Should i? I mean no one really talks to me here. And my art isnt good enough for anyone here either and personally its depressiong me.
So yeah. If you want to, give me a good reason why i shouldnt go. Cause i really dont feel there is any point in me being here as an apreciator for art techniques, not just content.
If you have a good answer for me then leave it.

Love is so weired cause it can hurt so much. I feel so strongly but i dont think i get love back. There are so many people around me and not one of them knows i am there.
Its hurting like mad. I just want unconditional love but thats so rare you dont often see it when its right infront of your face.
I've had too many times where people have tried to use me for nothing more than sex. Its wrong.
I know my friends love me. I love them too. But i want something more than just storge. Maybe one day i can have true love and live like a fairey tale. But i dont think thats anytime soon. For now i shall just make the lives of my characters work out for the best. At least then someone can have a happy time.

I was tryin' to find my way home
But all I heard was a drone
Bouncing off a satellite
Crushin' the last lone American night
This is radio nowhere, is there anybody alive out there?
This is radio nowhere, is there anybody alive out there?

I was spinnin' 'round a dead dial
Just another lost number in a file
Dancin' down a dark hole
Just searchin' for a world with some soul

This is radio nowhere, is there anybody alive out there?
This is radio nowhere, is there anybody alive out there?
Is there anybody alive out there?

I just want to hear some rhythm
I just want to hear some rhythm
I just want to hear some rhythm
I just want to hear some rhythm

I want a thousand guitars
I want pounding drums
I want a million different voices speaking in tongues

This is radio nowhere, is there anybody alive out there?
This is radio nowhere, is there anybody alive out there?
Is there anybody alive out there?

I was driving through the misty rain
Searchin' for a mystery train
Boppin' through the wild blue
Tryin' to make a connection to you

This is radio nowhere, is there anybody alive out there?
This is radio nowhere, is there anybody alive out there?
Is there anybody alive out there?

I just want to feel some rhythm
I just want to feel some rhythm
I just want to feel your rhythm
I just want to feel your rhythm
I just want to feel your rhythm
I just want to feel your rhythm
I just want to feel your rhythm
I just want to feel your rhythm


Radio Nowhere - Bruce Springsteen

Tbh, i dont think there is anyone out there. I dont hear anyone here talking.

Hell, i have no valentines.

I dont really give a shit.

I know someone who likes me but i dont want to hurt her because i am unsure still about being bi. So yeah, load of bollocks. I have a lust for men. I still love men but i like girls too. I cant make up my mind and still want the best of both worlds what you cant have.

I dont know if i like men more, i suppose i do, but its hard to find someone who can deal with chaining you up and licking you. Fuck this.

So in short i dont think i am good enough for anyone. I have been cheated on in the past, used, and i know people have just wanted to use me for sex, i never let them have what they want, now i just wanna give up.

I know the girl doesnt wanna treat me that way.. maybe i'm just a sucker for punishment.. i dont know..

well, i wish those who have got a love all the best for valentines, i really do. But for me, there is a nice black abiss.. Only the creatures in my head love me.



I dunno how many people will read this.. but dont think bad of me please.. i'm just hurting still.

I'm gonna go away for a bit so i can get on with my work.

So i'll see you when i do..



bye

I stoled this off  insanityj

Your Boy Side
[x] You love hoodies.
[x] You love jeans.
[ ] Dogs are better than cats.
[x] It's hilarious when people get hurt.
[x] You've played with/against boys on a team.
[ ] Shopping is torture.
[ ] Sad movies suck.
[ ] You own an X-Box.
[x] Played with Hotwheels cars as a kid.
[ ] At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
[x] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers.
[ ] You watch sports on TV.
[x] Gory movies are cool
[ ] You go to your dad for advice.
[ ] You own like a trillion baseball caps.
[ ] You like going to football games.
[ ] You used to/do collect baseball cards.
[x] Baggy pants are cool to wear.
[ ] It's kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
[x] Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors.
[x] You love to go crazy and not care what people think.
[x] Sports are fun.
[ ] Talk with food in your mouth.
[ ] Wear boxers.

Total = 11 Points

Your Girl Side
[ ] You wear lip gloss.
[x] You love to shop.
[x] You wear eyeliner.
[x] You have some of the same shirts in different colors.
[x] You wear the color pink.
[x] Go to your mom for advice.
[ ] You consider cheerleading a sport.
[ ] You hate wearing the color black.
[ ] You like hanging out at the mall.
[ ] You like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
[ ] You like wearing jewelry.
[ ] Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe.
[ ] Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
[ ] You don't like the movie Star Wars.
[ ] You are/were in cheerleading, gymnastics or dance.
[x] It takes you around 1 hour to shower, get dressed, and put on make-up and accessories.
[ ] You smile a lot more than you should.
[ ] You have more than 10 pairs of shoes.
[x] You care about what you look like.
[ ] You like wearing dresses when you can.
[ ] You like wearing body spray/perfume/cologne.
[x] You wear girl underwear. (got a few pairs of girl boxers)
[ ] Used to play with dolls as little kid.
[ ] Like putting make-up on someone else for the joy of it.
[ ] Like taking pictures of yourself with your cell phone/camera when you're bored.

Total = 8 points


XDDDDD

I passed 1000 pageviews. yattaa..

Lately i've been having a spat of bad moods. i'm not sure why but i just have.
I have to coatch at archery now, so i said dont put me with kids i am no good with kids and i'm not particually keen on them either. Sor what do they bloody do? Put me with the youngest kids in the group, who sadly are nearly as tall as me and still in primary school!! They thougt i was in primary school!! Their jaws hit the floor when i told them i was at uni!!

They dont seem to listen to what i'm telling them, so chances are they are going to hurt them selves or someone else in the near future, and it s quite clear that the youngest only thinks of himself. He strode up to the firing line, arrow set on his bow and there were still people collcting their arrows from the target faces! I quickly stopped him from goin ahead and fireing. In the process swearing by accident. I told him you cant fire when there are people collecting arrows, he said, but they're all the way over there and i'm ready to go. by this time there is only so much stupidity i can take as they were told about the whistle system before they got even try at fireing a bow.

And if it dares overrun my Heroes viewing i'm gonna go Sylar on their asses.


grah.. i guess thats something off my chest.. till next wednesday...

I love Zachary Quinto :p

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wtu35bylVLE

OMG this is sooooo cute!!


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0z5847ZK0ic

I feel so strange atm, all these old feelings creeping back, i could do without it but i think its pitty more than anything.

I should straighten things out in my head, part of me doesnt want to but i really ought to.

I love my bf so much.

Yeah this is one weired rant aint it? I havent really done one before so its hard for me to be open and let it all out. I can only really be open with one or two people. Otherwise i feel stupid.

Sorry for being like this.

MY BABE IS HERE =D
 kitsune_gray gryphyth

I've noticed a lot of my work wont show up on the front page, so if your curiouse pleeaasee look in my gallery =) .. Pweaze ? ^^

I have looked around here for a search but there doesnt seem to be one.. was there ever one? I'm really new you though so i dont know much ^^; any guidence around this place will be much apreicianted ^^;