Oh boy, I havent done one of these things in a while! Ive been so busy and I always forget. Anyway!

One of my dearest friends has decided to dip their toes into the furry art space after much nudging and encouraging and I would love if you could all go over to and give her a warm welcome and maybe give her a watch or favorite!

Her art is wonderful and she's easy to work with. She even drew my lovely Hikari over Here, and we may even end up doing collaborations from time to time!


Thank you all for taking a peak and giving her a hello!

So and I have a discord server for RPing in. It's still very much a slow WIP, but we do have a core system and such in place, even though it's mostly free-form for casual playing about. I've been slowly tagging and bringing in one or two people I know here and there to test play and get a feel for things, but I would love to add a couple more players to see how they like it.

New and old players are welcome, though we do request RPers who are able to string together at least three or four sentences in a post and are able to understand that we are a group of adults with adult IRL needs and responsibilities that take precedence over online RPing. Sometimes it can take a day or more for people to type out a response if they are busy.

Do note that this is indeed an ADULT server, you need to be over 18 to join, and you need to read the rules. Our RP world is a grimdark fairytale world of myth, magic, and old forgotten science. Violence, sex, and horrible happenings are a way of life and we dont shy away from it, though we will be keeping anything truly horrific to designated channels out of respect for those disinterested in such things.

If you think you would like to check things out and join us in our endeavors please click here: https://discord.gg/J6Dx98e or give me a poke on discord, my username is HikariShade#0297 I can give you a more detailed rundown of our RP world and invite you to the server to look around. You would be under no obligation to stay if it's not of interest to you, with no hard feelings or drama. We're all too old to deal with online drama in our lives.

Hope to hear from you soon! <3

Find it over here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/32737693/

Watched them for a while, well worth throwing your hat in:

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/32607335/

Find it over here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/31887544/

Check it out over here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/31533584/

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/31859175/

Offering discounted sketches as I need some extra funds this week.

Wings OK
Ferals OK
NSFW OK

+5$ Per Character
10% off digital inking/color of the sketch

If you want the original sketch, add $2 for postage and I will mail the physical sketch to you.

Find it over here: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/31608190/

Join in over here: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/31327608/

Another raffle to join over here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/31665063/

Join in over here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9150215/

Im in need of some money for an unexpected bill. I dont currently have a tablet and have no ETA on it's return, so I'm stuck with pencil and paper. If you're interested please note me :)

Examples of work:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/31355789/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/31461834/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/30537443/

This information needs to be shared. It's one thing to use someone's OC image to RP off in the wilds of the net. It's another to take someone's OC and proceed to 'privately' commission the OC's under the impression that they are your own. And not just for regular art, but for extreme fetishism art:

https://www.deviantart.com/itchy-ta.....heft-798140103

Lovely artist , that I encourage you all to watch, has a raffle up for a ref-sheet. If you would like to join in the fun you can find it over this way: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/31071700/

I havent been able to do much artwise myself between working and Christmas, but came across a lovely artist who needs a little love and attention. They're in a bit of financial trouble and have lovely art and even lovelier commission rates. I know I myself will likely snag one for myself, and I suggest those who can get them while they can! W

Go take a look over here:  honejasere

If you buy a commission from her and offer me proof, I'll even throw in one of my pencil sketches for you for free. Just hit me up and show me proof of your commission confirmation.


Happy art my fuzzie friends! <3

I'm bored, and have no tablet, but I feel like doodling.

If you're interested throw a ref and or idea below and we will see what inspires me!

Well.. sure has been a while hasn't it, everyone? You may see me start to upload things. After three years of having no drive to do art, I've found myself wanting to delve back into such things once more. Now that my son is older and my living situation has settled into something fairly secure, I've been finding the inspiration I had lost. No I am not taking commissions, but If I get bored I may take doodle requests. Keep an eye out. :)

Does anyone know of a PSD recovery tool that will actualy work and wont charge me a stupid amount of money? If so please let me know. My son decided to pull my computer's power out just as I was saving a compleated commission and now Photoshop wont open it.

Im coming up on some rough times and I need some quick cash for bills that are starting to get out of hand. (Having a baby does that to finances)

Starting bid is $25 (as it includes a simple background), that will get you this picture with your character in place of the loose sketch.

If bidding reaches $35, the image will be inked

If bidding reaches $45, it will be given flat colors

If bidding reaches $50 it will be shaded

If bidding reaches $60 it will be digitaly painted (no lines)

View my commission tab for examples of each.

Bidding ends noon on Sat 6th. Payment due at time of auction end. Art will be completed by the 31st of June

Male: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16743788/

Female: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16743769/

Im going to try my hand at this, both to try and earn some money to help pay off the money I had to borrow for my cat's vet trip, and to try and get back into the swing of art. These things seem pretty popular so let's give it a go.

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12105894/

Starting bid is $15, that will get you this picture with your character in place of the loose sketch.

If bidding reaches $20, the image will be inked

If bidding reaches $25, it will be given flat colors

If bidding reaches $30 it will be shaded

If bidding reaches $50 it will be digitaly painted (no lines)

View my commission tab for examples of each.

Bidding ends noon on Fri. 22nd

Please bid on the submission.


High Bidder

Greetings and hello, today I bring to you a fine offer that you surely don't want o miss. As an experiment and because I am in sore need for a new computer that doesn't consistently crash, and I will be doing collab commissions. An example of which you can see here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10506774/

There will be only five slots offered, we may or may not open more at a later time. It depends on how well these go.

Commission Prices are thus:
$30 base for 1 Character, No background
+$10 per additional character
+$10 for background


If you are interested, please Note me for commission and payment details.

1)  yiffxtrm *PAID* *Sketched*
2)  tankana *PAID* *DONE*
3)  Golfer_ninja *PAID* *Sketched*
4)  dakotapaw *PAID* *Sketched*
5)

First and foremost, I expect no response to this journal. In fact I ask you don't really. This is just a way for me to rant and release a bit of pent up steam. So please, just leave it as it is. No 'hugs' comments or anything of the like. Just respect it for what it is. A tired, headache plagued kitsune who is in need of a release valve being opened.


I feel like I have failed a lot of people. For reasons too numerous to relate, and some of which are intensely personal. My life, as a whole, has been a catalog of ruined potential due to my own ill thought out actions. And because of this, I feel as though I have let down so many. My mother and grandmother who expected so much more from me. My teachers in school who knew I would be great only for me to fall to obscurity. Even my cat, whom I failed by never bringing her with me here. And for whom the last things I whispered to her before I left was "I love you and Ill be back, I promise." Only to not be there ever again, even as she was taking her last breathes.

Second: I am... so sorry to those of you who find me annoying. For those of you who know me the closest, I know I can be... loud. Talkative to a point of annoyance.. and desperately clingy at times for attention. I often find myself staring at a conversation in which I have spammed a dozen lines or more to which a response is slow in coming, if at all, and I feel a pang of terrible guilt that I am annoying someone. I dont ever want to be 'that person' that someone complains about to their friends in another window. Like "Omg, Hikari wont leave me alone. She never shuts up." I will be going back to my personal rule of "IM me first or I wont IM you unless it is important." Because as stupid as it may seem, even seeing the words "Busy" or "Not now." string and hurt. I respect people's need to be left alone. And I will do so to a fault. But the rejection still hurts and so my old rules go back into place.

And to those of you who IM me, and I am short to respond, slow, or not at all... I am sorry as well. I never mean to ignore anyone. I see what you said, and in my head, I have given a response... yet when I tab back to a window I find it empty and I feel terrible. So to you my friends, I have also failed.

Art has become such a chore for me. I begin a piece, I enjoy it, and then I remember.. "Oh... I have to do such and such for so and so" and suddenly... all drive within me dies. Even my own personal piece feels like a guilty sin to be worked on while a commission hangs above my head. And yet... Commissions are some of the only extra income we get. If I refuse a commission, I refuse food or bill money. And so I feel horribly obligated and that again, kills my desire. To those of you who have commissioned me, in the past and the present, I am sorry it takes so long for your paid for service to be completed. I really am. It eats at me like a gnawing worm of guilt.

Secondlife: I love Anthro Xtacy. I have worked at the club for well over two years. I have been their Events Manager for almost a year. Creating the dreams of other peoples event ideas makes me smile. My time there hasnt all been roses. And I have often thought of leaving more then once for various reasons. But I still love the club as it stands.
I love Drekiheim. When Matthias proposed the idea of the sim to me when I first told him that Alta was for sale, I was excited to be included in this fantastic world he had inside his head, and honored that he allowed me to help him craft it with my fumbling building skills. And while it has been slow to grow, what it has become is something that I am so very, very happy about. Working with Mat to see his dream world made into the 3D lands of Drekiheim has brought me countless joy. I know the sim isnt perfect. No sim is, but Matthias has created something special there. Something I hope we can continue to keep alive, despite the many headaches we have endured and will yet endure.

That being said.... I still feel like I have failed in some way. Every small problem that arises I instantly feel as though it is some how my fault. Even though, logically, I know it is not. But for those times in which it has been... I apologize. To Myth, Ty, Mae, Lolin, Geire, Matthias... To all of you. I am sorry for the many times I have failed you in some way. Every time I do, a little piece of me dies. And I have a paralyzing, crippling fear that some how, some way... I will make someone irrevocably angry and loose what few fragile friendships I keep. Because its happened in the past.. and the pain of loosing a friend, even one who is as disposable as some random name on the screen, it cuts me deeper then any knife wound could hope to do. When I call you friend, I do not do so lightly and I can count upon one hand, all those who I would consider close friends. My friends online, are the only friends I have. As pathetic as that sounds, and I know it sounds horribly pathetic, its painfully true. I know many of my 'friends' perhaps do not as closely value my friendship to them as I do.. and that hurts. And reminds me yet again how utterly pathetic my life has become in comparison to a 'normal' person. And yet, for what friendship you do give me, the ears you bend to listen to my fears, joys, pains, sorrows... Thank you. For you are all wonderful, even if we do not often speak as much as we should. Or if I speak to you far too often.


Well... I feel a little bit better now. Again, please no comments. Just let this sit as it is. A tired kitsu letting her mind ramble.

I want to learn how to do this. D:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tCam.....eature=related

Its soooo preeeeety D:

For those of you who play secondlife, and gave up on trying to find decent RP in all the sim's that ban you simply for having fur, or if you've simply wanted a RP sim that is active and friendly for your elf, fae, werewolf, or what-have you, We proudly give to you Drekiheim.

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In the bitterly cold northlands lays nestled within the brutal mountains a black stoned castle that looms up from the landscape and shelters a small city benieth its shadow. The people of Drekiheim. Long ago the half dragon Matthias Khan came upon the ruined remnants of the keep and rebuilt it up. Over the years, people began to shelter beneath the protection provided by those imposing walls from the barbarians and wild monsters that lurked about the landscape.

As the barbarian tribes warred with each other, peace befell Drekiheim for a short time. But that peace has become disrupted. A strong leader has arisen from the Barbarian Wars, unifying them into a single terrifying force called the Vul Rein. Now they turn their eyes upon the city of Drekiheim with an eye to ridding the land of these 'invaders' and uphold the traditions of keeping people from what may lie hidden beneath the Drekiheim Keep.


What side shall you join? Will you be a proud member of the Vul Rein Hoard and seek to purge the land of these people and take their riches? Or shall you defend your home from the Hoard and repel back the attacks? And what of these dark stirrings in the lands? Awakening monsters and worse from long held slumber?

Come join us to find out how the story goes!

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Jobs with IC perks, Active players, and an open staff. Come fill out a character application today! No one shall be denied on character race alone.

Sim is loosely based on Norse and Celtic designs and themes but is by no means restricted to them.

Sim region is Mature. Nudity is allowed, but no aroused states or sexual RP within public areas.

Sound like a place to be? Click here to come look around and review the rules: http://slurl.com/secondlife/Alta/111/201/306

So today was the day we got our christmass food hamper from Salvation Army. We do it every year and we know how it usualy is. Weeeeell it snowed last night. And was half melted by the time we left the house...

Which isnt so bad except it turned things into a slushy icerink. I slipped and fell on the way there, we stand in line, my shoulder and hip just aching from when I fell, get our food and are getting into the van for them to drive us home.... when we realise were missing the keys.

Get home, doors locked, so we obviously had them when we left. Rode back with the Salvation Army helper and then walked all the way home looking for them, slipping AGAIN.

Doubly sore, make it home, Kei hasnt found the keys around the house. uhg.

Go out AGAIN retrace AGAIN get to the point where I fell (that I searched) and some little voice told me to hop into the store by the driveway where I slipped. THANK GOD someone had brought in our keys.

So with keys in hand we head up to the bank for Kei to cash his dissability check.. and I slipped AGAIN. Three times today, all on the same side. My shoulder and hip are killing me. Mostly my shoulder. Ice and me dont get along.

Finally made it to the bank, go Kei some lunch cause he started to have a crash, and then headed off to get our grocery shopping done to find we lost the cart token on our keychain at some point x.x

Made it home got everything put away and I aint moving damnit.








Also, furc has their unicorns for life on sale and I hate them cause I cant afford one. *grumpyface*


/endrant

*limps off to sit infront of the heater.* XD