I don't care what you celebrate. And if you don't celebrate anything, well then happy day to you. :3

I hope you all have a great day today, tomorrow, and into the new year.
I have learned a lot of things this year, some things bad and some things good.

I don't really have any new years goals or resolutions, except maybe to lose this holiday weight i'm sure to gain, use less plastic because it truly is everywhere, and generally just striving to be a good person, to be more outgoing and less withdrawn, to draw more, and perhaps to cook more, because I find the things I do cook are turning out better and better tasting. I sort of like to cook. n_n

I have learned that you can't always be friends with everyone no matter how hard you try, and though you may have done no wrong some people will not want to associate with you.

I have learned when in a rush, almost anything is possible for me.. So procrastination is actually a good thing!

I have fallen back in love with tea this year, and learned that stevia in tea is almost better than honey.

I have learned to want less. At the beginning of this year i'm thinking about having a massive garage sale and selling my stuff for cash in hopes to actually save some money.. I just have a lot of trinkets that I have almost no room for.

I have learned to follow my own path. Although it may be the wrong path, although it might not make others happy, you should always follow your own road. If you follow someone else's path in life, you will always look back and wonder "What if..?" You will always be a prisoner in your own body. While I may not make the right choices in life, they are MY choices. And in making your own choices, you learn.

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I am waiting till the new year to re-open commissions. By then I hope to have a full commission sheet up as well as updated prices and fancy examples of my work. Sorry for the continued wait for those who are interested, but I figure it would be much less stress for everyone to wait until the holidays are over to begin work.

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I have a sort of present I am working on for you guys.... I'm hoping to have it finished today. Be on the lookout for it. This is in light of me finally being able to install the right driver for my screwy tablet that wasn't working properly, and is now fixed.

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BIIIIIIG Shoutout to  batterypowered,  hollo , and  surge_pink .
I LOVE LOVE LOVE your cards and I truly thank you guys from the bottom of my heart. They are hanging up on my wall with pride. You guys are truly sweet for returning a card, and I couldn't have asked for more. Thank you so much.

...What's it like?

Doesn't have to be a furrycon. Just any con in general. If you've been to one, could you tell me about it? Your experience, what there is to do there, etc.

I've always been interested in 'em, but never really understood what it was all about, you know? I know a great deal of it is just masses of people getting together who share similar interests.. A lot of art n' dressing up etc. But like. For example.. Would a furrycon be welcoming to the average non-furry who is simply interested in learning more about the community or making new friends?

I dunno. Random questions for you guys. xD Thanks a million to anyone who is willing to offer any feedback whatsoever, even if you've never been you can share your thoughts. <3

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I sort of told my mum I wasn't going to school in the spring. she didn't take it too well, as usual.. I explained to her that this is why I keep stuff from her because she always reacts the same way, but ultimately it's my life and my choices. Told her i'd rather be making actual money from a job than throwing it at some educational drek that may not even guarantee me a better paying career because economy is down the toilet. Beh. I feel low because i know she's upset and disappointed but at the same time so am I. I'm disappointed that i'm not making enough to eat healthy and that I can't focus enough in the classes that I do take to get decent grades. So i'm at a standstill. Hopefully things will smooth themselves out before Christmas, but I doubt it, because the inevitable talk around the dinnertable will spring up, i'm sure: "So, what classes are you taking in the spring?"

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Commissions are still on hold till I finish some stuff up. Just to keep you all updated, the reason I havent opened them yet is because i'm actually working on refining some things and also working on better badge examples, as well as an actual commission price guide sheet, which is a bit more organized than my current list (Which needs updating BADLY). I am hoping to have them open in the spring and they wont be as hindered as before because I won't be going to school, so stay on the lookout, they're coming soon, I promise. :)

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I want to teach myself to paint. So look out for some random art too from me.

Thanks for all your replies and loyalty, friends. I hope you all have a wonderful holiday, to whatever you celebrate. :) <3

So I thought i'd try my hand at sculpting. made a cute little elephant lastnight. went to lunch with my mum today. Came home. Sculpture was missing. It was in the middle of my coffee table when I left. I look around, my dog gets up, and underneath him there's a bit of leftover clay and tinfoil, all chewed up. The rest was eaten.
Thanks.
Stupid.
Dog.
-_-

RIP baby elephant. I hope it was worth it. Sure, bones, toys and playtime are not enough for you, you have to eat all my stuff too. Now we know why IK is a cat person. <3

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Also, to those of you who asked for cards.. let me know when you get them please. Just so I know they've made it to you safely. Also let me know what you think of 'em. Thanks. :)

Commissions reopen very soon, I promise! I'm working on a few last things, like an actual price guide/sheet.

I'd be willing to send my friends here a christmas card, that is.. if I can get it done on time.
I've decided to lino-carve my cards again this year. I did it last year too but with a different design.

It's really tedious to get all the details I want into such a small block, and the inks and materials are expensive, but I know that I like getting christmas cards in the mail, so I do my best to make them look nice. Besides, I like handmade things just a bit better than store bought and mass produced things. ^^

RULES:
-I'd really prefer people who actually talk to me, comment on my art, or make any effort at all to communicate with me. In other words, my friends here. I won't be sending card to random people that I don't know, because I don't have unlimited supplies of cards, time, or postage stamps. :/

-You must be comfortable sending(noting, don't leave it in this journal! D: ) me your address so the card can get to you. I've sent lots of badges to people through the mail and I assure you I can be trusted with your information. If you don't feel comfortable with this method, i'm sorry ;;

-This isn't limited to people who celebrate christmas. By me sending a card; i'm not trying to convert you to christianity. xD The card does not feature baby jesus or a cross anywhere in the picture, I promise.

- It'd be sweet if I got a letter or card in return, but it's not necessary.

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This all essentially rests on if I can get this block done by today, because i'm running out of time to make prints and send the cards. Even if I get them finished there is no guarantee it'll get to you guys by christmas, unfortunately ;;

But I thought i'd throw this out there to give my friends an opportunity to get a card, as well as an original piece of art from me that will only be available around christmastime.

Let me know who is interested, and I will update this journal with names.

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1. Surge_Pink
2. Cross-Azure
3. Catherik

My time is up. My family, my mum, wants me to enroll in classes and change my major. i'm through with school at this point.

How do I tell her I don't want to go back?
Either way i'm sure this will not end very well.
But I need advice on how to break it to her.

I'm sick of wasting my time and money at a place that doesn't even want me there. I have no set goals and I don't want to be some higher education graduate. I'm happy with where i'm at right now and if I never find a well paying job, so be it. i'll just have to work harder in life to make a living is all.

I need help. I don't know what to say in a way that she'll understand. I thought about saying something like "School right now doesn't make me happy. i need to be doing things for ME, not for anyone else." but does that seem ignorant? It's the truth. School has made me a wreck. I'm only there now because of family reputation; not for my own benefit. I'm not doing well because I can't concentrate or focus. So why be there?

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I'm thinking about trying my hand at sculpting again.. and maybe even making bags. I dunno.. We'll see.

Is there anything you guys would like to see from me, in terms of art? More mixes, commissions, sketches, personal pieces, sculpture, etc? Make a suggestion or let me know the art medium you prefer or would like me to try. I'll give it a shot in hopes of sparking my inspiration to get things done. Please, and thank you. <3

I dont get what more I can do to be a better friend to people, but as I officially declared today: From this day forward i'm going to stop trying so hard with people.

I've tried reaching out to one friend in particular. I've put my life on hold for this friend. Used every opportunity to see them. tried supporting them and giving them a shoulder to cry on if they needed to. We plan some serious road tripping this week.

And then..
..Nothing?

Phone isn't on. no email. no messages. absolutely nothing.
I know said friend is just fine, considering said friend's friends have been posting up about them. (Yes..... I stalk. :| )


I just dunno what i'm supposed to do. What are you supposed to think when someone tells you they want to be around you and hang out, and that you're an amazing person, and then just totally forget you've ever existed to be with other people?

-sigh-
in other news, it's my mum's birthday today. I bought her a really nice top notch dehydrator with my entire paycheck because she hinted thats what she wanted this year. It'll be like a birthday/christmas present because I honestly can't afford much else right now. :/ Hopefully she'll make me some delicious dried fruit from it so I don't starve. Mmmmmmm. ;;
Waiting for her to get home so I can surprise her with it. c:

I'm gonna start commissions very soon. I just need to sort this friend problem out first because as of right now it's left me mentally strained and i've lost all inspiration to draw stuff.

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So this journal isn't totally pointless:

What do you think of this?
https://youtu.be/zzfQwXEqYaI

I hope you all had a great turkey day. Mine could have been much better, but could probably have been worse too. Some updates:

I failed my plastic test. Thanks a lot, thanksgiving. so my family wanted to go out to eat, and my condiments came in plastic cups rather than ceramic like I anticipated, and my drink came preloaded with plastic straw. So.. like a week and a half of being so good, and SPLAT.

I'll be opening for commissions once my trades are done. I'm in need of some money because my mum asked for a dehydrator for christmas, and i'm broke as hell. xD I was technically never officially closed for commissions, but they've been slow because I never really announce 'em being open. I'll probably only open a few slots at a time, so let me know if you are gonna be interested, or if you have any questions.

School trouble. So I guess my school decided to make things more difficult fo rme. starting next semester any class you've dropped or failed more than twice, they wont let you take the course. In other words, they look back on all your records since you first started. if you've dropped classes more than once, you cannot take said course ever again. I've dropped classes more than once. So I probably wont be able to graduate. Sweeeeet.

I'm makin' mixes. I've been having loads of fun making my little hybrid animals. if you have any suggestions on a mix of two animals to create, i'll give it a shot. sketch form only. :)

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Pimpinnnnn'
This wasn't asked of me, but I told 'em I would pimp them out.
 woozel is making some awesome little feral pixel icon commissions. Check it out! Only 5 bucks. Closed for now, but give 'em a watch and look out for when they open up again!

 Jai_the_jackal makes some AMAZING chibi badges. Only 5 bucks? what a steal, dude! Check her out, and commission if interested. <3

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Did you guys have a good thanksgiving?
Be on the lookout for some art coming up. C:

As random as it is, I made a comic.. featuring IK, based on a true story. It might be something all artists can relate to, i'm not sure just yet.. but I got a laugh out of it because it actually happened to me yesterday, and has happened before, and so I felt it be time that I draw out my plight to share with you guys.

It's all gonna be traditional, 9 panels. I'm about 90% finished inking, and then i'm gonna colour it real simple, or maybe just leave it b&w.

So..
Would that be something any of you would be interested in seeing? xD
And if I do upload it, would you comment on whether you liked it or not? :)

It's been my first comic since like.. 7th grade or something. But I like it. ^^ Should I upload it here?

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I'm thinking about my CAATS badges being 20$ now. (They were $15 before)
25 was another number people were suggesting, but I feel with shipping prices, 27$ wouldnt be a very nice looking number. so 22$ total cost with shipping, lamination, etc

And then my Tummy Aches could be 10$. So 12$ shipping included.
Chibis would be 8$($10 with shipping), And i'm thinking about making things like busts or fullbody badges be more expensive than the CAATS, only because they always seem to come out much larger than I expected. And with size comes time and much more detail put in.
So my bust badges will probably be 23$, so 25 with shipping, and then my fullbodies'll be something like 30$(32$ w/ shipping), only because I dont want to do them very often because of extreme time constraints, haha x_x

Do you guys think those are fair prices? I like to hear my watcher's feedback because it's ultimately you guys buying my badges, not me. :)

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Trades
 saltypuppy - 85% done, their half: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6857241/
 gravewalker

Jeez dude, after thanksgiving and then BAM. just hits you. It's cominggggg..

Anyway, this is just a little journal about the holidays, what i'm doing, what i'm planning, etc. Don't worry, I don't want to convert anyone, haha. For me, Christmas is more about togetherness. While all families are essentially crazy, it's nice to see people whom you haven't seen, and actually get along with them... for the most part. xD

Family dinner table: "Kat, what are you doing with your life? Why dont you have a boyfriend, is something wrong with you? Why havent you found a well paying job yet? Why aren't you finished with school with honours? you should join the military. YOU FAIL at everything you do. YOUR LIFE IS RACING BY AND YOU'VE ACCOMPLISHED NOTHING."
Me: " ........... 8C "

Anyway, Here's a FA version of my christmas list, although most to all of it is the same as my christmas list this year:

-ART (Mainly for FA, but i've been egging my RL friends to draw Icykat too, hahahaha. )
-Art supplies (Micron pens, coloured pencils, etc)
-Art/craft store gift cards
-Christmas card (I actually love getting cards in the mail.. It's nice to know people actually are thinking about you. :) )
-Grocery store gift cards ( :| I'm poor. Healthy food ain't cheap. )
-Pet store gift cards (Healthy dog/cat food aint cheap, either. D: )
-Activity. (This is a FA wish.. I just like activity! I like to know my watchers appreciate my art. This goes a bit farther than the ol' favourite. Just, whenever you have the time, have a look through my gallery, pick a favourite work(or a few!), and give me a nice comment on why you like it, how it makes you feel, if you see hidden meaning, etc.. Or even ask a thoughtful question about it! This is just a request mind you, but it would honestly make a lovely gift for me. I love replying in depth to in-depth comments.)
-Advertisement. Pimp me out in a journal or adopt a jellyhound. Spread the news about my commissions or just tell a friend. Word of mouth makes the world go round, and i'm always fond of any new watchers. :)
-Letters! I like pen pals. C: Just as long as you are the kind of person who will actually write to me, and stay respectful.

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I'm thinking aboot doing a little advent calendar thing. I can't do all 31 days because I fail and I dont have enough time, but.. expect some stuff on whatever days I have to give. During the month of December, that is. xD

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Hummmm, anything you guys want for christmas? :)
Or if you don't celebrate; What's your favourite thing about december or the wintertime? n_n

Awwwman.
Check out this amazing artist, right here:
 RenaissanceRobot .

And then give lots of love to this image made for me, in gorgeous watercolours!
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6836912

-Hyperventilates-
She's so lovely in watercolours.. I'm so bloody tempted to try painting IK now.
Anyway, this journal is essentially a shoutout to Chloe, so go check out her work and be sure to comment and favourite something of hers. Thanks again, dear!

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The remainder of my day will consist of colouring examples of my new tummy ache badges, working on a trade, and work working. Blehhh.
Much love to you all. :)

You guys know about my CAATS badges, yes?
Well, I havent exactly been advertising them as much as I should(They are still open, heh), but upon looking around at other badge prices, i'm wondering whether I should raise my prices. My CAATS are incredibly detailed and it does add up to buy custom colours for thread, as well as laminate supplies and pencils.Not to mention, the badges on average are usually over 7 inches long!

I'm asking you all your honest opinions, whether $15 dollars is too little for a badge such as this. If too little, please give an honest opinion based on what you've seen from me and the other badges you've seen for sale, at how much they ought to be worth. I may use your advice to help me decide on whether to bump 'em up a little bit.

To make things fair if I do decide to raise the prices, I will offer my watchers the discounted price($15) until december or something.

Also, does anyone show interest in 'em? Just curious. xD Even if you can't afford or don't wanna pay, it's nice to know if people like the idea of my badges. :3

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Also, on that note, If you are sad that i'm thinking about raising my CAATS prices and wanted one really really bad, FEAR NOT.
The "inspiration" part of my title here is the fact that i've come up with a new type of CAATS badge. It's still a WIP and i'm not sure how they will turn out, but they are MINI CAATS. Titled "Tummy Aches", these badges are about half the size of the normal CAATS, at around 4 inches tall. They will feature your fursona/character in a random/derpy expression and stitched together like a normal CAATS badge. For these, I was thinking about pricing them around 8$, like my chibi badges. (I might even raise the price of the chibi badges, but for now they stay the same.)

What do you guys think? Should I post up some sketches of what i've got thus far? :)

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Note to self:
Trade with  SaltyPuppy - Badge, SKETCHED
Trade with  Gravewalker - CAATS
Finish some crap for once

..Of my rants, anyway.

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These are here for a reason.
 bleedsrainbows
 JWT
 starrlion
 blackrathmar
 catherik
 Bloodwolf817

You can ask why your names are here or you can ignore it. :)
I feel totally indifferent and sorta numb right now. but feeling that way is a little bit better than feeling depressed, right?

Anyway, thanks be to those who helped me out with words of advice or personal stories while i'm going through this rough patch. Long story short I dumped a friend who wasn't really willing to be a friend and for me it's a stressful scenario because I don't find friends like that very often, who i can get along with and who respect(..respected?) me for who i was. I was putting 100% in, and I was given less than 10% back at the end of it all. It makes me second guess myself and my ability to make and keep friends, but it doesn't mean i'll become bitter. I just wont try so hard anymore. people will have to take the initiative to get to know me before I give them my 100%.

I hope all is well with everyone. This no plastic thing sucks. But it's times like these that I am glad I invested in stainless steel straws, my reusable coffee cup and by bamboo fork/spoon. With those three utensils i can go anywhere. :D

I've discovered the only resolution to all my problems since october is to be happy that i've lost a friend.

How the hell is that possible?

I'm just sick of being depressed and worried and ignored every single day while thinking i mustve done something horribly wrong, when in fact i've done nothing. This isn't about any of you on here, because you have been nothing but supportive and I can't thank you all enough for dealing with my whiny emo crap.. This is a really deep and corrupt issue that only my closest RL friends will know about fully, and that's how it's going to stay.

But how the hell does one just up and abandon everything they've worked so hard to salvage? At one point it feels like i'm wanted, and then the next it feels like i'm shunned. I was promised that i'd always have a friend in this person. and now this person won't even have the decency to tell me to leave them the hell alone. I pleaded with them to just tell me what they want me to do, I said i'd do anything, whether it be for me to talk or whether it be for me to never speak to them again, and I get NOTHING. It's the same thing every time. I get dragged back in with a few happy words from them, with the smallest hope that I can save something, and then I get silenced in every sense of the word, and then i'm slammed out again. Damn.

Now i'm tempted to go to where i know they'll be today, but at the same time it'd be pointless since apparently everyone is welcome there, but i'm being avoided so would it even matter if I went? Damn. DAMN.

I need to get my mind off of this. I was just starting to get better lastnight and i've been shot down out of the sky again. Give me something to draw guys. I dont care what. Anything but vent art. No more vent art. I just want to leave and I just want to draw. I dont care what it is. God dude. I need to stop crawling back but I just dont know how to quit. Whats wrong with me?

Enough ranty journals. I wont bring you guys down any longer with that depressing talk, okay? Here is where i'll need your help.

Over the past few days I have felt more inspired than ever before (probably because of said ranty journals/situations) and I have a sheet-ton of art sketches now.

If I submit them into my main gallery as just that, unfinished sketches, would you all be willing to glance at them and just comment on which you'd like to see finished? I may finish all of them eventually, but it really depends on how much time i'll have and how long this inspirational trip lasts, so it'd be cool to see what you guys consider priority in terms of what i ought to finish. You can comment on just one or all of them, just let me know if you'd be interested in seeing it coloured up.. You could even suggest how to colour it, like with markers or pencils or digitally or whatever.That way I'll know whether to even bother colouring/uploading it at all. While my own personal works usually only mean something to me, it's nice to know others are actually looking forward to seeing new art of mine.

Would any of you be willing to do that for me? :)I'll tell you now, majority is Icykat art. But i'd like to think that i've been improving. :)

Good news is i'm off my vegan thing. I did it, and i'm proud that I lasted. Now it's a month without buying plastic. WIsh me luck..

Bad news is I feel like running out into the freeway.
Are friendships really that disposable?

I was literally shunned by someone today.. I've essentially ruined certain aspects of my life for this person, and today when I drove out to visit, I was cast out. No eye contact, maybe three sentences said to me, an awkward goodbye hug and then I left alone. It was too awkward. It has never been like this. Never this bad.

Have you ever felt like you need a good cry, to let your emotions out, but you just don't have the strength to?
I am so freaking drained, and tired of this.. I'm just so tired of being hurt and feeling this way.

I don't come along close friends very often, and this friend in particular had other ties.. too important, you know? Too important to lose. They are leaving on a trip somewhere. In a few days.. I went to visit to say a proper goodbye.

This isn't how things should end. Whats wrong with me? Am I that horrible to be around?

I need to finish this picture tonight.

Kay, I don't think any of you know how much mental trauma i've faced this month.. Well, october. The whole of october. It got better because  bleedsrainbows and her boyfriend came to visit me yesterday.. and a lot was talked about. But i'm in deep mann. I'm using art as an escape, but luck would have it that art is also my way of expressing how I feel about stuff. And those two realms are crossing really bad. It sucks. I need to vent, but in venting i'm opening up old wounds that i'm trying to close because both revolve around my art.

I can't get too deep in explaining because I really don't think it appropriate to talk about my problems in a random journal, but I will say the next few weeks and this month will be a make or break point for me in terms of mental health, so expect gobs and gobs and gobs of vent art, and perhaps a few gems in between. Hopefully i'll improve a little bit, so maybe there is a silver lining in all this. :)

That one WIP picture I recently submitted of Icy.. That will be a gem. It's about halfway done right now.. It needs to be perfect, even though the subject it's about will never bear witness. When I do submit it i'd really appreciate your opinions on the overall piece.. Not so much to help me improve, but to tell me what you see. It means a lot to me when people observe what I do, especially if it's important to me.

Also, i'm plucked in school. simply plucked. I give up. ._.

Tomorrow I can quit being a vegan. I'ma try not to binge on cheese honey and candy though, because i've been trying to eat healthier. Maybe i'll just eat nothing but honey for a few days.. some extreme detox thing that keeps me happy from the extreme sugar content. x3

Anyways, how you all doing? How have you been, guys? I hope everything is well. :)

Yep. For the month of October I challenged my willpower by switching to a strict vegan diet. That's gonna last till the 3rd since I started on it late. And this month? What crazy thing could I give up now?

Well, i'ma give up plastic.
I wont be buying any plastic and I will only use what I already have.
Hard... considering everything is either sealed in or made of plastic nowadays.

I just don't like how much of the stuff is around. We might as well learn to eat it. it's not going anywhere.

Anyways, not going on a hippie rant or anything. But that's whats up.

Expect more ranty art and jellies in the days to come..
I need to get the ranty art out, because at this point it's the only way I feel i can truly portray how I feel without breaking down.

And I realize I keep saying i'm gonna make an Icykat reference.. But I never get there. So... I might start working on ANOTHER one soon. and maybe i'll finish this one. Blehhh. xD

Anything you guys would like to know about or say to me? -misscleo'd- CALLMENAO~

I was a little bit vague in my last journal, but I wanted everyone to know I was alive. Now comes the hard part; explaining what i've been up to the past few weeks. D:

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Monthly challenge- For those of you who dont know me IRL, you probably dont know that i sometimes set myself up to do these challenges where i give something up for a whole month, just to test my willpower (nothing to do with lent! so many people ask me. It's not religious at all. x3 ) This month I went vegan. I'm almost done but it's been tough, and i cant eat halloween candy till i'm done. :/

Next month? I'm considering not buying anything with plastic. HARD. everything is in plastic these days. :C But plastic is unnecessary. It is simply a convenience for humans, but a plague on the environment. Yep.

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School- School SUCKS. :)

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Work- Work is WORK. But at least i'm working i guess.

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Relationships- Behhhhhhhhh. Been really bad the past couple weeks. Perhaps one of the reasons i've been gone. Let's just say i'd like to jump off a bridge with a stone tied to my foot. :) Long story short, I dunno if i'm asexual after all. I think one of the main reasons I call myself this is because I don't like the idea of sex ruling a relationship and i'm really not interested in it at all in terms of making myself happy. In fact i'm more attached to people emotionally than anything else. so what does that make me? Anyways, yeah i'm a wreck.

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Art- Be on the lookouts.. Lots of emotional crap involving IK. Maybe more Jellies. Depends on how much time i have in life. Depends on other situations. But be on the lookout.

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Animation?
I've been thinking about animating a short. It doesnt involve any characters per say, but it is a representation of the situation i'm in right now. How I feel. But I dont know much about animation, so who knows if it'll ever get off the ground. xD Maybe it can be a storyboard setting instead.

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Have any questions for me?
I always ask this but hardly ever get any. Ask me some stuff! Anything you'd like. Please. I'm trying to keep conversation with my watchers here. :)

Why is it in some aspects of my life I can be so cowardice?

What in human nature makes us so scared of things that cannot physically harm us?

I think i'ma revamp myself into a sheep or a chicken gargoyle. NICE KATS FINISH LAST. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

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And now for something completely different.

What do you guys want to see me draw next, hmm? anything in particular you guys would like? some of my emotional imagery, IK, JH, chimeras, photography, etc etc? I want to draw but my brain is scrambled at the moment, so I need a little insight and inspiration regarding what I ought to be drawing.

If you watch me and you like my art, PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE comment below and let me know what you'd like to see.

Be my inspiration, guys. I need some.

If you are new to the JH species, go visit the club and join if you are interested.
 Jellyhound

Read this journal for FAQ and adoption information.
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2841746/

Adoptables will be on the jellyhound page, so if you want to adopt them i suggest you watch now. :)


Any questions about Jellyhounds you would like answered?

Damn guys, i'm so sorry for my lack of activity. Life has just been utter crap for me the last couple weeks, and i'm sort of stuck in between a natural high and a breaking point.

Life has been rough. Mentally, emotionally, physically.. Lets just say i'm a complete mess right now, and so I couldn't really make much time to come onto FA and upload art. I apologize deeply for my absence, and I hope you all can understand that I just needed time to think things out. The situations I get thrown into tend to send me into a hole and I dont talk to many people other than close friends or family, but lately it's been reserved to just one or two people, and I cant say much to them.

Anyway, long story short, I truly am sorry I havent been around. As an apology for my absence, I will put up some JH adoptables and they will be available free to my watchers, under a few terms:
-You must understand what a JH is
-You must want to use it in some way.
-If you decide not to use it, the rights go back to me, since it's free. no reselling, please.
-One per watcher.
-In order to adopt any of the freebies; I'd like to know you've read this journal through. The magic word to post if you'd like to adopt is "Luz". You can put that anywhere in the comments when i submit the adoptables.

Umm, other than that, I have a few other things i might submit from this emotional rollercoaster i've been riding. Would oyu guys be offended if I uploaded sketches?

Much love and gratitude toward you all,
IK

I'm gonna be really active in the next few days, if all goes well.

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JELLYHOUND ADOPTABLES. Coming soon..

..Do you guys think $5 would be fair? There is a reason it's priced at 5, which i'm sure you'll all figure out soon enough.

I'm also thinking about offering custom JHs for adoption, but those will be considerably higher, and include a custom artwork of their custom JH. What would you consider fair for something like a custom as a custom art piece?

I'll also be holding a few contests for customs, as well as for pre-designed JHs, for those who can't afford to buy one. C:
(For those of you w ho don't know about jellyhounds, go join the club and educate yo'self. ;)  Jellyhound )

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Do any of you know of any really good marine charities? Or any global charities that you really admire or support?
Perhaps you admire a specific animal charity. Whatever the case, list them here. I'd prefer to see some really good marine/aquatic ones, but if you have a global organization that helps out all walks of life (Example being WWF) then list it too!

I'm open to all suggestions.

Thanks guys! Much love to you all.

Hey guys, I thought i'd update a little bit on commissions and everything so you all know where i'm at.

I havent had internet the past 3 days so i'm back now, and I got to really sit down and work on stuff.

CAATS for  saruki is about 95% done. Needs a few touch ups, lamination and then stitching.
CAATS for  regalwolfstudios is about 90% done.
Chibi badge for  tawnycrow is 98% done.
Personal IK CAATS badge 90% done.

They all look really nice, and i'm proud of how they have all come out. Only problem is, i'm running out of unique poses for them. xD

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School has been kicking my butt lately, but I guess I shouldn't complain. Only problem going to school fulltime is that i can only work a few days a week now, and that's really killing my source of income. i'm almost tempted to work fulltime AND go to school fulltime, but I have a feeling that would kill me. I'm lazy. :c

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I want to post some of my older works, but I don't want my watchers to be upset if I dump old pictures here. Would any of you be angry if I posted stuff from the past here? Should I put them into scraps, or into my main account? And how far back would you be interested in seeing?

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I am going to post my badge wall soon! I just have one more badge that i'm waiting to get in the mail, and then i'll snap a photo of it. It even has a never before seen chibi IK badge, and I am working on my own personal CAATS badge that will also be included!

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I haven't had much time to post or make anything new for my JH account, but don't worry.. As soon as these commissions are finished I will devote a little bit of my time to getting the adoptables finished as well as doing some major updates.

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Thank you all for being such lovely watchers. I hope all of you are well. <3

Sorry for the lack of updates guys.. The past weekend has been rough and I don't think it's going to get much better.

-First experience hitting an animal.
I was driving at night, the speed limit was 30, I was going 25mph because I don't like night driving. the streets where I drive do not have any source of light because the city is too cheap to buy street lights and so it is incredibly hard to see. From the corner of my eye I see two giant raccoons chasing each other, and so I swerve and slam on my breaks, and one smacks into the side of my car. Not sure whether I ran him over or not, I stopped and got out to check on it but he ran off and there was no blood or anything. Regardless, I am now terrified of driving at night and I feel horrible about it. It's not like it was in my direct control; He was not out in the street and he was the one who hit my car, but still. That sort of thing really gets to me.

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My wrist is getting worse.

So, My doctor has been blowing off my emails and my wrist is hurting bad. Concerns me because it's my writing, drawing, and dominant hand. My job requires me to lift heavy stuff and work intensively using my hands, and so whenever i'm at work it's constantly sore. Sometimes I feel a surging pain shoot up from my wrist to my forearm and elbow.. Has anyone ever had arm injury? Does this sound like nerve damage to you guys? What should I do?

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I am working on commissions, slowly. Having a job, classes every day, and doing art as well as other chores is a challenge, so I thank you all for being patient. I'll try and get more art up soon.

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I've been feeling really detached from society lately. Anyone who knows me IRL will know i'm not exactly the most bubbly personality, although I try to be nice and respectful, I don't really know how to be social. I don't really know what to say. In turn I feel like I don't really fit in. This isn't really me "bawwing" or pulling a woe-is-me, but I feel like i should write/type my thoughts out. I wish I was braver and more outgoing.

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How is everyone else doing?
I hope all is well with you guys. <3

I saw a image on the front page a few minutes ago. tons of views, but no comments. and this is serious.

Someone's missing, and while spreading the word through FA may not be the best way to find him, maybe it can help.

Link to journal is here:
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2654479/

I don't even know any of the people involved, but I thought i'd try to help. I would hate to lose a friend. Check out the journal; If you live close by the area, keep your eye out maybe?

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Also, I really feel the need to communicate now that i'm back in school.. If anyone wants to add me on AIM as a friend and chat, it's " Eiskatze3 ". Please don't spam and let's keep things civil, please. :) If you see me on, feel free to say hello.