I just can't seem to focus on writing at the moment..
annoyingly enough..

just so you guys know of my problems again.

turning 32..
one year older but not one year smarter.

any interest?

I am drawing up a few things for others and I think I got time to draw a little extra on the side too..
so any interest in getting an art trade from me?

I am comfortable drawing canines and dragons at the moment.
so those I know I can draw.

so, any takers?

I do wanna return and I miss the chats with a few people, but it's just..
just how do you guys make it so it doesn't take over..
like sit down in front of the pc after work and when you look up next time it's 5 minutes to bedtime and you just sit there wondering where the day went..

so..
how do you guys keep it from taking over your life?

was cleaning up one of my aquariums and it slipped..

I just spent half an hour picking up crayfish up from the bathroom floor.
there were gravel everywhere, I got most of it up and in garbage bags now.

thankfully I got till tomorrow evening to clean the rest of it up.



I'm not realy ecpecting any responses, I just needed to went.

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21273698/
get me this one?
I just like the colors on this one.



if someone decides to get it for me.
I'm sure We cna find a way to get repaid.. be it a story or 3.



also, I'm honestly pretty sure no one here is going to try to get it for me.
I'd be pleasantly surprised if I get her, but i'm really doubting it'd happen.

I need to give skype and the like a break.

it's stressing me out..
I feel I have to respond RIGHT NOW when I hear the beep of an incoming message be it if I draw or write or game or anything..
I usually close down the game and so on when someone messages me, becausze i'm just not that good at multitasking.
that and I feel bad about not giving a chat/RP my full attention.

that and I've just been feeling down and lonely and I think/hope that taking a few days off and just focuses on myself would help a bit.
too much focusing on others and not enough focusing on myself has screwed with me before, so here's hoping.



I still got notes enabled if anyone want to chat/rp/has something they want to show.
and please let the RP posts be longer than 'I kiss you softly' if you wanna engage me in one.



I just can't take this any more.

my muse was back for a few days and helped me write a bit.
and now she's on vacation again.. At least she's not here to help me with my writing.

I am trying to draw again (It's hard for some reason..)
probably a mix of just pulling myself together and do it.. doesn't matter what,m just draw something..
it's a bitch and a half to get it scanned and uploaded.. I draw on A3 sized paper. Means I have to scan it in as two pieces and put them together in photoshop.
add that to the fact that my scanner has some 'auto improve' funnction that seems to love to autocrop my pictures. like that time I scanned in a sketch of a bust of Magicka. Itr decided to keep her right ear and about an inch around it. the rest was considered noise and cropped away..
so yeah, I don't really find spending 20 minutes to half an hour to be worth it.

and I am trying photoshop too, but it's just..
for me it's the same as doing finger paints with some expensive acrylic paints.
It's capable of so much more, I just have no idea what it is or just how to do any of it..
I am doing tutorials, they're just really starting from the start. 'this is how you open a new document in photoshop' start.

and in other news I am on furrymate and a local bigger dating site.
Furrymate seem to keep showing me profiles of ladies age 18 to 22, which is just too young for my tastes..
and on the other one I have yet to get any responses at all.. comments and likes and.. only thing I got back is '1 has visited your profile.' so..

yeah, just random about my life.

anyone does them?
anyone interested in doing one with me some time?

cute girl that'd volunteer..

I want to write romance, again..
I want to meet a cute girls, chat her up and just take things slow.. get to know her.. feel her out and what she's capable of..
probably lead to sex/unbirth and maybe other kinds of vore and other kinks (Tf) down the line.

preferably an arctic fox or a ninetales (Pokemon)
or a normal fox or kitsune of some kind..
wolf or other canine.



I dont expect anything out of it, but you never know unless you ask.

this is still on the very early idea stage so nothing might come of it..

I just keep seeing others offering piuctures and stories and so on with their sonas and characters.
and I satill try different things to get ym fans into this..
interact with you guys and maybe try to get to know a few of you a little better?

so..
who woudl you want to win a date with?
me? Darkie? someone else?
what would you do? and please keep it PG.
go to a reastaurrant and just chat her yp and enjoy an evening with one of us like that?
sit outside and look up at the moon adn tryig to be romantic?

Fairlyn can be either gender but prefers a female partner.
Darkie issn't too picky on the gender of her date, but just bear in mind being female has a bigger chance of getting a goodnight kiss..

we're having the last few hot days of the year.. last bit of a hot summer.
that always give me a hard time when writing..

and this time? *shrugs*
my muse seems to have decided she needed a break..
she's not here.. I'm having trouble writing..
and I already checked her den.. Found a sign outside saying 'on vacation'
so yeah.. doubt I can write anything soonish, sadly..

TL DR
too hot, can't focus on writing.
sadly.

so I still do have a fun time writing out with otyher's characters so I wanted to see if I could borrow a few charaters from my friends on here

what happens in the story can be anything from having a chat with Darkie about the best way to eat a partner or the best parts of being good prey to the finer nuances of a speciic kind of vore.
all the way up to maybe joining Vania in her current place.
other kinds of vore or ideas are welcomed too.

females preferred but I do accept males.
as long as said male characters are ok with getting turned into herms or females if they want to get really involved in the more intimate parts.

so, any takers or any questions?

F-list seems to have a focus on unwilling anything..

Eka's seems to be all about unwilling and fatal vore these days..

am I just having terrible luck?


and in case someone here is volunteering to RP with me..
i'm looking for someone to play a female.. warm loving, friendly and slightly submissive.
I'm wanting a longer running RP with romance and so on. and unbirth.

and nothing unwilling.

Still trying this

Can be to me or to any of my characters..
can be anything from PG to fully adult, and..
and about anything you guys are curious about.

I just reserve the right to not answer if the question is too personal.

so.. questions?

so.. I am practicing thew whole interacting with my fans thing.

So questions?

can be to me or to any of my characters..
can be anything from PG to fully adult, and..
and about anything you guys are curious about.

I just reserve the right to not answer if the question is too personal.

so.. questions?

Magicka (one of my characters. thew rounder red fox lady with green hair in my gallery) is feeling a bit out of practice and is goign to practice a few higher class spells..

Any suggestins as to what she should practice?


also I am looking for a voilunteer to help her with the spell.
I need a reference or descriotion
what will the spell do? can be as simple as 'fire infusion' or 'makes you more attractive to the other gender' ro 'turns the target into a (inset species here)'

so.. any takers?

had a good long chat with Recon1o6
keep in contact with the friends I got here that's still sticking around..
the one or two of them that are still around..

well, sorry for the scare for the guys that still read my stuff..

also.any idea how I can make something like this work on FA?
https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....it?usp=sharing

I feel lie I've outgrown thius place.. and the users on here..
it feels the majority of the users here are teens and i'm past that point of my life.. older and with other interests and so on..
the few commentsa and the one fave I get every 3 or 4 uploads I do, just isn't worth it..

that and the fact that people seem to just mistreat their characters in my eyes..
'bid to get a picture of my character having sex with one of yours'..
yes, I was like that with a few of my early and less developed characters, but I outgrew it rather quickly.
that among other things..

people come and people go.. and now it's my turn to go, I feel..
I have made quite a few frineds on here, most of which I haven't heard from in ages and the few I still got I got on skype..
so yeah, goodbye and thanks for the fun you've given me.

I might or might not be coming back, but I doubt it..
I have been pondering this since early december and I just really haven't got that much interest in furry art of the kind that is on here any longer..
that and getting any worthwhile feedback.

so.. goodbye.
I might be back, I might not.. not sure.
and I'll leave my gallery up. I could nbever see the meaning with pulling your art/stories down, personally..

got my pc back and it's rtunnign the way it's supposed to again.
power supply got fried and took the HardDisk with it..

and I never thought about taking backups..

I lost a lot.. character descriotions and story ideas and so on..
I got none of that.

I'm not sure what to do.. I think I'll start writing smaller one offs while figuring out what I do.

so happy birthday to me.

That is all.

and a happy new year to you all

I'm still sitting here on a borrowed mac, but I don't mind too much.

my pc died.

randomly shut down last night and now all that happens when I hit the power button is that the power light turns on.
that's it..

I'll have to wait till after new year's to take it to the shop..

just so you know why I'm not here

the first candidate I got and the closest to a new fursona is one I got from recon1o6
a kitsune/incubus mix with black fur and glowy bits.
the only thing about him is that he's really into sex..
like I close my eyes and try to seek out one of my girls mentally.
it ends up with him and said girl in bed goign at it until she's tired out and willing to go along with his wishes.
And then slowly nad carefully turning her into a sex toy/doll thing. (Think of it as a plush anthro with 3 clean holes and the mouth stuck in an 'O' shape) And then going back to keeping on satisfying himself with her.

that an d he likes males for one specific reason. they're fun to turn into a femlae before giving them the sex toy treatment.

I like him as my fursona and he seem to fit right in in the furry community.
I'm just not sure about being this sexually active.. I ean i'm sure my girls/clan has more to offer than just loads of different partners to have sex with and doing sexual stuff with..
He has thankfully gotten rid of my CTF interest.

Do I stick with him and see/hope that the sexual part is just something he has to go through?
I mean I did have touble with sexual stuff before this.. And allowing myself to enjoy that part of my characters.


the second character I was considering is my ninetales from my pokemon stories.
a male feral ninetales that really like turning anthro human ladies into feral pokemon.
not sure what he'd do with an anthro pokemon or an anthro furry.



a little part of me is pondering returning to an arctic fox male.
not the old Fairlyn as she's now fully female and goign by the name of Fayleena.
Fayleena is now a 3tailed kitsune female and a bit insecure about it all.



and another part of me ponders a normal human too.. Toi go without a fursona..


so yeah, lots of confusion going around here.

but Fair is still around, so no worries about that..
Fair just.. doesn't feel like my fursona any longer..



It started this mornig when I thought back at one of the alternative backstories for them and I realized It was from before I even had/created Fair.
And somehow I just went to think about how it'd be if I wasn't using a fursona.

the response was rather positive with Aurora (my spirit guide among other things) telling me it was about time I stopped hiding from them behind a character I created.
and the other girls being rater forward and a bit more 'there' mentally afterwards and the rest of the day.



and during the day I just saw myself sitting there with Fair beside me and just looking at her and going 'I.. You're me..'

Fair feels totally ok with it..
like as a few of you might have known one of the kinks I had with Fair is I liked doing CTF with him/her with whoever CTF'ing me taking over my role in thw clan..
Or lose a match with anothger male and letting him take over as the alpha while letting myself getitng turned into a lady, into his lady.
and now Fair is lady, my lady and she feels really happy about that so far.



So in the end I'm me, human and Fair, my old fursona is just one of my really close girls now.
I think a few of the kinks Fair got was for Fair and not for me now too..

So in the end it leaves e happy, with stronger bonds and a lot more questions I need to figure out.


And this means I have no idea what to do with any of the RP's I got going at all.
like I don't want to keep playing as Fair because she doesn't feel like my fursona..

Sorry for being this confused.