Yes, I expect that EVERYONE that is watching me to reply to this journal, because I'm just about had it with the growing problem that I've been getting recently from this site...and I'm not going to sit here and do nothing about it.

For some reason, I feel like that you're taking me as another stupid noob trying to cheat his way in the art world with coloring artwork and such, posting things that not even mine and saying that I did all of the work and stuff. Just to finally get that problem out of the way, I literally asked these people of I could color their works or not. But no matter what, I still get the stupid "Oh great, he's just another fucking art thief, so I'll ignore his pathetic fucking ass" treatment from the majority, even though I DO post copyrights on the artwork description and sometimes on the actual artwork. So what: Do you have massive grudge with people who simply color pictures, despite if they get permission to from other artists or not? You just simply label as every last colorist as an "art thief"?

And what is the problem with my works, huh? I know that I'm a god with coloring works, but at least I put effort into them! But once again, eveyone gives me another dumb "ignore my ass" treatment all because "I just color works" or "I rather look at people who can draw rather than wasting their precious time coloring" or other dumb excuses to make me more pathetic to be on FA. If you're going to give me that kind of problem, then why in God's name are you watching me, huh? If I can't please you in ANY single way, then FIND SOMEONE ELSE THAT CAN SATISFY YOUR NEEDS!! I'M JUST ONE PERSON, AND I CAN EASILY GET STRESSED OUT IN A MATTER OF SECONDS!!!

Yes, I'm just had with people acting all friendly with me and hiding the fact that they see something absolutely wrong with my works. Seriously: for the people that are watching me, if you have A SINGLE problem with what I'm doing with any of my works, then quit being idiots and FLAT-OUT TELL ME!! Otherwise, quit watching me and find someone else that like a hundred times better than what I can pull of. Trust me: What I'm going through on FA is beyond annoying and I'm going to end now...even I have to speak to everyone last person on this site who acting like they have a massive grudge with what I'm doing around here!!!

That's all I have to say...bye.

I know that I won't have much luck with this, but right now I'm trying to find someone or some people who are willing to take some requests and/or commissions. No art-trades because I'm not a artist or drawer.

I have a few ideas that I would like to see drawn, and I'm willing to pay for the art piece. Most of them is general stuff, but if you're interested for the more mature ideas, you can ask me so...

That's all I have to say... Bye.

Yeah, I know haven't done much activity for at least a month or so. I just did a point where I thought all of my colorizations are meaningless, and that people only cares for porn or the supurb level of artwork.

Don't expect me to post very many. I'm working over the first part of summer and be going to summer school for the rest of the break to make up some classes. Plus, I'm kinda in a piccy mood for what kind of pics I want to color, so deal with it.

That's all I have to say...bye.

Yes, it's my B-day...and I'm pretty much not so excited about...don't care about even more.

And if anyone makes a damn joke about the whole "6/6/06" deal in this very journal, I'll fucking rip your head off. I'm not in the mood of putting up with the "OMFG!! YOU'RE GOING TO HELL!!" and "YOU HAVE THE SIGN OF THE DEVIL" mess. I'm stressed (as always), and I want to enjoy the rest of this day IN PEACE!!!

Bye...

I have a feeling that people will tell me that I worry too much about what others think of me, or say that the Internet is simply made for drama...but this is a very important issue to me, and I want everyone to hear:

Right, I'm fed up with people say that you shouldn't give a damn about what people say to you on the Internet, since its over-populated with stererotypical retards anyway (no offense to anyone). Well, I hate to burst your bubble, but just like the real world, you can easily offend someone off from the Internet, and they'll find whatever ways to ruin your life if they're willing to go THAT far.

Now at that point, you're all say "So what's the point? They don't know me in real life, so screw 'em..." Well, have you ever considered that they could ACTUALLY find information about you on the Internet, and use it in the most degrading way ever? And when people search that information about you, they'll actually humliate you in the real life, pretty much ruining your reputation in both ways? (And if you think I'm lying, think back about the events that led to the old Furaffinity to be shut down for months, and finding ONE CERTAIN ARTIST that was even made fun of on the Net!)

So yes: I really suggesting all of you to think about what you're saying, even to the people that actually harrasses you and junk for their own amusment. And yes, I'm being highly paranoid about what I'm saying, but at least I'm playing it safe instead of making a fool out of myself...probably ruining my life from years to come.

That's all I have to say from here.

I've calmed down a little, but still not in a cheerful mood what-so-ever. I really don't have anything else to say...

So yeah...byes...

Just when I thought things would get better for me, the little attempt to fix my computer failed...

So now I'm more than upset...so leave me alone.

This is a apology for the previous journal I posted. I just snapped when I computer went haywire on me.

I was having a bit of a bad day when that little event happened. My past memorie s were coming back to me on a regular basis, and at some points my computer will act up on me. Usually, I could fix it with a simple check-up with Spy Sweeper and all...until the condition got worse.

Luckily, I WAS smart enough to save the booted versions of PaintShop Pro and Photoshop onto a CD-ROM, but the rest on stuck on the computer, and unless I can get fixed ASAP, then I'll be more annoyed as ever.

So yeah, I'm sorry for those who got a bit offended with my previous journal. I just lost it all when my computer back-stabbed me. But now, I'm getting back to normal. And hopefully, I should get my computrer back into full operational condition by the end of week-end.

Again...this is just my luck. >.>

Look at me: I'm a fucking loser, today! Want to know why: I was so goddamn stupid enough to fuck-up my very own computer. And now because of that, I just probably blown my chance to stay with my true love forever and to be able to be color anything again!

But none of you people don't care! In fact, I bet all of you are laughing at my pathetic face because I was a fucking loser to begin with. And I can already tell that my coloring is no longer worthy to please you people, but here I am: still retarded enough to post something that no one cares about! Go-fucking me...

So please: Go ahead and put a gun into my face, and don't hesitate to pull the trigger. You'll be making someone very happy today.

I'm sorry if I haven't made any updates for a good while. Right now, I feel that I'm wasting my time posting anything on this page.

Plus, I'm going through my usual phase where I want to hate everyone that considers me as a good person, artist, whatever. Trust me: those don't know me who I trully am, and they're going to find out one way or the other.

So yeah, this is just my lucky week. >.>

It's about time that FA got to its senses and make things better for all of us.

Anyways, my list of colorizations is steadily growing, and with my Easter break coming up, I should be able to get some pic done; hopefully to impress the bigger audience with the new coloring style I've attempted.

And yes: I'm still trying my best to get all the sheets of my characters. Once that part's accomplished, I might let you guys have fun with drawing them and such (at this rate, I might as well just practice drawing).

So pretty much the same old news. Nothing new happening except with my improvement in coloring. Anyone is free to give me suggestion on making it better.

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-Hellbender DX

Just been busy with school-work...and with the lack of motivation in coloring...and I'm not the mood of dealing with problems now... I'm already stressed as it is...

On a light note...I bought myself a tablet. Still working on the pen tool, but I might get something up once I get use to it...

NOW LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!!!

For some reason, I might bore you with this, but I guess I have nothing else to say or do since I'm slow with the coloring works:

Throughout the week, I added two new characters in my character list. The two are free-lancers, so once I get a character sheet of them, feel free to draw 'em and stuff (just inform me first).

And yes: I know I have been mentioning this for quite a while: I'm planning to do some comics featuring some of my character (and yes, there will adult comics). But my luck with starting one would be similiar to finding a needle in a hay-stack. So unless I can develop a certain skill to do those, I have to rely on others to help me out...

That's all I have to say from here....

I guess I owe everyone a huge apology for my absence and my lack of commenting on other people's works and updating on my own. Been having bad weeks and trying to catch up on my works that haven't been done in months, as well as dealing with college.

Anyways, I'll try my best to get something up that's worth something to be viewed. And as for the people who watched and/or favored my pieces, I appreciate for that.

That's all I have to say. See-yas.

All right. Just want to know if there's any programs and/or tutorials where I can practice discovering a new style of coloring.

Any open-minded suggestions?

Umm...yeah...sorry that I was out for a long time. Just wasn't in the mood of coloring and was in a not-so-very-happy mood throughout my quarter break. Don't worry: I should have something up around the week-end.

And for the those who watched me during my absence: Thanks very much. I won't let ya down.

Somewhat of a serious question: Am I REALLY improving in my coloring skills, or do I ACTUALLY need to find a new skill?

And of course, that skill would consider - *shudders* -...drawing. -_-;;

Yeah...I'm on a new site called Storm-Artists.Net. Pretty much a new site in my view.

Anyone is welcome to join, but they won't allow adult works (sex, people showing off their "you-know-who", etc.) Not sure about nude works.

Anyways, that's all the news for now. Laters.

I want everyone to read this journal, because right now, I'm starting to get the hint that I'm screwing up somewhere in the artistic world and everyone is keeping that mistake away from me. And the more that particular mistake is kept away, the more I'm going to push myself towards giving up everything that I enjoy doing.

Right now, I starting to get a negative vibe around the artists in this place, espeically when it's concerning about my colorizations. To the majority out there, you think I that I'm just some wanna-be artist who thinks he can cheat his way up to the ranks by coloring picture from other artists, and annoy the hell out of them by bugging them with requests relating to porn. Well, before you throw that rude rumor onto my back, let me clear things up for you:

First: DON'T CALL ME A GODDAMN ARTIST!!! Seriously: You have no idea how insulting that is to me when you call me that! If you haven't noticed lately, I am a COLORIST. I only color artwork, and that's the only thing that I deserve to be called. So unless I can prove that I have the ability to draw (and the ones in my scrap section DOES NOT count as actual drawings), please don't call me an artist!

Second: I put a good amount of effort on almost all of my works, but it seems that you want to see artists that are considered "Gods" in the artistic world. For one, that brings a good amount of shame to many other artists that are trying to prove a point in FA, DevART, SheezyART, or any other site that allows artworks. And second: it builds unwanted competition, flame wars, and all other non-sense that should not be occuring from any one at any of these sites mentioned.

I may not be the best colorist as everyone expected to be, but at least I try my best in that area. So for once, stop treating I'm another retarded noob who slaps colors on a picture and calls it "art". And you still have problems with me for what I do, feel free to IM me instead of spreading crude rumors about me and my works!

Thank you.

All right: seems that my teachers in college are starting to pile me up with quizes, exams, essays, and research papers. And the reason for that it's getting close to end of the winter semester.

So I won't be putting much artwork up for the next two weeks or so. Maybe a few old pieces, but rarely any new ones. Once the semester nightmare has ended, I'll be back into business.

Until then, just try to be paitent with me. >.<;;

Snatched this from Kampaisuchi...because I can! =P

10 People/things you like (no particular order):

1) Pizza!! *munches*
2) Video Games (mostly good RPGs)
3) BURNOUT REVENGE!!! *crashes his car into a truck and explodes*
4) Newgrounds.COM: A good source of Daily Flashes.
5) Ninjas like Naruto! *makes whooshing noises*
6) Doom (Never played it since I'm too scared)
7) Coloring (It's what I do best!)
8) Ice Cream
9) Sleeping! (Zzzz....)
10) Pirates!! (Aaarrgghhh....where's me booty?! xD)

5 Things that make you happy (no particular order):

1) MORE PIZZA!!! *munches*
2) Talking to my gf! (wish I could see her. ;_;)
3) More sleeping! (ZZZzzzz...)
4) Watching zombie movies *shrugs*
5) Getting nice reviews on my works!


10 Things that you hate/dislike (no particular order):

1) Homework. >.<;
2) Dealing with stupid people.
3) Blood gushing out. (That's sick enough, dude!)
4) Bloody vore (Just....no)
5) Scat (.........)
6) People who claim themselves as artists, but can't draw shit.
7) Bloody vore
8) Bloody vore
9) Bloody vore
10) Yep, you guessed it! Bloody vore!!

3 Facts about your name:

1) My name is Michael Carter
2) I was named after Michael Jackson. o.o;
3) My sister wanted to give me a girl's name. (She was crazy back then.)

4 Random thoughts:

1) JY&TYTYDSTT^SAVDR^AERAR%CRD^W#%E&E^E#E#^&VQ^EVQ^VE&^#V^&AWV^&A^DR (That's random, isn't it?)
2) That last pic I colored from S'Zero....I made her look down-right evil.
3) I am Evil Homer!! I am Evil Homer!!
4) I'M RICK JAMES, BITCH!!! *slaps you*

Song you're listening to (give singer): Aquatic Pressure by Red Tailed Fox

People you'll tag this to: Uhh.... *blanks out and stares into space*

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Yeah...I was bored. >.>

Okay...with the commission that I got from a few paid artists, people that seemed interested in my coloring, and a few free-lancing, my list of colorizations has increased in ways that I least expected. Anyways, here's the updated list:

S'Zero Alaris (2): 20% Complete
Furball: 5% Complete
Yaita: 45% Complete
DK Torzi 40% Complete
New-Type Zero: 55% Complete
Inuki: 25% (Still Pending)
Requested Colorization 0% Completed

At this point, I won't accept requests (if I ever get any) at this time until I get to three colorizations left. So hello restless nights for me.

That's all for now. Laters.

Why are you watching me? Is it because I provide "porn" to you people? Am I just giving you pictures to you guys so you can whack off at any given time? Because if you are, you're putting me in shame for what I do.

Yeah, it's true: I do color picture with females that are mostly nude, but that doesn't mean that I'm so loser who fails to be part of a normal social life, and who sits on a computer 24/7 , whacking my dick off everytime I see some female naked! Another thing that annoys me is the lack of comments I get on my normal works. If you people really enjoy seeing my colorizations, then at least you would take the time and comment on them instead of favoring and commenting on my mature works. How would you like if I were to just favor mature and /or adult works and give you ridicilous and perverted comments on every last one of them?!

And the answer to that is: Just simply annoy the hell out of you!

So please! Just prove to me that I'm worth being on this place, and TRY to comment on my works, not just the ones with naked people! I put my effort on these pieces, and I should have the right to have some respect than to be treated like another porn artist...or wait! Let me make that correction! Porn "COLORIST!"

This journal is basically focused on how people view mature art. This journal is not to flame anyone, but it does point out an importance of this "problem of viewing mature works" and all. So far, I concluded three possible sides:

Side One: HAY!!! I'm a complete perverted loser who spend all of his life on the computer whacking off sexy pictures!! YEAH!! I wanna see lots and lost of girls getting fucked by dozen of guys!! Gots to have lots of cum-shots and dick-sucking and all that kinky shit!! Who cares about romance!! I wanna see people getting fucked 24/7 right in front of my computer!! You wanna know why: Because I'm a loser who refuses to be part of a normal social life!! Yay for me!!

Side Two: FUCK YOU AND FUCK EVERYONE WHO VIEW MATURE ARTWOK!!! I think it's totally disgusting to see two people naked and going at! That's right: I'm an ass who think sex is nothing more but a disgusting habit!! There's not love in sex: just two people fucking their brains, and it pisses me off!! Plus I hate artwork that show people being in the nude!! Oh, you think your good enough to stand around in the nude, showing off them boobies or your dicks?! WELL FUCK YOU!!! I'm gonna start a mob and flame everyon who likes or does mature artwork, hopefully to get them banned from any art website!! I JUST FUCKING HATE PORN!!!

Side Three: Yeah, I'm pretty much a mature guy here. I don't whack off like some dick would, or flame the hell out of the artist. If they want to do mature works, let them. Maybe they see something that others can't see, or it's just a hobby they like to do. And when I view mature works, I try my best to focus the importance of why their doing it. Probably because they want to express their love in that way? Ya know, having sex in a romantic way? It's possible once you think about it. And about the nude thing, maybe they just want to express their bodies in the natural form. Nothing wrong with that if you can be mature about it.

So tell me: Which side are you on?

In less than ten days, I already gained 100 watchers. For some reason, you people must like my colorings and all. Very strange indeed.

Anyways, I'm still trying my best to do the colorizations, along with some new ones that I found interesting to attempt. Besides that, nothing new happening.

That's all I have to say for now. Laters.