Just wanted to say thank you to anyone who actually interacted here.

I'm going to be packing up and closing down this gallery for good, since the social interactions were so sparse while the art theft and unaccredited repostings have been rampant.

Each time some sort of internet bullshittery happens, this hobby seems more like a useless money sink instead of a means of meeting similarly minded degenerates.

And, selfish as it sounds, I don't feel like I've gotten much from posting my commissions on here; Most folks seemed to come here for a quick fap or to swipe the art to put up elsewhere; hardly anyone sticks around for the lonely fool who puts up the art and hopes to make new friends... though I guess I sort of brought that upon myself for basically just creating a porn gallery, eh?

Anyways, I wanted to thank the few folks who have been trying to interact; it really meant a lot to me when I saw any sort of comment on the art, as I felt that the commenter was taking some time to let me know that they gave some sort of shit about my ideas. Thank you also to anyone who bothered to click the 'favorite' button; I viewed that as another version of someone trying to signal appreciation. You guys were great :)

Hey folks.

Happy new years.

It's been a while of no-posting for me, so I figured I should let people know that I am still alive. Things have been rough; Ironically, not long after I came back to FA, real life turned around and hit me straight in the face; My parents were letting their lives fall apart and shit hit the fan in early july (right around the 4th). I've spent these last few months trying to fix their terrible mess; getting them into nursing homes and then cleaning up their lives both financially and literally. Lots of trips to their house (across country), lots of cleaning, dealing with police, hospitals, and APS (adult protective services) as well as trying to deal with debt collectors and the state and feds. LOTS of rough times. Things haven't calmed down much lately either (just found out yesterday that my father has contracted covid in the nursing home I was able to get him into) but otherwise things have been slowing down; Enough so that I think I can post a few bits of art that I have been continuing to get during these past few months.

A couple of folks reached out to me regarding collabs during this time- I tried to explain to them what was going on and I think they understood; I wanted to let folks know that while I am still up for collabs, things are a bit wild for me otherwise so it's kind of tough to go artist hunting or even brainstorm ideas for me these days. If anybody is still interested in splitting a comm or two, please feel free to reach out and let me know and we will see what we can do! Just don't expect lightning responses or crazy huge ideas out of me while I try to get my life going again after these past few months, lol.

Oh and of course, the door is still always open for chats- some other folks have reached out to me over the past few months, and I'm afraid I've lost contact with a few of them due to work and my parental crap (mostly the latter though) - so feel free to reach out! Though don't expect much of a convo if you just reach out with a 'hi'. I'm terrible for coming up with topics to talk about!

Anyways, gonna try to get some of the stuff that i've gotten, posted up here in the coming days. I Hope everyone has been well! :)

I guess I will preface this with an interesting event that happened recently. It has to do with the succubus 3 parter that I posted a few days ago.

It was rapidly grabbed and reposted in multiple places elsewhere on the net. I didn't get any credit for my part in the creation. I also didn't get much feedback on them here.

Now, having this happen is of course the standard when posting stuff on the net. People are going to do whatever they want to do with anything they find. But I am finding myself getting tired of repeating the same phrase over and over: "This is just the way the net is."

The only thing that really keeps me posting is when someone actually says something like "i like this!" or "great work!" or "thanks for posting!". Without that sort of feedback, it really feels like no one gives a damn about the stuff that I put up, except so they can go repost it on reddit or hentai sites or wherever... where it might eventually have stuff done to it that i don't like (i.e character 'theft' or worse, some asshole trying to resell them as part of a package to people online).

I might just be depressed (again)... But in all seriousness, I kinda came back to FA to look for interactions with folks, meet new people, chat about similar likes, and etc, and really nothing has panned out (though my thanks go out to the 5 or so people who have been willing to keep in touch on discord since I came back).

At this rate, I'll end up stopping posting of stuff again.

I dunno. I guess I'm writing this journal because I was about to post another piece of art from my collection, but then stopped and kinda shrugged to myself and said 'why bother? no one's gonna give a shit'. However, I thought maybe I could get some discourse with people about this topic; Is posting commissioned art even worth doing? It's not really generating discussion, it's not getting much feedback, and very unfortunately, it's not even helping the artists who I commissioned the pieces from. All it seems to do is give the re-posters more fodder.

Thoughts, anyone?

Big chunk of text coming up, but the TL;DR - I will be posting the many, many images that i’ve been getting over these past 5-6 years. Expect a lot of transformation, pregnancy, and corruption… and ironically, less furry art. Also, I’m super lonely and looking for friends.

And now, the wall of text:

So, why did I leave originally? I had a spat with a couple of people who I will leave nameless (though they are now the first two people to ever be blocked from my page). Other than those two people, I was running into a lot of other issues on the side. People kept swiping the art I commissioned and putting it up elsewhere, either claiming my character(s) as their own, or reworking the art to turn my character into their character. F-list was/is a great place to find many examples of this. Someone even gave me a big speech about how stealing my character was ‘morally and legally in the right’. I also was dealing with a few trolls on the site- some were known to me, others were not; For example someone out there really loved to report anything and everything in my gallery to try to get my stuff removed.

There was also the issue of other people on here. I got tired of reaching out to folks. I will be honest, there’s actually a lot of decent people here on this platform, but I found very few folks interested in legitimately starting up a friendship… and that is what I was (and still am) truly looking for.

Anyways, the drama at the end had to do with someone who i considered a friend, backstabbing me in favor of becoming closer friends with an artist that i was getting into a huge argument with. After that was behind me, I had enough of the negative stuff that was going on, and decided to just stop posting things.

Still, I’ve made some of my best friends through this website. I’ve also lost contact with many folks who I would love to get back in touch with, and also made some mistakes and distanced myself from a few other folks who really didn’t deserve it (and to whom I’m going to try to reconnect with and apologize to).

So, what have I been up to in these past 6 years? Well, I’ve been getting a lot of art! Some of it has made the rounds on the web, but a lot of it has also stayed in my private stash. I’ll be posting… pretty much as much as possible as I can on here.

As far as real life… when I left here originally, I was a community college student working in between classes to put food on the table and smut on my FA page.

Since then, I’ve graduated from that community college, went on to a university, got a degree, and then moved to a different state and got a decent job. I’ve also never really stopped getting commissions, though I stopped posting them on furaffinity. Some folks may have seen them pop up here and there (I’ve gone by the aliases of GWBS and am also on twitter as @GW_Blacksock, though i haven’t posted anything there… yet. Still debating on whether to post there or not).

Now for the big news- I haven’t gotten that much furry art. I still am attached to my main furry character, but I always preferred TF and corruption based art that leaned towards humans (I enjoy having humans and the like to be corrupted/transformed more than anything else). So i’d say about 80-90% of the stuff I have gotten has revolved around that.

I still have my characters from here; and in fact have added several more. I’ll post them all on here as I get back into the hang of things. You’ll see them in a lot of smutty commissions, lol.

Now, the last topic for this journal.

Why did I come back? Well, this last year has had me basically cooped up inside for the entire year, sliding into depression and doing a lot of self analysis. I realized how lonely I was, and how much I missed talking to new people, and how much I have treasured the cool people who I have become friends with from here. So, I decided to come back.

And I will say this here: If you like the stuff I get, please feel free to reach out to me. I am hoping to meet people here with similar interests, who might also be willing to make a new friend.

...Though I am hoping to meet people who are interested in chatting more often than just saying hi, or introducing themselves and then never talking to me again.

And finally, I’ll shill my loneliness one last time. I’m also holding onto a small hope that maybe I can meet someone on here for a legit relationship. So if you are a single lady, or a trans-lady (trans people are awesome), I’d love to meet you too. It would be nice to share/talk about crazy kinks with someone who can share it with me and also maybe have a relationship with, lol.

Anyways, that's it for now. I'll take a look through my gallery and maybe post something tonight. I look forward to hopefully meeting with new people and catching up with old acquaintances and friends.

(EDIT: I just found out that my discord was configured to block some incoming friend requests. What an annoying feature! If you got a message that says 'this user is not accepting incoming friend requests' please try again! I turned that annoying thing off!)

EDIT THE 2ND: Thank you so much everyone, for the kind words! It's really heartening to see how many folks on here are decent and still friendly! :)

Merry Christmas and Happy new years and all of that stuffs!

Tis the season to get sick as balls though, so I'm at home nursing a headache and coughing/sneezing.

Anyways, I hope your holidays are better than mine! lol

...and boy do birthdays make me feel unaccomplished. Though i feel more accomplished than I did a few years ago!

After stepping back for a while and doing some self analysis, I think I have found the reason for why I get so many commissions. As it is probably easy to guess (since I am so active online) I have pretty much nil in terms of RL friends, and a life, heh. I'm just working and going to college at the moment, and all of my fun and excitement revolves around online stuff.

So when online badness happens (and especially when it involves friends dissapearing) I get a little upset. I realize that this is the way the internet runs (and hell, it could be a lot worse really), but I'm a rather sensitive person when it comes to folks who I view as close.

Long story short- I get depressed. Easily. And I think I get all of these commissions because it makes me feel in control and gives me a sense of power that I do not have in real life.

I'm not as horny as everyone tends to think I am. Nor am I seeking popularity or trying to 'buy fame' as someone put it to me. I'm just depressed and want to feel in control of something. Also getting gifts for others, or seeing people react positively to stuff that I pay for makes me feel good and helps validate my behavior.

I don't mind spending the money. Money comes and money goes, but real friends are priceless.

Anyways, I'll get to posting some more stuff. I'm still fighting depression though, thanks to midterms and also my upcoming birthday this month (turning 29 on the 22nd... and i'm STILL in community college! ugh!! this is a big depression issue for me as well)

Thanks for the support and kind words to everyone who posted. You guys make sticking around here worth while.

Getting tired of this fandom.

I'm tired of being called a popuwhore and a user and all sorts of other things.

Tired of people not believing me when I tell them that I'm here to make friends.

Tired of having people who I thought of as friends suddenly stop contact and refuse to even chat anymore.

Tired of people purposely ignoring me when I try to make contact with them to maybe become friends.

and tired of people who just seem to not give a crap about anyone but themselves.



Am starting to regret the choice I made a long time ago to share the stuff that I get. I know a few folks who still stick around FA, but don't bother to try to connect with others. Before, I disagreed with them but respected their decisions. Now I'm starting to see what they saw. Is it really worth it to even be on here any more?

so, this morning I logged into paypal to make a payment to an artist, and I suddenly see that I have received a... rather large refund from paypal on my account.

It was listed as type "Merchandise Finance Charge Refund" and the description was "*INTEREST CHARGE* PURCHASES REFUND". The amount refunded to me was rather large... and I have no idea why or where this money is coming from.

I am worrying that maybe paypal screwed over some artists or something and sent me money back to due a small mistake that they made (like the artist not marking the item as shipped)... or maybe went around shutting down artists' accounts and giving money back to people who purchased art from them.

Has this happened to anyone else? or does anyone know what might have happened? The info above is literally everything I know about the situation, and I really don't want to call paypal up and maneuver through their robotic system until I run into a dude from India who I won't be able to understand :-\

EDIT: I sent an email to ask what was going on >.<

Does anyone play it?

And for that matter, is anyone in a guild on it? (furry or no)

My 30 day starting period is about to end, and while I enjoy the game, not having anyone to play it with kinda stinks.

Well, I've been working at my new job for 3 months now- and the result has been a lot more time spent there, and a lot less time on FA and getting commissions and stuff. Still, I got a couple of really nice things in the works (mainly a story i need to type up for the old doomington pic that I got colored) and also a 5 page comic from barraqda that returns to the Dragon TF/MB/Ovi stuff that I love to get.

Anyways, just letting people know I'm still alive. Just busy and earning money and stuffs.

Anyone around here play pokemon?

And of those players, does anyone have a darkrai?

And amongst you darkrai holders, do you have one that has one of the following natures?

Timid / Hasty / Naive / Modest / Mild / Rash ???

If so, let me know!! I would love to trade for one, or get one!! I will make it worth your while, as well! :)


EDIT:

Much thanks to avalon487 for trading me a naive darkrai! *hugs* thank you so much hun!

Merry Christmas and a happy new years, everyone! :)

I got pretty much jack squat going on here but sometimes the peace and quiet of nothing can be just as nice as crazy parties and all of that. But to the rest of FA, be they partying or relaxing at home, I hope you make the most out of your holiday activities!

Okay- so I've been discovering that MANY people on F-List are using my art for their characters.

I dislike this- and I will tell you all why: They are claiming that the art in the picture is theirs, when its not. They are stealing someone else's identity and appearance for their own fetish use.

I have had people tell me (in notes or otherwise) Oh, aren't you interested in 'INSERT FETISH HERE'? I saw your character on f list and it was on your list of likes!

This has happened to me multiple times.

When someone takes the art that you paid for and created, and says "this is me!" and then proceeds to use said image/character idea with their own fantasies, it feels very violating.

Another example: I don't like diapers and scat fantasies. I've seen people on f list using my character and art, and putting them in diaper/scat/watersport situations- three things that i AM NOT into. I feel disgusted knowing that my image is being associated with this and it feels like my character has not only been stolen from me, but is also being abused.

Am I an asshole for this? Probably. But it's my choice to act like this, and I have a reason for acting like this. So I'd ask that people understand my thoughts on the matter.

So, if I see art of my character on F-List, will I report it? I most certainly will. There have also been some very kind folks who let me know now and then when they see my art being stolen over there- and I will go and check things out.

But guess what? I'm not going 100% asshole on this. Some of the profiles on flist that I see, I let go. And do you know why?

Because they state, either in pic descriptions, or on their page, that the character art is not theirs and/or that their fetishes are not necessarily the fetishes of the char in the pic.

That's all it takes to avoid my ire. As long as you let people know that the art is not yours, OR you ask me for permission (which one person has, and which I granted), then I don't care at all. I will just say "hey, please just put up a note that the original char that this art depicts isnt into this stuff" and that's it.

I will continue to keep my eye on F-List. And the mods there are quite diligent in dealing with these issues quickly (they're very professional).

SO-
TL:DR NICE VERSION - PLEASE ASK BEFORE USING MY ART OR SAY ITS NOT YOURS

TL:DR - DONT POST MY ART WITHOUT ASKING ME OR SAYING ITS NOT YOURS OR I REPORT YOUR ASS

Thank you.

As the title says, today is my birthday. I'm 28. >.< I feel so old... but not as old as I will feel in 2 years from now.


Anyways, Last night (or rather, this morning early) I finished pokemon Y. I'd love to get some more friends for friend codes so that we can be friends in game (protip- to be friends in game you just both have to be online at the same time, then give it a few mins to register).


My DS game code: 4957-2790-1377



I will wrap this journal up with a funny chat i had with my uncle on one of my birthdays, many years ago:


Uncle: "What do you want for your birthday?"

Me: "I want Final Fantasy 8 for my birthday!"

Uncle: "...."

(uncle leans over to my dad and whispers): "....um.... is that a porno?"

So I dug up a stash of my old man's comics, and he doesn't want them anymore. I dunno what to do with them so I figured I'd ask around here XD especially since one of the things i found was the full collecton of the 1980s ThunderCats comic series by marvel- all in plastic and in pretty much perfect condition.

The things below are what I found that are worth anything:

Thundercats complete collection (1-24)
Grim Jack complete collection (1-81)
Star Wars return of the jedi 1 & 2

and the first two are only worth something because they are collections @.@

... did anyone who watches me used to play it? It was many years ago, and hosted by hellkat on RPoL.

It had its own unique fighting system (physical or lustful attacks) and lots of TFs all over the place. I was wondering if anyone still remembered it, and/or had fond memories of it.

I still keep in touch with a few folks who used to play it, but there were a bunch more who I'd love to chat with again if I could.

Ok. So I'm plugging this for the monster hunting group here on FA,  mh3furs. We're looking to find times that people can hunt together in MH3U, and they are going to try to list people's network IDs, preferred weapon, HR rank, and timezone... and then see if they can schedule times when we can get 4-person hunting groups together.

I think it sounds badass, and will be trying my best to help things out- the more people we can get together to hunt, the better!

So head on over to their page, and note them with your own hunter / wii U info if you are interested!


FURRY MONSTER HUNTERS UNITE!

and even people who aren't that furry are welcome. LETS HUNT SOME MONSTERS!

I'm glad I got so many interested parties! there were definately some sexy furs in the mix, and I feel really bad I couldn't pic like... everyone >.<

Since closing my eyes and pointing at the monitor did not work (too many names lol) I ended up using random.org again, and assigned everyone numbers.

A moment before I type the winner out here. I want everyone to know that I WILL be doing this again sometime in the future, so keep your eyes peeled for another contest of this sort.

Also, sorry about the delay. Good ol' UPS took a couple days longer to deliver the package than I expected (they said Fri, but it came on Mon instead), and I was waiting for the artist to get the keyboard and say she liked it before doing the commish.

And now, the winner- It is none other than Silvador who's entry number (17) came up when I rolled. Send me a note with whatever you might like to see in the pic :)

Thank you to everyone who entered! Remember, I love to give stuff away so feel free to enter again when this comes up again! ^_^

I have some art due to me from an artist here on FA. I had an old G15 keyboard laying around, and events came up which ended up with me trading it to said artist for some art. Since I can't figure out what the hell to get with this art, I figure I'd use the pic to give someone art who may have missed out before when I've thrown a raffle or whatever. So, here's another chance!

TEH RULES!
-You can't have gotten art from me before
-You can't be on my planned 'to get art with' list (you guys know who you are!)
-You need to have some sort of pic of your character for the artist to use as reference
-I'll grab someone randomly out of a hat or something (close eyes and poke monitor)

That's it. No journal posting awareness stuff (I've grown to dislike that), and you don't even have to be watching me (but I would be a little surprised if someone wanted the pic who WASN'T watching me since we won't be spamming the advertisement crap). I'll probably wrap up the raffle thing in a week or so. Probably less.

Anyways, to 'enter', just reply below with a ref.

P.S the artist in question is  flarekitten

One of the reasons I like being on FA is the compassion and love that people on here are capable of showing. Granted, there's a lot of drama and problems as well XD but there is also a lot of good will and help that goes around too.

I don't know this person, but a friend of mine put up a journal asking to help him: his best friend (cat) has a cancerous tumor and will die unless this fellow can come up with over a thousand dollars:

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4682414/

I hope people who might see this can go take a look and maybe donate a buck or two if they can- if just a third of the people who watch me did donate a single $1, we could save this kitty's life.

Anyways, just take a look, or spread the word- We need to keep on showing that FA is full of people who actually do care.

...and I don't mean stuff like monopoly of life.

I'm talking about the more advanced games- like Settlers of Catan, or Carcassone, or Arkham Horror.

I'm looking for a good board game that is preferably fairly easy to learn, but that will last a decent amount of time per game.

Also, a small sized box would be a plus XD

Anyone up for some MONACO? I LOVE games where you are sneaky, and I also LOVE games that are CO-OP.

MONACO is greatly loved by me, but alas I am alone and need backup.





Oh, also I've been playing warframe recently. So.... that too :p

I'm looking for a few good hunters to rank up with.

I am a rank 5 hunter, that prefers to use GS. I have full sets of High Rank Rathalos, Barioth, and Zinogre armors and weapons (my fire,ice, and lightning sets, respectively), as well as a 1000+ atk power anti dragon GS.

I can gun if needed, though my armor and weaponry are a little outdated (Low rank stuff mostly).

Am seeking hunters to HR up with, or just complete missions. Also having extra guild cards is teh shiznit.

ANY INTERESTED PARTIES PLEASE APPLY! I PLAY THIS GAME ALL THE DAMN TIME EVERY DAY!!

Monsters that I am especially interested in hunting:

1. Jhen Moran - i STILL havent been able to solo this gargantuan asshole. He breaks my dragonship EVERY DAMN TIME
2. Deviljho - My arch enemy. I've killed him once, but am totally willing to slay him again and again
3. Brachydios - I kind of want to make armor out of him because it looks shiny O.O even though the abilities aren't anything to write home about
4. Azure Rathalos- I'd like to turn him into armor too... also i still need rathalos rubies T.T

I'M ALSO TOTALLY WILLING TO HELP OTHER FOLKS OUT! HUNTERS UNITE!

It's depressing. In these recent years, LucasArts has been putting out a lot of crap that hasn't been very good.


But in the old days (RETRO GAMERS UNITE), LucasArts made some kickass stuff. Monkey Island, Indiana Jones games, and the old (and good) star wars games.

It's a sad ending for a company that was once amazing. I was hoping that Disney could breath some new life into the series, but... I guess those days are behind us now.

And I was so hoping for another monkey island game :(

Sad times.