https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-ari-keep-her-job

I know it is a long shot but hell, I need to do something so I don't wanna just jump off a bridge from stress. If you are able to help and feel so inclined, I would be extremely grateful.

HOLY FRIGGIN HELL!!! SOmeone paid for the entire damn thing. While I know who they are, I won't reveal anything, but nonetheless, thanks once again! I get the funds in on Monday so I'll be going to the shop then! EVERYTHING IS COMING UP ARI!!!

the kind that make you question if you really should keep on living...cause that is me right now...fuck my life hard

Let me start off this journal by saying if you are waiting on a story from me, yes I am actively working on it and will be finishing it. THis is just something I'm doing to mostly vent out my pent up frustrations at my own inability to produce content. Don't worry, it won't threaten the quality of your story, and if I ever deliver a product you are not happy with feel free to let me know and we can work something out. That being said, I miss being able to write what I want. Let me explain.

I enjoy writing, I always have enjoyed writing. Even back in high school I lived for just creating and crafting random worlds and ideas that lived in my brain. It was a sort of freedom for me. I had this entire playground that was in my mind that I could build however I wanted. I enjoyed it. I still do like writing, but I feel like part of that freedom has...vanished, ya know. As it stands I have five total stories that I am due to have out. That is no problem. They have taken a while mostly due to the last few months being rocky as hell, with changing jobs in August, the hell that was June and July. I love the concepts that they gave me to write and when I get into a flow, I find myself enjoying it. However, I also feel like I am neglecting a bunch of stuff I've been wanting to do for myself. Back in May I said I wanted to try my hand at YCH's and interactive stories. That was always going to be a plan and something I really wanted to do. Yet, every time I tried to outline the plans, the fact I had other stories to write just took up the creative space. It is like that merry-go-round toy at playgrounds. My brain had filled it up with the comm stories that needed to be done, and every time I wanted to muse or explore something different, the wheel would just toss it aside cause it was already full. And this isn't on the people whose stories I've said I write, it is all on me. I am just worried that the longer I spend on these stories and letting them take up space, the further away my own dreams and content I want to produce will be.

All this being said, I am working my way through all of that to get these stories done. After these, I may re-open commissions but only as YCH's, something where I can craft the idea more to my likes and plotoutlines. Either that, or take time to work on my own stuff before going back to commissions. Only time will really tell. As for right now, I am going to put my head to the grind stone and crank out these stories. They are really some good ideas. One of them involves ghost possession and that is something I've always wanted to play around with. So yeah, just a little mini rant, nothing to worry about. honestly...I feel just a tiny bit better now

Yep, it has been 100 days since I have started hormones. Technically 106, but I'll get to why I am just now doing this in a moment.

It has been a wild ride, one of the great highs and very few lows. I have never really been this happy with myself before. The support of not just my friends, but an overwhelming amount of my family has honestly helped get me through what I thought would be rough patches. My mom has been my biggest support. LIke, I'll probably post up her gift to me, but what she gave me on my birthday was the first photo I ever took of myself where I was happy. Like, the one with me in the orange dress. She got it framed up and everything. I've never cried on my birthday, but that day I did. And then she did, which then made me cry more. It was an emotional feedback loop. Not to mention all the cards. I finally have cards with my name!!!! And that says things like Niece, Daughter, Granddaughter. That just meant the world to me in so many ways. SO yeah, the last 100+ days have been just...great.

THere have been, though, just a few draw backs. Nothing really bad, but uhhhh...my brain gets kinda foggy at times. Like, I haven't forgotten things or become dumber, but I have become a bit more..spacey and ditzy. Like, I legit will have moments where my brain will try to get me to say something and then will happily forget and I just go about my day. It is kinda hard to explain, but brain fog is a thing that can happen while on HRT meds. The thing is...I don't hate it. I enjoy it a bit! I'm still smart, just...not as quick as I could be with some things. And that suits me just fine, mostly cause I am just too damn happy to care. I think I've hit the bimbo part of my life. Still...looking forward to 100 plus more days. And more after that.

NExt step, trying to figure out my whole sexuality thing. THat...that is going to be a challenge.

In like....12 hours, but still, I'm 30 years old. I'll probably post a more in-depth journal on my feelings later, but holy hell have I come a long way. This is not only my 30th, but also my first birthday where I can just be who I am in full! I have no idea how that is go when I celebrate with my family, but I am still happy and ready for another trip around the sun!!!!

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9950127/ Shashi is a reat person and is in deep need of help. If you are able to, please lend a hand, even if the only thing you can do is just share this around the nets. Let's do what we do best, and help someone in need

I'll have a longer update later today, but I'm back in the writing grove. I have the rest of my comms outlined, once again thank you all for your patience. In addition to that, the piece I was working on to shake off the cobwebs has evolved. Originally it was just some rubber porn. Now I am writing a daddy Dom monster romance between a human and a rubber rattlesnake god....I think this may be my best story yet

Or at least it felt like it. Last night at work I kind of...fell out. Twice. And had a panic attack. And an emotional break down. So, yay me. All jokes aside, it is just a sign that it is time for me to leave the restaurant industry. Don't get me wrong, I still love cooking and make treats, but in this current climate, I can't do this anymore. I've been working at restaurants for nine years. nine years of my life spent getting burned, cut, broken, doused in chemicals, friggin abused by management. I've wasted so much of my life and potential just working these jobs. Last night hammered home that maybe I should stop. Honestly, I have never been more scared. Well, I have, but this was a new fear. I just felt and saw what my life was going to be if I stayed there any longer. I just saw myself, losing bits of who I am and who I want to be to the job. Not just at that location, but any restaurant for that matter. I know how I am and I know I'll get sucked into it. Trapped in that endless circle. Of hurting myself and not really stopping to care for my own wellbeing. Falling out last night at work proved that...I need a break. I need to leave the restaurant life for good, so I am. I don't know what or where I'll go from here. I have some jobs I can do, stuff to pay bills and survive, and I'm okay with that. I'm still working on trying to get my candy apple business off the ground as well as get back into writing. I just...I needed something to push me in this direction. I just wish it wasn't so painful. Then again, I'm a stubborn ass of a girl so...yeah probably needed this to happen. So...that's the update for what has been going on with me. Hopefully next time I'm on here I'll be posting up something a lot more positive.

How are we doing guys! So, here is what is happening going forward. This is going to go over my current writing quee, my upcoming non-comission ideas/stories, as well as those YCH's I talked about.

For the writing Quee: As it stands I have three stories left to finish up. Two of them are at the half-way mark, while one is still a ways off. I endeavor to get these into peoples hands before I go on Vacation in June. After that, I will have no slots filled for those that are curious about that. This doesn't include those that paid for an extended series of stories, those are in a separate section as they have a longer timetable for total completetion.

As for non-commission stories coming down the pipeline, I have two projects I am working on. One of them is a sequel to a few of the pictures I have on here done by  Kandlin that I have been meaning to get to. Those will probably be out sometime in the next week or so. In addition to that, I will finally be crafting my first interactive story for you guys! Now the subject matter is still up in the air as I am double-checking with someone to see if they are okay with me using a few of their concepts. Even if not, I still will be working on this for you guys. I am looking to make this a new way to enjoy my content, with multiple endings, events, and scenarios contained within a single story. Considering how large this will end up being, expect this within two months. maybe sooner if I get really into it.

This, finally, brings us to YCH's! These are going to be for the Twine slots I mentioned in the last journal. Turns out those that dropped comments really enjoy all three ideas so I will be making all three open! Yes, that is right, I will be doing all three ideas for these interactive stories for you guys that bid. The way this will work is that each YCH story will have a base scenario of one. That means you only get two- three endings, both good and bad, with very little deviation or options. However, if the bid hits certain landmarks, I'll be adding in more scenarios, characters and endings. I'll have more details on this when the YCh goes live in a few weeks. As a heads up, these will have a longer wait time on them, due to the nature of being interactive stories, but I assure you will be well worth the price and wait. You get to have your own custom text-adventure filled with the kinky fuckery you've come to expect from me!

Annnd that's it. Feel free to leave feedback and comments below if you have questions and I'll be more than happy to get back to you. Hope you all that keep up with my profile are excited for this new chapter in my content. This is only the start, as I am also looking at making a Ptareon, for those that want to get monthly content that is both custom for them, as well as exclusive to the Patreon. That is still a bit away, but keep an eye out for it. Till then, ya'll take it easy!

Hihi! I am working on the YCH idea and it is going to involve making an interactive story via Twine. I have some experience with this and I feel I can make something you all will really enjoy. That being said, I need input for scenario ideas. I have a few in mind that I am musing, and what to know what you all would like:

Scenario 1: Escape From The Succubi: Pretty self-explanatory, but the main character finds themselves lost in a mansion filled with Succubi, they have to navigate their way to freedom or risk staying a pet to them forever.

Scenario 2: THe Judy Drones: This one would have the main character being given a tour of ZPD's newest line of defense, the Judy Drones. What starts off as a normal factory tour, quickly becomes a battle of wits to avoid becoming one of these drones and to expose the new Cheif of ZPD, Judy Hopps, for the perverted bunny she is

Scenario 3: FnaF Pizza Party: This one would feature the main character enjoying a free overnight stay in a Freddi and Friends Pizza Complex, with all the pizza, games and movies you can handle. What they don't know is that these animatronics are alive and are on the hunt for sexual pleasure and debachuary.

These are the three scenario's I am torn between using for the YCH. I have my faves but I'd like some input.

Also, as a heads up, when this does go live, it will have a sort of tier system. If the YCh hits certain thresholds, then you get to add an extra ending/path to your custom text adventure. I am musing pricing these starting at $75.00 and adding a new ending/path at every $100.00 increase. I don't think it will get that high, but eh, worth a shot. let me know what you all think!

You heard it here first folks, the $25 comm blowout will be coming back rather soon. I have two more stories to finish, not counting any longer projects that people have commissioned me for. THose longer projects are being worked on and updates will be forthcoming in the next few weeks. If you have any questions please contact me and I'll give you all the updates and info you may need.

For everyone else, I am going to be keeping these slots open for a while. There really isn't going to be a cap on how many comms I'll be taking, so feel free to even sign up for multiple slots. However, be warned, the turnaround time will be a bit slow. I'm adjusting to a new workload and schedule at my current workplace, it is part of the reason why it has taken so long to get those other stories out to you guys. I do have set writing days now, but still, expect about two to three weeks on these stories. If it runs longer I will, of course, let you know but I am hoping that it doesn't.

Now those aren't the only changes coming along either, prices are changing up as well. While $25.00 will still net you a decent ten-page story, stories beyond that ten-page limit now have their own set price. Stories that are between 10-15 pages will be priced at $45.00. Stories between 15-20 pages will be priced at $65.00. Anything over 20 pages will have to be discussed. Now, these prices will cover any additional pages if I feel the story needs to be fleshed out some, but for the most part, I am looking to stick to these page limits. I know I tend to go over a bit and I probably still will, but if you actually want to pay me for longer stories you guys now have the option to do so.

Lastly, let us talk YCH's. Now I am looking to do these probably after June, but essentially I'll be auctioning off slots for roles in already planned stories. Pretty much scenarios that have already been fleshed out but I will be putting your character front and center. I am still ironing out the details but as soon as I have it figured out I will let you all know.

And that's it! I do hope I hear from some of you all, as I have enjoyed working on the ideas I have been given so far and looking forward to bringing more of them to life!

So, before I get to life stuff, an update on Commissions. Things are humming along. I am finishing up  Raikano story as we speak. Will probably be done by tonight/tomorrow morning. From there I move onto the next batch, which include both  Doby822 and  scottysnyder I'm going to try and knock both of these out at the same time, as I know it has been awhile between when you all reached out and seeing results. I do apologize for that, I only have two days to write between work so I have to cram a lot into 48 hours. Still, I expect o have updates to you all within the next week or so. Then I'll move onto  abdlguy to finish off the batch. both  raelbny and  Caroo have longer projects that I've already spoken to them about that will take a different time line but will be done all the same.

After this batch is done and I finish up a few personal projects, I'll be reopening again. probably around mid April. I am also going to limit the slots to four or five. I don't want to drag out people waiting for me to finish up their stories too long.

Beyond that, in terms of life update. June 1st I will be getting my blood work and a bunch of other stuff done so I can finally start transitioning. I will, hopefully, be getting my first doses of HRT on that date so...like...YAY ME!!!! So yeah, the closer we get to that date, the more excited and nervous I'm going to get. Still, I'm looking forward to this journey. That's about all from me. Ya'll take it easy

At least for the foreseeable future, and with some changes. If you have already sent me your info or paid, then nothing will be changing for you all. you are still getting what you all paid for. For those that are just now watching, I am keeping my $25.00 comms open for the time being. There will be a few changes though. For starters, I will be limiting the number of slots I take at a time. I really underestimated how many stories I can bang out in a week or two, so in order to ensure everyone gets a quality product, I will only have five slots open at a time. Secondly, the estimated time frame from payment to story will vary between one to two weeks. still work four out of the seven days of the week as a cook. It is honestly draining as hell working the night shift and leaves me with only three days to really write. As with the limited slots, this is to ensure that you are getting a quality product from me. Thirdly, my regular comm prices will be adjusted. Mostly to the larger story orders, as I am truly thinking about keeping my prices set at ten pages for $25.00 for awhile. It may change in the future, but for now those may be the only comms I offer.

That should just about cover it. Now if you'd like to be on the list for the next batch of comms when this one is finished, feel free to drop a comment below! Speaking of comments, please leave some on any of the stories you all liked!!!! I love reading feedback of any kind!

Nothing too major, but I do have to take care of a few things so stories will be behind by a few days.

So! To all thsoe that were able to help out, thank you sooo much! I'm working on your stories and will have them to you as soon as I possibly can. For those who I haven't gotten to yet, I'll be responding to your notes soon.

Going forward, I am thinking about either keeping this $25 for ten page thing going. I am musing either leaving it as is, or setting up a patreon to make it not only a bit easier on me, but to give the option to those who want to do longer stories without having to go for the higher teir options on my COmmissions page. It is just a thought, and a heavy work in progress, but I'd love some feedback on it, and what you guys would love to see from me in the future!

Alright, so I am in waay to large of a bind at the moment so I'm doing emergency commissions slots. For $25 you can get a ten page story of your liking. That is ten full on pages for just $25!!!! Best of all, if you'd like more, it is only an additional $5 per page, up to ten extra pages! So yeah, come help out if you can and nab a slot!!!

Still Taking slots, but I do have at least four people filled in:

 Caroo (Finished. Posted)

 raelbny (Rough Draft Begun: 100%)

 Raikano (Finished. Posted)

 Doby822 (Finished. Posted)

 scottysnyder (Writing Now 80%)

 abdlguy (Writing Now 15%)

 devben98 (Rough Drafting)

Get into a rut where you think words to write and every words sounds stupid and you hate yourself for thinking you can write cause you think you are a garbage writer? Yeah...at that level of writers block right now....yay

The Commissions Tab has been filled out and I am now open for story commissions. I am not expecting like, a huge flood to come pouring or anything, but if you'd at the very least like to see what I am offering, head on over to my main profile and click the COmmissions tab. or just click this little link here. https://www.furaffinity.net/commiss.....wling2themoon/

That should have any and all info you may need. If it doesn't,t then please, send me a note and ask. I promise I am very friendly.

As for that: "This Month's Special" part of the journal-title, I have something sweet to offer you all. Seeing as I am way too late to jump on the Halloween train but Thanksgiving is just around the corner, how about we do a Soft Vore Special. From now until November 30th, any stories that deal with Soft Vore will et a 15% discount applied to it. In terms of soft vore, I mean anything that doesn't involve digestion and the like. It can be cute and cuddly. It can be erotic and horny. No matter the subject matter, if it deals with Soft Vore, you get the discount! Now, once again, this Special only lasts till November 30th, after that it is gone! So go ahead and hope on it now while you can!

Yeah, i am opening up for Comms! I never really closed...or opened for that matter, but still, I am open for story Comms. My prices are pretty cheap. $45.00 get you a ten page story, with every page after that costing you only a mere dollar. I will set up the commissions tab shortly with more info, but if you want to get a drop on this, send me a note and we can talk details!

Yep, it is my birthday! Well, at the time of me writing it, thirty minutes till my birthday. What a wild ride the year has been. Between....all of 2020 and just....everything else that has happened. Honestly, not a lot of good stuff to recap....well that is a lie. There was some good stuff, just a lot of stuff I didn't enjoy inbetween. But I'm not here to wax on and on about the bad stuff, nope I'm here to celebrate my birthday. So, in honor of that, here is some good stuff that happened over the past year.

-Quit my shitty job at Buffalo Wild Wings

-Stopped working myself to death at shit job in general and started to work on myself.

-Came to terms with my Asexuality and accepted that, while I am a kinky fucker, having sex isn't my thing

-Discovering that I am Trans, have been for years and have just now accepted this! (That one is my personal fave honestly!)

-Learning to deal with loss in a healthy way

-Finding someone who loves me for me and is okay with new aspects of myself

-And I am sure there is a bunch of other stuff too

Point is, that despite how bad everything has been, so far things have also been just as good. This is my last year in my twenties before i hit the big 30 so I am going to enjoy this year to the fullest, and start living for me, like I should have been ages ago.

Mostly cause I have a huge backlog of stuff. Like...a lot of stuff. A good dozen pictures that need to be posted. But, before we get to my horde of pictures from the past few months, I am currently working on something a bit more...well personal. It is a bit of vent story telling. I have some stuff I need to just get off my chest and I think this story I am working on will help with that. While bits of it will be fictional, some of it will also deal with things that have happened in my actual life. I don't know how it is going to pan out, but I just need this...for my own sake. After that, then I'll be back to peddling more smut

For those of you, which let us be honest is probably none of you guys, that have been keeping up with me on Twitter you know that I have been going off on things lately. I've tackled white people trying to explain racism to black people. I tried my best to expose how gatekeeping in various communities are afflicted upon people of color. I even went after the furry fandom in a small rant about how we have a serious problem with fetishizing people of other races, among other things. Yet...one thing I wished I could have talked about more in that segment was the racist, homophobic, bigoted, anti-Semitic, and anti-trans (among other things) individuals and groups that have made themselves comfortable in our fandom. This. Is. Not. Okay.

We have a problem here, and it is leaving our fandom broken and cracked. We like to make jokes and call them out, but we don't take any meaningful action. We know who these people are, yet we still give them a platform upon which that can speak their poisonous words.
We know the groups that they are apart of, and yet we do nothing to ban them from ALL, not just some, of our events.
We have issues with allowing this to be a safe haven for those that don't deserve it, all because we are supposed to "accept" everyone.
Enough is enough.

We can't say we are a community that is a safe haven for people if we allow and tolerate anyone who has such hateful words and thoughts.

Now, I know for a fact that these people don't represent the entire fandom and I know that they are a small number. However, that small number can grow. Those that share their beliefs will join them. Let us not forget that Milo Yannapolis(or however his name is spelled) slipped into the fandom by way of idnviduals who share his vile and hateful viewpoints. We can't let them claim any more of this fandom.

Our fandom is cracked, thin lines spreading across its beautiful surface, but we can repair it.

Black. Lives. Matter. That is all. That is the journal. Why is that all that this journal will have? Because it is the truth. Black lives have been and are being snuffed out by a system that has failed them on so many levels. So, Black Live Matter. Plain and simple. If you want more in depth stuff, just hit up my twitter. https://twitter.com/ArtemisBLM you will find a lot of tweets that give more depth to how I feel.

Hello guys, how have you all been? I am back, once more to attempt to actually churn out more writing. As we speak I am actually working on a commission piece for the first time in ages. So far it is going well. Provided everything works out, I will be opening up Comms as a means to supplement my current lack of income. They are going to be for a flat rate, I am doing $50.00 for ten pages. After that, every extra page will run you $2.00 more. I have a tendency to overshoot on stories, so if I do end up going over what you paid for, it will be on the house. As I said, it is a work in progress, so it is very rough, but I have to start somewhere.

As for the stories part, I am working on two other stories at the same time as the comm. One story, which is insanely fun, is a kinky super hero story. I am working with someone on using DnD elements that I may actually add as a feature to stories if it goes well. Another story is a sort of redo of an older story on my profile. I hope to have things set up before the week is out, so if you have ever enjoyed my brand of kinky silliness, keep your eyes open for the next journal.

I...I haven't had a lot of close people die. Yet...yesterday...my grandfather passed due to complications from Covid-19. I'm still just stunned....shocked. I can't believe that I live in a world without him. Everything feels cold....empty. I am still trying to just process this...process the depth of what happened and I just can't. I fully understand what happened. I accept what happened. I know and knew that this was a possibility and yet....it hurts just the same. It is probably going to be some time until I'm...ever the same, if I could ever be the same. I'm at a loss for what to do....and it hurts.