If all goes well, this will be the last Winter I spend living in my hometown of Roseburg. It's been a long time coming and really overdue.

Hoping Fall brings new fortunes. Just kinda tired of a lot of things. Could use some new friends.

I'm attending Kumoricon 2015 next weekend. I'm posting this to see who is going! I'd like to meet more friends, so if you're going to this con, please let me know below and feel free to share who you're cosplaying as each day if you are.

Day 0: Wayne Campbell (Wayne's World)
Day 1: Simon Petrikov (Adventure Time)
Day 2: Young Greg Universe (Steven Universe)
Day 3: The Spine (Steam Powered Giraffe) and I'll be performing some songs in the park with my The Jon
Day 4: most likely Wayne Campbell again

You know the drill. I'm bored, gimme stuff to answer.

It was yesterday (June 7th). Went to my first bar and some old guy was creepy with me but I was with people and most of the people there welcomed me warmly. Had two different drinks, a cherry limeade thing and a Melon Ball, both delicious.

Also got a new laptop fanpad so I can game this summer without overheating my laptop!! Also have tons of plants to take care of now.

So they announced Fallout 4, if you haven't seen already

I probably just don't have enough followers to get answers on my journals. That, or maybe people only care about artists on here -w-

If anyone cares to know anything, go ahead and ask below. (No joke questions please, I'm a little tired of them. They don't have to be serious but make sure they have a point to them.)

My birthday's coming up and it'd be a cool gift to have some new fur friends to chat with on a semi regular basis. Maybe more gaming pals, maybe music pals, maybe some pals to nerd out about my fave shows/video games with, maybe some pals with benefits. You never know.

Bottom line, chat me up .w.

Chubby femboys.
For sexiness and more chubby representation and body positivity.

I really hate being feminist minded around my ignorant family, around my ignorant friends, and in several ignorant fandoms. Tbh, this one included. I can't go longer than a day without seeing little things that churn my stomach, or longer than a week without coming across something that makes me want to punch a wall.

But if I say anything, I'm wrong. I'm the raging feminist bitch that needs to shut up. Doesn't matter if it's about how all feminists are sjw extremists, or how men and women work as an absolute, or how it's either gay or straight and nothing else. If I say something, I'm wrong.

I've wanted to leave this fandom before because of how fed up I've been about all the close minded ideals it shares. Not as a whole; I know several furries who, maybe not feminists themselves, but are progressive minded.

I'm just really angry a lot. I already know that only a few are gonna even bother to look at this. If anyone chimes in, it'll be criticizing feminism. As if I don't already know how twisted a lot of the movement has already become. So if you could leave those at the door, I'd appreciate it. I already know the fault of the movement, I've heard it before.

I could actually buy art now~

If we haven't talked before and you want to, send me a note and let's see where it goes. I wouldn't mind having some new pals in the fandom, I don't come across many that I end up becoming closer friends with. I have a lot of interests, so it might be easier if you're into one of the following as well:

-Silent Hill
-Game Grumps
-Gaming, but not just the newest fps or indie horror games
-Heavy metal, but not just post hardcore or deathcore or whatever
-Steam Powered Giraffe

Don't just leave a reply to this, if you wanna talk to me because of this, go ahead and note me~

It's stupid that I should get so uptight over a simple sign waver job. But I'm worried I won't be good enough. That I won't have that "flare" you're supposed to have. Beyond that the people trying to "help" me with the job process just kinda make it worse. I know I haven't worked before, and I'm kind of a load of trash for it. But I think that should be the last of that, I don't need to be pampered with shit right now, especially if it's making my mood worse.

On the lighter side, it'll be nice to have spending money finally! And this kind of job is just what I need to be more outgoing and hopefully funny in the slight improv manner. I don't mean Who's Line level stuff, but enough to do something smile-worthy. This applies to cosplay and furry conventions, and my Let's Play project I wanna do. Also just me in general.

== Results from http://bdsmtest.org/ ==
100% Switch
84% Submissive
76% Bondage Giver
76% Bondage Receiver
71% Dominant
66% Daddy/Mommy
66% Girl/Boy
66% Master/Mistress
66% Non-monogamist
65% Brat
63% Experimentalist
63% Sadist
59% Brat Tamer
59% Degradation Giver
58% Slave
57% Pervert
55% Degradation Receiver
48% Primal (Predator)
47% Primal (Prey)
46% Exhibitionist
46% Voyeur
45% All-Rounder
45% Masochist
34% Vanilla
See my results online at http://bdsmtest.org/result.php?id=56809

Seems fitting, idk about whether I'm more dom or sub but this might be my current moods and such (trying to be more submissive in certain ways when I have the chance)

The link to my results also provides a link to take the test yourself! Go for it!

I'm seeing a lot of posts about the newspaper in Paris, and my hearts goes out to the colleagues, friends, and family of the victims of this shooting. No one deserves to die in such a manner.

Why I can't get behind the Je suis Charlie tagline is that the paper hides extreme racism, transphobia, homophobia, and Islamophobia, probably among other things, behind the guise of satire. Y'know that thing that people use to express humorous criticism of things but is often used to excuse trashy behavior. This tagline is sympathizing this misuse of freedom of speech, as if their death cleared out this kind of thing they were doing or as if this weren't an issue at all. Freedom of speech seems to translate as being as offensive as possible without consequence, and that's not right.

People also seem to not notice that this tagline is sprouting much hatred towards Muslims among France, a place where it was already difficult to live as a person of the Islamic faith. Mosques are being burned, and #KillAllMuslims is currently highly trending on Twitter. News flash: Muslim =/= terrorist. Terrorist come from many creeds, Christian and atheist included.

I send condolences to those to the loved ones of the deceased
I do not sympathizes with their murderers
But no

Je ne suis pas Charlie


[Edit: I wanna note that while this is gathering so much attention as an attack by Muslim terrorists, there was also an intentional bombing outside of the NAACP building by a white man, a clear attack fueled by racism, and there is almost no standard media coverage on it or who the bomber was. Why is it so easy to demonize all Muslim people for what so few people did but so hard to admit that a white guy bombed the NAACP because he was racist?)

Happy late Hanukkah, Blessed late Yule, Merry Christmas Eve, and any (late) blessings to any other festivities you guys may be celebrating, will celebrate, or have already celebrated. Have a great rest of the year~

But really, I hope you all have a fun and safe Halloween. Don't go anywhere shady or dangerous, and make sure you have a designated driver or other means of getting home in one piece if you plan to drink tonight!

I'm going as The Spine for Halloween, and my friend (cosplaying The Jon) will be accompanying me to several places for pictures, fun, and maybe a practice performance of one of Steam Powered Giraffe's songs that we've barely practiced. Would anyone like to see any of the pictures later after I'm back from robot shenanigans?

Any questions welcome for today. If you feel nervous about asking publicly, note me the question.

I wanna try and be more social on here, so if you wanna chat with me please feel free to send me a note and start a conversation!

Why not? Write a comment with an assumption you have about me and I'll let you know if it's true or not! (Also it may not be as fun, but please try and make it somewhat serious.)

Artist by the name os  ilunatiic is doing a free art raffle, so I'm here to spread the word. If you choose to enter his raffle, in the section where you say you heard about it, tell him that you heard it from me. I get multiple entries that way x3

Journal is here: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5892998/

I don't usually do this for journals, but if you see this and wanna ask something, go for it~

I'm hitting the big two zero in a little less than a month. It's kinda weird that I won't be a teen, but I'm kinda glad I would be calling myself a teenager anymore. 21 seems more of a milestone, what with the big perk it gives us here in the US, but 20 seems like a good milestone.

Also, just in case any of you would wanna gift me anything, I don't really have a big wishlist but I can often pinpoint something I would like and find useful. It takes some surprise out of it but if you're like me, you'd want a gift to be useful or as appreciated as possible by the recipient. So, that said, if you wanted to do that, note me and ask about it. And that's a big IF, because I don't really expect any one person that watches me here to want to do that. Just in case though ^^

1. Why do you like fat/inflation?
The idea of someone or something making my body change like that is exciting~ Also the softness of fat is very nice~

2. Which is better? Fat or Inflation? And why?
I go from liking one to the other, but mostly fat I'm thinking. Just don't make me choose indefinitely >w>

3. Would you consider your liking sexual or not?
Absolutely.

4. Fat/Inflated guys or girls?
Guuuuyyyyyys

5. Do you like inflation furs who are latex or rubber instead of fur?
I prefer fur, but I do like rubber/latex.

6.Would your character prefer fat or inflation?
Same as me.

7.Opinion on slob furs.
Not necessarily my thing. But I'm not bagging on it~

8. Opinion on vore.
That's not really my thing either, aside from a rather romantic soft vore dream I had with  bigkitty735 once~

9. Best type of fur to fatten or inflate?
I can't really narrow down this all that much. Basically just any fur that gets fattened up or inflated ^^;

10. Do you like it when the inflated fur pops or the fat fur explodes?
Absolutely not. I won't say for others not to have this happen, but just to keep it away from me. I'm only really cool with this when the fur recomposes themselves after the climax, but still. Not my thing at all. Trying not to bag on it just because I don't like it :c

11. Blueberry inflation?
I keep sounding like a pessimist or something, but I'm not totally into this either really.

12. What is one thing you don't like about fat/inflation?
For fat, the massive macro inflation kinda doesn't really appeal to me but it seems like that's what a lot of it is. For inflation, the oblong shaped inflations, I guess. Or the bursting.

13. Who is the best inflation/fat artist?
Can't really name one, but I'll say that I prefer artists who do the unwilling inflation/fattening more. Either unwilling or neutral emotion is what I tend to like a bit than consensual growth, though I do like that.

14. If their fursona was real, who would you most likely force feed/inflate and huggle? (not your character)
I'd fatten up  mikalapine starting from his average build, and I'd inflate my mate :bigkitty735: .

15. Do you like fat/inflation of characters from tv shows or video games?
As much as I like rule 34 of them, and if they're a character I find attractive.

16. Do your non fat fur or non inflation friends mind that you're into that stuff? Or even that you're a furry? My fur friends that know about it don't mind, I think. I think some of my non-fur friends know about my love of bigger guys, both muscled and fatter. Not so much my inflation thing. But not many non-fur friends get to learn about this stuff, anyway.

17. Does your family know that you're into fat/inflation or that you're a furry?
My mom and dad have been told I'm a furry, but they may have forgotten. They may relearn it, and my grandma might find out, once that Dr Phil episode with the furries airs. None of them know about my kinks, and I'd like to keep it that way.

18. Do they approve of it?
Not sure how my gma would take furries, but none of them would be too crazy about their kin into the kinks that can come with it.

19. Do you think it's fair to call it a "fat fetish" or "inflation fetish"?
Totally. It's not straightforward sexual pleasure, and it's something someone who isn't terribly into physical sexuality can get off on if that's what their preference is. I don't use fetish negatively, so this kinda confuses me as to why it might be an issue.

20. Would you like a cookie?
I know this'll end up with me inflated or fattened up somehow. So "no" *acts reluctant* (Into non-con, remember this)