Well I just had my hair done. I knew what I wanted because I saw it in one of their books the last time I was in there but I couldn't find it right away and ended up panicking and just getting it shortened. So while I still have never gotten a hair style I actually WANT, for a haircut its significantly better than every other time ive gone in.

*sigh*

oh well. Ill just let it grow out again and THEN maybe have some guts and attempt to get what I want instead of being all anxious in the moment.

Having fine/thin hair SUCKS. :'(

Welp. Im offically done throwing money at my shit box of a car. I love the thing SOOO much, WAY more than I should but even I know when things have gone too far.

Due to my fathers death my family is now in an incredibly tight spot finatually. So im deeply considering having our minivan transferred into my name and selling all the parts off my baby to give me a good boost at saving for a Miata which is what i have determined is the best car for me next as its meets all my requirements AND all my wants. With everything thats wrong with my car its just a full restoration or nothing at this point.

Life sucks ass sometimes...

*excitement intensifies* I just ordered a bad dragon dildo! My first one! :D

Oooooh im stupid excited to get it >w<

Its a medium Kelvin and the color is Opal! My favorite gemstone! :D

I also ordered a bunch of other random items with it just so I can get bottle caps! So ill also be getting 5 bottle caps with my order >W<

is having an art raffle with multiple ways to enter. So hop on that shit!

Well. Its about a 300 mile drive, I'm half way there and 5th gear has seemed to shit the bed. Letting the car cool down. If 5th works when I head back off I'll finish the journey. If not I'm going home -_-

Sweet and fluffy is doing a free art raffle. EVERYONE loves free art so watch and hop on that ish!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6849616/

Where are you staying?
No where. Ill only be there one day. If I do happen to stay anywhere at all it will be in my car.

What day are you getting there?
Sunday morning and leaving some time later that day if I even last an hour.

How are you traveling?
Car

Who will you be rooming with?
no one

Who will you be with?
no one

How is the best way to find you?
You wont

Are there any panels you might be attending?
Anything that catches my interest.

What do you look like?
Pretty average.

Will you be suiting?
nope.

Do you do free art?
nope

Do you do trades?
nope

Do you do badges?
nope

What is your gender?
male

How tall are you?
5'8'

Can I talk to you?
I guess...although I have a bad habit of not knowing what to say to people which usually results in awkward silence. XP

Can I touch you?
no

Can I visit your room?
no?

Can I buy you drinks?
I guess?

Can I give you stuff?
Sure

Can I hug or snuggle with you?
no

Are you nice?
Eh. People say yes but I dont really think so.

How long are you going?
Sunday only

Do you have an artist table?
the hell is with all these artist questions?

Will you be going to parties?
doubt it

Will you be performing?
No?

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Say hi? I mean I dont know anyone so if you did it would be purely chance.

Where will you be most of the time during the day?
Probably aimlessly wondering around or sitting on my phone wondering why the hell I even bothered to go.

What/where will you be eating?
Whatever is close and cheap.

Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
Sure...?

Can I take your picture?
Hell no

What's your goal(s) for the con this year?

Not sure honestly. Im so reserved and to myself I guess my goal is to just be a bit more outgoing and actually enjoy something for once.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6789512/

So yeah. FREE ART!

Who doesn't want that?

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6798173/

Pretty self explanatory I feel.

So im thinking about going to Anthrocon. Its a 6 hour drive and ive never been to a con so I figure the biggest would be the best place to start.

BUT. Assuming I do decide to go, I have no idea which day I would go on. Because Friday has the "so this is your first time here" panel, but Saturday is when things are in full swing, but Sunday is when they have the car meet and that's where I would be most comfortable :o


Ugh fuck being shy and having to decide about this stuff ><

Well I have chosen who I want to do my clean ref sheet, but I haven't chosen who I want for my NSFW. I've narrowed it down to two people so far, I'm just making my final decision.

Well I just got my tablet in the mail!

Now to just download Sai and figure out how to start using this shiz.....

So im looking through various artists to commission for a ref sheet.

And oh my gaaaaahd! There are so many good choices I have to consider!

I have picked out 7 artists I would love a ref from. Now its a matter of choosing 1 to commission a ref from.

Well im buying myself a tablet. A Bamboo tablet.

Do I know how to draw? no.

Would I like to learn? yes!

Why am I buying a tablet if I dont have any art skills? Because im always sitting on my computer doing next to nothing, so I might as well take that time and try to filter it into something creative. And with a digital tablet I dont have to deal with people like family members wondering and asking to see what im drawing.

I mean im 22 and not getting any younger so I best start somewhere.

Going out to cars & coffee. Then working, then yeah.

Blah. Just bored.

You know. Sometimes you wonder whats going on with your life. Where are you going, whats going to be the conclusion of it all, and if you'll ever achieve any of your dreams and fantasies.

Well something happened and ive found myself questioning my life. There are things that I want most of all out of my life and so often it seems like they are the furthest thing away from what ill ever have/achieve. Im feeling rather depressed right now from seeing someone live out something I dream about. That thing that has happened to them is something I doubt would ever occur in my life. I can dream...but how often do dreams ever come true.... maybe this one will....but i just cant convince myself that it will...

Holy fucking hell do bids go high on some of these artists! I should learn how to draw o.o

Just hoping I get that one guy ive been keeping an eye on for a ref sheet~

Still waiting though.... waiting and refreshing his page every 15 minutes....

Well one of my cars headlights went out so I got online to find a replacement bulb (since the type are not something you can get in store) and I found out your get get them in a spectrum of colors!!

So I went with purple! Because why the fuck not...

Well I just joined the femboi group! :D

Why? Because I goddamn wanted too D<

So I forgot how completely boring work is on Sundays. Just kinda sitting around counting down the hours until I get off, refreshing peoples FA pages in hopes of a journal I'm hoping to see.

Oh well. I signed up for this crap. I really need to stop telling myself I'm going to get a different job and just actually get up and do it.

Well I finally have a good amount of money set aside to buy a ref sheet of my sona! :D

I mean ive only waited 7 years to do this so I think now is a good point to go for it. So here is to hoping~

Got that Honda Day coming up. Really looking forward too it. Being so poor I haven't really done anything much to my car in preparation for the weekend event. Just been painting my wheels and touching up the trim.

I always feel rather nervous and anxious when I go. I always feel like people are giving me weird looks. I know my car is not all that great but its not like I have the money to afford even a cheap set of wheels. Whatever though, not like I know any of them or will ever see them again. Well maybe until the next year it rolls around. Still though, I cant help but wonder what its like to have a friend who actually knows how to work on a car or even have interest in them. Oh well.

Just bored out of my fucking mind talking to myself on an art website. Livin the life... =/

Erm yup. Dont have any art or anything, im just hunting around for someone to commission for a reference sheet.

Only problem is the artists I seem to really like are either not taking commissions or charge more than ive got D:

Been a furry since 08. Figured its time I finally get that reference sheet ive always wanted~