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Posted 3 years agohttps://youtu.be/FR7wOGyAzpw
That's how long it's been since I created Fayde.
What a wild ride it's been.
That's how long it's been since I created Fayde.
What a wild ride it's been.
Remember Remember the 5th of November
Posted 5 years agoBecause tomorrow is my birthday. I'll be 39.
It's been a long while since I update this, so I'll try to go over some things.
When I was 35 I found out I was bi-polar with brain damage. The corpus callosum which is what allows the two halves of my brain to communicate was damaged when I was very young, so when I go from a manic episode to a depressed state I can no longer determine the difference between fantasy and reality.
I'm getting weekly treatments and medication for it, and managing quite well since 2017.
I know this has been a rough year for everyone, but in particular my mom. She has been having severe health problems since last June and had to stop working, and we found out in the last month that she has lymphoma. Fortunately, it is the kind that is treatable and curable, but the chemo and radiation are pretty rough on her.
My sister set up a gofundme which I will link below. Even if you can't donate, just spreading the link around will help a bunch. This is all I ask for my birthday.
Thank you all and have a happy holiday season. <3
https://www.gofundme.com/f/medical-.....or-becky-hogan
It's been a long while since I update this, so I'll try to go over some things.
When I was 35 I found out I was bi-polar with brain damage. The corpus callosum which is what allows the two halves of my brain to communicate was damaged when I was very young, so when I go from a manic episode to a depressed state I can no longer determine the difference between fantasy and reality.
I'm getting weekly treatments and medication for it, and managing quite well since 2017.
I know this has been a rough year for everyone, but in particular my mom. She has been having severe health problems since last June and had to stop working, and we found out in the last month that she has lymphoma. Fortunately, it is the kind that is treatable and curable, but the chemo and radiation are pretty rough on her.
My sister set up a gofundme which I will link below. Even if you can't donate, just spreading the link around will help a bunch. This is all I ask for my birthday.
Thank you all and have a happy holiday season. <3
https://www.gofundme.com/f/medical-.....or-becky-hogan
Furry Network
Posted 9 years agoGonna start transferring my galleries over to there, but fear not I will still be uploading to FA for as long as the site remains active. If you want to follow all of my accounts or just specific ones I will list them all here.
Fayde
http://www.furrynetwork.com/fayde
My four armed panther and main character of nearly two decades since I started playing him on Furcadia in '98 as well as D&D
Randy
http://www.furrynetwork.com/randyhoss
The big hoss! Expect a lot of hyper, horses, butts, mares, mare butts, horse butts, and more butts! Gotta love those big ol donuts!
Udende
http://www.furrynetwork.com/udende
My zebra / impala hybrid. I call her a zebala. Busty, curvy, sultry. Basically a female OC I created to use in commissions with my own and others' characters.
You can also catch my gaming streams over on Mixer at http://mixer.com/FaydeDarksun
And my records of past streams will be available over at https://www.youtube.com/user/faydetoblack
And there you have it. Feel free to follow some or all of those accounts if you have decided to search for an alternative to this site.
~Fayde
Fayde
http://www.furrynetwork.com/fayde
My four armed panther and main character of nearly two decades since I started playing him on Furcadia in '98 as well as D&D
Randy
http://www.furrynetwork.com/randyhoss
The big hoss! Expect a lot of hyper, horses, butts, mares, mare butts, horse butts, and more butts! Gotta love those big ol donuts!
Udende
http://www.furrynetwork.com/udende
My zebra / impala hybrid. I call her a zebala. Busty, curvy, sultry. Basically a female OC I created to use in commissions with my own and others' characters.
You can also catch my gaming streams over on Mixer at http://mixer.com/FaydeDarksun
And my records of past streams will be available over at https://www.youtube.com/user/faydetoblack
And there you have it. Feel free to follow some or all of those accounts if you have decided to search for an alternative to this site.
~Fayde
FWA
Posted 9 years agoCouldn't make it this year, hope to next year tho.
Everyone traveling be safe and have a good time in Atlanta this weekend <3
~Fayde
Everyone traveling be safe and have a good time in Atlanta this weekend <3
~Fayde
Pokemon Day
Posted 9 years agoSo it's the 20th anniversary of Pokemon today. Normally I don't get into it much but I would really like to see some sexy Pikachus and a few others if anyone is posting art today
Need art?
Posted 10 years agoSecond Life
Posted 10 years agoDidn't know you all would like the screen shot I took from Second Life so much. Should I do more? Don't want to flood my gallery but if anyone is interested I could try doing more shots and poses. What would anyone be interested in seeing?
Streaming Fallout 4
Posted 10 years agoSomeone really likes anime
Posted 10 years agoeviction
Posted 10 years agoSo my roomies just gave me 30 days to find a new place to live. Anyone in the Nashville, Murfreesboro, or Columbia TN area got a stable for a hoss? o.o
HELP
Posted 10 years agoJust dropped my laptop and the power cord broke. Only have limited battery life left and my new job doesn't start until 9/30 >.<
Can someone please just tell me when I'm gonna catch a break?
Can someone please just tell me when I'm gonna catch a break?
Moved
Posted 10 years agoFinally got moved in, net set up and ready to roll again. Sorry if I missed faving any good art over the last month or so but it's been very hectic. How is everyone else doing?
Moving
Posted 10 years agoGonna be offline until internet gets hooked up at the new place. Be back when I can.
Do I matter?
Posted 10 years agoFirst of all watch this fantastic video that helped me come to terms with a lot of stress from the channel of Zfrank and featuring SciShow's own Hank Green.
https://youtu.be/wzRVomefcNM
There don't you feel better already? :)
So yes. I matter. I can tell that I matter to a lot of people, but at the same time I realize that I'm not a popufur by any standards. Just look at my page views. They didn't really start going up steadily until about a year ago when my art commissions were pretty regular for a long period.
Anyway, here's what I'm getting at. If you've ever tried to talk to me maybe on a bad day or something and I snapped or made you feel bad. I apologize for that. It's something that I think about and stress about a lot when I'm trying to get some sleep and it's kept me awake many many nights.
Everyone has bad days, and I know that's not really an excuse for my attitude and my actions, but it's all I've got. Really... there's nothing else despite all the IRL bullshit and drama and just general every day stuff that goes on this side of the screen.
So what happens now? Now you have to decide for yourself if you matter or not. If you are the kind of person that is unable to determine for yourself if you matter or not, then I would suggest seeking professional help right away. It helped me get my depression and anxiety under control when I was in a very rough patch of my life and considering ending it all.
I'm still here, and don't intend to go anywhere for at least another decade if I can help it, but I can't see the future. I could be gone tomorrow, and if I am then so long and thanks for all the fish!
...See You Space Cowboy
https://youtu.be/wzRVomefcNM
There don't you feel better already? :)
So yes. I matter. I can tell that I matter to a lot of people, but at the same time I realize that I'm not a popufur by any standards. Just look at my page views. They didn't really start going up steadily until about a year ago when my art commissions were pretty regular for a long period.
Anyway, here's what I'm getting at. If you've ever tried to talk to me maybe on a bad day or something and I snapped or made you feel bad. I apologize for that. It's something that I think about and stress about a lot when I'm trying to get some sleep and it's kept me awake many many nights.
Everyone has bad days, and I know that's not really an excuse for my attitude and my actions, but it's all I've got. Really... there's nothing else despite all the IRL bullshit and drama and just general every day stuff that goes on this side of the screen.
So what happens now? Now you have to decide for yourself if you matter or not. If you are the kind of person that is unable to determine for yourself if you matter or not, then I would suggest seeking professional help right away. It helped me get my depression and anxiety under control when I was in a very rough patch of my life and considering ending it all.
I'm still here, and don't intend to go anywhere for at least another decade if I can help it, but I can't see the future. I could be gone tomorrow, and if I am then so long and thanks for all the fish!
...See You Space Cowboy
Hello new watchers!
Posted 10 years agoSo those pics I got from Meade must have been pretty good! If you like what you see be sure to go visit the artist at https://www.weasyl.com/~spottyjaguar
Beta
Posted 10 years agoLet's give this FA beta thing a try shall we?
FWA recap and a question for my fans
Posted 10 years agoHad a great time. Met a lot of friends that I hadn't seen for a year and met new ones. Wish I hadn't been so shy but sometimes that happens to me IRL. If you had intended to meet me there and didn't I would like to just apologize profusely for my social phobias.
Anyhow. What I wanted to ask was if I should make a separate gallery for my horse character Randy. Just to keep the confusion down on which of my three mains is which. Or would it just create more confusion? I'm already juggling two accounts and not sure I really want a third to deal with.
Let me know what you think in the comments below.
~Fayde
Anyhow. What I wanted to ask was if I should make a separate gallery for my horse character Randy. Just to keep the confusion down on which of my three mains is which. Or would it just create more confusion? I'm already juggling two accounts and not sure I really want a third to deal with.
Let me know what you think in the comments below.
~Fayde
Off to FWA
Posted 10 years agoHope to see everyone there!
FWA
Posted 10 years agoWho else is going?
NSFW
Posted 10 years agoIf you wanna be my mare you don't have to be equine. Sometimes there are elf mares too. http://gyazo.com/9d7d0989b6a05bce29f0fdbbfd577b6e NSFW link
It's a living
Posted 10 years agoOh look it's Randy doing what he does best
https://33.media.tumblr.com/591e3d7.....o1_r2_1280.gif
https://33.media.tumblr.com/591e3d7.....o1_r2_1280.gif
Happy Nude Rear
Posted 11 years agoStay safe and have a Happy New Year <3
Happy Holidays
Posted 11 years agoHave a Holly Jolly Christmas, Hanukah, Qwanza, New Year!
PRO TIP: Interacting with Fayde
Posted 11 years agoDO NOT try to RP, small talk, or just say "hi" through FA's note system
There are various other ways to contact me listed on my profile the easiest ones being Second Life and Skype, however I WILL NOT ACCEPT RANDOM ADD REQUESTS. If I have no way of knowing who you are then I will most likely decline your add, friend, etc request and possibly block you if you continuously send them without any sort of note letting me know who you are. Get that crap enough from bots as it is. -.-
That being said, I do appreciate all my fans and if you are shy or would just like to get to know me better please have something more to put in your notes than "hi" or "what's up?" or "how you doin?" please please please. We can have a conversation through notes if there is no other way possible but shooting one sentence back and forth tries my patience to no end.
TL:DR notes are for long talks, Skype and SL for chats ;)
~Fayde
There are various other ways to contact me listed on my profile the easiest ones being Second Life and Skype, however I WILL NOT ACCEPT RANDOM ADD REQUESTS. If I have no way of knowing who you are then I will most likely decline your add, friend, etc request and possibly block you if you continuously send them without any sort of note letting me know who you are. Get that crap enough from bots as it is. -.-
That being said, I do appreciate all my fans and if you are shy or would just like to get to know me better please have something more to put in your notes than "hi" or "what's up?" or "how you doin?" please please please. We can have a conversation through notes if there is no other way possible but shooting one sentence back and forth tries my patience to no end.
TL:DR notes are for long talks, Skype and SL for chats ;)
~Fayde
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