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Amber Krowe
Posted 15 years agoDragging my feet across the rough ground below me I know I can't stop. Stopping is death; I'm not ready to die. I drag my sword behind me with my dangling thrashed arm, covered in the sweat and blood of my own body. The Red Sun is setting directly ahead of me illuminating the battlefield with a beautiful blood red sky and the pale orange aura over all the light touches. I'm afraid. I can hardly breathe, and despite how sure I have always been about whom I'm fighting for and why when you have to take larger steps to not trip on your dead comrades bodies it all seems so meaningless… so pointless… you are forced to question everything you have ever fought for. My face is turning red and boiling in fear.
She's far behind me. I don't know if she knows I am still alive… She slaughtered us all so effortlessly. She is, however, so beautiful. Her grace and flair is breathtaking. Any other time if I saw her and she smiled in my general direction my face would instead turn red in shyness and the inability to think of anything other than her beauty, but she is here to kill me.
I'm trying to get away as fast as I can but I am wounded from the explosions and scared too stiff to use my body correctly. My muscles cramp as I trip over the leg of another soldier, my body landing on its chest in a shallow puddle of blood from all the carnage. Strange, any other time this would have hurt but I wouldn't have it any other way this time. Finally I can catch my breath a bit, gasping this air that is tainted with the evil of the surroundings. There is nothing but death here… turning my head to its side to rest it on the ground, partially submerged in the red sea, I can see our aircraft she shot down engulfed in flames scattered across the battlefield, both our own and those of our Sun Jin enemies. She didn't care which side any of us were on… she arrived and ended our battle, killing anybody who held a weapon no matter which role they were playing in our battle.
The final battle of Amber Krowe has ended. Neither army will celebrate tonight. Pride seems so pointless when you are breathing the guts of the savaged body next to you. I am not the only one still alive. I hear their screams and moans of pain but no one will be coming to our aid. We will all die here alone.
The largest military engagement ever to be recorded will end in a slaughter, a massacre, all to her hands. I can see her now. She stands there with her arms crossed and her beautiful sword once wielded by Redken Majora herself resting blade first in the ground. She is so beautiful. Her hair blows aside a bit with the small gusts of wind as she eyes the setting Red Sun. It was a blessing to be graced enough to watch her work, to watch her hunt, to watch her kill, but I know a thing or two about your Templar holy war, Shina Quall. I die knowing you are not long for life either for Lord Flarion's Red Sun is now setting for you too.
She's far behind me. I don't know if she knows I am still alive… She slaughtered us all so effortlessly. She is, however, so beautiful. Her grace and flair is breathtaking. Any other time if I saw her and she smiled in my general direction my face would instead turn red in shyness and the inability to think of anything other than her beauty, but she is here to kill me.
I'm trying to get away as fast as I can but I am wounded from the explosions and scared too stiff to use my body correctly. My muscles cramp as I trip over the leg of another soldier, my body landing on its chest in a shallow puddle of blood from all the carnage. Strange, any other time this would have hurt but I wouldn't have it any other way this time. Finally I can catch my breath a bit, gasping this air that is tainted with the evil of the surroundings. There is nothing but death here… turning my head to its side to rest it on the ground, partially submerged in the red sea, I can see our aircraft she shot down engulfed in flames scattered across the battlefield, both our own and those of our Sun Jin enemies. She didn't care which side any of us were on… she arrived and ended our battle, killing anybody who held a weapon no matter which role they were playing in our battle.
The final battle of Amber Krowe has ended. Neither army will celebrate tonight. Pride seems so pointless when you are breathing the guts of the savaged body next to you. I am not the only one still alive. I hear their screams and moans of pain but no one will be coming to our aid. We will all die here alone.
The largest military engagement ever to be recorded will end in a slaughter, a massacre, all to her hands. I can see her now. She stands there with her arms crossed and her beautiful sword once wielded by Redken Majora herself resting blade first in the ground. She is so beautiful. Her hair blows aside a bit with the small gusts of wind as she eyes the setting Red Sun. It was a blessing to be graced enough to watch her work, to watch her hunt, to watch her kill, but I know a thing or two about your Templar holy war, Shina Quall. I die knowing you are not long for life either for Lord Flarion's Red Sun is now setting for you too.
ODE TO SINS // THE ANATOMY OF A PANIC ATTACK
Posted 15 years agoAwake. Aware. Alone. // THE ANATOMY OF A PANIC ATTACK
Make the nightmares end, please!
Don't tell me to not be a baby. Why don't you take a moment to give me a few moments worth of your day. I told you when I came back into this relationship I would be more open with my feelings instead of bottling them up. Now you complain that I'm being too emotional. I came back and gave us a second try. You said if I wanted a hug I just had to ask because for some reason you're unable to be kind and loving to your loved one to do it yourself if you saw me crying or upset. How am I suppose to be OK with you rejecting me even then when I try to get a simple hug. I missed you. When you came home and you brought me those cookies I wanted to hold you and kiss you but all you did was complain. I'm trying to get that love and affection you told me to just come and get if I wanted it. If I can't count on you to be there when I need you, or if I'm am afraid to come to you when I'm upset in fear that you'd just reject me anyway or call me a baby or sigh or leave me to rot then what is the point of showing my emotions anyway. If I can't count on you then what are we? You told me to come get the hug if I'm hurt or upset. How do you think I feel when you reject me when I try to turn to you. ABANDONED. ALONE. I came back to this relationship because you didn't understand why I left in the first place. I told you I would work to make US WORK. My biggest goal being more open about my feelings. I asked you to just do one thing and that's be there when I need you. It's been almost 3 months. What have YOU DONE to make US WORK? It's back to the exact same way it was before I left. Feelings that I can't count on you in my time of need, and that itself upsetting me beyond understand. NO I won't see a councilor. My problem isn't me. It's the lack of you. It's you wanting this fake lifeless relationship to continue unchanged. You can sleep at night but I will continue waking up every night with nightmares of anger and frustration or something worse like the self inflicted evisceration of my naked body with my claws and writing ABANDONED on the walls in my own blood using my open hand as a brush with the most protesting anger on my face. That isn't a joke. That same dream has happened twice. I can see you... I can feel you... but you wont give me the time of day to lift your finger for my heart. Bringing me home a cookie wont fix my heart. Giving me a hug and looking at me in the eyes and telling me you love me and maybe a soft kiss or brushing my cheek with your hand would be the greatest extacy I could ever dream of right now. Give me ten seconds a day and it will change my life. Otherwise I am on fire inside and this darkness that is starting to overtake me will lead to break. Before I held it all inside and I snapped hard. I had a full bore mental breakdown and screamed at the walls and threw my pillows around the bedroom in tears and before I knew it I was already fifty miles away from home fleeing my life wanting it all to go away. The only reason that hasn't happened yet again is because I am expressing my feelings better this time. I am here writing the blood on the walls. I am here crying out for you to for help. If you love me you'll save me. If you love me you too will learn to say "I'm sorry" when it's due. If you love me you'll learn to stop calling me a baby or sigh at me like I'm a burden when I come to you for HELP! DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW MUCH THAT HURTS ME!?!? If you love me you wont turn your head when I try to give you a kiss when you get home and find some joke as an excuse to why you shouldn't have to in an effect to make me laugh. Being rejected is not going to make me laugh. You wanted me to come back to this relationship right? Now I'm here. Keep me here! Show me how much you mean to me! Show me why it was worth it to come back or leave me to rot. I'm losing control. When I came back I asked you what you were going to change to make this relationship work. You just looked at me and gave me this look with a sigh. That was the first red flag right there. You had no answer. I have to write this out right now even because I couldn't sleep. More nightmares. If I lay in bed I stir... I stir and I go mad. I will start to feel my heart rush and my chest hurt and my mind will sink to a black dark place where I die a little inside. I came back for you! I came back to this relationship for you! Show me that it wasn't a mistake! I'm not happy right now and I need your help! I need your help to just live happily again. All I want is for you to HOLD ME AND TELL ME IT'S GOING TO BE OK like you did when I first met you. Do you remember that night? Shortly after you moved in I had a random panic attack. You held me. I curled up in your arms and your rubbed my back with my face in your lap. You rocked me back and forth and told me everything was going to be ok. It saved me that night. You have it in you! Why are you now so shy to show your care and love for me!? You told me you'd always be there if it happened again. Where are you!!! I'm crying... did you abandon that promise? When you came and saw me at my moms house I laid it all out for you in black and white. I dug into my gut with a sharpened spoon and as much as it hurt i spilled it ALL OUT for you. All my hates and fears and how I wished you had treated me better. I thought that would have been a major wake up call as to what I need in a relationship, basic love and care, but I came back AND NOTHING CHANGED. You just want me here because you want to be able to say you have a boyfriend. You don't want to do any of the work, work meaning being a girlfriend in return, and you want it to just be simple and easy. You're right though, you have to fight to keep a relationship going, something you told me. Wheres you're weapon!? How hard are you trying to keep me happy. You blame it on your depression. No depression made you say "not now" when I asked for a hug. No a simple headache did though. How am I suppose to count on you to be there when I need you? I'm so afraid! My confidence is leaving me all alone. What does it mean when I have to turn to my friends on SL for support and I can't get that from home. All they do is type /me hug and it feels so real because it's the only place I know where I can get any care. It's more real there because I feel important and cared for. I have to escape my real life by going behind a computer screen. Why! I still love you. I want you to be my girlfriend! I still love you!!! I just want it to be like it used to be when we first met. The perfect place. When we held each other and said we'd protect each other! You told me you were able to take off your armor around me but now it feels like you've put it back on. I'm afraid to come to you for help. I'm afraid! Because the noises in my head tell me NO. They tell me that you're going to hurt me. When you see me upset and it's because of US and all THESE FEELINGS I'm STILL afraid to bring it up. I DON'T WANT TO HURT YOU BUT I'M GETTING DESPERATE. I know I'll never be what you wanted. I'm a soft hearted guy and you need a strong man. I need a caring soft affectionate girlfriend and you've told me many times you can't be affectionate. Where are we going!? Why do I still love you!? I DON'T KNOW but I DO LOVE YOU! I'm trying to be more open with my feelings and you've said many times that's a good thing but it's only a self inflicting gunshot each time because I choke on the words that I say. Tell me, what have I done wrong? What have I done to deserve this? What wrong have I done you? Fragrance of a broken world tells a story of decline. Nothing ventured, nothing gained, right? Nothing's changed. Give me your heart. Show me something now that I need it more then ever. Show me COMPASSION. If there's somewhere, a last spark of hope... can you change your opinion of the things which you don't know. I wish it would be like in former times when you filled the area with light. If there's a chance to recognize the blame. You can't ignore this. There's a truth behind it that will follow us to the edge of life unless it changes! When the moonlight is shining bright and echos whispers echoing the night... you will see what is to be done (fucking song lyrics). Make your choice! Stand with me or free me to finish this fight alone. The final battle is inside my head. The "internal conflict" it's called.
Enveloped in a sentiment, a sound that rushes over me. Engage in impulse to pretend that I have a faith that's pure. You must not forget how to dream, please endure in everything. Entertain the thought that you have the strength of those you want to be. Cheers and tribute make great your saviors but still your reckless thoughts will survive, anachronistic and impulsive...
And what will happen will I dream? I am too scared to close my eyes... for a second please HOLD ME. None can change in me the things that I believe. But I don't know what happens now... I am too scared to close my eyes.
I want it all to end... to return to a state of simplicity. I want it to all go quiet... I want the words to stop being written on the walls in bloody. No pain, pleasure, no fear or love. No light or day. No you or me. I want to dream again. And don't fear for my safety. I don't care anymore but I am not STUPID. I'm too in love with life and end myself. Nobody can take away my love of life. I follow every step with my heart and I want to live way to badly to do something stupid...
...but I warn you. It's coming. Another breakdown isn't far down the road. My mind can't take it. It's an internal conflict. It's war and neither side can win because it's a war for you. This is MY WAR. A dark seed reigns in me like a storm and I can't hold it back forever. Now is not the time to test me anymore. Stop calling me a baby if you don't understand what you're talking about. Don't cross that line.
Make the nightmares end, please!
Don't tell me to not be a baby. Why don't you take a moment to give me a few moments worth of your day. I told you when I came back into this relationship I would be more open with my feelings instead of bottling them up. Now you complain that I'm being too emotional. I came back and gave us a second try. You said if I wanted a hug I just had to ask because for some reason you're unable to be kind and loving to your loved one to do it yourself if you saw me crying or upset. How am I suppose to be OK with you rejecting me even then when I try to get a simple hug. I missed you. When you came home and you brought me those cookies I wanted to hold you and kiss you but all you did was complain. I'm trying to get that love and affection you told me to just come and get if I wanted it. If I can't count on you to be there when I need you, or if I'm am afraid to come to you when I'm upset in fear that you'd just reject me anyway or call me a baby or sigh or leave me to rot then what is the point of showing my emotions anyway. If I can't count on you then what are we? You told me to come get the hug if I'm hurt or upset. How do you think I feel when you reject me when I try to turn to you. ABANDONED. ALONE. I came back to this relationship because you didn't understand why I left in the first place. I told you I would work to make US WORK. My biggest goal being more open about my feelings. I asked you to just do one thing and that's be there when I need you. It's been almost 3 months. What have YOU DONE to make US WORK? It's back to the exact same way it was before I left. Feelings that I can't count on you in my time of need, and that itself upsetting me beyond understand. NO I won't see a councilor. My problem isn't me. It's the lack of you. It's you wanting this fake lifeless relationship to continue unchanged. You can sleep at night but I will continue waking up every night with nightmares of anger and frustration or something worse like the self inflicted evisceration of my naked body with my claws and writing ABANDONED on the walls in my own blood using my open hand as a brush with the most protesting anger on my face. That isn't a joke. That same dream has happened twice. I can see you... I can feel you... but you wont give me the time of day to lift your finger for my heart. Bringing me home a cookie wont fix my heart. Giving me a hug and looking at me in the eyes and telling me you love me and maybe a soft kiss or brushing my cheek with your hand would be the greatest extacy I could ever dream of right now. Give me ten seconds a day and it will change my life. Otherwise I am on fire inside and this darkness that is starting to overtake me will lead to break. Before I held it all inside and I snapped hard. I had a full bore mental breakdown and screamed at the walls and threw my pillows around the bedroom in tears and before I knew it I was already fifty miles away from home fleeing my life wanting it all to go away. The only reason that hasn't happened yet again is because I am expressing my feelings better this time. I am here writing the blood on the walls. I am here crying out for you to for help. If you love me you'll save me. If you love me you too will learn to say "I'm sorry" when it's due. If you love me you'll learn to stop calling me a baby or sigh at me like I'm a burden when I come to you for HELP! DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW MUCH THAT HURTS ME!?!? If you love me you wont turn your head when I try to give you a kiss when you get home and find some joke as an excuse to why you shouldn't have to in an effect to make me laugh. Being rejected is not going to make me laugh. You wanted me to come back to this relationship right? Now I'm here. Keep me here! Show me how much you mean to me! Show me why it was worth it to come back or leave me to rot. I'm losing control. When I came back I asked you what you were going to change to make this relationship work. You just looked at me and gave me this look with a sigh. That was the first red flag right there. You had no answer. I have to write this out right now even because I couldn't sleep. More nightmares. If I lay in bed I stir... I stir and I go mad. I will start to feel my heart rush and my chest hurt and my mind will sink to a black dark place where I die a little inside. I came back for you! I came back to this relationship for you! Show me that it wasn't a mistake! I'm not happy right now and I need your help! I need your help to just live happily again. All I want is for you to HOLD ME AND TELL ME IT'S GOING TO BE OK like you did when I first met you. Do you remember that night? Shortly after you moved in I had a random panic attack. You held me. I curled up in your arms and your rubbed my back with my face in your lap. You rocked me back and forth and told me everything was going to be ok. It saved me that night. You have it in you! Why are you now so shy to show your care and love for me!? You told me you'd always be there if it happened again. Where are you!!! I'm crying... did you abandon that promise? When you came and saw me at my moms house I laid it all out for you in black and white. I dug into my gut with a sharpened spoon and as much as it hurt i spilled it ALL OUT for you. All my hates and fears and how I wished you had treated me better. I thought that would have been a major wake up call as to what I need in a relationship, basic love and care, but I came back AND NOTHING CHANGED. You just want me here because you want to be able to say you have a boyfriend. You don't want to do any of the work, work meaning being a girlfriend in return, and you want it to just be simple and easy. You're right though, you have to fight to keep a relationship going, something you told me. Wheres you're weapon!? How hard are you trying to keep me happy. You blame it on your depression. No depression made you say "not now" when I asked for a hug. No a simple headache did though. How am I suppose to count on you to be there when I need you? I'm so afraid! My confidence is leaving me all alone. What does it mean when I have to turn to my friends on SL for support and I can't get that from home. All they do is type /me hug and it feels so real because it's the only place I know where I can get any care. It's more real there because I feel important and cared for. I have to escape my real life by going behind a computer screen. Why! I still love you. I want you to be my girlfriend! I still love you!!! I just want it to be like it used to be when we first met. The perfect place. When we held each other and said we'd protect each other! You told me you were able to take off your armor around me but now it feels like you've put it back on. I'm afraid to come to you for help. I'm afraid! Because the noises in my head tell me NO. They tell me that you're going to hurt me. When you see me upset and it's because of US and all THESE FEELINGS I'm STILL afraid to bring it up. I DON'T WANT TO HURT YOU BUT I'M GETTING DESPERATE. I know I'll never be what you wanted. I'm a soft hearted guy and you need a strong man. I need a caring soft affectionate girlfriend and you've told me many times you can't be affectionate. Where are we going!? Why do I still love you!? I DON'T KNOW but I DO LOVE YOU! I'm trying to be more open with my feelings and you've said many times that's a good thing but it's only a self inflicting gunshot each time because I choke on the words that I say. Tell me, what have I done wrong? What have I done to deserve this? What wrong have I done you? Fragrance of a broken world tells a story of decline. Nothing ventured, nothing gained, right? Nothing's changed. Give me your heart. Show me something now that I need it more then ever. Show me COMPASSION. If there's somewhere, a last spark of hope... can you change your opinion of the things which you don't know. I wish it would be like in former times when you filled the area with light. If there's a chance to recognize the blame. You can't ignore this. There's a truth behind it that will follow us to the edge of life unless it changes! When the moonlight is shining bright and echos whispers echoing the night... you will see what is to be done (fucking song lyrics). Make your choice! Stand with me or free me to finish this fight alone. The final battle is inside my head. The "internal conflict" it's called.
Enveloped in a sentiment, a sound that rushes over me. Engage in impulse to pretend that I have a faith that's pure. You must not forget how to dream, please endure in everything. Entertain the thought that you have the strength of those you want to be. Cheers and tribute make great your saviors but still your reckless thoughts will survive, anachronistic and impulsive...
And what will happen will I dream? I am too scared to close my eyes... for a second please HOLD ME. None can change in me the things that I believe. But I don't know what happens now... I am too scared to close my eyes.
I want it all to end... to return to a state of simplicity. I want it to all go quiet... I want the words to stop being written on the walls in bloody. No pain, pleasure, no fear or love. No light or day. No you or me. I want to dream again. And don't fear for my safety. I don't care anymore but I am not STUPID. I'm too in love with life and end myself. Nobody can take away my love of life. I follow every step with my heart and I want to live way to badly to do something stupid...
...but I warn you. It's coming. Another breakdown isn't far down the road. My mind can't take it. It's an internal conflict. It's war and neither side can win because it's a war for you. This is MY WAR. A dark seed reigns in me like a storm and I can't hold it back forever. Now is not the time to test me anymore. Stop calling me a baby if you don't understand what you're talking about. Don't cross that line.
Bad Dreams (seemingly random...)
Posted 15 years agoForza had evacuated with a large group of others into the cargo hold of a small yacht. The world around them was flooding. Moments prior Forza himself was the captain of a small ship that had rescued several others, that now had all transferred to this boat.
Before him was a large highly classy decorated dinner table with no food or drinks, but the plates and glasses were there. Forza sat at the end of the table, and rested his elbows on the table and put his hands in his face frustratedly.
Behind him a womans voice spoke to him, "They clothes were still wet..."
"I didn't make you take them out of the dryer..." he retorted with a snort. "...or made you put them in the washer to start with." A short pause. "Tired of the attitude..."
With that a man to his right stood up and forcefully grabbed his arm and put some sort of snap-on black plain bracelet around his wrist.
"What the fuck are you doing?" Before Forza could resist properly the man already was sitting back down, and lifted his hand to his lap to take hold of his wristwatch looking device. He stopped and looked at him across the short distance.
As the man pulled a lil switch on the wristwatch Forza could feel a shooting pain go up his arm. He held his wrist with a tight painful face and looked back at the man. "I get it! I get it! I see what it does! Stop!"
He didn't.
Then Forza realized something... it didn't hurt all that bad at all! Howeva... for the sake of what's going on he continued to fake it. He faked the painful face and everything waiting for the right moment, reaching back with his left hand to the back of his belt.
The man moved the switch a bit more, trying to add more pain through the wristband. This was the time to strike. With a quick snap Forza pulled a sound suppressed P22 pistol and as he was pulling it around two of the others with the man stood up next to him. He quickly pulled the trigger towards the direction of the 1st face, then repeated with the second with ruthless efficiency, and then aimed at the man with the device.
He sat there in shock looking at the gun pointing at him.
"If you're going to put that device on someplace on my body you shouldn't put it directly around my radius and ulna which has so little no muscle between them." He pulled the trigger and the quick snap sound from the silenced pistol was the last thing the man would ever hear.
There was more later, a different scene... but it included me stabbing myself 3 or 4 times in the stomach with a knife and writing "ABANDONED" on the wall in my own blood with my open hand as a brush. <3
Oh the darkness inside me gets its day once in a while.
Also, I only slept 2 hours again (wonder why huh?) But I'm going to go nap now.
Sleep just isn't what it used to be. Dreaming is a window to my subconscious that I don't want to look through right now.
Before him was a large highly classy decorated dinner table with no food or drinks, but the plates and glasses were there. Forza sat at the end of the table, and rested his elbows on the table and put his hands in his face frustratedly.
Behind him a womans voice spoke to him, "They clothes were still wet..."
"I didn't make you take them out of the dryer..." he retorted with a snort. "...or made you put them in the washer to start with." A short pause. "Tired of the attitude..."
With that a man to his right stood up and forcefully grabbed his arm and put some sort of snap-on black plain bracelet around his wrist.
"What the fuck are you doing?" Before Forza could resist properly the man already was sitting back down, and lifted his hand to his lap to take hold of his wristwatch looking device. He stopped and looked at him across the short distance.
As the man pulled a lil switch on the wristwatch Forza could feel a shooting pain go up his arm. He held his wrist with a tight painful face and looked back at the man. "I get it! I get it! I see what it does! Stop!"
He didn't.
Then Forza realized something... it didn't hurt all that bad at all! Howeva... for the sake of what's going on he continued to fake it. He faked the painful face and everything waiting for the right moment, reaching back with his left hand to the back of his belt.
The man moved the switch a bit more, trying to add more pain through the wristband. This was the time to strike. With a quick snap Forza pulled a sound suppressed P22 pistol and as he was pulling it around two of the others with the man stood up next to him. He quickly pulled the trigger towards the direction of the 1st face, then repeated with the second with ruthless efficiency, and then aimed at the man with the device.
He sat there in shock looking at the gun pointing at him.
"If you're going to put that device on someplace on my body you shouldn't put it directly around my radius and ulna which has so little no muscle between them." He pulled the trigger and the quick snap sound from the silenced pistol was the last thing the man would ever hear.
There was more later, a different scene... but it included me stabbing myself 3 or 4 times in the stomach with a knife and writing "ABANDONED" on the wall in my own blood with my open hand as a brush. <3
Oh the darkness inside me gets its day once in a while.
Also, I only slept 2 hours again (wonder why huh?) But I'm going to go nap now.
Sleep just isn't what it used to be. Dreaming is a window to my subconscious that I don't want to look through right now.
The Penguin
Posted 15 years agoAnahi and Forza stood side by side. Around them… a great white vast expanse of nothing.
A world devoid of color or elements of life. They stood there… silently watching the monster... the giant penguin. The great noble beast stood there silently, looking to its side, at the small unexciting gray bucket of water.
What could happen Anahi wondered as she grabbed Forza’s arm in fear of the unknown.
With his mouth open a bit watching the small beast he put his hand over hers to protect her.
Then it happened. The penguin made its move. With a quick swift lift of the fin it gracefully knocked over the bucket and the water poured out onto the null floor.
Together in shock and horror both Anahi and Forza’s mouths dropped open and their bodies flinched in shock.
The penguin stood there with its fin still extended looking at the downed bucket holding its position.
Forza’s eyes changed to that of shock to that of frustration and a small sliver of anger. He stared into it’s eyes from across the short expanse between them … and the penguin looked back. The moment was tense… and the air was still.
The world around them began to fade to a haze of white until the vision was nothing more then a memory...
A world devoid of color or elements of life. They stood there… silently watching the monster... the giant penguin. The great noble beast stood there silently, looking to its side, at the small unexciting gray bucket of water.
What could happen Anahi wondered as she grabbed Forza’s arm in fear of the unknown.
With his mouth open a bit watching the small beast he put his hand over hers to protect her.
Then it happened. The penguin made its move. With a quick swift lift of the fin it gracefully knocked over the bucket and the water poured out onto the null floor.
Together in shock and horror both Anahi and Forza’s mouths dropped open and their bodies flinched in shock.
The penguin stood there with its fin still extended looking at the downed bucket holding its position.
Forza’s eyes changed to that of shock to that of frustration and a small sliver of anger. He stared into it’s eyes from across the short expanse between them … and the penguin looked back. The moment was tense… and the air was still.
The world around them began to fade to a haze of white until the vision was nothing more then a memory...
My Halo: Reach Summary (now with more LOLS)
Posted 15 years agoIntro
> Land, get bad looks, told to knock your old shit off and get on the Falcon because you’re the bitch now
Winter Contingency
> Land, spend 20 minutes trying to kill the hidden cloaked Elite, find distress beacon, kill ostridges, snoop through houses, harass illegals, kill ostridges, snoop through houses, shoot Elites, drive around, snoop through houses while killing ostidges, drive around, fly away, land shoot, hide behind a door, save girl, flip some switch for something I don’t know, listen to Kat bitch. Or skip half the mission driving past all the houses.
Oni1
> Fly, listen to Kat bitch, land, fight, fight, fight, double kill Wraith tanks, drive around, clear buildings, drive around, clear more buildings, activate race easter egg for LOLS, go back where you started for some reason, kill some badass Hunters, run around fighting inside, blow up a Banshee, watch orbital gun cut a cruiser a new ass, get compliments, listen to Hasley bitch.
Nightfall
> Sneak around, easy assassination, miss a sniper shot, miss a sniper shot, miss a sniper shot, say fuck it and pull out anything else, sneak around, kill some native monkeys, help people, steal their bazooka, miss a sniper shot, defend spire thing, kill hunters.
ToTS
> Go to battle, front shot suspense, turn go forward, blow up spire thing, Kat crashes Warthog, drive around, kill an AA gun, drive around, enter mining facility, kill a zealot, drive around, kill another AA gun, fly away shooting, crash land, infiltrate spire fortress, flip a switch, JUMP, catch him pick him up! Frigate kills spire, super carrier kills frigate.
Night of Solace
> Listen to Kat and Carter bitch, Kat’s so hot, Kat gets balls deep idea, land on beach, shoot, run around, shoot, enter facility, shoot, airplane take off. Shoot, shoot, shoot, dock, listen to Jorge bitch, shoot, shoot, land, shoot, break into gun room, shoot, realize Brutes are much easier to kill then Elites, shoot, break into bridge, shoot, flip switch, go back where you came, shoot, shoot, fall, fuck you Jorge. BOOM! Watch fleets of ships arrive to replace the one you blew up realizing that whole mission was a gimmick for Bungie to sell a Star Wars space battle.
Exodus
> Ow that hurt. DOGTAGS, run around, shoot, save meatshields, elevator, more meatshields, ODSTs, jump-pack, fly away shooting, watch people die, land, shoot, flip some switches, watch transport blow up, wonder why Kat waited until now to contact you.
Flying Around
> Be sad, land, take off again, wonder why Carter isn’t here anymore, fly around, shoot, land, run around hospital, flip a switch, shoot, fly away, land in club, dodge Hunters, flip a switch, find switch near hospital for a techno rave at the club easter egg for LOLS, escort Buck, shoot stuff, land, “oh shit we’re losing”, BOOM, run away, get new orders, Kat finally shuts up for good (L), you need a bigger gun!
Oni2
> Sneak around, Scorpion tank beats everything, blow up AA, shoot, break into Sword Base, shoot, shoot, shoot, elevator, WTF Hasley tram ride, turret, shoot, shoot, listen to Hasley bitch, shoot, activate tribute room easter egg for LOLS but oh shit dodge Elites with swords, listen to Hasley bitch, steal the AI, shoot Hasley in the face, just kidding, fly away, boom! Wonder why Jun gets to go away.
Pillar of Autumn
> Jump from Pelican, spend half hour dying try to assassinate Elite, shoot, drive, shoot, dodge Scarabs, Carter kills Scarab like a man (guess he had balls after all), run away, shoot, shoot, shoot, shoot, give AI to old guy, watch Emile bitch slap an Elite, shoot, take big gun, shoot, shoot, watch Pillar of Autumn ditch you like a used hooker but feel better because you got to see Master Chief in the cargo hold by holding right on the right stick as the pelican docked.
Ending
> Watch Covenant land around you knowing you’re fucked. Throw a sticky at yourself and die. Listen to Hasley bitch.
Great.
> Land, get bad looks, told to knock your old shit off and get on the Falcon because you’re the bitch now
Winter Contingency
> Land, spend 20 minutes trying to kill the hidden cloaked Elite, find distress beacon, kill ostridges, snoop through houses, harass illegals, kill ostridges, snoop through houses, shoot Elites, drive around, snoop through houses while killing ostidges, drive around, fly away, land shoot, hide behind a door, save girl, flip some switch for something I don’t know, listen to Kat bitch. Or skip half the mission driving past all the houses.
Oni1
> Fly, listen to Kat bitch, land, fight, fight, fight, double kill Wraith tanks, drive around, clear buildings, drive around, clear more buildings, activate race easter egg for LOLS, go back where you started for some reason, kill some badass Hunters, run around fighting inside, blow up a Banshee, watch orbital gun cut a cruiser a new ass, get compliments, listen to Hasley bitch.
Nightfall
> Sneak around, easy assassination, miss a sniper shot, miss a sniper shot, miss a sniper shot, say fuck it and pull out anything else, sneak around, kill some native monkeys, help people, steal their bazooka, miss a sniper shot, defend spire thing, kill hunters.
ToTS
> Go to battle, front shot suspense, turn go forward, blow up spire thing, Kat crashes Warthog, drive around, kill an AA gun, drive around, enter mining facility, kill a zealot, drive around, kill another AA gun, fly away shooting, crash land, infiltrate spire fortress, flip a switch, JUMP, catch him pick him up! Frigate kills spire, super carrier kills frigate.
Night of Solace
> Listen to Kat and Carter bitch, Kat’s so hot, Kat gets balls deep idea, land on beach, shoot, run around, shoot, enter facility, shoot, airplane take off. Shoot, shoot, shoot, dock, listen to Jorge bitch, shoot, shoot, land, shoot, break into gun room, shoot, realize Brutes are much easier to kill then Elites, shoot, break into bridge, shoot, flip switch, go back where you came, shoot, shoot, fall, fuck you Jorge. BOOM! Watch fleets of ships arrive to replace the one you blew up realizing that whole mission was a gimmick for Bungie to sell a Star Wars space battle.
Exodus
> Ow that hurt. DOGTAGS, run around, shoot, save meatshields, elevator, more meatshields, ODSTs, jump-pack, fly away shooting, watch people die, land, shoot, flip some switches, watch transport blow up, wonder why Kat waited until now to contact you.
Flying Around
> Be sad, land, take off again, wonder why Carter isn’t here anymore, fly around, shoot, land, run around hospital, flip a switch, shoot, fly away, land in club, dodge Hunters, flip a switch, find switch near hospital for a techno rave at the club easter egg for LOLS, escort Buck, shoot stuff, land, “oh shit we’re losing”, BOOM, run away, get new orders, Kat finally shuts up for good (L), you need a bigger gun!
Oni2
> Sneak around, Scorpion tank beats everything, blow up AA, shoot, break into Sword Base, shoot, shoot, shoot, elevator, WTF Hasley tram ride, turret, shoot, shoot, listen to Hasley bitch, shoot, activate tribute room easter egg for LOLS but oh shit dodge Elites with swords, listen to Hasley bitch, steal the AI, shoot Hasley in the face, just kidding, fly away, boom! Wonder why Jun gets to go away.
Pillar of Autumn
> Jump from Pelican, spend half hour dying try to assassinate Elite, shoot, drive, shoot, dodge Scarabs, Carter kills Scarab like a man (guess he had balls after all), run away, shoot, shoot, shoot, shoot, give AI to old guy, watch Emile bitch slap an Elite, shoot, take big gun, shoot, shoot, watch Pillar of Autumn ditch you like a used hooker but feel better because you got to see Master Chief in the cargo hold by holding right on the right stick as the pelican docked.
Ending
> Watch Covenant land around you knowing you’re fucked. Throw a sticky at yourself and die. Listen to Hasley bitch.
Great.
Face To Face
Posted 15 years agoFace to face, my lovely foe
Mouth to mouth, raining heaven's blows
Hand on heart, tic tac toe
Under the stars, naked as we flow
Cheek to cheek, the bitter sweet
Commit your crime in your deadly time
It's too divine, I want to bend
I want this bliss but something says I must resist
Another life, another time
We're Siamese twins, writhing, intertwined
Face to face, no telling lies
The masks, they slide to reveal a new disguise
You never can win, it's the state I'm in
This danger thrills and my conflict kills
They say, follow your heart, follow it through
But how can you, when it's split in two?
And you'll never know
You'll never know
You'll never know
One more kiss before we die
Face to face and dream of flying
Who are you? Who am I?
Wind in wings, two angels falling
To die like this with a last kiss
It's falsehood's flame and it's a crying shame
Face to face, the passions breathe
I hate to stay but then I hate to play
And you'll never know
Siouxsie and the Banshees - Face To Face
Mouth to mouth, raining heaven's blows
Hand on heart, tic tac toe
Under the stars, naked as we flow
Cheek to cheek, the bitter sweet
Commit your crime in your deadly time
It's too divine, I want to bend
I want this bliss but something says I must resist
Another life, another time
We're Siamese twins, writhing, intertwined
Face to face, no telling lies
The masks, they slide to reveal a new disguise
You never can win, it's the state I'm in
This danger thrills and my conflict kills
They say, follow your heart, follow it through
But how can you, when it's split in two?
And you'll never know
You'll never know
You'll never know
One more kiss before we die
Face to face and dream of flying
Who are you? Who am I?
Wind in wings, two angels falling
To die like this with a last kiss
It's falsehood's flame and it's a crying shame
Face to face, the passions breathe
I hate to stay but then I hate to play
And you'll never know
Siouxsie and the Banshees - Face To Face
Lyrical Madness
Posted 15 years agoMood: Mad at reality, wishing I could return to a dream state... where its safer.
Can't You Help Me As I'm Startin' To Burn
Too Many Doses And I'm Starting To Get An Attraction
My Confidence Is Leaving Me On My Own
No One Can Save Me And You Know I Don't Want The Attention
So, Sorry You're Not Here
Sane Too Long My Vision's So Unclear
Now Take A Trip With Me
But Don't Be Surprised
When Things Aren't What They Seem
I've Known It From The Start
All These Good Ideas Will Tear Your Brain Apart
Scared But You Can Follow Me
I'm... Too Weird To Live But Much Too Rare To Die.
Bat Country by Avenged Sevenfold
Can't You Help Me As I'm Startin' To Burn
Too Many Doses And I'm Starting To Get An Attraction
My Confidence Is Leaving Me On My Own
No One Can Save Me And You Know I Don't Want The Attention
So, Sorry You're Not Here
Sane Too Long My Vision's So Unclear
Now Take A Trip With Me
But Don't Be Surprised
When Things Aren't What They Seem
I've Known It From The Start
All These Good Ideas Will Tear Your Brain Apart
Scared But You Can Follow Me
I'm... Too Weird To Live But Much Too Rare To Die.
Bat Country by Avenged Sevenfold
10 Days Meme
Posted 15 years agoStolen from SecreT
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Day one:
1- You look like a baby rhino trying to take a poop.
2.1 - My nickname IRL is Forza?
2.2 - My car's lic plate is FORZA. Awesome plate on a crappy Altima.
2.3 - The operations manager of FORZA coffee saw my plate on Tuesday and was waffleface because he found out who had his plate.
2.4 - I have 2 cats, Khensu and Sekmet, their names are Egyptian.
2.5 - I am an amateur writer of short stories to pass the time, and I suck at it.
2.6 - I love the ladies ;D
2.7 - I'm a security dispatcher
2.8 - I'm a good avatar moder on SL?
2.9 - BITCH PLZ!
3.1 - Cuddles!
3.2 - Warmheartedness. I hate assholes and jerkface... ...bitchfaces!
3.3 - Tell me you care for me.
3.4 - Buy me food! Everyman loves food! (or cake! (it's a lie))
3.5 - Don't use me.
3.6 - Don't abandon me.
3.7 - I love cats :3
3.8 - Play Halo with me xD
4.1 - I have to poop.
4.2 - Am I loved?
4.3 - How can I mod Forza (on SL) today?
4.4 - Sergals and Sergal lore are facinating... mesmerized by them.
4.5 - What's
Bezzi up to right now I wonder?
4.6 - I wonder if I should work on a short story today.
4.7 - God I hate work.
5 - no regrets, yo
6.1 - Mom
6.2 - Angie
6.3 - Bezzi, 
Anahi, and 
Taight. Good friends and support are hard to find.
6.4 - Adam, my brother
6.5 - Sekhmet? My Cat.
7.1 - being ignored
7.2 - cold heartedness
7.3 - bad attitudes
7.4 - jerkfaceism
8.1 - power
8.2 - grace
8.3 - myself ;D
9.1 - 3:<
9.2 - >.<
10 - I lead a most badass secret life.
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Day one:
1- You look like a baby rhino trying to take a poop.
2.1 - My nickname IRL is Forza?
2.2 - My car's lic plate is FORZA. Awesome plate on a crappy Altima.
2.3 - The operations manager of FORZA coffee saw my plate on Tuesday and was waffleface because he found out who had his plate.
2.4 - I have 2 cats, Khensu and Sekmet, their names are Egyptian.
2.5 - I am an amateur writer of short stories to pass the time, and I suck at it.
2.6 - I love the ladies ;D
2.7 - I'm a security dispatcher
2.8 - I'm a good avatar moder on SL?
2.9 - BITCH PLZ!
3.1 - Cuddles!
3.2 - Warmheartedness. I hate assholes and jerkface... ...bitchfaces!
3.3 - Tell me you care for me.
3.4 - Buy me food! Everyman loves food! (or cake! (it's a lie))
3.5 - Don't use me.
3.6 - Don't abandon me.
3.7 - I love cats :3
3.8 - Play Halo with me xD
4.1 - I have to poop.
4.2 - Am I loved?
4.3 - How can I mod Forza (on SL) today?
4.4 - Sergals and Sergal lore are facinating... mesmerized by them.
4.5 - What's
Bezzi up to right now I wonder?4.6 - I wonder if I should work on a short story today.
4.7 - God I hate work.
5 - no regrets, yo
6.1 - Mom
6.2 - Angie
6.3 -
Bezzi, 
Anahi, and 
Taight. Good friends and support are hard to find.6.4 - Adam, my brother
6.5 - Sekhmet? My Cat.
7.1 - being ignored
7.2 - cold heartedness
7.3 - bad attitudes
7.4 - jerkfaceism
8.1 - power
8.2 - grace
8.3 - myself ;D
9.1 - 3:<
9.2 - >.<
10 - I lead a most badass secret life.
I'm 56% Cute
Posted 15 years agoHijacked from SecreT
Appearance:
[ ] = You have blue/green eyes.
[X] = You blush a lot.
[X] = You giggle.
[] = You're quiet.
[X] = You say random silly things.
[] = You have a baby face.
[X] = You wear a more down to earth style of clothing.
[X] = You don't wear halter tops or anything to showy.
[] = Your under 5 feet 6 inches tall.
TOTAL SO FAR: 5
Innocence:
[] = You're a virgin.
[X] = Just thinking of sexual things makes you blush.
[] = Your idea of a date is really romantic.
[] = You sleep with a stuffed animal.
[X] = You like to cuddle.
[X] = You've never played the Nervous game.
[X] = You don't even know what the nervous game is.
TOTAL SO FAR: 9
Colors:
[X] = You like the color pink/light blue.
[ ] = You tend to wear bright/girly colors.
TOTAL SO FAR: 10
Personality:
[X] = You can be ignorant/oblivious.
[X] = You'd consider yourself shy.
[X] = You like happy upbeat music.
[ ] = You like "Cutesy" music.
TOTAL SO FAR: 13
What YOU think is cute:
[X] = You like small animals
[] = You like babies a lot.
[] = Small/mini versions of things make you go
TOTAL: 14
Multiply how many you got by 4
Repost as: "I'm ____% Cute"
8 x 4 = 32
Appearance:
[ ] = You have blue/green eyes.
[X] = You blush a lot.
[X] = You giggle.
[] = You're quiet.
[X] = You say random silly things.
[] = You have a baby face.
[X] = You wear a more down to earth style of clothing.
[X] = You don't wear halter tops or anything to showy.
[] = Your under 5 feet 6 inches tall.
TOTAL SO FAR: 5
Innocence:
[] = You're a virgin.
[X] = Just thinking of sexual things makes you blush.
[] = Your idea of a date is really romantic.
[] = You sleep with a stuffed animal.
[X] = You like to cuddle.
[X] = You've never played the Nervous game.
[X] = You don't even know what the nervous game is.
TOTAL SO FAR: 9
Colors:
[X] = You like the color pink/light blue.
[ ] = You tend to wear bright/girly colors.
TOTAL SO FAR: 10
Personality:
[X] = You can be ignorant/oblivious.
[X] = You'd consider yourself shy.
[X] = You like happy upbeat music.
[ ] = You like "Cutesy" music.
TOTAL SO FAR: 13
What YOU think is cute:
[X] = You like small animals
[] = You like babies a lot.
[] = Small/mini versions of things make you go
TOTAL: 14
Multiply how many you got by 4
Repost as: "I'm ____% Cute"
8 x 4 = 32
HEY YOU!
Posted 15 years ago
TinintriOde to Sins pt1
Posted 15 years agoI don't want to submit this yet as a story. Let me know what you think.
Ode to Sins
A Templar Series Side Story
"I will no longer be used..."
The lights flickered down the clean hallway of the Sun Jin military research facility. Power to several blocks of the secure facility had been disrupted as several buildings seen outside the barred windows were on fire.
The wounded suspect of said damages limped down the hall with a hand on the wall. His blood dripped from under his highly advanced Gotenanks Armor leaving a faint trail of his past on the tile floor and soaking the black Liani Tech heavy cloth skirt fabric draping from the belt armor. His vision was blurry, he was dizzy, but he had his goals and his determination to survive fueled him. The doorway was close and his freedom not too far beyond that.
At the opposite end of the hallway the heavy mechanical lock system began to vibrate and unsecure itself sending sounds down the dry corridor. As the two halves opened three armed soldiers in loose tactical armor ran into the corridor and took firing positions with their rifles. Distance to their target only about twenty meters. Their feline fur stiffened under their armor as they aimed their guns. The squad commander in front of the other two crouched as he took aim wondering if to even try to communicate. He knew that he is supposed to try and bring the subject back alive due to his high military research importance but also knew that he wouldn't listen. He knew you can't stop somebody on this kind of warpath.
The limping muted-yellow furred creature pushed off the wall with his hand and walked to the center of the hall and stood still trying to catch his breath. Slowly he reached up and with his hands on the sides of his chest piece of the armor and flipped a few snaps open. One or two more and the front, back, shoulder plates, and the draping black protection cloth around it fell to the floor. With a burden of weight lifted he could now breathe easier and with the freedom of arm reach lifted his hand to the side of his head to clumsily wipe some of the sweat off his head, under the pair of horns running down from his forehead towards the front of his muzzle. His green and blue eyes gazed at the three soldiers before him in a daze and he could only think one thing, "I will survive... I will escape."
"Forza..." the lead soldier shook his head patiently yet firmly. "I don't want to shoot you."
"You won't shoot me," Forza muttered. "I'm your friend."
"Yeah, I'm your friend. That's why I won't let you out those doors."
Shaking his head, Forza chuckled a bit. "I've killed too many for too long. Behind me down that hallway there are bodies of others who called me their friend. They wouldn't let me pass. I've had enough."
"Then I suppose I have no other choice, my friend. I have my-"
Mid-sentence there was a clicking sound from the rear of his skirt armor and Forza reached back quickly grabbing onto to hilt of an energy blade that unfolded horizontally and locked into position. With one quick motion he grabbed the hilt and pulled it out of its container and threw his hand forward, underhandedly tossing it towards the trio. The orange glow from the blade flew across the room with a swift trail of light like a glow stick and came to rest just below the neck of the leader. A few shots were fired but by the time the two others took their eyes off their falling leader Forza had already slammed into the front of them both with a tremendous amount of force, plunging a sword into each of their chests, one in each hand.
While pulling his swords from the barely alive bodies he rose to his feet with new trail of blood running down his leg. He had been shot again. His moans of pain were matched by those still dying behind him as he continued to walk towards the now open door. He held the two swords by the hilt, backwards, and put the back of his hand against his throbbing forehead. Both swords were solid blade swords and were made of a type of metal and energy fusion that had been part of the research at this facility. One of them was a straight sword bladed on both sides with glyphic writing running down the center. The other was a longer curved katana-style blade.
As put his hand on the doorway to hold himself up he could hear a sound or riffling behind him and quickly turned to look over his shoulder. One of the guards he had stabbed, still alive, had rolled over onto his stomach to be able to watch Forza and had his hand to his headset. He was reporting his location, and his intent to leave.
This building was close to the perimeter of the facility and Forza knew everything that could get in his way was now on its way to create a barrier between him and his escape. He hadn't quite thought it all through. He was improvising. He had no for sure escape plan once he was away. He knew they could send specialized assault units such as himself, chase him with aircraft, land vehicles, or anything at their disposal. He didn't care. He knew he had to push as hard as he could for as long as he could and if he had to he'd kill anybody who stood in his way.
"I won't kill for you anymore." His thoughts were fixed on his escape and his resolve was unshaken through the dizziness and blood loss. He pushed the front door of the compound open and between him and the hundred meters to the enormous iron clad wall with his exit stood a whole platoon of soldiers that were getting in position to attack as they saw him emerge. It wasn't the whole base force but it was still a lot of weapons pointed at him. Riflemen, close quarters combat troops, and he could hear aircraft approaching behind the building from afar. He stood there for a moment looking at all of them and turned his swords around, holding them at combat ready, in the cold snowing night.
He knew he had dropped his chest armor earlier. With it was an important part of the projectile repulsory armor system that would slow down high speed projectiles before they hit him or would deflect them away all together. A barrier, a shield, and the most important part of the Gotanenks Armor research project. Without the chest and shoulder pieces the system would be highly ineffective. Instead he had his bare muted yellow fur with the bloodstained white colored chest fur.
He held his swords up at the ready and slowly continued forward haphazardly. As he continued toward the crowd the immediate soldiers in the way stepped aside but held their weapons fixed on him.
In the near distance, aside the group, a small troop transport came to a vertical landing with the rear cargo doors already open and facing the group. From it stepped down a handful of extra soldiers including one of the base lieutenants, a white and black furred feline woman in a military jumpsuit with her tail wrapped around her hips. The aircraft took off as the team exited and hovered over the crowd with spot lights aimed directly down at Forza. It was loud and created a lot of wind blowing his draping cloth armor around his legs and rustling his fur as well as blowing snow and slush about.
The female took up a high position where she could be seen and close enough to be heard over the sound. "Forza," she yelled. "Where are you going? There's no place to go."
He took a few fast breaths trying to not pass out. He could barely hear her as it was with him trying to put extra focus on what she was saying. Before he could answer a pair of soldiers with swords started to circle around him together and with a growl he turned to the side a bit and aimed a sword at them but turned his head to face the woman again. "I'm not your hostage! I've been your puppet for long enough. You've shown me that I have abilities that you want and I won't let you use me as a tool in your war!"
"We taught you to control those abilities. We've given you what you need to survive with those powers and the things we've learned from you will be used to save millions of lives. We need you to continue the research. You're too valuable for us to let you walk out that door."
With his continuous walking the whole time he had already emerged from the other side of the group and was now walking backwards towards the huge metal wall and the gate. The platoon followed him with a fair range between them not to antagonize him. He watched her jump down and hurry through the group to get in the lead and followed Forza. He continued until his back hit some yellow-painted railing between him and door controls. Without taking his eyes off her he slid around the railing and up one step to the platform. He did take his eyes off her for a second, only a quick second, to look at the well-known door controls and thumbed with them with his back to the panel trying to watch the others. Finally the correct button was hit and the wall rustled with activity. Loud horns continued to sound and yellow caution strobes began gleaming all about that section of the barrier. Slowly the thick metal gates labeled "SUN JIN R&D 10-003" in huge lettering opened and began to retract into the walls beside them. Forza stepped down from the platform and continued stumbling backwards unhindered. It became obvious to him that the guards were obviously ordered before he met them in the courtyard not to fire unless ordered.
He continued onto an extended bridge platform that spanned across a ravine separating the research and development labs from the rest of the base and the outer gate about a kilometer away. The narrow canyon was filled of sounds from the heavy flowing waterway at the bottom surrounded by thick pine trees going up the sides all the way to the top where they stood now. He slowed down... he was starting to succumb to the blood loss evident by the trail of blood leading from his feet far back to the base. He fell to a single knee and held his eyes closed tightly feeling himself get light headed.
"Forza..." she said. "This is your last chance. I don't want to lose you. You're dying..."
All he could do was slowly shake his head. "What are you going to do? Shoot me? What will that get you?"
"I won't have to shoot you. You'll die on your own at this rate. Blood loss... and where are you going to go? This whole continent is entering its winter season. There's no way off planet for you and I'm your only option."
He staggered back to his feet and shook his head. "I'm Amber Krowen. I'll survive this."
"I'll do whatever it takes..."
"Then I have to stop you, too." He slowly latched his swords onto his belt and stood tall for a moment taking a few deep breaths and with his eyes closed. Something started to happen... The snow falling to the ground around within about a meter of him slowly started steering away from a straight down path and bent towards him then landed near his feet instead. The air around him began to feel thicker and heavier.
"Don't make me have to kill you, Forza..." She shook her head.
A resonance sound started to fill the air.
After a moment of watching the lieutenant put her hand to her ear with a breath of sigh. "Take the shot." She lifted her eyes to watch him, the wind blowing her hair around.
From an elevated distance, the watch tower where the gate controls were, an electronic telescopic crosshair landed on Forza's head.
He opened his eyes to look at her as the concrete bridge under him began to buckle but it was too late. A single loud crash sound broke out from the watchtower and a fraction of a second later a bright flash of green light erupted around Forza's body as the Gotanenks Armor repulse shield was penetrated. Forza's body flipped backwards and landed several meters from where he stood a second prior. The sound could be heard traveling towards the horizon for several seconds
The lieutenant took a breath to recover as the effects of Forza's energy settled down and the atmosphere returned to normal. She began to walk towards the body to confirm what she had to have done. From where she was she could see plenty of blood around the body but his armor was in the way and his body was still too far away. He didn't appear to be breathing.
Then a new sound began to fill the area. The damaged concrete bridge began to crack and sounds of it doing so echoed through the canyon below. Large portions of the underside began to break away and the whole bridge began collapsing.
All she could do was quickly turn around and run off to safety where the other troops were. As she slowed down she looked over her shoulder and watched it crumble into the canyon below with the body on it. Dust and smoke was all that remained.
"No!" She shouted as she darted back to the ravine and looked over. There was little she could see though because of the tree cover and all the dust. The crashing noises from the bridge coming to rest below still echoed around them. She turned and started walking back towards the gate putting her hand to her ear, opening a communication. "Someone start a search and rescue team in the ravine. Sun Jin needs that body."
Ode to Sins
A Templar Series Side Story
"I will no longer be used..."
The lights flickered down the clean hallway of the Sun Jin military research facility. Power to several blocks of the secure facility had been disrupted as several buildings seen outside the barred windows were on fire.
The wounded suspect of said damages limped down the hall with a hand on the wall. His blood dripped from under his highly advanced Gotenanks Armor leaving a faint trail of his past on the tile floor and soaking the black Liani Tech heavy cloth skirt fabric draping from the belt armor. His vision was blurry, he was dizzy, but he had his goals and his determination to survive fueled him. The doorway was close and his freedom not too far beyond that.
At the opposite end of the hallway the heavy mechanical lock system began to vibrate and unsecure itself sending sounds down the dry corridor. As the two halves opened three armed soldiers in loose tactical armor ran into the corridor and took firing positions with their rifles. Distance to their target only about twenty meters. Their feline fur stiffened under their armor as they aimed their guns. The squad commander in front of the other two crouched as he took aim wondering if to even try to communicate. He knew that he is supposed to try and bring the subject back alive due to his high military research importance but also knew that he wouldn't listen. He knew you can't stop somebody on this kind of warpath.
The limping muted-yellow furred creature pushed off the wall with his hand and walked to the center of the hall and stood still trying to catch his breath. Slowly he reached up and with his hands on the sides of his chest piece of the armor and flipped a few snaps open. One or two more and the front, back, shoulder plates, and the draping black protection cloth around it fell to the floor. With a burden of weight lifted he could now breathe easier and with the freedom of arm reach lifted his hand to the side of his head to clumsily wipe some of the sweat off his head, under the pair of horns running down from his forehead towards the front of his muzzle. His green and blue eyes gazed at the three soldiers before him in a daze and he could only think one thing, "I will survive... I will escape."
"Forza..." the lead soldier shook his head patiently yet firmly. "I don't want to shoot you."
"You won't shoot me," Forza muttered. "I'm your friend."
"Yeah, I'm your friend. That's why I won't let you out those doors."
Shaking his head, Forza chuckled a bit. "I've killed too many for too long. Behind me down that hallway there are bodies of others who called me their friend. They wouldn't let me pass. I've had enough."
"Then I suppose I have no other choice, my friend. I have my-"
Mid-sentence there was a clicking sound from the rear of his skirt armor and Forza reached back quickly grabbing onto to hilt of an energy blade that unfolded horizontally and locked into position. With one quick motion he grabbed the hilt and pulled it out of its container and threw his hand forward, underhandedly tossing it towards the trio. The orange glow from the blade flew across the room with a swift trail of light like a glow stick and came to rest just below the neck of the leader. A few shots were fired but by the time the two others took their eyes off their falling leader Forza had already slammed into the front of them both with a tremendous amount of force, plunging a sword into each of their chests, one in each hand.
While pulling his swords from the barely alive bodies he rose to his feet with new trail of blood running down his leg. He had been shot again. His moans of pain were matched by those still dying behind him as he continued to walk towards the now open door. He held the two swords by the hilt, backwards, and put the back of his hand against his throbbing forehead. Both swords were solid blade swords and were made of a type of metal and energy fusion that had been part of the research at this facility. One of them was a straight sword bladed on both sides with glyphic writing running down the center. The other was a longer curved katana-style blade.
As put his hand on the doorway to hold himself up he could hear a sound or riffling behind him and quickly turned to look over his shoulder. One of the guards he had stabbed, still alive, had rolled over onto his stomach to be able to watch Forza and had his hand to his headset. He was reporting his location, and his intent to leave.
This building was close to the perimeter of the facility and Forza knew everything that could get in his way was now on its way to create a barrier between him and his escape. He hadn't quite thought it all through. He was improvising. He had no for sure escape plan once he was away. He knew they could send specialized assault units such as himself, chase him with aircraft, land vehicles, or anything at their disposal. He didn't care. He knew he had to push as hard as he could for as long as he could and if he had to he'd kill anybody who stood in his way.
"I won't kill for you anymore." His thoughts were fixed on his escape and his resolve was unshaken through the dizziness and blood loss. He pushed the front door of the compound open and between him and the hundred meters to the enormous iron clad wall with his exit stood a whole platoon of soldiers that were getting in position to attack as they saw him emerge. It wasn't the whole base force but it was still a lot of weapons pointed at him. Riflemen, close quarters combat troops, and he could hear aircraft approaching behind the building from afar. He stood there for a moment looking at all of them and turned his swords around, holding them at combat ready, in the cold snowing night.
He knew he had dropped his chest armor earlier. With it was an important part of the projectile repulsory armor system that would slow down high speed projectiles before they hit him or would deflect them away all together. A barrier, a shield, and the most important part of the Gotanenks Armor research project. Without the chest and shoulder pieces the system would be highly ineffective. Instead he had his bare muted yellow fur with the bloodstained white colored chest fur.
He held his swords up at the ready and slowly continued forward haphazardly. As he continued toward the crowd the immediate soldiers in the way stepped aside but held their weapons fixed on him.
In the near distance, aside the group, a small troop transport came to a vertical landing with the rear cargo doors already open and facing the group. From it stepped down a handful of extra soldiers including one of the base lieutenants, a white and black furred feline woman in a military jumpsuit with her tail wrapped around her hips. The aircraft took off as the team exited and hovered over the crowd with spot lights aimed directly down at Forza. It was loud and created a lot of wind blowing his draping cloth armor around his legs and rustling his fur as well as blowing snow and slush about.
The female took up a high position where she could be seen and close enough to be heard over the sound. "Forza," she yelled. "Where are you going? There's no place to go."
He took a few fast breaths trying to not pass out. He could barely hear her as it was with him trying to put extra focus on what she was saying. Before he could answer a pair of soldiers with swords started to circle around him together and with a growl he turned to the side a bit and aimed a sword at them but turned his head to face the woman again. "I'm not your hostage! I've been your puppet for long enough. You've shown me that I have abilities that you want and I won't let you use me as a tool in your war!"
"We taught you to control those abilities. We've given you what you need to survive with those powers and the things we've learned from you will be used to save millions of lives. We need you to continue the research. You're too valuable for us to let you walk out that door."
With his continuous walking the whole time he had already emerged from the other side of the group and was now walking backwards towards the huge metal wall and the gate. The platoon followed him with a fair range between them not to antagonize him. He watched her jump down and hurry through the group to get in the lead and followed Forza. He continued until his back hit some yellow-painted railing between him and door controls. Without taking his eyes off her he slid around the railing and up one step to the platform. He did take his eyes off her for a second, only a quick second, to look at the well-known door controls and thumbed with them with his back to the panel trying to watch the others. Finally the correct button was hit and the wall rustled with activity. Loud horns continued to sound and yellow caution strobes began gleaming all about that section of the barrier. Slowly the thick metal gates labeled "SUN JIN R&D 10-003" in huge lettering opened and began to retract into the walls beside them. Forza stepped down from the platform and continued stumbling backwards unhindered. It became obvious to him that the guards were obviously ordered before he met them in the courtyard not to fire unless ordered.
He continued onto an extended bridge platform that spanned across a ravine separating the research and development labs from the rest of the base and the outer gate about a kilometer away. The narrow canyon was filled of sounds from the heavy flowing waterway at the bottom surrounded by thick pine trees going up the sides all the way to the top where they stood now. He slowed down... he was starting to succumb to the blood loss evident by the trail of blood leading from his feet far back to the base. He fell to a single knee and held his eyes closed tightly feeling himself get light headed.
"Forza..." she said. "This is your last chance. I don't want to lose you. You're dying..."
All he could do was slowly shake his head. "What are you going to do? Shoot me? What will that get you?"
"I won't have to shoot you. You'll die on your own at this rate. Blood loss... and where are you going to go? This whole continent is entering its winter season. There's no way off planet for you and I'm your only option."
He staggered back to his feet and shook his head. "I'm Amber Krowen. I'll survive this."
"I'll do whatever it takes..."
"Then I have to stop you, too." He slowly latched his swords onto his belt and stood tall for a moment taking a few deep breaths and with his eyes closed. Something started to happen... The snow falling to the ground around within about a meter of him slowly started steering away from a straight down path and bent towards him then landed near his feet instead. The air around him began to feel thicker and heavier.
"Don't make me have to kill you, Forza..." She shook her head.
A resonance sound started to fill the air.
After a moment of watching the lieutenant put her hand to her ear with a breath of sigh. "Take the shot." She lifted her eyes to watch him, the wind blowing her hair around.
From an elevated distance, the watch tower where the gate controls were, an electronic telescopic crosshair landed on Forza's head.
He opened his eyes to look at her as the concrete bridge under him began to buckle but it was too late. A single loud crash sound broke out from the watchtower and a fraction of a second later a bright flash of green light erupted around Forza's body as the Gotanenks Armor repulse shield was penetrated. Forza's body flipped backwards and landed several meters from where he stood a second prior. The sound could be heard traveling towards the horizon for several seconds
The lieutenant took a breath to recover as the effects of Forza's energy settled down and the atmosphere returned to normal. She began to walk towards the body to confirm what she had to have done. From where she was she could see plenty of blood around the body but his armor was in the way and his body was still too far away. He didn't appear to be breathing.
Then a new sound began to fill the area. The damaged concrete bridge began to crack and sounds of it doing so echoed through the canyon below. Large portions of the underside began to break away and the whole bridge began collapsing.
All she could do was quickly turn around and run off to safety where the other troops were. As she slowed down she looked over her shoulder and watched it crumble into the canyon below with the body on it. Dust and smoke was all that remained.
"No!" She shouted as she darted back to the ravine and looked over. There was little she could see though because of the tree cover and all the dust. The crashing noises from the bridge coming to rest below still echoed around them. She turned and started walking back towards the gate putting her hand to her ear, opening a communication. "Someone start a search and rescue team in the ravine. Sun Jin needs that body."
RIP Oscar catface :3 06/15/10
Posted 15 years agoOur littlest of two cats for the last week has been very weak and unmotivated, and hardly eating. We took her to the ER before we went to work. The price quotes didn't look good. The cost was almost 1000$ to do a full system eval on her. But they did a blood check for cheap, they usually don't cost much.
When we came back to see her after work... I even got off work early to be with Angie who was crying over the phone... Oscar looked so weak. She couldn't even walk or stand and she had an IV in her.
Turns out she had feline leucemia. There is no cure, and she can't recover from it. A blood transfusion would only prolong her life a few more days and the transfusion itself could have possibly even killed her.
Together Angie and I held her in our lap crying and telling her our goodbyes, how much we loved her, and how thankful we were to have her in our life. We held on to her as she passed away around 3:15am this morning. I will miss her and am even crying as I type this.
Rest in piece little miss!
<3 xoxoxo
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When we came back to see her after work... I even got off work early to be with Angie who was crying over the phone... Oscar looked so weak. She couldn't even walk or stand and she had an IV in her.
Turns out she had feline leucemia. There is no cure, and she can't recover from it. A blood transfusion would only prolong her life a few more days and the transfusion itself could have possibly even killed her.
Together Angie and I held her in our lap crying and telling her our goodbyes, how much we loved her, and how thankful we were to have her in our life. We held on to her as she passed away around 3:15am this morning. I will miss her and am even crying as I type this.
Rest in piece little miss!
<3 xoxoxo
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Blah. Small Forza Troubles
Posted 15 years agoA few weeks ago I took my bike on a 53.5 mile bike ride around Lake Washington and on said trip my back tire developed a small leak. It would take about fifteen minutes to go flat so I just had to refill it ever here or there and lucky it was near the end of the trip.
I am used to riding my bike to work and back in the middle of the morning (3am) but when it's raining I don't usually mind. It's about ten miles each way and a pretty easy ride.
buuuut.....
A few days ago over my weekend on my way to the gym my radiator blew! YAY!
I was able to, over an hour or so, cradle it back home stopping every few minutes to let my car cool down.
Now I get to ride my bike to work indefinitely! xD
BUT WAIT MY TIRE IS FLAT
Luckily my kind girlfriend who also has a rode-bicycle let me take off her rear tire and put it on my own and also luckily our gearing is identical on our bikes :).
I called the auto part store and they said they could order me a radiator for my Altima for about 130 dollars so I will deal with that at a later date.
I am used to riding my bike to work and back in the middle of the morning (3am) but when it's raining I don't usually mind. It's about ten miles each way and a pretty easy ride.
buuuut.....
A few days ago over my weekend on my way to the gym my radiator blew! YAY!
I was able to, over an hour or so, cradle it back home stopping every few minutes to let my car cool down.
Now I get to ride my bike to work indefinitely! xD
BUT WAIT MY TIRE IS FLAT
Luckily my kind girlfriend who also has a rode-bicycle let me take off her rear tire and put it on my own and also luckily our gearing is identical on our bikes :).
I called the auto part store and they said they could order me a radiator for my Altima for about 130 dollars so I will deal with that at a later date.
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