Most people who know me in meatspace do not know that I ever had cancer. I intend to keep it that way.
If you do know me outside of the internet... I can explain please keep it our secret.

2020.10.07 was the day I had the surgery that gave me yet another lease at life.

I had a simple celebration at home with my mum and aunt (as we are currently living with my aunt to keep her company.) We had strawberry chiffon cake and some New York-style pizza. Most places don't get NY pizza right, but this one place does. (I haven't actually been to New York, so I am not the best judge of that.)

The funny part is, I never bothered to celebrate the anniversary of being resuscitated after going into cardiac arrest, roughly seven years ago. I was very nearly a table death that time. Of course, having suffered that changed my life in fundamental ways -- my tolerance to exercise was reduced, and my previously benign cardiac arrhythmia eventually became a full right bundle branch block.

I was in denial when I first received confirmation that I had cancer. I knew I had it as soon as the masses grew larger and started to cause me pain, because I was already a medical intern at the time. Part of me did not want to believe that it was true because I was, in the words of my mentors, "too young to get cancer", and neither did my surgeon. It was probably for this reason that he asked my cardiologist to break the news to me.

Immediately after waking up from the six-hour operation, I immediately felt relief in two ways -- I was still alive (I've been depressed for many years, but I've made enough failed attempts to realise that I really didn't want to die whenever I tried,) and the pain from the masses was gone!

Sure, I felt numb and sore from having large incisions in my body, but I bore the pain for two years before the surgery, all because my mentors (who I consulted in my last year of medical school) told me to "just drink pain medications" and that I didn't "really need a biopsy taken for such a small mass" at the time.

This made me realise that despite the situation we're all experiencing right now, there's still so much for me to be grateful for.

If you know someone who has or had cancer, be there for them while you can. It is truly draining for both the patient and their loved ones, but having people around us really means a lot.

I can say this more than just because I'm a doctor, but because I also experienced cancer myself.

There are many journals I've wanted to write here, but I know that as a staff member of Fur Affinity, whether I like it or not, my posts will be seen as representative of the rest of the staff. I would like to reiterate that my opinions are my own, and this is a personal problem that has nothing to do with FA. I am just letting people know because I need help and I've seen this happen to other people, as well.

I recently took to uploading my VODs to YouTube even if I don't really have people actively chatting in my streams (I'm not fond of advertising myself.)

I've summarised it on a tweet (not the Twitter linked to my FA account, I just hope it'll get the traction needed to reach the people who need to see it most.)

Today, I received a content ID claim on one of my VODs that mentioned that I used someone else's song. This surprised me, because I only use game audio or my own compositions on FL Studio or Garageband as my streaming music.

I did not panic at first, I just Googled the song in question to see if maybe we might have used the same Garageband loops, as I've not had this problem before. Apple's Software Licence Agreement for Garageband specifically allows loops, when used in a song, to be used in commercial projects, as summarised here: https://support.apple.com/en-us/HT201808

It was a song I never publicly published anywhere because it was intended to be a bonus song for people who bought the "Lights, Camera, Action" single (hidden track on the Bandcamp and Booth.pm purchases.) Therefore, only the people who bought that single were likely to have heard this song beforehand. But now I had to upload it publicly just to prove that this is MY song. These two songs are both Electronic in genre, but otherwise have nothing in common.

I would have understood if we used the same melody loop on the song, but these two songs sound NOTHING alike. I confidently made my dispute because I have the project files to prove that I did this song.

EDIT: The dispute was settled in my favour. As long as you are able to prove that the content you made is different/you legally own it, you should be fine. But I still hate that you're basically at the mercy of the person you're filing the dispute against. Hate that I had to put my legal name out there, too.

Last Updated: 2024-06-16 - Payment options (Removed all JPY options)

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I've only started looking into using FurAffinity more often as of late now that I receive more trades for quads/ferals than humanoids, so I'm going to upload my backlog of animal art/selected kemonomimis to the site.

I've also opened my commissions! I'll post a journal here on FA eventually.