The combination of an inspiration and a revolution is a revelation

Heh. Heh ha ha. Mankind is always moving on, hoping for the future, regardless of what is seen or known as impossible. Just cause its impossible doesnt mean you should give up or stop hoping.
Time is mine, and i shall twist its paths, to suit myself and others, to get what i want and what others dont voice.

A while ago, i dont know by what, i just came up with an excellant halloween costume. so far its just foam forearm pieces and finger claws.
ive one bracer done and a prototype claw.

hopefully with two bracers, ten claws, a cloak and a mask ill be able to assemble a worthwhile outfit.

If i even do anything. The first reason i can think of to go trick or treat is unlikely to happen, and certainly my friends will be too busy doing nothing.

anyway the outfits an improvement over the last time i went.
i bileave i had a black cape, 5 paper claws on a robotic arm made out of duct tape and a diaper box. i was accompenied by my best friend, Man-in-Dress.
Yes my brother wore a red dress to halloween. well it was a monkish red prayer battle robe, but still it looked like a dress.

Hope for halloween

Never try,
dont be , do or die
force is hard
touch so soft

Do not force yourself
Do not act in negativity

Enjoy everything around you
Sing in every moment

Im happy and full of joy
i never force myself to create

today ive been randomly inspired to draw every monster and robot i see
to create a natural world in which a ranger might find fate
to express myself
to find joy in my expiriance and share through words

Im happy, and if your not happy and if i were you i wouldnt be happy either, so im glad im me.

Also,
Boosh.

A brave squirell gave his life today in an attempt to take out civilization.
he climbed the pole and took out the blocks electric power. then fell dead to the ground for he had been electricuted. poor squirell. In better news i got to sleep in cause my alarm never went off.

always have your day set up by noon
cause evrything you do before noon determines how your day goes.
waken up by a call 10 minute before alarm goes off
recieve pickup and windows 7 computer
get called about state job possibility
get called about computer chair
plan on buying wirless device
one of several best friends coming back tomarrow
camping event area cleanup weekend behind springfield station
wedding of cousin i havent seen his great granfather was alive( i heard hes fat)
got called three times already, thats more in one day than this whole year

Awesome everythings really good all of a sudden!

I deals with it
I deals with it long time

i think i dreamt up a new weapon. i mean literally dreamt a new weapon. at first it looke like a katana but i unsheated it and went to kill the person my boss was having me fight there was another sheath. i took that off and there was the katana blade but the sheath fell into two long pieces which hurt like hell when pressed to my sides. they were kind of like non cutting hurtful twacking devices

neato

Now go listew to the sailor song! i commands you?
Kaita Blade, 19

there just liars and foodstabbers everywhere.
first i i go pick up will and he brings out coco. and im like awesome coco its a party. he opens it up and its his sewing supplies and i say you liar you lied to me. he says i didnt say anything. i didnt lie. so every couple hour i just call him a coco liar. then today at marie calender i ask for plain burger, they give sausy lettucy burger. get a better burger at mcdonalds.
and the last time i was at red robin they didnt even have pepsi!

Anywho

August like 6 birthday this month. including mine if anyone cares.
18th afternoon party cake an stuff.all are welcome. bring sporks.
so far ive gotten bamboo stalks and im happy with just that.
plus fore the party we goes to the mission restauant for enchiladas.
mmm

bests news ever i finnaly got my red over shirt back. its my best and favorite shirt that goes with everything even nakedness. nay especially nakedness.
will stole it when i accidentally left it at his house. i just know he wore it and said things like dam i look good. stole my army pants too, that dam coco liar.

picking up 4.0 seriously. apparently i got mr.s pretty into it and hes getting all the books. he thought we were angry at him cause we havent seen him.
oops. must visit him more often.

applied for borders. they said after apply online just bring in resume. should mean an interview. they said it was seasonal work. so hopeful hire. bookstores are nice. walk in and everythings just calmer.

im gladthat im seriously drawing now. used to only draw instead of schoolwork but now that im doing it for myself its actuall turning out better.
nother engel soon in flight mode with rockets more detail and hopefullly more color.

yes im boring deal with it.
and who doesnt know what a dildo is? i want to find that person and laugh at them.

I dedicate this pizza to my friends and fellow furs. May they drool in hunger.

As it may have been mentioned before...

woah. i really dont want to start my journal that sentance

Okay. this is about my encrytion code i invented by rolling a pencil while bored in my history class. i have the original somewhere. i keep everything.
The Wright Code. Even as its creator i dont know everything about it.
Sound strange? I hope so. By using a large series of conversion variables it comes up to possibly either hundred of thousands or hundreds of millions of encryption possibilities. i forget and am not mathy enough to be sure.
has to do with number combinations maybe. and even after that theres the cycle to dilute letter matching.
it even converts spaces and is written all on one line with no breaks.
if i change one key i get so many possibilitie. and thats with any of the keys
if i change two or more keys will i get each of there max possibilites in key possibilities or will that produce some of the same possibilities as produced by a single key?
I dont know.
i cant break it not that i could even begin to start.
i found some of my first code mesages and tried to decrypt them on the assuption that it was a particular message and written in basic wright.
however the process back then wasnt the same or didnt have the same key
i also didnt try too hard seeing as i came up with complete gibberish each time.

Anyay i had a program written in c++ to encode and decode basic wright. it couldnt handle spaces. im sure that unless i go into premade alphabetic translation codes built to handle spaces, i cant make it accept spaces. after all one cannot program in nothing

anyway im too out of touch with c++ see ing as i havent used it since highschool. im remaking the program in gamemaker. An object oriented program focused and built with many things that make creating games very easy. so my challenge is to use game programming code to create a variance encrypt decrypt code program

using gamemaker ive made a vertical space shooter, a sidescroller, a towerdefence game based onthis site
http://www.towerdefence.net/

, and several attempts at a turn by turn war game based
on tactics 100 live
http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/379767

oh and salvation based on doom 2d
http://www.onemorelevel.com/game/doom_2d

mostly in my programming class at the collage. best class ever. it was for complete noobs but my games were so above them. spose i was expirianced.
i program for the challenge of getting the games to work the way i think they would.

um
oh right.
im working on programming the wright code in gamemaker. it should at the minimum many hour to several weeks or months of constant work.
programming is fun because the real challenges require deep constant conclusive thought, holding all info at the forfront of my mind and testing various hypothese. i tend have incredible if then else setups, which i belive are the basis of ai.

So yah two things.
if anyone knows really good td damage to health per level multiplier upgrade balances let me know
and if anyone wants examles of my code to decrypt just ask and ill beg you to break it. id love to see it broken

gamemaker 8 is the program i use from
http://www.yoyogames.com/
in program tutorials with a help site and i of course am probably an excellant programmer

I could talk forever on this
theres only two people i trust with my code.
its rather odd the level of trust i have for one of them
the other makes perfect sense seeing as hes my best friend for and beyond life

thats all. well for now anyway

Evil Laughter sputter into coughing
i did it! i put on my profile that i would submit white paper and not care what anyone said. if any one does say anything ill laugh at them saysomething silly and be XDed at

dont you just hate mosquitos? huge flying bugs that touch you. ugh. i just noticed it and freaked out and ran two rooms over. then i tried to kill it with a broom and the aluminum broom snapped in midair then when i was bening back it snapped the otherway and i thought everythins built for tiny people. ive even banged my head on public bus doors. so i swept under the table and it was coming right for me and i man shrieked and dodged 10 into the kitchen. i killed it later cause i just had to finsh my nodachi or field sword
(ithink)

OM G I want that seria mist in the frigde. were out of soda and i tasted it and it was SOOO good. its a really bad thing to be soda sober.
Morse so sodaless. girl comes over asks for pepsi im like we only have water and she be'd like no pepsi eww your gross and hairy. im leaving and then shed leave. yah im pretty sure thatwould happen

Thatd be even more funny than the man who walked up to me and said i was naked. i did not dispute him

So...
I NEED some double friking Pepsi

List all the animals youve seen. Not in zoos or books or tv though.
anything you list has to be something you saw in nature

1. Lioness
2. Bald Eagle
3. Turkey
4. Horse
5. Salamander
6. Gecko
7. Boa Snake
8. Vulture
9. Mice
10. Chipmunk
11. Squirel
12. Woodpecker
13. Brown Bear
14. Parrot
15. Fishys
16. Skunk
17. Ferret
18. Deer herd

Its oviobiously not every animal ive seen but i included what i thought were my best sightngs. Im pretty sure this is a meme. maybe probably.

I like to think of things in two ways. the first way is a crazy farfetched idea that is only 5% probable. I decided 5% would be the generic percentile.
The other way is a logical i disaprove that random idea because of these facts.

Like a fairly accurate example would be when it was too hot i took my shirt and started weapon toss dancing and ended upo thinking that there was someone in the mirror watching and i thought let them watch, then got a new shirt by another mirror, and imagined that person had a computer screen focused on each mirror in my house. then i looked in the mirror and diddnt think about because i just logically knew people coundnt watch in my mirror.

another might be reading texts and thoughtlessly thinking it might in any way involve me, or be a roundabout way to admit feelings then be logical and deciding that my crazy about me view is a silly passing thought because presented facts say otherwise as opposed to a single item creating a farfetched idea.

Yah being deep thinking and wierdly insane coales simple things into fantastic improbable ideas

Nyquil!

codes unbreakable
souls untakeable

the covert operations ending
with the numbers all descending

Digi tal confine ment

into hell
taking my soul oh well

the key
is lost
to me

38582610
soul is bloody with my sin

bloodlust is bending my will to spill your blood all over the mud

my numbers protect the airwaves
and the bloodbacked soldier slaves

inforation protected
always dejected

key to my code
key to my soul

bloodback bending
battle rending

the numbers war
i was a part of
i led and bled for
the numbers war

my numbers will find you
protect and now blind you

sent my numbers to there door
knocked it down and bled them more

what ive done in war
with numbers and more

its the information war
where numbers protect and kill
all for that cold math thrill

this has to do with cryptology, codes, keys, cold war, blood, hell other stuff

the poems are easy but i cant assemble it into a song
how do you write asong?

1) Who are you?
2) Are we friends?
3) When and how did we meet?
4) Would you kiss me?
5) Give me a nickname and explain why.
6) Describe me in 1 word.
7) What was your first impression of me?
8) Do you still think the same?
9) What reminds you of me?
10) If you could give me anything, what would it be?
11) How well do you know me?
12) Are you gonna put this in your journal and see what I say about you?
13) Would you meet up with me?

What do you see in the night
do such things fill you with fright?
darkness, shadows,
bloodbath and hallows
moon is bright, white and so round
gods little creatures gone to ground
gleaming eyes and shining fangs
monster growl and deathly howl
even death must go and hide
when we have all now defied
monsters are howling
death is out prowling
Victims of hunger
thoughts disapear
in the face of fear
when humans are all cattle
and vamps hate there prattle
feed in cold fury, rightously done
killing the jury, all so much fun
monsters arise and victims despise
bloodscent, deathbent
your flesh to rent
500 a month
lycans dark beauty

his eyes were cold, and intentions bold
gaze at flesh, so full and young
hear and step, to the beat of blood
hunt, court, and satisfy
the Hunger

Where the white wolf roam
under that white dome

i move not now for the sun
its at night that i have fun

the beast within
he calls for sin

monsters arise in the darkest hour
when theyfeel the moons bright power
night is now here
is what you feel fear
nay terror the onset of death
primal prey
alive in the day

you walk at night
content in your light
but wait
where is your darkness
that kept you safe
you wish to deny
and so look in the sky
there is the moon

Bla

I tried to write a monster song but didnt work

i went outside under the half moon so i could sing in the dark and practice my katana. i did the usual hiding stuff and when hid from a bicycler who didnt even come by mum came out and couldnt even see me standing 20 feet away. she came out again later to leave for bit and saw me move to hide. she went to the car and when i was i n a blindspot i ran behind a tree. she came around the other side of the tree towards my original hiding place. she wasnt 5 feet from me so i came up from behind and tapped her in the back.
scared and made her laugh. Sneakings fun and normals are so easy to hide from.
your average normal doesnt even look around when walking to and from a place.

i have chocolate chip cookies.
im listening to ricky martin livin la vida loca
and i only go to second life when i am asked to for i have no reason to go there. id probably give the pass if i was asked.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Mu Ha!

NoNoNo
By the holy friks hold the parties, skip the fair, and fridge the pizza. All plans for august 1st through 14th are hereby cancelled until further notice. Sojo the man my bro is hereby broke and unable to travel the state back home to orgeon.
Suckage. Frik. Other relevant curses. non swearful of course.

You now i thought when we got jobs our problems would be solved. he has tons of stuff to pay on and i dont have work. if id been working this whole time id have two thousand dollars in the bank. And hes been working to make ends meet but by the time he could do it they moved the ends.

So hes not coming.
And i now have plenty of time for work on my dnd campain. at least till sometime after the twentieth im sure. Depends on the players.

I had planned 14 days of nonstop best friend since apparently third grade parties which include feasting at papas hiking, airsofting at wills camping, visiting people schools, old homes, wrecking the fair celebrating various birthdays and general debauchery.

half a month ands hes no go an im like no oh!

So
Suckage
Frik
Daminization

When i draw a robot i think about things thar arent shown. the possible movements you cant see. For instance blue bots chest can rise to reveal rockets and unfurl a wing pack. the golen claws...

well i want them to be retractable projectile claws but i think i have to reference the knightmare frames of code geass first. that is an excellant anime by the way. seen both seasons four times. and i dont care what you say mr.venegas he is totally alive. old zero gave new zero geas so old zero cant die at the loss of his geass. so like a phoenix he dies bringing about world peace, and moves on in the path of imortality. maybe. thats what i remember anyway. i should watch ep 50 again.

anyway first look blue bots seemingly harmless, you look again notice sharp golden claws the only unusual feature in what appears as a simple droid.

(with my view of droids in any setting being useless service atomatons)

somehow you piss bluebot off or i ordered your death. the eyes turn red, the chest rises, dark blue wings unfold from the back huge and grand with golden claw tips, and it embraces enough humanity into its looks to appear as a monstruous blue bat. your scared, you run, you die. Your last thought? "oh that was so cool" cause cmon transforming robots are awesome

hours later
still no good scary face. but the limb and body extensions are very nice. total loss on the wing pack too.
a few more partdoodles. some coloring and ill submit.
im a little impressed with myself on this.

now go Watch Code geass!

I am here to tell you i just chugged four pepsis.
Thank you for allowing me to waste your time.

DEALWITHIT
EALWITHITD
ALWITHITDE
LWITHITDEA
WITHITDEAL
ITHITDEALW
THITDEALWI
HITDEALWIT
ITDEALWITH
TDEALWITHI

Naya Slayer

Total 62
Creatures 20
4 Druid of the Anima
4 Naya Battlemage
4 Wooly Thoctar
4 Drumhunter
4 Meglonoth

Other 20
4 Souls Fire
4 Naya Charm
4 Mage Slayer
4 Gift of the Gargantuan
4 Titanic Ultimatum

Lands 22
4 Jungle Shrine
6 Mountain
6 Forest
6 Plains

Ive had this deck designed for a long time but it is only recently that ive gotten all the cards for it. Thanks of course too a card shop openng right down the street so even my lazy self could take time out to get cards.

Im going to take this deck to friday night magic this week.
Alas it is my first tournament. This deck is of course one of two most powerful ive ever used.

Mana Cost Breakdown
1 0
2 4
3 24
4 4
5 0
6 4
7 4

Lands 22
Mana Accelerants 12
Total Mana 34
Total Non Mana 28

You can immediatly see that this is a fast deck with excellant mana production and an abundance of cheap cards. In an average length game i tend to end up with 10 mana which is just enough for the naya titanic combo.

My two best finehes with this deck involve titanic ultamtum, naya charm, and mage slayer

The first best finish i played naya charm, tapping all his creatures then titaniced giving my now unblockable creatures +5/+5 first stike trample and lifelink. i attacked with every creature the weakest being 7/7 and the strongest at 19/18.
in total i dealt a hundred and five damage in one mass attack. the decklist was very different then but its no less powerful now perhaps even more so

My other best finish and with this deck list has me down to druid and drumhunter with mageslayer angain ten mana. actually eleven but i cant use druhunter as hes the attacker this turn. the oppenent has good vampire blockers.no threat to me. tap three equip mage slayer to 2/2 drumhunter. tap seven play titanic. drumhunters now 7/7 and wouldnt you know it the opponent has 7 life
I tap to attack and mageslayer lets my drumhunter deal seven direct before hes even got a chance to block. hes dead im still attacking for 7. i could pull the same move with souls fire instead of mageslayer.

Its untested but im confidant about winning the FNM Tournament.
prizes are 15$ in store credit for 1st place 5 for second. the more people the bigger the prizes

Ayak Rovak!
its been too long without a new Journal from this crazy person. This is about submissions. i want to submit something. I dont know what though.
That Boffing Dagger?
Some random on the spot Poem?
A drawing which isnt unfocused and random?
A Journal about my mtg Naya Slayer Deck?
A sheet of pixel by pixel design boffers?
A drawing of Kaita Blade sacrifing souls to free his Dragon Form?
A story about the predalien in avp requim?

A story, art, pictures, poems


What Should I Submit?

Just saw a nice pic of sifu hotman and a dragon. if the dragon wasnt drawn as a monster i might have faved it. it was really nice. the only problem was the dragons eyes. they were monster eyes that is to say they were drawn like a pure white sun whose rays extend in every direction as single black line. eyes are the window to the soul and eyes drawn like that show no soul. Pupilless white eyes, souless neutral eyes, which speak out saying i exist and that is all. i am nomore than some monstruos beast and i am seeking your End.

Eyes can show you more, can show you everything. I once recognized a girl in front the of the bus when i was in the back just by seeing one of her eyes. the eye was clear, wide open, appeared as a perfect circle. looking right at me.I was startled both by recognition and the beauty of such a perfect gazing moment. I dont know who she was and still dont know her. it was just someone ive seen around town alot.

That was an eye moment. a memory of mine to convey to you what eyes can show. every emotion ever expirianced by humans is shown in there eyes. sadness anger honesty happyness. all these things can be shown in the eyes.

Color, lines, shapes, angles. all these thing make an eye.
pure white eyes, surround by black speak of souless monsters
blue eyes with no pupil, oval and filled with kindness, emanate goodness and are the eyes of angels
pure red eyesin certain shapes convey evil
turn the white monster eyes red and you have an evil moster
there are no good monsters
monsters are somethings neutral or evil
those with monstruous bodies but good eyes are someones

Well this was nice

Just a little bit ago i thought i heard something shoving against my garage door and various non firewok bangs somewhere.so i got my shoes and my 60" long 1 in rigid pipe beatstick weapon. yah i know it doesnt sound threatening being made of plasticand ducttape. but its huge and the next best thing to a metal pipe. its banned from use in boffing due to the fact it breaks all the other weapons.
yah. i feel confident i could knockl a man unconcious with it.
so anyway i went out turned on all the lights unlocked one door and kept it open where i could see it. checked all around the house looked about listened. no moredoor shoving and the banging was coming from in front of the house behind mine so i couldnt reach them.
didnt find anyone.

If i had found someone theyd be begging for mercy at the mere thought what i would do to people who sneak around my house.

never gotten the chance for that kind of self defence though.

Today was good
My rooms clean
created a punchdagger which i now consider to be the pinnacle of my art. i was doodling weapon designs and i drew this dagger thing. i was like dam thats a thing. definately a thing. i dropped everything and started making it. took 3 maybe four hours. anyway its awesome and will be here soon.
after that will, mouse and dj came over after getting there asses kicked at the yugioh tournies. i then proceded to kick them all over the place in naruto, yugioh, and magic. twas fun. mouse and will will be here tomarow for fighter practice.
ima tad worried about mouses endurance ability.

hmm acrobat thingy doesnt support very many...
well im kind enough to give up my spot.
not like id talk much anyway
it is nice to be included
though im sure xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx.
x means edited out

anyway i finnaly got my back bike
bike back
fixed the tire went for a spin bout leven30
got pulled over on my way back for not having a light
he went by me i looked back he was turning around so i sped up. he caught up easy though so i slowed and stopped.
ilooked him right in the eye answered his questions and didnt lie once. i tripped on my bike and skillfully kept myself from falling thanks to my balance practice.
so he asked me if i was drunk.
no one sees my movement skills.
I told him and proudly too, that i have never drank and never will.
he told me i seemed like a nice enough fellow and that it was okay to use the sidewalks at night.
we both went off and gave my usual salute.
this was my fourth time with a law officer

1. asked about my friend by state troopers
2. got help with a tow from a bimbo dwarf cop half my size
3. flashlighted and asked about the thingy under my cloak
4. pulled over for having no light on my bike

no tickets no problems and i only ever lied once

anyway i was over by 54th and daisy where i lived close to 10 years ago to check out the changes.

Done

I think everyone can find something thy like in the furdom.
Had my best friend splore my userpage and other arts.
He needs to see more and understand the whole picture of furryness, because he like others only has seen the more yiffy parts of furryness.

um thats partly my fault, sorry.

woah i just realized that even though hes my best friend forever and i know everything about him i dont know what kind of animal hed want to be or like

I remember asking about nekomimis in furry i geuss thts more along anime. i thought that might help him to be more furry, that he liked those nekos, but from that discussion i spose not.

The fandom is about art if nothing else, it isthe most artistic community that ever existed. because it is varied and creative everyone can find something they enjoy

giddy happy smiles are the best
when you smile in pure joy
i geuss thats why ima writer
because its easier to express myself with text rather than words

Artists create things wich express that wich words cannot
creativity is an expression of emotion

I finnaly got the hug! finnaly said goodbye with a hug rather than awkwardly standing there
you know the first time i left your house i stood there with my arms open for a few seconds? i wasa trying to get a hug

and personal space? thats one of those things which people respect but never ask about like itd be so much easier if close people knew right from the start

walking hand in hand arm in arm, sitting with a head against my shoulder, hugs goodbye
Touch

yah i like getting touched, cause it never happens
that hug is the closest physical contact ive had for ages
if it feels good it must be right

one day ima gonna get a full body massage and release years of back tension

now i am just the happiest man on earth
yah i feel closer
no longer jealous of my little sister for getting hugs
there was just a little clifff and it was now or never

so remember me cause ill never forget you
time distance plans people places these things are no obstacle (specially with internet)

Goodbye most awesome person