I don't care for the username anymore welp. gotta start over.
anyways uh link y'all when its done. I'm keeping track of who I owe too so don't worry.

info here
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15223591/

now 10x more organized.
Im REALLY short on money for the holidays this year and I want to be able to get nice gifts for my loved ones however i'm having a really hard time getting my commissions around.

-I'd rather you contact me for a commission over tumblr its a bit easier! If you absolutely do not have one, then you can note me here!

-I show wins and progress

-just cause all of my examples (but one) are human doesn't mean I'm not doing anther commissions! I'll draw whatever you want besides nsfw

its via paypal.

if you can signal boost me that would be fantastic.

Well most of things have been taken care of and I'm still trying to finish/refund commissions I actually lost a few files on my computer for some reason and Im still trying to figure out what is going on. Sorry about that guys ;; I had this issue with multiple people and you all have been so patient.
Slowly getting back on track here and got a place to live I don't have to be in such a nasty environment anymore so its really really nice I haven't been this peaceful in years.

Hey guys hate to bring in some bad news but for the time being I'm putting a halt on working on artwork due to a crisis I'm experiencing in my life right now. Its just not possible for me to even stop and draw anything really nowdays because I'm working so hard just to keep myself going due to once again not having a place to live so really Its just a mess. It doesnt mean I'm quitting for good I'm just in an emergency situation and as soon as I finish the last of my commissions you wont be hearing from me for a while. Or at least until december when I get some housing. And really things are looking pretty terrible but I got to try. It isnt completely hopeless, just scary.

I need a bit to recover. its absolute shit but ill have plenty of time to draw during this time.
Its over and done with I no longer have to deal with an abusive relationship with my mother and I now reside in a safe place and stress free after fighting for almost a month on what I thought would only be a 73 hour lockdown.

I'm very tired.

well I'm back from vegas and screw it it was prolly the most miserable experience of my life it would had been nicer if I wasn't babysitting a 40 year old drunk off their ass and rude to everyone.

anyways, yknow my kaiju/hybrid payton? I'm getting rid of them. just lost appeal to me. Payton is up for design/character trade and I'm gonna advertise that in a moment but if anyone is interested just tell me and I'll consider it. You'll get paytons ref sheet and a few sketches I had of them for ref.

Really once Im done uploading the commissions/ an art trade for this week I'm going to make a reference sheet for paytons kind as a closed species unless you are a close friend of mine. usually I would make an open species but really I just love the design and idea too much just to loosely hand em out so thats a possibility, expect that later.

Im closing these off for now I got enough to help out my friend for what she needed and I'll try to upload them before I head out to vegas for a few days.

I'm gonna be at mandalay bay for the weekend and I'm just really happy cause I have not done anything good for myself for a really long time and I deserve it after the hell Ive been through so itll be nice even if Im only out for a few days. It's gonna be really awesome cause really I never been to vegas before.

I always thought it would be fun to go to a furry convention and get a fursuit and the like but living with my mother is nasty as is I cant even imagine the shit she'd do if she saw me pulling that shit. its a real bummer even just going to a con and doing some artwork or whatever would be difficult. Id leave the house but I'm majorly uneducated for my age due to not having responsible parents and things are just kinda off with me development wise and then I would go into a job but my anxiety is ridiculous for multiple reasons and I can't even get any help or anything. I dont know how to do anything and even when I research I'm afraid I'll do something horribly wrong its all just severe uncertainty. 19 and a major failure basically. I know I'll get there at some point but things are just looking really nasty right now.

Instead of doing these in august I'm going to do it earlier and spread them out.
Thing is because plans were cancelled. I really dont have the energy to draw right now I'm taking a week or a few hiatus. I had a bit of trouble with my boyfriend and we broke up I gave him money from my commissions to help him get out here and have to do that work in commissions still.
I'm so mentally drained and exhausted right now I have nothing left in me and I've been dealing with so much and matters just got worse. I really dont know what I'm going to do about my current home situation either. I'm really hurt. I need time to heal.

I've been very busy due to preparing to go to AX this year and cleaning up so my boyfriend can visit out here for those I owe I will try to get to you guys asap I will be free next week!

And whistleblower along with it and holyyy shit that game was terrifying. Horror masterpiece. That was just a really well executed game, no overuse of jumpscares but a good balance of psychological horror with it and some of the scenes in that game were wonderfully heinous. I cant wait to see more from this developer. if anyone likes horror games a bit like amnesia I suggest checking it out.


In other news my boyfriend is flying out here in august and we are gonna travel around california doing various things and then I'm going to go back with them to NY and MA and do a few artist allys and shoots at cons.

I have a few ideas on who I might commission for a fursuit head since I might be attending a con in the future but does anyone have recommendations? Especially for those who can do a fursuit for cool looking characters, the lot of them I see have a cutesy style to them.

I'll post the art trades later this week or well sometime this week I've been mainly doing commissions because neither me or my bf is in a good situation and Im working hard for money so he can get a plane out here. and Im living at my grandmothers and shes retired so Im paying for my own clothes and food rn. But Ive got some free time once again for non commissions art~

I haven't actually done art trades for a really long time. Although I dont want to get overwhelmed so I may just pick certain people to do one with. Can't possibly do all of them I really dont have that kind of artistic energy at all. Well given I get any offers in the first place. but yeah if anyones interested.

I got some new stuff to upload like a lot actually I've been drawing like crazy.
sorry I havent been online or on skype I got better again a while ago, and to be honest my boyfriends just distracting me.

Yeah I should prolly work on commissions.

Well the good news is that I got myself into a peaceful state of mind again in a short amount of time. I've just been cooped up for quite a while on top of the original issue because I was ill and could not really go anywhere and I still cant really go anywhere, upside, I'm emotionally chill, downside, I'm in immense pain I've yet to see a doctor about the issue and it comes by for a little bit and goes away but when it rears its ugly face man its a bitch to deal with its like from the ribcage down this unbearable stinging feeling to a point where I can barely move, even breathing hurts and then suddenly it goes away after like 10-20 minutes, I'm really hoping its nothing too serious because it feels awful so I've just been trying to take it easy until I'm able to get an appointment going. Have a lot more time to draw now as well, would be up for doing art trades or something.

My mental health is taking a turn for the worse again and I might be taking a break. I dont know for sure cause I really cant tell how badly its going to effect me or if I will start drawing more to help me deal with it or less. Just saying just in case I dont post anything for weeks on end. which I hope doesn't happen. but like I said theres a chance.

I might stay off of skype and tumblr as well until I'm feeling well again and thing is, this happens quite a bit if I suddenly like drop out of doing art suddenly that just means I'm not doing well and I'm trying to get myself into a more peaceful state of mind. Certain things set the issue off and unfortunately I ran into one of those things today and it made me remember certain events and it has me pretty wigged out right now.
I might/might not be on skype during this time it really depends.

For those I owe the two drawings to, I am still working on it, I will just have it a bit late, I'm sorry.
Anyways, hope you guys understand.

So. Over the passed few days of doing the account switch I got quite a few watchers, most of them not knowing me from my previous account. Thank you guys, like its cool to know people like the stuff I draw. Thing is I'm just going to tell you newcomers, I am not very social at all in general it takes a lot to get me talking to someone often or to become friends with me. So anyways, If I dont reply to a comment it doesn't mean I dont like you it just means
A. I got a lot of messages right now and I'm overwhelmed.
B.I'm being lazy, prolly playing videogames or something.
C.I dont know what to say, this happens a lot when I get compliments on my art and it takes me a while to reply or sometimes I dont even say anything I mean which is rude but I try my best to get back to every message. -n-

So I'm making this journal to get to know some you guys.
and I'll reply.
Say whatever you want or a random fact about yourself or anything really. I'm trying to snap back into a social mood I cut myself off from others quite a bit, more than I would like to, I like meeting new people and talking I just have a hard time being motivated.

Anyways, how you guys doin?

So I'm currently rewatching some artists I was on my old account. not every single one cause well to be honest there was a lot of spam going on.
There wont be any more account moves.