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It's great I can draw so many cool things that people think is cool.
But, putting those cool things to story? Yeah . . .

You guys probably think I'm doing this out of spite against you. My ideas not going anywhere and you really want to see me develop them, but honestly . . . I fail at that.

I've been failing at that. i have a hard time pitching my ideas and I'm going through the motions.
It's possible I've lost my edge. I can sure draw the things but I can't make them do anything.
I don't know what I want them to do.

I'm failing at keeping you guys interest in my art.

Posting a ton of old artwork.
For those who see a massive post of me and waiting for commissions and art trades, note that I'm getting to those soon, this is just a backlog post.

My commission queue is finally mostly cleared. But you guys are probably wondering when you will be able to next commission me . . .


So here's the current rundown.

-I only have two people left on my queue and the commissions are simple. Currently working on one.
-My brother commissioned me to work on his game and is actually going to buy me a new computer if I help him on it. He's also helping me get food and get on my feet.
- Doing a podcast and a comic. May also open a patreon.

What does this all mean?
It means, I don't think I have the room or need to take commissions anymore if I focus on these things.

The current issue is the internet bill and possibly I may still need to make money to feed myself.
So, currently deciding on things. I may decided to get a part time job.

With how slow it takes me to finish commissions, I've realized that I need to fix my work ethic.
As such, deciding to refuse any and all future commissions until possibly going on next year.

I know a lot of people wanted to get art for me and I'm sorry, but looking at how things are working out, I probably should take a break and get my life in order before I continue.

One thing is I should focus on a comic to drum up more interest in my work. Focus on getting better at art as well. If I do freelance work, it'll be big projects like doing art for video games.

I'll see what happens as my schedule opens up, but for not, Commissions are Closed to a indefinite amount of time.

Thank you.

Fuck it. I'm winging this comic.

Hey, FA, how has it been?
I been debating whether or not I should post more here. That's unknown but how have you guys been?

UPDATE: MY INTERNET IS FROZEN UNTIL WE PAY $34. My brother has been raising money but we are still short. No internet for the whole week until it's paid. I say week cause he hopes to have the money by next monday, however if we manage to get it early it'll be on. I AM AT THE LIBRARY!

Also the library restricts Ink Bunny on personal computers. Can only have unrestricted access on their crappy public computers . . . this is ass backwards.

My brother struck me with something I was confused about until just now.

He's made an interesting distinction.
That goals are different from purpose.

He asked me if I had purpose and what that purpose was.
I couldn't give him a answer in that perimeter.

I noticed that when I work on art and stuff, I could of move aimlessly.
I say I want to do a comic, but I never understand what's the purpose of doing that comic?
Where am I trying to go?
Is the motivation money?
What am I trying to do with this comic?
How do I engage my audience.

I use to have these answers when I was younger, but I never expected myself to be in the position I'm in.
Living under my grandmother's roof practically homeless.

Yes, what you guys do not know is that technically, I am homeless.
I live here without pay and try to help around the house.

I'm either here or at the shelter.
I'm at the bottom. .10% from rock bottom.

I can't focus on my art because the people around me don't think this is important.
I'm doing nothing. They don't want to wait on me to try.

They only see me wasting time, so they do things like push there children on me, even when I've stated that I am not qualified to watch kids.

I would not let me, who's mind has to focus on all these activities, watch children.
And, they say I'm good at it.

No. I'm running on fumes. I'm doing what I have to do and I can't refuse.
I can't leave from this, because I only feel worst for doing it. Trapped in guilt because my sister is having trouble finding anyone to watch kids.

I'm the only one.

I draw old stuff like old characters and I'm lost.
I see other artists doing things like comics and other projects and I get so jealous.
I want to do what they do, but I'm only making myself less focused.

What is my purpose?

When a male character appears to look female or have qualities of a “trap” or femboi how important is it for the comic or story to acknowledge it?

Are you willing to read something where this is never brought up and characters immediately recognize the individual as male?

It's odd I didn't join before now, but I sure why not.
 femboi

Seems like a neat group. If you're really into fembois, check it out.
That's my shameless promo right there. ;3

I have nothing clever or profound to say. I can't find anything that can say what I wanna say about it.
I was just not ready for it. Where are the years going?

R.I.P. Robin Williams

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I think I have come to a very strong conclusion about myself as an artist. I have developed identity issues

. . . what's going on so I can not care about it?

My inkbunny's user name is changed. You guys can now find my work at https://inkbunny.net/GrassGremlin. Be sure to update the name if need be . . . er, if it's important to do so.

I'm cramming 209 digital pictures, 132 traditional pictures, and 27 sai files into a zip file and letting you guys pay what you want for it.


If you would like to obtain the file, send a minimum of $1 to my paypal Ozzy_Olivers_Cat[at]live.com and check "I'm paying for goods and services". Leave Grass Gremlin Works in the notes along with your email, and I'll send you the download link. Pretty much. Links will be sent at least once a day. If you having trouble receiving a link or the link is broken feel free to note, email, etc about it and I'll try to fix it.

The Why?

A very close friend of mines was going through an art folder he accumulated and showed me. This kind of made me feel a little nostalgic. Seeing how much of a mess my art folders were I started to organize the junk and found a very few interesting stuff I never posted and just some old stuff I took for granted when I posted.

So, I been wanting to do this, I decided to let you all see in bulk, my highs, my lows and a few of my secret stuff I kept to myself. I also added some sai files for the artists who like to take my pics apart layer by layer to see every piece of the process . . . I know I like to do that, anyways. So here it is, most of it (not all) in one place. Some stuff I never showed, some stuff I had posted and some stuff inbetween. I hope you all enjoy it.

Edit: Please Comment When You Send. Be easier for me to check.

I'm cramming 209 digital pictures, 132 traditional pictures, and 27 sai files into a zip file and letting you guys pay what you want for it.


If you would like to obtain the file, send a minimum of $1 to my paypal Ozzy_Olivers_Cat[at]live.com and check "I'm paying for goods and services". Leave Grass Gremlin Works in the notes along with your email, and I'll send you the download link. Pretty much. Links will be sent at least once a day. If you having trouble receiving a link or the link is broken feel free to note, email, etc about it and I'll try to fix it.

The Why?

A very close friend of mines was going through an art folder he accumulated and showed me. This kind of made me feel a little nostalgic. Seeing how much of a mess my art folders were I started to organize the junk and found a very few interesting stuff I never posted and just some old stuff I took for granted when I posted.

So, I been wanting to do this, I decided to let you all see in bulk, my highs, my lows and a few of my secret stuff I kept to myself. I also added some sai files for the artists who like to take my pics apart layer by layer to see every piece of the process . . . I know I like to do that, anyways. So here it is, most of it (not all) in one place. Some stuff I never showed, some stuff I had posted and some stuff inbetween. I hope you all enjoy it.

Edit: Please Comment When You Send. Be easier for me to check.

It's been a while, how are things?

I hate to dwell on problems I've gone through yesterday, but sense this morning, this has still been on my mind.

I've always told people I'm anti-social. It's a warning I give to everyone before they ever add me to skype. I'm not very talkative . . .

. . . so is it really rude, If I don't give most people as much of my attention as I give others?

The truth is, I would like to be more sociable. I would like to hold a conversation with people, but most of the time I can't really do that. I can only talk about things I'm passionate about and that I like. I don't talk about EVERYTHING I do because I'm just not the type to open up to strangers so easily.

I can only do this with so many people. So if someone wants me to give them more attention and wishes to hold longer conversations with me, am I wrong for refusing?

Some people will drop me a "hi", then ask me about my day. Most of the time, I don't have a lot to say. What can I say, exactly? It seems most people demand I have more to say. That I talk to them often.

It's very true, I have a lot of people on my skype. I seldom talk to most of those people unless I feel like it. I never ask anything of others. I never ask them to talk to me. They don't have to talk to me, and I want to respect their personal space. But, is it rude if I'm not making longer conversation with them?

I'm depressed because one person demanded I have their attention. They treated my explanations for why I don't give them attention as excuses and they said that skype is flexible. I wasn't willing to give them atleast a post every 15-20 minutes.

I tried to make them understand this is asking to much of me. Sure, I'm not always busy, I'm looking at articles, I surf the net, I'm always on the pc, but I don't do a lot of anything. Is it not enough that I'm just not that talkative?

I don't understand at all, what I did wrong. What am I doing wrong?
The truth is, I hand out my skype so I can try to talk to people. It's really tough for me, sometimes. Not everyone will have in common and not everyone will click with me. Other times, I'm just afraid to talk, I get a little nervous. I don't know what to talk about. Even when you try to adapt to my interests (you shouldn't) it's not like that will give way to conversation.

I have intervals of passion. I'm not optimistic and passionate all the time. I'm manic depressive. I use to talk to people a lot, but I was always negative, always critical and always pessimistic, so I been trying to be more positive. This is tough for me because I've never tried to force being happy. I just never have anything to respond to.

Why am I still on this? Because I thought this person was really cool, and I tried to be nice and friendly, but they took it as me stonewalling because I wasn't ready to have a conversation with them.

Can't everyone understand how tough it is for me to be sociable? It's stuff like this, situations like this, why I'm anti-social.

Yeps =3
I'm the least enthusiastic if I have to draw fill nudity.

Anyone on my watchlist familiar with this program willing to tutor me. Finding tutorials online is a test in patience (Really freaking hard)

Things, trying to learn

- Basics for manipulating the program. How it works, etc and what i can do with it.

- Learn how to convert a sketch into an in game sprite or use Graphics Gale to trace over the image to create a sprite. I figured I can import my art into the program, but its far to large and such, I want to see how I can use it to create sprites.

I'll be so happy if anyone is willing to help me.

http://www.livestream.com/freedomfrequency

My rules. Some of you guys know the rest of the stuff, but I'm posting them anyways just to feel out my very short list of rules.

1 - No requests please. I'm not taking any at the moment. Unless I ask please refrain from requesting things guys.

2 - No harassing others or the artist. Keep the peace. Super ultra rude people who get on my nerves gets booted. This rarely happens, but just a heads up.

3 - I have the right to draw whatever I want. Keep that in mind. If you're uncomfortable with it don't watch the stream. Specific things may include such things as Sonic, Power Rangers and maybe even Ponies. Fandoms they may/may not make you uncomfortable.

4 - I play my own music and unless I ask for requests I chose my own videos. This may include, 90s cartoons, anime and/or japanese tokusatsu. If you dun like it, there's a mute button and I keep the video program pretty smalls as not to be in the way of the art.

5 - If I don't reply in the stream or talk much, it is because I'm very focused on the art. Some pics may take more of my attention then others. Please exercise patience with me. I may glance at the chat occasionally and/or conversate, answer questions. Still, if it's an art stream, then most likely I will always be drawing.

6 - I tend to draw at my own pace, and my speed varies. So I apoogize if a pic manages to take me hours to finish. Sometimes I can't help that, especially with very few references.

7 - I use refs a lot for most of my pics sense I can be a bit profectionist and I'm always learning. As such, me screen may be distracting with a specific picture because I only have one monitor space. Normally, its one of the reasons I barely stream cause I don't want the ref to distract from the art. I can't stop you guys from freely talking about the ref, but be weary I use refs. All artists no matter the skill level too, but I will always try to stretch uniqueness and not copy everything to the exact "T". I use reference, deal with it. =I

Note: Some reference may use photos I find on the internet. If looking at real naked people makes you uncomfortable, I apologize.


Thank you for your patience with me.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6tMMbAXhCNU

*fidgets*

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wELgbEbJVr8

Created by the awesomeness Tee Lopes. I don't care too much for the game, despite its glorious animation, but that music. God, I hope he releases an soundtrack for it. If anything I'd pay for the OST alone.

I don't quite have my drive back, but I have hit quite the dilemma that seems to have plagued my work recently. The truth is I know that I've been improving but not in the direction I want, Moreso, I've struck this sorta dilemma in my work.

The truth is I've been rather indecisive in how I want my work to look, this is due to the intake of multiple influences. Adding fur and defining my anatomy was a good idea, but its compromised my look, moreso made how i normally draw more unappealing.

My work seems to lean to far into being more rigid or "realistic". Not in a sense of photo-realism, but how can I put it. My work looks less expressive.

I want to draw more cartoonish, but it always seems to feel like I have to scale back and draw simpler to get that style, but my hand always seems to want to add detail. I wish I could find a middle ground to my work, so I been looking very strong at different influences. Different artists I like who's work can help me learn ways of drawing in a way I can be as expressive and exaggerated as possible without compromising my skill.

More and more the energy seems to be sucked out from my work, not always the time, but the majority of the time. There's no bounce to my work, but it always seems like in order to get that bounce i have to move backwards, and if their is one thing i hate, it's moving back to old work.

When I do try to add my expression to my work, it turns out not looking to hot, it looks to simple or simply looks awkward, clashing with a need for me to want to add more detail and defined anatomy. I have a couple failed pics where the simplistic expressive head of a character clashed with the overly defined anatomy of the character.

Honestly . . . is it me being delusional. Am I simply not seeing what my audience sees?