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Posted 15 years agoThe Summer is over and I am on my way back to St.Cloud to start another event filled year of schooling and such :). I should be no the road from EP by about 10:00pm and be in St.cloud by 11:30 at the latest (pending I don't run in to traffic :O).
I'm excited I forgot are there furries in St.Cloud? :P
I'm excited I forgot are there furries in St.Cloud? :P
Hahaha this made my day
Posted 15 years agoMet a fur
Posted 15 years agoNever though that would happen XD awesome :P
I know I make the shortest journals ever >,>
I know I make the shortest journals ever >,>
I just made an F-list
Posted 15 years agoAnd although I've never had sex yet I just found out I'm a mental whore...
http://www.f-list.net/c/further
http://www.f-list.net/c/further
Schools out I'm back home
Posted 15 years agoI'm back in my hometown of Minnesota (Eden Prairie), and I'm finally able to like you know totally do stuff now!
I want to meet another furry IRL >.<
So if you live in Minnesota and wanna see Iron Man 2 leave me a message :D. I'd like to have a furry friend IRL :P.
-Further
I want to meet another furry IRL >.<
So if you live in Minnesota and wanna see Iron Man 2 leave me a message :D. I'd like to have a furry friend IRL :P.
-Further
It's my birthday
Posted 15 years agoI'm 19 thought you might like to know.
Resident Advisor Rejection
Posted 15 years agoOuch I get rejected from my CA position :( It would've covered half of my college expenses. I really wanted to be a CA I suspect my GPA disqualified me. It's really akward because I know every person on the selection committee personally. I kinda expected it, but it's still just...I feel terrible.
Why can't there ever be a period of good news ><
Why can't there ever be a period of good news ><
I wanna do what with a hunh hunh?
Posted 16 years agoI needed to make a journal.....That's all heh......
Sorry for wasting your time ^-^;
Ummm I hope this makes up for it:
http://www.funnyordie.com/videos/74.....-panther-mckay
Sorry for wasting your time ^-^;
Ummm I hope this makes up for it:
http://www.funnyordie.com/videos/74.....-panther-mckay
SL clothing
Posted 16 years agoOkay so I wanna buy a new outfit for my avvy but I cant find any stores ;-;, I know theres are prolly like a bajillion, but I want some really nice stuffs, and does anyone know a name of a place that makes customized avatars?
Alcohol!
Posted 16 years agoMy new Years resolution: More Alcohol!
OUCH! my pride....
Posted 16 years agoWoosh a loud sound could be heard across much of southern Minnesota it was the sound of any pride I had leaving the planet at mach 10 speed.
Thee times today I have had a "WTF have I done with my life moment" and oh boy does it suck when you look back and go "God damn how pathetic am I" XD
now if you'll excuse me I think I'll figure out what I'm good at and work harder at it toodles <3
Thee times today I have had a "WTF have I done with my life moment" and oh boy does it suck when you look back and go "God damn how pathetic am I" XD
now if you'll excuse me I think I'll figure out what I'm good at and work harder at it toodles <3
i got a new laptop
Posted 16 years agonothing special though just thought I'd see if anyone wants to help me break it in with something wireless chatting :3
Halloween....into a selfish rant about my problems..........
Posted 16 years agoSigh, it has gone and past....It's my favorite holiday of the year. I wish It happened twice a year...or I wish I was able to dress up in costume more...or something. I hosted a haunted house in my Hall today (err yesterday I suppose), it went over very, it was hosted in the basement in one of the top 10 most haunted places in Minnesota! Sigh...I miss Halloween....
Yea....doopey doo.....not much else to say I guess I'll just stay up till I fall asleep which may not be any time soon...I imagine everyone is either inundated and passed out, high out of there mind and passed out, or asleep right now from Halloween festivities, so I'm talking to myself...which leads me to ramble about something else... I've never drank alcohol like hard ever, I've had sips of wine, but nothing really... of sustenance....why is getting drunk so highly sought after, I've never really understood.... I probably never will....... as much as I would love to get stinking drunk to see if it's as much of a wild ride as they say it is, it will probably never happen, which is why when I turn 21 I'm buying as much alcohol and liquor as possible and drinking to my liver defects. I have no access to alcohol, and probably never will, and if I do, I don't care enough to seek it, it doesn't warrant the minor....fuck I hate being me sometimes....I had no idea what a minor was, but every single person I've run into, freshman or not, did know, how fucking sheltered am I?
I suck at keeping relationships friends, family, lovers (whatever that is... a term I have never had the pleasure of fully understanding, and probably never will) I just don't know what happens they occur, then they go nowhere, I just can't do it, relationships always feel like work in my life, lots of work, which means lots of time, which I have very little of, I don't have time to have relationships is that sad?
I don't know maybe I should resign from doing things I'm just so tired of not feeling "normal" (whatever that means...), I try to pin point the moment in my life where everything made my life go the exact opposite way I wanted it too, and I can trace all the way back to second grade. My life has a been a shit fuck of down hill fuck-shitting since the second grade I remember the exact event to.....
Booze is supposed to make feelings like this feel "better", I really don't understand how, because in my life I've never not been totally in control of my actions, and can't understand how one can not be totally in control of themselves, mentally and physically.
I sleep 12 hours on Saturday and wake up tired and hurting, all over aching, able to sleep. I'm constantly dehydrated when I wake up. and I really have no one to talk about mah problems.....but you know they never seem like problems at the time until I turn around and look back and go you know that's actually really fucked up and it's bothering me, I'm broken I don't let things bother me that should bother me.
I lack social life, I lack a since of need for it, and I don't really know what to do... I don't care that I don't have strong bonds, but I care that I don't care if I have strong bongs.....and how the hell did I make it through HS with out having a single crush on anyone! Or like being interested in anyone, or anything! Why can I only breathe well through one nostril, why does my chest frequently hurt out of no where....
Why can't I commit to things as well as I used too, why am I 5'9'' that really stupid awkward height that doesn't make you short, but it doesn't make you tall it just makes you that guy over there... I really wish I was 5'7'' I couldn't stand being taller than most people...WHY THE HELL IS IT THAT I'VE ALWAYS KNOWN SINCE I WAS 6 THAT I WOULD BE SOCIALLY AWKWARD AND THE LAST TO GO THROUGH PUBERTY AND THE LAST TO EXPERIENCE THE "Pleasures (in it's many forms)" OF LIFE. Why do I bitch about things I can't change.
Why do I feel like I'm making shit up as I'm typing this very sentence when in fact it's all true......Will anyone read this prolly not....oh well...I guess I don't really care if anyone reads it it's just the drama parade making it's monthly manifestation in journal form....
I'm worse at Spanish now than I was a year ago...I don't know how that happened....
Why, do I have another half century of this bull shit to deal with lol.....
God this sounds like the perfect time for a drink...not that I know, it's just what I've been told by the me-- well everyone lol....I wish I was bad ass.....I'm jealous of a lot the people I watch because a lot of them exemplify idealistic characteristics of there life I wish would had happened to me...
Why is that all of a sudden I feel like I need a lover within the last 3 months, when I've never had the desire for another ever before...why is my face growing hair for the first time in college to the point of where I might need to shave it it (I look like a fucking sophomore or freshman in HS)
Why do I exhibit symptoms of Tourettes Syndrome when ever I think about an awkward situation or when I'm thinking really hard. (involuntary shoulder shrugging and muscle tensing repetitively frequently aided by repetitive vocals)
why can't I talk about my problems...
why should I consider these problems..
to have my own problems is selfish....I'm sure whatever my problems are they are petty...I see people with problems I think are far more important than anything I think is a problem in my life and I feel terrible.
why do I always alienate myself.....
why was my 18th birthday uncelebrated......
why should I care that it wasn't....
why doesn't anyone ever look at me as more than just a friend....not even a good friend, but oh that's sean he's just a friend....
I just want one person to hold me.
okay now I'm crying with that last line so I'm gonna stop.
I'm sorry if I've offended any of you really I am.
Yea....doopey doo.....not much else to say I guess I'll just stay up till I fall asleep which may not be any time soon...I imagine everyone is either inundated and passed out, high out of there mind and passed out, or asleep right now from Halloween festivities, so I'm talking to myself...which leads me to ramble about something else... I've never drank alcohol like hard ever, I've had sips of wine, but nothing really... of sustenance....why is getting drunk so highly sought after, I've never really understood.... I probably never will....... as much as I would love to get stinking drunk to see if it's as much of a wild ride as they say it is, it will probably never happen, which is why when I turn 21 I'm buying as much alcohol and liquor as possible and drinking to my liver defects. I have no access to alcohol, and probably never will, and if I do, I don't care enough to seek it, it doesn't warrant the minor....fuck I hate being me sometimes....I had no idea what a minor was, but every single person I've run into, freshman or not, did know, how fucking sheltered am I?
I suck at keeping relationships friends, family, lovers (whatever that is... a term I have never had the pleasure of fully understanding, and probably never will) I just don't know what happens they occur, then they go nowhere, I just can't do it, relationships always feel like work in my life, lots of work, which means lots of time, which I have very little of, I don't have time to have relationships is that sad?
I don't know maybe I should resign from doing things I'm just so tired of not feeling "normal" (whatever that means...), I try to pin point the moment in my life where everything made my life go the exact opposite way I wanted it too, and I can trace all the way back to second grade. My life has a been a shit fuck of down hill fuck-shitting since the second grade I remember the exact event to.....
Booze is supposed to make feelings like this feel "better", I really don't understand how, because in my life I've never not been totally in control of my actions, and can't understand how one can not be totally in control of themselves, mentally and physically.
I sleep 12 hours on Saturday and wake up tired and hurting, all over aching, able to sleep. I'm constantly dehydrated when I wake up. and I really have no one to talk about mah problems.....but you know they never seem like problems at the time until I turn around and look back and go you know that's actually really fucked up and it's bothering me, I'm broken I don't let things bother me that should bother me.
I lack social life, I lack a since of need for it, and I don't really know what to do... I don't care that I don't have strong bonds, but I care that I don't care if I have strong bongs.....and how the hell did I make it through HS with out having a single crush on anyone! Or like being interested in anyone, or anything! Why can I only breathe well through one nostril, why does my chest frequently hurt out of no where....
Why can't I commit to things as well as I used too, why am I 5'9'' that really stupid awkward height that doesn't make you short, but it doesn't make you tall it just makes you that guy over there... I really wish I was 5'7'' I couldn't stand being taller than most people...WHY THE HELL IS IT THAT I'VE ALWAYS KNOWN SINCE I WAS 6 THAT I WOULD BE SOCIALLY AWKWARD AND THE LAST TO GO THROUGH PUBERTY AND THE LAST TO EXPERIENCE THE "Pleasures (in it's many forms)" OF LIFE. Why do I bitch about things I can't change.
Why do I feel like I'm making shit up as I'm typing this very sentence when in fact it's all true......Will anyone read this prolly not....oh well...I guess I don't really care if anyone reads it it's just the drama parade making it's monthly manifestation in journal form....
I'm worse at Spanish now than I was a year ago...I don't know how that happened....
Why, do I have another half century of this bull shit to deal with lol.....
God this sounds like the perfect time for a drink...not that I know, it's just what I've been told by the me-- well everyone lol....I wish I was bad ass.....I'm jealous of a lot the people I watch because a lot of them exemplify idealistic characteristics of there life I wish would had happened to me...
Why is that all of a sudden I feel like I need a lover within the last 3 months, when I've never had the desire for another ever before...why is my face growing hair for the first time in college to the point of where I might need to shave it it (I look like a fucking sophomore or freshman in HS)
Why do I exhibit symptoms of Tourettes Syndrome when ever I think about an awkward situation or when I'm thinking really hard. (involuntary shoulder shrugging and muscle tensing repetitively frequently aided by repetitive vocals)
why can't I talk about my problems...
why should I consider these problems..
to have my own problems is selfish....I'm sure whatever my problems are they are petty...I see people with problems I think are far more important than anything I think is a problem in my life and I feel terrible.
why do I always alienate myself.....
why was my 18th birthday uncelebrated......
why should I care that it wasn't....
why doesn't anyone ever look at me as more than just a friend....not even a good friend, but oh that's sean he's just a friend....
I just want one person to hold me.
okay now I'm crying with that last line so I'm gonna stop.
I'm sorry if I've offended any of you really I am.
New Stuff!
Posted 16 years agoYay I got new stuff!
I got my iphone replaced finally (easiest thing to get replaced for free btw), and then I got a new sketch pad and some pencils to draw with. Hopefully a clean slate will help me focus more and get better at drawing :s...
*continues to talk to himself*
I got my iphone replaced finally (easiest thing to get replaced for free btw), and then I got a new sketch pad and some pencils to draw with. Hopefully a clean slate will help me focus more and get better at drawing :s...
*continues to talk to himself*
In search of drawing tutorials.
Posted 16 years agoI'm in search of everyone's favorite drawing tutorial because I'm having a lot of trouble finding one that doesn't go 1. 2. 3. done and doesn't' explain what they do.
Seriosuyl guys I'm in desperate neeeeeed.
Seriosuyl guys I'm in desperate neeeeeed.
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Posted 16 years agoThe artist I viewed of the day
Posted 16 years ago
SapphwolfSo I always thought to myself how terrible it is that no one gets to see an artist older work (well at least I didn't take the time to look that often), and I decided to make it a goal to pick one artist every now and then and fav and comment every piece of art of there's that i enjoyed.
Today I decided to follow Sapphwolf. He's a really talented artist who has progressed so much in a year, and at first he was a little shy to post his artwork, but since then he's really really blossomed, I encourage you all to look at some of his earlier work.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1388539/
He has this wonderful chibi series that is so adorable:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1499341/
And has a real knack for weaponry too ^-^:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2234545/
Oh and he draws really really REALLY sexy Felines:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2635998/
*mews and feints*
He's a fabulous artist and you guys should really give him a look and a watchypoo.
P.S He has a great sense of humor:
"see the boner of life and his indiana joes schmex joke work from a year ago"
Hey guys I'm on SL now!
Posted 16 years agoYea I'm on second life now :3
I'm a uber noob so I need someone to show me what to do okay ^-^
Further Monigal is my name :D
I'm a uber noob so I need someone to show me what to do okay ^-^
Further Monigal is my name :D
College 6 hours...want all my FA friends to know ^//^
Posted 16 years agoYey first day of college ever wish me lucks!
IS there anyone on right now?
Posted 16 years agoI was wondering if there is anyone on right now :o
College!!.1.1
Posted 16 years agoIt's only 4 weeks away now and I'm dreadfully nervous D:
I met my roomate on face book and he's really cute and nice
err I mean
His really nice and I like him
err....I mean
He seems like a a really attractive nice guy
damnt....
Yea so here's me further going to college soon ^-^
so exciting aaaaaaah *squeels*
I met my roomate on face book and he's really cute and nice
err I mean
His really nice and I like him
err....I mean
He seems like a a really attractive nice guy
damnt....
Yea so here's me further going to college soon ^-^
so exciting aaaaaaah *squeels*
Wow!!! So many same names!!!
Posted 16 years agoI swear everyone on furaffinity is either named Adam or Matt or am I just very very lucky to find so many XD
Poemas!
Posted 16 years agoVoy a escribir este cuadro en español.... Pues un poco XD.... Por algunos meses yo he escribito algunas poeams por yo... Y ahora quiero leer...demonstrar...convertir....no recuerdo la palabra .....los con mis amigos de Furaffinity.
¿Vale?
¿Vale?
Hot young male fur looking chat pm me tonight.
Posted 16 years agoYea I know that's a wtf attention getter, but someone brought to my attention just how eh, akward my journal last night sounded so ermm sorry ^-^;
Anyone feeling social
Posted 16 years agoHey if anyone on the other side of the world is feeling wide awak nd sociable please talk to me on yim ^-^
yim: phatmandrake
I'm suffering from a little insomnia and would love to talk right now.
I'm really nice I swear ^-^
yim: phatmandrake
I'm suffering from a little insomnia and would love to talk right now.
I'm really nice I swear ^-^
