[just a yap journal, feel free to ignore]

I dunno, I've been thinking about how I dropped drawing dragons some time in highschool. I think between getting it hammered into my head that "too many people draw dragons" by art class teachers, and getting into circles that just didn't really draw dragons, it kinda got beat out of me for a while. Which is sad! Because I've always really loved dragons a lot.
Looking back, it was a weird thing to get told that I wouldn't get anywhere if I kept drawing dragons anyhow. I've literally seen so many people keep the lights on through drawing basically nothing but dragons.
Whether it's through freelance in the furry fandom, or because they landed a job at a big studio or something. I do think experimenting with subject matter was a good thing for me over-all, but it's also just like... not like I wasn't already doing that? So beating the love out of me for something was super unnecessary.

idk this thought just pops into my head every now and then. And it makes me happy that I started drawing and creating stuff with dragons again.
Mostly it manifested in me making both old and new dragons into avatars on SL, but I've also just beend rawing dragons a bunch again in general. When I can, at least. I have been struggling to draw a lot lately outside of small commissions. I'm trying to get back on the saddle, though.

So I guess this is a short love letter to dragons. And a huge thank you to dragon artists that helped me find my love for them again after so many years.

https://forms.gle/SnuSfGXQwXFV5gE6A

50$ apiece, made to imitate traditional mediums like coloured pencils and markers
Please use the google form to order


edit: I've got 20$ experimental dooble icons available too, you can order those here-
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You can order through this form here!


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I am also taking adult commissions over here if that interests you

(https://birchbark.carrd.co/#comms)

I'm only gonna be taking them through Google Form to help streamline the process.
You can find all the necessary information in the link above!


I've put my patreon on pause while I restructure it some and simplify the tiers a bit better.
This means I won't be getting any money through it next month though, so I need to find some other way to make sure I can afford my meds refills and buy myself food any time we get something while out and about. :x (and you know, getting clothes and other things for quality of life is nice too)

I wanna take some commissions soon, so I guess keep your eyes open if you're interested in that

We moved! Again! Also the new roommates moved in with us before this move!
I completely forgot that I hadn't mentioned and actually moving in past that it was going to happen.
Well, they got here safe and sound, and we lived fine in the apartment for a bit, but it was definitely too small for all of us.

So now we're in a house! All to ourselves!

There's some issues that have been frustrating all of us surrounding this move, mainly that we were rushed around the end of the month when rent was already paid at the old place and some really major issues were not fixed before we moved in while we were told it was "move in ready" but! Ultimately this place is still an upgrade. We've been enjoying the extra space A LOT, and even just having a living room has felt like it's had such a positive impact. At the apartment, the only shared space we had was the kitchen and "dining room" which was just a tiny corner in the kitchen. It was incredibly cramped!

I also enrolled in therapy and my new psychiatrist prescribed me some new medicine that gave me some wicked side effects at first, but I have since adjusted.
I feel like it's helping. At least, I feel like I've had enough motivation to get things started and thus finished.

Aside from that, we're just adjusting to the new place and getting everything unpacked and in place.

Life continues to be a series of ups and downs.
I'm not going to focus on the Downs in this journal, though I am definitely still recovering from them.

here's some Ups instead:

- I have incredible roommates and local friends
- I got to attend my very first furry convention
- I got to meet a bunch of long-distance furry buddies for the first time
- I have glasses again finally so I am no longer blind at a distance
- I moved to a different room that feels much cozier and better suited for me and my cat
- I got to see one of my cousins for the first time in ages and she turned out to be very fun to hang out with
- Autumn is here and it is beautiful

Ye.

The Anthrocon was amazing, though. It had some problems, but I personally had an incredible time, and it blew all of the anime conventions I've attended way out of the water. It's been a long time since I last felt so at home in a space like that, and it was very soul healing. I look forward to going again, and hopefully next year I'll get to stay longer than a single day!

Bwaaa sorry for how quiet I've been art-wise... I've admittedly been kind of on the mend for a while now, and currently my own body is rebelling against me. It should pass soon, though.

Just one of those low points, I guess.

I promise I'll get back on the ball eventually, I'm just sorry if it takes me a while to get anything done in the meantime :[

I don't like how empty my gallery is, so I think I'm gonna work through posting a backlog of old art that I'm still fond of.
Sorry if that gets annoying or anything.

Well... I was hoping an ipad would help make me more productive, but turns out, I was on the cusp of a pretty severe creative burnout. I still doodle, I still update my adult patreon, but currently I'm struggling to do much of anything else. Being able to draw comfortably in bed has helped a lot, for sure, I just wish I weren't so burnt out. I wanted to open dooble themed commissions to help cushion me for the month after my phone bill got paid, but WELP! No creative energy.

On the plus side, our household is on the verge of getting bigger! It'll be a while still, but we're gonna have two good pals move in with us hopefully this year, so I'm really looking forward to that.
We were looking at a place to potentially move into, but things didn't line up and honestly I'm kind of glad? As nice as the place was, I don't think we could have all lived comfortably there, plus the timeframe was way too slim. That's okay though, I'm eager to see what awaits us over the horizon!

Other than that, I've been trying to go out of my way to enjoy time spent with local friends more when I can, and get out into the sun. Being stuck at my dads made doing even just that so hard, because I was isolated from everyone else, but living with my brother and his fiance helps a lot. It's so easy to get woken up and dragged out by my scruff on low energy days when I definitely need it, haha! FINALLY getting to do my own groceries has ruled, too. Aaah... There's been a few speed bumps, but nothing impossible to overcome. I'm definitely way happier here than where I previously was. Working toward a few more changed that will hopefully make things even better, as well!

Emotionally... things were really bad for a while, but I think I've finally gotten over the worst of it. Right now, I'm just happy to be alive and to be able to enjoy the warmth of sun on my skin, and the feeling of moss or a cat's fur under my hands.

[ragdolls] hi


Living with my roommates has been incredible, and I am the most content and happy I have been in a very very long time.

Also, I'll be getting my hands on an ipad so I'm really excited to get used to drawing on that and seeing how that affects my art. I've always figured that getting to draw directly onto a screen (when used to it) would make art a lot easier for me. So we'll see how true that theory is or not.

Also finally have a desktop computer again, so I'm excited to not have to rely on a potato laptop that is on its last legs. [wiggles]

Other than that, chipping away at patreon commissions and trying to stay sane by staying on my feet and hanging around my roommates n such.

Hope everyone's hanging in there, it's rough out there!

First of all, if you're following me from my previous account: THANK YOU!!
I was nervous about committing to the username change, but I needed to accept that I just wasn't vibing with the old one like I used to.
This one's also easier to type out and read! So, I think it's a very big improvement!

I think I'm going to repost some of the old stuff from my previous account, but I'll try to keep it to a minimum.

Second of all, I'm in the process of moving out! Finally!!
I don't know how well this new chapter in my life is going to go, or even how long it's going to last for, but I'm more excited than apprehensive!
I'll be living with Rooc and hltana !!

Once I'm settled in, I'm hoping to throw my resume around and get a job that isn't freelance again. My previous attempts have been, uhm... less than great.
Last attempt was kind of a disaster that I'm still really pissed off about, but they can't all be winners. Alas! <:/

Otherwise I'm. Okay.
I'm trying to take life one step at a time, and I'm definitely making progress, but I can't help but get incredibly frustrated and disheartened by how long it often takes, and how many setbacks I end up running into.
But that's life! I'll get over it and move on. You can't progress if you don't keep moving forward, after all, and I'm sure I'll be all the more stronger for it. So that's what I'm gonna keep doing.

I'm also still maintaining and updating my patreon! It's 90% for adult content though, so please don't interact with it if you're below the age of 18. Please. :[
You can check that out here if you're an interested adult!

That's all! Take care of yourselves, it's rough out there!