set, so that could be good for fursuiters to play, don't you think? So, I advise you, look around carefully if you go to C.E.C., if there is a glitch in the scanning of a game, you may get LOTS of tickets awarded when you play!

So, soon when I raise enough with the help of the IRS, I hope to get that debt paid off and get a new automobile, and I can transport the toys I won at C.E.C. so we can play together at a furmeet or con if I do take a road trip in the USA or Canada!
It was a great day for me, and on a nonimportant note, I'm losing weight so I can not fear fullsuiting again. So once that fat is gone, I can gladly have fun with you in both partial and fullsuit no matter where I am- I will keep that weight down thanks to COVID starting to wane a little bit. Lost a total of 13 pounds so far!

HAPPY DAY TODAY, YAY!