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TAKEN!
Posted 9 years agoSo, folks... I am now TAKEN! WOOHOO! I almost can't believe it myself... someone who wants me for me, and not JUST what I can bring to the table! This is a person that I long to spend the rest of my days with... even the bad days.... I want to spend it with them... I'll be completing a family that was pre-started, and needs the extra support of an extra figure. Yay!
Politics...
Posted 9 years agoSo... over the last few months, things have gotten HEATED all-around... inexcusably-so...
You have to ask yourselves "Why are things getting so heated? Why can't people simply have a good chat or debate like adults did back in the early years of the century?"
What happened to open-ended forums for free speech? What HAPPENED to Free Speech?? Why are so many people trying to stop so much of it, except for the words that are usually the least useful in most cases?
Example: I was having a rather nice conversation with some individuals on a Journal... not with the OP himself, but with others... I got blocked... not for saying WHO i voted for, but for simply correcting things that have been said, and proven... including that Trump won the popular vote by so many more MILLIONS, instead of what was shown on election night... Taking away the 5million plus ILLEGAL voters, and then some... Some illegally changed electoral votes, and more... Half of the votes, in point of fact, for DETROIT MICHIGAN, were proven to be false, faked, and worse... Not sure about Donald Trump Votes, but as of yet, nobody was seen force-feeding votes into the reception bins for republican or 3rd party locations...
That aside, the votes have been cast, and the winner, fairly-voted for by the ACTUAL majority, has been appointed, and SHOULD BE GIVEN A CHANCE, as we did with Obama... twice... Is it too much to ask that the same chance be given to a business tycoon who is ALREADY bringing jobs back to America?
As it's been said before, it should be repeated until proven otherwise: Trump isn't a racist, a sexist, a homophobe or transphobe or anything of the sort. He is actually quite a nice and funny guy, who makes fun of himself, and sometimes makes semi-funny people droll... poor Jimmy... It is about time to stop overusing and over-throwing these "insults" that simply aren't true as well...
Turns out that there are many who would with taunts and insults, block us from speaking our minds, laughing and trying to troll and do what liberals do best... insult everybody else, and each other. Example of such actions: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7917978/
You have to ask yourselves "Why are things getting so heated? Why can't people simply have a good chat or debate like adults did back in the early years of the century?"
What happened to open-ended forums for free speech? What HAPPENED to Free Speech?? Why are so many people trying to stop so much of it, except for the words that are usually the least useful in most cases?
Example: I was having a rather nice conversation with some individuals on a Journal... not with the OP himself, but with others... I got blocked... not for saying WHO i voted for, but for simply correcting things that have been said, and proven... including that Trump won the popular vote by so many more MILLIONS, instead of what was shown on election night... Taking away the 5million plus ILLEGAL voters, and then some... Some illegally changed electoral votes, and more... Half of the votes, in point of fact, for DETROIT MICHIGAN, were proven to be false, faked, and worse... Not sure about Donald Trump Votes, but as of yet, nobody was seen force-feeding votes into the reception bins for republican or 3rd party locations...
That aside, the votes have been cast, and the winner, fairly-voted for by the ACTUAL majority, has been appointed, and SHOULD BE GIVEN A CHANCE, as we did with Obama... twice... Is it too much to ask that the same chance be given to a business tycoon who is ALREADY bringing jobs back to America?
As it's been said before, it should be repeated until proven otherwise: Trump isn't a racist, a sexist, a homophobe or transphobe or anything of the sort. He is actually quite a nice and funny guy, who makes fun of himself, and sometimes makes semi-funny people droll... poor Jimmy... It is about time to stop overusing and over-throwing these "insults" that simply aren't true as well...
Turns out that there are many who would with taunts and insults, block us from speaking our minds, laughing and trying to troll and do what liberals do best... insult everybody else, and each other. Example of such actions: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7917978/
A year...
Posted 9 years agoWell, a year has passed, jobs have come and gone, friends have come and gone, and well... Politics.
Yeah, Trump won, Hillary tried to cheat, just like she did at the DNC, and failed.
GAMING YAY!
Heroes of the Storm is having an event, and getting friends on there is nigh improbably for some apparently.
Warframe, I'm now the Emperor of Clan Ryoku, and we just had ourselves removed due to the tie in council votes, and well... being under the thumb of someone who tries to treat others as if he owns them, trying to micro-manage where he can. I called him, and his buddies out, on their nonsenses, and their lack of self-governance, ruling by emotion to the utmost is wrong, where-as ruling with cold-hard facts and a KIND heart is where we are now. I rule WITH others, and we are open for recruitment.
TC's R6: Siege is pretty sweet, if still kinda... broken.
EPIC GAMES' Paragon is Smite + Gears of War. EPIC is also releasing a new game 2017, supposedly, and it is pretty sweet. Suffice to say that saying anymore than that MYSELF while under NDA... well... epicgames.com/fortnite/ Sign up for alpha if you want.
Well, I'm supposed to get a call in the next 20-80 minutes from a driver for UPS so that I can get off my lazy ass and WORK, and maybe lose a bit of the flab I've gained over the last 12 months, since I got back from Alaska.
Yeah, Trump won, Hillary tried to cheat, just like she did at the DNC, and failed.
GAMING YAY!
Heroes of the Storm is having an event, and getting friends on there is nigh improbably for some apparently.
Warframe, I'm now the Emperor of Clan Ryoku, and we just had ourselves removed due to the tie in council votes, and well... being under the thumb of someone who tries to treat others as if he owns them, trying to micro-manage where he can. I called him, and his buddies out, on their nonsenses, and their lack of self-governance, ruling by emotion to the utmost is wrong, where-as ruling with cold-hard facts and a KIND heart is where we are now. I rule WITH others, and we are open for recruitment.
TC's R6: Siege is pretty sweet, if still kinda... broken.
EPIC GAMES' Paragon is Smite + Gears of War. EPIC is also releasing a new game 2017, supposedly, and it is pretty sweet. Suffice to say that saying anymore than that MYSELF while under NDA... well... epicgames.com/fortnite/ Sign up for alpha if you want.
Well, I'm supposed to get a call in the next 20-80 minutes from a driver for UPS so that I can get off my lazy ass and WORK, and maybe lose a bit of the flab I've gained over the last 12 months, since I got back from Alaska.
Back to Texas I go! Drama within...
Posted 10 years agoSo due to familial drama being enacted in the home, I was hoping to get a ride from someone in the home to the Anchorage airport on Friday afternoon/evening, but... Tempers have flared, and I've had enough, and in the morning, if not before then, I am going to attempt to walk the 50 miles of road and wilderness to the Anchorage area, MAYBE get a hotel, and then get on the plane and get out.
Update: I got to Anchorage, got a hotel, and have been living here sooooo nicely, enjoying the peace and quiet. Enjoying the area, the local food, and enjoying the locals.
I may be depleting my funds, or what's left of them, but at least none of the money is going to the old hag who tried to change me more than I would allow, who tried to make things so difficult for me to get a job, even a part time job... Fuck the old hag. It hurt to argue with family, but it hurt more to watch this... Hag... Insult family, true family, and think she could get away with it. I know the rest of my family, and this old hag.... Is not family. She may have been running a kitten rescue, which is all well and good, but it was running her funds down more than I ever could, and she wasn't going to change my love for my real family, even through subversive conversation...
There is a saying that resounds in my heart more than anything because of this, and it resounds true... "I've got blood who ain't family and family who ain't blood."
The lying, decrepit, old hag, couldn't tell the difference between actual labor jobs and an office job... When told "id really like to work with animals at a clinic," she goes "we'll see!" And then promptly told me to go get a job at Walmart... The fucking opposite of what I wanted... I wanted to work with dogs, with huskies, malamutes, pitbulls, German shepherds... And I was denied that, because this bitch left me out to dry... Too busy with dying kittens, whose graves I had to dig... Because this person was driving herself to bankruptcy because of her in-home operations... Too poor to go to the veterinarian and get them all fixed... Stupid, fucking ruinous, old hag, who is no family of mine, and may she die knowing she will never see my face again.
Update: I got to Anchorage, got a hotel, and have been living here sooooo nicely, enjoying the peace and quiet. Enjoying the area, the local food, and enjoying the locals.
I may be depleting my funds, or what's left of them, but at least none of the money is going to the old hag who tried to change me more than I would allow, who tried to make things so difficult for me to get a job, even a part time job... Fuck the old hag. It hurt to argue with family, but it hurt more to watch this... Hag... Insult family, true family, and think she could get away with it. I know the rest of my family, and this old hag.... Is not family. She may have been running a kitten rescue, which is all well and good, but it was running her funds down more than I ever could, and she wasn't going to change my love for my real family, even through subversive conversation...
There is a saying that resounds in my heart more than anything because of this, and it resounds true... "I've got blood who ain't family and family who ain't blood."
The lying, decrepit, old hag, couldn't tell the difference between actual labor jobs and an office job... When told "id really like to work with animals at a clinic," she goes "we'll see!" And then promptly told me to go get a job at Walmart... The fucking opposite of what I wanted... I wanted to work with dogs, with huskies, malamutes, pitbulls, German shepherds... And I was denied that, because this bitch left me out to dry... Too busy with dying kittens, whose graves I had to dig... Because this person was driving herself to bankruptcy because of her in-home operations... Too poor to go to the veterinarian and get them all fixed... Stupid, fucking ruinous, old hag, who is no family of mine, and may she die knowing she will never see my face again.
MOVING AWAY!
Posted 10 years agoSo... I'm leaving Texas for now... I'm going to Alaska to live with one of my grandparents and look for a job that apparently isn't with Asians, or at a bar... or too rough, or too much dealing with people... Yeah... my last job was pretty fucking cushy. Good pay, not too many benefits, lots of sitting around, lots of rarely actually dealing with money or people, just cleaning and moving stuff around, and I fucking cried and sobbed on my very last shift. I loved working there, even at the worst of times, which might usually mean dealing with drunk coworkers, and being confused because the cook said one thing and the other staff said another thing, but I got through those annoying times and had a good time, able to drown out my world in music as I worked. I could organize dirty dishes in MINUTES to soak in soapy water in a couple of minutes of walking in the door, and then have all that shit done at my own little leisurely pace. Or I'd be pressed to have those dishes DONE for the parties coming in that night, and I LOVED It. I REVELED in it, to pump to the music and get that shit done, and done WELL. Cook needed a pot cleaned? Cleaned at my own leisure or cleaned at the drop of a hat and re-readied for her use in 20 minutes of hard scrubbing the shit out of the pot!
Now... I'll be living with "Crazy Cat Lady" grandma for a month, if I don't end up going crazy and buying a ticket for myself out of there... Hell, I'd sleep in the lobby of the airport if it meant getting away from this bitch if things go sour! I have love interests here in Texas, and a job that I could come back to at the drop of a hat! Or I'll be going to Atlanta where a friend assures me of a job within a week at a warehouse with someone he used to work with and a place to stay to put my computer and shit! Yeah... I'm not even to Alaska yet, and I'm already bitching about a grandmother I haven't SEEN, much less talked to, in roughly a decade... A grandmother with no sense of understanding that I'm not always right in the head... Will there be "murder in the kitchen with the razor knife?" Or will I not go crazy? NEXT TIME, on .... Hawks' life and bitching of unreasonable relatives!
Now... I'll be living with "Crazy Cat Lady" grandma for a month, if I don't end up going crazy and buying a ticket for myself out of there... Hell, I'd sleep in the lobby of the airport if it meant getting away from this bitch if things go sour! I have love interests here in Texas, and a job that I could come back to at the drop of a hat! Or I'll be going to Atlanta where a friend assures me of a job within a week at a warehouse with someone he used to work with and a place to stay to put my computer and shit! Yeah... I'm not even to Alaska yet, and I'm already bitching about a grandmother I haven't SEEN, much less talked to, in roughly a decade... A grandmother with no sense of understanding that I'm not always right in the head... Will there be "murder in the kitchen with the razor knife?" Or will I not go crazy? NEXT TIME, on .... Hawks' life and bitching of unreasonable relatives!
AnimeFest 2015
Posted 10 years agoSo I went to Animefest, and thoroughly enjoyed myself for the four or so hours i was there with a friend. She and I got lost a few times because FUCK DALLAS, FUCK THOSE FREEWAYS, FUCK THE TOLLWAYS, FUCK THE HOV LANES, and just overall FUCK DALLAS. Fort Worth and Arlington for the win!
Anyways: I might see about uploading some of the pictures I took from AnimeFest, because although I was mostly the 'camel' and photographer for my friend, I had fun being a catboy again, while she was Judar from Magi.
In other news, I am pleased with my new computer, which loads sooooo fast, it's smexy. :3 that new computer smell...
Anyways: I might see about uploading some of the pictures I took from AnimeFest, because although I was mostly the 'camel' and photographer for my friend, I had fun being a catboy again, while she was Judar from Magi.
In other news, I am pleased with my new computer, which loads sooooo fast, it's smexy. :3 that new computer smell...
MLP: Celestia's Changes
Posted 10 years agoSo, I've seen some fan made videos, the toys, plushies, comics, and the show, and I have to wonder about why Celestia, who used to apparently be white with pink-coloured mane/tail, would now be her sparkle-butt rainbow colours... my guesstimate:
1: Since using the Elements of Harmony to seal her sister in the moon, alone and using only her own willpower, it dyed her follicles in her mane and tail, immediately, permanently.
2: Since having sealed her sister away, over time, a good hundred years plus, using two kinds of magic, solar and lunar, she has mixed her magics, thus changing her solar magic, appearing more pink and yellow, to remixing in the darker shades of the spectrum of her sister's magics, of blue and black, creating the light blue and green in her colours.
This also allows for the weakening, furthermore, for Luna to kidnap/imprison her sister during the Summer Sun celebration, season 1 episode 1, with the mixing of magics, it makes Celestia much more susceptible towards Luna's tricky magics. Luna is, by far, the far stronger of the siblings, being able to fight her sister, without assistance, the very first time she was banished, until Celestia grasped upon the Elements of Harmony.
1: Since using the Elements of Harmony to seal her sister in the moon, alone and using only her own willpower, it dyed her follicles in her mane and tail, immediately, permanently.
2: Since having sealed her sister away, over time, a good hundred years plus, using two kinds of magic, solar and lunar, she has mixed her magics, thus changing her solar magic, appearing more pink and yellow, to remixing in the darker shades of the spectrum of her sister's magics, of blue and black, creating the light blue and green in her colours.
This also allows for the weakening, furthermore, for Luna to kidnap/imprison her sister during the Summer Sun celebration, season 1 episode 1, with the mixing of magics, it makes Celestia much more susceptible towards Luna's tricky magics. Luna is, by far, the far stronger of the siblings, being able to fight her sister, without assistance, the very first time she was banished, until Celestia grasped upon the Elements of Harmony.
Games for Commissions
Posted 10 years agoWilling to pay for games on STEAM to pay for commissions if any artist is up for it! :D I usually build up to stuff though.
Workplace Love
Posted 10 years agoDespite the title, no I don't have an inter-workplace love, I just love my work. I get paid more than I should, for the amount of work that I actually do, at the amount of hours that I am at work. I love coming here, enjoying the people, the place, the work, and the patrons.
Earlier we had a kiddie party, the manager had for his son, and one of our usual patrons came with her little girl, who adores me, loves getting and giving me hugs, and just plain gravitates towards me, if she can help it. Had a fun time runnin little kids around with a laser light, and let them "beat" on me with balloon "weapons", haha. It has been an overall good night, a good week, and I can't complain! But I'll upload a picture of the wonderful girl, that if anybody ever tries to hurt or bully... Those people will be experiencing agony...
Earlier we had a kiddie party, the manager had for his son, and one of our usual patrons came with her little girl, who adores me, loves getting and giving me hugs, and just plain gravitates towards me, if she can help it. Had a fun time runnin little kids around with a laser light, and let them "beat" on me with balloon "weapons", haha. It has been an overall good night, a good week, and I can't complain! But I'll upload a picture of the wonderful girl, that if anybody ever tries to hurt or bully... Those people will be experiencing agony...
Friend in Need!
Posted 10 years agoSo... a friend and her husband are in need of some monetary assistance, and they're sellin stuffz for it!
At the moment, they're selling a well-taken care-of 3DS XL, with at least 3 games, and a charger. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16362774/
If you really REALLY want one, $120 is a DEAL, considering that at the stores I visit, you'd just get the core, the 3DS XL, without charger, without games, for $130, add those 3 games in, you're lookin at $200+ at usual retail stores like Wally-World/Wal-Mart, GameStop, etc... So... yeah, this is a DEAL-grabber, if you have the money to spend, a 3DS XL is good for keepin kiddies and friends shut the fuck up while on long road trips, or even bragging about if you have pokemon DS/3DS games!
If I had the money to spare, I'd buy this, but I dont have the money to spare, so I'm sending this out to all my friends/watchers/what-have-you.
Now, since this artist ( http://www.furaffinity.net/user/phoenix-of-a-down/ ) is also feeling in dire-straights, I think it pertinent that some people, as I know I will, donate a few dollars to their paypal. This will help them get off their debts and bills, and back on their feet stable and all.
The artist also might be putting up a set of YCHs soon to help, for cheap.
Recap: Artist selling 3DS XL for a DEAL/SALE/GRAB-IT-NOW-AWESOME-CHEAP! Donate, possibly YCH, help your fellow artists with their issues, support!
At the moment, they're selling a well-taken care-of 3DS XL, with at least 3 games, and a charger. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16362774/
If you really REALLY want one, $120 is a DEAL, considering that at the stores I visit, you'd just get the core, the 3DS XL, without charger, without games, for $130, add those 3 games in, you're lookin at $200+ at usual retail stores like Wally-World/Wal-Mart, GameStop, etc... So... yeah, this is a DEAL-grabber, if you have the money to spend, a 3DS XL is good for keepin kiddies and friends shut the fuck up while on long road trips, or even bragging about if you have pokemon DS/3DS games!
If I had the money to spare, I'd buy this, but I dont have the money to spare, so I'm sending this out to all my friends/watchers/what-have-you.
Now, since this artist ( http://www.furaffinity.net/user/phoenix-of-a-down/ ) is also feeling in dire-straights, I think it pertinent that some people, as I know I will, donate a few dollars to their paypal. This will help them get off their debts and bills, and back on their feet stable and all.
The artist also might be putting up a set of YCHs soon to help, for cheap.
Recap: Artist selling 3DS XL for a DEAL/SALE/GRAB-IT-NOW-AWESOME-CHEAP! Donate, possibly YCH, help your fellow artists with their issues, support!
3rd March...23rd day... 2015... Yay...
Posted 10 years agoStardate: Don't give much of a fuck... Have tried dating for the last year... not much success... at all. Either I get friendzoned by the gay guys, the girls, or they act too much like little girls to get over stupid subjects... I mean... CMON, SERIOUSLY??? How hard is it to get over a fucking emotional shutdown after being told that I just felt so insulted at the moment???? How childish can you be to not get over it?????? I woke up the next morning, alive as all could be, wanting to make sunshines and happinesses... and what do I get? "we gotta talk... so it doesn't happen ever again..." Which leads to more bullshittery of lies and deception, and description of her ex-husband, who apparently acts a lot like me... Only... I don't betray... I don't cheat, I keep faithful... all the denying about it all... WHY DENY IT??? Fucking hate people sometimes... Some people can just FUCKING GROW UP AND GROW SOME FUCKING DAMN BRAINCELLS!
So here I am... having to block her, for now... somehow still in contact with her best friend, who weirdly... hunted down my phone number... probably begged for it? Wouldn't surprise me if it comes to bite me in the ass later... Not sure if I can even salvage the situation, not that she'd be willing to be more than her desire to be a crazy dog lady who house-sits for dog owners, so that they can go on vacation, while she babysits their dogs, and sits around her home, just not doing much beyond hunting down some slimey bastard to take care of her... despite my desire to have been that at one point or another... still am, still will, when she finally grows the braincells to admit her childishness, and maybe meet me on the adult level... but alas... to prove my own childishness, here I am, "bragging" about this failed relationship... looking for what I hope is true love eventually... knowing that I might never get with anybody who has any inkling of what I like in art, in gaming, or much less a, hopefully woman, who games pretty well, has a good job, can get over looks, doesn't mind/likes liquor, and likes a guy, who although not perfect, knows they can trust him to not cheat, and maybe eventually finish this damn run-on sentence... I'd take anyone between 20-30... but alas, probably all hooked up with asshole boyfriends, married with cheating husbands, etc... stupid, unimaginative little girl that she is...
SO... that's my summary... aside from the damn cold and sore throat I picked up along the line somewhere... Probably from the goddamn sex-offender who sat in the seat a couple of meters away and smoked into the air currents created by the ventilation systems of the bar I work at... or maybe from when I cleaned up those fuckin vents the other day... in any case... Was told by a bartendress that I might have to beat him up sometime soon... and although I WON'T beat the shit out of him, I might eventually just pick him up by the collar of his shirt and drop him off outside... he knows that I stared daggers at him the last couple of nights that I worked... having to take a sick night, because who wants to work with the guy coughing up a goddamn lung, and spitting up luggies???? No one, that's what. Who wants to risk getting sick from the white guy? No one. I'll be tryin to go to work this evenin, hopefully without coughin up a lung. Stupid fucking sex-offending, waste of money, waste of time, waste of his family... at least when I was a waste on my family, I gave back in useful ways, rather than stealing and drinking and smoking away what little money they lent me... should clean himself up, stop bein a mental case, or maybe lock himself inside of a mental facility, and get better, for his family's sake...
And who knows... maybe a few people might comment and leave some hate that I can feed my desires off of...
So here I am... having to block her, for now... somehow still in contact with her best friend, who weirdly... hunted down my phone number... probably begged for it? Wouldn't surprise me if it comes to bite me in the ass later... Not sure if I can even salvage the situation, not that she'd be willing to be more than her desire to be a crazy dog lady who house-sits for dog owners, so that they can go on vacation, while she babysits their dogs, and sits around her home, just not doing much beyond hunting down some slimey bastard to take care of her... despite my desire to have been that at one point or another... still am, still will, when she finally grows the braincells to admit her childishness, and maybe meet me on the adult level... but alas... to prove my own childishness, here I am, "bragging" about this failed relationship... looking for what I hope is true love eventually... knowing that I might never get with anybody who has any inkling of what I like in art, in gaming, or much less a, hopefully woman, who games pretty well, has a good job, can get over looks, doesn't mind/likes liquor, and likes a guy, who although not perfect, knows they can trust him to not cheat, and maybe eventually finish this damn run-on sentence... I'd take anyone between 20-30... but alas, probably all hooked up with asshole boyfriends, married with cheating husbands, etc... stupid, unimaginative little girl that she is...
SO... that's my summary... aside from the damn cold and sore throat I picked up along the line somewhere... Probably from the goddamn sex-offender who sat in the seat a couple of meters away and smoked into the air currents created by the ventilation systems of the bar I work at... or maybe from when I cleaned up those fuckin vents the other day... in any case... Was told by a bartendress that I might have to beat him up sometime soon... and although I WON'T beat the shit out of him, I might eventually just pick him up by the collar of his shirt and drop him off outside... he knows that I stared daggers at him the last couple of nights that I worked... having to take a sick night, because who wants to work with the guy coughing up a goddamn lung, and spitting up luggies???? No one, that's what. Who wants to risk getting sick from the white guy? No one. I'll be tryin to go to work this evenin, hopefully without coughin up a lung. Stupid fucking sex-offending, waste of money, waste of time, waste of his family... at least when I was a waste on my family, I gave back in useful ways, rather than stealing and drinking and smoking away what little money they lent me... should clean himself up, stop bein a mental case, or maybe lock himself inside of a mental facility, and get better, for his family's sake...
And who knows... maybe a few people might comment and leave some hate that I can feed my desires off of...
A second journal in the SAME MONTH!?
Posted 10 years agoINSANITY! I KNOW, RIGHT!?
In any case...
Good news? I still have a JOB!
Bad news? I still have to work with this one girl who's a pissant... 2... I think I might have a little girl who might be taking me for a father figure... or at least a really really good buddy... I feel awkward...
Thing is: like most people, particularly young kids ages 5-12, they LOVE getting hugs and getting picked up and twirled around like the little kiddies that they are, and enjoy being pulled up into the air, the feeling of freedom and joy it gives them, usually... I ADORE this child, who comes in with her mother, gets whatever soda she wants, is allowed and enabled to play whatever, and well... I only just found out the other night, that her father died just in January... and his would-have-been birthday is... soon... I feel so horrible about hearing that... that he had died, and that his birthday and all would have been soon... I would NEVER do anything sexual to a child, EVER... but by God, this child needs a new father figure, a GOOD buddy, and well... maybe someone who can talk to the mother about certain things that she needs to know... Still... would be nice to maybe have some help in the matter... would be nice to maybe have some help in the matter... I am... not the best person to help with a child... despite letting her play on the 3DS and play with all the cute pokemon on it... Might save up enough for her to get her own, and maybe get a few games...? Her mother is FAR from the worst mother, and if anything ever happens to this little girl... I will hunt down any motherfuckers who harms her in any way... Jail/prison be damned, I'll go Liam Neeson on whoevers' asses I need to kill...
In any case... I want to help her get through the loss of her father, and help the mother with whatever issues she may have on the matter.
If anybody lives in the D/FW area wants to pop on by every few evenings, I work every night, nearly, and there ARE computers, and there is wifi access, and outlets all over the place, although the drinks and food might be a bit... limited, unless you're fluent in Vietnamese and know what to ask for, might be able to help this girl and her family through their loss, and keep her out of trouble, harm's way, and bring a new aspect to the place: safety beyond just me, and a couple of other people...
If you're in the D/FW area of Texas, and want to drop by whenever you want, note me and well... not sure I want to publicize everything just yet... CPS is usually a bitch and would do more harm than good at this point, and some of the police in the area aren't very keen on keeping places like my workplace open at all... despite them bringing in PLENTY of taxes... bunch of nit-picking pigs that this group of officers are... ANYWAYS, I'll note you information IF you're in the area and want to drop by and learn about the place a bit...
In any case...
Good news? I still have a JOB!
Bad news? I still have to work with this one girl who's a pissant... 2... I think I might have a little girl who might be taking me for a father figure... or at least a really really good buddy... I feel awkward...
Thing is: like most people, particularly young kids ages 5-12, they LOVE getting hugs and getting picked up and twirled around like the little kiddies that they are, and enjoy being pulled up into the air, the feeling of freedom and joy it gives them, usually... I ADORE this child, who comes in with her mother, gets whatever soda she wants, is allowed and enabled to play whatever, and well... I only just found out the other night, that her father died just in January... and his would-have-been birthday is... soon... I feel so horrible about hearing that... that he had died, and that his birthday and all would have been soon... I would NEVER do anything sexual to a child, EVER... but by God, this child needs a new father figure, a GOOD buddy, and well... maybe someone who can talk to the mother about certain things that she needs to know... Still... would be nice to maybe have some help in the matter... would be nice to maybe have some help in the matter... I am... not the best person to help with a child... despite letting her play on the 3DS and play with all the cute pokemon on it... Might save up enough for her to get her own, and maybe get a few games...? Her mother is FAR from the worst mother, and if anything ever happens to this little girl... I will hunt down any motherfuckers who harms her in any way... Jail/prison be damned, I'll go Liam Neeson on whoevers' asses I need to kill...
In any case... I want to help her get through the loss of her father, and help the mother with whatever issues she may have on the matter.
If anybody lives in the D/FW area wants to pop on by every few evenings, I work every night, nearly, and there ARE computers, and there is wifi access, and outlets all over the place, although the drinks and food might be a bit... limited, unless you're fluent in Vietnamese and know what to ask for, might be able to help this girl and her family through their loss, and keep her out of trouble, harm's way, and bring a new aspect to the place: safety beyond just me, and a couple of other people...
If you're in the D/FW area of Texas, and want to drop by whenever you want, note me and well... not sure I want to publicize everything just yet... CPS is usually a bitch and would do more harm than good at this point, and some of the police in the area aren't very keen on keeping places like my workplace open at all... despite them bringing in PLENTY of taxes... bunch of nit-picking pigs that this group of officers are... ANYWAYS, I'll note you information IF you're in the area and want to drop by and learn about the place a bit...
So... Life as of March 2015:
Posted 10 years ago2015 has been... Eventful folks... For one: I have had a job for nearly two months, yay! At a bar/cafe lol!
Bad news: cops came in, see me, think I'm drinkin, but obviously can tell that I am not drunk, haha! Cops find my boss, off-duty himself, and he tells em "I've had a couple of beers, sure," and arrest him for "TABC violations" of "you can't drink at your own establishment"... So might be tomorrow til I see him... But still, coming in here, acting corrupt... Next time I see this shorty-cop too, I'm askin for his badge and bond numbers, and makin sure he knows people are lawyering up... Fucker done messed with my workplace for all the wrong reasons... Corruption is small and looking for any reason for a fire fight too...
Arlington PD, if you know me, just know this shorty cop is acting corrupt and costing us money, costing us hours, and possibly costing us our jobs of just above minimum wages... You've assigned the wrong officers to the wrong places, and now we are not going to take those corrupt officers much anymore. Bring a good natured, mature, officer of the law here, and we will be good people to that or those officers, but next time this red headed shorty comes in here, I will be verbally whoopin him.
As for the other side of life... Thoughy I had a love interest... Not sure if I do at all... Or ever will maybe...
Bad news: cops came in, see me, think I'm drinkin, but obviously can tell that I am not drunk, haha! Cops find my boss, off-duty himself, and he tells em "I've had a couple of beers, sure," and arrest him for "TABC violations" of "you can't drink at your own establishment"... So might be tomorrow til I see him... But still, coming in here, acting corrupt... Next time I see this shorty-cop too, I'm askin for his badge and bond numbers, and makin sure he knows people are lawyering up... Fucker done messed with my workplace for all the wrong reasons... Corruption is small and looking for any reason for a fire fight too...
Arlington PD, if you know me, just know this shorty cop is acting corrupt and costing us money, costing us hours, and possibly costing us our jobs of just above minimum wages... You've assigned the wrong officers to the wrong places, and now we are not going to take those corrupt officers much anymore. Bring a good natured, mature, officer of the law here, and we will be good people to that or those officers, but next time this red headed shorty comes in here, I will be verbally whoopin him.
As for the other side of life... Thoughy I had a love interest... Not sure if I do at all... Or ever will maybe...
Shit shit shit and more shit
Posted 10 years agoFirst of all, this is an upset tipsy drunken rant, because I'm heartbroken, im lonely and pissed off.
First off, I'd like to thank my pissy little coworkers, whining about wanting to go home early, instead of appreciating the gains of money... Forcing me to also listen to fucking nicki minaj for two. You whiny cliq-gossiping bitches have no class, you have no sense of music, nor art, and I'm fucking sure as hell you don't know the furry fandoms! So... FUCK YOU BITCHES!
To the bitch who simply used me to get alcohol, and get me tipsy, fuck you and the horse you piggybacked on. You got your free shot, and still didn't give me that dance to a good song, and whenever anybody tries to friendly-pick you up, you curb us, and stomp on us. Fuck you.
To the one who calls herself my friend: you barely talk to me, and when I don't talk with you, it's me who's at fault. I shouldn't have re-befriended you, nor should I have gone to meet you on New Years. You would stand me up any day of the year if it didn't benefit you. FUCK YOU. You've broken my heart twice, and I don't think I can go for a third. And fuck your home owners for not "letting" you go out to a friends, much less spend the night, much less have any freedom outside of work! FUCK THEM.
I can only trust to videogames, art, music. Fuck nicki and Kanye, you talentless gold digginfo fuckoffs!
I'm going to pass out now and hope I regret this journal when I reread it!
First off, I'd like to thank my pissy little coworkers, whining about wanting to go home early, instead of appreciating the gains of money... Forcing me to also listen to fucking nicki minaj for two. You whiny cliq-gossiping bitches have no class, you have no sense of music, nor art, and I'm fucking sure as hell you don't know the furry fandoms! So... FUCK YOU BITCHES!
To the bitch who simply used me to get alcohol, and get me tipsy, fuck you and the horse you piggybacked on. You got your free shot, and still didn't give me that dance to a good song, and whenever anybody tries to friendly-pick you up, you curb us, and stomp on us. Fuck you.
To the one who calls herself my friend: you barely talk to me, and when I don't talk with you, it's me who's at fault. I shouldn't have re-befriended you, nor should I have gone to meet you on New Years. You would stand me up any day of the year if it didn't benefit you. FUCK YOU. You've broken my heart twice, and I don't think I can go for a third. And fuck your home owners for not "letting" you go out to a friends, much less spend the night, much less have any freedom outside of work! FUCK THEM.
I can only trust to videogames, art, music. Fuck nicki and Kanye, you talentless gold digginfo fuckoffs!
I'm going to pass out now and hope I regret this journal when I reread it!
POKEMANZ! Halp?
Posted 11 years agoSo... I'm looking to restart a copy of pokemon X, so that I can get multiples of Legendaries... alas... certain traded pokemon, with certain Mega Evolution stones that they carried, are not transferable to the PokeBank app that I have a subscription for... anybody with X/Y/OR/AS that might be willing to assist? I might be able to retry a third go-through for an extra mewtwo/Xerneas/Zygarde, and maybe an extra legendary bird that I'd be more than happy to waste weeks chasing down... again... and again... and maybe again... if I can find the right people to help out. My ultimate goal: fill the pokedex, with as much effort as possible, and be able to trade for those pokemon legendaries that would require OTHER legendaries to get...
Back in the Pokemon ADVANCE Gameboy era, I had S/FR/Em, and was able to complete at least one third of the current sets of pokedexes, without much more help than borrowing my brother's GBA so I could trade betwixt my own games. And I was, and I guess still am, a completionist at heart. And I'm not going to be a naive lil child and just lend this DS/games to anybody, like I did, and ended up never seeing my three pokemon games and my own GBA ...
So... help out a poke-bro/friend?
Back in the Pokemon ADVANCE Gameboy era, I had S/FR/Em, and was able to complete at least one third of the current sets of pokedexes, without much more help than borrowing my brother's GBA so I could trade betwixt my own games. And I was, and I guess still am, a completionist at heart. And I'm not going to be a naive lil child and just lend this DS/games to anybody, like I did, and ended up never seeing my three pokemon games and my own GBA ...
So... help out a poke-bro/friend?
DESTINY Fun Facts and The Update We Will Never Get.
Posted 11 years agoBoth parts are copy/Pasted from the forum. The first is just plain funny and the second is a critique that I thoroughly agree with.
DESTINY FUN FACTS
1. Xûr is Saturn's most successful pornstar. His stage name is Xûr: Agent of the Nine Inches.
2. Strange Coins are actually Chuck E. Cheese tokens. Xûr is addicted to skeeball.
3. The Cryptarch's past jobs include meter maid, IRS auditor, slumlord, DMV agent and a guard at Auschwitz.
4. Crota was bullied mercilessly in Hive School. The kids called him names like, "Scrota" and "The Dork Below".
5. The Queen and her brother have read Flowers in the Attic like a hundred times.
6. Eva Levante keeps all the good shaders in her bedroom. You can get one, but first you have to do a special favor for old Eva.
7. The Speaker is actually just 3 monkeys in a long cloak.
8. "The Traveler" is Wesley Crusher's final form.
9. The Vex were born when a freak lightning storm caused Stephen Hawking's brain to merge with his speech computer.
10. Eris's favorite band is Third Eye Blind.
The update we'll never get-
"We listened to the masses, and are making some changes to the game.
5 million people bought the dlc, so we have plenty of funds to make this game fun again!
We are doubling vault space, hell, lets triple it, what do we care?
You can now trade your useless acendant mats for other things, 10 to 1 for radiant mats, 1 to 1 for marks.
Survival mode added. Its really fun, and you get more loot the longer you stay alive.
Grimoire is accessible in game, so people actually read it.
As you complete sections of the grimoire, cut scenes are unlocked, revealing story points, it was always there, we just forgot to put it in.
You can now change your characters appearance once a week for 10,000 glimmer.
We made some really fun bounties for you to try, because we are sick of the same crap since launch as well.
You can now add modifiers to any mission, and complete it for rewards suitable to difficulty.
Of course we don't want every single core player looking identical, the outfitter can help. You just need the armor that has the appearance you want and the armor that has the stats you want. Take it to the outfitter with a chunk of some materials or something and BLAM you have sweet, unique armor, it's so -blam!-ing simple, I can't believe we didn't have this in since release.
Crota's End sparrow can do tricks.
We agree, all those low impact auto rifles and pulse rifles are like shit on a dick. Nobody wants it, so we added some decent/balanced ones.
We fixed all them annoying bugs, like the sword disappearing, and the Templar random containment fields.
Queens Wrath is coming this week.
Turns out there is not a problem with YOUR network, it was OUR problem all along. lol.
Oh, and 5 more strikes are available, just because we are rolling in cash, and we want to thank you, the customer, for being such a sport, and believing in us."
But instead Bungie just carry on, completely oblivious to core problems in the game.
Why do I look forward to reading this every week?
This could get 1000 bumps, it won't make any difference. I don't think they even read the comments.
Lol, ignore it until it goes away. Perfect PR. Oops, should I of pulled that punch?
DESTINY FUN FACTS
1. Xûr is Saturn's most successful pornstar. His stage name is Xûr: Agent of the Nine Inches.
2. Strange Coins are actually Chuck E. Cheese tokens. Xûr is addicted to skeeball.
3. The Cryptarch's past jobs include meter maid, IRS auditor, slumlord, DMV agent and a guard at Auschwitz.
4. Crota was bullied mercilessly in Hive School. The kids called him names like, "Scrota" and "The Dork Below".
5. The Queen and her brother have read Flowers in the Attic like a hundred times.
6. Eva Levante keeps all the good shaders in her bedroom. You can get one, but first you have to do a special favor for old Eva.
7. The Speaker is actually just 3 monkeys in a long cloak.
8. "The Traveler" is Wesley Crusher's final form.
9. The Vex were born when a freak lightning storm caused Stephen Hawking's brain to merge with his speech computer.
10. Eris's favorite band is Third Eye Blind.
The update we'll never get-
"We listened to the masses, and are making some changes to the game.
5 million people bought the dlc, so we have plenty of funds to make this game fun again!
We are doubling vault space, hell, lets triple it, what do we care?
You can now trade your useless acendant mats for other things, 10 to 1 for radiant mats, 1 to 1 for marks.
Survival mode added. Its really fun, and you get more loot the longer you stay alive.
Grimoire is accessible in game, so people actually read it.
As you complete sections of the grimoire, cut scenes are unlocked, revealing story points, it was always there, we just forgot to put it in.
You can now change your characters appearance once a week for 10,000 glimmer.
We made some really fun bounties for you to try, because we are sick of the same crap since launch as well.
You can now add modifiers to any mission, and complete it for rewards suitable to difficulty.
Of course we don't want every single core player looking identical, the outfitter can help. You just need the armor that has the appearance you want and the armor that has the stats you want. Take it to the outfitter with a chunk of some materials or something and BLAM you have sweet, unique armor, it's so -blam!-ing simple, I can't believe we didn't have this in since release.
Crota's End sparrow can do tricks.
We agree, all those low impact auto rifles and pulse rifles are like shit on a dick. Nobody wants it, so we added some decent/balanced ones.
We fixed all them annoying bugs, like the sword disappearing, and the Templar random containment fields.
Queens Wrath is coming this week.
Turns out there is not a problem with YOUR network, it was OUR problem all along. lol.
Oh, and 5 more strikes are available, just because we are rolling in cash, and we want to thank you, the customer, for being such a sport, and believing in us."
But instead Bungie just carry on, completely oblivious to core problems in the game.
Why do I look forward to reading this every week?
This could get 1000 bumps, it won't make any difference. I don't think they even read the comments.
Lol, ignore it until it goes away. Perfect PR. Oops, should I of pulled that punch?
So... Steven Universe Anybody?
Posted 11 years agoReview of Steven Universe: 8/10
Yknow... from time to time, there comes along a supposedly kids show, meant to be funny and everything... somehow, this show IS... but it's also one of those that, like FUTURAMA, will make you CRY, if you have any sort of emotions. The main character's friends, these three magical women that are called "Gems", for the type of gem somewhere on their bodies(Pearl in her head, Garnet in her hands, Amethyst in between her boobs), and the main character has a rose-quartz gem in his belly button... all of these main characters live in some nowhere beach town with a mountain, with a temple in it, with a beachhouse built into said-temple. Sounds like a setup made of crap, huh? Well, you'd only be 1/3rd right. The series is a jumble of mismatched information and pretty women fighting monsters.
You begin to get a sense of some kind of storyline somewhere, I forgot where, but it begins to build into something relating a storyline, when you come to like, relate and fall in love with the characters(as friends). One particular episode, you see Steven watching Pearly as she looks up to the sky, and talking about how she wanted to show the main character their home worlds. He goes to his father, and they begin putting junk together, for fun, and just being silly. His father's early-episode lesson? "It's OK to bail!" Later on that episode, Pearly creates a home-made spaceship, and takes Steven up in it. As the ship begins to fall apart around them, Steven forces her to bail, as the ship falls apart and explodes shortly after they eject from the craft. "I was so close... so close..." It all ends with her understanding that she wants to stay and keep Steven safe, wondering why she wanted to leave beyond seeing her home again, despite being immortal.
The next episode I remember off the top of my head, which is a real mind-fuckery. Steven begins giving the Gems birthday parties, but is told-off along the way, around the third party, that "it is childish". He begins to mope and age rapidly, wanting to be grown up. He goes back to the gems as a dying old man, and they throw him a party, but having regressed in happiness and optimism, clearly in depression in such a way as to give up overall on life, at one point, Garnet begins to punch and slap him, crying herself, not wanting to let him die, and hoping to beat it out of his system. They do all of the things that he wanted to do for them, and try everything they can think of to change his mind. In the end, I forget how he got back to being his usual self, but the whole... trying to save him in any way possible... well, I cried when Garnet started to.
Then for another dramatic moment, there was LAPIS LAZULI, two episode(actually only worth a whole 30 minutes(22 if you actually think about cutting out all the ads and what-have-yous) story. Steven wants to try going to school, and Pearl can't think of a way to actually teach him using earth-based methods, so she gives him a magical mirror, that doesn't seem to work at first. He begins to mess around with it in silly ways that only children can think to do stupidly, until it begins to copy what it has seen around the town, watching Steven and the world around him, until it begins talking to him using copied words. He takes it back to the temple to show off, and reluctantly it begins to mimic the things around town in front of them. That gets them worried and upset, and demand he give the mirror back into their care, so he runs out, after knocking Garnet's glasses off of her face, revealing her three eyes, and severely making her angry. He runs out to the beach and the mirror tells him to pull the gem from the back of the mirror, and after he does, Lapis appears, with large round eyes, blank and reflecting, and very angry with the Gems as they attempt to fight her, and finding out that Steven is one as well, but not wanting to hurt the one who freed her, she goes out into the ocean, and getting away without anymore damage to the Gems beyond their pride, for the moment. In the second half, you find that she has taken the whole Ocean, and built a tower, trying not to control the earth, but to reach her home, trying to spread the water as far as it can go, so that she might get to her homeworld. Her gem was cracked and broken, so her powers as-were, were at maybe 1/5th of what they should have been, to enable her travel, but Steven, using his healing-spit, fixes her, and she is grateful to him. Although... as she flies off into the universe, her tower collapses with Steven at the top, but of course, by this time, Steven has had a magical lion-friend, and a future-girlfriend, for long enough that they teleport up to him and grab him as he falls, getting back down and escaping being killed and/or drowned as Steven creates an orb around his father's van and most of the people pack into it.
For the drama, and overall compassion of the series, I would have to give the show a 2/10, add in the animation style being so decent, and the fight-scenes so ... pleasing, I give it another 4/10(6/10 so far). For what story there is, and the characters being how they are, another 1/10. For the hidden adult jokes, humor and just overall old-school feeling, another 1/10, for a total of 8/10! I might discuss the rest later...
Yknow... from time to time, there comes along a supposedly kids show, meant to be funny and everything... somehow, this show IS... but it's also one of those that, like FUTURAMA, will make you CRY, if you have any sort of emotions. The main character's friends, these three magical women that are called "Gems", for the type of gem somewhere on their bodies(Pearl in her head, Garnet in her hands, Amethyst in between her boobs), and the main character has a rose-quartz gem in his belly button... all of these main characters live in some nowhere beach town with a mountain, with a temple in it, with a beachhouse built into said-temple. Sounds like a setup made of crap, huh? Well, you'd only be 1/3rd right. The series is a jumble of mismatched information and pretty women fighting monsters.
You begin to get a sense of some kind of storyline somewhere, I forgot where, but it begins to build into something relating a storyline, when you come to like, relate and fall in love with the characters(as friends). One particular episode, you see Steven watching Pearly as she looks up to the sky, and talking about how she wanted to show the main character their home worlds. He goes to his father, and they begin putting junk together, for fun, and just being silly. His father's early-episode lesson? "It's OK to bail!" Later on that episode, Pearly creates a home-made spaceship, and takes Steven up in it. As the ship begins to fall apart around them, Steven forces her to bail, as the ship falls apart and explodes shortly after they eject from the craft. "I was so close... so close..." It all ends with her understanding that she wants to stay and keep Steven safe, wondering why she wanted to leave beyond seeing her home again, despite being immortal.
The next episode I remember off the top of my head, which is a real mind-fuckery. Steven begins giving the Gems birthday parties, but is told-off along the way, around the third party, that "it is childish". He begins to mope and age rapidly, wanting to be grown up. He goes back to the gems as a dying old man, and they throw him a party, but having regressed in happiness and optimism, clearly in depression in such a way as to give up overall on life, at one point, Garnet begins to punch and slap him, crying herself, not wanting to let him die, and hoping to beat it out of his system. They do all of the things that he wanted to do for them, and try everything they can think of to change his mind. In the end, I forget how he got back to being his usual self, but the whole... trying to save him in any way possible... well, I cried when Garnet started to.
Then for another dramatic moment, there was LAPIS LAZULI, two episode(actually only worth a whole 30 minutes(22 if you actually think about cutting out all the ads and what-have-yous) story. Steven wants to try going to school, and Pearl can't think of a way to actually teach him using earth-based methods, so she gives him a magical mirror, that doesn't seem to work at first. He begins to mess around with it in silly ways that only children can think to do stupidly, until it begins to copy what it has seen around the town, watching Steven and the world around him, until it begins talking to him using copied words. He takes it back to the temple to show off, and reluctantly it begins to mimic the things around town in front of them. That gets them worried and upset, and demand he give the mirror back into their care, so he runs out, after knocking Garnet's glasses off of her face, revealing her three eyes, and severely making her angry. He runs out to the beach and the mirror tells him to pull the gem from the back of the mirror, and after he does, Lapis appears, with large round eyes, blank and reflecting, and very angry with the Gems as they attempt to fight her, and finding out that Steven is one as well, but not wanting to hurt the one who freed her, she goes out into the ocean, and getting away without anymore damage to the Gems beyond their pride, for the moment. In the second half, you find that she has taken the whole Ocean, and built a tower, trying not to control the earth, but to reach her home, trying to spread the water as far as it can go, so that she might get to her homeworld. Her gem was cracked and broken, so her powers as-were, were at maybe 1/5th of what they should have been, to enable her travel, but Steven, using his healing-spit, fixes her, and she is grateful to him. Although... as she flies off into the universe, her tower collapses with Steven at the top, but of course, by this time, Steven has had a magical lion-friend, and a future-girlfriend, for long enough that they teleport up to him and grab him as he falls, getting back down and escaping being killed and/or drowned as Steven creates an orb around his father's van and most of the people pack into it.
For the drama, and overall compassion of the series, I would have to give the show a 2/10, add in the animation style being so decent, and the fight-scenes so ... pleasing, I give it another 4/10(6/10 so far). For what story there is, and the characters being how they are, another 1/10. For the hidden adult jokes, humor and just overall old-school feeling, another 1/10, for a total of 8/10! I might discuss the rest later...
Am I a womanizer or..?
Posted 11 years agoMoral question here... Am I a womanizer? Or am I just a kind person who likes to think about sex and talk weirdly with women? Am I a bad person or am I a sexist? I mean... I know that in my future I want a wife who can hold her own against me in shooter games that I like, pokemon, and maybe owns a gun of her own, and loves animals, but not quite a vegan... I want someone who'll also be able to silence the demons inside, maybe curb my sexual desires and even kick me into line when I pop out of my line of being naughty, and sometimes embrace it... But I can be a player sometimes and it bothers me that I talk to all these beautiful women, some I would just plain love to be friends with, some I would love to please in damn near anyway, and some I would love to take to a bed with me, cuddle, fuck and sleep with... Maybe I'm just tired, maybe im having a mood swing of sorts, maybe insomnia is getting to me again with the music on my iPhone, maybe all this wanting a relationship with almost anybody and everybody has me here baring my heart for those who care, and to those even who want to stab me still after years passed... Might have a few nutjobs watchin me who will mean me harm, physical and mental pain. I dunno, but for those friends who care to read, comment, whatever; I don't mean harm to any woman, aside from those who mean me harm. I mean no harm, I just want to feel... Human, having grown up a loner, a lonely person who knew few faces, and knows so little except fear and distress and how to cloak myself.
I'm sorry. Going to bed in a few minutes. Will probably make a new journal in the morning wheni get some insight.
I'm sorry. Going to bed in a few minutes. Will probably make a new journal in the morning wheni get some insight.
Pray for People
Posted 11 years agoI would like people of faith; I don't care what you Believe in, just BELIEVE in it; to pray for my neighbor who's been jailed for CPS agents' stupidity, and endangering her children. My family is really close with this neighbor, and we hang/talk almost everyday at almost any hour. A paddy-wagon style group of officers arrested and took her away for not medicating one of her children, but still leaving them there without a guardian/parent present for the still under-10yr old children. Pray for the police officers that all they lose is their guns and badges, that the rest of their department learns not to do this, as they don't all act this stupid.
I would like to also have y'all pray for the Police and other law enforcement around the world, who are being assaulted, murdered and executed, for their lives. Not all police are corrupt, not all are vile and disgusting; some of them can be the donut-loving fat guys who love to be with kids and help their communities, and some can be those who are in-shape and do what they can for their community. The bad cops don't deserve their badges, but the good ones must not be condemned. The deeds of the few bad, must not be mistaken for the deeds of the whole.
Pray that the murderers are caught and brought to justice, instead of being killed in shootouts. Pray that they come to find their inner peace, acceptance and forgiveness for their vile acts against Humanity as a whole.
And pray that we do not become a world of chaos too far gone in 5 years...
I would like to also have y'all pray for the Police and other law enforcement around the world, who are being assaulted, murdered and executed, for their lives. Not all police are corrupt, not all are vile and disgusting; some of them can be the donut-loving fat guys who love to be with kids and help their communities, and some can be those who are in-shape and do what they can for their community. The bad cops don't deserve their badges, but the good ones must not be condemned. The deeds of the few bad, must not be mistaken for the deeds of the whole.
Pray that the murderers are caught and brought to justice, instead of being killed in shootouts. Pray that they come to find their inner peace, acceptance and forgiveness for their vile acts against Humanity as a whole.
And pray that we do not become a world of chaos too far gone in 5 years...
Embodiment
Posted 11 years agoWe all have troubles, we all have someone that hates us to the absolute, fears us, and we disgust them simply for living... But what embodies that disgust, fear and hatred? Why do these manifest so easily? How do they come to manifest yonder-so? And for what reason and purpose do they define in a person?
Have you ever been the social pariah? The True-Loner? The hermit of your town?
I have been them, for never was I one for those of my age, though I desperately tried, always failing; too afraid to ask that one cute girl out for a date, too sick and dejected after asking that one girl, and failing her due to having a sickness of bedrest, and fell so far... Failed love, failed friendships, and those who you thought friendly and able; they're your villains now... You're too strong to let them keep you down, too strong to BOW DOWN, for they are not GOD OR GODS OR GODDESSES! You are too strong and they know it; they fear it, and there is only one way to be rid of those too strong to control... Ignore them. Kill them at their hearts. And then death follows with them...
I am not death, nor am I a Horseman. I am not a hero, that train left long ago thanks to them... I am no villain, for I have not fallen that far... I am a mixture of both, for both good and evil reside within. I could and will kill a person in the future, that is my villainy to show off that I will... But it is as the anti-hero that I kill them in defense of my fellows, my friends, for I will not kill in offense of an innocent, who has not earned death by my hands, much as I sometimes wish there was a list of those people deserving in my mind, but there is no such list in my mind of those who DESERVE IT, death. I have a list of those who I would want to earn it, but I will not push for them to be in that list, ever. For there is still hope for the hero half in me, but that is all it will ever be: half of me.
I do not hate those, in the truest form, who have wronged me, like those on this website, those who have created pariahs of us, trying to socially remove us, but we are not such people to accept defeat so easily, and you have no reason to hate us and remove us from society, except when we hunt you... Those who have truly broken the rules... We will find you, and you will suffer the rules, for we are the hounds of the judges. We find you for them, and they give justice of our Rights and Freedoms.
We are not moderators, much as we could very well be, we are but people who Believe, and who are too strong for your trolling, too strong for your bans to make an actual impact on our lives... But you will feel us, you will ridicule us, and you will do everything in your powers to discredit us. Good luck.
And for those who need a strong person, a strong fursona, you may look to me for friendship, and you will find it.
Have you ever been the social pariah? The True-Loner? The hermit of your town?
I have been them, for never was I one for those of my age, though I desperately tried, always failing; too afraid to ask that one cute girl out for a date, too sick and dejected after asking that one girl, and failing her due to having a sickness of bedrest, and fell so far... Failed love, failed friendships, and those who you thought friendly and able; they're your villains now... You're too strong to let them keep you down, too strong to BOW DOWN, for they are not GOD OR GODS OR GODDESSES! You are too strong and they know it; they fear it, and there is only one way to be rid of those too strong to control... Ignore them. Kill them at their hearts. And then death follows with them...
I am not death, nor am I a Horseman. I am not a hero, that train left long ago thanks to them... I am no villain, for I have not fallen that far... I am a mixture of both, for both good and evil reside within. I could and will kill a person in the future, that is my villainy to show off that I will... But it is as the anti-hero that I kill them in defense of my fellows, my friends, for I will not kill in offense of an innocent, who has not earned death by my hands, much as I sometimes wish there was a list of those people deserving in my mind, but there is no such list in my mind of those who DESERVE IT, death. I have a list of those who I would want to earn it, but I will not push for them to be in that list, ever. For there is still hope for the hero half in me, but that is all it will ever be: half of me.
I do not hate those, in the truest form, who have wronged me, like those on this website, those who have created pariahs of us, trying to socially remove us, but we are not such people to accept defeat so easily, and you have no reason to hate us and remove us from society, except when we hunt you... Those who have truly broken the rules... We will find you, and you will suffer the rules, for we are the hounds of the judges. We find you for them, and they give justice of our Rights and Freedoms.
We are not moderators, much as we could very well be, we are but people who Believe, and who are too strong for your trolling, too strong for your bans to make an actual impact on our lives... But you will feel us, you will ridicule us, and you will do everything in your powers to discredit us. Good luck.
And for those who need a strong person, a strong fursona, you may look to me for friendship, and you will find it.
OC meme thingamajigger!?!?
Posted 11 years agoSo... I've been tagged for this OC meme by my friend AvalonAnders http://www.furaffinity.net/user/avalonanders/
and now I guess I am obligated to do this thing... DAG NABBIT, AVALON! I SHALL HUG YOU IN REVENGE!!
RULES :
1. Pick one of your OCs.
2. Fill in the questions/statements as if you were your OC.
3. Tag four people to do this meme!
4. Tell people that they been tagged with a link from your journal
OC picked: Hawkcon Briareos Storms
1. What is your name?
'Hawks' Hawkcon Briareos 'Lightning' Storms
2. Do you know why you were named that?
Because this is my name I have given myself, to be anonymous to those who do not know me, to be who I am on the inside, and who I am with my brothers.
3. Single or taken?
This is a question? What sort of confangled question is this!? Single-complicated!
4. Have any abilities or powers?
Three as of yet that are understood.
Technical-situational understanding, if not awareness.
Spiritual awareness and intuition(Includes extreme and deadly weather).
Hardware-electronics special fingers(if it don't work like it should for you, I can make it work)
5. Stop being a Mary Sue!
Who is this Mary Sue you speak of? I don't know of, nor sense a Mary Sue, unless they're one of those characters from some random Pride and Prejudice DVD...?
6. What's your eye colour?
Brown
7. How about hair colour?
DARK brown(Has been confused for black)
8. Have you any family members?
Too many to name... Seriously...
But one that I remember is MintFennec, who used to go to the meets with her father... I miss her dearly.
9. Oh? How about pets?
They all passed away, but I could do with a few more. :3
10. That's cool, I guess. Now tell me something you don't like.
Being called something that I am not, in a bad way. Little boys with potty mouths on online games. Partners that lie about so and such things when they promised to be true. Condescending assholes(Sherlock Holmes robert downey jr exempted). People with claims to power giving stupid orders.
11. Do you have any activities/hobbies that you like to do?
Gaming, looking into the other World, hanging out, doing stupid acrobatics that my body shouldn't be able to do, touching broken electronics, hugging pretty, new, fun electronics, riding bicycles down steep walk and road ways; speeding past traffic that's in a jam and laughing out loud at them as I pass them all, and get to where I need to go, before they catch up finally. English grammatical error-fixer. Hugging, cuddling, working, sleeping, tasting stuff.
12. Have you ever hurt anyone in any way before?
Yes, but I don't want to talk about it...
13. Ever… killed anyone before?
Yes.
14. What kind of animal are you?
Mutt-Chimera, only one head. Anti-stereotype Chimera.
15. Name your worst habits.
Forgetfulness. Laziness of working out.
16. Do you look up to anyone at all?
Plenty of people to look up to, but I try to look them in the eye all the same, as the people they are.
17. Are you gay, straight, or bisexual?
Bisexual. When the ladies refuse the nice guys so often, we often turn to each other, but we still appreciate the female body, although we desire the mind as well...
18. Do you go to school?
Life.
19. Ever want to marry and have kids one day?
Yes.
20. Do you have fangirls/fanboys?
Just the younger cousins who adore me for my skills and want to be like me in those skills one day.
21. What are you most afraid of?
I am never afraid, just surprised from time to time.
22. What do you usually wear?
Casual-differentiallities. Naked to full-on badass dressed-up.
23. What's one food that tempts you?
Burrrrrrrriiiiiiiitooooooes.
24. Am I annoying you?
Not particularly, I tend to make sarcastic remarks to things I have been putting off.
25. Well, it's still not over!
TOO BAD! - See?
26. What class are you (low class, middle class, high class)?
If I'm honest? Middle-class. I will not make claims to airs I have not earned.
27. How many friends do you have?
Depends from day to day. I can have as few as 10, but as many as a thousand.
28. What are your thoughts on pie?
It replaced the cake that is a lie!
30. Favourite drink?
Suicide mixed beverage(mix all but the diet sodas into one cup, shake carefully but thoroughly). If you mean alcohol? It's up in the air with Jack Daniels straight-up, and something called the Veigar's Dark Matter.
31. What's your favourite place?
Anywhere with a clean, warm bed.
32. Are you interested in anyone~?
I am. They shant be named until the day that we choose to be.
33. That was a stupid question.
No-shit Doc!
34. Would you rather swim in a lake or the ocean?
Hmm... I've been in both, and I am not particular.
35. What's your type?
What sort of question is this supposed to be!?!? I am not well versed in this silly question! AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!
36. Any fetishes?
Plenty, one of which fits to the person I am interested in.
37. Seme or uke?
I would have to say... Seme. When I feel like controlling someone, I can very well do that, within reason.
38. Camping or indoors?
Both, in fact: if needed to, I could very well camp outside.
39. Tag People!
Dammit....
Dynosaur
Wandering Ferret
Koda
Averydragon
Good luck, yonder friends and acquaintances!
and now I guess I am obligated to do this thing... DAG NABBIT, AVALON! I SHALL HUG YOU IN REVENGE!!
RULES :
1. Pick one of your OCs.
2. Fill in the questions/statements as if you were your OC.
3. Tag four people to do this meme!
4. Tell people that they been tagged with a link from your journal
OC picked: Hawkcon Briareos Storms
1. What is your name?
'Hawks' Hawkcon Briareos 'Lightning' Storms
2. Do you know why you were named that?
Because this is my name I have given myself, to be anonymous to those who do not know me, to be who I am on the inside, and who I am with my brothers.
3. Single or taken?
This is a question? What sort of confangled question is this!? Single-complicated!
4. Have any abilities or powers?
Three as of yet that are understood.
Technical-situational understanding, if not awareness.
Spiritual awareness and intuition(Includes extreme and deadly weather).
Hardware-electronics special fingers(if it don't work like it should for you, I can make it work)
5. Stop being a Mary Sue!
Who is this Mary Sue you speak of? I don't know of, nor sense a Mary Sue, unless they're one of those characters from some random Pride and Prejudice DVD...?
6. What's your eye colour?
Brown
7. How about hair colour?
DARK brown(Has been confused for black)
8. Have you any family members?
Too many to name... Seriously...
But one that I remember is MintFennec, who used to go to the meets with her father... I miss her dearly.
9. Oh? How about pets?
They all passed away, but I could do with a few more. :3
10. That's cool, I guess. Now tell me something you don't like.
Being called something that I am not, in a bad way. Little boys with potty mouths on online games. Partners that lie about so and such things when they promised to be true. Condescending assholes(Sherlock Holmes robert downey jr exempted). People with claims to power giving stupid orders.
11. Do you have any activities/hobbies that you like to do?
Gaming, looking into the other World, hanging out, doing stupid acrobatics that my body shouldn't be able to do, touching broken electronics, hugging pretty, new, fun electronics, riding bicycles down steep walk and road ways; speeding past traffic that's in a jam and laughing out loud at them as I pass them all, and get to where I need to go, before they catch up finally. English grammatical error-fixer. Hugging, cuddling, working, sleeping, tasting stuff.
12. Have you ever hurt anyone in any way before?
Yes, but I don't want to talk about it...
13. Ever… killed anyone before?
Yes.
14. What kind of animal are you?
Mutt-Chimera, only one head. Anti-stereotype Chimera.
15. Name your worst habits.
Forgetfulness. Laziness of working out.
16. Do you look up to anyone at all?
Plenty of people to look up to, but I try to look them in the eye all the same, as the people they are.
17. Are you gay, straight, or bisexual?
Bisexual. When the ladies refuse the nice guys so often, we often turn to each other, but we still appreciate the female body, although we desire the mind as well...
18. Do you go to school?
Life.
19. Ever want to marry and have kids one day?
Yes.
20. Do you have fangirls/fanboys?
Just the younger cousins who adore me for my skills and want to be like me in those skills one day.
21. What are you most afraid of?
I am never afraid, just surprised from time to time.
22. What do you usually wear?
Casual-differentiallities. Naked to full-on badass dressed-up.
23. What's one food that tempts you?
Burrrrrrrriiiiiiiitooooooes.
24. Am I annoying you?
Not particularly, I tend to make sarcastic remarks to things I have been putting off.
25. Well, it's still not over!
TOO BAD! - See?
26. What class are you (low class, middle class, high class)?
If I'm honest? Middle-class. I will not make claims to airs I have not earned.
27. How many friends do you have?
Depends from day to day. I can have as few as 10, but as many as a thousand.
28. What are your thoughts on pie?
It replaced the cake that is a lie!
30. Favourite drink?
Suicide mixed beverage(mix all but the diet sodas into one cup, shake carefully but thoroughly). If you mean alcohol? It's up in the air with Jack Daniels straight-up, and something called the Veigar's Dark Matter.
31. What's your favourite place?
Anywhere with a clean, warm bed.
32. Are you interested in anyone~?
I am. They shant be named until the day that we choose to be.
33. That was a stupid question.
No-shit Doc!
34. Would you rather swim in a lake or the ocean?
Hmm... I've been in both, and I am not particular.
35. What's your type?
What sort of question is this supposed to be!?!? I am not well versed in this silly question! AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!
36. Any fetishes?
Plenty, one of which fits to the person I am interested in.
37. Seme or uke?
I would have to say... Seme. When I feel like controlling someone, I can very well do that, within reason.
38. Camping or indoors?
Both, in fact: if needed to, I could very well camp outside.
39. Tag People!
Dammit....
Dynosaur
Wandering Ferret
Koda
Averydragon
Good luck, yonder friends and acquaintances!
WIP: Emotions, Raw
Posted 11 years agoEmotions,
Raw and unbidden,
Consuming uncontrollably,
For here now our sons,
Killing to kill for fun,
Killing to kill the rage,
Raw and unbidden,
Consuming all uncontrollably,
All for the love of feeling,
Emotions,
Raw and unbidden.
Kill me or heal me,
These emotions,
Raw and unbidden,
Coming uncontrollably,
Friends are few,
Enemies are many,
Surrounding all in some way,
That is what it feels like,
So we kill to survive,
So we kill to kill,
So we kill to avenge,
These emotions,
Raw and unbidden.
These Raw Emotions,
So all consuming,
Where is our control?
Where is our clamp on our sting?
Where is the hug against our hate?
Where is the care to our raw emotions?
So all consuming,
These Raw Emotions.
Will finish this at a later time...
Raw and unbidden,
Consuming uncontrollably,
For here now our sons,
Killing to kill for fun,
Killing to kill the rage,
Raw and unbidden,
Consuming all uncontrollably,
All for the love of feeling,
Emotions,
Raw and unbidden.
Kill me or heal me,
These emotions,
Raw and unbidden,
Coming uncontrollably,
Friends are few,
Enemies are many,
Surrounding all in some way,
That is what it feels like,
So we kill to survive,
So we kill to kill,
So we kill to avenge,
These emotions,
Raw and unbidden.
These Raw Emotions,
So all consuming,
Where is our control?
Where is our clamp on our sting?
Where is the hug against our hate?
Where is the care to our raw emotions?
So all consuming,
These Raw Emotions.
Will finish this at a later time...
Well... (explicit anger and cussing)
Posted 11 years agoI feel like my "Bullshittery meter" is about to burst...
From all the facebook, and some stuff here, and some on DevArt... Some people that I respect as individuals, don't feel like they should in-turn pass us, half-artists, any; demanding it, and in fact banning and blocking those who would give them praise for their works, while meeting new people, exploring new areas of fandoms, and having fun on their dev art and FA posts... And it pisses me off that they would pretend to judge us. That or maybe it's just my time of year where I feel all the anger rise and I want to fucking break a wall... All my controlled rage, and I want to fucking break someone or something... and I dare not do with mine or my renters' property, as I care for both as my own... but to be given a job breaking things... give me a fucking sledge hammer and I'll BREAK THAT GODDAMN WALL DOWN IN BERLIN BY MY SELF!
Maybe I want to also waste some money on some art, spare that $120 dollars on something worth it... maybe I should go check out Strype or Faint... hell... if I could get those two stubborn bastards to work on a co-opted project, would be cool, might help cool me down at the same time, knowing that I helped resolve a conflict... or if I could go kill those mentally ill murderers out there, who's sole job in life is to kill, by murder and rape, and save entire regions of life, being a beacon of death...?
Maybe I want something more... maybe I want to be the anti-hero of some little girl being abused up the road... saving her, but killing those who abuse her... All that rage, such a wimpy body that I should be working out... And yet: nobody fucks with a person carrying around a fake sword, walking in the middle of the ghetto, wearing a dark military-inspired colour of a hoodie, and the sword strapped to the upper back with a backpack full of God knows what...
For right now, my anger is pointed at a few talented individuals, not just one, who have demanded respect, and when given a response that is inconclusive, or not inclusive in the littlest way to their demands, they block you. No single way to talk to them like normal individuals, no fluttershy talk, no pinkiepie making up, no. You mess up once, and they will fuck you over. I have been blocked on both DevArt and FA by several individuals who thought they would demand these respects, without warning, nor representation, nor counter-argument to an honest answer from a loyal fan. Just a single "You don't respect me or my art at all!" despite all the praises given for their works... I could ask and question Strype and Faint, or any number of other talented individuals who have maybe less control of their emotions, but they force their emotions into their art, and their stories... They accept jokes, or if they don't understand it, they ask about it. From my favorite webcomic artist I could joke all day, and all I would get from him are LOLs and every which way joke and acceptance of criticism and political discussion, with the occasional reminiscence of an old time animation from our growing-up days, like Transformers BEASTWARS... This is respect from both fan and author-artist. I have seen roleplays from multiple individuals on pages on both DA and FA, and I will see the artist go "WOW!" or "Please stop doing this here," but leave it alone. So WHAT if it doesn't fit your rules exactly, but that all involved had fun, and all who scroll by, will see and go "That is funny!"? Why can there be no fun but praise of your artwork? You could even take from an RP session right in front of you, and ADD to what is already yours! Authors will look at an RP and go "MY GOD, this is PERFECT!" or if you're not a Christian or agnostic, but rather a ... I don't know! "BY THE PRIESTESS! THIS IS AWESOME!" I've talked with such people and they used what was there, adding to their projects, taking from our lives and using for their fictions from our fictions, without directly plagiarizing...
This... on top of everything good and neutral in my life... pushes me to make a fucking rant... I may not be able to comment anymore on those pages from the last six months of getting banned, but if those people look to troll those who have been banned... I have not named you, and should you name me, your name will be as well, for I will be Watching, and watch I shall, from those I loyally watch-still, you traitors... I will enjoy your works of art, your fictions... but I will watch your channels, your pages, your journals... and I will loyally watch, but I will not hesitate to bring you down... on top of losing my brother, you have no chance of killing this friend that you have so stabbed in the back, this friend you could have had, had you not scoffed... and I can still be your friend, but remember: transgressions done, can not be forgotten so easily. I will not hurt you, physically, nor will I actively hunt you mentally, but I will always be that ghost in the background... the invisible one...
But if you want a ghost with a bad attitude, you can have one, by poking the nest and bragging like a stereotypical "OMG POPULERRRRRR" cheerleader.
Keep up the good work, artists, authors, and everyone else.
From all the facebook, and some stuff here, and some on DevArt... Some people that I respect as individuals, don't feel like they should in-turn pass us, half-artists, any; demanding it, and in fact banning and blocking those who would give them praise for their works, while meeting new people, exploring new areas of fandoms, and having fun on their dev art and FA posts... And it pisses me off that they would pretend to judge us. That or maybe it's just my time of year where I feel all the anger rise and I want to fucking break a wall... All my controlled rage, and I want to fucking break someone or something... and I dare not do with mine or my renters' property, as I care for both as my own... but to be given a job breaking things... give me a fucking sledge hammer and I'll BREAK THAT GODDAMN WALL DOWN IN BERLIN BY MY SELF!
Maybe I want to also waste some money on some art, spare that $120 dollars on something worth it... maybe I should go check out Strype or Faint... hell... if I could get those two stubborn bastards to work on a co-opted project, would be cool, might help cool me down at the same time, knowing that I helped resolve a conflict... or if I could go kill those mentally ill murderers out there, who's sole job in life is to kill, by murder and rape, and save entire regions of life, being a beacon of death...?
Maybe I want something more... maybe I want to be the anti-hero of some little girl being abused up the road... saving her, but killing those who abuse her... All that rage, such a wimpy body that I should be working out... And yet: nobody fucks with a person carrying around a fake sword, walking in the middle of the ghetto, wearing a dark military-inspired colour of a hoodie, and the sword strapped to the upper back with a backpack full of God knows what...
For right now, my anger is pointed at a few talented individuals, not just one, who have demanded respect, and when given a response that is inconclusive, or not inclusive in the littlest way to their demands, they block you. No single way to talk to them like normal individuals, no fluttershy talk, no pinkiepie making up, no. You mess up once, and they will fuck you over. I have been blocked on both DevArt and FA by several individuals who thought they would demand these respects, without warning, nor representation, nor counter-argument to an honest answer from a loyal fan. Just a single "You don't respect me or my art at all!" despite all the praises given for their works... I could ask and question Strype and Faint, or any number of other talented individuals who have maybe less control of their emotions, but they force their emotions into their art, and their stories... They accept jokes, or if they don't understand it, they ask about it. From my favorite webcomic artist I could joke all day, and all I would get from him are LOLs and every which way joke and acceptance of criticism and political discussion, with the occasional reminiscence of an old time animation from our growing-up days, like Transformers BEASTWARS... This is respect from both fan and author-artist. I have seen roleplays from multiple individuals on pages on both DA and FA, and I will see the artist go "WOW!" or "Please stop doing this here," but leave it alone. So WHAT if it doesn't fit your rules exactly, but that all involved had fun, and all who scroll by, will see and go "That is funny!"? Why can there be no fun but praise of your artwork? You could even take from an RP session right in front of you, and ADD to what is already yours! Authors will look at an RP and go "MY GOD, this is PERFECT!" or if you're not a Christian or agnostic, but rather a ... I don't know! "BY THE PRIESTESS! THIS IS AWESOME!" I've talked with such people and they used what was there, adding to their projects, taking from our lives and using for their fictions from our fictions, without directly plagiarizing...
This... on top of everything good and neutral in my life... pushes me to make a fucking rant... I may not be able to comment anymore on those pages from the last six months of getting banned, but if those people look to troll those who have been banned... I have not named you, and should you name me, your name will be as well, for I will be Watching, and watch I shall, from those I loyally watch-still, you traitors... I will enjoy your works of art, your fictions... but I will watch your channels, your pages, your journals... and I will loyally watch, but I will not hesitate to bring you down... on top of losing my brother, you have no chance of killing this friend that you have so stabbed in the back, this friend you could have had, had you not scoffed... and I can still be your friend, but remember: transgressions done, can not be forgotten so easily. I will not hurt you, physically, nor will I actively hunt you mentally, but I will always be that ghost in the background... the invisible one...
But if you want a ghost with a bad attitude, you can have one, by poking the nest and bragging like a stereotypical "OMG POPULERRRRRR" cheerleader.
Keep up the good work, artists, authors, and everyone else.
Destiny Review
Posted 11 years agoDestiny... Bungie's future... Not for many of us who played the BETA and saw the RAW POTENTIAL... and saw the failure of the game's release... It's been just over a month since it came out, and just over a month have I been playing it... A LOT... I've got exotics out the wazzoo and can't use most of them because some suck compared to others, and wait... "EXOTICS OUT THE WAZZOO?!?!?" You may be thinking: "How do you have so many exotics? Aren't they supposed to be SUPER RARE and HARD TO GET!?!?" My answer: No. At least not for Warlock players... In fact I have an extra exotic weapons bounty waitin for me to accept it, for a secondary of a weapon that I already have! Legendaries are more sporting even! I think I even had my Titan's gear all legend and exotic'd out before my warlock was due to my luck! Even have a hunter chest piece that I picked up at random from an exotic engram I got from Xur!
The item collecting is fun for a month, but it gets boring, very quickly. The story that they had, was too disjointed and disconnected, and they made EVERY SINGLE FUCKING EXCUSE to NOT FUCKING TELL IT! The Speaker: "I could tell you... I could tell you... I could tell you..." Nope... Random EXO character who pops out of nowhere: "I don't even have time to tell you why I don't have time to tell you..." Not to mention the FUCKING GRIMOIRE CARDS... I tried, I really did try, but I look at only a few things on the INTERNET that aren't about reading up on a game that is THIS FUCKING DISJOINTED AND BROKEN! And I'm NOT going to spend hours reading the shit that I should have been reading or seeing and hearing IN THE DAMN GAME! You basically get all your useful information out of pre-mission statements and your Ghost, aka "little light", and a couple of cutscenes. That is ALL. Sure, the enemies are fun an all, but there is the whole missing fucking storyline. You could have us fight all the same enemies ALL OVER AGAIN, in varying difficulty, and everybody would be HAPPY, if but there was that one thing missing: Storyline.
Then there's also the jumpships. Spoiler alert for anybody who doesn't know: They're loading screens. You don't even get to play "Shoot down the enemies minigame!" No. "Dodge the anti-air batteries?" No. "Watch the pretty lights go by for several minutes while the map loads and you get dropped into a devoid landscape?" Yes. SO... Even if you have one of the rarest and hardest to get jumpships in the game, and it LOOKS like it has weapons: THEY'RE ABSOLUTELY FUCKING WORTHLESS, except to say "I got this as a random reward for the Queen's Bounty rewards!" or "I did the vault of glass! I didn't even get any armor, but I got this cool... fuckin worthless... spaceship!"
Which leads me to the Vault of Glass: Truly, when it comes to difficulty, and having friends, this is the thing to go to: get a group of friends, be good on communications, be quick on the controller, and well... have friends. That is the only way to get through it, is to have six people, just to enter the Vault of Glass. For the 360, people, you're boned over because the in-game communications don't work for match-made teammates. You have to get invited to the fireteam, or join a Party chat, which may have their friends in it, who are annoyin as fuck when they're not IN THE SAME FUCKIN AREA AS YOU AND YOUR FIRETEAM. Much less even have XBOX LIVE GOLD ... I removed one annoying contact for constantly annoyin my friends, and he didn't even have Gold, just regular xbox live. There is also the issue of inter-console cooperation: none of the other consoles can work with any of the others, far as I can tell with the XBOXes... I am going to have to go through the list of acquaintences and remove those who are solely for the XBOX ONE because I'm a 360 gamer, and don't feel like letting microsoft have a bigger hold on my security and privacy, much less money on an overpriced console...
Bungie FURTHER fucks up even more: because SONY paid out the ass for content EXCLUSIVE to their consoles. So... those of you hoping "GO DESTINY ON XBOX! WHOOOOOH!" You would be sadly mistaken...
Bungie also hired EA to host their servers: EA has NO REGARD for sci-fi and fantasy games, outside of SPORTS games, example of MERCENARIES 2 and DEADSPACE 2 and 3 multiplayers, and I'm sure there's more out there they've fucked up...
I can honestly say that I would ONLY rent this game for a few days from REDBOX if I hadn't already gotten it for my birthday... For looks, fun shooter feel, and absolutely pissing in GEARBOX's collective face for Borderlands, albeit missing a lot, and making grinding fun, I give this game a 5/10. Missing the mark on the Storyline, using this 'grimmoire card' system, screwing it's fanbase over, and even allowing EA to host... as well as selling out, and losing half of it's team halfway through production...
Remember: 5/10. NOT WORTH BUYING. ONLY RENT.
The item collecting is fun for a month, but it gets boring, very quickly. The story that they had, was too disjointed and disconnected, and they made EVERY SINGLE FUCKING EXCUSE to NOT FUCKING TELL IT! The Speaker: "I could tell you... I could tell you... I could tell you..." Nope... Random EXO character who pops out of nowhere: "I don't even have time to tell you why I don't have time to tell you..." Not to mention the FUCKING GRIMOIRE CARDS... I tried, I really did try, but I look at only a few things on the INTERNET that aren't about reading up on a game that is THIS FUCKING DISJOINTED AND BROKEN! And I'm NOT going to spend hours reading the shit that I should have been reading or seeing and hearing IN THE DAMN GAME! You basically get all your useful information out of pre-mission statements and your Ghost, aka "little light", and a couple of cutscenes. That is ALL. Sure, the enemies are fun an all, but there is the whole missing fucking storyline. You could have us fight all the same enemies ALL OVER AGAIN, in varying difficulty, and everybody would be HAPPY, if but there was that one thing missing: Storyline.
Then there's also the jumpships. Spoiler alert for anybody who doesn't know: They're loading screens. You don't even get to play "Shoot down the enemies minigame!" No. "Dodge the anti-air batteries?" No. "Watch the pretty lights go by for several minutes while the map loads and you get dropped into a devoid landscape?" Yes. SO... Even if you have one of the rarest and hardest to get jumpships in the game, and it LOOKS like it has weapons: THEY'RE ABSOLUTELY FUCKING WORTHLESS, except to say "I got this as a random reward for the Queen's Bounty rewards!" or "I did the vault of glass! I didn't even get any armor, but I got this cool... fuckin worthless... spaceship!"
Which leads me to the Vault of Glass: Truly, when it comes to difficulty, and having friends, this is the thing to go to: get a group of friends, be good on communications, be quick on the controller, and well... have friends. That is the only way to get through it, is to have six people, just to enter the Vault of Glass. For the 360, people, you're boned over because the in-game communications don't work for match-made teammates. You have to get invited to the fireteam, or join a Party chat, which may have their friends in it, who are annoyin as fuck when they're not IN THE SAME FUCKIN AREA AS YOU AND YOUR FIRETEAM. Much less even have XBOX LIVE GOLD ... I removed one annoying contact for constantly annoyin my friends, and he didn't even have Gold, just regular xbox live. There is also the issue of inter-console cooperation: none of the other consoles can work with any of the others, far as I can tell with the XBOXes... I am going to have to go through the list of acquaintences and remove those who are solely for the XBOX ONE because I'm a 360 gamer, and don't feel like letting microsoft have a bigger hold on my security and privacy, much less money on an overpriced console...
Bungie FURTHER fucks up even more: because SONY paid out the ass for content EXCLUSIVE to their consoles. So... those of you hoping "GO DESTINY ON XBOX! WHOOOOOH!" You would be sadly mistaken...
Bungie also hired EA to host their servers: EA has NO REGARD for sci-fi and fantasy games, outside of SPORTS games, example of MERCENARIES 2 and DEADSPACE 2 and 3 multiplayers, and I'm sure there's more out there they've fucked up...
I can honestly say that I would ONLY rent this game for a few days from REDBOX if I hadn't already gotten it for my birthday... For looks, fun shooter feel, and absolutely pissing in GEARBOX's collective face for Borderlands, albeit missing a lot, and making grinding fun, I give this game a 5/10. Missing the mark on the Storyline, using this 'grimmoire card' system, screwing it's fanbase over, and even allowing EA to host... as well as selling out, and losing half of it's team halfway through production...
Remember: 5/10. NOT WORTH BUYING. ONLY RENT.
An awesome birthday...
Posted 11 years agoTruly, one of the more hilarious birthday mid-weeks I've ever had. From the weekend of the most memorable Halo3 1v1 I've ever had, to today's getting banned from a channel in EVE Online for calling out a channel that was turning into a monster of what it used to be, in the bad way, and laughing as I made hundreds of millions of ISK.
I'll start with Saturday evening. Got bored playing Portal 2 co-op with a friend from Georgia, and decided to try Halo4, couldn't without an active xbox live account(SCREW YOU MICROSOFT!) and so we went to Halo3. We started with Last Resort(Zanzibar), and I'm winning half-way at 16 kills to 14 kills, at which point I catch him at the over-passing bridge of the vehicle entrance, I'm on the side with the shotgun, he's on the stairs, trying to get a few shots off at me. I start lobbing grenades at him and one of which hits him straight in the camera, bouncing off and allowing him to jump away without taking damage from the explosion. His commenting though... "I just got called a pretty princess by a grenade... I've never felt so emasculated..." At that point, I just start cracking up laughing my ass off, and needing to just hold myself together, I take cover and let go of the controller with my left hand, allowing my right to lay it down against my left knee. I end up pressing the grenade throw trigger in... and killing myself, making me just about roll on the floor laughing! I haven't had so much fun with Halo3 in a long while!
Today: I log into EVE Online, and I get with a group that was suggested to me by a friend, Helix Incursions, and I get with their crew about going through one of the four ways into the pocket incursion. I end up taking a buzzard, instead of my basilisk, to the incursions, and renting a basilisk. This is an incursion area that hopefully WONT be touched, at all, by The Valhalla Project's crew of mom-site poppers, and every single person with a voice, voiced up their ideas that the drama created 3 weeks ago was bullshit, if they didn't, they were hardly making a case FOR TVP. And so, we compared TVP to ISN in how they had become the more hated community. All major talkers ended up agreeing that they had indeed become the worse evil for the community, taking beyond Incursion Shiny Network, which is known for it's contesting and winning, and even stealing the loot from the mom-site kill, but it had been years since they had begun their antagonizing, enjoying every little thing from EVE, knowing that it is a game. Well... some people would take a game and make it SUPER SERIOUS in the player versus environment... TVP has done so... making it so serious, that they would risk their channel and reputation as being inclusive, and friendly to all but those banned for offenses that I could agree with, to being well... that serious..
ANYWAYS, away from the tangent, I called them out for being the greater evil and the more disliked and hated channel in the incursion community. At which point I was subsequently banned. And the entire community that is in the incursion that I am in, laughed and laughed and laughed! The entire open community. How sad is it, when the open communities agree with a person who says "GET OVER IT!" and then the group keeps getting more and more butthurt over the truth, when the path to freeing themselves is simply in front of them, when they TRULY listen to reason, instead of causing the ruin of thousands of people who PLEX their accounts with the money they earn in the incursion sites on a daily basis. I'm going to say that I am right, and that I will fly with any group willing to take me, to make money enough to PLEX, and even buy the stuff I want to fly, for the fun of it! I am proud I got banned.
I'll start with Saturday evening. Got bored playing Portal 2 co-op with a friend from Georgia, and decided to try Halo4, couldn't without an active xbox live account(SCREW YOU MICROSOFT!) and so we went to Halo3. We started with Last Resort(Zanzibar), and I'm winning half-way at 16 kills to 14 kills, at which point I catch him at the over-passing bridge of the vehicle entrance, I'm on the side with the shotgun, he's on the stairs, trying to get a few shots off at me. I start lobbing grenades at him and one of which hits him straight in the camera, bouncing off and allowing him to jump away without taking damage from the explosion. His commenting though... "I just got called a pretty princess by a grenade... I've never felt so emasculated..." At that point, I just start cracking up laughing my ass off, and needing to just hold myself together, I take cover and let go of the controller with my left hand, allowing my right to lay it down against my left knee. I end up pressing the grenade throw trigger in... and killing myself, making me just about roll on the floor laughing! I haven't had so much fun with Halo3 in a long while!
Today: I log into EVE Online, and I get with a group that was suggested to me by a friend, Helix Incursions, and I get with their crew about going through one of the four ways into the pocket incursion. I end up taking a buzzard, instead of my basilisk, to the incursions, and renting a basilisk. This is an incursion area that hopefully WONT be touched, at all, by The Valhalla Project's crew of mom-site poppers, and every single person with a voice, voiced up their ideas that the drama created 3 weeks ago was bullshit, if they didn't, they were hardly making a case FOR TVP. And so, we compared TVP to ISN in how they had become the more hated community. All major talkers ended up agreeing that they had indeed become the worse evil for the community, taking beyond Incursion Shiny Network, which is known for it's contesting and winning, and even stealing the loot from the mom-site kill, but it had been years since they had begun their antagonizing, enjoying every little thing from EVE, knowing that it is a game. Well... some people would take a game and make it SUPER SERIOUS in the player versus environment... TVP has done so... making it so serious, that they would risk their channel and reputation as being inclusive, and friendly to all but those banned for offenses that I could agree with, to being well... that serious..
ANYWAYS, away from the tangent, I called them out for being the greater evil and the more disliked and hated channel in the incursion community. At which point I was subsequently banned. And the entire community that is in the incursion that I am in, laughed and laughed and laughed! The entire open community. How sad is it, when the open communities agree with a person who says "GET OVER IT!" and then the group keeps getting more and more butthurt over the truth, when the path to freeing themselves is simply in front of them, when they TRULY listen to reason, instead of causing the ruin of thousands of people who PLEX their accounts with the money they earn in the incursion sites on a daily basis. I'm going to say that I am right, and that I will fly with any group willing to take me, to make money enough to PLEX, and even buy the stuff I want to fly, for the fun of it! I am proud I got banned.
