The only people I know on here I talk to infrequently... And I never post art because I have a shitty apt with bad lighting.

I think I'll fly away for a while...

“By each crime and every kindness, we birth our future.”
― David Mitchell, Cloud Atlas

We are a each a product of every decision we make. Of every decision we all make. Every life is effected by every other one. All life is just energy... Given form. We are what happens when energy solidifies. And we all come from the same energy. Gender isn't about reproduction, sex is. You can be human, without sex. People, creatures, plants, all life has done so before. We leave the continuing on to others, more capable, or able. Life happens. Gender is what we perceive ourselves as. Our personal identity is just that... It's personal. It's individual. It is unique. How we see ourselves is our identity. And I think I speak for us all when I say we wish others could see us the way we see ourselves... And we also wish sometimes that others would see themselves as we see them. But what we must understand is that we are ALL connected. We are, all of us, brothers, sisters, partners, souls, lights, in a great, vast darkness. The choice to commune, to be compassionate, kind, open, and unafraid, or to be cruel, fearful, hateful, and malicious... Is the choice we all must face, in every decision we make, everyday. I believe that if we make a conscious choice to be kind, to not fear, to rejoice in how DIFFERENT we are... Is the way to make our world better. To look outside our minds and bodies and attempt to SEE eachother as we wish to be seen... Is the greatest gift you may give anyone. Just be kind. And kindness will happen to you.

So... 2 weeks ago one of my cats died. We had to put him down due to an advanced upper respiratory and mouth infection that we didn't have the money to cure. The vet said that even if we did, it'd only give him another couple years and he still wouldn't have led a very happy life. Took me this long to post anything because I've been very sad about losing him. We had him for almost 13 years... I saw him being birthed. It was hard to say goodbye. No one reads these, but I felt I had to say something in his honor.

Pretty sure no one reads these, but posting on both here and DA anyway. XD

I'll be moving on wednesday! It's only an hour away but, new school n' stuff, as well as living with mah Mate so, is pretty exciting. :3 Been getting a LOT of work done, all will be posted on DA soonish....shortly...kinda...

So yes. Happy times. With 3 cats and my crazy pilot boyfriend. MOO.

I am who I am. I am who I am meant to be. The people who have been in my life, and left, were there for a reason. They have made me who I am, in a small way. The punches, have made me tougher. The tears, have made me harder. The pain, has given me the gift of appreciation. Here I am, metamophized, from Queen of Cups, to broken goblet, to Queen of Pentacles... I am made anew.

I am free, having freed myself from the cage I put myself in.

A dragon is meant to fly. And now... I unfurl my wings.

What politicians SHOULDN'T be worried about is, gay people, abortions, what color you are, what gender you are, what happens to your penis, your vagina, who you love, how many children you have. What they SHOULD be worried about is our jobs, our economy, our health, our environment. And that's what WE should be worried about, too.

Yep. Just turned 24 an hour ago. Not much is different. My mom is really sick... Cancer... Which puts a damper on things... But, I'll give fate the old college try. Here's hoping for a better year this time, eh?

Love, Fi

Love does not die. It hibernates. Th tedium of life can sometimes take from you that which you once treasured, and give you a bleak copy, instead. However, when threatened with loosing that which was once yours, you, again, can find yourself treasuring it. And wondering... Why you were so stupid, to waste the time you did have.

Watched a film in English class and was asked to contemplate the meaning of love. This seemed.... Important.

So! Finals are tomorrow. I just finished my final paper, on the stupidity of the United States. xD Hope it goes well. Math final tomorrow, wish me luck. >.>; I think the past few days I've been stressing over it, which has led to some really odd dreams.

Night before last, my dreams involved taking a road trip with my mom, dad, and (nonexistent...) little sister, to British Colombia. Once we hit the border of the US and Canada, however, the road to BC was just a long, windy road surrounded on all sides by endless sand and sand storms, punctuated with giant 1930's-50's style toys. Old, decayed ones. Like porcelain dolls, Howdy Doody puppets, and those squeeze-y clown things with the pop-out eyes. All in huge, billboard-like sizes, like monuments. We also couldn't find a McDonalds anywhere, and realizes why after nightfall. Zombies. Millions of them, haunting this desolate area. When we finally did get to BC, we had to keep hopping from house to house because I was being chased by some serial rapist/murderer through desert sandstone caverns and houses. I eventually had to hide under the floorboards and text the police that he was in my house. They caught him, but my parents and sister were gone, kidnapped by this latino family we had trusted to hide us. I found them and freed my family, but when I got there the latino family all had blindfolds on, even though my parents were the ones tied up... Fucked up, no?

And last night's was of me peeling back the skin of my toe to find a huge gangrenous infection of my whole foot. Lovely.

As for new beginnings... Kane and I are super happy. He's coming to visit in early January, and I hope to be moving my mom and I the hell out of this house with dad.

Blessed be, happy holindaise, and may you find happiness~

OF ALL THE STUPID, THOUGHTLESS BULLSHIT... My father gets fired from his fucking job from stealing shit, then gets us backed up in debt for MONTHS behind it, we sell all our jewelry and crap just to get by, and NOW, WHEN WE HAVEN'T EATEN REAL FOOD IN A WEEK, THE MOTHERFUCKER GETS A DUI CAUSE HE COULDN'T WAIT HALF A FUCKING HOUR TO GET DRUNK UNTIL HE GOT HOME. I am done. I'm just fucking done. *RAGE*

And, as if that wasn't bad enough, he does this while my mom is sick in the hospital with pneumonia... And I cannot find a fucking job to save my soul, having enough trouble getting to school to keep my damn grades up... This is such bullshit.

*Does a barrel roll*

I hate this country. My dad was fired from his job for a fact-less reason, we're in dept up to our eyeballs because we let bills pile up, now we're $500 in the hole because his bank balance is negative and we can't use the bank's loan. He was just declined from a personal loan, so now, he can't even get to work. No places are hiring here. We're fucked. We are, the 99-fucking-percent.

SO THE FRONT PAGE IS NOT EMPTY

BLAH BLAH BLAH -snort- WHEEEZE


Beware of crazy dragons, folks.

RULES: List 30 movies you like without caring about the order. (Yoinked from  Necrodrone13

1. Nightmare Before Christmas
2. The Corpse Bride
3. The Princess Bride
4. The Fifth Element
5.The Page Master
6. Juno
7. Star Wars Episode VI
8. The Crow
9. The Craft
10. Practical Magic
11. Disney's Beauty and The Beast
12. Bruce Almighty
13. The Lion King
14. Batman Returns
15. Pirates of the Caribbean (All of 'em)
16. Lord of the Rings (The whole Trilogy)
17. The Matrix (The whole Trilogy)
18. Titan. A.E.
19. What Dreams May Come
20. Crybaby
21. Hairspray (both, but the original John Water's was better...)
22. The Rocky Horror Picture Show
23. Haunted Mansion
24. Casper The Friendly Ghost
25. Hocus Pocus
26. How To Train Your Dragon
27. The Secret of NIMH
28. Edward Scissorhands
29. Interview With a Vampire
30. Galaxy Quest

Was listing to this song earlier, and it empowered me. It's a very important song that I think everyone should hear, or see the lyrics, at least once.


Songwriters: Collins, Phil; Banks, Tony; Rutherford, Michael;

I must've dreamed a thousand dreams
Been haunted by a million screams
But I can hear the marching feet
They're moving into the street

Now did you read the news today
They say the danger's gone away
But I can see the fire's still alight
There burning into the night

There's too many men, too many people
Making too many problems
And not much love to go round
Can't you see this is a land of confusion?

Well this is the world we live in
And these are the hands we're given
Use them and let's start trying
To make it a place worth living in

Ooh, Superman where are you now
When everything's gone wrong somehow?
The men of steel, the men of power
Are losing control by the hour

This is the time, this is the place
So we look for the future
But there's not much love to go round
Tell me why, this is a land of confusion

This is the world we live in
And these are the hands we're given
Use them and let's start trying
To make it a place worth living in

I remember long ago when the sun was shining
Yes, and the stars were bright all through the night
And the sound of your laughter as I held you tight, so long ago

I won't be coming home tonight
My generation will put it right
We're not just making promises
That we know, we'll never keep

Too many men, there's too many people
Making too many problems
And not much love to go round
Can't you see, this is a land of confusion?

Now this is the world we live in
And these are the hands we're given
Use them and let's start trying
To make it a place worth fighting for
This is the world we live in

This is the world we live in
And these are the names we're given
Stand up and let's start showing
Just where our lives are going to


© HIT & RUN MUSIC PUBLISHING INC

My brother got me a Bamboo PEN for my birthday! I'M SO HAPPY! Expect some digital art from me soon! ^.-.^

I just turned 22. Two times eleven. I have no more milestones until 50. I guess this means I'm supposed to buckle down, start taking more responsibility, grow the fuck up, right?

I still feel like a teenager. Goddamn. *Sighs* Scary shit.

Finally the artist's block has broken! Hopefully it'll stay that way. Four new submissions, two of them done just today. Hoping to post more in the following weeks, maybe once a day or so, to keep myself busy.

It REALLY freaking sucks... Tried to draw a few times today, after not being able to for weeks, and still nothing.

*Is very frustrated by this* Sorry all, I hope to have some new stuff up soon.

Thought I'd crank out my first journal entry. I really don't have much to say at the moment, however. >.< Ahh, boredom. It is a vicious circle. Anyway.

Toodle-loo!

-Fiora