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NFC is over, so is my life.
Posted 7 years agoGod. Hot. DAMN! NFC as my first foreign con, is behind me now. Just got back home. And dear god was it awesome!
The hotel was amazing, my room was awesome and all the furries were awesome! Definitely gonna make this an annual thing for myself <3
Ofc PCD is a thing and for me, it does not feel THAT bad. I just got many different thought from this trip, bright ones and couple not so bright ones.
Feels like my whole furry life is changing with this con, changing the ways to do and see things, changing the way I think about everything.
BUT!!! In the end the whole experience was AMAZING!! For now, my days will go with playing World of Warcraft and fitnessing myself for the future ^^
THX to all the furries for this con, you guys were truly fabulous peeps!
The hotel was amazing, my room was awesome and all the furries were awesome! Definitely gonna make this an annual thing for myself <3
Ofc PCD is a thing and for me, it does not feel THAT bad. I just got many different thought from this trip, bright ones and couple not so bright ones.
Feels like my whole furry life is changing with this con, changing the ways to do and see things, changing the way I think about everything.
BUT!!! In the end the whole experience was AMAZING!! For now, my days will go with playing World of Warcraft and fitnessing myself for the future ^^
THX to all the furries for this con, you guys were truly fabulous peeps!
The most beautiful thing. And the most depressing thing.
Posted 9 years agoHello there. This might be the first time I really write a journal straight from the experience. But lets try, shall we.
So yeah, last weekend I was at the every year Furry Cruise here in Finland. And there, I met with the most beautiful sight I have ever seen.
One of the furries said that I should share my thoughts about this experience, and so I shall.
So yeah, on friday night, when people were still partying somewhere on the ship, or just sleeping in their cabins, me and couple of other fin-furries
were at the sun deck talking, when suddenly one of them told us to look at the full moon in the horizont.
So we went to the back of the ship to view this magnificent moment. And it sure was. It was the most beautiful moment I have ever witnessed.
Imagine: Black, clear sky, with no clouds anywhere. Black, almost calm sea, the only waves are coming from our ship. And the full moon, casting its
light on the surface of the sea, creating a moon bridge. It truly was breathtaking experience. But then, one of the furries said that imagine, if someone would fall over
the sides, and no one would not be able to notice you, because of the shadows and the sound of roaring engines. And then it struck me:
The most beautiful view became the most depressing thing I have ever imagined.
This is what death would be. You die, and you fall in the black, calm and cold sea, only accompanied by the moon. No land on the horizon, no ship to go by.
Only the calm, black water and the moon with its light. And maybe the only hope would be to follow the moon bridge, and maybe find salvation. Maybe..
I could only imagine myself in that position. Alone in the middle of the endless ocean. No sounds, no movement, nothing. Maybe, fate would be cruel enough to
show you a ship, far away from you, with all its lights on and people celebrating on board. But I could not get to it, so far away, so weak, so cold. Just imagine.
Is this precisely the death I believe: Probably, probably not. But the idea struck my mind and my feelings. And brought chills to my spine. I wanted to go inside..
But yeah, the most amazing experience I have ever had, and now I shared it with you who would be interested in it. Please, comment your thoughts about this
and share your own similar or not-so-similar experiences, I would be happy to hear them. Good night!
So yeah, last weekend I was at the every year Furry Cruise here in Finland. And there, I met with the most beautiful sight I have ever seen.
One of the furries said that I should share my thoughts about this experience, and so I shall.
So yeah, on friday night, when people were still partying somewhere on the ship, or just sleeping in their cabins, me and couple of other fin-furries
were at the sun deck talking, when suddenly one of them told us to look at the full moon in the horizont.
So we went to the back of the ship to view this magnificent moment. And it sure was. It was the most beautiful moment I have ever witnessed.
Imagine: Black, clear sky, with no clouds anywhere. Black, almost calm sea, the only waves are coming from our ship. And the full moon, casting its
light on the surface of the sea, creating a moon bridge. It truly was breathtaking experience. But then, one of the furries said that imagine, if someone would fall over
the sides, and no one would not be able to notice you, because of the shadows and the sound of roaring engines. And then it struck me:
The most beautiful view became the most depressing thing I have ever imagined.
This is what death would be. You die, and you fall in the black, calm and cold sea, only accompanied by the moon. No land on the horizon, no ship to go by.
Only the calm, black water and the moon with its light. And maybe the only hope would be to follow the moon bridge, and maybe find salvation. Maybe..
I could only imagine myself in that position. Alone in the middle of the endless ocean. No sounds, no movement, nothing. Maybe, fate would be cruel enough to
show you a ship, far away from you, with all its lights on and people celebrating on board. But I could not get to it, so far away, so weak, so cold. Just imagine.
Is this precisely the death I believe: Probably, probably not. But the idea struck my mind and my feelings. And brought chills to my spine. I wanted to go inside..
But yeah, the most amazing experience I have ever had, and now I shared it with you who would be interested in it. Please, comment your thoughts about this
and share your own similar or not-so-similar experiences, I would be happy to hear them. Good night!
A little update ^^
Posted 9 years agoHello ^^
Yeah, just updating a little bit. Liking it so far how everything has gone well. Like you can see, I got my first ever ref-sheet last night, which makes everything so much easier ^^
And I got to suit up at the Animus couple of weeks ago and I got a new badge from there. And now that I have a ref, I can order a new paws, pawsleeves actually ^^
I must say, I had my doubts being Vans at the start.. People were really not into it.. Got, can't say lot's of, but some hate upon myself. But I would not give up.
Now, situation is really different. I know I don't have to be everywhere and talk to everyone, like I thought at the start. It's much easier like this, at its own speed.
So, this was a little sitrep ^^ And ofc it's nice to write own thoughts somewhere, why not here. Not so personal information here :p
Until next time everyone o/
Yeah, just updating a little bit. Liking it so far how everything has gone well. Like you can see, I got my first ever ref-sheet last night, which makes everything so much easier ^^
And I got to suit up at the Animus couple of weeks ago and I got a new badge from there. And now that I have a ref, I can order a new paws, pawsleeves actually ^^
I must say, I had my doubts being Vans at the start.. People were really not into it.. Got, can't say lot's of, but some hate upon myself. But I would not give up.
Now, situation is really different. I know I don't have to be everywhere and talk to everyone, like I thought at the start. It's much easier like this, at its own speed.
So, this was a little sitrep ^^ And ofc it's nice to write own thoughts somewhere, why not here. Not so personal information here :p
Until next time everyone o/
Vans, once and for all!
Posted 9 years agoWell hello~
So yeah, now I'm officially announcing that I, once known as Heshkan, the Iguana, will now and forever be (also) known as Vans, the Red Panda (ofc I don't know why I'm writing it down here
when the problems are here, but still!). Now it's official!
Ofc I can still be called Heshkan by those who so desire, but here and in Skype, Steam, Discord, Telegram, anywhere for now on, I will be Vans (or SPPVans if Vans is not available)
Getting art for Heshkan? Yeh, I think I will leave that off for a while and see how everything goes. He will continue live on in my hearth and in my memories about time when everything was easier ^^
But yeah, here was my announcement. Life goes on and so will I
Salutations to all o/
So yeah, now I'm officially announcing that I, once known as Heshkan, the Iguana, will now and forever be (also) known as Vans, the Red Panda (ofc I don't know why I'm writing it down here
when the problems are here, but still!). Now it's official!
Ofc I can still be called Heshkan by those who so desire, but here and in Skype, Steam, Discord, Telegram, anywhere for now on, I will be Vans (or SPPVans if Vans is not available)
Getting art for Heshkan? Yeh, I think I will leave that off for a while and see how everything goes. He will continue live on in my hearth and in my memories about time when everything was easier ^^
But yeah, here was my announcement. Life goes on and so will I
Salutations to all o/
Changing sona.
Posted 9 years agoSo, some time ago, as I said, I bought a red panda partial. Well, after that, everyone have said that the suit looks just like me and feels like me. Yesterday I talked with 
Hunzen that maybe I should change my forum (FinFur) user name and avatar to Vans. Well, today I did, and I'm happy with it. Of course everyone else are looking at me little weird. But it takes time to settle in with my new me, my new fursona. Heshkan will stay as character I created and I think I will still be taking art for Heshkan. But in pictures and cons (yeh, like I have been in many ^^ already, NOT!) you will see me as Vans, the red panda. Trust me, it will be okay like this ^^
Hunzen that maybe I should change my forum (FinFur) user name and avatar to Vans. Well, today I did, and I'm happy with it. Of course everyone else are looking at me little weird. But it takes time to settle in with my new me, my new fursona. Heshkan will stay as character I created and I think I will still be taking art for Heshkan. But in pictures and cons (yeh, like I have been in many ^^ already, NOT!) you will see me as Vans, the red panda. Trust me, it will be okay like this ^^Iguana suiting up... as PANDA!
Posted 10 years agoSo, week ago I bough a partial fursuit with head, handpaws and tail. The funny thing is, it's panda. A red panda, precisely. His name is Vans and he will be my fursuiting sona.
Heshkan will stay as my ''who I am''-fursona and he will get his partials someday too, hopefully.
Reason why I am telling this as journal is that I will be uploading some suiting pictures what we took today, with
Jermu as a photographer and 
Frostdanger as an assistant, so people wont be so confused why a iguana is uploading a red panda pictures :P
I don't yet have an art, badges or ref. sheets about Vans, but hopefully will get those someday too. Last user of Vans didn't made any personality for Vans so I have to make up that too. So, as a matter of fact, I have lot of work ahead of me, with 2 fursona ^^ But I'll take up the challenge.
So say hello to a newcomer and wish him luck in his coming age. He would appreciate that so much ^^
Heshkan will stay as my ''who I am''-fursona and he will get his partials someday too, hopefully.
Reason why I am telling this as journal is that I will be uploading some suiting pictures what we took today, with
Jermu as a photographer and 
Frostdanger as an assistant, so people wont be so confused why a iguana is uploading a red panda pictures :PI don't yet have an art, badges or ref. sheets about Vans, but hopefully will get those someday too. Last user of Vans didn't made any personality for Vans so I have to make up that too. So, as a matter of fact, I have lot of work ahead of me, with 2 fursona ^^ But I'll take up the challenge.
So say hello to a newcomer and wish him luck in his coming age. He would appreciate that so much ^^
