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Posted 15 years ago.......
Time flows by to quickly
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Time flows by to quickly
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f5
Posted 15 years agoGod damn it, I need a fur artist for once. Sad part is no RL money to spend on art at the moment, but I have tons of gaia gold, if any of my gaian friends wants to take the job. lol
This discribes my life in a nuts shell (btw insane scream-o)
Posted 15 years agoOnly part one of this song.
if you don't understand the lyrics go look them up.
if you don't understand the lyrics go look them up.
epic weekend is epic
Posted 15 years agoJust had a epic weekend with my BF. God would I do it all over again, and the private naughty moments were amazing as usual, hehe! <3
feeling really weird.
Posted 15 years agoAt this time, maybe 20 minutes before this I fainted. I dunno what came over me, but when I went outside for a cig, last think I knew was I light it, and then I remember waking up to My roommate calling my name. The odd part is I remember going into it, and it was scary, all I could hear was white noise and I was looking into a black abyss. For some reason it felt like I couldn't get out of it, until finaly I hear my roommate calling my name, and I came too white as a ghost and sweating a lot.
Roommate
Posted 15 years agoSo apparently my best friend since middle school A.K.A. my roommate comes out and says to me that he only hangs out with me because I'm tolerable. That's really hurt badly that he could say that. I mean, yes their are times were we get into arguments and shit, but I'd never just come out and say that. WTF. It's bad enough I'm like his only friend friend that spends time with him still, and if he wants to act like that I'll be glad when I move, cause that really hurt my feelings on that whole thing.
D:
Posted 15 years agoI need to hang out with my furfriends more. I miss them all horribly, plus I want snuggles from a few of them.
Free art all day by Pensive
Posted 15 years agoI have a job now.
Posted 15 years agoNot going to say what cause it is pointless to even share. I'm not going to like this place, but I will just work and save my money so I can GTFO from my town. My first priority is getting a car.
fusky has a facebook
Posted 15 years agohttp://www.facebook.com/#!/profile......00001454084823 come add me as a friend if you want. <3
^.^
Posted 15 years agoThe World Ends With You is ADDICTING! that is all. >.>
Do you want free art (avertisment)
Posted 15 years agoWell this person right here is kind enough to do a 100 person free art sketch for people.
Here is the link to here FA and journal.
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http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1587518/
Here is the link to here FA and journal.
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http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1587518/
Sleep on, fly on.
Posted 15 years agoMy teeth taste funny today...they seem more jagged than normal.
I've been told that I have been grinding them like the gears during my dream hours...
I wonder if it's just my thoughts fusing into one frequent dream...
one which parts with the night.
(There are frequent amongst the walking crawlers).
I saw them dragging the other day.
Scraping their knees and elbows against the bumpy pavement.
Blood tracks have been filling the streets.
Seems the high horse is taking them all home...
I can't leave myself out.
Why should we sleep today...
why should we awake tomorrow?
We can just pop back a few and drift though this pre-programmed flight.
Across all oceans...a windy, noisy trek...
this seems to be what I've needed.
The view used to be better...lands are growing into one.
We wanted it this way. We were brought up to grow into one.
I'm going to fly up soon and seek other lands. The soothing air of flight...
a bird's eye view into what I've always imagined life could be.
Will it be sought after?
It might just be useless writing and ideas that laziness will corrupt in the end.
Bones of dust need hardening. I think the prescription is found.
Sleep on...fly on.
In your mind, you can fly.
My teeth grin oddly today...
they seem to gleam more than normal.
Maybe it will be noticed.
(That's all we ever asked for. Grinning through it all......)
(In the corner the thinker things: I seem more jagged than normal.
I am the episode of constant wandering.
A nomad in my own surroundings...this hand produces the nerve.)
Walking dead.
I've been told that I have been grinding them like the gears during my dream hours...
I wonder if it's just my thoughts fusing into one frequent dream...
one which parts with the night.
(There are frequent amongst the walking crawlers).
I saw them dragging the other day.
Scraping their knees and elbows against the bumpy pavement.
Blood tracks have been filling the streets.
Seems the high horse is taking them all home...
I can't leave myself out.
Why should we sleep today...
why should we awake tomorrow?
We can just pop back a few and drift though this pre-programmed flight.
Across all oceans...a windy, noisy trek...
this seems to be what I've needed.
The view used to be better...lands are growing into one.
We wanted it this way. We were brought up to grow into one.
I'm going to fly up soon and seek other lands. The soothing air of flight...
a bird's eye view into what I've always imagined life could be.
Will it be sought after?
It might just be useless writing and ideas that laziness will corrupt in the end.
Bones of dust need hardening. I think the prescription is found.
Sleep on...fly on.
In your mind, you can fly.
My teeth grin oddly today...
they seem to gleam more than normal.
Maybe it will be noticed.
(That's all we ever asked for. Grinning through it all......)
(In the corner the thinker things: I seem more jagged than normal.
I am the episode of constant wandering.
A nomad in my own surroundings...this hand produces the nerve.)
Walking dead.
Asking for help I guess. Other then that ignore this.
Posted 15 years agoI dunno how I want to start this, in fact I dunno why I'm bothering because of how selfish I'm and how I feel like shit because I should of asked for the help I need earlier, but didn't because of being stubborn. I guess that time has come, and although I'm still totally against this whole "help" I guess I need it more then ever now. I've been having a few friends trying to push me to ask for help and I guess it's just been hard, can you blame me for having such a high pride, or maybe it's just stupidity right? Plus their has been a lot of things bothering me, including some big thing that I have no clue how I want to solve, or for that matter if I can even solve them. Lets just say life is really confusing for me right now, and I dunno how to handle it, the sad part is I was use to managing it all by myself because of the simple fact that during the times that I needed it most no one was their to hold my hand or support me, I had to do it all on my own. Not saying people didn't help me in the past, but I've been pushing them away and rather trying to figure things out on my own.
The biggest thing that is bothering me is the whole fat of living in Southbridge. It's a horrible town, and to tell you the truth, everything I've though of beside going to college had lead me to a dead end. I can't find a job in this town, and without a car things seem hopeless, and I think I'm going to end up going in circles staying here. I know for a true success in life, I need to relocate, but that's just the problem, no one is going to help someone without a job or a car, move into their place just to have a "chance" at finding a job and maybe making it, so that's where my biggest problem is, and I can't seem to find no way out of it except one, and this one leads to a bigger problem and possible depression for a long time.
The one way out that I was talking about is my friend from Colorado, he wants me to move in, but I dunno if I want to go. Sure it is a new start at life, but the one thing that bothers me, since I will never be able to see my Bf again, and I would probably end up breaking things off with him if I did that because of the distance, but I never want to break it off with him. I love him to much to end things, and I know he wants me to better my life, but wtf lose him to better my life, more like I'll go insane and depressed from losing him. I had a talk about him on the phone about this, and he didn't know what to say, but I told him it will be okay, we will try to figure something out.
Now, I figured you would all ask, "Well why not move in with your bf?" Well you see that's where it get's complicated.... His parents down know he's gay, or that's he's been dating me for two years now. He is afraid of what they will say, and I don't blame him. Also He is working to get a place of his own, but sadly he wants to save up a lot more money then he needs because he wants to be be "safe" as he puts it. Now with his parents not knowing it leads to a lot. I told him not to tell them because they might be selling the house, and giving him a good amount of the money, see why why don't wanna tell them. they might get all anal, and not give him anything or disown him, so yeah it get's complicated.
It leaves me with a horrible confusion, and I can't figure it out. Maybe I'm just thinking to much on life, who knows.
Now comes where I'm currently living, which isn't bad but I've been doing bad things to my body I guess that isn't healthy. Where I live is "okay" as I put it, I can't stand the place at times. It's also gotten to the point where I won't eat for a few days because I have no money to, or I just don't wanna eat the food here because other people spent money on it, so basically I've been starving myself, which isn't good and sadly it is taking it toll on me. Been getting really sick lately I dunno what to do about that, I could probably die from this shit. *scared* The other thing about it is, I life here for free which sucks balls, I'm like a slave in my own house having to do everything, while my roommate goes around and does drugs and doesn't even bother to think twice about me. The second issue, is his landlord, and seeing as I'm not suppose to be living here, I have to go around in secret about stuff, and hind when he is around.... I feel like a fucking Mexican or something! (no offense to Mexicans) Plus if he find me he can kick me out, and I'd be on the streets really quickly. Yeah, as you can tell... real bad living situation as well. Plus I need to get away from the drugs and drama around here, about to fall into that shit, and I don't need to be in that situation again, I've already been down that road and it was horrible, and it fucked up my old chance at a better life.
That pretty much sums up all that's has been bothering me lately. I guess what I'm saying is, is if you can really help, then try to get a hold of me. I hate asking for help, but I guess I'm down to that last ditch effort sadly, if you don't wanna help that's fine too I'm just writing this to mostly write down how I feel because I was sick of keeping it inside.
Your lovable Fusky
Fuskr
The biggest thing that is bothering me is the whole fat of living in Southbridge. It's a horrible town, and to tell you the truth, everything I've though of beside going to college had lead me to a dead end. I can't find a job in this town, and without a car things seem hopeless, and I think I'm going to end up going in circles staying here. I know for a true success in life, I need to relocate, but that's just the problem, no one is going to help someone without a job or a car, move into their place just to have a "chance" at finding a job and maybe making it, so that's where my biggest problem is, and I can't seem to find no way out of it except one, and this one leads to a bigger problem and possible depression for a long time.
The one way out that I was talking about is my friend from Colorado, he wants me to move in, but I dunno if I want to go. Sure it is a new start at life, but the one thing that bothers me, since I will never be able to see my Bf again, and I would probably end up breaking things off with him if I did that because of the distance, but I never want to break it off with him. I love him to much to end things, and I know he wants me to better my life, but wtf lose him to better my life, more like I'll go insane and depressed from losing him. I had a talk about him on the phone about this, and he didn't know what to say, but I told him it will be okay, we will try to figure something out.
Now, I figured you would all ask, "Well why not move in with your bf?" Well you see that's where it get's complicated.... His parents down know he's gay, or that's he's been dating me for two years now. He is afraid of what they will say, and I don't blame him. Also He is working to get a place of his own, but sadly he wants to save up a lot more money then he needs because he wants to be be "safe" as he puts it. Now with his parents not knowing it leads to a lot. I told him not to tell them because they might be selling the house, and giving him a good amount of the money, see why why don't wanna tell them. they might get all anal, and not give him anything or disown him, so yeah it get's complicated.
It leaves me with a horrible confusion, and I can't figure it out. Maybe I'm just thinking to much on life, who knows.
Now comes where I'm currently living, which isn't bad but I've been doing bad things to my body I guess that isn't healthy. Where I live is "okay" as I put it, I can't stand the place at times. It's also gotten to the point where I won't eat for a few days because I have no money to, or I just don't wanna eat the food here because other people spent money on it, so basically I've been starving myself, which isn't good and sadly it is taking it toll on me. Been getting really sick lately I dunno what to do about that, I could probably die from this shit. *scared* The other thing about it is, I life here for free which sucks balls, I'm like a slave in my own house having to do everything, while my roommate goes around and does drugs and doesn't even bother to think twice about me. The second issue, is his landlord, and seeing as I'm not suppose to be living here, I have to go around in secret about stuff, and hind when he is around.... I feel like a fucking Mexican or something! (no offense to Mexicans) Plus if he find me he can kick me out, and I'd be on the streets really quickly. Yeah, as you can tell... real bad living situation as well. Plus I need to get away from the drugs and drama around here, about to fall into that shit, and I don't need to be in that situation again, I've already been down that road and it was horrible, and it fucked up my old chance at a better life.
That pretty much sums up all that's has been bothering me lately. I guess what I'm saying is, is if you can really help, then try to get a hold of me. I hate asking for help, but I guess I'm down to that last ditch effort sadly, if you don't wanna help that's fine too I'm just writing this to mostly write down how I feel because I was sick of keeping it inside.
Your lovable Fusky
Fuskr
<3 Graduation
Posted 15 years agoGraduation was epic! I was so happy to see all my friends and like half the student body cheering for me when I got up on stage, it was so fucking EPIC! And the after party/hang out was sick as fuck!
Btw over 100 watchers!
Posted 15 years agoWoot! I feel like I'm becoming know in the fandom. lol
This guys giving out free sketches
Posted 15 years ago
Go see them. Fill it is meme
Posted 15 years ago1. Your Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Film:
5. Favorite Song or Album:
6. Favorite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Do we know each other outside of FA?
10. What's your philosophy on life?
11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?
12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
13. What is your favorite memory of us?
14. What is your favorite guilty pleasure?
15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you?
16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the 'world peace etc' malarkey) - what are they?
17. Can we get together and make a cake?
18. Which country is your spiritual home?
19. What is your big weakness?
20. Do you think I'm a good person?
21. What was your best/favorite subject at school?
22. Describe your accent:
23. If you could change anything about me, would you?
24. What do you wear to sleep?
25. Trousers or skirts?
26. Cigarettes or alcohol?
27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
28. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Film:
5. Favorite Song or Album:
6. Favorite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Do we know each other outside of FA?
10. What's your philosophy on life?
11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?
12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
13. What is your favorite memory of us?
14. What is your favorite guilty pleasure?
15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you?
16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the 'world peace etc' malarkey) - what are they?
17. Can we get together and make a cake?
18. Which country is your spiritual home?
19. What is your big weakness?
20. Do you think I'm a good person?
21. What was your best/favorite subject at school?
22. Describe your accent:
23. If you could change anything about me, would you?
24. What do you wear to sleep?
25. Trousers or skirts?
26. Cigarettes or alcohol?
27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
28. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?
Angry and needing to vent
Posted 15 years agoLike seriously I need one god damn chance ONE! I need to get the fuck out of the town I'm living in and start new. I came back from school with papers and everything saying that I'm able to own ass and what happens I can't find a single job where I live. I'm sick of living like a bum, and it's bothering me to no end, I need a fucking job, but with no car at the moment and a horrible town I live in it seems almost hopeless.
I wanna ask for help, but I think I'm done with that. No ones going to hold my fucking hand except myself. I'm fine with that though, I'm use to doing everything the hard way and all by myself.
I dunno maybe I'm just stupid or something ..... pffh go figure :(
Fusky, out!
I wanna ask for help, but I think I'm done with that. No ones going to hold my fucking hand except myself. I'm fine with that though, I'm use to doing everything the hard way and all by myself.
I dunno maybe I'm just stupid or something ..... pffh go figure :(
Fusky, out!
New icon
Posted 15 years agoYeah I made myself a new icon out of the fursuit pictures I have of my fursuit. I really need to get better pictures. I need someone with a nice camera and a good day to hang out and take pictures.
*sigh* I joined the band wagon of new site.
Posted 15 years agoYeah I joined the new Inkbunny site and made a profile their. It is in my opinion a horrible site because of how you get around and such. Also I will stick with FA, but if any of you guys want to watch me on their here is my profile.
http://inkbunny.net/Fuskr
http://inkbunny.net/Fuskr
Fixing up the profile.
Posted 15 years agoI fixed up my profile, took the general idea from 
and 
kind of like a mix of the two, and if I didn't put you on the "friends list" I put up their, it is because I didn't want to clutter my profile with that, not to mention those guys are RL close friends.
Need to still do some simple stuff to it, but right now, it seems okay. Tell me what you think, although I stole the idea, LOL
and 
kind of like a mix of the two, and if I didn't put you on the "friends list" I put up their, it is because I didn't want to clutter my profile with that, not to mention those guys are RL close friends. Need to still do some simple stuff to it, but right now, it seems okay. Tell me what you think, although I stole the idea, LOL
Graduation and other stuff
Posted 15 years agoWell let me start out. I'm finally back home, but sadly it doesn't seem like home anymore, and that reason is, is because I miss my living style I had at school. I miss all my friends their, and I miss doing the daily things we had to do. Things just don't seem the same at home anymore, and I think it is time to leave this hell hole behind and go out in search for a better place and a job. Yes, I haven't found one yet because of my towns horrible planning, and that is another thing bothering me.
Well graduations coming up soon, that will be on the 25th of this month. I have a weird feeling about it, and sadly enough it is my first graduation, so I feel nervous and excited about it at the same time. the biggest thing that will get to me is being on campus again and seeing all my friends, it's going to be hard to leave them again.
Thinks are getting hectic around here, and I don't know what I wanna do. After all I have many options now, and who knows what I'll choose. I really wanna go to college, that seems like my main thing, but I haven't even started the steps for it, and I feel like I'm just procrastinating about it. The others could be just getting jobs, but I don't wanna stay around SouthBridge, I wanna move on and away from here, and this time be the final time I look back and never look back again. I wanna take that final leap and GTFO!
Also my Bf might get a apartment down in NJ soon and move me in. Don't ask about him and the house, that shits a mess and complicated to no END! Anyways if that works I'll go their, but again it's a plan with no backbone, so god only know what could happen.
that's all for now.
Fuskr
Don't be afraid of commenting though i need so guidance
Well graduations coming up soon, that will be on the 25th of this month. I have a weird feeling about it, and sadly enough it is my first graduation, so I feel nervous and excited about it at the same time. the biggest thing that will get to me is being on campus again and seeing all my friends, it's going to be hard to leave them again.
Thinks are getting hectic around here, and I don't know what I wanna do. After all I have many options now, and who knows what I'll choose. I really wanna go to college, that seems like my main thing, but I haven't even started the steps for it, and I feel like I'm just procrastinating about it. The others could be just getting jobs, but I don't wanna stay around SouthBridge, I wanna move on and away from here, and this time be the final time I look back and never look back again. I wanna take that final leap and GTFO!
Also my Bf might get a apartment down in NJ soon and move me in. Don't ask about him and the house, that shits a mess and complicated to no END! Anyways if that works I'll go their, but again it's a plan with no backbone, so god only know what could happen.
that's all for now.
Fuskr
Don't be afraid of commenting though i need so guidance
Angry
Posted 15 years agoJust annoyed at some people here on FA. One person is really getting to me because they lied to me. But oh well. Just letting off steam, not being emo or anything.
Woot
Posted 15 years agoGot my Electric guitar today. I can't wait to start messing around with it and playing some nasty shredding solos. But I know I won't be able to do that right away anyways, but I know with a lot of practice and other stuff I will, so I'm going to work my tail off and play till my paws bleed so I can be good. Playing a guitar has been something I've been wanting to do for a long time, so I'm glad I finally got one.
