Thank you very much to all who came by to wish me a happy birthday. I'm 22 and still chugging along...here's hopping there's many more good b-days.

so, i'm back officially. My previous laptop simply died, along with a lot of my stuff. I've bought a new one though. I've not really kept up with this journal, and i know there's no one listening. But i figured i'd speak anyway. Life has improved in many ways. But not in the one way that matters most to me. Guess it's time to keep fighting.

So, for those few i was able to contact, already know that my disappearance was due to my laptop dieing. my life being how it is...my laptop chose to die on christmas day. the good news is i'm set up with a used mac laptop now, which i'll probably be using for a long while to come. once i get everything installed and up and running again...be sure to look for me around my usual haunts. between yim and on here, i'll be around again finally. been one hell of a last few weeks, but at least it's past now.

To often in life, life seems like it's not worth living. one terrible thing after another, only rain when what we need more then life itself is sun. I've lost my scholarship to my college. But i suppose it speaks to who i am that as i write this i realize and feel guilty, because there are many who don't even get the attempt at college had. take it from me, being a hero sucks in this twisted world. So i find myself writing another depressing journal. is there hope? yes, there is, i may be able to stay at the college, if not, i can switch to another nearby one. either way, this has put me under intense stress and emotional pain. more or less like ever other big thing in my life has so far, with only a few exceptions. I'm not going to give up. but i'm not getting through this unscarred either. This has been one of the worst case scenarios for my college career, and yet again in my life, a worst case scenario has come true. i'll see everyone later, hope you're all doing better then i am right now. may your holidays be happy.

just dropping a quick journal out to say i got back from the vacation. it was pretty good despite family. but in the end it was well worth it, so back and around for the next few weeks, before the prep for next year of college starts.

well it's time for the family vacation, one week long trip down to PA coming up! i'll be off and gone for this coming week, i should be back by Monday 23rd. hope everyone has a good time and a fun week. i'll see you all upon return!

i've come to a distrubing conclusion. life with my family is actively corrosive on my soul and mind. how fucked up is that? my dad's utter complete submission to my mom. my sister's annoying mannerisms...and my mom's sheer selfish hypocritcaly behavior. i've had it. it's tearing my already weak self to shreads, one peice at a time. living here this summer has become a corrosive thing for me. i find it harder then ever to enjoy just about anything, games, books ect. i can't seem to keep up my conversations with those online like i used to(i apologize to those i talk to online, i'm working on it). my creative process is shot. i'm snappy and easy to anger. my only saving graces is that i have awesome freinds, and only need to make it a little farther and i'll be back in college. well, just thought i'd update, even if bad news.

so...despite all attempts by fate, life in general and college to crush me, it looks like i've made it through. I've lost things i can never hope to replace...such as my former mate. course...i should have known...that love is no victory march, only a sad and broken hallelujah. (god i love that quote). so, this is me, having finished my first year of college. this is me having finally written somthing. this is me stepping forward into an unkown future. This me...cold...broken, crying...but not giving in. one way or another, i will make it. to you, my former mate and lover, i wish you a happy life. to those who are my close freinds, thank you for all your help. From this point forward...i will keep my head high, and my ears perked. this is, my story, my life.

once again...i'm writing a journal i know few will see. but that's not important anymore really. what is...is that i've written it. there will be no white flag. My last journal told of pain and sorrow, of a heart broken mere days after being fixed. perhaps one of the cruelest jokes of fate yet. yet...i can't blame the one who did it, nor could i ever. there will be no white flag. I wanted to die. it's a simple feeling, and very persistent. you see, i'm slightly antisocial, rather excentiric, very creative.....and utter scared to death that i'll end up all alone. There will be no white flag. how do you live, with a broken heart? how do you survive? unfortunately, i know all to well, as i was broken long before meeting my lover...and now i am yet again. but i will not see the oblivion of death. I Refuse To Surrender. so here i am, saying to all who might be listening, i'm moving forward. not getting over it....but at least moving forward. one way...or another. There will be no white flag, and if i have to wage a war against all hope and fate simply to be happy......so be it, there will be no white flag.

so, it's only now that i start writing again. i plan to start being on here more activly, with any luck...maybe even write again. but that's not why i'm writing this. I don't know, if anyone's listening anymore. if anyone cares anymore. Funny how when your surrounded by people you can feel so utterly alone. the person i had perfect trust, and near perfect love for...rejected me in part...and is forever beyond my reach. my greatest nightmere, one that haunted me for so long, brought to life by the one i trusted most in my life. racked with true pain, hunted, hurt, broken....i'm sick, so sick of being broken, of being hurt. Yet my body is cursed. my soul as well. I have drive, force, will, power, and desire...and that won't let me simply give in and die. I have belief and faith that things will get better, so i simply keep exposing myself to this acrid pain called life. and by this point i'm sure that half of you who would be reading this have written it off as another anxsty post from some emotional fool. well, you'd be right i suppose. I don't know who, if anyone, will read this. and i suppose it truly doesn't matter, anymore. my life will go on, will forever go onwards, despite knowing my one true love, is forever beyond my reach. Knowing pain, knowing sarrow. I've paid the price for falling in love. and you know what....it was worth every moment of this grand pain. love was worth it. for however short a time, i wasn't broken. so here's to life, here's to me....and here's to the hope, that i won't have to be alone, for much longer."

In google, type your name, then a verb, all in quotes, and see what gets pulled up:

Jacob Trys:
Jacob trys 2 jump rocks (cause apparently rocks are tough to jump!)

Jacob Battles:
Jacob battles with Robert Moses (dunno who he is, but i guess i fought him and won!)

Jacob Eats:
Jacob eats a crawdad (always wondered what they tasted like.)

Jacob Attempts:
Jacob attempts to re-locate a goat (.....to where!?)

Jacob Plays:
Jacob plays Dragons of Kir (murr...new dragon skin boots.)

Jacob Throws:
Jacob throws his dog bowl (WTF?)

Jacob Hates:
Jacob hates Ben (Curse you Ben!!!!!)

Jacob Eliminates:
Jacob eliminates defending champ of state tourney (because i'm evil!)

Jacob Takes Over:
Jacob takes over Soup Spoon in Welches (no comment.)


Well everyone, this was an awesome meme...i wish you all a merry xmas!

So. I promised myself to do a better job of updateing my jouirnals and my FA page....i failed in this. Hopefully my more organized schedual now will help me do more upkeep of this page. As is, orientation just ended for me. I am loving my college campus, as it is small enough to be easy to find where i need to go. It's looking like quite the place...even if the classes are supposed to be harder here. Roomate is awesome and we're getting along fine, i don't see any big issues as of yet. So yeah, will try and get more journals out and post more of my writings."

So, first of all to all who have yet to hear, i'm off for an entire week as of tomarrow, for family vacation. We're heading down into PA for a week, and will not have any internet acess what so ever. On the good side of things, this vacation is a much welcome chance for foxy to enjoy nature and get some much needed relaxing done. On the horizon, College is approching!...all the forms that need to be filled out suck ass!...but there is good news, have picked classes, one of which will be intro to creative writing, and another will be Fencing, which will be much fun. Oh! also have chatted with my roomate some, and he seems to be a pretty cool guy. So yeah, that's most everything for now, will see you all in a week!

I've been out of the loop for roughly 1&1/4 years. My mother tore the wireless chip clean out of my old laptop. She attempted to prevent me from two things....one, from escaping her control. She loves me yes, but she seeks to control unconsciously. Secondly, she sought to prevent me from my mate, Hitomi. In both aspects, she has hereby failed. I write this journal in declaration that no matter what happens to you, no matter whether you be fur, human or something else, There is always hope. No matter how deep the darkness, or how blinding the light, there is always a way, there is always hope. I'm not proud of what i've done, it took a year long lie and complex deception to merely survive. yet...i don't hate my mom, i hate what she did. Now, i own my own laptop, my own life, my own power....college starts in september...and then....i'll be free. Despite all the costs...when i get to kiss my lover deeply and hold him tight to me....it will have all been worth it. Even now, it is worth it merely for being able to be back online. so here i am now, letting those who may still care know, that i have returned.

hehe...saw this one and thought it would be fun to do considering that i've done almost nothing on this list...lol.

1. Smoked.
2. Drank alcohol.
3. Cried when someone died.
4. Been drunk.
5. Had sex.
6. Been to a concert.
7. Gotten/given a handjob.
8. Gotten/given a blowjob.
9. Been verbally/sexually harassed.
10. Verbally/sexually harassed somebody.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 98

11. Felt someone up and/or been felt up.
12. Laughed so hard something came out of your nose.
13. Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfrend before.
14. Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend.
15. Been to prom.
16. Cried at school.
17. Gotten lost in a WalMart or a department store.
18. Went streaking.
19. Given or received a lap dance.
20. Had someone of the opposite sex in your room.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 96

21. Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over.
22. Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house.
23. Kissed a stranger.
24. Hugged a stranger.
25. Went scuba diving.
26. Driven a car.
27. Gotten an x-ray.
28. Hit by a car.
29. Had a party.
30. Done serious drugs.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 93

31. Played strip poker/darts/basketball.
32. Got paid to strip for someone.
33. Run away from home.
34. Broken a bone.
35. Eaten sushi.
36. Bought porn.
37. Watched porn.
38. Made porn.
39. Had a crush on someone of the same sex.
40. Been in love.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 89

41. French kissed.
42. Laughed so hard you cried.
43. Cried yourself to sleep.
44. Laughed yourself to sleep.
45. Stabbed yourself.
46. Shot a gun.
47. Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day.
48. Been online for 9 consecutive hours.
49. Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours.
50. Watched an animal die.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 86

51. Watched a person die.
52. Kissed and/or messed around somewhere with at least 1 person present.
53. Pranked somebody.
54. Put somebody in the hospital.
55. Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out.
56. Kissed somebody of the same sex.
57. Dressed punk.
58. Dressed goth.
59. Dressed preppy.
60. Been to a motocross race.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 86

61. Avoided somebody.
62. Been stalked.
63. Stalked someone.
64. Met a celebrity.
65. Played an instrument.
66. Ridden a horse.
67. Cut yourself.
68. Bungee jumped.
69. Ding dong ditched somebody.
70. Been to a wild party.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 84

71. Got caught stealing something.
72. Kicked/punched a guy in the balls.
73. Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend.
74. Gone out with your friend's crush.
75. Got arrested.
76. Been pregnant.
77. Babysat.
78. Been to another country.
79. Started your house on fire.
80. Had an encounter with a ghost.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 82

81. Donated your hair to cancer patients.
82. Been asked out by someone that you never thought you'd be asked out by.
83. Cried over a family member of the opposite sex.
84. Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for 3 months or more.
85. Sat on your butt all day.
86. Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself.
87. Had a job.
88. Gotten cut from a sports team.
89. Been called a whore.
90. Danced like a whore

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 81

91. Been mistaken for a celebrity.
92. Been in a car accident.
93. Been told you have beautiful eyes.
94. Been told you have beautiful hair.
95. Raped somebody.
96. Danced in the rain.
97. Been rejected.
98. Walked out of a restaurant without paying.
99. Punched someone/slapped someone in the face.
100. Been raped.

78%...and most of that due to things like played an instrument and been to another country....i've just not been around much i guess...hehe, not that that's a bad thing...murr.

hehe, got this meme from kuntos.

[] I am shorter than 5'4
[] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[] I have many scars.
[] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different colour.
[] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair colour.
[] I have a tattoo.
[] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x] I have/I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses.
[] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[] I have more than 2 piercing.(hehe, no piercings)
[] I have/have had piercing in places besides my ears.
[] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
[] I've sworn at my parents.
[] I've run away from home.
[] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[] I want to have kids someday.
[] I've had children.
[] I've lost a child.

School/Work
[x] I'm in school
[] I have a job
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[] I've missed a week or more of school.
[x] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[] I failed more than 1 class last year
[] I've stolen something from my job
[] I've been fired

Embarrassment
[] I've slipped out
[] Disney movies still make me cry.
[] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[] I've glued my hand to something.
[] I've had my pants rip in public.

Health
[] I was born with a disease/impairment
[] I've gotten stitches/staples
[] I've broken a bone.
[x] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[x] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.

Traveling
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[x] I've been to Canada.
[] I've been to Mexico.
[x] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[x] I've been to Japan.
[] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[] I've been to Europe.
[] I've been to Africa.

Experiences
[] I've gotten lost in my city.
[] I've seen a shooting star.
[] I've wished on a shooting star
[] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[] I've been to a casino.
[] I've been skydiving.
[] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle.
[] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[] I've crashed a car.
[x] I've been Skiing
[x] I've been in a play.
[] I've met someone in person from myspace/nexopia/facebook/furaffinity/etc..
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[] I've seen the Northern lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten sushi.
[] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships
[] I'm single.
[x] I'm in a relationship.
[] I'm engaged.
[] I'm married.
[] I've gone on a blind date.
[] I've been the dumped more than the dumper.
[] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[] I've gotten divorced.
[] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality
[x] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[] I've been kissed in the rain.
[] I've hugged a stranger.
[] I have kissed a stranger.

Honesty/Crime
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test. (hasn't everyone?)
[] I've run a red light.
[] I've been suspended from school.
[] I've witnessed a crime.
[]I've been in a fist fight.
[] I've been arrested.

Drugs/Alcohol
[] I've consumed alcohol.
[] I regularly drink.
[] I've passed out from drinking.
[] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[] I've smoked weed
[] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[] I've eaten shrooms.
[] I've popped E.
[] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[] I've done hard drugs.
[] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[] I can't swallow pills.
[] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
[] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[] I take anti-depressants.
[] I am or was anorexic or bulimic.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[x] I've woken up crying.

Death and Suicide
[x] I'm afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[] I've seen someone dying.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[] Someone close to me has committed suicide. (yeah my deceased older brother!)
[x] I've planned my own suicide.
[] I've attempted suicide.(age of 6 baby! hehehe)
[] I've written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism
[] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[] I own something from Hot Topic.
[] I own something from Pac Sun.
[] I collect comic books.
[x] I own something from The Gap.
[] I own something I got on e-bay.
[x] I own something from Abercrombie.

Random
[] I can sing well.
[] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x] I open up to others easily. You ask me a question I'm most likely going to answer it.
[x] I watch the news.
[] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[] I curse regularly.
[] I sing in the shower.
[x] I am a morning person.
[] I paid/have paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[] I'm a snob about grammar.
[] I am a sports fanatic.
[] I twirl my hair.
[] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[] I love being neat.
[x] I love Spam
[] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day.
[] I bake well.
[] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or *blue*(red)
[] I've worn pajamas to school.
[] I like Martha Stewart.
[] I know how to shoot a gun
[] I am in love with love.
[] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x]I laugh at my own jokes.
[] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[x] I love white chocolate
[x] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games.
[] I'm good at remembering faces.
[x] I'm good at remembering names.
[] I'm good at remembering dates.
[] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[] I love cooking.
hehe, this was fun ta do.

hehe, seen this journal done by a few diffrent people. In a single word describe me as best ya can.

decided to post this...seen it around a few times, and i'll see what happens.

If we were to have sex:

1. Would you be in control?

2. Would you pull my hair?

3. Would you whisper in my ear?

4. Would you talk dirty to me?

5. Would you kiss me with a little tongue or a lot of tongue?

6. Would you say my name?

7. Would you go down on me?

8. Would you let me give you a hickie?

9. How many rounds would we go?

10. What would you wanna do afterwards?

11. Would you take off all your clothes then take mine off slowly?

12. Would you lick and bite me all over?

13. Would you like to play or get straight to the point?

14. Would you want me to take my time?

15. How freaky are you, 1 - 10?

16. Would you want fast or slow?

17. Where would you wanna "do it"?

18. Would you be loud or quiet?

19. Would you want me to be loud or quiet?

20. Would you mind if i liked you?

21. Do you like me?

22. Would you call me the next day?

23. Would you scratch me?

24. Would you let me scratch you?

25. Would you have to be drunk?

26. Would you date me?

27. Would you do it today?

28. Would you do it tomorrow?

29. Do you think that we would go any further then just sex?

30. Are you going to re-post these so I can answer them for you?

31. Would you make love to me or fuck me?

hehe, was tagged by Kuntos, so here it goes:
Valentine Times Meme:

Are you single or taken?
murr...taken

Chocolate or flowers?
hmmm...depends...flowers most likely.

Will you do anything special for Valentines Day?
No, would have liked to...but another time prehaps.


Do you like anyone ?
yes, and he knows who he is.

Were you dating anyone last Valentines?
No...was alone.

What would be your dream Valentines date?
murrr...to meet the love of my life in person...and ta hug him tight.

Do you make a big deal about Valentines?
naw..not really.

Have you ever had a secret admirer?
Nope.

Would you ever write someone a love letter?
Hmmm...not really.

Do you believe in Cupid?
no, but i find the idea funny.

Do your parents give you presents on Valentines?
No.

Do you still send out Valentines cards?
no..never had a reason to till lately.

Do you like candy hearts?
they amuse me...hehe, taste like chalk though.

Is Valentines depressing?
Not any more.

How do you feel about PDA? (Public Display of Affection)
hmmm...would be okay with it if it was someone i truly loved.

How is your love life?
Amazing.

Have you ever been dumped on Valentines?
nopes.

How many roses would you want?
Hmmm...just one...a red one.

Will you have a boyfriend/girlfriend next Valentines?
yes.

Tag! Your turn!:
I tag whoever had yet to do this meme!

stole this one from hanksamson.
1.) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
She brought several sheets to the counter to show me.


2.) Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What can you reach?
big old box of Legos.

3.) What is the last thing you watched on TV?
Was playing tales of symphonia.

4.) Without looking guess what time it is?
9:38

5.) Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
9:37....dang...off by a minute.

6.) With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
A song, and the wind.

7.) When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
Went for a long walk in the dark, just cause, about three hours ago.

8.) Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
The computer.

9.) What are you wearing?
Pajamas and a robe...i like robes...

10.) Did you dream about last night?
hehehee...bit of a secret.

11.) When did you last laugh?
when i was playing tales of symphonia.

12.) What are on the walls of the room you are in?
Some posters, two pictures of a fox, and a huge periodic table of the elements.

13.) Seen anything weird lately?
Yeah, logging in to this site....kinda use to weird by now.

14.) What do you think of this quiz?
Not bad, kinda random.

15.) What was the last film you saw?
I Am Legend.

16.) If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
A plane ticket....so i could go see someone special.

17.) Tell me something about you that I don't know?
My eyes see more then just the world.

18.) If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt and politics, what would it be?
it would be my location and situation...i'd make it so i'd have gone through college, and could go wherever i want.

19.) Do you like to dance?
yes...but only if i was with someone i trusted.

20.) George Bush:
There aren't enough swear words in the english langue for me to even begin to discribe my feelings about him.

21.) Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
.....Marina.

22.) Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
Griffin, Will, or maybe...Tempest.

23.) Would you ever consider living abroad?
Yes...it might be a fun thing to do.

24.) What do you want God to say when you reach the Pearly Gates?
You did it...you compleated the journey....now a new one begins.

25.) Tag Four people who must also do this in THEIR journal.
hehe...hmmm...nah, don't feel like it...any who wish may do this one.

Hehehe, kuntos got me to do this one..
1. Is there anyone on your friends list you would ever consider having sex with?
Yes...one in piticuler..

2. Sex in the morning, afternoon or night?
I wouldn't know....so probably whenever.

3. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
uhhh....the middle?

4. Pork, beef, or chicken?
All...:), i like meat.

5. Have you ever had to pull over on the side of the road to puke?
no.

6. Have you ever taken your clothes off for money?
no.

7. Shower or bath?
shower.

8. Do you pee in the shower?
nope, and haven't ever.

9. Mexican or Chinese?
?????

10. Do you want someone aggressive or passive in bed?
once again, i wouldn't know.

11. Do you love someone on your friend list?
heehee...that's for me to know, and you to guess.

12. Do you know all the people on your friends list?
only a few really.

13. Love or money?
Love, no hesitation, i'd rather have love.

14. Credit cards or cash?
Cash, always cash.

15. Has there ever been anyone in your family you wish wasn't?
no, not really.

16. Would you rather go camping or to a 5 star hotel?
hmmmm....camping...more...private.

17. What is the weirdest place you have had sex?
Hehehe....i'm a vergin.

18. Would you shave your entire body (including your head) for money?
no.

19. Have you ever been to a strip club?
no.

20. Ever been to a bar?
no.

21. Ever been kicked out of a bar or a club?
no.

22. Ever been so drunk you had to be carried out of somewhere?
no.

23. Kissed someone of the same sex?
Not yet ;)

24. Favorite drink?
Hmmm....don't know.

25. Had sex in a movie theater?
no.

26. Had sex in a bathroom?
no.

27. Have you ever had sex at work?
no.

28. Have you ever been in an "adult" store?
Nope....don't know if i ever will either.

29. Bought something from an adult store?
No.

30. Have you been caught having sex?
No.

31. Does anyone have naughty pics of you?
No...not yet ;)

32. Who do you think has the guts to repost this?
Who ever wishs may do this as well.

hey everyone...i'm back. i never really left, but i've only just barly been on here, and i've hit a major writers block and haven't submitted in a long time. But that should change soon. *Sighs* Heh, a lot has changed for me. I've got something to say here for any of you who may currently be stuck in pain and hurt. for all of you who are currently not doing well.....stay strong. Belive me, i had my doubts and countless times i just wanted to grow up and stop careing about everything. But I made it, i reached the point where the bad went away. And let me tell you now, it was worth every ounce of hurt and anger to get here. Please, stay strong and reach the end of your troubles. it may hurt, but always keep going, cause it's worth it in the end. My eyes have finnaly truly opened, and now i want to see the world become better....heh, well, i'm back, and i'm glad to see you all again.

*Chase's tail, foaming at the jaws.* "IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!vIT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!IT'S BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(Can you tell that i'm excited?)

I was tagged by Kraton. So I guess i'll finnally have to revail a bit about myself, I'll try to make this intersting, first though:

1 - Post these rules
2 - Each person tagged must post 8 random facts about themselves
3 - Tags should write a journal of these facts
4 - At the end of the post 8 more peeps tagged and named
5 - Go to their page and leave a comment telling them they’ve been ‘tagged’

Ok, lets get going:

1. I read the way most people breath, I am a total bookworm and love to curl up with a good book and just read. I read mostly fantasy and sci-fi.

2. I write some each day, a minimum of at least two pages. Plenty of big time Authors seem to agree that the best way to get better is to write some each day.

3. I'm tall and skinny. But not unfit, I can out run most of my class mates and have a crazy level of endurence. I'm just not a sports person.

4. I walk almost every day, not only is it good exercise, it is a way for me to think and meditate.

5. Let's see....I'm male(In case there's any doubt out there) And mostly straight. But I have no problem with gays(I'm in the fandom, so thats a no brainer.)

6. I do not belive in religion, but I do belive in god. Religion has caused too many wars in my opinon.

7. One day I want to fly through down town new york.

8. I have a coin that is real gold.

Now tag 8 others:Sorry, but I'm afraid the meme ends here for me. Any who want to do this though are welcome to do so.

Ok, so here is the deal, I have no Avatar, and I'd like to get one. So, who's willing to draw one for me? I can't pay, or draw somthing in return, but I can write you somthing, Poem? Story? Whatever you want I'll write if somone will draw me an Avatar. So, anyone interested?