The time has come and a few things have happened in-between my last journal. Will catch everyone up. So my week Started with car trouble. Our shared car had a major overheating issue. 3 things needed to be completed on it to fix the issue. Costing quite a bit of time and money. Thankfully we finished the job before my appointment on the 11th. (Ok so this is a bit more then a week.) So with this the water pump, HVAC tube, and coolant all needed to be completed by Thursday. We did so, but not before depleting all of our cash getting the job done. Thing is, without that car, there is no money.

Next, this happened yesterday. We paid our water bill, BUT GUESS WHAT, BUT GUESS WHAT, they somehow lost the payment. It was a money order so losing a payment hurts us bad. So they shut the water off and racked up fees. This is a case where you scream loud enough someone will actually open their fucking eyes and look for the paperwork you sent in for payment. A cashier found it btw. Not the supervisor a cashier. Im sure they were trying to get a double payment... fuckers.

Now the latest and greatest, this might seem stupid, but my father left his phone behind no biggie right? Well my idiot brother spilt water all over it... OHH FUCKING JOY the phone is fried. Want the best from it. The phone is his work phone, for 2 jobs. One job is for the PD in our area, with the loss of the phone he cannot work, its a on call sort of job. Without the phone we are quite boned. I have put it in rice for a few hours but its a no go on turning on. It was on at the time it was soaked, I shut it off because it was freaking out (lights flashing and the screen wouldn't let me unlock the phone) i shut it off ripped the plate off and stuck it in rice. I get nothing from the phone...

And finally tomorrow is my surgery, with the stress of the week Im totally flipping out. Im not feeling all to great knowing that things are slowly crippling around me and that I have to go in for surgery. Im not having the best of weeks right now. BUT The Master Chief Collection's multiplayer finally works lol.

Well next wednesday is my surgery. Getting really andy about the procedure, but I'm ready.

First off, I want to thank everyone for their calming words of advice and comfort. You've seriously made this a whole lot less stressful for me to go into this.

Second my surgery is on December 17th, they will be doing robotic surgery, Laparoscopic surgery. During the week of recovery I plan on really being active on my Facebook kragith zedrok, and twitter kragithzedrok. If you want to chat with me please do so there! I would absolutely love that.

But yes, Im a whole lot more comfortable going into this procedure then I was before. Thanks everyone!

So basically I'm spelling out what the surgeon said. I have a scrotal hernia, yea. So he tried pushing it back in, causing me pain blehh, but it wouldn't slip back in because of how long it's been inside there. That's a total of 8 years of my life living with this thing. I go in for surgery between 12-10-14 and 12-20-14. It's a ten day grace that I will be filled in on once I get a call ither today or tomorrow.

So what's going to happen? My stuff is safe, what's not safe is the 8/10 possibility of it breaking the mesh and re entering the sack again. Can this kill me? Yup, if the bowel is constrained at any point I can die from it. If I have a cyst on my cord I'm fucked. But I don't so I'm not worrying about that. This would have shown up in the ultrasound I got.

The procedure I'm uncomfrtrabol with because I dislike imperfections on my body. I'm really anal about this. I don't scar easy but they will be doing a robotic procedure. I will have three incisions made to the left and right of my abdomen and one under my belly button. If this procedure fails an large incision will be made near my groin area and it will be fixed there.

Now because it's so large he feels, because he couldn't just push it in (would make his job easy right?) there could be someone inside of it that hasn't passed. I personally think its to large and swollen so it cant fit through the hole it came in on anymore. But that's just me. It is my body drrrrr. So to be sure, I'm going to be flucshing my system. Nothing but fiber and cranberry juice till then.

Am I scarred FUCK YES I AM!!! I'm being put under for the whole thing, and the last thing I want to wake up with is issues.

Thanks for reading...

So with whats been going on on FA (slowness and issues with staff) I have decided to make a backup site for most of my content. I won't be uploading everything on there. Only choice pieces that highlight my gallery. (I have a lot of images and don't have time to do them all one by one lol)

https://kragith-zedrok.sofurry.com

So my consultation is on the 2nd, the reason I am doing one is because of where the hernia is located. I will say its not in the greatest of places, (yes its yea...) but has caused no damage. Its the removal process that I worry about. I know these are surgeons and they know what they are doing... But I don't like the fact that Im going to be put under and be cut open like this, (its being done in a typical fashion, they aren't opening it any other way, only below the belly and in-between the beginning of the leg crease) especially like how it must be done. Lately I think this hernia has been making me feel really sick. I have what you call a inguinal hernia. The diagnosis is that it is very large, yet everything has perfect blood flow, so again no damage. Im 20, I noticed this thing at the age of 12-13. It bothered me my freshman year when it hurt like I was being ripped to pieces (this was what happened, that wall was being stretched and torn) ever since it has gotten bigger and bigger. Its now to the point where its bothering me. Thus the reason for the surgery. But yes I have been feeling oddly ill lately, having issues with feeling the need to eat anything. I do eat and drink lots of fluids, but somethings up. I have an on and off fever , cough, but its not a typical illness in that it goes away and comes back only when Im not moving much.

In other news my arm is doing SOSOSOSOSOSOSOSO much better, its slow healing but its still very much obvious it was cut open... this is a bit disturbing to me.

Just thought I would leave an update for those who have ben wondering.

Happy thanksgiving everyone. Lol and happy late thanksgiving to those outside the USA. I hope all your turkeys come out juicy and delicious today!

So I have been looking to get some NSFW or mature styled ref sheets for my sona Kragith and Rkar. I just sent an AOK to  VogelRove for these refs to be done up. This doesn't mean that my old refs by Val will be obsolete. These will be my primary ref sheets for all my SFW commissions. These new ref sheets will be for all my NSFW commissions. I'm looking forward to the outcome of these new sheets.

The things Im reading and the allegations being spread on twitter have irritated me a bit. Some individuals are doing nothing but instigating fights with N and S. S has almost no control over what goes on. N has some things in the past that obviously fueled people for the forthcoming fires. I donated because I cared, wrong or right, what the is money goes too isn't my ultimate concern. This place gives quite a lot for what it is. MANY take for granted what they have now. Yes FA has slowed astronomically, icons, submissions, thumbnails all load like they are from 1996. I'm not pleased but at least its still working for the most part. Take what you are given and cherish it. Cause it might not be here the next time you decide to complain about something. You have the right to complain but harassment isn't a means of getting what you want.

Excuse my rant lol, its just bothering me what Im seeing on twitter. Probably going to leave twitter, its frustrating.

So I went to an art show at my local school and some artists were talking about their sculptures. Overall a beautiful show. But one question asked by another student kinda hit me. The question was somewhere along the lines of do you do this for the money? And the artists response was amazing. "You don’t go into art for financial aids, you do it because you love it-." Georgie Shepherd

Something I wanted to pass on.

Found something very helpful for you. Been really getting to work on turning lifework into something lately and this is new to me. But this video helps. IF you got Photoshop.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m6ThUBDpmiQ

Im extremely happy to say that the hernia has not caused any damage, and will be completely safe to remove. I will be having the surgery done in december during my very long break. I need this time for recovery.

I have also been very lonely and have got myself something for this occasion #BD DONT JUDGE ME

As for my arm, I'm doing much better with this. Thought today during my visit when my doctor needed to change my gauze that she packed inside the opening.... SHE FUCKING RIPPED THE THING OUT... oh GOD THE PAIN FUCKING STILL FEEL IT!!!!!!! The feeling of someone else putting something inside you isn't really fun... OMFG I went right into shock, we were talking and i guess she thought distracting me would ease the pain. Hell no hun thats not how I work with my brain. I notice whats going down and shit like that hits me hard. Im having plenty of trouble with bleeding right now because of this bullshit.

As for other things. My friend MR and I have been playing online recently, I'm going to say outright I really enjoy spending time with friends online, having a good time. I love the simple things in life. Thanks MR! (Enjoy your gift ^__^)

WWFF is going along smoothly, the next page is going to be a very cute one, so look forward to this. Part 1 of chapter 1 is only a narrative section introducing Kragith and Rkar. I write stories with meaning, I capture the emotion with what I want, and MR takes it to the next level and makes it better 10 fold. You will all be very pleased with this manga, and I hope you stay for the full ride. If we get funds I have many ideas in mind for rewards. As well as the possibility for physical prints. So please feel free to visit our donation page at the bottom of this journal.

Also got a chance at getting my comic con 2015 tickets early tomorrow so I will be taking a swing at that tomorrow morning... early morning :3

Last thing, UBA is back in the house so I have been saving up for a commission for him, i really enjoy these commissions to him. I plan to keep them coming as long as I can keep money at a good flow.

All right day two, i pain to do just about anything even this, but i have to type anyway. I have been keeping the open wound clean outside and replacing the bandage twice daily to keep it sanitized. Have been using proper prep pads, gauze, and gloves. It stings and still feels horrible. The medication for the pain isn't working as well as it did on day 1. Normal for me for my body to deny its purpose, which is odd.

As for the hernia, I'm going to get an ultrasound tomorrow. I will know the fate of what is to happen but i count on surgery down there to remove the hernia... well not remove it but put it back in place. Been stressed about this because i find out in the afternoon...

-Kragith

So i have been doing alright. Turns out I do have that hernia and it is where I thought it was. Interesting enough its not effecting anything down there. If they pull the hernia out it will be ok. SOSOSOSOSOSO I'm ok with that. As for my arm, its a bitch and a half. IM wearing a sling and sporting some make shift bandages cause I don't have shit. I was looking at the opening the doctor made and the shit she put in it is turning black? Is that a bad thing? Im on medication for the pain but damn this sucks so much.

-Kragith

So some scary shit happened. Turns out I had to get this thing cut out, my left arm is useless and I still have to go to class. I'm in so much pain I want to cry...

Scary shit was the little hernia I have had for a very long time has gotten into something it shouldn't. Though I'm covered in scared...

UPDATE 1: The hernia is called an inguinal hernia. A bit of intestine (small intestine) has made its way into the scrotal area, causing inflammation. There I said it. So I'm fucking scared about this OK. I don't want it to be effecting anything down there. Its been my secret for 4 years. I wanted to say something about it, its bothering me this bad. I want a fucking hug right now...

So I somehow developed a huge lump under my left armpit, scary thing is it hurts and when I first noticed it it was small. It has now gotten so big I headed to the doctors to get this thing looked at. Its possible it may be removed, I'm not big on surgery sososososo..... FML. I will post an update of what this is after, unless I cannot type because it being removed Dx.

So since yesterday apparently my lymph nodes under my left arm have decided now was a good time to swell. So its causing me UBER pain, like it sucks to move my arm. Like its a giant ball under my arm and it damn well hurts.

Now as in updates, some things have been shifted around. Due dates and whatnot for a few commissions. Illnesses' are spreading to everyone I know Dx. Give  roaring-flame-cat a get well soon. Seems all my professors are getting sick, as well as my family. Blahhhhh illnesses, ima make everyone soup once this thing on my arm goes away.

-Kragith

Im about to speak in all seriousness... AHEM...

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Dragon, Dragon, Dragon, Dragon,Dragon, Dragon, Dragon, Dragon, Dragon, Dragon, Dragon, Dragon, Dragon, Dragon, Dragon, Dragon, Dragon. =D

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I have concluded my speech.

So I wanted to list of some things that are coming in the future, so here we go.

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1. Special commission has gone out to  ModifiedRabbit for halloween. I hope everyone likes this one!

2. Possible commission going out in November, more details to this will come later.

3. My plush made by  roaring-flame-cat is to be completed in this coming week, with hopefully enough time for it to get here before halloween, but if not thats OK! Im not worried :)

4. I have a few commission ideas for those who i have commissioned in the past. One is Destiny themed and the other is more sporty.

5. WWFF page 6 to be released this Friday @ 12PM PST

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-Kragith

So after some insight and many hours of research, I'm going to be changing a few things within What We Fight For. These changes are for later on in the story to help mesh with the recent changes in halo history. I also want to better explain some historical things within, this will be done with short excerpts released with the pages when we get to that point. Parts 1-2 will not be effected. Part 3.5 - 4 is my primary focus for change. Parts are not released in halves BTW, it's just that's the half point, a break in the story for a new scene.

I have worked many hours to make this story very entertaining for everyone. It contains sexual scenes both minor and major. I do not intent to focus on "we only sex" no, this story is a story, and will not be about sex. It contains it, but does not exemplify this interaction. Why put it in? Some relationships have sex as a primary feel for effection, I do not wish to imply this. I like cutie mature things. Humor if you will. I also wish to express they do have love for echouther with these passionate scenes of interaction. They aren't just having sex to have sex, there is a meaning, this being love and passion.

Thanks for reading everyone,
Kragith

*Im editing this so Ignore, its only an idea*
*Pricing, size, stance, do ability may change*

So for a great long time I have been musing over this idea for something spectacular. My idea was to have a battle stance of Kragith and Rkar. Kragith with an energy sword, Rkar with his rifle, in their armor, helmets on the ground back to back. All super and awesome. The base would be two to 2 inches tall, this is the man support of the statue. From this point I want a 12 inch statue of these two. The full thing is 14 inches tall.

I have plans to put this in a display case with lights and everything, a plate to be made describing the motion as a scene in WWFF. I have a name in the makes but thats not part of the commission idea.

Ok some things I have been musing about are both what wood would be used, and if a proper wood was selected what should I go for, Painted or just a stain.

If i was to go with the stain idea my price point will be set at $375

If i go full color $450 is my max. I understand that intricately painting every little detail takes a very long time, I'm willing to pay for that.

I have been thinking about these numbers for a long time and have actually lowered them from when I planned this out. This was in part to what I wanted to do. In all I want not only the sculpt but sketches drawn out to show enough detail to understand the piece, constant communication through FA, Email, Skype, Facebook, whatever. If I don't hear from you on this sort of thing for long periods of time I get a bit annoyed. I require regular updates.

Why so strict on this? Im dropping some good money so I'm not going to lay willy nilly and be tossed cookies. This is considered a large project.

Im only putting this here on my FA page and not FAF because I don't want to go into full scope yet. I know what I want but a certain someone has me thinking. Not going to say who buuuuuttt he knows who he is xP :awesome:

-Kragith

So this has been something that I have been doing on a day to day basis. I wake up, go to school, come home for lunch, go back to school, come home and do homework. This is every Monday and Wednesday. Tuesday and Thursday I get to sleep in, do my online classes, sit through lecture videos, study, do the homework. But come Friday thru Sunday I'm free right? Well yea but I get to sit here and do absolutely nothing. I like to complete a large task at hand almost every day, I feel like shit when I do nothing. I'm jumpy, tired, whatever.

I'm just tired of it. I want to do something. I hate sitting on my ass, can't go places, usually got school the next day. I try and do charts nut man no one is ever about. Blahhh. I have been doing this for 2 years now, it is nothing like the high school routine of BS assignments, but its exhausting and really making me feel bad about myself.

Ok I wanted to let everyone know where I'm at right now with everything. Currently I'm not doing good with money, actually doing bad. I make just enough to get by with daily things. I can save extra cash but it's recently been going to being able to afford WWFF by myself. I try and keep up so that when each part is done I can pay for the shipment and the next part.

I recently had a qui mission go out this week, this was a one time thing that I was given some extra cash for by family. I really wish to recommission the 5people that I have commissioned before. I have ideas for everyone yes, but no mony to put forwards right now. So if you haven't noticed I have very little new content. This is why.

School on the other hand is going well, I'm getting financial aid tomorrow that I'm using to get cought up with things. If I have extra money I will try and commission again.

Again it will be a little while before that happens even with the aid money. That money is for getting me back where I need to be.

Some more happy news, I was watching  Roaring-Flame-Cat create my plush, she says it's going to be a bit bigger then anticipated I really cannot wait for this thIng to be done! I want it so bad!

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So some quick updates, will start off with general stuff and work to WWFF.

So in general news I have been hard at work with school and have had one of the worst months ever last month. Im doing alright in school but September… damn everything decided to either stop working or gave me issues every where I turned. I also have no money whatsoever so this is a big reason for a lack of commissions going out.

As many of you know  UBA is on a hiatus as of now. He's my digital go to for Kragith and Rkar's sexy antics. I have stayed in touch and am happy to report he's doing just fine. I look forward to his return. Many ideas do I have.

And for the fuzzy things, no not those fuzzy things, talking about my Plush from  Roaring-Flame-Cat. So I have recently seen where it is and I will say I wish it was further along. But I have been assured that I will have it in time for Halloween. In the event its not I'm unsure what to say about it. I enjoy RFC's company, don't get me wrong, amazing person. Im not much of a time chief with projects like these but I have plans for the plush that involve Halloween. Corse I will have pictures of that for each season lol. I will give him a santa hat when the time comes. But OHHHH the ideas that she is putting into play for the plush are very cool. It will be filled with beads and be anti allergenic stuff too. I don't wanna give away the ideas she told me but they are defiantly worth the wait. I need my snuggle buddy lol.
Snuggle Buddy = Plush xP

WWFF is starting to kick off. Not getting to far with he Pateron account, a little disappointed but hey, we just started so its only the beginning! As of now I'm offering two places for WWFF. My DA account and my FA account. However my DA account will only have pages 1-5 (Total of 7 pages counting the cover and chapter cover) for those wanting to check it out and don't have a FA account. So have a look out on my DA page if you don't have a FA account but can see this journal.

Speaking of Journals, Im going to be going through all of my journals and archiving them elsewhere and deleting those without comments. Some journals are really not worth staying. I like having the count but its unnecessary to have this many journals. Im also doing the same to my notes. So if you notice my journals are dwindling to nothing, thats why lol.

Also cleaning up my profile page, removing things like the commissions out block and the online offline thing.

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-Kragith

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V6L153R_LAI

It speaks for itself everyone.