So i had an interesting race of creatures in a dream well you could argue that it's 2 races
It is a creature that is tree like and has two bodies that lock together to hide
the bottom half is very large strong and thickbodied
it has a somewhat triangular face usualy adorned with three to five upward ss aspikes a sign of rank each spike resembles a sapling
Those who are outcast or dishonest have their spikes painfully cut off
They are strong in battle but they are extremely slow
they may be slow but they never tire meaning they can walk weeks on end
making them the perfect vehicle for their insect like counterpart
Both of then resemble a tree the larger ones at the base and the smaller one looks like a trunk and branch like apendages
together they are mistaken as part of the forest
the insectoid counterpart is very quick and deadly but they are easily hurt
which is why they need their camoflage they have leaf shaped natural blades along their wrists and knees which thry use with deadly percision
Although they are quicm they require alot of rest

I really wish i could draw their design because i cant get their faces out of my yead

trying to learn The Misty Mountains Cold on the ocarina

Leo Magna is working on a new comic!!!!!!!
Something about his art just sends tingles down my spine in anticipation

He posted the 4th and 5th page raw
even with just a glimpse I want to read it already lol

~the strength of the pack is the wolf, and the strength of the wolf is the pack~

If the pack is strong one does not need to shoulder their burden alone
the suffering of one causes suffering for the rest of the pack
carrying your burdens alone is foolish if it affects everyone in the end
if the pack is unwilling to share each others burden
then what kind of pack is it

a pack is only as strong as it's weakest member
but the weakness in one can always be offset by the strengths of another


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walking alone in a dark empty forest
trudging past shadows of the lost
the lonely path is not always the best
with a burden that has a life as cost

Friendly footsteps should keep on your path
cherish them with a warming light
and you can avoid a hasty aftermath
strength within friendship will win the fight
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"I will always love you."
im gkad those were not the last words i heard because if you really wabt to say somethinf meaningful make it something they dont already know

hell even something cliche about meeting in the next life would be more reasurring

It wont stop me from going over there but just declaring that you will always love somone just seems a bit too weak

if you are going to have last words make them more sentimntal or memorable
make them something to be proud of as if you are bringing liggt out off the darkness

Code Blue: Everything's fine
Code Yellow: Bad Day
Code Grey: High Alert/Get ready to leave at a moments notice
Code Black: Get over there as fast as you can

I tend to heal injuries faster than most people. It seems like a good thing at first but when cuts close up before you have a chance to clean them out.....
So last night i had scraped my finger on ice while clearing the windshield on my sisters car of couse since it was just ice i had licked it clean but when i went to south haven to check out the ice it must have reopened without me noticing seeing as this morning it was minirly infected so i reopened it to see why and there was sand from the beach in it onky a grain or two but it's taken care of now
nust because it heals fast doesn't mean it is a good thing

and the person still doesn't understand a word you said
it appears at times I'm cursed with an eloquent lexicon
simpletons may shirk their learned vocabulary after their
many years they were taught it

I've had to explain things to people 4-5 times in a row using more common simple words each time
until you end up going from
She stumbled with a sullen undertone after her friends shared their serendipitous news of their ventures
and ending up with something like
she tripped over something because she was depressed by her friends bragging

you go from well worded to boring and simple

The color red
some think roses
others paint
i prefer to think about blood
it is life and without it death
it tastes of rust from the iron it contains
it flows like water untill it clots
some are afraid of it
others crave it
The sight if it makes me calm
the smell relaxing
mine more than others

Random half asleep thoughts and not much.more than that

a pair of blue and yellow wolf eyes
and written under them
"When you're not looking I stare at you"

People need to stop having all of their other apps/sites post updates on their facebook
so and so went here on 4square
this person posted a photo on instagram
another person tweeted on twitter
this person is now friends with someone on meetme

seriously use facebook for facebook and other apps for other apps
I don't think facebook should be a way to show other people everything you do at every moment

I had 4 diifferent dreams last night
the first one i dont remember much other than being shrouded in darkness after being stabbed in the heart after being injected with some kind of virus that turned my blood milky white and the only way i could wake up was to relax and let myself bleed out
then the next dream i had to find the person wbo did it with my mate helping and it turned out to be an inside job by someone who we jad known for a while in the drram
which lead to the next dream which was a war because of the betrayal
it was between brothers who had their own kingdoms and their father was ill
they wanted to wipe eachother out so they got everything and somehoww ne aiden and thor are working togwther because loki is pulling strings collecting sacred powerful objects and when the bothers finally met in one of their castle rooms they had killed eachother which triggered what looked like a pole
but it turned out to be a dormant deity who recited a prophecy telling that everything had been planned that way
I walk out and the father is not stricken with grief as he should have been but he knew that they would eventually try something and he didn't want his liniage continueing with people like that
and then it randomly transitioned into the 4th dream which was in a slum type neighborhood it was me aiden my pig and the person we got him from with her pig we were walking down the sidewalk and it looked like someone was chasing a dog in a pickuo truck but when we got closer it turned out to be someone on a bike idk how though and it wasbt a dog it was her pig
We walked closer to him and one of us chewed him out about what he was doing abd another wakjed to the window on his house and chewed out his family
after that we walked down the street a little abd we sat down and talked for a bit before i realized that the father from the previous dream had shown up and sat next to me i dont exactly know why because i woke up at that. moment

I am known for saying everything wrong or right
I tend to be a smartass and i actually only try to be half the time
the rest of the time my mind goes blank and smartass comments roll out
answering a question with a straight answer is not always easy
i start answering and then somehow what i said has nothing to do with that i intedned to say

i think it has something to do with when i had a rough time in school
i was bullied and if i didn't say anything then it would go on longer
so a stupid remark would either frustrate them and they would walk away
or provike them into getting to the point

and the way people are taught to cover anguish is with humor

i dont always intend to answer with jokes but i dont usually notice when i ger nervous which is a trigger to the smartass responses

i do intebd to say stupid alot but sometimes it is on accident

anyone an Attack on Titan fan here?
I just found a game that somebody made that is a tribute to it

I keep getting stomped and eaten but it's pretty fun


http://fenglee.com/game/aog/ if you want to check it out

Go to account settings or site settings and you can hide all your fav
you can choose to hide all
all adult
all mature and adult

so you can appear clean with favs and be as dirty as you want and only you can see your pron favs

So now there are 4 profiles for The Nut Job
one is run by me  buddythesilentrat
one run by  fox_fury which is  surly
and two i don't know who runs
 Andiesquirrel
 thelegendaryherograyson

and i also leaped out of the bestfriendzone

I have had it for a long time and never use it
Its about 2 years old nook tablet
full color display when i bought it i payed $200
But the newest nooks are hd and only $130 which really is disapointing
I will charge it when i find it and make sure it still works
then i could post a pic if anyone were interested
i dont even know what they go for
i just need money in my bank to save up for cons late this year or next year

recently every time I've done it I've spend the next few minutes spiting and hacking up mucus
and half the time it makes me throw up

I think I will stick to tea and honey for a while

I know I typed it down and now I can't find it and I need to reread it!!!!

Anyone half decent at Twisted Treeline pvp want to help me get the Diana icon for the event?

it's just 2 games

Ever get a fortune cookie that most people would find great but after one look you just say "fuck"
I got one a few days back that said something along the lines of old friends showing back up
there are reasons I don't talk to them anymore
it seems more like a misfortune than a fortune

Next time I have something that I want to say I will just keep it in until it becomes physically painful
because even saying it can be painful

if you were mad at me you could have told me to fuck off
you could have told me to stop
you could have told me off
but instead you choose to hide

Show something.... Get mad at me.... Do something other than hide......
it really doesn't do anything..... I know I've tried.....

I wont take what i said back
you need to react to me instead of hide
When i do something you don't like tell me to stop
if i find out you harmed yourself over this i harm myself
because you need to express things towards me instead of walking around it

Keeping things to yourself does nothing
"I want to hold you high and steal your pain away"
even if i have to do it one step at a time
if you harm yourself i will do it when you heal i heal
if i can't take it away i can at least share it

you may not want to hear what i have to say
a friend will sugar coat things
a true friend will tell you the truth
i do care about you and i want to know your reactions
to what i say but you internalize things which isn't good for you


when you see me you can kick me or punch me as long as you show something
hiding doesn't do anything because things tend to stack up i don't even know if you will read this but
it needs to be said anyway

I'd rather be hated for speaking the truth
than loved for telling lies

I have a week and a half to recreate the story from what I still remember
it's not going to be long and some parts won't make sense to most
it's just a story that could have happened may lives ago or may not have
through all dimensions planes and lifetimes anything is possible
it may be a story of what would have been done if only it was in time

I had a huge journal typed up about an idea I had
right before I finish typing my browser crashes and won't let me recover what I typed

which really sucks seeing as I don't remember where I started on the mile long journal
I was working through several ideas loosely related to each other
suit ideas
possible play/story idea
props and setting
now I'm left with nothing

when I type I go from section to section idea to idea
when I have them finished it blanks out in my mind while I focus on the next few sections
so I just lots most of that information all I am left with is the last few paragraphs with means absolutely nothing

Okay so recently I've been watching some of my moms favorite movies that I have not seen since I was a kid
and today we watched Big Fish
I had only remembered the stories and not much else
It's a really good movie but as interesting as it is
it's also really sad

I missed so much when I was a kid
one reason I am watching movies I have not seen in years is because of everything I missed
it adds more emotion to what was just a series of events before

what really made me think about this movie was
that Will had gotten so tired of all fantasy that he really pushed everything away just seeking straight facts instead
which I tend to ignore the fantasy in everyday life and focus on the facts
one of my friends is obsessed with telling stories that are obvious lies and
it just astounds me that he has nothing better to do than tell stories
well for a while I actually believed some of it until I found out otherwise
but unlike the father in Big Fish it wasn't just exaggerated truths
it was flat out lies but if I end up dwelling on pure fact it will just push people
away and things won't have as much flare or dazzle anymore

hell the only fantastic dazzle in stories I tell is from Maeniels point of view
other than that it's really just facts with a little innuendo here and there

I like movies for the stories
I like books for the stories
I like stories that make me think
I would rather read a complicated story with 5 or 6 different perspectives alternating every other chapter
than read one perspective that is very cut and dry
I like to be challenged by the stories I read
if I am not then I get bored of the book
I adored the golden compass trilogy due to the fact that it had a few different perspectives each brimming with it's own adventure and stories different standpoints and completely different experiences
my mind needs more than 1 thing to work on otherwise the task at hand seems dull
I like to pile things up overlap timeframes so I can keep myself occupied with several tasks


if I wanted a simple story I would go back to reading books that are under 250 pages
I loved the Eragon cycle due to the fact that the books were quite long and involved
many different concepts and creatures
and a couple books over 700 pages is always fun