Just rolled over 40000 views! Nifty.

In general--yes, I'm still alive. Work and stuff has kept me busy and used lots of energy. Writing might resume soonish.

Hi!

I got a new job!

I'm half excited and half nervous about it. Excited to get back to work and have income, nervous about doing a good job, making a good impression, remembering how to have any idea what I'm doing when it comes to engineering stuff... @.@ Well, I suppose I'll do my best. Once work starts though (March 4), I'm going to be on messengers/twitter a lot less, what with being at work and all.

The job is not in my current area, though! I have to move closer to it... just 150 miles, though, not thousands xD And thus next week I'll be moving south, to the DC suburbs (VA, just outside the beltway). I have utilities and all that arranged, and if things go as planned I won't have to go without internet access for any length of time. So I should probably start packing. >.>

How much this will effect my writing output, I can't say. Really depends on my stress and energy levels after work is taken into account! I do have one story I started yesterday I'd like to finish and post before work starts (or possibly before I even move), but as I imagine the next few days could be pretty hectic, I won't make any promises.

I'll try to keep y'all updated as things progress. ^^

Exactly what it says on the tin.

If you could make me write 1 specific story...

Who would be in it?
What would the setting/plot be?
What would the content be (porn or clean, specific fetishes, etc.)?

I'm curious.

/keanureeves

Anyway... I'm just 12 away from having 1000 watchers.

I wonder what I should do for the awesome Mr./Ms. 1000? Hm...

EDIT: Annnnd 1000 has been reached! Thanks to everyone. :D

Thanks to everyone for the birthday wishes and the gifts! You guys have helped me have a really good week, I enjoyed reading and viewing what I got, and it really means a lot to me. <3

And if anyone's going to the DE Furbowl tonight, keep an eye out for the red dragon! I'll be there. c:

Yus, I am back from California, and it is my birthday today! The red dragon is 24 now. :D

I'm in Palo Alto, CA, until the 23rd, just so everyone's aware. Getting any writing done during that time is highly unlikely. ><

Yes, my birthday is just 10 days away! I'll be 24 soon :O

And YOU get a raffle and YOU get a raffle and EVERYBODY GETS A RAFFLE http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3812028/ This time done by the very talented  Mekolai, who I long ago commissioned http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4029255/ from. Even if you don't enter, at least check out her work!

I'm going on vacation! Going to St. Croix at some ungodly hour in the morning, where this time we hopefully won't get run over by a hurricane whose name starts with I--that happened last year on the first day of the trip, and might happen this year Wednesday/Thursday depending on how a certain tropical wave behaves over the next few days.

Anyway, I should have internet down there; last year we did until the hurricane fried the modem, and this year will hopefully go better. I'll probably be around, and in case I'm not, uh, don't break my FA page or whatever. x3 Maybe the scenery will get me writing again! You know how those tropical islands can inspire, uh... kinky dragon bondage porn. *innocent whistling*

Will be back soooooon!

30000 views!

Nifty.

A commission done by my buddy  Aaros :D

Go commission him, he does some great work!

Wow. Well, I'm definitely glad I went to AC after all.

I had a pretty good time! Got to hang out with people I'd met before, meet people I'd wanted to meet, meet new people, all that sort of thing. While the main aspects of conventions are still not for me--still rarely buy things, still don't dance and still don't drink--I managed to keep myself occupied, finding lots of fun dragons to hang out with! Thanks to  Morto and  Vlooi and  Renzey for being good roommates, and to everyone I met and hung out with and clung desperately to for company, who are too many to list, for being so friendly.

I don't know if I'll go to any future cons, but I enjoyed this one.

Yep! I'm on twitter now, @guardian_hawk. Does this mean twitter isn't cool any more? I'll most likely be using it for silly unimportant things--in-character musings, random complaints about life or sports or (rarely) politics, etc. I will likely be extremely annoyed extremely often by the small character limit.

Add me if you want, so I know who to be following! A bit too lazy to see who exactly among my friends is on this thing.

Is so much better than Tongues of Serpents. Stuff actually happens. There's more than a single moment of character development. And there's a couple of chapters in the middle of the book that are utterly hysterical.

...and also implied dragonsex, and a long moment that would make writers of (human) slash fanfic extremely happy. >.>

But mainly consider this confirmation that this book is worth getting! I thoroughly enjoyed the book despite having a headache from spending the last 5-6 hours reading it, so go pick it up if you get a chance.

Writing. Yes. Remember when I did that from time to time? I've been in a funk for a while and I'm sorry about that, but I have been writing recently! I'm working on a collaborative project with a couple of artists, and once the art and writing is completed you'll be able to see what I've been up to. I think you guys will like it... just be patient. ^^

Also, I'm headed to the DE Furbowl tonight! Me and almost... 150 other people o.o I know a few folks who're going, but is anyone else?

Stolen from  morto. Answer questions about me, see how well you know me!

There is one important rule: Please do not cheat and look at other peoples' answers before writing your own.

Anyone can attempt this (not just close friends!) as you may know something nobody else does, because some of the answers are (semi-)common knowledge, and other answers are based on my experiences with you or how you perceive me.

I will be awarding points for correct/accurate answers up to the max per question (in brackets).


[5] 1. How old am I, what is my gender and where do I live? [Bonus points for accuracy!]

[3] 2. What are my favourite food(s)?

[5] 3. What are my hobbies?

[10] 4. What topics of conversation do I enjoy/pursue with others? Why?

[5] 5. What plans/aspirations do I have for myself regarding what I want to do in the future?

[2] 6. What am I currently doing job/work/education-wise?

[5] 7. What 5 things do I complain most about on a regular basis?

[5] 8. What 5 things do I praise/appreciate most on a regular basis?

[3] 9. Why did I become a furry and how long have I been one for?

[5] 10. Summarize my personality in no more than 5 words. [Tip: They don't all need to be positive, truthfulness is important]

So a perfect set of answers will net you 48 points.

Fact of the day: according to the United State Congress, Pizza is now a vegetable.

Sounds like it's high time for a "veggies-only" diet... of nothing but pizza! :D

I've had a bad week.

As a few of you know, I left my job in CT and moved back in with my parents due to budding anxiety issues, and general discontent with my living/working situation--and this turned out to be just in time, as my boss said when I went to give him two weeks' notice that there was another layoff coming (would have been the third in the year I'd work there) and that I was going to be one of those let go. So I guess that was well-timed, but not exactly fortunate. Anyway, job applications are going out, but nobody's biting. Which is one negative factor.

NaNoWriMo started on Tuesday. I'd planned for months to start working on an idea for a novel when the month began, something I'd been kicking around for... a very long time. But I just.... didn't. I've written barely anything in the past six months... year... etc. and I just don't have the inspiration or drive despite all the story ideas floating around in my brain, and it's frustrating. I know I'm at the very least a capable writer, I have ideas that I think are good... and I just can't do anything with them. Another thing weighing me down.

At the very least, I thought getting out of my bad situation in Connecticut would help me feel better. And for a little while my anxiety issues went away, or at least calmed down enough for me to be able to sleep at night... and earlier this week they came back, as strong as ever. I can't sleep, I feel depressed, and I don't know what I'm supposed to do this time--I can't leave my job and my shitty apartment again, because they're out of the picture now and I can't blame those factors this time. Ever since I returned to my parents', in fact, I've been eating better, exercising more, being more social--fixing everything that was a problem before, and yet the anxiety and depression and insomnia came back anyway. I don't know what I can do this time. It's making me incredibly stressed and anxious and depressed, I've felt like crying all evening for no reason at all, and, and... I just don't know how to fix it.

Anyway, I'm sorry for the emo journal... I'm just really not doing well. I guess I could use a kind word or two.

It was fun! I went with  blazeheadx01 and  morto, hung out with them when I could, and Morto introduced me to  tygerstkuan,  layra,  solidfoxx,  mnementh and  dark-dragoncat, all of whom were very nice, and Tyger and DC had impressive fursuits! And Layra was very nice to just draw a little sketch of Hueroc on a whim, which turned out very cute--you'll see once she posts it!

I only went to a couple of panels--one about writing, and one comedy-improv panel that I didn't take part in but was a lot of fun to watch! And Balasar was pretty funny when he took part in it. :3 But mainly we all just hung out and watched those of us who are artists draw, which was fun in and of itself!

Overall I had a good time, and being able to commute probably allowed me to sleep better, and certainly helped keep things cheap! Whether I go to another con is currently, a toss-up, but I guess we'll see...

Oh, and I just passed 20000 views a couple days ago! Whatever that means.

Taken from who took it from someone else, etc. Anyway, first con means first con meme! >.<

What day are you getting there?
Friday, pretty early, and should be there all three days.

Who will you be with?
and

Where are you staying?
My apartment, about an hour from the con.

Who will you hang out with during the convention?
I'll most likely be desperately clinging to and as they're the only people I know at all.

Are there any panels you might be attending?
I'll probably swing by any panel that has anything to do with writing.

Will you be suiting?
No.

What is your gender?
Male.

How old are you?
23

How tall are you?
5'11"

Can I talk to you?
Yes, feel free, though I specialize in awkward conversation.

Can I touch you?
You may shake my hand, but not much otherwise. I'm finicky about personal space with people I don't know (and even some I do) and can be somewhat high-strung.

How can I find you?
Be very lucky, or look for someone you know I'm with--even if you know what I look like, I'm good at blending into crowds, both by accident and on purpose.

Can I visit your room?
Again, I'm staying at my own apartment, not one of the hotels, so if you show up at my door I'll be very confused as to how you got there and also not let you inside.

Can I buy you drinks?
If you really want to buy me a soda, then go ahead, I guess.

Can I give you stuff?
Sure! Nothing wrong with free stuff.

Will you do art trades?
If you're really lucky and catch me in the right creative mood I might be interested, but it'd have to be completed post-con because I don't write well at all in crowded distracting environments.

Can I hug or snuggle with you?
If I feel I know you very well by the end of the con then a brief hug might be okay (though will more likely just be an awkward silence when you go for one and I want no part of it), but no snuggles.

Are you nice?
I like to think so, but I can get a bit tense in unfamiliar settings. I'll be doing my best to socialize like a good dragon, though. :P

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Walking over and saying hi is probably your best bet, though 'Hueroc' (pronounced h-WEAR-ock) is distinctive enough that I'll probably hear you if you yell it loudly enough.

Where will you be most of the time during the day/s?
Wandering, I suppose. This is my first con so I honestly have no idea how it'll go.

What/where will you be eating?
Probably wherever those I hang out with go, and who knows where that will be.

Can I come with you for the food/fun/etc?
I don't know? We'll go on a case-by-case basis with this one.

What's your goal/s for the con this year?
To successfully go to my first convention, be social with other furs for the first time, and enjoy myself. And also live through the weekend, I guess.

Hopefully this will be lots of fun! >.<

I'm 23 today. :3

http://www.speedtest.net/result/1493737344.png

Every evening, every weekend (and I know the cause, but can't/can't pay for fixing it). I can't play TF2 or World of Tanks like this... x.x

Um... so I've kinda... forgotten to do any writing these past couple months.

Okay, forgotten isn't accurate. I've just had no motivation, no energy, no ideas in the longest time. I've barely written since I wrote the snippet for Long Night, which I finished in mid-July. No desire to write, no ideas as to what I would write if I felt like it, just... blah. And following through with the whole "commissions" thing is not the answer, because if I'm going to get paid to write I want to write a novel and get it published, not write smut for people. >.> Plus I found out very quickly during my attempt at the test commission I was given that my creativity and what other people want me to do with the direction of a story pretty much are never going to mesh.

I dunno. Just feeling conflicted about stuff, lazy, kinda crappy, and then in regards to stuff like life and my career I'm feeling like I'm spinning my wheels and not really going anywhere, which is feeding back into the rest of my mood and probably has some to do with this lull in motivation... I'll figure it out somehow, and I'll try to make sure the answer isn't "just wait a while."

In slightly more upbeat news, I turn 23 a week from today.

Yep. I'm headed to St. Croix tomorrow with my family, and I'll be there until the 26th. I should have internet access while I'm there, but in case I don't... that's where I'll be. :P

In either case, I'll be spending the majority of the vacation writing, because when I'm in an exotic locale with a beautiful beach and lots of fun local attractions and family distractions... sequestering myself to write a novel is obviously what I should be doing the whole time. Yes.