So I have decided to not do any more humansona stuff, and to delete those pieces off my accounts, because I don't feel comfortable with keeping those pieces online anymore. It feels weird having basically myself in fetish art, and even feels kind of dangerous? I've felt scared about the possibility of those pieces being connected to me irl somehow, and blocking me from future opportunities, or like someone I know irl finding them, and I feel uncomfortable letting myself be like
sexualized like that?
I don't know, just feels really weird to keep those. So I will not be doing anything more with that sona, I'm just gonna do stuff with my fursona and other human ocs.

Hey, so there are several things I want to get your guys' opinions on that I want to ask about.

1. Do you guys think it would be a good idea to continue with my work on my iPad? Like I've said, I use both my iPad and Procreate for art, as well as an XP Pen tablet and Clip Studio on my laptop, and I enjoy both, but I also have my problems with both. Lately I have had very wonky linework with my tablet, been having trouble getting things to look right, so I've been thinking of going back to my iPad for a bit. The last piece I posted, the Lionel one, was an iPad one, and I've done some of my fave pieces on there, the Fluttershy and Rarity pear one, the pony Spongebob shape one, the Lightning blimp, the Max kaiju piece, a lot of good stuff, it's just I've also had a lot of ones I didn't really like how they came out done on there too, and I worry a lot about if pieces on there actually look good or not, so I guess just want to make sure you guys would be cool with that based off what I have done on there.

2. Is there anything in particular that you guys think I could improve or work on with my art? I know that my art is very much not perfect, it's got its flaws, and I'm curious to see if there is anything in particular you guys notice about it that I can work on and improve on. I'm always aiming for making my work even better and more appealing.

Just feel like asking these questions right now and seeing how you guys feel.

I'm gonna focus on making more of my stuff have the kind of look these pieces have

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/61615683/

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/61369131/

I want to continue using the pen I used on these, trying to get the lines looking as good as these, getting the colours looking as good, just aiming for making my art more consistent and consistently looking as good as these.

Hey, just wanted to apologize for still posting very on and off, taking a while on things, and having to say no to some people art-wise, uh
basically been dealing with issues with my style, which I am slowly working through, and having said yes to a lot of people all at once, which is still an issue I am working on.
So please bear with me, I'm slowly working through these things, and I'm hopefully gonna have more to post soon, as well as hopefully more regular posts once I learn to put some limits on how much I take at a time lol.

So I will be completely honest: I still really like this stuff, I think this stuff will always be a part of me obviously, but
I feel like the extent I have been interacting with it lately as of late is unhealthy.
Every day, I constantly think about drawing this stuff and when I can draw it, I constantly look at it on my phone even when around family, I rp a lot even when with family, almost everyone I talk to are people who are fetish artists or people who like that stuff and talk about it a lot, it's just constantly there, a part of my life, and it just feels at times like an addiction, like I put all of my focus onto this when I have all sorts of other interests and things I want to spend time on and work on, and it's like
it's hard, it's really hard to fight that impulse. I don't really know what to do, because I still want to draw this stuff and engage with the community, but I feel like it is affecting me mentally to an extent. I don't know.

So I've been wanting to do more with my iPad lately, like it's very convenient to use, and
the thing is, I have gotten stuff from it I like a lot, like these ones were iPad pics:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/58929605/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/58776165/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/58040700/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/57958752/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56219932/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/58344578/
and I love how these came out, these are some of my all-time fave pics I've done, but now whenever I use my iPad, I just never get a look for my linework I feel happy with and I get frustrated as hell, and I can't tell if it's just me, or just something has genuinely happened to the setup that's made it almost impossible to get results like that at ALL. I don't know, it's been very annoying.

I'm maybe a little late to this, but just wanted to say thank you guys so much for all the watches, like
I dunno, it feels nice to know this many people vibe with my work, so I want to thank all of you lots and just say I appreciate the support for my work a lot, expect to continue seein a lot of it ^^

Hey everyone, so the friend in need I mentioned has made an account here, so if you can, recommend giving him a watch, he does some cute stuff. :0

https://www.furaffinity.net/user/shebamywife/

So I have a mutual who is currently not in the best financial situation: they do not have a job at the moment, and their family generally does not have the money for their bills or food, so they are currently open for emergency commissions. If you can, please either look into them for a commission, or share their profiles around.
They are currently posting on bluesky: mrcockyanderson

and Instagram: loonassimp

They need help, so I just feel like at least trying to give them some help.

Their commission sheet: Mr.Acom sheet

So good news: I am finally pretty much cleared out of the queue I have been working on for a while, the sequence I just posted is the last major thing that was in it, as were the last couple things before that, so
yea, feels good to not have such a major workload on myself now, it feels very good getting everything done and also having it all come out in a way I'm pretty happy with.

So that means one thing: I will be more open to trades and commissions from here on! Just understand a couple things about this though:

1. I don't want to take too much and lead to another pile of lots of work I get overwhelmed by. It's a problem I've had for a while, and I'm still trying to figure it out.

2. I still kinda tend to have a lot of issues with feeling happy with how my work looks, and what tools I use, so I'm probably going to continue just kind of switching back and forth between different tools and such. I have several pens I like a lot and want to stick with right now, but admittedly I'm most likely still gonna experiment with different pens and such.

3. I'm still trying to figure out how to not take so much time on my work as I have. Like pieces take me weeks to months to finish, and uh
I'd really rather it take me like hours or days to finish lol, so that's another thing I'm still spending time to figure out.

But yeah, with those in mind, I will be more open than I have been the last while, and I will also be trying to do more for fun stuff as well, so
depending on how I'm doing, I will be more open to taking trades, commissions, or even just suggestions for fun stuff.

Thank you guys for following and supporting me btw, I really appreciate it, and I appreciate all you guys being understanding of all my art issues, I'm workin on them lol.

So I will be completely honest: lately I have not really had the best time working on my art the last little bit, like every time I think I'm happy with my work, I end up having something come up that makes me feel unhappy with it for a while. Like I've been dealing with issues both on my iPad and my art tablet, I haven't had a great time getting my lineart to look how I want it to, when I do I still feel like my work looks like
stiff, boring, lifeless, and I'm just having a hard time trying to deal with these.

I really want to change how I work, I want to spend more time actually like getting a piece done quick, not spending days, weeks, months on it, I want to not care so much about making my lineart look sleek and smooth, I want to give my work a looseness and a life to it I feel it doesn't have, I want to make it look really good!!!

I tend to get people feeling kind of confused what I mean about the stiff and boring thing, so I'm gonna give examples of artists who do lineart that I like and is what I want to go for in that sense:

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/49613561/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/60390196/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/60221916/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59833354/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59289673/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/60009137/

Basically: I do all of my work in smooth, consistent lines, always try to keep them very rigid, and I feel like it doesn't make my art pop, like my work just looks...bleh. I admire all of these artists and pieces, I love the way the lineart looks. I love that it's not all done in consistent lines, the lines don't always connect perfectly, they're not done with perfectly solid pens, they're not perfectly smooth, but they still look so friggin' hot. And there's a pop to these I don't see in my own work. I want to have that pop, but...it's gonna take me a long time to get to that, and I'm still having some trouble figuring it out.

So yea, just...I want my work to stand out more than it does currently. I want it to look more loose, more lively than it does currently. And I'm trying to figure that out. I hope you guys understand like where I'm coming from with all of this.

tryin to figure out how to make drawing this kinda stuff feel fun again

I have been dealing for a long time with the issue of trying to get back into drawing kink stuff for fun again, because it's very weird, like
I used to be able to pick a character, figure out something fast for them, and draw something in like an hour or two, and I was happy getting to do that! But now if I think of an idea, I don't know what to do with it visually, or like I do figure something out but it stagnates for months or years, and I can't do my own thing the way I used to.

Like I can think of a lot of normal art ideas pretty easily every day, and I still have a passion drawing like ideas friends share with me and such, but yea, for some reason drawing my own kink stuff for fun has been a struggle, one that I still have not cracked, and I have no idea why. Like maybe I'm depressed, and the only thing I can do is work on non-kink stuff for a bit, and maybe that'll help. Or maybe I need to find something that will help me find that fun in drawing this stuff I used to again. Or maybe I'm only good for visualizing other people's ideas, and I should just stick with that and expend my own personal creative energy solely on normal things. I don't know.

I still enjoy drawing this stuff a lot, I just don't feel that fun like I used to exactly, like 4, 5 years ago.

I feel like my lines when I ink look very stiff and boring, but I don't know how to fix that

So recently I have been trying to save up enough money to get a new tablet because admittedly
I've had feelings of inadequacy with my art on my ipad, and I've wanted to go back to clip studio, and finally
with saving up from commissions and my GST, I finally was able to order an XP PEN tablet this time, and I've been testing it, and I can confirm:
this is already feeling way better than the last tablet I got, so I am feeling excited to start working on more art outside of just sketching!! Feeling very hyped!! : )

Sorry for not having anything to post yet this year, I am trying to figure out multiple things rn, like
trying to get a new art tablet, figuring out if I should finish some things on my iPad, which I am kind of having a lot of issues with and feel like it has made my art come out mediocre as of late, just stuff like that.
Hoping to get things right to the point of being able to get an image done a day, but no idea if I'll be able to do that, but I'll try, just yea
figuring out some things, hoping my art and my output of it will improve.

Hoping this year, I'll draw and post more than I did last year. I'm just stuck because I don't like using my ipad, and I want to go back to Clip Studio, but
gotta wait and save up for another tablet, an XP PEN one this time

So I'm gonna be completely honest, I have not had fun with art the past while because working on my iPad, like
I love the way the sketches turn out, but goddamn it, I can't get the lineart, the colours, the backgrounds looking right! Shit!
And my current Huion tablet feels BAD, like as bad as my last one was at the end of its life, so
I need to save up for a new tablet, I don't have a lot of money at the moment, so I'm thinking of just doing quick sketch coms, and putting some other things on hold until I have a tablet, because I think my art looks not that good, and I don't want it to keep looking not that good.

I want to do more stuff with a shape of this kinda style, but man
I'd love to make it not look like ass: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/58017676/

Honestly feel that way about a lot of the pieces I do: after I post them, I'm like "man, I want to do more with this shape, but make it look less bad next time."

I know I still go hard on the kink stuff, and trust me, I will for a long while still, but eventually I do want to break out of it and do some normal projects too; it's just tough because I have things I know I want to do, influences I have, but it's hard fitting them into something concrete, you know, like

I wanna mess around with comics, filmmaking, video art, and all the things I like are like

underground comix, 90s cartoons (veering on the side of Ren & Stimpy and Rocko's Modern Life), pop art, musings on spirituality, 90s anime, arthouse films, noise music, games like Katamari Damacy and the stuff Treasure makes, hyper stylized horror films, just

a whole jumble of things and ideas that I have no idea where to go with?

I know I want to do stuff with my ocs, and I want to do something like Ren and Stimpy, but without the things I dislike from that series and even more expressionistic and unsettling. I dunno, lots of just weird ideas, but still not sure where to go with it or how to structure it lol

So I know my recent output has been pretty odd, I have been messing around and experimenting more, but man, I need to get weirder. Like I need to push my variety even more, push my proportions and shapes even further, just really get exaggerated and over the top with things man. Like
I dunno, I just like really making my stuff just really look exaggerated as hell man

I remember there's an artist I tried contacting before because they did art that wasn't like
the best? But they drew a lot of stuff of pretty eclectic character choices that I could vibe with, and we at least started talking for a little bit, then I went further into their gallery, and I found out they literally got fat fetish edits of like
real photos of real birds, like
just straight up actual crows and bluejays and such edited to have big bellies and butts and thought bubbles being like "Man, I love being fat so much! It's so nice!"; as soon as I saw that, immediately blocked that guy and cut all ties with them. I still think a lot about that one ngl, like why would you want to get something like that?

Wow, was not expecting the response to that recent post to be so positive, like
a lot of faves already lol; I've been dealing with difficulties with Clip Studio lately, and as annoying as it is to flip flop, I think I am just gonna go back to Procreate and my iPad, especially after seeing the response to this new one, like
I kept feeling like my Procreate stuff looked like ass, but everyone told me that stuff actually looked better than my older Clip Studio stuff, and looking back at some of those pieces, I think you guys were right and I was just being overly self-critical

still need to work on backgrounds and colouring with Procreate, but I think the lineart was better than I gave myself credit for, so ye, I will go back to that software again

but yea, thank you guys for the response to that recent piece, I'm happy you're vibing with it, and it honestly helps me figure out what to do with my art from here on, so I appreciate it a lot.