1.) Get a white dog, name it Alexander
2.) Get a brunette wig, put it on the dog
3.) Dress up as Shou Tucker
4.) take your dog on a walk

because when I am right it's usually about something ending bitter
I can tell people something for a long time and it's not until it already happens that they realized they should have listened
It's pretty much the story of my life....
I tell someone to avoid doing something and the exact thing that I said would happen turns out to be correct

I am anti-social for a reason
I can tell people exactly what to expect but they are surprised when it happens

I noticed that I also pick up patterns pretty well in video games
this is on a lighter note
I was watching a friend fight an enemy in Dark Souls 2 and I could tell they them the exact pattern their enemy was using although they used 2 similar ones and I could determine the reach without playing it, I could tell him when to attack and when to block
he usually only got hit if he used the wrong attack or went to attack when I said block

I am highly considering buying badger claws for a craft project I have in mind
has anyone ever worked with them before?
if so how tough are they and how hard to work with are they?

I've been browsing through and they don't seem too expensive

Currently I am lacking badger in my balance and I am considering creating my own personal badger totem
I'm sure it will be a journey on it's own, maybe then I will be able to see what is hiding in plain sight

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4270485/
It goes without saying that the content of the joirnal or nournals linked to this are for me to find easil and that contents and story elements are for my use only unless on the very unlikely occurence that i actually give someone permission to add on to the idea or recreate a small section

When i hunt everything down i will proceed to get everything typed into files and stored across several devices andcopies wi be made to be jeld in a cloud or two

it took forever to find a certain section of info
so now i have to be extra careful on how i keep it

I've always been fond of Tool music it's rhythm is soothing and intricate.
The song that affects me to most is 46 and 2.
I decided to turn off all noise and lights in a room and listen to 46 and 2 with my eyes closed and a clear mind to see what would happen.
I did it twice with a short break in between to write the first result down.
Each result was similar but with distinct differences.

Test #1
it feels as if I am in a trance
I fall outside myself and as I feel a sensation of being pulled downward I feel myself walking up an endless staircase that is leading me down the farther up I walk
and after about 4 minutes the staircase with me on it flips upside down and I am walking upward while underneath it and I reach the top of the stairs and feel myself lift back into my body and feel my body rising into the air
and I feel pressure down my back as the fur slowly grows covering more and more of my body until I am fully phantom wolf



Test #2
In a faster yet similar manner I fell through myself and landed on the same staircase, but after a few steps I was running and instead of going up or down it felt as if I were running on a flat surface.
slowly I started to feel a growing pressure near my shoulder blades, after a minute I felt air flowing through feathers as if I had grown wings and I jumped into the air and flew.
I dove downward for a while before flying away from the staircase, by the time I had circled back they had disappeared as if they had never existed the only thing that remained was a thin needle like point of land that had no purpose to be there and it vanished.
I thought of a meadow and I felt grass under my bare feet. then I tucked my wings in and took a deep breath. after that I opened my eyes and the song ended a few seconds later



I wonder what results others would get with a similar experiment

Carry on my wayward son...
my fingers are killing me lol
It is tricky and some of the notes are painful lol

but recently I have to
I have been having odd dreams constantly and last night the dreams were consecutively bad
I started out in a school with an ex of mine and I don't remember what was going on but everyone was in the gym and although I don't remember much the end is clear as day
I look down at the blanket we had been sitting on and there was a penny...
a few seconds later is darted around the blanket and disappeared with everyone who hadn't been near me and my ex turns to me and said "please tell me that was you" with a horrified look on his face
and I shook my head and we ran towards a stage when I randomly was thrown 20 feet in the air only to land safely on my feet.... again I shoot my head at him and a white glowing 23 appears on my forehead almost impossible to read before I tear myself out of the dream only to feel a strange pressure between my shoulder blades as if I am being held down
I kept still with my eyes shut and it felt like a white aura was the cause
so after several seconds I shift positions and it fades away and I go into my next dream
it was on a military base in a similar setting to to movie Blood: The last vampire
Some girl and I were being chased through what looked like a garage or hangar by her father who had a gun and I still had the number 23 in my head she hands me a gun and bullets
we manage to kill her father before she gets hit by a truck
then I realized that she was number 23 and I was told who was going to die
after that the number 1 was stuck in my head as a transitioned into my next dream
which was a cross species cloning program on the same base
we had been trying to clone a friend of mine who had died by mixing his DNA with several animal and alien species I don't remember the name of the one out of dozens that succeeded
it was essentially a shelving unit with different bin for each species and mass amount of each one
they were being watched to see which ones awoke 1st
one by one each species was awakening before a version of him the same age he had died was standing behind me and I instantly knew he was going to be number 1 and was going to die

i hate my dreams sometimes
I've dreamt of myself slowly bleeding out locked in a box unable to wake up until i was dead (that was a while ago)
now i dream that people that we close to me in dream only were dying one by one
I've had so many dreams that end up morbid that i tend to go nights without sleep because i don't want to deal with it
for the most part i don't remember my dreams
but when i do it's either really good or really bad, often the latter

So recently i had a drean that made me want to lay in bed all day
It started out fun
It was me a few friends and some others in a wotch like coven setting woth a fairy undertones we had been prepareing dor several tests when we got an announcment
we had a guest that needed help and to assemble a couple students to assist them
it was a young girl who had been attacked by her father who had been the leader of an evil group of whicb i dont remember the specifics
aAll i know is that we had to rescue her sister
me and a few others inclusing my mom went and snuck in at night whil he father was sleeping and i talked to the sister while the rest scoped out the area
she wouldnt listen so i try to sneak everyone out when she wakes her father who kills my mother and most of the group
kne of the abilities in that was to teathdr someone to me and telelort them tto mu location as i was running away i had drgged ths sister with me roughly after what she did
when i got near the buikding that we lived i jumping into the training area and was attacking amything near me taking out my anger after my koss
there are a few more specific details that i dknt feel like typing simce i dont know how to explaine them

So recently i have been seeing commericals for movies that i have seen pieces of atleast a decade ago with the exact cast i remember and the same plot
it is quite impossible
i don't remember how the timeline adds up since it was in a house i never lived in with a tv that has only been around for a few years
the furniture was the same as when i grew up when i saw the movies for the frist time but the angle of the house and layout was wrong
at the timd it was nornal nos it just doesn't make sense
i realised that i now own several items that were from. similar instances
around that time
i had been a child at the time in my "dreams" but i have noticed recently that thithings i use to think or feel are becoming reality it feels as if i either have an inate ability to affect reality or if i am slowly losing my grasp on sanity
i question if any of it is actually real
i know things that i should not, things that are impossible but exist

So i got my nook a while back under the pretense that i would be able to access wifi in my dorm for school which was wrong
It's one of the older models the nook tablet froom 2012

Wifi compatible minimal scratching on screen
it works fine but i don't have a use for it
I payed $200 for it when it was new i have mainlyl useditfor music and books
The app store is mostly child oriented stuff which is one reason i dont use it
i'm hopeing to get atleast $80 to put toward my MFF fund
which my goal is $400 and i don't even have $5 to.my name atthis point
Preferably local so i dont have to ship since i don't like dealing with the postoffice but i can ship in necissary
Idk how much shipping will be
ihave the original charger and a case for it
if anyone is interested i can post pics and look up specs
I just need the money and have no use for the nook since i can use my phone instead
Itdoes have a micro sd slot

so in the near future I am going to use our surplus of pointless cardboard scraps in the garage to make a target for throwing knives
pretty much thrown together out of cardboard duct tape at attached to a metal pole sticking out of a tree stump in our back yard

This may or may not be an April Fools joke.
My 15 year old niece is dating a 19 year old sex offender who has multiple fuck buddies
and she also started doing drugs

but I don't have money lol
It is freaking adorable!

Okay so due to some recent events one individual has just missed the entire point of something.
They hung out with us one time and decided they were too different to fit in with us
they had a different religious background and different personality so they assumed that they wouldn't be accepted since they were too different
but in all honesty we are a ragtag group of social outcasts who work so well together because of that
we are very accepting of others because we know what it is like to be different
but people only see that we are different and are discouraged to join us because they are not like us
which is odd because the main thing we have in common is that we are different

 Aidenwolfe has Pneumonia and is taking commissions to pay her medical bills
as it currently stands she is unable to work and has no medical insurance
any help would be appreciated
A journal with more information is here http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5622346/

in a game 2 names stuck out the most
Will Twerk For Wards
and
NeverGoFullRetard

and that has been todays session of Dota 2 random names

Okay so a lot of people have tattoos to remember those they lost
it could be one of many things

I was thinking if I ever was so inclined to get one it would be written in the witches alphabet
it would start by saying
"Merry Meet
Merry Part
Merry Meet Again"
or something along those lines
and then it would have the names of the people written under it
in hopes that some day we will meet again

when I have a mind that is more criminally inclined that most people I talk to
People are blowing old things out of proportion which have been gone over dozens of times over several decades
I can explain how things were done just by a given example and I can even tell you how to get away with it
I would never do it myself but I know how it was done and know how not to get caught doing it
sure you may eventually get caught but it may take some time
I can understand motives that people have for things that make little to no sense
I would probably make a good psychology major since I normally observe human behavior from a detached perspective

I would probably even make a good serial killer if I was so inclined
If I wanted I could do horrible things to people
But it just seems to bothersome to even try

So in addition to some of the weird dreams I've had recently last night I dreamed
that this military style school was gathering kids with special abilities
They were being trained to be used as soldiers while a large chunk had ran away after they found out why
I was part of that group although I don't remember the reason offhand but after a while only a couple dozen children remained at the "school" and we had a group of close to 100
after their training those who remained had found where we were taking refuge and sent a message to join them or be wiped out

we spent the next few days getting ready to defend ourselves from them
on the 4th day the war began and we lost almost half of our group that day
we still had a steady stream of kids joining us although most could not control their powers
we had heavy losses where they had only lost a few
it became a desperate battle I had control of a scythe make out of shadows which could not hurt people but could slice through any metal piece by piece
we had a girl who could control liquids and a guy who controlled fire
We were our front line since we had the best control over our abilities

On the last day of the battle we had one girl show up who was weak and sickly and had no idea what her power even was her name was Karl I was the one who showed her around and I told her we didn't have time to do a proper run through of the situation so I led her to her sleeping area and told her I had to get back to the battle
When I got back there were 4 people fighting the leader of the soldiers in a feudal attempt since he had a construction vaguely serpentine in nature that he had summoned and was piloting
before I could even assist them they had been killed by a blade that was hidden in the face of the construct
I looked around noticing that it was down to him and 3 others somehow we had turned the tide
but I also noticed that we were down to 60 or less out of the 250 that we had recorded
on our battle field we had roughly 8 while the rest were in the infirmary
it was the top 3 and 5 new recruits
while I was using my scythe to pick the construct apart slowly I had noticed that it was regenerating faster than I could damage it so the 5 recruits had joined my staying back but lending what help they could until the construct had met it's limit and appeared to have stopped regenerating and shut off
I noticed that when I turned back as we were retreating Karl was there standing where I was standing
attempting to do something but I was unable to tell what so I told her to come back with up and walked off
as soon as the 5 recruits and I assumed Karl was there too were safe I dashed back to their leader brandishing a pipe to finish it as the field was soaked in what I assume was gasoline and I heard a shout from behind to get back but the fuel was too fast to get anywhere so the girl who controlled liquid had rushed to me and cleared us out of the way just in time for the fire controller to shoot what looked like a flare in the air and let it descend into the fuel to finish the enemy off once and for all
the flame were only there for an instant and everywhere the fuel had been was decimated including the construct although it hadn't scorched any of the grass or plants
as we were celebrating in the main hall of our refuge I desperately tried to find Karl and apologies to her for dragging her into a war in her condition and as I went through looking for her I could not find her there I started to panic as a frantically searched for her
I knew she had been at the battle I knew she arrived at the refuge and she even signed a paper stating she had sworn her loyalty to us but I could not find her
She always looked mysterious to me
she had a pale complexion almost like a full moon she wore a dress that seemed as if it floated around her instead of resting on her skin it was down the back of it was a stripe the color of the clouds surrounding a full moon and around it was a milky grey slowly darkening into a deep grey at the front
She reminded me of a goddess although she was a human, I knew she was not there anymore but she hadn't died either. She vanished as if she had never existed, I knew she wanted to stay, I knew she still wanted to fight. I wonder if her power swallowed her because she was unable to control it or id she had transformed into something else.


Sva'Nith'Ra

Okay so Transformice is an addicting game that is pointless and fun
but the servers keep crashing
it's a fun game but it's a pain when it crashed every half hour

So occasionally when I am almost asleep I will bury my face into my plushies but every once in a while
it will piss me off because there is an unfamiliar scent on one of them that was never there in the weeks/months I've had them and nobody enters my room
the only 2 things that have been in my room recently are my sisters dog which I know her scent well and it wasn't her and the pig which it wasn't him either since he never gets near my bed

when I woke up this morning I felt fan-fucking-tastic
I'm doing laundry and probably wasting my day on videogames
ordering a t-shirt from my favorite artist
I did have a really weird dream
it was somewhere between a game and the show Archer
idk where the two met but it was odd since
instead of being myself or Maeniel I was someone named Andy
which normally in my dreams I'm Maeniel or watching my self in 3rd person

A cloth woven from the energy of the new moon that has the ability to contain shadows and soak them up like a liquid
and if you wring it out or pour the shadows into a pit you can make a pool comprised entirely of shadows that only a few chosen shadowshifters are allowed to study and control
It is a dangerous substance for a shadowshifter and can only be handled safely by the silk bearer
as a shadowshfter you are trained in the Shadowpaw sacred technique Shadowmeld
if you accidentally shadowmeld into the liquid shadow you may lose yourself
shadows are portals when they are flat on a surface you know where you are headed
but in liquid shadow you will never know what will happen if you are not trained
If one is trained they are able to travel anywhere they wish or maybe even use it as a body of water
although being able to breathe freely staying in the same place takes complete focus though
If one were to lose focus even for a second they might end up lost somewhere between worlds

When the user travels with the liquid shadow the shadowsilk absorbs the shadow and seems to unravel slowly as the user heads towards their destination bridging the gap so one doesn't get lost if used correctly
should one lose focus for a second during travel the silk will slip from their grasp and they will lose their way back

For the advanced shadowsilk users there is a secret usage which I am unable to reveal to anyone other than those close to me

I have decided I have enough wolf stuff for my room at the moment...
it's sad I know....
but really you should not be so judgmental......
as of now......
I will...
b..e.....
fi...ll...in...g....
my..... room.......... with.....

OTTERS!!!!!!

I wont bore you with the details of the idea
it's something i hadn't considered before and most people probably
don't even care about the ramble that would ensue
and only a fraction of those that read it would even remotely know what it meant