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Posted 2 weeks agoHavent entirely been keeping up here about it but i guess its easier to say its done then the lead up. Made a lot of posts about it on the bluesky part of things, but if not aware. As of Oct 17th, I have moved from Wisconsin to New York (Not City) It was a long 16 hour, 2 day driving process to get here and honestly for a few days Ive not slept great trying to get my room set up. XD To be clear, this isnt because of any issues back in Wisconsin, my roommates and friends were wonderful and was fine living there, my job was good and enjoyed it dearly and will in fact miss them a lot, because this was the first time I really established myself in a place that i felt welcome and around. But with the times a changing, having a girlfriend in my life i want to be with me, transitioning and a lot of life factors at 33. I realized I need to do more then just be complacent with my current situation.
One of my friends had a spot open and offer me room to move to New York (not city) I get a transfer to a store over here since its all over the states, but the only caveat is I need my drivers license and a car to go anywhere since our hours will be different and need to function on my own. there was a lot of nervousness with this as I never wanted to drive and I still feel like that. but I also know in this society I cant really function much else without it, so was working hard to practice as I can with my permit to get my license.
AND I DID. Oct 7th I got my license and passed the test after failing it a month ago beforehand. and this put me on a very all or nothing moment. IF I failed it again, I would have had to delay this move for 6 months. But if I pass then all is on track for the move, and thankfully I DID. Move went smoothed on the 17th, got my room established and starting getting in the real adult work in. yea I dont work till saturday but need to get my car, insurance for car, and practice of the area before saturday for my work rotation. A lot to do, and nervous as hell about it. one thing I am not saying is "I cant do this" because I know I CAN Do this. its a struggle, its tough mentally with being autistic. but a lot of things im riding on this entirely. Soon Ill be picking up my new car today and having those moments of "this is real. im doing this" and feeling proud in myself with my struggles to get somewhere. because I Can Do this. its hard but i can.
Truly been thankful of my friends for support and help in many ways to get this car, to move here, to get settled and jumpstarted. the friend who volunteered and did the driving to move me here, to my friend and roommate now today helping me get things together. as well as my friends i lived with for 4 years and all of the amazing things from them as well in wisconsin and new friends I met from my job before. I will miss appleton and the area. but new adventures and things for my life. positive and ready to take helm. Dragoness is ready ^^
~Taya Erindra
One of my friends had a spot open and offer me room to move to New York (not city) I get a transfer to a store over here since its all over the states, but the only caveat is I need my drivers license and a car to go anywhere since our hours will be different and need to function on my own. there was a lot of nervousness with this as I never wanted to drive and I still feel like that. but I also know in this society I cant really function much else without it, so was working hard to practice as I can with my permit to get my license.
AND I DID. Oct 7th I got my license and passed the test after failing it a month ago beforehand. and this put me on a very all or nothing moment. IF I failed it again, I would have had to delay this move for 6 months. But if I pass then all is on track for the move, and thankfully I DID. Move went smoothed on the 17th, got my room established and starting getting in the real adult work in. yea I dont work till saturday but need to get my car, insurance for car, and practice of the area before saturday for my work rotation. A lot to do, and nervous as hell about it. one thing I am not saying is "I cant do this" because I know I CAN Do this. its a struggle, its tough mentally with being autistic. but a lot of things im riding on this entirely. Soon Ill be picking up my new car today and having those moments of "this is real. im doing this" and feeling proud in myself with my struggles to get somewhere. because I Can Do this. its hard but i can.
Truly been thankful of my friends for support and help in many ways to get this car, to move here, to get settled and jumpstarted. the friend who volunteered and did the driving to move me here, to my friend and roommate now today helping me get things together. as well as my friends i lived with for 4 years and all of the amazing things from them as well in wisconsin and new friends I met from my job before. I will miss appleton and the area. but new adventures and things for my life. positive and ready to take helm. Dragoness is ready ^^
~Taya Erindra
There. we are done.
Posted 3 months agoOk so I know i made a post about doing the reuploads like months ago but keep just struggling to push myself to do so. well I fucken did it. so I am sorry for all the people who got massively insanely Spammed with so many uploads. 59 uploads. from Reuploads of my babyfur diaper stuff to the New artwork I got the last 2 years or so. but it is done. all caught up. enjoy the stuff in places and thank you for dealing with the art spam XD
oh its that date again
Posted 8 months agoQuick short thing. its the 18th, my birthday. am 33 years old. Nothing else to report. Still need to do a re upload time but bah time. x3
i want to be hopeful (FA related)
Posted a year agothe last few weeks been a insane amount of panic and paranoia for me because of how much i felt I was losing spaces to feel safe to feel like myself and not feel like im struggle to post places. after the situation going down, and while I know my stuff was safe with nothing really following down those rules. I was too scared of my account getting hit by some random rule out of no where or so vague that ill get hit anyways. I didnt feel trusted and I didnt want to lose 15 years of history being a furry and where ive been.
So I deleted all of artwork I had uploaded from commissions that was abdl related. no matter what it was. Just in case. sure it was of panic. it was of fear. and i could have been safe in the future but i couldnt tell seeing artists and friends left and right being affected over and over. but the post recently, what feels genuine apology and actually responses from people, the temporary removal of a rule and bans and suspension lifted on people, it feels like yea things are ok, maybe things will be hopeful and safe again. but now i have to deal with the situation of re uploading All commissions I paid for again. The worst part is re uploading my memorial piece, im still upset I had to remove it out of panic and fear yea. and there is nothing to do about it. but im waiting a few weeks but a heads up for a lot of work i had over the years re uploaded, and a lot of the descriptions are going to be very simplified because i lost all of the writing I did for each piece. its fine. at least ill have a back again.
I want to be hopeful and be a place I feel safe to be who i am in many ways.
~Taya Erindra
So I deleted all of artwork I had uploaded from commissions that was abdl related. no matter what it was. Just in case. sure it was of panic. it was of fear. and i could have been safe in the future but i couldnt tell seeing artists and friends left and right being affected over and over. but the post recently, what feels genuine apology and actually responses from people, the temporary removal of a rule and bans and suspension lifted on people, it feels like yea things are ok, maybe things will be hopeful and safe again. but now i have to deal with the situation of re uploading All commissions I paid for again. The worst part is re uploading my memorial piece, im still upset I had to remove it out of panic and fear yea. and there is nothing to do about it. but im waiting a few weeks but a heads up for a lot of work i had over the years re uploaded, and a lot of the descriptions are going to be very simplified because i lost all of the writing I did for each piece. its fine. at least ill have a back again.
I want to be hopeful and be a place I feel safe to be who i am in many ways.
~Taya Erindra
late night thinking about my first furcon.
Posted a year agorandomly was looking at old files i had organized from con photos. and its starts to dawn on me that my first ever Furcon was 10 years ago. Motor City Fur con 2014. and all moments that lead to that always has been a huge memory for me for multitudes of reasons, so im going just write about it because I can and its 3AM and im having a sentimental moment (also hormones)
2014 was heavy year for me at the time since I was hitting my low depression badly in a lot of ways, moved to Indiana with someone who I was dating at the time and was struggling to find a job in the area. We were kinda scrapping by food money wise (rent was taken care of from ex side of things) but I felt lost and difficult, still remember the last time I try to move away and failed hard in 2012 and felt like I was failing again. No job, no money for more reality things, and being 22 of age and felt so much pressure of just how I was grown up and taught about living on your own and being a adult and I felt... all wrong, I felt like even with my disability with my autism I just couldnt do anything. I was working with a agency to help find work with my disability and was taking months of calls and waiting.
Around this time, one of my friends (
KetchupKitty) suggested about going to a con they were planning, which was the first year MCFC was happening in 2014. I didnt have money to do so but they wanted to help. Maybe this con could help with my moods, maybe lift my spirits a bit. And it really is thanks to her I was able to go. Getting a bus ticket from Indiana to Michigan (9 hour ride which ohhhh boy remembering that now Fuck) and do this con. I didnt know what to expect really, I kept to a strict schedule of the stuff with opening and closing ceremonies, I watched some “its your first con” videos in prep and just doing what I can. With my own anxiety with people I was trying to not have panic attacks but even when I absolutely Was having some, I was able to just. Keep going. And never regretted it, made the down time at night and sleep horrible but I take that for the joy it brought. People I met I knew online for years to new friends I slowly made over the years. All of the photos I took and video of the fursuit parade it was a lot of hella good joy and feelings. (more funny seeing a construction guy walk in-between the fursuit parade and the crowd just cheered on them. It was great).
Its hard to fully remember ever bit and moments but it really hit a good well on me and happy and still Thankful to this day I was able to go. It was well needed. But I think the one thing that always stuck with me the most with this con, was learning that Uncle Kage was going to be there and meeting them. I knew of them for years from many panel videos, story hours, and the science and pseudoscience crap panels that showed up from Eurofurence. I had many respects for the person that first meeting I was, scared and nervous because of my social issues in general. And was always funny when at one moment as talking, him saying “do you need to sit down your knees are shaking” and I realized how much I was worrying. The things I enjoyed from those chats, was about stories of history of things, like learning about Paul R Gordon and the stories he went through with WW2 (look up “Fourth Down, Cant Run, Cant Pass” Book.) and from there, they suggested other books to read as well as some docs about stories in ways I havent seen before. And it stuck with me with that con, and added more to what I enjoy being in this fandom. Yea, to get more different topic, I love what furry has done with opening myself up about things, how I feel and see myself (and also all of my weirdness of kinks) but also just how we have so many ways we can connect and talk about of subjects when it interests you and the other. The amount of conversations Ive had about movies, books, music, life, countries just. People and time. Always leaves that impression when I see things.
Im 32 now, and the last time I did MCFC was 2019, havent been there in awhile mostly because of how the con lines up to what ive been doing now. I Live in Wisconsin for almost 3 years and possible moving somewhere else (still deciding on a friends proposal) my job isnt a big career but I enjoy it. Ive been around other cons and people. And just how much has changed in 10 years. Furcons are special in there own way depending on how you see it and feel for it. And im happy to keep MCFC 2014 has a close memory as my first furcon and the people I knew from there and onwards.
~Taya Erindra
2014 was heavy year for me at the time since I was hitting my low depression badly in a lot of ways, moved to Indiana with someone who I was dating at the time and was struggling to find a job in the area. We were kinda scrapping by food money wise (rent was taken care of from ex side of things) but I felt lost and difficult, still remember the last time I try to move away and failed hard in 2012 and felt like I was failing again. No job, no money for more reality things, and being 22 of age and felt so much pressure of just how I was grown up and taught about living on your own and being a adult and I felt... all wrong, I felt like even with my disability with my autism I just couldnt do anything. I was working with a agency to help find work with my disability and was taking months of calls and waiting.
Around this time, one of my friends (
KetchupKitty) suggested about going to a con they were planning, which was the first year MCFC was happening in 2014. I didnt have money to do so but they wanted to help. Maybe this con could help with my moods, maybe lift my spirits a bit. And it really is thanks to her I was able to go. Getting a bus ticket from Indiana to Michigan (9 hour ride which ohhhh boy remembering that now Fuck) and do this con. I didnt know what to expect really, I kept to a strict schedule of the stuff with opening and closing ceremonies, I watched some “its your first con” videos in prep and just doing what I can. With my own anxiety with people I was trying to not have panic attacks but even when I absolutely Was having some, I was able to just. Keep going. And never regretted it, made the down time at night and sleep horrible but I take that for the joy it brought. People I met I knew online for years to new friends I slowly made over the years. All of the photos I took and video of the fursuit parade it was a lot of hella good joy and feelings. (more funny seeing a construction guy walk in-between the fursuit parade and the crowd just cheered on them. It was great).Its hard to fully remember ever bit and moments but it really hit a good well on me and happy and still Thankful to this day I was able to go. It was well needed. But I think the one thing that always stuck with me the most with this con, was learning that Uncle Kage was going to be there and meeting them. I knew of them for years from many panel videos, story hours, and the science and pseudoscience crap panels that showed up from Eurofurence. I had many respects for the person that first meeting I was, scared and nervous because of my social issues in general. And was always funny when at one moment as talking, him saying “do you need to sit down your knees are shaking” and I realized how much I was worrying. The things I enjoyed from those chats, was about stories of history of things, like learning about Paul R Gordon and the stories he went through with WW2 (look up “Fourth Down, Cant Run, Cant Pass” Book.) and from there, they suggested other books to read as well as some docs about stories in ways I havent seen before. And it stuck with me with that con, and added more to what I enjoy being in this fandom. Yea, to get more different topic, I love what furry has done with opening myself up about things, how I feel and see myself (and also all of my weirdness of kinks) but also just how we have so many ways we can connect and talk about of subjects when it interests you and the other. The amount of conversations Ive had about movies, books, music, life, countries just. People and time. Always leaves that impression when I see things.
Im 32 now, and the last time I did MCFC was 2019, havent been there in awhile mostly because of how the con lines up to what ive been doing now. I Live in Wisconsin for almost 3 years and possible moving somewhere else (still deciding on a friends proposal) my job isnt a big career but I enjoy it. Ive been around other cons and people. And just how much has changed in 10 years. Furcons are special in there own way depending on how you see it and feel for it. And im happy to keep MCFC 2014 has a close memory as my first furcon and the people I knew from there and onwards.
~Taya Erindra
obligitory have join blue site
Posted 2 years agoTayaErindra is the name. simple to find. going to take a lot to find everyone and copy over XD
MFF '22 Journal, Dragoness went :D
Posted 3 years agoI know this took a bit to put out but going back to work and recouping my time after a weekend vacation. So here we go. Midwest Furfest '22.
Ill be honest though, this is the most Wing it Con I ever done. Usually I look up panel scheduling and make a day plan based on the stuff I want to do. But because of work and time frame I didnt get to look into all of it and kinda just Did whatever. Walked around and visited whatever brought my attention for what my friends told me about.
So I got to meet and Room a good friend for a long time
Cobalt_K and was a wonderful time to finally meet them after so many years of chatting over the years, going so far one night we just kept talking till 5AM XD whoops... but It was worth all the time with all of the conversations we had. My friends 
LunarKeys and 
Digi stayed in the same hotel but a different floor but we woke up and went to the con together then split afterwards some what. Either way, was great to see them both again after my visit back in Oct.
This was my first MFF as well and I knew it be huge, so many people. But of course underestimated how many people I knew and or followed over the years from artists and writers. Friends from the UK and Canada. Meeting some for the first time, some I havent seen in years, it meant a lot of me of all of the people I ran into. Even though it take forever to even make a Correct List of people who I saw XD.
I will say the two take aways from the con.. well technically 3 but it doesnt count entirely since it wasnt AT the con but sort of happen while being there one night, Ill explain at the end.
So the first one was when I went to the TF Meet and greet panel, was great to see people I knew and some meeting first time (had a wonderful conversation with
Arrowquivershaft About there story creations with Keys and all). But one moment was when I notice a badge of a artist I followed and knew for awhile, I never really interacted with them enough, been on a few streams but that was years ago and all. So when I went up to the person and saying hello and all, there response “Oh HEY your Taya so happy to meet you”
I was... floored and flabbergasted. I mean I get it, I have a lot of varied artwork of TF and weirdness and slowly notice, being 30 now, im getting notice in places and chats. Like am thanks people like what I commission and all but its feeling all weird im getting in that weird state of “being noticed” im just a weird girl XD but back to the situation, she responded with “oh honey, I love TF so of course I notice characters after awhile and you are one of them” I didnt know how to take it past that but was still wonderful to meet many different people including her.
The 2nd one, I notice a friend I knew and wanted to go say hi again, I notice one person was looking at me in a moment eyes grew big like a big revelation. (now at the time I was wearing my two shiro badges, my normal one and the rubberskunky one) then suddenly gasps and goes “Are you the Infamous LunarKeys” and I just... paused. Never thought I get recognized like that. Im like... No im not him but Im friends with him XD. I guess my dragoness badge from a distance looks like a luminari but its not (but TF someday >.>)
But most of the time at the con besides the meet greet of TF and babyfur. I ran into people, hanged out with a few. Met some artists I knew before and also new ones through the Dealers den and Artist Alley. Though most of the time I did go to the Arcade because they had Freaken MaiMai and jubeat, as well as chunithm, ddr, piu, and pop n music. But JUBEAT BABY, ive been wanted to try that out for my own curiosity and fun as I love rhythm games overall and meeting other people, either already really good at most or new to others. And enjoying the moments just like when I got Round1.
Overall was a wonderful time with everyone I met. If you did you know who cause as said, If I try to make a list Ill miss many people. (ALSO SOME HOW SABERSPARK WAS THERE?? didnt find him) So overall the con was a wonderful time for me personally, I know its hit or miss per person experience and stories that come out but either way it was great to go back to con since you know, the world stopped XD.
Now, for the... 3rd thing that didnt happen directly AT the con per say but was there for it. If you followed me twitter before (dont really talk about it here but still) you might already have heard and knew.
For the last 7 years ive been in a state of being purposely single, the reason is a long story based on my Ex from 2015. after that ive been struggling to understand what it meant to be in a relationship, to be dating someone. With being Autistic and with issues there was a lot of concerned within myself if I was a good person to be involved. Am I ready for it again? Answers I tried to get but anytime I felt I got answers it was like “oh I do that with like 13 people im not dating all of them” so I never knew if or when I was ready to date someone again in many ways.
With all of that preface it should be obviously to come out and say that I am dating again. Weeks of talking with them as a feeling was growing in me for months and I didnt know how to tackle it, a different one then ever before. And after many talks to make sure we understand, being ask “are you sure” and say almost within 10 seconds quickly. Yes.
I Have a Girlfriend. And im still having those moments of “oh. I have A Girlfriend” and smiling with glee. I cried for a few mins afterwards and barely slept one of the nights at the con. She means a lot to me and proud to call her my own. ^w^ also makes me question my orientation but fuck it. I Love Her :D
So with that. Thats all to really write about the con and happy about it. Especially being close to the end of the year now with the month being over for 2023. only real con im planning is Furnal Equinox, which also be my first time going to Canada. But that is that. Thank you for reading and have a wonderful night all :D
~Taya Erindra
Ill be honest though, this is the most Wing it Con I ever done. Usually I look up panel scheduling and make a day plan based on the stuff I want to do. But because of work and time frame I didnt get to look into all of it and kinda just Did whatever. Walked around and visited whatever brought my attention for what my friends told me about.
So I got to meet and Room a good friend for a long time
Cobalt_K and was a wonderful time to finally meet them after so many years of chatting over the years, going so far one night we just kept talking till 5AM XD whoops... but It was worth all the time with all of the conversations we had. My friends 
LunarKeys and 
Digi stayed in the same hotel but a different floor but we woke up and went to the con together then split afterwards some what. Either way, was great to see them both again after my visit back in Oct.This was my first MFF as well and I knew it be huge, so many people. But of course underestimated how many people I knew and or followed over the years from artists and writers. Friends from the UK and Canada. Meeting some for the first time, some I havent seen in years, it meant a lot of me of all of the people I ran into. Even though it take forever to even make a Correct List of people who I saw XD.
I will say the two take aways from the con.. well technically 3 but it doesnt count entirely since it wasnt AT the con but sort of happen while being there one night, Ill explain at the end.
So the first one was when I went to the TF Meet and greet panel, was great to see people I knew and some meeting first time (had a wonderful conversation with
Arrowquivershaft About there story creations with Keys and all). But one moment was when I notice a badge of a artist I followed and knew for awhile, I never really interacted with them enough, been on a few streams but that was years ago and all. So when I went up to the person and saying hello and all, there response “Oh HEY your Taya so happy to meet you”I was... floored and flabbergasted. I mean I get it, I have a lot of varied artwork of TF and weirdness and slowly notice, being 30 now, im getting notice in places and chats. Like am thanks people like what I commission and all but its feeling all weird im getting in that weird state of “being noticed” im just a weird girl XD but back to the situation, she responded with “oh honey, I love TF so of course I notice characters after awhile and you are one of them” I didnt know how to take it past that but was still wonderful to meet many different people including her.
The 2nd one, I notice a friend I knew and wanted to go say hi again, I notice one person was looking at me in a moment eyes grew big like a big revelation. (now at the time I was wearing my two shiro badges, my normal one and the rubberskunky one) then suddenly gasps and goes “Are you the Infamous LunarKeys” and I just... paused. Never thought I get recognized like that. Im like... No im not him but Im friends with him XD. I guess my dragoness badge from a distance looks like a luminari but its not (but TF someday >.>)
But most of the time at the con besides the meet greet of TF and babyfur. I ran into people, hanged out with a few. Met some artists I knew before and also new ones through the Dealers den and Artist Alley. Though most of the time I did go to the Arcade because they had Freaken MaiMai and jubeat, as well as chunithm, ddr, piu, and pop n music. But JUBEAT BABY, ive been wanted to try that out for my own curiosity and fun as I love rhythm games overall and meeting other people, either already really good at most or new to others. And enjoying the moments just like when I got Round1.
Overall was a wonderful time with everyone I met. If you did you know who cause as said, If I try to make a list Ill miss many people. (ALSO SOME HOW SABERSPARK WAS THERE?? didnt find him) So overall the con was a wonderful time for me personally, I know its hit or miss per person experience and stories that come out but either way it was great to go back to con since you know, the world stopped XD.
Now, for the... 3rd thing that didnt happen directly AT the con per say but was there for it. If you followed me twitter before (dont really talk about it here but still) you might already have heard and knew.
For the last 7 years ive been in a state of being purposely single, the reason is a long story based on my Ex from 2015. after that ive been struggling to understand what it meant to be in a relationship, to be dating someone. With being Autistic and with issues there was a lot of concerned within myself if I was a good person to be involved. Am I ready for it again? Answers I tried to get but anytime I felt I got answers it was like “oh I do that with like 13 people im not dating all of them” so I never knew if or when I was ready to date someone again in many ways.
With all of that preface it should be obviously to come out and say that I am dating again. Weeks of talking with them as a feeling was growing in me for months and I didnt know how to tackle it, a different one then ever before. And after many talks to make sure we understand, being ask “are you sure” and say almost within 10 seconds quickly. Yes.
I Have a Girlfriend. And im still having those moments of “oh. I have A Girlfriend” and smiling with glee. I cried for a few mins afterwards and barely slept one of the nights at the con. She means a lot to me and proud to call her my own. ^w^ also makes me question my orientation but fuck it. I Love Her :D
So with that. Thats all to really write about the con and happy about it. Especially being close to the end of the year now with the month being over for 2023. only real con im planning is Furnal Equinox, which also be my first time going to Canada. But that is that. Thank you for reading and have a wonderful night all :D
~Taya Erindra
Oh look 2021 is ending.
Posted 4 years agoAlmost completely forgot to do my own writing for happy new year stuff.
OK SO UM, how do I begin. i know most people say like, how it was worst year after 2020 and things but I want to shift away from most of it because for me specifically. since May, ive been honestly Way Better then I ever have been for once. I made a post about part of this before so most people knew but I havent updated much since there what HAS happened since then (I did on my twitter at times but moving on)
I was in a concerned state of moving in a unknown situation for jobs or iif I can handle them, but Honestly 3 weeks after I moved I got a job locked in. Basic Janitorial work at a store but It works wonderfully for myself. 4 days a week, 12 an hour. I make enough to work it out with the rent and life and that makes me happy most of all as the days continued, but the biggest moment was after months of accidental people finding out im trans at work from people. I Told my head manager I was Trans and it just snowballed there. I go by Taya there and people are slowly adjusting but it makes me Happy how supportive and positive it ACTUALLY BEEN. like its been weird and surreal from it all. That im here in my life to slowly be Me, the girl I am, in so many ways. and doing it AT WORK PUBLICLY is not something I truly felt would be a thing.
On top i officially went full time with the job so I can get insurance at work To hopefully find a trusted doctor for trans people and officially start HRT and figure out my plans as my life goes on. and its just been a smiling day for me for once, SINCE I MOVED AWAY from my parents and there shit. I never thought this be the day. this feeling and years of friends support over time. Thank you all of you.
So much is happening that im excited on what will be next on my life. a possible job prospect I Might Pursue being a home appraiser and wonder how well i might succeed in that feel. and with turning 30 soon I Plan to do a actually update/rework/redesign whatever word to use, of my sona with a new Ref sheet as well. It wont be exactly on my birthday as thats too soon to even get a commission for it XD but as soon as I can get that solidified and all. once its up any new commissions I have made (not any that are in the works or paid) will be using the new ref and such. Plus be fun to give more "lore" meaning thanks to a friend who helped a lot ill say. but that time will come when it does.
2022 I hope is a good year with everything as it progresses. Hard to say where my life goes and the world climate of things, so trying to keep myself level headed just in case if shit crashes on me so fast. But for now. Happy New year to all. Thank you for the support as i went through my hell of life. but soon I might be on the right track to be more happier in time.
~Taya Erindra
OK SO UM, how do I begin. i know most people say like, how it was worst year after 2020 and things but I want to shift away from most of it because for me specifically. since May, ive been honestly Way Better then I ever have been for once. I made a post about part of this before so most people knew but I havent updated much since there what HAS happened since then (I did on my twitter at times but moving on)
I was in a concerned state of moving in a unknown situation for jobs or iif I can handle them, but Honestly 3 weeks after I moved I got a job locked in. Basic Janitorial work at a store but It works wonderfully for myself. 4 days a week, 12 an hour. I make enough to work it out with the rent and life and that makes me happy most of all as the days continued, but the biggest moment was after months of accidental people finding out im trans at work from people. I Told my head manager I was Trans and it just snowballed there. I go by Taya there and people are slowly adjusting but it makes me Happy how supportive and positive it ACTUALLY BEEN. like its been weird and surreal from it all. That im here in my life to slowly be Me, the girl I am, in so many ways. and doing it AT WORK PUBLICLY is not something I truly felt would be a thing.
On top i officially went full time with the job so I can get insurance at work To hopefully find a trusted doctor for trans people and officially start HRT and figure out my plans as my life goes on. and its just been a smiling day for me for once, SINCE I MOVED AWAY from my parents and there shit. I never thought this be the day. this feeling and years of friends support over time. Thank you all of you.
So much is happening that im excited on what will be next on my life. a possible job prospect I Might Pursue being a home appraiser and wonder how well i might succeed in that feel. and with turning 30 soon I Plan to do a actually update/rework/redesign whatever word to use, of my sona with a new Ref sheet as well. It wont be exactly on my birthday as thats too soon to even get a commission for it XD but as soon as I can get that solidified and all. once its up any new commissions I have made (not any that are in the works or paid) will be using the new ref and such. Plus be fun to give more "lore" meaning thanks to a friend who helped a lot ill say. but that time will come when it does.
2022 I hope is a good year with everything as it progresses. Hard to say where my life goes and the world climate of things, so trying to keep myself level headed just in case if shit crashes on me so fast. But for now. Happy New year to all. Thank you for the support as i went through my hell of life. but soon I might be on the right track to be more happier in time.
~Taya Erindra
Many alt Forms and Lore to it.
Posted 4 years agoI think its time to have fun with writing out this sort of “ref” and Lore ideas to me. As many Notice they have seen my occasionally Rubber Skunky Side of things and as I mentioned in description it is a Official alt form to me, Water Dragoness is always me That is my Sona and who I am no matter what, but With everything being teased thanks to a friend and other factors, Ideas been cropping up more so as a sort of Lore as to why I have these alt forms and reasons for them. I feel I have a great way to make it work beautifully and happily, You know, as a good (subby) girl I am.
As you Seen I recently got a nice shiny and electric Rubber Chu side of me, also officially being here, and the reason for is the idea is these forms are like, taking something I already am a fan or big sort of kink for, and amplifying it massively while in said forms, being teased and played around. I dont Need to be these forms with how I like what I do. But they can be more... sensitive and explosive in my moods in so many ways. And who knows many more forms could be made out of me, I love them and cherish them gladly thanks to my friend.
To Start, Rubber Skunk Taya. When change, Depending on how strong the mood or hypno state, She will grow big. Up to 9 to 14 feet at times. She can be lucky to casually be at 7 Feet. Tail is always Guarantee it be long and thick no matter her total size but squeaky and giggling as she goes. She can be Teased out hard to be a squeaky skunker but also can shift as she pleases when in the right moods. She can be strong will to not be in public places and shredding the clothes out, but as a friend of mine knows... doesnt matter how strong she is, He will bring it and Tease it out. The Tail is a major importance to this. Long, thick, wiggle, and happily sensitive to her in many ways. Being how much Tails I like too, so this is way more there.
Rubber Chu, almost similar to skunky, with 9 to 14 feet size can happen to her. Long Tail with he lovely Chu tip as everyone should know. But the one major focus, oh her Paws. No matter what her Paws will be Large and big, and can be Way Bigger in so many ways. She will get giggling them at all times, waning to rub and play with them. This obviously being my Paw slut feelings and help enhance them way more. So... expect Big Paws from Chu me at times ;3 cause I want it.. a lot.
More will be added or talked about in due to and will be updated to this journal as it goes :3
(Yes my friend in question is LunarKeys )
~Taya Erindra
As you Seen I recently got a nice shiny and electric Rubber Chu side of me, also officially being here, and the reason for is the idea is these forms are like, taking something I already am a fan or big sort of kink for, and amplifying it massively while in said forms, being teased and played around. I dont Need to be these forms with how I like what I do. But they can be more... sensitive and explosive in my moods in so many ways. And who knows many more forms could be made out of me, I love them and cherish them gladly thanks to my friend.
To Start, Rubber Skunk Taya. When change, Depending on how strong the mood or hypno state, She will grow big. Up to 9 to 14 feet at times. She can be lucky to casually be at 7 Feet. Tail is always Guarantee it be long and thick no matter her total size but squeaky and giggling as she goes. She can be Teased out hard to be a squeaky skunker but also can shift as she pleases when in the right moods. She can be strong will to not be in public places and shredding the clothes out, but as a friend of mine knows... doesnt matter how strong she is, He will bring it and Tease it out. The Tail is a major importance to this. Long, thick, wiggle, and happily sensitive to her in many ways. Being how much Tails I like too, so this is way more there.
Rubber Chu, almost similar to skunky, with 9 to 14 feet size can happen to her. Long Tail with he lovely Chu tip as everyone should know. But the one major focus, oh her Paws. No matter what her Paws will be Large and big, and can be Way Bigger in so many ways. She will get giggling them at all times, waning to rub and play with them. This obviously being my Paw slut feelings and help enhance them way more. So... expect Big Paws from Chu me at times ;3 cause I want it.. a lot.
More will be added or talked about in due to and will be updated to this journal as it goes :3
(Yes my friend in question is
LunarKeys )~Taya Erindra
Tomorrow. I move.
Posted 4 years agoAs said before. May 27th. I'm moving from Arizona to wisconsin. Computer is packed up and things are ready. I'm nervous but I'm ready
Week of good emotions.
Posted 4 years agoMost of what im talking about has been said through my twitter. if you havent its good I dont mention it much.
in just a short amount of days in a week so much has happen that its literally shot my emotions that I dont know how to feel. Its good obviously but its make me confused how I should be feeling.. First I went public with my gaming accounts Ive had for years with youtube and twitch That i am Trans, have been for years but only now just went public since I felt it was time. I rebranded, new name and everything and thanks to a close friend had many new graphics made. The response has been totally positive on so many fronts, on top of So MANY Gaming friends who never knew I was trans (or a furry) and amount of full blown support and encouragement from them flustered me so much. and even after that how fast all of them were to say "Taya" and "she/her" that i keep forgetting I told them ,they knew and how fast I hear it.
Then there is the fact I return to streaming with my new name and trying to get back in the motion of things when i did it before. did FF14, Destiny 2, Yakuza 0. just ta lot of things planned. and because of so many friends and people. my numbers exploded more then ever. the chat was so active I was never used to before and was trying to handle it as i can. Just Thank you to all from there.
But thats not even the end of it. A Streamer Ive been watching and following for years and supporting with a sub for 6 years. I opened up with my resub about my name change to the account and all. and when asked replying im trans. He was very nice and understanding. making some soft jokes on stream and enjoying everything. but a few days later, he PM me on discord and was asking how im holding up and support and people and how im doing in general. I was not expecting that all and was trying to stay calm from it. was worried being he is very religious and such but what he said hit me good in the heart "Be safe, youve been around my channel for a long time and I appreciate it, so if u ever need someone to talk to just yell at me loudly" I know this doesnt make me like close buddy friends with said streamer but it was such a moment I was caught off guard and didnt know how to feel there.
And to top it all off here.. Im finally moving. May 27th. Actually Moving away from my parents. from there abuse and bullshit. and feel freedom for once being the girl I am. and I know people will say its never too late since im 29. to get on HRT to find that process clothes things. to deal with my dysphoria. but the biggest thing is I cant fuck this up, and all of my fears to why I havent moved out keep pummeling my head. but im talking carefully with friend and will be room mate. to cover everything as possible to not be a bad room mate or person or anything. because thats fear. I Cant Fuck this up. I cant return back here once I do. in 2 weeks, im partially at my freedom part. Just take it slow and carefully. and get a job to pay my share of the rent as I need. but its a step... Its a step
and with all of this im having a hard time truly trying to feel. Is this happiness? actually honest happiness? will I be? Its a weird pressure and just tryingi to keep myself on a good cool level headed feeling and not get over blown... but it really has been a lot with my mind, especailly after the year of 2020. and the last 4 years. Just. Everything. Im not out of it yet. im not fully free. im not in the safe clear. but its a start in all directions.
And Please I want to say thanks to all my friends close to me, my master, my daddy, friends called brother and siis in many sphere. Thank you for being there for me in all of my depression episodes and dark times with myself. keeping me going even when I just dont want to ever. Maybe this will be the step I needed. risky but I have to.
~Taya Erindra
in just a short amount of days in a week so much has happen that its literally shot my emotions that I dont know how to feel. Its good obviously but its make me confused how I should be feeling.. First I went public with my gaming accounts Ive had for years with youtube and twitch That i am Trans, have been for years but only now just went public since I felt it was time. I rebranded, new name and everything and thanks to a close friend had many new graphics made. The response has been totally positive on so many fronts, on top of So MANY Gaming friends who never knew I was trans (or a furry) and amount of full blown support and encouragement from them flustered me so much. and even after that how fast all of them were to say "Taya" and "she/her" that i keep forgetting I told them ,they knew and how fast I hear it.
Then there is the fact I return to streaming with my new name and trying to get back in the motion of things when i did it before. did FF14, Destiny 2, Yakuza 0. just ta lot of things planned. and because of so many friends and people. my numbers exploded more then ever. the chat was so active I was never used to before and was trying to handle it as i can. Just Thank you to all from there.
But thats not even the end of it. A Streamer Ive been watching and following for years and supporting with a sub for 6 years. I opened up with my resub about my name change to the account and all. and when asked replying im trans. He was very nice and understanding. making some soft jokes on stream and enjoying everything. but a few days later, he PM me on discord and was asking how im holding up and support and people and how im doing in general. I was not expecting that all and was trying to stay calm from it. was worried being he is very religious and such but what he said hit me good in the heart "Be safe, youve been around my channel for a long time and I appreciate it, so if u ever need someone to talk to just yell at me loudly" I know this doesnt make me like close buddy friends with said streamer but it was such a moment I was caught off guard and didnt know how to feel there.
And to top it all off here.. Im finally moving. May 27th. Actually Moving away from my parents. from there abuse and bullshit. and feel freedom for once being the girl I am. and I know people will say its never too late since im 29. to get on HRT to find that process clothes things. to deal with my dysphoria. but the biggest thing is I cant fuck this up, and all of my fears to why I havent moved out keep pummeling my head. but im talking carefully with friend and will be room mate. to cover everything as possible to not be a bad room mate or person or anything. because thats fear. I Cant Fuck this up. I cant return back here once I do. in 2 weeks, im partially at my freedom part. Just take it slow and carefully. and get a job to pay my share of the rent as I need. but its a step... Its a step
and with all of this im having a hard time truly trying to feel. Is this happiness? actually honest happiness? will I be? Its a weird pressure and just tryingi to keep myself on a good cool level headed feeling and not get over blown... but it really has been a lot with my mind, especailly after the year of 2020. and the last 4 years. Just. Everything. Im not out of it yet. im not fully free. im not in the safe clear. but its a start in all directions.
And Please I want to say thanks to all my friends close to me, my master, my daddy, friends called brother and siis in many sphere. Thank you for being there for me in all of my depression episodes and dark times with myself. keeping me going even when I just dont want to ever. Maybe this will be the step I needed. risky but I have to.
~Taya Erindra
choices are hard.
Posted 4 years agoFor People who know me and are close friends. Ive have a youtube and twitch stuff ive been doing for a long time. not special or like "popular" but I just did things because I enjoyed it. well I always kept furry and that gaming side separate out of attacks and ridicule (being autistic doesnt help with confrontations), Though with the last 5 years of being open about being Trans in the fandom and seeing people Ive been following for years open up, being trans or anything in general, has put me in a box of "I need to change shit" and for the longest time I kept struggling where to change my name, Thankfully I have that done and wont talk about that here.
However the Choices are hard part is where im trying to find a solution so when I do a "Reveal" on my channel and things about "hi yes im trans girl" and start being open to myself with that in my life, I want to start getting stuff to make my channel look better. which means getting a commission of my sona dressed up in a specific video game armor I like. however figuring out the artist I want to go for has been struggling. I keep looking at the people I normally commission but then other people I could possibly commission and just not sure what I want to go for. I dont want to look like "This is a SERIOUS GAMER" in pose or in grit art style. but enough to show im caring and fun person to me, but also someone who plays games a lot and enjoys my time. but also has to be someone I Might commission more often depending on factors. because I feel like if I get multiple different artists commission for this, it may seem odd? maybe im thinking to much but its the first time Ive been looking hard ball on it then before. so its a lot im going through on it.
Im like not in any rush to get a artist and solution now. but i definitely want to find one so when im ready to make that video I have stuff prepared. just a lot on my mind and figuring out the best choice XD
~Taya Erindra
However the Choices are hard part is where im trying to find a solution so when I do a "Reveal" on my channel and things about "hi yes im trans girl" and start being open to myself with that in my life, I want to start getting stuff to make my channel look better. which means getting a commission of my sona dressed up in a specific video game armor I like. however figuring out the artist I want to go for has been struggling. I keep looking at the people I normally commission but then other people I could possibly commission and just not sure what I want to go for. I dont want to look like "This is a SERIOUS GAMER" in pose or in grit art style. but enough to show im caring and fun person to me, but also someone who plays games a lot and enjoys my time. but also has to be someone I Might commission more often depending on factors. because I feel like if I get multiple different artists commission for this, it may seem odd? maybe im thinking to much but its the first time Ive been looking hard ball on it then before. so its a lot im going through on it.
Im like not in any rush to get a artist and solution now. but i definitely want to find one so when im ready to make that video I have stuff prepared. just a lot on my mind and figuring out the best choice XD
~Taya Erindra
Birthday time. 29 Dragoness
Posted 4 years agoanother year for me. im 29 basically so there is that.
incoming weird
Posted 5 years agoSo I know a Different sides of people follow me with some of the art Ive gotten. normal. TF. Diapered. etc. I have a lot of very nsfw weird side of me I like as well. and have some art about it. so. im uploading them. if people stop watching after this. sory. be well though in life.
28 Is the number
Posted 5 years agoHere we are. another birthday hatchday for me. :3 That is all.
The year ends.
Posted 6 years agoSo the end of the year is coming and 2020 is hitting. as it always does with time moving forward. I hope everyones years was wonderful, with holidays and things. For me is been... a year. just a lot of time ive been going through and doing what i can. I dont post many journals for a lot of reasons. hard to focus without being a depressing shithead.
Im still dealing with my situation with the best of my ability while trying to be as happy i can. but my future is complicated and always losing myself on what im doing. basically 5 years since being forced back to my parents, and dealing with there stressing days and some yelling attacks over dumb reasons. Was hoping to make plans to leave here, to be someone I love and start to improve myself but its always causing things to fall threw, and im scared. but im trying.
also doesnt help I barely have anything to go to, im isolated and cant drive. I tried learning but a car crash has fucked me up and cash dried me hard the last few months. I cant easily go anywhere or hang out with specific people to be more of who i am. i always have to pretend to be the "boy" to my parents as long as im here with them. I cant take risks buying things for myself, to be the girl I Am, or the littlefur things to be that side. and also have to say that I Have no Plans for cons in 2020. I legit cant do anything atm as my goal is to Leave here, be far away from my parents so i can start being who i am and exploring myself even more. i hate having my moods from all direction but no way to handle it, no where to go. and i hate feeling like im always complaining to my friends who know and understand but no one can really help in this moment.
The hardest thing though to come to terms every day is with someone close to me, someone who was my daddyfur to my little babyfur side of me as everyone should know at this point. I learned through other friends that eoathian Passed away this year back in July. It was soul crushing because I knew. I had a conversation with him back May telling me he was done and tired. I... I wanted to give words or something but i couldnt. and it still hurts me how i didnt know what to say or how to say it. more so I wasnt there... I never got to see him once. we kept talking about it and planning but because of my situation it always made it impossible to even do so. and it still pains me every day that i disappointed him, his friend and his little draggy. and that will linger in me forever as something we never did but it was mostly my fault I never actually did anything about it. I had many opportunities I could have just done it. He was my first daddy as a babyfur space for years. knowing him for about 7 years or so. I will forever miss him and I hope I can do something as a commission art for him. Thank you for being in my life eoathian, I will miss you.
I also lost my Dog Zoey and a local fur friend in Arizona unexpectedly as well. And its been draining on me on top of everything else. But im here the best i can. and trying to be hopeful for 2020 and the life i have. Im happy of the friends ive known for years, to someone Ive met new. Thank you for being in my life and i hope I can return favors from you all. Be well and Wonderful. ill be fine.
~Taya Erindra
Im still dealing with my situation with the best of my ability while trying to be as happy i can. but my future is complicated and always losing myself on what im doing. basically 5 years since being forced back to my parents, and dealing with there stressing days and some yelling attacks over dumb reasons. Was hoping to make plans to leave here, to be someone I love and start to improve myself but its always causing things to fall threw, and im scared. but im trying.
also doesnt help I barely have anything to go to, im isolated and cant drive. I tried learning but a car crash has fucked me up and cash dried me hard the last few months. I cant easily go anywhere or hang out with specific people to be more of who i am. i always have to pretend to be the "boy" to my parents as long as im here with them. I cant take risks buying things for myself, to be the girl I Am, or the littlefur things to be that side. and also have to say that I Have no Plans for cons in 2020. I legit cant do anything atm as my goal is to Leave here, be far away from my parents so i can start being who i am and exploring myself even more. i hate having my moods from all direction but no way to handle it, no where to go. and i hate feeling like im always complaining to my friends who know and understand but no one can really help in this moment.
The hardest thing though to come to terms every day is with someone close to me, someone who was my daddyfur to my little babyfur side of me as everyone should know at this point. I learned through other friends that eoathian Passed away this year back in July. It was soul crushing because I knew. I had a conversation with him back May telling me he was done and tired. I... I wanted to give words or something but i couldnt. and it still hurts me how i didnt know what to say or how to say it. more so I wasnt there... I never got to see him once. we kept talking about it and planning but because of my situation it always made it impossible to even do so. and it still pains me every day that i disappointed him, his friend and his little draggy. and that will linger in me forever as something we never did but it was mostly my fault I never actually did anything about it. I had many opportunities I could have just done it. He was my first daddy as a babyfur space for years. knowing him for about 7 years or so. I will forever miss him and I hope I can do something as a commission art for him. Thank you for being in my life eoathian, I will miss you.
I also lost my Dog Zoey and a local fur friend in Arizona unexpectedly as well. And its been draining on me on top of everything else. But im here the best i can. and trying to be hopeful for 2020 and the life i have. Im happy of the friends ive known for years, to someone Ive met new. Thank you for being in my life and i hope I can return favors from you all. Be well and Wonderful. ill be fine.
~Taya Erindra
Goodbye Zoey..
Posted 6 years agoShe has past away now. peacefully with me and family by her side. May 7th 2019, 9:31AM Tuesday. Goodbye Zoey. I will miss you...
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Motor City Furcon 2019 Con Report !
Posted 6 years agoMotor City Furcon 2019
5th time returning aftering missing last year, breaking my streak. But Dragoness was back, with MCFC also had a new hotel to work with. Was so happy I was able to return most of all, My choices in cons are rare because of my money situation But I try to make it as much as I can. Some day Ill go to most cons IF I can... I hope.. But moving to the main topic, the MCFC Con Report from the Dragoness Taya. There is a Lot that happens and I hope I can remember them a lot, running on low sleep, a little jet lagged, and its very late as I write this. So Lets Begin
Wednesday April 10th.
I Flew in on this day as I always like to come in a day either to see some close friends of mine, one of which I was rooming with and 3 others. So honestly not much happen. Just landed and hanged out with people before bed.... which
Thursday April 11th
OK So this is going to a fun “Taya Does a Stupid” story. SO Weds night my friend
his packing was a little late so by the time stuff was packed in a car it was pretty later, and we had to wake up around 7AM as, he was Volunteer and I was being forced into volunteering with him since I was rooming with him at the hotel and was my ride to the new hotel. WELL I wasnt thinking as the floor was concrete with some carpet, and my back decided to go “time to pain” So I couldnt sleep. I TRIED to just close my eyes and just breathe, but my body just wast having it. And I woke up around 6AM Arizona time (which is like 9AM michigan time) So I said fuck it, Ill deal with the consequences. Which I Did... as I Volunteer for the con. Loading up a Truck and unloading the trunk. I Enjoyed doing this btw, All the way through. Yes my body aches and I was exhausted on just Pre Con Day. But seriously I love helping a con I enjoy going to and supporting for a long time. By this point I was running about... maybe 15 hours of no sleep. But I thought “well my volunteer hours ends at 3PM, we will get our rooms and I take a nap”
well the Jokes ON ME. The Rooms werent ready and My friend who is the owners of the room was forced into work. So I had to wait till the rooms were ready, which did take a bit. Got the message, got my keys. Put mine and wolfe's in the room.. Nap time? Also no because just at that moment I get messaged that the other room mates are coming in soon, had to wait for them so I can hand them there keys to get into the room. THEN after that I had to get dinner, go to my friends MISTAKE Panel.. and finally.. at 12AM.. close to 39 hours of no sleep. I crashed and slept to prepare for Con Day 1. Seriously I NEVER will stay up and get no sleep for a con, its a awful thing to ever do to your body. It just was a sequences of random shit. But im just happy im here, at the con, and also helping out a con I love is wonderful too.
Friday Apr 12th
Day 1 of the con, started normal with a shower and downstairs to wait for the day to begin. To be honest this day was a Brutal one. I had panels to run too all day long XD. Because right after Opening Ceremonies we had. Con Horror Stories, Uncle Kage's Story hour, Three headed monster, Fox and Peppers show. So much till just.. dead night. BUT I will say, when I went to the Con horror Stories panel I decided to give a gift to Kage. As most should know, I work at a movie theater and occasionally when a movie is out of the theater, I can take the marketing material. Well It just so happens we had stuff from a movie called “Stan & Ollie”, a Biopic about the real like men who made slapstick comedy in the 1920's (Beautiful movie highly recommended it) Well I happen to have a poster and some other things from my theater to give to him, as well as a banner from the wonderful documentary “They Shall Not Grow Old” He was very happy to receive that after I gave him the Dunkirk movie posters and banner from the years before.
But most of the day was hopping around panels, seeing people you know the normal things of a fur con. I helped out my friend
for his opening rock show before Fox and Peppers. Did some camera work help as I did before when at MCFC. (Btw if you love Rock Music, Go follow him on all the stuffs :3)
This was also the day
was there, and I got to pick up a commission print that did get posted publically till after the con, but everyone there got to see this piece only at the con. ( https://www.furaffinity.net/view/31205488/ ) Something I was happy and cried a lot once it was finished.
So Friday was a busy busy with panels. But at least the good shit got taken care of and the rest con days was fun to see people :D On to Day 2!
Saturday April 13th
Saturday ! You know whats a perfect way to start? I Flippen Fire Alarm. No joke ( https://twitter.com/TayaErindra/sta.....52301242511361 ) I know the joke is “its not a furcon without a fire alarm” but seriously, stop. Moving on.
As always the Fursuit Parade was today and prepared as much as I could for it, watching all of the lovely people walk through the hotel and going on outside for the full group photo. Not much to add, the parade went smoothly with no issues I notice.
Most of the day was kinda just, walk around, talk to people. Eat when I can you know. I didnt do much in terms panels this day but did go to the super sponsors dinner and talked to many people around. Met a lot of people, most of which I forgot there names. SORRY EVERYONE X.x But it was a lovely day though this was when I notice my body was giving a bad reaction to something. Could be me being stupid that I was up for almost 48 hours straight while also working in 40F weather. Or that I kept eating nothing but Pizza basically, which sucks on my own accord with how my eating issues is. But regardless was beautiful.
Sunday April 14th
Had to say goodbye to most people leaving early sunday so this day kinda was just. Wandering around till something happens to where I was involved. There was the Chairty Auction where my Friend Ernor 2 pieces were up there as well as many others. But my God the most surprising part,
and his Plastic Dinos, he had a big one sale... but thats not the item that went, it was a EVEN BIGGER Dino, with a grey rainbow like colors to it, and a Robotic Light for a eye, the “Terminator Dino” ( https://pbs.twimg.com/media/D4UZm43.....GprN.jpg:large )
After that not much was happening for me, walked around, had some conversations with people I met at time to time.. UNTIL 4:21PM at Main Events. If you were there, you know. You damn know. I randomly discovered that a “Keep talking and nobody explodes” panel hosted by Firr I thought I was a predetermine panelist of people but infact it wasnt. It was anyone who raises there hand to go on board. And yes, This Dragoness. Was on the stage. But the moment Boozy Became the Bomb Defuser. Ohhhhhhh, I wondered. How quick can I stay calm till things go south.
20 seconds......
About 20 seconds. It was a wonderful moment me being on stage like that. As I never been on stage in that capacity. And yea, It was recorded by the amazing Silvergatomon. So whenever that goes live. Im plugging the shit out of that. Watch me flail and try to be a good player (As I love this game to much) and also being a complete Idiot over the Maze module. I Wasnt even drunk and some how I was smart about everything BUT THAT MAZE. I cause the lights drain your IQ or when you are under pressure like this then at home. And not being yelled at be a Lawyer. We did manage to defuse One Bomb while on stage but I still failed the rest. But as long as it was entertaining to the crowd and for Firr. I done my job I feel.
Closing Ceremonies happen right afterwards. The news we got was a 1611 attendees, I think the Charity number was 16K? It keeps changing every few hours XD but still a massive amount still and very very happy to see what we furries are known to do. We will be getting the new Theme and dates later so im excited to see what my Favorite con will become. But the ending. GoH Firr had the crowd plan a fun... thing.. right after the Chairman Keet said “that comes to a close” me and everyone who knew grabbed the secret streamers from Firr and threw them on stage (many videos from many perspectives around). From there it was kinda just, Im around doing whatever.
The only notes I have from the days of the con was there was minor issues on how to get to the Dealers Den and Artist Alley at first, on top with some of the EMC guards kinda... not exactly being nice to us in all accounts, at least for me. But it was still a smooth con with no much complaints I can give myself as a Attendee. So keep on going strong most of all.
For a con's 6th year and my 5th year going, with a new Hotel to boot. This was a fantastic and wonderful con to Always go to and Highly recommend it in many ways. This con still has a lot of home to me being my First Furcon back in 2014 but also because I was in such a horrible point in my life when my friend brought me here. Every year besides 2018 Ive seen so much change, grow, and be with this con and im proud to of the staff and people around who worked on it. I did Volunteer this year because of my friend Wolfe but I always was planning to do regardless of being push in or not. Whenever I have a guarantee Way of always be in Michigan Every year. I will help this con with everything of my ability to them help make this con beautiful for others. I have a lot of memories for this con with the Moth artwork pick up, Friends Meeting in person for the first time, seeing old friends. Giving a Gift to Kage from my job. Many things. To Keet, Tixit, Artkit, and many other staff members I can not remember them all for the life of me. Thank you for making MCFC beautiful especially with a new Hotel con location. Excited for the next year so keep up that strong life :D
~Taya Erindra
5th time returning aftering missing last year, breaking my streak. But Dragoness was back, with MCFC also had a new hotel to work with. Was so happy I was able to return most of all, My choices in cons are rare because of my money situation But I try to make it as much as I can. Some day Ill go to most cons IF I can... I hope.. But moving to the main topic, the MCFC Con Report from the Dragoness Taya. There is a Lot that happens and I hope I can remember them a lot, running on low sleep, a little jet lagged, and its very late as I write this. So Lets Begin
Wednesday April 10th.
I Flew in on this day as I always like to come in a day either to see some close friends of mine, one of which I was rooming with and 3 others. So honestly not much happen. Just landed and hanged out with people before bed.... which
Thursday April 11th
OK So this is going to a fun “Taya Does a Stupid” story. SO Weds night my friend
his packing was a little late so by the time stuff was packed in a car it was pretty later, and we had to wake up around 7AM as, he was Volunteer and I was being forced into volunteering with him since I was rooming with him at the hotel and was my ride to the new hotel. WELL I wasnt thinking as the floor was concrete with some carpet, and my back decided to go “time to pain” So I couldnt sleep. I TRIED to just close my eyes and just breathe, but my body just wast having it. And I woke up around 6AM Arizona time (which is like 9AM michigan time) So I said fuck it, Ill deal with the consequences. Which I Did... as I Volunteer for the con. Loading up a Truck and unloading the trunk. I Enjoyed doing this btw, All the way through. Yes my body aches and I was exhausted on just Pre Con Day. But seriously I love helping a con I enjoy going to and supporting for a long time. By this point I was running about... maybe 15 hours of no sleep. But I thought “well my volunteer hours ends at 3PM, we will get our rooms and I take a nap” well the Jokes ON ME. The Rooms werent ready and My friend who is the owners of the room was forced into work. So I had to wait till the rooms were ready, which did take a bit. Got the message, got my keys. Put mine and wolfe's in the room.. Nap time? Also no because just at that moment I get messaged that the other room mates are coming in soon, had to wait for them so I can hand them there keys to get into the room. THEN after that I had to get dinner, go to my friends MISTAKE Panel.. and finally.. at 12AM.. close to 39 hours of no sleep. I crashed and slept to prepare for Con Day 1. Seriously I NEVER will stay up and get no sleep for a con, its a awful thing to ever do to your body. It just was a sequences of random shit. But im just happy im here, at the con, and also helping out a con I love is wonderful too.
Friday Apr 12th
Day 1 of the con, started normal with a shower and downstairs to wait for the day to begin. To be honest this day was a Brutal one. I had panels to run too all day long XD. Because right after Opening Ceremonies we had. Con Horror Stories, Uncle Kage's Story hour, Three headed monster, Fox and Peppers show. So much till just.. dead night. BUT I will say, when I went to the Con horror Stories panel I decided to give a gift to Kage. As most should know, I work at a movie theater and occasionally when a movie is out of the theater, I can take the marketing material. Well It just so happens we had stuff from a movie called “Stan & Ollie”, a Biopic about the real like men who made slapstick comedy in the 1920's (Beautiful movie highly recommended it) Well I happen to have a poster and some other things from my theater to give to him, as well as a banner from the wonderful documentary “They Shall Not Grow Old” He was very happy to receive that after I gave him the Dunkirk movie posters and banner from the years before.
But most of the day was hopping around panels, seeing people you know the normal things of a fur con. I helped out my friend
for his opening rock show before Fox and Peppers. Did some camera work help as I did before when at MCFC. (Btw if you love Rock Music, Go follow him on all the stuffs :3) This was also the day
was there, and I got to pick up a commission print that did get posted publically till after the con, but everyone there got to see this piece only at the con. ( https://www.furaffinity.net/view/31205488/ ) Something I was happy and cried a lot once it was finished.So Friday was a busy busy with panels. But at least the good shit got taken care of and the rest con days was fun to see people :D On to Day 2!
Saturday April 13th
Saturday ! You know whats a perfect way to start? I Flippen Fire Alarm. No joke ( https://twitter.com/TayaErindra/sta.....52301242511361 ) I know the joke is “its not a furcon without a fire alarm” but seriously, stop. Moving on.
As always the Fursuit Parade was today and prepared as much as I could for it, watching all of the lovely people walk through the hotel and going on outside for the full group photo. Not much to add, the parade went smoothly with no issues I notice.
Most of the day was kinda just, walk around, talk to people. Eat when I can you know. I didnt do much in terms panels this day but did go to the super sponsors dinner and talked to many people around. Met a lot of people, most of which I forgot there names. SORRY EVERYONE X.x But it was a lovely day though this was when I notice my body was giving a bad reaction to something. Could be me being stupid that I was up for almost 48 hours straight while also working in 40F weather. Or that I kept eating nothing but Pizza basically, which sucks on my own accord with how my eating issues is. But regardless was beautiful.
Sunday April 14th
Had to say goodbye to most people leaving early sunday so this day kinda was just. Wandering around till something happens to where I was involved. There was the Chairty Auction where my Friend Ernor 2 pieces were up there as well as many others. But my God the most surprising part,
and his Plastic Dinos, he had a big one sale... but thats not the item that went, it was a EVEN BIGGER Dino, with a grey rainbow like colors to it, and a Robotic Light for a eye, the “Terminator Dino” ( https://pbs.twimg.com/media/D4UZm43.....GprN.jpg:large ) After that not much was happening for me, walked around, had some conversations with people I met at time to time.. UNTIL 4:21PM at Main Events. If you were there, you know. You damn know. I randomly discovered that a “Keep talking and nobody explodes” panel hosted by Firr I thought I was a predetermine panelist of people but infact it wasnt. It was anyone who raises there hand to go on board. And yes, This Dragoness. Was on the stage. But the moment Boozy Became the Bomb Defuser. Ohhhhhhh, I wondered. How quick can I stay calm till things go south.
20 seconds......
About 20 seconds. It was a wonderful moment me being on stage like that. As I never been on stage in that capacity. And yea, It was recorded by the amazing Silvergatomon. So whenever that goes live. Im plugging the shit out of that. Watch me flail and try to be a good player (As I love this game to much) and also being a complete Idiot over the Maze module. I Wasnt even drunk and some how I was smart about everything BUT THAT MAZE. I cause the lights drain your IQ or when you are under pressure like this then at home. And not being yelled at be a Lawyer. We did manage to defuse One Bomb while on stage but I still failed the rest. But as long as it was entertaining to the crowd and for Firr. I done my job I feel.
Closing Ceremonies happen right afterwards. The news we got was a 1611 attendees, I think the Charity number was 16K? It keeps changing every few hours XD but still a massive amount still and very very happy to see what we furries are known to do. We will be getting the new Theme and dates later so im excited to see what my Favorite con will become. But the ending. GoH Firr had the crowd plan a fun... thing.. right after the Chairman Keet said “that comes to a close” me and everyone who knew grabbed the secret streamers from Firr and threw them on stage (many videos from many perspectives around). From there it was kinda just, Im around doing whatever.
The only notes I have from the days of the con was there was minor issues on how to get to the Dealers Den and Artist Alley at first, on top with some of the EMC guards kinda... not exactly being nice to us in all accounts, at least for me. But it was still a smooth con with no much complaints I can give myself as a Attendee. So keep on going strong most of all.
For a con's 6th year and my 5th year going, with a new Hotel to boot. This was a fantastic and wonderful con to Always go to and Highly recommend it in many ways. This con still has a lot of home to me being my First Furcon back in 2014 but also because I was in such a horrible point in my life when my friend brought me here. Every year besides 2018 Ive seen so much change, grow, and be with this con and im proud to of the staff and people around who worked on it. I did Volunteer this year because of my friend Wolfe but I always was planning to do regardless of being push in or not. Whenever I have a guarantee Way of always be in Michigan Every year. I will help this con with everything of my ability to them help make this con beautiful for others. I have a lot of memories for this con with the Moth artwork pick up, Friends Meeting in person for the first time, seeing old friends. Giving a Gift to Kage from my job. Many things. To Keet, Tixit, Artkit, and many other staff members I can not remember them all for the life of me. Thank you for making MCFC beautiful especially with a new Hotel con location. Excited for the next year so keep up that strong life :D
~Taya Erindra
People I Met:
WolfeMasteres
felineelement
Rashoni
Citra flare
Tixit
Keet
Artkit
Ernor
Alkali Busmith
Xandertheblue
Draggor
Mikomouse
Pandez
Serathin
Uncle Kage
Cryowolf
Killion Gryphon,
Shadowfoxnjp
bhoffman11
Eriklepp
lwr
Firr
Boozy Badger
QM
lord fenrir
tikitaka
Ravin
Wildfox34
pythos_cheetah
Fox Amoore
Pepper Coyote
SandySchreiber
Oddy
DustyMoongazer
(And Many Others I sadly do not remember im so sorry !) Motor City Furcon 2019 Is a Go for this Dragoness :D
Posted 6 years agoIt has been paid, confirmed, and ready in 2 weeks for me to be at MCFC this year. I missed last year because I went to see my master and friend for Texas Furry Fiesta (and I dont make enough money to do those cons so close to each other) but even though I miss a year, broke my chain streak. Im coming back. Ill be there all weekend and leaving monday so im excited to see many people I miss. Cant wait to see all at the New Location :D
~Taya Erindra
~Taya Erindra
age 27 has been reach in the level up sheet.
Posted 6 years agoYay Me its my Birthday, Dragoness is 27 years old ^W^ That is all
~Taya Erindra
~Taya Erindra
Anthrocon 2018 - Taya's Con Report !
Posted 7 years agoHello everyone, Its time for that Con Report since I went to Anthrocon 2018 just last weekend, and It was my very first AC Ever. Ive been to MCFC many times so I had some comparison to go through. AC was very much a jump in a difference in the feeling and environment then what im used to in the past. This con was massively overwhelming and wonderful with all the people I met, the conversations I had, the stuff I saw and just having a great time as the dragoness I am. I will try my best to remember every detail of things I went through on top of listing all the people I met. IF I met you and I forgot your name I will try to add it immediately.
Lets Begin.
Im going to start with a massive kick to my morning, Thursday morning I was heading to my flight to Pittsburgh for Anthrocon around 8 in the morning. When through TSA, where the agent said I look at Ashton Kutcher... why, Got to my gate and just waiting in excitement for my fun experience and to see all my lovely friends before things go big on the weekend. My flight time was at 10:05AM Arizona time, and was estimated to land around 5:10PM in Pittsburgh. That gives me enough time to get my con badge, get settled and see a panel for a friend of mine I did not want to miss.
Obviously if I wasnt subtle enough, Or you saw my twitter the day it happen. You saw a enraged dragoness, because I got a story to tell that I never experienced.
It was an hour till the schedule leave and I notice there was no plane docked, that was weird to me. I looked over at the board and saw it was delayed by 2 hours, so leaving at 12:05PM instead. Alright delays are not abnormal sometimes so I just sat down and continued to just listen to music and waiting patiently, I later found out this delayed was sent to me by a Email at 7AM for maintenance, They had 5 hours to figure out what was wrong and thats fine. But it got a little worst I have ever experienced. The 2 hour delay they said goes by and still no plane, when I asked they explained “it will be 30 mins” Alright, not sure what kind of maintenance is taking so long especially when you informed us hours ago about it. That time went by and still nothing, at this point they were refusing to say ANYTHING, and look I understand if its complicated or something, but im a reasonable person you tell me whats going on in a specific manner I get it. But they werent, whoever was telling the information just wasnt getting relayed or they just didnt want to say anything.
Finally a plane appeared at 1:10PM, very late fine whatever its ok I guess. Board onto the plane into my situation and exhaling very well... then notice the plane door was shut after 20 mins everyone got on. Most of the people around me were impatience and rightly so for what we all had to deal with. You know what happened next to continue that cause me to be enraged? The captain pilot gets out of the cockpit, turns on the announcement pager and says “We're sorry ladies and gentlemen but we will not be flying the plane today and waiting for a new crew to come in and fly with us” I will say as a side note I learned that pilots have a certain amount of hours that they can fly almost like a hour of availability, especially if they have another flight they have to do, BUT STILL. We had to wait Another 30 mins till the new crew got in, did there checks and at 2:21PM we took off into the skies. FOUR. Hours. Later. Landing at around 9:30PM.
By the time I got picked up by my friends, Con reg was closed and my friends panel basically was ending. I was so upset it was just very hard to keep smiling at times. That was a sour taste for the beginning but Trust me the rest of the con was so wonderful I was fine, just very upset... though good news I did get a voucher for my next flight as compensation SOOOO....
Moving on, My friend that picked me up was Selena (
) staying with 2 other people I met. Kai and Draco. All awesome people I met and enjoy talking when the time was around, check into the Omni, which was very beautiful in the décor I was NOT expecting and that surprised me so much. Granted I havent been to places that have been around for many years as Arizona as a state since 1912. Got a good rest and that was Thursday.
Friday:
Good Morning First Day of the Con. Friday felt beautiful waking up and getting ready for the first day. Now I knew for years about AC relation to the city of Pittsburgh and how much they love the convention and will Go out there to Protect the con if anyone tries to engage in terrible.
What I did not expect is what I saw. The AC Flag against all the Hotels with the US and state flag. Banners all over the lightpost (Made by the Wonderful Moth Monarch) Seeing a Banner at the Airport saying “Pittsburgh Welcomes you, Anthrocon”. Even more so when I was just walking down the street to the Westin and convention center and having people who arent apart of the con being like “Yea Furries Anthrocon Great to see you all !” and high fiving me. It was such a strange feeling. I wish all of the cons could be that big but its hard to say overall.
Seeing the Opening Ceremonies, the center. The river and the city was a very wonderful and different feeling then what im used to. I havent been around big cities often, Phoenix was the most Ive been but even then I rarely am around there. But just to say something about a city, Pittsburgh was very beautiful in the buildings and environment, when my friend drove into the city and left a tunnel, going from some minor buildings and mostly trees, To This WIDE CITY of Bridges and rivers. Like it very much took my breath away. Everything just felt better, Im with myself and with people that I can trust around me.
The Panels I went through was the obvious Whos Lion event, I did go on stage once and for me I felt I said some good things but hey I tried thats important but the other people who went up was amazing, not just because of the things said but because before the show started, Alkali wanted the show to try and be PG13 rating to make it more opening to more. Which made me remember that this is a all age con as im used to going to 18+ cons only. Alkali was Floored how pretty good people were doing, there was a few... FEW flubs but it was very good and he was happy.
Obviously I want to Uncle Kage's Story Hour and the Time Alkali went back on main stage of AC. But the greatest moment for me in that hour was seeing Xander the Blue going on main stage to tell his routine I know of, Livestream around many people in the audience to who might be seeing it live. Xander basically got a big Spot light to people who havent heard of him already. Alkali did it first I think 2 years ago. Pandez was next, and now the entire 3 headed Monster group got there main stage showing at AC and im proud for all of them.
During a lot of the down time that wasnt panels, I was mostly hanging out talking to people I knew and seeing the dealers den. So many people there I did not expect. The TwoKinds creator, Flinters, and many more im not remembering very stupidly. But the bridge you walk across that looks down in the Dealers down. I was floored HOW HUGE IT WAS. It felt larger then the con I went to in Phoenix. Everything was just larger then I expected and having a lovely view of a city and bridges was very nice.
Saturday:
Its a great day in the neighbor and it was, I went to sleep very early then I normally do to reach a 8AM event called “Breakfast with Fred” A even by someone who I sadly do not remember his name and I wish I did, where we travel through the city to find a memorial statue site of Fred Rodgers of Mr Rodgers Neighborhood. A show I grew up as a kid and love very dearly. Seeing this statue, hearing his voice and the songs he sing near the site it just felt very nice, happy, and wanting to cry with my own memories of how much this show was, having some breakfast with many others in the morning. I Love it very much thank you for hosting it.
I missed the Furry Jury panel as I spending time meeting and talking to people as well as making plans for dinner. After all of that I went to find a good position for the Fursuit parade, I did not position outside where they walk so I didnt see that travel but I was when they went up a Escalator and Love how everything was going. I saw many suiters Ive known either as personal friends or just knowing the suit designer (some people T Posed going up the Escalators XD) Sadly My camera kept glitching and Lost footage of this even and im upset about that. I know there are many people who recorded it but something about where I was standing to record it was very special I wanted to keep that footage but its lost.
More panels I went to like the Stories from the Otherworld as Im curious about LARPing and wonder if Its for me to get into over all as I am trying to with D&D tabletop. As 6PM rolled around my Dinner plans started to come around, I met up with
catmonkshiro to have dinner with Nyomi, 
lanhao and two others I forgot to get there names. Had fun conversations about furries cons just all that stuff while eating some nice Pizza. All wonderful people and felt happy I got to meet new people and with Shiro and Moth as two artist I support massively as much as I can.
After Dinner I went back to support some other friends of mine for the Dragget Show and My God, It was... it was something. Ill just say one word and if you were there you know until the video is released then you would know better. But The Blood Ritual. That is all. It was wonderful to see
xandertheblue 
alkalibismuth and others on the show today. (also seeing the Dragget show chat blow up and finding out that like 16 people joined in was amazing too)
Most of Saturday was down time. I missed a few other things and was able to stay out a bit longer then before as I didnt have anything important sunday morning to attend. More talking meeting people just having conversations most of all. I did attention a TF after dark Panel and was able to meet
angrboda So that was awesome ! Ill end Saturday for here.
Sunday:
Sunday was more of a relaxing day with nothing much going on besides one event I Did Not want to miss. The Charity Show. I always look forward to this as donating money as for things to go hilariously crazy is the best. I did it many times at MCFC before and this was no exception. Most of it was pretty basic with Kage, Alkali, Tien Long, Boozy, and Pandez doing random stuff on stage for most of the time frame of the event, When they started discussing the donation of money to Charity I walked up holding my Bank envelope of 110 dollars. When they notice me I love there look of “Oh shit whats going to happen” I pulled the money out and showed it as I counted down the bills into the hat and saying You're Welcome. The cheers and them talking was amazing and I wish I could have that record for memory sake.
But wait theres more to make that quote, For SOME reason there was a random speedo on stage and things were just being silly around about. Until they talked about making Tien Long wear it. There was shouting and talk about who should wear it so Kage said on the left side of the stage for Boozy, the right for Tien. And even BEFORE he said that I took some extra money and got 35 dollars and immediately dropped it for Tien Long. The Dagger eyed Stared down that that Celestial dragon had as I put the money down was so amazing I just shouted at him “Thats 145 total money for Charity”. Of course the votes were unanimously at the end, Tien Long went on stage wearing a speedo and it was wonderful for charity.
Most of the day I walked, so some artist friends and people to give some final hurrah’s before realizing its going to be home and ill be sad but I had fun kinda of moments. But seriously I did. I knew Anthrocon would be big, I knew it would be a lot of people going and things happening but what I did not expect was the celebrity feeling of the people living in the city was I went to the convention center, how the city felt in day and night time, and Just all of the staff members and how it felt overall. Much easier to notice staff members here before then I ever notice.
Anthrocon 2018 was my First AC ever and my 7th Furcon in my life. All of the Staff, crew and Kage himself. To the Westin staff I saw most of the time being around for the con. Stay Awesome Stay Wonderful Thank you so much. If I could go next year I would absolutely would but Most likely wont be able to for planned reasons for my life. Very much a wonderful Experience and love to go again in the future of my life.
Draco-Cretel/Selena
Kai Ferrel
Renzy
Relkyon
guardian-hawk
mallikeet
catmonkshiro
Moth Monarch / nyomi
flinters
mungkorn
Rocker Fox
LWR
lanhoa
Alkali Bismuth
Xander the Blue
Pandez
Draggor
Boozy Barister/Badger
Semjay
Crash McCloud
wolfemasters
Blazen
Recca
Deirdraccoon
espionage
Badger
Crismon
Sandcat
Serathin
Kyle / Cyberwolf
Uncle Kage / kagemushi
Artie
Arrow Quivershaft
gillpanda
ChocoPony
gaia1234
Scales / blackminorscales
Sketchy Mouse / lukaryo
lordfenrir
tikikata
Ronnie / skyryd3r
Jib Kodi
Fox amoore
Pepper Coyote
Edward Hyena
1coin
Oddy
Coopertom
Fender
Manick
Some smaller things to say that wasnt going to be in the full report. I scared my friend Renzey and it was adorable and I stayed at the Omni so this didnt hit me but heard the smoke/fire alarm went off TWICE in the Westin and the first offender was found but the 2nd no idea. Oh and finally there was a Floating Tiki bar going down the Allegheny River of the Convention Center. It went past us multiple times. Thats a site to be hold.
~Taya Erindra.
Lets Begin.
Im going to start with a massive kick to my morning, Thursday morning I was heading to my flight to Pittsburgh for Anthrocon around 8 in the morning. When through TSA, where the agent said I look at Ashton Kutcher... why, Got to my gate and just waiting in excitement for my fun experience and to see all my lovely friends before things go big on the weekend. My flight time was at 10:05AM Arizona time, and was estimated to land around 5:10PM in Pittsburgh. That gives me enough time to get my con badge, get settled and see a panel for a friend of mine I did not want to miss.
Obviously if I wasnt subtle enough, Or you saw my twitter the day it happen. You saw a enraged dragoness, because I got a story to tell that I never experienced.
It was an hour till the schedule leave and I notice there was no plane docked, that was weird to me. I looked over at the board and saw it was delayed by 2 hours, so leaving at 12:05PM instead. Alright delays are not abnormal sometimes so I just sat down and continued to just listen to music and waiting patiently, I later found out this delayed was sent to me by a Email at 7AM for maintenance, They had 5 hours to figure out what was wrong and thats fine. But it got a little worst I have ever experienced. The 2 hour delay they said goes by and still no plane, when I asked they explained “it will be 30 mins” Alright, not sure what kind of maintenance is taking so long especially when you informed us hours ago about it. That time went by and still nothing, at this point they were refusing to say ANYTHING, and look I understand if its complicated or something, but im a reasonable person you tell me whats going on in a specific manner I get it. But they werent, whoever was telling the information just wasnt getting relayed or they just didnt want to say anything.
Finally a plane appeared at 1:10PM, very late fine whatever its ok I guess. Board onto the plane into my situation and exhaling very well... then notice the plane door was shut after 20 mins everyone got on. Most of the people around me were impatience and rightly so for what we all had to deal with. You know what happened next to continue that cause me to be enraged? The captain pilot gets out of the cockpit, turns on the announcement pager and says “We're sorry ladies and gentlemen but we will not be flying the plane today and waiting for a new crew to come in and fly with us” I will say as a side note I learned that pilots have a certain amount of hours that they can fly almost like a hour of availability, especially if they have another flight they have to do, BUT STILL. We had to wait Another 30 mins till the new crew got in, did there checks and at 2:21PM we took off into the skies. FOUR. Hours. Later. Landing at around 9:30PM.
By the time I got picked up by my friends, Con reg was closed and my friends panel basically was ending. I was so upset it was just very hard to keep smiling at times. That was a sour taste for the beginning but Trust me the rest of the con was so wonderful I was fine, just very upset... though good news I did get a voucher for my next flight as compensation SOOOO....
Moving on, My friend that picked me up was Selena (
) staying with 2 other people I met. Kai and Draco. All awesome people I met and enjoy talking when the time was around, check into the Omni, which was very beautiful in the décor I was NOT expecting and that surprised me so much. Granted I havent been to places that have been around for many years as Arizona as a state since 1912. Got a good rest and that was Thursday.Friday:
Good Morning First Day of the Con. Friday felt beautiful waking up and getting ready for the first day. Now I knew for years about AC relation to the city of Pittsburgh and how much they love the convention and will Go out there to Protect the con if anyone tries to engage in terrible.
What I did not expect is what I saw. The AC Flag against all the Hotels with the US and state flag. Banners all over the lightpost (Made by the Wonderful Moth Monarch) Seeing a Banner at the Airport saying “Pittsburgh Welcomes you, Anthrocon”. Even more so when I was just walking down the street to the Westin and convention center and having people who arent apart of the con being like “Yea Furries Anthrocon Great to see you all !” and high fiving me. It was such a strange feeling. I wish all of the cons could be that big but its hard to say overall.
Seeing the Opening Ceremonies, the center. The river and the city was a very wonderful and different feeling then what im used to. I havent been around big cities often, Phoenix was the most Ive been but even then I rarely am around there. But just to say something about a city, Pittsburgh was very beautiful in the buildings and environment, when my friend drove into the city and left a tunnel, going from some minor buildings and mostly trees, To This WIDE CITY of Bridges and rivers. Like it very much took my breath away. Everything just felt better, Im with myself and with people that I can trust around me.
The Panels I went through was the obvious Whos Lion event, I did go on stage once and for me I felt I said some good things but hey I tried thats important but the other people who went up was amazing, not just because of the things said but because before the show started, Alkali wanted the show to try and be PG13 rating to make it more opening to more. Which made me remember that this is a all age con as im used to going to 18+ cons only. Alkali was Floored how pretty good people were doing, there was a few... FEW flubs but it was very good and he was happy.
Obviously I want to Uncle Kage's Story Hour and the Time Alkali went back on main stage of AC. But the greatest moment for me in that hour was seeing Xander the Blue going on main stage to tell his routine I know of, Livestream around many people in the audience to who might be seeing it live. Xander basically got a big Spot light to people who havent heard of him already. Alkali did it first I think 2 years ago. Pandez was next, and now the entire 3 headed Monster group got there main stage showing at AC and im proud for all of them.
During a lot of the down time that wasnt panels, I was mostly hanging out talking to people I knew and seeing the dealers den. So many people there I did not expect. The TwoKinds creator, Flinters, and many more im not remembering very stupidly. But the bridge you walk across that looks down in the Dealers down. I was floored HOW HUGE IT WAS. It felt larger then the con I went to in Phoenix. Everything was just larger then I expected and having a lovely view of a city and bridges was very nice.
Saturday:
Its a great day in the neighbor and it was, I went to sleep very early then I normally do to reach a 8AM event called “Breakfast with Fred” A even by someone who I sadly do not remember his name and I wish I did, where we travel through the city to find a memorial statue site of Fred Rodgers of Mr Rodgers Neighborhood. A show I grew up as a kid and love very dearly. Seeing this statue, hearing his voice and the songs he sing near the site it just felt very nice, happy, and wanting to cry with my own memories of how much this show was, having some breakfast with many others in the morning. I Love it very much thank you for hosting it.
I missed the Furry Jury panel as I spending time meeting and talking to people as well as making plans for dinner. After all of that I went to find a good position for the Fursuit parade, I did not position outside where they walk so I didnt see that travel but I was when they went up a Escalator and Love how everything was going. I saw many suiters Ive known either as personal friends or just knowing the suit designer (some people T Posed going up the Escalators XD) Sadly My camera kept glitching and Lost footage of this even and im upset about that. I know there are many people who recorded it but something about where I was standing to record it was very special I wanted to keep that footage but its lost.
More panels I went to like the Stories from the Otherworld as Im curious about LARPing and wonder if Its for me to get into over all as I am trying to with D&D tabletop. As 6PM rolled around my Dinner plans started to come around, I met up with
catmonkshiro to have dinner with Nyomi, 
lanhao and two others I forgot to get there names. Had fun conversations about furries cons just all that stuff while eating some nice Pizza. All wonderful people and felt happy I got to meet new people and with Shiro and Moth as two artist I support massively as much as I can.After Dinner I went back to support some other friends of mine for the Dragget Show and My God, It was... it was something. Ill just say one word and if you were there you know until the video is released then you would know better. But The Blood Ritual. That is all. It was wonderful to see
xandertheblue 
alkalibismuth and others on the show today. (also seeing the Dragget show chat blow up and finding out that like 16 people joined in was amazing too)Most of Saturday was down time. I missed a few other things and was able to stay out a bit longer then before as I didnt have anything important sunday morning to attend. More talking meeting people just having conversations most of all. I did attention a TF after dark Panel and was able to meet
angrboda So that was awesome ! Ill end Saturday for here.Sunday:
Sunday was more of a relaxing day with nothing much going on besides one event I Did Not want to miss. The Charity Show. I always look forward to this as donating money as for things to go hilariously crazy is the best. I did it many times at MCFC before and this was no exception. Most of it was pretty basic with Kage, Alkali, Tien Long, Boozy, and Pandez doing random stuff on stage for most of the time frame of the event, When they started discussing the donation of money to Charity I walked up holding my Bank envelope of 110 dollars. When they notice me I love there look of “Oh shit whats going to happen” I pulled the money out and showed it as I counted down the bills into the hat and saying You're Welcome. The cheers and them talking was amazing and I wish I could have that record for memory sake.
But wait theres more to make that quote, For SOME reason there was a random speedo on stage and things were just being silly around about. Until they talked about making Tien Long wear it. There was shouting and talk about who should wear it so Kage said on the left side of the stage for Boozy, the right for Tien. And even BEFORE he said that I took some extra money and got 35 dollars and immediately dropped it for Tien Long. The Dagger eyed Stared down that that Celestial dragon had as I put the money down was so amazing I just shouted at him “Thats 145 total money for Charity”. Of course the votes were unanimously at the end, Tien Long went on stage wearing a speedo and it was wonderful for charity.
Most of the day I walked, so some artist friends and people to give some final hurrah’s before realizing its going to be home and ill be sad but I had fun kinda of moments. But seriously I did. I knew Anthrocon would be big, I knew it would be a lot of people going and things happening but what I did not expect was the celebrity feeling of the people living in the city was I went to the convention center, how the city felt in day and night time, and Just all of the staff members and how it felt overall. Much easier to notice staff members here before then I ever notice.
Anthrocon 2018 was my First AC ever and my 7th Furcon in my life. All of the Staff, crew and Kage himself. To the Westin staff I saw most of the time being around for the con. Stay Awesome Stay Wonderful Thank you so much. If I could go next year I would absolutely would but Most likely wont be able to for planned reasons for my life. Very much a wonderful Experience and love to go again in the future of my life.
People I Met: (If I forgot im sorry !)Draco-Cretel/Selena
Kai Ferrel
Renzy
Relkyon
guardian-hawk
mallikeet
catmonkshiro
Moth Monarch / nyomi
flinters
mungkorn
Rocker Fox
LWR
lanhoa
Alkali Bismuth
Xander the Blue
Pandez
Draggor
Boozy Barister/Badger
Semjay
Crash McCloud
wolfemasters
Blazen
Recca
Deirdraccoon
espionage
Badger
Crismon
Sandcat
Serathin
Kyle / Cyberwolf
Uncle Kage / kagemushi
Artie
Arrow Quivershaft
gillpanda
ChocoPony
gaia1234
Scales / blackminorscales
Sketchy Mouse / lukaryo
lordfenrir
tikikata
Ronnie / skyryd3r
Jib Kodi
Fox amoore
Pepper Coyote
Edward Hyena
1coin
Oddy
Coopertom
Fender
Manick
Some smaller things to say that wasnt going to be in the full report. I scared my friend Renzey and it was adorable and I stayed at the Omni so this didnt hit me but heard the smoke/fire alarm went off TWICE in the Westin and the first offender was found but the 2nd no idea. Oh and finally there was a Floating Tiki bar going down the Allegheny River of the Convention Center. It went past us multiple times. Thats a site to be hold.
~Taya Erindra.
im home safe from AC18
Posted 7 years agohi everyone. im home safe in arizona. unpacking and stuff. need sleep then will give a con report tomorrow. bye
~Taya Erindra
~Taya Erindra
Anthrocon 2018 is a Full GO !
Posted 7 years agoHello Hello ! So I can finally say Anthrocon is a full on Go for me. all the money I need for it is all cleared up. So Its full go in 2 weeks for Anthrocon and im so excited. My First AC con and 8th furcon in total. Thanks to my friends who has a room for me to make this possible. If you are going to Anthrocon I have many badges Ill be wearing. the ones that should be guarantee to be there are these two.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27050157/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27658486/
on top of all the other ones Ive gotten over the years. Excited and happy dragoness. See you all there in 2 weeks !
~Taya Erindra
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27050157/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27658486/
on top of all the other ones Ive gotten over the years. Excited and happy dragoness. See you all there in 2 weeks !
~Taya Erindra
a very personal journal after seeing "Love, Simon"
Posted 7 years agoThis for me is going to be as personal as I have ever been before, mostly because im terrified, every day about truly telling how I feel sometimes. Always scared someone will interpret it wrong or something. Being told im wrong about my feelings in slightly ways. Its always been difficult. And it will stay that way for me that I cant explain what I mean.
What im writing about is because I saw a movie early at work called “Love, Simon” a big movie getting traction about a love story with someone who is gay, hasnt told anyone and going through his high school life with that and figuring out when is it good to be open when does it feel right to tell about such a identity shift to people and others surrounding him. This to me was a important catch, Not just because he is gay and dealing with that secret of his. But with anything with anyone, being gay, or trans, or being non binary. Its so much that can be a shift to so many people. And reminds me of myself. My past and current situation with my mind and identity.
This will be hard to write for many reasons because of what I deal with. When I was in middle school I was dealing with two situations that were hitting me in my brain. One was my gender identity where I felt like a girl, I felt like a female. The other was liking men and guys. The gender situation I felt it was just a small minor thing and was nothing at the age of 14. but the liking men situation was hard to hide and didnt know how to handle it. I enjoyed being around guys when I was in school, most of my friends were guys, one of which was why I had feelings for guys. We met in the same class and both were autistic, we connected very quickly and more so as friends that I didnt want to say how I truly felt. I was terrified If I would lose them entirely as friends because of my feelings at 13 to 14. On top was dealing with a religion I was pushed upon by my family that made me feel like im a awful person to have these feelings “how Dare you” kind of way, and felt stuck felt completely unsure how to do anything. It took me about a year for me to realize how stupid my religion was, being it was pushed on me without choice on top of everything else I thought and believe, and once I dropped that.. it was easier to accept I Love Guys, that I want to date men and kiss them.
...but I didnt feel ready to tell all. When High School was happened is where pressure was harder, I told one friend at a time to feel more comfortable, one of which kinda felt distant for awhile but was all good later on. But wasnt public about it, didnt even tell my parents or siblings as 2006 it wasnt that easy to say it as it feels today. I was bullied a lot and pushed around for being autistic for having social issues that were very apparent to these people and knew how to get me in trouble, and obviously used the “your gay” jokes against me. I ignore them because I didnt want them to know and had to pretend around them mostly for most of my years. My friend, the one that made me had the feelings and help my accept myself.. when I was 16 I kissed him after telling him... for me the most beautiful response was around him saying “I figured as much, you're still my best friend”.
My Senior year I kinda just... let it open, I accepted it more and just talked normally and if people hear it near by let it spread. It was a weird thing but I just... acted normal. Some kids still tried bullied me or use that against me and I found a way to use it as a weapon and it made my last year a bit beautiful honestly. My parents fully knew when I was 19, and... it wasnt a horrible “i disown you” moment... but my dad wasnt exactly happy, he said he loves me still but didnt exactly take it proudly, my mom said “I always knew, you were terrible at hiding it”. My Dad I heard later argued my mom saying it was a phase because its what all the kids were doing in 2011. real encouraging... but I dealt with the pain as I always do.
You know that period where you feel like things felt nice, calming. Like the weather was just so beautiful you take a deep breath before something comes so suddenly and now its rainy or whatever weather analogy to follow with. This is where the other part hit.
Remember the two things I mention I was dealing with when I was young? Well the other one I mentally put in a vault thinking it was nothing and ment nothing... that like, grew in my that mental vault so much it exploded out of the vault in 2012 and hurt me hard. Dealing with my body my mind, how I feel my gender. "What am I". That was a phrase that kept rolling my head badly. And unlike the situation was liking men as a “Male” in the public form sense.. feeling like the girl wasnt something I knew what to do. Especially with how I feel, and to this day is still a complicated mess and isnt as simple as just get hormone therapy and surgery... to give a quick thought.. I dont mind being this “male shell” in the public sense for my job and life it makes thing very easy, but very privately with friends and this fur fandom.. I see myself a girl, a female. And from 2012 to today that has been a trip of rediscovery that im still figuring out and handling. Because I havent been able to be myself to the fullest with my parents who dont know, and just how my dad reacting to who he see his son liking men... I dont think he would like the idea of his son being a daughter. So while living here Its safe to make sure they dont find out which is a massive pain to be held until I can finally breathe.
I did go public in the fandom based about my gender identity and feelings on my birthday 2 years ago now. The responses have been positive thankfully and very supportive of so many people and even new people ive met over time. To be the Water Dragoness Taya Erindra and to smile when I hear “she” when talking about me. But its who I am and where I am today to push forward.
I know its a odd connection between this movie and what I feel is a emotional personal life dump, thats how much this movie hit me personally. The movie may be in the trailer and description on a website being a kid who is gay and hasnt told anyone. But I see it as a movie about what something personal you identify with, that may be abnormal to the society of the world. But knowing that in life people understand, people help out and look out for each other the more it comes around, that you are you and no one should make you feel awful about who you love or to be. Thats what makes life so wonderful. I absolutely recommend seeing “Love, Simon” when you get the chance, it may warm your heart or touch you in the personal feels you connect with. Either way, It was worth my time and worth everything to see this movie out there. Make this movie shine for the actors, directors writers, producers, and all other workers who made this film become real, and the author who wrote a book this movie is based on.
Thank you for reading if you did so. Have a wonderful day and take care.
~Taya Erindra.
What im writing about is because I saw a movie early at work called “Love, Simon” a big movie getting traction about a love story with someone who is gay, hasnt told anyone and going through his high school life with that and figuring out when is it good to be open when does it feel right to tell about such a identity shift to people and others surrounding him. This to me was a important catch, Not just because he is gay and dealing with that secret of his. But with anything with anyone, being gay, or trans, or being non binary. Its so much that can be a shift to so many people. And reminds me of myself. My past and current situation with my mind and identity.
This will be hard to write for many reasons because of what I deal with. When I was in middle school I was dealing with two situations that were hitting me in my brain. One was my gender identity where I felt like a girl, I felt like a female. The other was liking men and guys. The gender situation I felt it was just a small minor thing and was nothing at the age of 14. but the liking men situation was hard to hide and didnt know how to handle it. I enjoyed being around guys when I was in school, most of my friends were guys, one of which was why I had feelings for guys. We met in the same class and both were autistic, we connected very quickly and more so as friends that I didnt want to say how I truly felt. I was terrified If I would lose them entirely as friends because of my feelings at 13 to 14. On top was dealing with a religion I was pushed upon by my family that made me feel like im a awful person to have these feelings “how Dare you” kind of way, and felt stuck felt completely unsure how to do anything. It took me about a year for me to realize how stupid my religion was, being it was pushed on me without choice on top of everything else I thought and believe, and once I dropped that.. it was easier to accept I Love Guys, that I want to date men and kiss them.
...but I didnt feel ready to tell all. When High School was happened is where pressure was harder, I told one friend at a time to feel more comfortable, one of which kinda felt distant for awhile but was all good later on. But wasnt public about it, didnt even tell my parents or siblings as 2006 it wasnt that easy to say it as it feels today. I was bullied a lot and pushed around for being autistic for having social issues that were very apparent to these people and knew how to get me in trouble, and obviously used the “your gay” jokes against me. I ignore them because I didnt want them to know and had to pretend around them mostly for most of my years. My friend, the one that made me had the feelings and help my accept myself.. when I was 16 I kissed him after telling him... for me the most beautiful response was around him saying “I figured as much, you're still my best friend”.
My Senior year I kinda just... let it open, I accepted it more and just talked normally and if people hear it near by let it spread. It was a weird thing but I just... acted normal. Some kids still tried bullied me or use that against me and I found a way to use it as a weapon and it made my last year a bit beautiful honestly. My parents fully knew when I was 19, and... it wasnt a horrible “i disown you” moment... but my dad wasnt exactly happy, he said he loves me still but didnt exactly take it proudly, my mom said “I always knew, you were terrible at hiding it”. My Dad I heard later argued my mom saying it was a phase because its what all the kids were doing in 2011. real encouraging... but I dealt with the pain as I always do.
You know that period where you feel like things felt nice, calming. Like the weather was just so beautiful you take a deep breath before something comes so suddenly and now its rainy or whatever weather analogy to follow with. This is where the other part hit.
Remember the two things I mention I was dealing with when I was young? Well the other one I mentally put in a vault thinking it was nothing and ment nothing... that like, grew in my that mental vault so much it exploded out of the vault in 2012 and hurt me hard. Dealing with my body my mind, how I feel my gender. "What am I". That was a phrase that kept rolling my head badly. And unlike the situation was liking men as a “Male” in the public form sense.. feeling like the girl wasnt something I knew what to do. Especially with how I feel, and to this day is still a complicated mess and isnt as simple as just get hormone therapy and surgery... to give a quick thought.. I dont mind being this “male shell” in the public sense for my job and life it makes thing very easy, but very privately with friends and this fur fandom.. I see myself a girl, a female. And from 2012 to today that has been a trip of rediscovery that im still figuring out and handling. Because I havent been able to be myself to the fullest with my parents who dont know, and just how my dad reacting to who he see his son liking men... I dont think he would like the idea of his son being a daughter. So while living here Its safe to make sure they dont find out which is a massive pain to be held until I can finally breathe.
I did go public in the fandom based about my gender identity and feelings on my birthday 2 years ago now. The responses have been positive thankfully and very supportive of so many people and even new people ive met over time. To be the Water Dragoness Taya Erindra and to smile when I hear “she” when talking about me. But its who I am and where I am today to push forward.
I know its a odd connection between this movie and what I feel is a emotional personal life dump, thats how much this movie hit me personally. The movie may be in the trailer and description on a website being a kid who is gay and hasnt told anyone. But I see it as a movie about what something personal you identify with, that may be abnormal to the society of the world. But knowing that in life people understand, people help out and look out for each other the more it comes around, that you are you and no one should make you feel awful about who you love or to be. Thats what makes life so wonderful. I absolutely recommend seeing “Love, Simon” when you get the chance, it may warm your heart or touch you in the personal feels you connect with. Either way, It was worth my time and worth everything to see this movie out there. Make this movie shine for the actors, directors writers, producers, and all other workers who made this film become real, and the author who wrote a book this movie is based on.
Thank you for reading if you did so. Have a wonderful day and take care.
~Taya Erindra.
Another year. And a hatchday for me!
Posted 7 years agoJust a quick journal about my hatchday ^^ officially 26 dragoness! Yep :3
~Taya Erindra
~Taya Erindra
