Yeah you.
It's time to eat more and get fatter.

I think I finally know what has been bothering me for a long time now...

I think I miss my old watchers... 8(

Especially the ones I would see and who would comment regularly.

I think this was the time before most people started moving to mostly using social media.

I feel like I may never have those experiences here ever again.

Especially with me feeling introverted and not very social after 2022 and 2023.

Going from lots of interactions throughout the years to almost none at all has definitely messed with my head.

Definitely not exactly what I wanted, but stress and crap definitely kept me from doing things that I would have liked to do.

This is a big reason why RIG2 and FOIL are still not finished.

That's probably one of the main reasons I'm not really feeling like I get many interactions anymore. Cause I haven't really been doing anything that interesting anymore.

And that's why I have gotten stuck on doing just art, cause it's somewhat easy and doesn't cause much stress.

The lack of interactions throughout the years has caused me to start feeling like I'm doing something wrong.

Now that I kinda know what has been happening, the question is, how do I fix this? How do I stop feeling this way?

It is nice to still see people fav my art, and get the occasional new watcher.

But my favorite thing to get has always been comments. And seeing what you guys think of my creations.

I appreciate it when you guys leave comments, even if I can't think of a reply, I always read all of them.

I hope I can get over this stress and crap and start creating other things again.

First I would like to say, sorry about the last journal, I was kinda tired when I wrote that. So I deleted it. o.0

But yes, I have been trying to work on a story with Hijoke and friends.

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And now what this journal is about:

I was looking through my old journals, and was reminded of things.

I'm currently trying to focus on:
- Doing some commissions again.

What I was reminded of in my old journals, and still kinda interested in doing:
- Doing a Growth Drive featuring Calinal.
- Redrawing some old art again.
- Drawing some more fan art for BROK the InvestiGator.
- Drawing the next pic for the Westerson story thing.
- Try getting back into GameMaker. Maybe try finishing RIG2 and FOIL. Oh yeah, and FINALLY start work on FOIL 2! It's been 12 years!?!?!?! AAHHHHAHAHHHH... D8 So sorry... T-T
- I didn't really see a journal about this, but I would like to try getting back into Blender, and do more 3D art.
- I did do a Q&A journal once, could try that again?
- I saw a journal saying I need to draw more Bears. I should really do that. o.0

Wow, big list. o.0
The easier ones will probably happen first.
But yeah, this should make it easier for me... Well maybe not on focus, but at least now I have a list to look at, and remember stuff.

And to all of you who are still here, thank you. Man I flop around a lot, lol.

*Jumps out window and disappears* *Poof*

Rent increased recently, so I've been thinking about opening commissions again.
I just keep being hesitant about it, cause I really like drawing my own stuff... 8\

I've also been in more of a gaming mood for a while now. That's why I've been doing less art recently too.

And speaking of commissions, my sister is open for some right now: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/61548142/
She can do cute chibi type stuff!

I'm not sure what else to write here, but thank you for reading.
I hope you guys are having a good summer! 🌡⛱🌊

Out of my characters, who would you guys like to see more of?

I kinda wish I wasn't so introverted. I wish my head space was better most of the time too. I wish I could always be ready to talk to people. ( And be more positive and friendly all the time. )
I also wish I could get myself to participate in things more, instead of keeping to myself most of the time...

Currently I've just been mostly gaming for a while now. I wish I could jump back into making stuff, but I just haven't been that motivated sadly. 8/

I hope all of you guys are doing well and stuff. It's always nice to see comments from you guys, even if I can't think of how to reply to it.

I'm not a big Sonic fan.
I wasn't impressed with the Sonic 1 movie.
I especially wasn't impressed with the Sonic 2 movie.
So I wasn't really sure about the 3rd movie...
But last night I ended up going to the theater, cause my sister felt like watching it on a whim.

As I watched Sonic 3, all I could do was smile the whole time.
Sonic 3 was a really fun movie, and I loved how over the top goofy it was! Seeing Sonic and Shadow on screen together was awesome too! I even started tearing up near the end too.

Sonic 3 was the best Sonic movie I've ever seen.

Sonic 1 & 2 had to exist so Sonic 3 could be made, so I'm glad the other 2 movies exist now.

I think I just might end up buying them all on Blu-ray now.



Live and learn.

Happy New Year! 🎉

I hope 2025 is a good year for everyone!

I wish you all a very Merry Christmas!
I hope you all have a wonderful day today!
⛄🎄🎁

I saw a post last night about itch.io being down.

So now my games are also on Game Jolt, just in case.

https://gamejolt.com/@HIJOKE/games

I don't know how many of you view my website, but if you notice it goes down sometime, that's cause I decided to stop paying for it.
I just haven't really done anything with it for a while. And I want to be able to use that money for other things instead.

Everything that was on my website can now be found on my Itch.io page instead.

Hope you all have a Happy Halloween this week! 🎃👻🍬

Please follow me on BlueSky instead:
https://bsky.app/profile/hijoke.bsky.social

My head feels like a mess. I don't feel like I know what I'm doing currently. So I'm taking a break.

Digimon popped into my head.

Now I'm wondering what kinds of Digimon could I draw?

So it's not just sitting up on the top anymore.

This is something that popped into my head today.

If I were the one making the next Smash Bros. game, what would be the first thing I'd do?

I would remove all the Fire Emblem characters, and replace them with:

1. Spyro
2. Crash
3. Gex
4. Glover
5. Sly Cooper
6. Ratchet and Clank
7. Master Chief
8. Either Bomber Man, or Chibi Robo, depending on which one would be more fun to play with. ( Or I would switch out Master Chief and put both of these guys in. )

I think this would make the game more interesting, and more fun.

What do you guys think? And what would your first thing you'd do be if you got to make the next Smash Bros. game?

I just felt like letting you guys know, I've just been in more of a gaming mood recently.
That's why I haven't been doing that much art or talking that much.

And a Happy New Year! ⛄❄

So the last 2 weeks I've been playing Crash Team Rumble on my new Xbox. Got to level 100 just before the first season ended.
Now that that's done, I can try getting back to drawing my big boys in blue again. Hope you look forward to seeing them. 8)

So now people can get a better idea of who I am, and what I like.

And it messes with my head.

Also pushing old journal down. That is all.

Hope you have a good day.

This dragon has had another birthday.

Now that it's been a few hours, I started thinking if the other thing even had good value for you guys?

Then turning it into a growth drive popped into my head.

Then making Calinal the subject popped into my head. And now I'm starting to like this idea.

What do you guys think?