So this week I plan on posting a bunch of stuff that I, for some reason, never got around to posting. But I figure that I may as well finally throw them up here for everyone to read at their leisure.

I also have some other stuff coming down the proverbial pipeline as well. Once I smash through this writer's block that has been plaguing me for a while.

I've also been considering finally making a Patreon page after some deliberation. I held off for a long time because I wasn't quite comfortable asking people for money, but as I have been unemployed for a while and stuck caring for my mom, who is immunocompromised, while this Covid epidemic continues on, I feel that it may not be the worst idea. Would anybody be interested in such a thing? Please don't feel pressured to contribute. Regardless, I will keep doing what I'm doing, but it could help motivate me to write or even sketch more in the future.

I have four commissions that I need to knock out, which I plan to. Ideally, at least one or two per month. But as always, I'm open for any inquiries from people who might be interested in getting a story of their own. Prices are all negotiable depending on what it is you desire.

I hope everybody is doing well out there. Stay safe and healthy. I care about each and every single one of ya.

Well it seems like life has decided it wants to keep me further and firther behind on finishing my backlog. This past week I had to deal with something that I never imagined in a million years would be something to worry about. All week I had felt really off in the physical sense. And it progressed even more day by day. At first I thought it was just a sinus infection. I seem to get those all the time. But no, this was something more serious.

Somehow I had developed Pneumonia. I have no idea why or when, but that was the diagnosis given. Luckily the doctors had caught it early so it won’t be nearly as crippling as it could potentially be.

I’ve been recovering the past few days. I ended up missing a whole week of work because of it. And right now I still don’t know if I’m well enough to go back yet.

So if anybody has been wondering why I’ve been less talkative of late, there’s your explanation.

I just wanted to update everybody on the situation so they wouldn’t worry too much. Thanks for continuing to view my content. I’ll have some more ready to post very soon.

Once I stop coughing my head off.

Hello, all. So I've decided to make a Trello page for all of my future commissions. That way I can better keep track of them. From now on this will be where I list all of them for the sake of convenience. Also in order to get an invitation to this page all you have to do is request a commission. Once that's finalized I will send you the link and you can reference it in the future until the project is done.

I'm also making a new rule for myself that I will try to finish at least one of these a month if not more. At the same time I'm gonna limit commission slots to five at a time so I don't get overwhelmed. This means that if somebody is interested you are welcome to comment here or even contact me via private message. Then we can work out the details of everything.

Consider this my first step towards turning this into a more regular thing. :3

Well it's only a little over an hour before I officially enter the new year. Recently I've been thinking about my future. Mainly how I can secure a stable life for myself and take steps towards being able to do what I love. And also to work on my consistency. Because I appreciate everybody who still follows me and my work after all this time. It's really a great feeling to know that so many people care about me and what I do.

So I thought I would lay out a few goals for this coming year. I don't want to say these are New Years Resolutions though because then I'll probably end up ignoring them a week into 2019.

1. Improving at drawing as much as possible. I've always enjoyed drawing, but it's only in these past few years where I have gotten to the point where I can feel somewhat satisfied with my work. Before when I was a kid I never could stick with it because I always feared that I could never become good at it. With things that I struggle with I have a bad habit of quitting them outright. This has continued to this very day.You don't know how it feels though to be making so much progress from where I first started. Finally everything is starting to click for me. By next year I'm hoping to be even better then I am now.

2. Produce more writing then ever. This page has always been lacking in terms of updates. And while I can't promise something new every single day I would like to get on a more consistent schedule. I want to be able to tackle so many projects and commission ideas. And maybe even try writing something that I personally want to. Even dabble outside of the realm of balloon stuff and try more serious projects.

3. Take and complete more commissions then ever. This one is self explanatory. This past year I posted a whopping three stories. And one was a mini-story so it's more like two and a half. Going forward I want to put alot more attention towards my writing then I have before. I've figured out a good way to be more consistent without burning myself out.

4. Start a Patreon. Honestly I've always been kind of uncomfortable with asking people for money. That's not why I do this. But with this becoming more and more common throughout our fandom I feel like maybe it's time to try and give it a shot. I have some fun stretch goals planned for this as well, including doing streams and reduced prices on commissions from me. And while it will primarily be about my writing stuff I might just do a bit of drawing stuff as well.

5. Work towards a career goal. Recently my brother suggested I look into programming. He thinks I would be good at it. So today I took the plunge and began doing some online tutorials for it. I don't know if this will be my destination or not, but at this point I'm getting a bit older. I've had some difficulties that held me back alot, socially and mentally. But now that I have a job I like where I interact all the time with people I've become much more comfortable with talking in general. I feel like I'm ready. My brother graduated this past year and now has a job where he is paid very well. I'd by lying if I said it didn't make me envious. So now I'm gonna go for it too. Better late then never.

6. I'm gonna get myself a car finally so I can put my driver's license to use. It's time. I'm gonna save up as much money as I can so I can afford one. Not much else to this one.

7. Promise to do everything I promise to do. I will confess towards the end of my doggy sketch challenge I got burnt out. It was fun, but it definitely took alot out of me. So this year I'm hoping to stick to what I saw I'm gonna do and do it in a timely fashion. No more of these six month waiting periods for finished stories.

There are other smaller things too, but these are my main focuses for 2019. Will I succeed in all of these? I don't know. But that is certainly my hope.

Hope everybody has a happy new year.

Also it shall be the year of the pig so I might have another challenge for myself lined up soon.

Hello, all. It's been awhile since I posted one of these, hasn't it?

Just wanted to give everybody a quick update: yes, I'm alive; yes, I'm still writing. And no, I haven't been swallowed up by a black hole... yet.

A week or so ago I decided to challenge myself. As some of you know I've been trying to learn how to better draw. It's something I enjoyed ever since I was a kid. I've always enjoyed doing so, but for awhile writing always came easier to me. I've been thinking though with my recent burn out that maybe taking up a side hobby would be a good way to balance things out. So I've been plying my craft for a little over a year now.

Well a friend of mine threw a fun idea at me. And so for the next... 34 days I will be drawing a different fictional doggo character every day. Or I've already started to do so. I'll be slowly posting the results thus far in my scraps if anybody is interested in taking a look.

Why 34? Well... it was supposed to be 30, but I got some last minute suggestions and figured what's a few extras?

If you have any constructive criticism to add or any other advice to help me out, please by all means tell me. And if this whole thing works out then I might just try another similar challenge down the road. Maybe I'll even come back one day and try and redraw the stuff from this one to see the difference.

Not to worry though: I''m always open for writing commissions. And if you wanna throw a prompt my way to sketch, feel free to send it my way. I can't promise I'll be guaranteed to do it, but the more ideas I have for stuff to draw the better.

If I owe you something--- and I know I owe a fair few people some commissions--- then please get in touch with me so I can make a list. I fully intend to fulfill all of my commitments.

I really hate to do stuff like this, but honestly right now I feel the best thing I can do is vent and get all my feelings onto paper... or electronic screen in this case.

This past year has been full of ups and downs for me. There are times where I felt like suddenly I was feeling like my old self and that I could start doing even more with my writing and even drawing. And honestly over the past year I feel like I've gotten alot better with the latter. Still nowhere to where I'm satisfied, but that's the case with most anything. As for writing... I still enjoy it, but I'd be lying if I said I've been consistent with it.

I feel I make too many promises to people and then I feel awful when I can't get back to them right away. And it's my own fault. Not because I'm intentionally trying to make empty promises, but because I just can't seem to keep them, at least in a timely fashion. I have all this creative energy I want to utilize, yet every time I think I can break through my never-ending creator's block something always rears its ugly head and brings me back down.

The past few years I have come to realize just how bad my depression has been. Not to the point of doing anything rash, but I just don't enjoy life much anymore. The things I used to do and love, I just can't seem to stick to any of them. I can't remember the last movie or game or tv show I completed of my own volition. Likewise, I have so many commissions in my back catalog that I want to complete, but when I sit down to type them out, it seems like the creativity doesn't seem to flow.

I'm just a bad self motivator and a vicious procrastinator. And I want to be honest to everybody. They deserve to know how things are for me. And for people who are upset that it's taken me so long to fulfill those promises, you have every right to. Please don't take it as a slight towards you. This is also the reason why I never charge up-front for commission stuff. I don't feel right taking money until I have delivered what I've promised.

But this year I have also taken a big step towards getting better. I'm seeing a new psychologist and psychiatrist that are both helping in their own way. I just have to learn to be honest with them and with myself. There are so many things I'm terrified to talk about. I know that emotionally I'm not very good at making my feelings known to people. I always want to focus on their feelings first and foremost, usually in spite of my own.

I sincerely hope that the coming year is when I can start to turn things around. I've got a job that, while not the most glamorous, is one that I enjoy with a workspace full of people I can always get along with. I'm still learning new things, such as getting back into drawing after years and years of telling myself I had no hope of improvement. I've still been able to write a few things, most of which I'm very happy with. And I've still got plenty of friends, online and otherwise, who I can talk to and who will make feel better just by their presence.

I also truly want to get into a more regular schedule. Maybe try the weekly streaming thing again, or even make it a bi-weekly thing to start out. I'm considering doing a Patreon page at some point as well. And most of all, I want to commit to finishing more writing and drawing projects then ever before.

Will it happen? I don't like making promises that I'm not one-hundred percent certain I can keep, but I will do my damndest to see them through. Barring whatever comes up in life, health and otherwise.

Anyway thanks for reading my rambling thoughts. Hope you all have a great holiday season. You can look forward to alot more in this coming new year. And once again, thank you to everybody who is still following and favoriting my works. It's the greatest feeling in the world to know there are people out there who appreciate what you do.

Due to the success that I seem to be having with them, I have decided to make my writing streams a weekly thing. For the most part they'll be on the same day although there might be some cases where I have to switch things around. The mini-commissions will remain exclusive to streams for the most part, although I might be convinced to do them outside of it as well if enough people are interested.

I again want to thank everybody who has decided to check them out. I'm still working on sprucing things up there a little, what with some special graphics, banners, and the like. And I hope that everybody will continue to check them out whenever they get the chance.

Current Commissions

1.  theloonerking
2. Spot Open

So a few of you already know this, but I am going to try an experiment this Sunday. That experiment... my first ever Picarto Stream. Basically, I'll be on there working on commissions, maybe practicing some drawing if I feel up for it, and I may even take some mini writing-commissions.

By that I mean they would probably be little short scenes requested by whoever. Still undecided on prices for that, but I'm thinking no more than five bucks per each one.

If it's successful then I might just make this a weekly or bi-weekly thing.

As for a time frame, I'll be shooting for 6:00 Central. It may start a little later or a little earlier. I'll also keep it going for at least an hour or two, maybe longer if it goes well.

This is still all in the experiment stage so we'll see what happens. But I am very much looking forward to seeing how it goes. And I hope to see as many people watching as well.

So today I have officially hit the thirty-year-old mark. Honestly, it's kind of hard to believe because I don't feel like an adult. I don't really act like one either to be sure. It just feels like yet another milestone like all the rest, just with a higher number.

But ah well... I'm not complaining too much.

I'd just like to say that I've met alot of new people recently and I've felt much closer to this community than ever before. I'd also like to thank everybody who has continued to follow me. I hope for this year to increase that number even more.

So let loose with all the birthday wishes, you're old jokes, and balloons as you please.

Well I suppose it's about time I wrote one of these again as things have changed since the last one I wrote.

Let's be blunt: I was not in the best of states last year, at least in terms of my mood and motivation. And to be honest I'm still nowhere near where I'd like to be. However, this past year I started getting some professional counseling and have been started taking anti-depressants. And I'm already starting to see the effects of all this.

I'm getting better and more comfortable at my current job, I'm starting to feel alot better about myself in general, though I still have a long way to go in that respect. I've been working to overcome something that has plagued me for quite awhile to the point that I am more comfortable with it then I ever have been. I've learned a few new skills, some of which have even become hobbies I've even met and talked to alot of interesting people as well as reconnected with a few I lost touch with awhile ago. And of course I've produced alot more this year story-wise then I have in awhile, I think.

To everybody who has followed me and read my work, or even those who just took a glance at something I wrote, I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart. The fact that I am able to write things that people genuinely enjoy and even tell their friends about is such a great feeling. One that helps me feel like I have purpose and am doing something positive in the world. That's a feeling that I have desperately sought after my entire life, and now with my first ever job as well as this, I'm starting to fall into a place where I can truly be happy.

I'd like to make a few goals for this upcoming year as well. Whether they will come to fruition or not, we shall see.

First off I want to make sure that this year I write more then I ever have. Whether it be story commissions or even just ideas of my own, which to be honest I haven't really written too many of those of late, though I'm constantly coming up with new ideas.

I want to rekindle my passion for other things. I want to get back into things I used to love to do as well as things I recently discovered a love for. Some of you may notice, for example, that I've started to get back into drawing. I doubt I'll ever become amazing, but even just becoming competent at it would be perfectly fine with me.

I want to conquer a certain fear of mine once and for all. One that has held me back for far too long.

I want to save enough money to buy myself a car, something which I never owned. Even though I've had my license for at least a year or two. While I'm at it I want to start practicing driving again for when that time comes. It's been too long since I have.

I want to lose a bit of weight, though that's a rather cliche resolution.

And I want to strengthen my friendships, both old and new.

I'm also going to start trying to take even more commissions then I have been. I doubt it'll ever get to the point where I can do it full time, but maybe to where I can at least finish up one or two a month.

Speaking of which expect this page to get a long overdue update as well.

Once again, thanks to everybody for sticking with me. Here's hoping for an even better 2017.

Writing Commissions List

1.  2chaotic
2.  theloonerking

So for the past few weeks I've been unable to access my account, mostly due to it being linked to an email account that I didn't have access to anymore. That's been rather annoying. However now things have been worked out. In fact they were resolved quite swiftly which I have to thank the people at FA for.

And so, I'm back. To those who have commissioned me, don't worry: you'll be getting something in the mail later this month. To those getting in contact me, I will be returning the favor very soon. And to those who have been waiting for me to post something new for them to read, you too will not be disappointed, I hope.

My goal this year is to write more of my stories and to make them even better then my previous stuff. Granted it's already the middle of the year so that's an odd time to be making this goal, but ah well. Good enough time to start as any.

So thank you to everybody for continuing to watch and follow me on here. I really do appreciate each and everyone of you, and I hope that more will be soon to follow.

I just want to go ahead and let those who I've promised to finish stories for know, I still fully intend to do so. I've been a little burnt out as of late and it's affected my creative output. Which combined with my perfectionist qualities and tendency to doubt all of my work no matter how many times people tell me they like it, doesn't make progress very easy.

That said I'm going to start trying to produce more content. I've learned that the best way to keep myself motivated is to try and do a little writing every day, whether it's a few thousands words or a few hundred. I need to stop giving myself such high standards and recognize I have limitations. Maybe stop believing that absolutely everything has to be pefect. After all at the end of the day I'm hardly writing highbrow material, right?

I am terribly with keeping in contact with people on a regular basis. Alot of you know this from first-hand experience. I've never been comfortable in social situations, and while I am getting better at it, I think, I don't think I'll ever get to the point where I flourish in such situations.

So to those I've promised stuff to, I swear that you will get it. And I do will as much as I can to see that you get it as soon as humanly possible.

And for those who are interested in spite of all that, I am always open to listening to any ideas that you might have that you want me to put to paper.

You ever feel like you had all this potential and how there were so many things you wanted to do, but for whatever reason you just couldn't muster up enough motivation to go through with them? Or have you ever had a thing that you enjoy doing and people say that you are good at doing, yet for some reason you don't have any confidence in yourself to do well?

I'm sure I'm not the only who feels like this, That would be downright absurd of me to think, but it's still something that needs to be said. I's weird. I mean this past year I just got my first job and I'm working on saving up for an actual car. I'm actually making steps in improving myself as a person, even if it is long overdue. In short, I'm trying to become self-sufficient.

Yet despite all that I feel like I'm constantly letting people down. Especially in terms of my writing projects, which let's be honest... the progress I'm making is incredibly sluggish. I wish I had more motivation to write stuff so I could put things out far more often then I actually do. I wish I could realistically get back to people on projects without taking months or sometimes years to do so.

But right now I can't seem to do that no matter what. And that frustrates me so much. And I hate just sitting here saying poor me when I could probably change things with enough effort, but deep down... I just don't have it in me right now.

Depression can be such a burden. And it feels like it's been slowly constricting around me over the years, wrenching tighter with each passing day. And while it's never gotten to the point where I'd consider doing anything dramatic or stupid, there are some days where I do honestly wonder if there's anything I can do to overcome it.

I may not always be the easiest person to keep in contact with people, but I just want everybody to know, all of the people watching me, all of the people who have ever read my stories that I truly do appreciate each and every one of you. I'm not a person whose used to being in social situations, off the net or otherwise. But it's great that there is a little space out there where I can express myself and feel comfortable in my own skin, at least for a little while.

So if you ever wonder why I'm so slow when it comes to producing new stuff... well, that's the main reason why. Maybe one day things will get better though. We can only hope, right?

So yeah... I finally updated my profile. That was way overdue.

Honestly I'm feeling quite pleased with how life is going right now. I've got my first job, and I'm actually making money. Which means I have funds to spend on things, like commissions potentially. I'm also working towards saving up for a car so that's quite exciting as well.

I've also felt more inspired in terms of writing. I'd chalk that up to having said job and feeling like I have more of a purpose as of late. Honestly I think this is the best I've felt in years. I certainly hope that things can only improve from here.

So for those who enjoy my stuff, look forward to plenty more in the future, and with any luck much more frequent updates!

Well to be blunt I've just started working at a new job in the past month. That doesn't excuse me not writing anything before then though, but I guess I'm still feeling burnt out a little writing-wise. Well that and I'm very picky about my stuff and don't want to post anything until I think it's ready to go.

That said, I'm hoping to post some new stuff here in the coming months. I've got a few projects that I'd like to put up including one that's been long delayed. (It needs some editing before I'm ready to throw it up here.) Hopefully once I get used to working regularly I'll be able to rejuvenate myself and start putting out alot more content here.

I thank you for your patience, and I promise it will be rewarded soon enough.

I know there are some people out there I haven't been in contact with of late, and some I need to work on stuff for. I just want to take this chance to apologize that I haven't been able to do anything sooner. Unfortunately I've been feeling quite depressed as of late, and haven't been able to muster enough motivation to write much of anything. That's not to say I've forgotten about anything commission-wise, and I will do my best to get it done whenever I can, but I just wanted to let you know why there's been such a long delay.

I'm hoping that in the coming months I'll be in a much better place.

So I've been thinking about opening up the floodgates for writing commissions again recently. You see, I've resisted doing this for awhile because I felt my writing wasn't quite good enough. But alot of people have told me that they think my writing is good and I'll admit I've been interested in trying it out again.

Right now I've taken a commission for :faicontheloonerking: which I'm hoping will be done in a few weeks. But I'm open to doing some more stuff. Mostly because right now I could use some extra money because I don't really have an income of any sort right now. I'm not homeless or anything like that, but I haven't had too much to spend on myself.

Prices are all negotiable. Writing is harder to gauge then drawings in terms of value and I feel that charging per words or page is kind of silly. Because writing can be good whether it's short or long. And I think this will also motivate me to do more writing in the future, so you'll all be able to see more of my work. And I really do enjoy getting feedback from when I've produced something that people find particularly good. Or even constructive criticism.

That's not to say I'm outright offering commissions right now, but I am considering it. But if there is anybody who would potentially be interested then let me know and I can put you on a list.

Also, if I haven't been in touch with you as often lately, don't take that as an insult. Often I'm just not a very talkative person and I have a hard time opening up about things. And I'll admit that I'm not the best person in social situations. Usually things will go much better if you initiate a conversation with me rather than vice-versa.

Alright, that's it for now. Take care, everyone, and I'll talk to you again soon.

Wow, I've finally hit the big one-zero-zero. Compared to some that's definitely not too big a number, but it really does mean alot that so many people are subscribed to my page here. Definitely good to know that there are so many people interested in my stories and such.

Seriously, thanks alot guys. I know I haven't been as active on here as I could be, but I am working on new stuff all the time. And hopefully you'll all get a glimpse of it very soon.

Another favor for a friend of mine.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3547359/

But I did promise a friend of mine I would bring some attention to this. Admittedly that was a few days ago, but better later than never!

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7563524

Why does this happen every year?

Ah well, guess I can live with it... again.

The floodgates have been opened. Anybody who is interested go ahead and let me know. And don't be afraid to ask me to experiment. I'm up for trying anything at least once.

Alright, I might as well as do this in case anyone else becomes interested in one.

My specialty is of course balloon fetish stuff, but I am more than happy to branch out into other fields as well. I'd like to become more versatile after all in my writing.

My price point usually ranges from 10-15 dollars. Ideally that would be about two dollars per page. Though I don't like to limit myself to a certain length and I would never charge more than fifteen anyway.

Of course please keep these reasonable in length. I seriously doubt anyone wants to pay for a fifty page story or anything ludicrous like that.

Rest assured that you will get a quality story more often than not. And if you happen to be unsatisfied than I will be more than happy to refund your money.

And no stories will be posted until you are satisfied with how they turned out.

I'm not planning on making a living with this by any means. It's just a good way for me to practice. And the more practice I get the better.

I also do trades as well. So if you can't afford my price then we can always work something else out as well. It doesn't always have to be about the money. :3

Alright, here's the deal. I'd like to practice drawing faces so I can get the hang of it. Therefore I'm willing to draw five requests for free as long as you don't mind it simply being a headshot.

Like I said these are totally free. Bear in mind though that they may not be of the best quality. Hopefully though with enough practice I can improve to the point where they actually start looking quite decent.

Of course these would only be sketches, but still. Anyone who is interested need only reply to this journal with either a description or reference pic for the character head they'd like me to create. First five get a free head sketch of whatever preference. Try to keep it simple though. I'm still a novice at best.

Thanks in advance.

Well fellows, I've decided that I might just start doing a few writing commissions soon. I haven't really decided on price range, though I certainly won't try to gouge people on that, or how to go about it. I figure though it's about time I started actually doing something rather than sitting about the place all the time. So this is as good a start to getting away from that as any.

Naturally my specialty would be balloon stories, though I am pretty flexible. I'd be more than happy to try my hand at a few other things as well. Keep in mind of course most of these stories probably won't be anything too deep. I'm certainly not going to write a novel length for everyone. But at the same time I won't write five or so paragraphs and pass that off as an epic tale.

I'm not going to start on this yet though, as I'd like to see if there is any interest before I decide upon it. If anyone would be interested in this idea, feel free to leave a comment or two.

I'll be posting a few examples of my writing as well so you have something to judge by. There are a few out there already though if you scour the web hard enough.