Doubling this one from my patreon: Power outages have started. After the rocket and drone attacks last night, my city started experiencing scheduled power on and off cycles. I promised I'd let you all know if its started, and well... Currently, the outages last between 4 and 8 hours a day, and if the shelling continues as aggressively, that time could increase. But I'll keep my fingers crossed it won't last long and power will come back fully asap,,
This time, thanks to  Sebi , I have a laptop, so even without power, I can still do some drawing! Ill try to push, as I promised, try to do art between trips to hospital and home chores,,

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/62397119

I made a traditional tiny raffle for my birthday, everyone free to join! ✨

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/62397119

Hihii, big reminder that I'm open to commissions of all sizes!! 🌟 pricelist 🌟
I also have a lot of open YCHs and unsold adopts! And for those who are unsure of their choice, there is a form for suggestions for future YCHs and adopts: https://forms.gle/zvu9YWaJaToDKdJe7

As always, I really need money for almost everything: food, medicine, utility bills. I'm trying my best to work on the remaining few art debts and think about new YCHs/adopts, but for a few days now I've been stuck in hospital hell - my mother was hospitalized again with her bad heart, so another week falls out of work - I either go to visit her with food and buy new medicine, or work around the house, trying to get the apartment as clean and tidy as possible, to ease her recovery after discharge.

Those who follow me on Patreon know that life never stops kicking me in the gut, this summer has been killing me with heat, and combined with the stress of the incessant bombings, my health is steadily taking a nosedive. My dizziness is getting worse, I've started having heart pains and shortness of breath, weakness and clouding of consciousness. This prevents me from doing absolutely everything, even today after returning from the hospital I felt so bad that I thought about calling an ambulance for myself (I'm not exaggerating, although I really wish this was a bad joke), which has resolutely set me up to go get my blood tested tomorrow morning as an initial step, and then to my doctors to try to understand why I feel so shitty... I know it's naive, BUT I would also really like to go to a psychologist regarding my depression, insomnia and attention problems, but I assume that would be even more expensive. (God, why does everything require money q-q)

I am open to any questions (I can just be slow in answering because of... everything). And if you want to support me, I will be grateful for any orders, if you tell your watchers about me, and even the smallest donations - will help me out a lot!

My paypal is alina.subbota[at]gmail.com and my Patreon https://www.patreon.com/c/GodOfDeadDog

Thank you for your attention! And i'll keep on keeping on.

Hello! I wanted to let you know that my account on BuyMeaCoffee was suddenly suspended, so now I can't accept payments/donations through this method. Long story short - I received a mail yesterday that out of nowhere my account was suspended due to "risk concerns", and after I wrote to support it turned out that, apparently, living in Ukraine is a risk concern :')

Screenshots are attached: https://imgur.com/a/N3DAYNH

This may not be the fresh news, but I personally did not receive any messages about the policy change, and UNTIL this week my account, although inactive, remained intact and apparently fully functional, with the ability to publish posts and accept payments... but not withdraw them, it turns out.

For me this is sad, since the only possible methods of receiving money left are PayPal and Patreon (well, and directly to my Ukrainian bank card, but here I am afraid the transfer fee may be insane)
and as always, everything happens when I'm sick, urgently need money for examinations and meds, but I'm absolutely unable to work, damn it

Heyo! I wanted to warn you that I am currently recovering from surgery (wisdom tooth removal) and I don't have the strength to draw yet.
Today is the second day after surgery and I still feel terrible, I am now on strong antibiotics and painkillers, and I barely eat because of the discomfort and stitches, and I sleep a lot to regain my strength. I hope that I can return to work as soon as possible, because I need to work off the money I paid for the surgery and medications.
In the meantime, thank you for your attention and don't lose me ❤

Hello everyone! A big reminder that I am open to commission of all sizes now, and will be very grateful for any orders (even icons and sketches would be a huge help!) and for spreading the word.

open YCHs | open adopts | pricelist

TLDR: my mother was hospitalized two weeks ago, and I paid 10,000 UAH (~$240) for medications (as well as a surgical pedicure, mother's transportation by taxi and food) and now I am deep in the red and now I want to earn the necessary amount to cover the credit cart debt, and if possible, start saving money to continue her (and what's the point, mine too) treatment.

Long story: My mother is disabled with heart failure, and a diabetic with diabetic foot and trophic ulcers on it. This has been a long-standing problem, and the last time, exactly a year ago, my mother had phlegmon on the same leg and she was hospitalized, the same hospital, the same department, the same doctor. (more about it in this journal: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10867562/) Since then, everything was relatively stable with her legs, but on May 3rd of this year, I decided to look at her leg after the bandage (she is changing her bandages daily herself), as I usually do once every week or two, and found that it was swollen and the big toe was red and... We got to the surgeon on Tuesday and that same day, mother was admitted to the purulent surgery department with suspected recurrent phlegmon. Antibiotic injections began, and then after all the x-rays, the pus was not confirmed, that is, the disease came from bad blood vessels under the skin, so then expensive vascular drugs in IVs began. After two weeks of IVs and bandages, my mother was discharged from the hospital, and she has been home since Monday. Her leg is still red at the moment, so we continue to carefully bandage her leg ourselves and observe. If the redness goes away soon - we will need to continue the examination and treatment: do an MRI of the leg vessels and consult a vascular surgeon regarding a possible surgery or... Honestly, I don't know, it all depends on what the doctor says.

In the last two weeks, between trips to the hospital, cleaning the apartment (cleaned all surfaces to reduce the chance of any new infections), fighting my own ailments, I tried to draw a little and contact all my clients to give them some kind of update (so if I haven't contacted you in the last month - CONTACT ME). And as an (un)funny bonus, I got a gumboil, which I couldn't deal with for several weeks because of caring for my mother, and I can't afford treatment in a private dental clinic, so tomorrow I'll try to get to a free dentist (although I suspect that the surgery and antibiotics will cost money anyway, which I don't have). So... I'm stressed and tired as hell, life isn't getting any easier, but I keep trying.

If this journal is partially a rambling vent, I apologize. It's all boiling inside me and it's pouring out in panic attacks, insomnia, and shaking hands. I've been putting off writing this journal for the last two weeks, but the money situation is so draining that I just don't have the strength left.

Snippets of life and info from my twitter: https://x.com/GodOfDeadDog/status/1.....98659522572351 https://x.com/GodOfDeadDog/status/1.....69027464864133 https://x.com/GodOfDeadDog/status/1.....39192866091311

If you want to tip or donate my paypal is: alina.subbota[at]gmail.com

Feel free to ask me any questions in the comments. Also preferably contact me via discord (degodog) or telegram (https://t.me/GodofDeadDog), as FA notes are very inconvenient (but I will still try to check them more often in the coming weeks) 🙇‍♂️

Hello everyone!!

The first month of 2025 is almost over and unfortunately the year has started as rough as the previous one. Since my last health update, it has, unfortunately, started to get much worse again. I continue expensive treatment with an endocrinologist, but the medications for my dizziness stopped working back in December and I need to continue examinations to find out why my condition is getting worse and why my body no longer responds to the meds, but unfortunately I have neither the motivation nor the money to continue visiting clinics for now. And because of my horrible health, it has become very difficult for me to sit at the PC and draw for a long time, so my work speed is very slow, but I am trying very hard to overcome my weakness.

And unfortunately I have to ask you for help again, since I am deeply in the red and it is time for me to urgently buy medicine for my mother and myself, as well as at least some vegetables and fruits (for the last two months we have been eating only empty pasta and cereals). Therefore, a huge reminder that I am open to commissions of all sizes!! I also have open YCHs and unsold adopts. The only thing to keep in mind is that the wait may take 2-4 months, but I will try my best to stay in touch and finish orders as soon as possible,,

You can also help me by sharing this journal/my works, or sending a dollar or two to my paypal: alina.subbota[at]gmail.com ($5 is a whole day of groceries for us!)

(if you want I can save the receipts and take pictures of all the food and meds that I'll buy with your donation - feel free to ask me in notes)

Thank you all very much for your attention and time! ♥

one more journal to clutter your notif inbox hehe :3c

Anyways, Happy New Year! The past year was incredibly difficult, but we survived it, and let's hope that the coming year will be more bearable and at least a little happier for all of us.
Love you all, thank you for being with me!,, 🤲♥️♥️

Hi all!! First of all, thank you all so much for 400 watchers! This is my personal record for all of my social media, not to mention how active and supportive you all are! I honestly admit that I could not survive this year without your help, be it kind words, fav's or donations. The growth of my audience here is very slow, but it does not stop, let's hope it will continue growing like this next year!~

And happy holidays to you all! I hope you have a good and fun time these days with the people you love! Unfortunately, I managed to catch a cold again, so I’m even now writing this journal from my phone from bed. I tried very hard to draw a lot so that I could send everyone updates on orders and get myself out of the red by the end of the year, but it seems that I overdid it, caught a cold and ultimately didn’t make it in time. And I also didn’t have time to earn money for meds and gifts, so I’ll be treating my cold by resting in bed and I won't be buying any gifts this year. A little sad, but it just means I'll have to try harder next year!

In terms of health, other than a cold, I can add that I continue my arc of examinations and collecting diagnoses. In this December, new bonuses were discovered, like zero vitamin D and crazy hormonal imbalances that shorten my life by three times, so I started expensive treatment in this direction, and continue to examine my head (my dizziness has not gone away and I’m frankly starting to lose hope). And as the final bonus of the year, my glasses decided to kill themselves and I urgently had to order new ones (-$50, which I didn’t even have at that time). Funny (not really) fact. On the day when I went to the clinic to pick up new glasses, a rocket flew not far from me, to the place where I had an MRI just a month ago. To put it mildly, I was scared, and I was pretty stunned + a strong headache, but I’m okay.
Something like that. Hungry, a little sad, partially in pain, but I’m alive and have practically made it through this year. If I manage to recover before the New Year, maybe I’ll get together with another greeting journal and a lil sketch.
Thank you for being with me, I really appreciate it. 🫂♥️

If you want to support me or throw me a tip, my paypal is alina.subbota[at]gmail.com 🙇‍♂️

Hi everyone!! First of all - thank you all for the huge support!! To everyone who ordered something, donated or spread my cry for help. The monetary goal with the MRI has been reached and at least these expenses were fully covered. But unfortunately I am still far from finishing my examinations (I collect diagnoses like Pokemon cards, I aim for a whole deck it seems haha), and I again need money for even more tests and medications, but for now I will focus on drawing what has already been commissioned and will advertise myself less.
MRI results: https://imgur.com/a/CaBlJH7 (my diagnosis exclusively from the MRI - empty sella syndrome)

Next I will share an update from my Patreon (27.11): "In previous posts, I already said that since October I've been experiencing problems with my head (dizziness, weakness, nausea, drowsiness, confusion), and since the end of October-beginning of November I started examinations. Neurologist, ophthalmologist, endocrinologist, MRI of the brain, blood tests (general and hormones), ultrasound (thyroid) and X-ray (neck). I did the latter one today, and tomorrow I'll pick up the results. I still don't have one specific diagnosis, but there are many bad results both in terms of vessels/veins and in terms of hormones, BUT my examinations are still ongoing!.. I need to see another doctor, go back to the endocrinologist again, and only after these two, go back to the neurologist for a correction of my treatment. Speaking of treatment - the last time the neurologist prescribed me more serious vascular and anti-dizziness drugs (I injected myself with a 10-days course of medication intramuscularly that is given to people with heart attacks....) and I feel MUCH BETTER. At least my consciousness is clearer, the image in front of my eyes does not float to the side, and I do not fall while moving around the apartment! This is some kind of improvement, and I will keep you informed about my progress!
Next, I wanted to tell you that, unfortunately, rocket attacks have become more frequent, and since their target is energy facilities, daily power outages have returned to my city. The shelling has slowly increased in frequency, and now it has reached the point where every night I hear the roar of enemy drones, machine gun fire and explosions very close to my house. My Internet has already disappeared more than once and the lights have flickered. Even now, I am typing this text while one after another messages about alarms and explosions appear (11 o'clock at night, I'm tired..). I still don't have a power station or a tablet/laptop, I can only draw on my PC, so I'm completely dependent on electricity and home internet. I try to work when there's light and when I'm not running around with examinations, so hopefully I'll be able to catch up on the deadlines as soon as possible and finish drawing what's due AND FINALLY START DRAWING MY PERSONAL THINGS (who would have thought that feeling better = the return of inspiration, amazing)."

So, yeah... I did visit the right doctor yesterday and was again sent for a bunch of hormonal blood tests and ultrasound (again for +-$50, and I don't even know how much the new medications will cost) and I had a serious mental breakdown, the money spending seems to never stop, and with the power outages I don't have time to draw much and finish orders... But I'm trying!,,

eeh eeeeh I don't know what else to add at the moment, so thanks for your attention, I'll keep yall updated!! 🐾

current progress: $100/100!!

Continuation of the last journal! On Tuesday I was finally able to visit a neurologist about my poor condition. First of all, the doctor prescribed me general medications for dizziness and sleep improvement (melatonin!!), and then sent me to undergo an examination by an ophthalmologist (fundus + visual field) and an endocrinologist (thyroid, tests), as well as an MRI of the brain... Without the latter, the doctor simply cannot make a diagnosis (and I would like to, it is so expensive and, as luck would have it, one of my worst claustrophobic fears). I am attaching a photo of the examination and referral for an MRI (feel free to use Google Translate or ask me to translate something)! https://imgur.com/a/aEauY61
I visited the ophthalmologist yesterday, on Wednesday! As expected, I still have angiopathy (as well as astigmatism, I will wear glasses for life), and fortunately this examination was completely free. But I still need money for the MRI (2200 UAH ~$55), and I also don’t know the required amount to pay for the thyroid tests. So at the moment I’m urgently looking for at least $100 as a starting amount for the examinations and to cover the first purchased medications.
I signed up for the MRI on Sunday, November 3rd, and even if I don’t collect the required amount by that time I’ll still undergo the examination, since the problem exists and it’s real, it’s just not getting any easier for me and I need to find out why; but I’ll pay from my debt card, getting even deeper into the red.
So a very relevant reminder that I’M OPEN TO ALL TYPES OF COMMISSIONS!! Preferably with full or at least half prepayment, and a deadline before the end of December-January (especially if the doctor gives me the correct diagnosis and selects the correct treatment).
I also created a google form for suggestions if you have ideas for new YCHs, adopts, etc. that you would like to see from me! https://forms.gle/4wyTFrkinJGe95MSA
I feel awkward leaving my PayPal or donation links here, but you can find them in previous journals.
Thank you very much for your attention!

Life update! I want to show up and remind people about myself and that I'm still alive! (fortunately or unfortunately)

First of all to my customers: I remind you that I have a public TO-DO https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10779972/ which I try to update regularly. If you are not on the list, or you want to see some kind of update on the process - please write to me. And in general, I am always ready to answer any questions!~

Next, how are I doing and a little bit of everything. My mother was discharged from the hospital at the end of September, at the same time my dog's course of antibiotics ended, and since then they both feel good! It's still a shame that I had to celebrate my birthday alone literally the day before my mother was discharged, but oh well. Then, belatedly, I caught up with the results of the raffle and tried to draw as many prizes as I could, I hope I was able to please you a little with this!!.. And then I started getting very sick myself.

I already wrote about this on Patreon, and I didn't want to bring it out into the public space until I found out the diagnosis, but I just don't feel better. Not covid, not flu, something neuralgic, with my head/vessels in the head. For three weeks now I have been suffering from very severe dizziness, weakness, lethargy and apathy. Along with this, I often feel very sleepy and my concentration has completely disappeared. Also, the change in weather (sharp cold + no central heating) added headaches to this and I have already felt so bad several times that I lost consciousness (I managed to get to the bed/sofa before that, so there were no injuries). I also tried to draw through force, but the progress is VERY slow, to the point that this month I could not earn a dollar. For the last week I have been sitting with 0 on my bank account and I can't even buy eggs (and I was planning to buy a pumpkin for halloween ughhh), but I feel too ashamed to ask for donations or ask to pay for unpaid/unstarted orders in advance. Rather, I just complain about the situation here, because I think I haven't tried hard enough this month. If despite this you still want to support me/help me somehow - please look at my open YCHs, open adopts, open comms. And just in case, my paypal: alina.subbota[at]gmail.com Today I finally managed to make an appointment with a neurologist in a week, and although I very much doubt that I will get a diagnosis or prescriptions on the first appointment (most likely they will send me for examinations, ultrasound and tests), but at least this is a start and if there is any significant progress in my condition - I will add to this journal.

And the final thing I would like to say is to remind you that, unfortunately, the bombings continue every day. Not in the region, not somewhere there on the front line. In the city center, in residential buildings, in parks and even in a kindergarten (19.10, fortunately the children are on distance learning, at home, but there were still teachers in the building, they were pulled out from under the rubble). With the sudden onset of cold weather, the chance of power plants being shelled has increased, and if today I had electricity 24 hours - then tomorrow there may not be. At least I'm glad that the windows are still in place, but if this changes - I will write about it too, ugh.

Thank you for your attention, thank you for being with me! (as always open to all questions, feel free to ask if anything!!)

🍂 First of all: I launched a short raffle for sketches for my birthday! Don't forget to participate, it ends around September 26-28 https://www.furaffinity.net/view/58129786/

🍂 Next.. Last week I called an ambulance for my mother again and she was hospitalized. At first there was a suspicion of pneumonia, but it was not confirmed, so the current diagnosis is a hypertensive crisis and... a lot of examinations. At the moment, she is given ultrasounds, x-rays, blood tests, IVs every day, they select/try out new medications and dosages (because her heart hurts very often and her blood pressure constantly jumps even with all the drugs). I thought that she would be discharged from the hospital very quickly, but the examinations are ongoing and the next one is scheduled for Friday, which means that this week my mother is still hospitalized. (guess who is very upset that they will celebrate their birthday alone(me).. but I think I will still visit my mother that day, at least not for long!) Overall she is stable and feeling fine, but we are both very afraid of a repeat of the attack/crisis (which came out of nowhere!), so I really hope for the doctors and try to be patient, visiting her every day even on weekends. https://x.com/GodOfDeadDog/status/1.....27707418423556 https://x.com/GodOfDeadDog/status/1.....78104403399043

🍂 .....Also my old dog was sick, stopped eating. Yes, they both got sick almost at the same time, and what is sad, but true - my dog, like my mother, was diagnosed with heart failure. I- Well, for this reason the vet prescribed my dog ​​human pills and heart syrup for animals. And after the blood test results she was diagnosed with pancreatitis, so we went for a full course of antibiotics and now my old lady is eating again! What is interesting is that the vet clinic is very close to the hospital where my mother is now hospitalized, so after the injections, my dog ​​and I went to visit my mother!.. Very tiring days, I still can't rest, but I hope it was worth it! https://x.com/GodOfDeadDog/status/1.....01457830478329 https://x.com/GodOfDeadDog/status/1.....81453573439639 https://x.com/GodOfDeadDog/status/1.....62101455896740

🍂 And as the cherry on the cake - more rocket attacks. In the city center, in residential buildings, in the cafe where I drank my first boba tea in my life, in the bank where my mother and I recently closed her credit card. Three days in a row deafening explosions, in the evening and in the middle of the night, some of them so close to my mother's hospital that the walls shook. My soul is not at all calm, and my mother is so terrified that she asked the doctors for a prescription for tranquilizers (the prescription was received, but I don't have the money to buy them now, I hope at the beginning of next month when I withdraw money from Patreon). This is more to report that both my mother and I are still alive, and the windows in our apartment are intact, despite all the explosions, and I will really hope that this does not change. https://t.me/info_zp/80598 https://t.me/info_zp/80619 https://t.me/info_zp/80862 https://t.me/info_zp/80950

I haven't seen any journals from my fellow ukrainians that I watch, so I decided to write about this first. Maybe they're all just tired of writing about it, or maybe they still don't have electricity (it's 9pm here now, I just got my first power today. It'll be turned off again at midnight)
Today I woke up to the roar of a rocket flying over our house. After today's shelling, my country's energy has suffered again, and my city is also switching to a serious power-off/on schedule. Tomorrow I'll have three hours of power after lunch, and three hours before midnight... I'm not sure how much I'll be able to draw given this, not to mention the continued heat (+35C). I'm going to have to go through the fridge to finish the perishables and dairy as soon as possible because they won't survive the night hah...

...... You know, I was originally planning on writing a journal here today about how exactly a month from now, on September 26th, is my birthday (turning 25!) and that I'd like to get more orders so I can afford to buy myself a pizza and cake for the occasion, but, well... 😢

For my waiting customers: I really hope you understand! I'm still working, but my speed will slow down again noticeably, since I don't have a generator or power station and am completely dependent on the power supply schedules.

I'm open to questions and would be happy to chat in the comments, if anything, feel free.

If you want to support me or throw me a tip, my paypal is alina.subbota[at]gmail.com 🙇‍♂️

I've been watching the FA and Twitter thing with some anxiety, and I'm so glad it all ended well and quickly! I've grown to love this site, and it's been a great supporter for me for the last two years, both financially and morally, not to mention that it's the only place I can find new clients and active followers (love you all!!) I've continued to draw even when I had no access to FA, and luckily I had at least one alternative way to reach my clients, but for the future, MY OTHER PLATFORMS AND COMMUNICATION METHODS:
DeviantArt - https://www.deviantart.com/degodog
Twitter (X) - https://x.com/DeGoDog
BlueSky - https://bsky.app/profile/degodog.bsky.social
Patreon - https://www.patreon.com/GodOfDeadDog
BuyMeaCoffee - https://buymeacoffee.com/degodog
Aaand if you are my commissioner (or planning to become one in the future), or just feeling like chatting with me a little - you are free to add me in discord (degodog) or telegram (https://t.me/GodofDeadDog)!

BTW BIG REMINDER THAT IM STILL LOOKING FOR COMMISSIONS!! CHECK OUT THIS JOURNAL PLEASE: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10929497/ 🙇‍♂️

A big reminder that my commissions are open! All types of works. I've also published a couple of new YCHs and a new adopts (snek1 and snek2) in the last few days! I'd be very grateful if you'd look at them, or order something from me, or share my situation with your watchers... You can also suggest me ideas for new YCHs and adopts that you'd like to see from me in the near future!
You can reach out to me in comments, notes, or contact me through discord (degodog) or telegram (https://t.me/GodofDeadDog)!

I'm throwing another cry for help, because I need to earn at least $50 in the next few days for an expensive heart medicine for my mother (let's hope that I will be able to say goodbye to this expensive drug already in November, since the course of treatment is exactly one year..), not to mention that I've run out of money for food and can't throw a drop into paying utility bills... The whole of July was spent in power outages, attempts to catch up with ArtFight and trips to the hospital to see my mother (yes, again, I didn't write about this outside of Twitter and Patreon), and as a result I got sick myself, so I couldn't create new YCHs for sale, or publish finished drawings, my card went into the red. The month has somehow been survived, finished off, my mother is home again and discharged from the hospital, and I'm trying to somehow return to drawing while there is electricity 24 hours a day.

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Right now I'm relatively [healthy]. Anxious, tired, suffering from insomnia, dizziness and headaches, my depression is tearing me apart, but I'm still holding on and trying. It's hard for me to manage social media, keep up with publishing works, and respond to messages, but I'm trying. I was afraid that after ArtFight I would burn out, but I got away with it, I'm still making plans for drawings, finding new ideas, wanting to work on my characters. It's just that often, most days, I feel too restless to work, I continue to worry about money, I blame myself for being lazy, I try to draw and my hands are shaking. To the point of comedy, nearby explosions or gunfire don't make me flinch, but troubles with my head - they regularly bring me to hysterics. The vicious circle of lack of money does not allow me to go to doctors, so I can only try to work and get my little serotonins from the work done on the finished drawings, and in the best months put aside a little money. One day I will reach this level, right?..

Hi Hi! I think it's time for a new life update, at least there are some things that I would like to share.

For starters... Power outages. Over the past weeks, the electricity situation in my country has been getting worse and worse. Alternate shutdowns and turns on of the electricity supply in houses began, according to schedules drawn up by the energy company serving our city. At first it was four hours of darkness a day (without electricity) for our house. Then eight. Then twelve. Ultimately, this past week I have barely had 4-6 hours of ELECTRICITY PER DAY. (at the same time, I fought with swords with Patreon and Payoneer for my money and, to put it simply, I was going crazy, but that’s another story..) What’s also terrible is that when there is no electricity, not only our home Internet is lost, but also mobile communications throughout the entire neighborhood. To get in touch, I had to run to a store running on generators, like in the good old school days, to catch the free Wi-Fi there... And all this in a heat of 35-37C. And with curfews, and with only half of the working street lights. Phew.. I started setting alarms so as not to miss the morning electricity supply and have time to sit at least a little at the PC and to draw in Krita. If I'm late with posts or answers or draw much slower than usual - sorry, I'm just isolated and, literally, without light.

Next... I remind you that I draw a little for artfight! While there was light, I drew digitally; when there was no light, I am trying to remember how to draw with pencils. Drawing is the little thing I can do to captivate and cheer myself up even without a connection, it’s amazing how even in times like these I still don’t give up on it, haha.. https://artfight.net/~DeGoDog

And finally... Now there is a summer sale on Steam! As always, I can't spend my money on anything other than buying medicine and food, but maybe someone wants a sketch for the game? Please Note me if interested! For a game priced at $5 or less - a sketch, for a game up to $10 inclusive - an icon! Don’t forget that I can now respond for a very long time and draw even longer due to electricity... valid until July 11! https://store.steampowered.com/wish.....og/#sort=price

Hihi! Big reminder that I have comms and YCHs open (I posted two new summer themed ones today! volleyball snacks).
The end of the month is approaching very quickly and I again urgently need to buy expensive medicine for my mother, but I don’t have enough money, so I will be very happy with any orders, including sketches and icons!

And the artfight is also inexorably approaching... This year I most likely will not be able to participate normally, since financial problems are strangling me, I don’t have enough money for food. All the time I feeling myself tolerable, I will spend on drawing orders and taking on new ones. And only in the breaks between them will I try to revenge attacks (if someone does attack me haha)
https://artfight.net/~DeGoDog

Hihi! I don't feel happy writing about this publicly, but I need to share the reason why I'm bad at responding to messages and slow at drawing.
My mother has been sick for almost two weeks (since May 6-7), and I took care of her and monitored her closely, constantly struggling with her temperature and blood pressure, cooking and cleaning the apartment, I didn’t even have time to turn on the computer. At first it looked like a cold/flu, but on Monday my mother’s diabetic foot began to become inflamed and... on Tuesday I was able to take her to the doctor, and they agreed to admit her to the hospital in the purulent surgery department, on Wednesday they checked her into the hospital and examined wound, having done an X-ray and tests confirmed phlegmon (aka purulent inflammation). Yesterday, Thursday, she had surgery on her leg to remove pus and clean out the wound under full anesthesia... So far everything is on the right path to recovery and my mother is under regular supervision, but needless to say that I spent all these days from morning to evening with her is in the hospital... Even today I visited her and brought her some food, because non-military patients are not allowed cutlets, meat or salads, only empty cereals and soups.
A little from my personal Twitter: https://twitter.com/GodOfDeadDog/st.....16603406782656 https://twitter.com/GodOfDeadDog/st.....87119160131669 https://twitter.com/GodOfDeadDog/st.....63869716742201 https://twitter.com/GodOfDeadDog/st.....67504354070551 https://twitter.com/GodOfDeadDog/st.....18459230646582
However, between visits I will try to make up for lost time and draw, I just ask for a little patience,, (today I was able to finish a couple of debts!)
If you want to support me and help me with a penny, I have an active Patreon (https://www.patreon.com/GodOfDeadDog), BuyMeaCoffee (https://buymeacoffee.com/degodog) and Paypal (alina.subbota@gmail.com)! I also have open YCHs, adopts and comms, but the turn for your order may take a month or two or three-- ,_,
If you want to support morally, then... can you write a couple of nice words of support, maybe not even for me, but for my mother? I will translate everything to her and read it to her. After a heart attack and intensive care in October, Covid in November, incessant financial debts, and now back in the hospital and again undergoing surgery - she is very upset and very worried. I try my best to support her, but I can barely force myself to eat once a day, life and mental state is rough 💧

Heyo everyone! I try not to overuse the word urgently and very necessary, but I don’t meet the deadlines and don’t have time to find more than half of the amount (2 thousand hryvnia/ ~$50) for the most expensive medicine for my mother (Brilinta 90 https://tabletki.ua/uk/Брилинта/25637/), and it runs out on the morning of the 25th.

Is there anyone interested in a fullbody drawing or a pair of pixel fullbodies? With the only request from me in the form of full payment upfront via PayPal... Valid from today until April 25! Please note me or contact me through discord (degodog) or telegram (https://t.me/GodofDeadDog) if interested!

example of fullbody ($40): https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55126442/ https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56037499/
example of pixel fullbody ($20 for feral, $30 for anthro): https://www.furaffinity.net/view/54717671/ https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55774400/

//If you want to help, but don’t want to commission - my PayPal is alina.subbota[at]gmail.com and even $5 will be a huge help 🙇‍♂️

UPD: NEEDED SUMM WAS RAISED IN TIME, THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH!! qoq

Ello! Just peeking in to say that i survived. I slept poorly (I woke up at ~4:40AM due to the first explosions), mentally exhausted, expecting planned power outages. In my city, missiles hit the private sector with residential buildings not far from mine and the DniproHES dam (there is already news that part of it is beyond repair).
A couple of posts with photos from Twitter: https://twitter.com/FreelFreel/stat.....63026856165778 https://twitter.com/maksymeristavi/.....83839609205041
Some photos/videos from local chats: https://t.me/info_zp/63028 https://t.me/info_zp/63077 https://t.me/zaborzp/65793

Today marks two years of the full-fledged invasion, the beginning of the war. I remember how absurd the news about the beginning of the war seemed to me, how sure I was that it was all just panic and empty gossip. But then I wasn’t called to work. And then the sirens started blaring. I heard the airport being bombed. I made panic purchases of cereals and cat food, crowded with people in the store, saw half-empty shelves of pasta and bottles of water. Lines of people outside shelters, announcements about stores and businesses being closed indefinitely. There was also an order for blackout - cover all windows with heavy cloth and do not turn on the overhead lights after dark. Huge queues at banks to withdraw cash, as well as frightening malfunctions of ATMs and terminals... For several months we lived without street lighting and walked the dog with a flashlight in hand. Did you know that we STILL have a nightly curfew?

(various photos from my phone’s memory from February 2022) https://imgur.com/a/j5SU3xC

The war is still going on. Prices are rising, wages and pensions are not. Missiles and drones continue to fly, explode, kill people and destroy houses. I've been unemployed for over a year now, I live only by drawing, Patreon, and the support of kind people here.
Please don't forget about us.

If you have a minute, look at people who need help now, and support them with at least a kind word: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10802026
If you want to support me, I have open commissions, there are unsold YCHs and adopts, and you can also help me through my Patreon (https://www.patreon.com/GodOfDeadDog) and BuyMeaCoffee (https://www.buymeacoffee.com/degodog).

Thank you. ♥

Hello! I made couple of new feral YCHs today, feel free to check them out or share, i will be really grateful for it!
🐟 https://www.furaffinity.net/view/54972229/
🌱 https://www.furaffinity.net/view/54973093/
(Also looking for more suggestions for new YCHs - do any ideas for specific poses, scenes or drawing themes come to mind when you look at my gallery? I will be glad if you share them with me!)

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The slightest reminder that I still live in a city, in a country that is being bombarded with missiles, and drones, and- Oh... Today was a terrible morning in my city - dead, wounded. Broken windows and destroyed houses and vehicles. I'm whole, disappointed, confused, and lost what little holiday spirit I had. And here to share that I survived this morning, but some others did not. https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10768672/

Heyo and happy holidays! I wanted to start this journal by calculating how much money I have left to pay for my mother’s operation, but the reality is that I am still VERY far from the required amount, and in addition to this operation, I also buy her mandatory medications for ~7 thousand hryvnia (~$186) every month, and even for the second month in a row I can’t pay even a penny for apartment utility bills; by the end of the month I’m simply below low.
But the good news is that I have already drawn all the purchased YCHs slots, trying and working/drawing a lot! (there is only one comm and an order from Patreon left in my to-do)

So now I’m ready to take more orders, draw more YCHs, everything in my price list and even more! Please, if you are interested, write to me in Notes or discord (degodog) or telegram (GodofDeadDog)

If it's really urgent, I'll try to finish the drawing before the new year!.. I'm done with my mom's doctor appointments for this month anyway, so I definitely have more time with my graphics tablet in the next two weeks haha
open YCHs | open adopts | pricelist
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At the moment, I myself am below low, seeing how empty my list of drawing debts is, very bad thoughts begin to roll over me, and I once again realize that I have entered into a cycle of work-sleep-work-sleep, which allows me to forget about depression and poverty, and as soon as I miss a day due to poor health, I begin to panic, as if the house of cards from my weekdays begins to tremble and crumble on me. I am writing this journal at a time of very bad thoughts, because I hate this silence, I want to give a voice, to remind that I am still here and I am still trying. My plans for the coming days are to brainstorm plots for new YCHs, to draw sketch-references for my old characters that I want to sell, and also, I hope, someone will be interested and order at least a sketch or two from me, and I will immediately start drawing and I'll perk up a little.