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Posted 11 years agoShoutout to Love!
Posted 12 years agoI just thought I'd give a shoutout to these two blue faggons! May your relationship live on for ages to come ^.^
Love the icons, guys x3
To finish, I'd like to say; Tenecayr, you treat Malk well or I will be one vengeful wolf XD (also, congratulations, you're one lucky guy), and Malk, I'm happy for you, buddy <3
Now, I don't really speak Italian very well, but I tried my damnedest to make sure this line translated right.
and 
But of course, together they form...

Love the icons, guys x3
To finish, I'd like to say; Tenecayr, you treat Malk well or I will be one vengeful wolf XD (also, congratulations, you're one lucky guy), and Malk, I'm happy for you, buddy <3
Now, I don't really speak Italian very well, but I tried my damnedest to make sure this line translated right.
Scoprire vera vita attraverso vero amore <3Check it, free art possibilities!
Posted 12 years agoOne year...
Posted 12 years agoI can't believe it... I actually kept it together with my mate for a whole year, three hundred and sixty five days. That's the longest relationship I've had and still have.
I know some of you might be all like "oh, big whoop" but for me this means a lot.
I love you,
gokorahn, with all my heart <3 For now and forever to come.
I know some of you might be all like "oh, big whoop" but for me this means a lot.
I love you,
gokorahn, with all my heart <3 For now and forever to come.Want a free bust?
Posted 12 years agoCheck out this journal then! http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4892601/
Character Meme time!
Posted 12 years agoBoy, it seems that every time
midwayy puts something like this up, I have to as well!
1. What is your character's name?
Isaac Roderick Athens.
2. What is your character's name in another language?
Íosác Ruaidhrí Aithin.
3. How old is he/she?
In my book, Threshold, he is 27. Here on FA and stuff, he's just 18.
4. What is your character's race/species?
He is an Eastern Timber Wolf with white fur and blue marking patterns (previously black and white).
5. Do they have a crush?
He has a boyfriend, and maybe a couple crushes but those aren't going anywhere past a crush.
6. Do they have many friends?
No, very few as a matter of fact.
7. What planet is your character from?
Earth.
8. Does your character like to eat?
Yes, he loves to eat, but somehow manages not to go over a certain weight no matter how much he does.
9. What's his/her favorite food?
He thoroughly enjoys sub sandwiches.
10. What's his/her favorite drink?
Pepsi or lemonade. Hard to choose between the two sometimes.
11. Is your character annoying?
To some, he might be considered annoying.
13. Is your character loved?
Very much so.
14. Is your character hated?
Undoubtedly so (in Threshold, I really hope not otherwise).
15. Is he/she emo/goth?
Nope.
16. Is he/she a virgin?
We are still talking about the character, right? No, he isn't. x3
18. Name 3 hobbies
Working with firearms, messing around with vehicles and playing guitar.
19. Is your character normal?
Define "normal."
20. Is your character attractive?
He's a mirror image of his mate, of course he's attractive.
21. How does your character handle emotions?
Not very well. He can be equated to a train wreck sometimes. (Threshold: He keeps his emotions locked inside for the most part but something major will bring them out.)
22. Does your character have other forms?
Yes, his other form is a Lugia.
23. Does your character overreact?
If I had a nickel for every time...
24. Is your character a criminal?
Erm, no. (Threshold: He is considered a fugitive of the United States, but that's only because he was set up.)
25. Does your character go to school?
Nope.
26. What's his/her IQ?
Above average for sure. I'll revise this when I get an actual answer.
27. Does your character have a disease/curse?
He does not. (Threshold: He is infected with a compound known as TR-71 on Earth, but is mistakenly perceived as a man-made disease. It is actually made from harvested blood from a Chentoli creature on the planet Luminae VII; when it comes into another species' bloodstream, it can have effects such as sporadically increased strength and agility and increased regenerative properties. It comes at the price of memory loss, increased emotional overreaction, paranoia, hallucinations, change in pigment of skin/fur/feather/scale color and in worse cases, induces comatose states.)
28. Is your character dead?
He is still alive.
29. Does your character have a family?
He considers his closest friends to be a family. (Threshold: Had a cousin.)
30. Has he/she encountered any tragic times in life?
Traumatic upbringing and lots of heartbreak. (Threshold: Traumatic upbringing and any of the multiple times he's gone to war. Also, the deaths of loved ones.)
31. What's the best time in your character's life?
Meeting his other half! (Threshold: Piloting a BA-331 Wraithclaw for the first time.)
32. If you could name 1 friend, which would you relate to your character?
Um...
thegraywo1f
33. Is your character single?
Nope.
34. Has he/she developed any relationships?
A couple strong relationships.
35. Does she/he have an element?
Firearms are most definitely his element.
36. Do you role-play your character?
All the time!
37. Do you write about your character?
Absolutely. As I have kept mentioning, he is a character in my novel Threshold.
38. Does your character have a bad temper at times?
Sadly, yes.
39. Does your character get depressed?
Yes.
40. What's your characters favorite animal?
Wolves, dragons, otters, Pokémon. (Threshold:Mostly foxes and wolves, though he becomes fond of Feraxian drakes as well.)
41. Does your character have any fears?
Screwing up his relationship or losing his friends. (Threshold: Not being strong enough for his loved ones, or not being good enough to stop Myrmidon.)
42. Does your character have any weaknesses?
Several. I'm not telling you them, though.
43. Does your character look up to anyone?
thegraywo1f <- This guy. (Threshold: He tries not to hold anybody in particular as a role model, because disappointment is always a possibility.)
44. Does your character like music?
Of course. =p
45. What's your character's favorite type of music?
Electronica/trance, metal and classic rock.
46. Is he/she impatient?
For the most part.
47. What's something funny about your character?
He trips over his words a lot.
48. Name 5 nicknames
Nobody refers to me by the character name so... no. x3 (Threshold: Sacky, Wolfie, Midnight, Blue and... Dork.)
49. Does your character curse?
If he's playing Xbox/Playstation, yes.
If he's not, still yes. (yeah, yeah, you copied Midway blah blah. IT'S TRUE)
50. This test is over, what does your character have to say?
Get that camera out of my face.
midwayy puts something like this up, I have to as well!1. What is your character's name?
Isaac Roderick Athens.
2. What is your character's name in another language?
Íosác Ruaidhrí Aithin.
3. How old is he/she?
In my book, Threshold, he is 27. Here on FA and stuff, he's just 18.
4. What is your character's race/species?
He is an Eastern Timber Wolf with white fur and blue marking patterns (previously black and white).
5. Do they have a crush?
He has a boyfriend, and maybe a couple crushes but those aren't going anywhere past a crush.
6. Do they have many friends?
No, very few as a matter of fact.
7. What planet is your character from?
Earth.
8. Does your character like to eat?
Yes, he loves to eat, but somehow manages not to go over a certain weight no matter how much he does.
9. What's his/her favorite food?
He thoroughly enjoys sub sandwiches.
10. What's his/her favorite drink?
Pepsi or lemonade. Hard to choose between the two sometimes.
11. Is your character annoying?
To some, he might be considered annoying.
13. Is your character loved?
Very much so.
14. Is your character hated?
Undoubtedly so (in Threshold, I really hope not otherwise).
15. Is he/she emo/goth?
Nope.
16. Is he/she a virgin?
We are still talking about the character, right? No, he isn't. x3
18. Name 3 hobbies
Working with firearms, messing around with vehicles and playing guitar.
19. Is your character normal?
Define "normal."
20. Is your character attractive?
He's a mirror image of his mate, of course he's attractive.
21. How does your character handle emotions?
Not very well. He can be equated to a train wreck sometimes. (Threshold: He keeps his emotions locked inside for the most part but something major will bring them out.)
22. Does your character have other forms?
Yes, his other form is a Lugia.
23. Does your character overreact?
If I had a nickel for every time...
24. Is your character a criminal?
Erm, no. (Threshold: He is considered a fugitive of the United States, but that's only because he was set up.)
25. Does your character go to school?
Nope.
26. What's his/her IQ?
Above average for sure. I'll revise this when I get an actual answer.
27. Does your character have a disease/curse?
He does not. (Threshold: He is infected with a compound known as TR-71 on Earth, but is mistakenly perceived as a man-made disease. It is actually made from harvested blood from a Chentoli creature on the planet Luminae VII; when it comes into another species' bloodstream, it can have effects such as sporadically increased strength and agility and increased regenerative properties. It comes at the price of memory loss, increased emotional overreaction, paranoia, hallucinations, change in pigment of skin/fur/feather/scale color and in worse cases, induces comatose states.)
28. Is your character dead?
He is still alive.
29. Does your character have a family?
He considers his closest friends to be a family. (Threshold: Had a cousin.)
30. Has he/she encountered any tragic times in life?
Traumatic upbringing and lots of heartbreak. (Threshold: Traumatic upbringing and any of the multiple times he's gone to war. Also, the deaths of loved ones.)
31. What's the best time in your character's life?
Meeting his other half! (Threshold: Piloting a BA-331 Wraithclaw for the first time.)
32. If you could name 1 friend, which would you relate to your character?
Um...
thegraywo1f33. Is your character single?
Nope.
34. Has he/she developed any relationships?
A couple strong relationships.
35. Does she/he have an element?
Firearms are most definitely his element.
36. Do you role-play your character?
All the time!
37. Do you write about your character?
Absolutely. As I have kept mentioning, he is a character in my novel Threshold.
38. Does your character have a bad temper at times?
Sadly, yes.
39. Does your character get depressed?
Yes.
40. What's your characters favorite animal?
Wolves, dragons, otters, Pokémon. (Threshold:Mostly foxes and wolves, though he becomes fond of Feraxian drakes as well.)
41. Does your character have any fears?
Screwing up his relationship or losing his friends. (Threshold: Not being strong enough for his loved ones, or not being good enough to stop Myrmidon.)
42. Does your character have any weaknesses?
Several. I'm not telling you them, though.
43. Does your character look up to anyone?
thegraywo1f <- This guy. (Threshold: He tries not to hold anybody in particular as a role model, because disappointment is always a possibility.)44. Does your character like music?
Of course. =p
45. What's your character's favorite type of music?
Electronica/trance, metal and classic rock.
46. Is he/she impatient?
For the most part.
47. What's something funny about your character?
He trips over his words a lot.
48. Name 5 nicknames
Nobody refers to me by the character name so... no. x3 (Threshold: Sacky, Wolfie, Midnight, Blue and... Dork.)
49. Does your character curse?
If he's playing Xbox/Playstation, yes.
If he's not, still yes. (yeah, yeah, you copied Midway blah blah. IT'S TRUE)
50. This test is over, what does your character have to say?
Get that camera out of my face.
How old were you meme
Posted 12 years agoLost your virginity?
No, I haven't. Don't say it's hard to believe, those of you that know me, but I haven't.
Lost someone close to you?
My grandfather when I was around six.
Consumed alcohol?
Yes, though not in any copious amounts. Just the occasional half a Seagram's Escape. (HA GAAAAAAAAAYYYYYY)
Received a kiss?
Nope.
Went to the hospital?
If I did, I don't remember it.
Had a broken heart?
16 years old.
Lost a pet?
Around four years old, family dog died.
Went to a concert?
Vagrant Undertow at the 2012 Northside Relay for Life, if that counts.
Met someone famous?
Um... no.
Got in a car wreck?
No, and I hope never.
Dyed your hair?
Nope.
Flew on an airplane?
I don't remember if I ever did x.x
Went to another state?
I've been through several, Missouri, Illinois, Tennessee, Kentucky, Georgia, and Florida.
Got a tattoo?
No.
Had a piercing?
Never.
Smoked pot?
Drugs are for the weak.
Smoked a cigarette?
Out of curiosity at 12 years old. Never again after that.
Ever gone to Disney Land or World?
Yes, twice. I really wanted a sword from the Magic Kingdom shop, but that didn't happen.
Broke a bone?
Nope.
Had A Long term relationship?
Yep, started at 17 years old with
gokorahn and we are still together.
Passed out from drinking?
Can't say that I have.
Were dumped?
Five times.
I'm not exactly the most interesting person in the world, now am I? x3
No, I haven't. Don't say it's hard to believe, those of you that know me, but I haven't.
Lost someone close to you?
My grandfather when I was around six.
Consumed alcohol?
Yes, though not in any copious amounts. Just the occasional half a Seagram's Escape. (HA GAAAAAAAAAYYYYYY)
Received a kiss?
Nope.
Went to the hospital?
If I did, I don't remember it.
Had a broken heart?
16 years old.
Lost a pet?
Around four years old, family dog died.
Went to a concert?
Vagrant Undertow at the 2012 Northside Relay for Life, if that counts.
Met someone famous?
Um... no.
Got in a car wreck?
No, and I hope never.
Dyed your hair?
Nope.
Flew on an airplane?
I don't remember if I ever did x.x
Went to another state?
I've been through several, Missouri, Illinois, Tennessee, Kentucky, Georgia, and Florida.
Got a tattoo?
No.
Had a piercing?
Never.
Smoked pot?
Drugs are for the weak.
Smoked a cigarette?
Out of curiosity at 12 years old. Never again after that.
Ever gone to Disney Land or World?
Yes, twice. I really wanted a sword from the Magic Kingdom shop, but that didn't happen.
Broke a bone?
Nope.
Had A Long term relationship?
Yep, started at 17 years old with
gokorahn and we are still together.Passed out from drinking?
Can't say that I have.
Were dumped?
Five times.
I'm not exactly the most interesting person in the world, now am I? x3
Rawr, I like to imitate others
Posted 12 years ago1. Who is your boyfriend/girlfriend?
His name ish Jamie, he ish my Jamie-wamie
gokorahn
2. How did you two meet?
Much like my furbrother
fr33zyfr33ze met his mate
midwayy, in a furry group on Bungie.net. Thank god for that Gears of War 3 beta.
3. When did y'all officially start dating?
It took quite a long time for us to realize our attraction to each other after we met, but we officially started dating on July 30, 2012.
4. Did you meet online?
Yeah. I'm not like to meet any other person any other way right now x3
5. What attracted you the most to him/her?
His nerdiness is just so alluring to me, but if I were to be honest, everything about him attracted me to him. Especially that smile <3
6. Is he/she what you expected?
He surprises me from time to time with some things I didn't know about him, but they've all been things I like. Relationships are a little boring when everything is as expected. It's nice to just discover things about your other~
7. Did you have sex on your first date?
We have yet to have a date in person, so that remains to be seen. I don't think we will though, we're not that horny... most of the time.
8. Are you two freaks in bed?
We can be. ;3
9. Do you live with them?
I absolutely want to, but at the moment, nearly two thousand miles separate us.
10. Are they snugglers?
You'd better believe it, he is a total snugglebug :3
11. What was the last compliment they gave you?
He called me buttfluff, hehehe. That's a compliment in my eyes.
12. How long have you been dating?
Almost eleven months, our one year is a month from now.
13. Would you spend the rest of your life with them?
Anybody could ask me that question, they could tack on pros or cons and stuff like that, but the answer will never change. Completely, inexorably yes.
14. When will you see them next?
Hopefully at least by next year. This is subject to change quite often.
15. What interests do you share?
Video games, music, vehicles, fluffing... it'd be an easier question to ask "what interests don't we share."
16. Is there something you regret?
Two things. 1: I regret not stepping up to the plate to be with him sooner. 2: I regret not taking better caution with the package I was sending him for Christmas last year.
17. What was the last thing he/she gave you?
If you count anything, he gave me lovely kisses in roleplay. :3 But if you mean tangible, usable items or such, then the ability to play Minecraft.
18. What was the last thing you gave them?
A drawing of us, hehe.
19. Are they willing to sacrifice for you?
He is... it's one of the sweetest things about him.
20. Have they given you a ring?
That's still to come~
His name ish Jamie, he ish my Jamie-wamie
gokorahn2. How did you two meet?
Much like my furbrother
fr33zyfr33ze met his mate
midwayy, in a furry group on Bungie.net. Thank god for that Gears of War 3 beta.3. When did y'all officially start dating?
It took quite a long time for us to realize our attraction to each other after we met, but we officially started dating on July 30, 2012.
4. Did you meet online?
Yeah. I'm not like to meet any other person any other way right now x3
5. What attracted you the most to him/her?
His nerdiness is just so alluring to me, but if I were to be honest, everything about him attracted me to him. Especially that smile <3
6. Is he/she what you expected?
He surprises me from time to time with some things I didn't know about him, but they've all been things I like. Relationships are a little boring when everything is as expected. It's nice to just discover things about your other~
7. Did you have sex on your first date?
We have yet to have a date in person, so that remains to be seen. I don't think we will though, we're not that horny... most of the time.
8. Are you two freaks in bed?
We can be. ;3
9. Do you live with them?
I absolutely want to, but at the moment, nearly two thousand miles separate us.
10. Are they snugglers?
You'd better believe it, he is a total snugglebug :3
11. What was the last compliment they gave you?
He called me buttfluff, hehehe. That's a compliment in my eyes.
12. How long have you been dating?
Almost eleven months, our one year is a month from now.
13. Would you spend the rest of your life with them?
Anybody could ask me that question, they could tack on pros or cons and stuff like that, but the answer will never change. Completely, inexorably yes.
14. When will you see them next?
Hopefully at least by next year. This is subject to change quite often.
15. What interests do you share?
Video games, music, vehicles, fluffing... it'd be an easier question to ask "what interests don't we share."
16. Is there something you regret?
Two things. 1: I regret not stepping up to the plate to be with him sooner. 2: I regret not taking better caution with the package I was sending him for Christmas last year.
17. What was the last thing he/she gave you?
If you count anything, he gave me lovely kisses in roleplay. :3 But if you mean tangible, usable items or such, then the ability to play Minecraft.
18. What was the last thing you gave them?
A drawing of us, hehe.
19. Are they willing to sacrifice for you?
He is... it's one of the sweetest things about him.
20. Have they given you a ring?
That's still to come~
Merry Christmas, all.
Posted 13 years agoHope you and your families and loved ones have a wonderful holiday. <3
I suppose I could try this...
Posted 13 years agoI guess this is some relationship thingie, figured I might as well. *shrugs*
and 
1. Who eats more?
I'm not entirely sure. I think it's probably me because I can eat so much and barely gain any weight. Kind of a bad habit.
2. Who said “I love you” first?
*blushes and raises my paw*
3. Who is the morning person?
During the weekdays, it's him, but whenever there's nothing important to rush to in the mornings, it's me. Unless you mean "who likes being up in the mornings" then it's likely still me. x3
4. Who sings better?
Being a musician, I do, but he sings so beautifully <3
5. Who’s older?
We're the same age, but he's older by a few months.
6. Who’s smarter?
We both have our specialties. "Smart" is an annoying term.
7. Whose temper is worse?
It's me, trust me, it's me. It's not so easy to bring it out, but I can have a really bad temper.
8. Who does the laundry?
Currently for me, my mother, but being someone who likes to clean, it'll be me.
9. Who does the dishes?.
Again, I like cleaning.
10. Who sleeps on what side of the bed?
Who says we sleep on any side of the bed? We sleep on top of each other. =p (I sleep on the left side facing out.)
11. Whose feet are bigger?
Dunno, I'll have to get back to you on that.
12. Whose hair is longer?
Mine, by quite a bit.
13. Who’s better with the computer?
Him, definitely. My skill is with 3D modeling and Photoshop, that's it.
14. Do you have pets?
I currently have two dogs and a cat, but once I'm with him it'll just be a couple cats.
15. Who pays the bills?
Considering we both live with our parents at the time, neither. But I'm not going to be one of those "oh, I'll let you handle this, honey" types. We'll both do it, like everything else, together.
16. Who cooks dinner?
I'm pretty good at cooking, so might be me unless he surprises me with stunning culinary prowess. o.o
17. Who drives when you are together?
It'll be him, mostly. He has the car x3 We might swap around when I get a license.
18. Who pays when you go out to dinner?
We'll probably argue over who handles it and likely end up splitting the check.
19. Who’s the most stubborn?
...him. (don't kill me x.x)
20. Who is the first one to admit when they’re wrong?
We're equal on this.
21. Whose family do you see more?
Mine, I have to. -__-
22. Who named your pet?
My brother and my sister. The one I named died.
23. Who kissed who first?
We haven't done it in real life yet, but it's tough telling who will; we both want to do it so much. I'll get back to you on that.
24. Who asked who out?
Me, I suppose? I dunno really how to answer this. (again, IRL, not yet.)
25. What did you do on your first date?
That's kind of private... >////> (once again, not yet in IRL.)
26. Who’s more sensitive?
That question may actually be indeterminable. We're both quite sensitive.
27. Who’s taller?
We're the same height. ^.^
28. Who has more friends?
Him. I don't really have many, sadly. The ones I do have I cherish.
29. Who has more siblings?
He does.
30. Who wears the pants in the relationship?
We both do, so we can rip 'em off each other. >:3
and 
1. Who eats more?
I'm not entirely sure. I think it's probably me because I can eat so much and barely gain any weight. Kind of a bad habit.
2. Who said “I love you” first?
*blushes and raises my paw*
3. Who is the morning person?
During the weekdays, it's him, but whenever there's nothing important to rush to in the mornings, it's me. Unless you mean "who likes being up in the mornings" then it's likely still me. x3
4. Who sings better?
Being a musician, I do, but he sings so beautifully <3
5. Who’s older?
We're the same age, but he's older by a few months.
6. Who’s smarter?
We both have our specialties. "Smart" is an annoying term.
7. Whose temper is worse?
It's me, trust me, it's me. It's not so easy to bring it out, but I can have a really bad temper.
8. Who does the laundry?
Currently for me, my mother, but being someone who likes to clean, it'll be me.
9. Who does the dishes?.
Again, I like cleaning.
10. Who sleeps on what side of the bed?
Who says we sleep on any side of the bed? We sleep on top of each other. =p (I sleep on the left side facing out.)
11. Whose feet are bigger?
Dunno, I'll have to get back to you on that.
12. Whose hair is longer?
Mine, by quite a bit.
13. Who’s better with the computer?
Him, definitely. My skill is with 3D modeling and Photoshop, that's it.
14. Do you have pets?
I currently have two dogs and a cat, but once I'm with him it'll just be a couple cats.
15. Who pays the bills?
Considering we both live with our parents at the time, neither. But I'm not going to be one of those "oh, I'll let you handle this, honey" types. We'll both do it, like everything else, together.
16. Who cooks dinner?
I'm pretty good at cooking, so might be me unless he surprises me with stunning culinary prowess. o.o
17. Who drives when you are together?
It'll be him, mostly. He has the car x3 We might swap around when I get a license.
18. Who pays when you go out to dinner?
We'll probably argue over who handles it and likely end up splitting the check.
19. Who’s the most stubborn?
...him. (don't kill me x.x)
20. Who is the first one to admit when they’re wrong?
We're equal on this.
21. Whose family do you see more?
Mine, I have to. -__-
22. Who named your pet?
My brother and my sister. The one I named died.
23. Who kissed who first?
We haven't done it in real life yet, but it's tough telling who will; we both want to do it so much. I'll get back to you on that.
24. Who asked who out?
Me, I suppose? I dunno really how to answer this. (again, IRL, not yet.)
25. What did you do on your first date?
That's kind of private... >////> (once again, not yet in IRL.)
26. Who’s more sensitive?
That question may actually be indeterminable. We're both quite sensitive.
27. Who’s taller?
We're the same height. ^.^
28. Who has more friends?
Him. I don't really have many, sadly. The ones I do have I cherish.
29. Who has more siblings?
He does.
30. Who wears the pants in the relationship?
We both do, so we can rip 'em off each other. >:3
Time for something a little more cheery.
Posted 13 years agoI have decided to start writing again! That's right, ol' lazy Matty will continue on his long-winded and hopefully exciting (to its readers) story, because so many ideas have been assaulting my brain that I'm getting tired of keeping it all in!
Also, listening to StoryWonk during NaNoWriMo gave me a lot of inspiration, but I hadn't the time for it.
Also, listening to StoryWonk during NaNoWriMo gave me a lot of inspiration, but I hadn't the time for it.
Another journal thing.
Posted 13 years agoWell, shit.
Christmas is supposed to be a happy time, right? Filled with joy and giving and love and all that?
For some, maybe, but it's really looking bleak for me. My father has once again, freaked out on me after discovering a necklace and letter that I was going to send to my mate,
gokorahn. Tore him away from me, almost. He made it so I once again always have to look over my shoulder when trying to talk to him, and I have to live by his fucking rules, follow his religious brainwashing and basically have to further my career as an actor in the field of heterosexuality.
Eh, it's nothing I can't handle, but it really fucking sucks when every damn time I watch the Yogscast, he curses me out and screams in my damn face because... heh, you know, EVERY damn British person is one of my old friends and I'm sooooo attracted to them that he can't trust me around a simple entertaining video.
(He does however let me watch Hannah's videos because she's female. What a fuckhead.)
So yeah, not only has he made things between me and James difficult and lonely-making, but he's also encroaching on the little things that give me any happiness at all. Total 10/10 father, am I right or am I right?
Oh, he's also a racist now because Obama got re-elected. No surprise there!
Fundamentalist Christians are what is destroying America, and my father is one shining example of that.
Oh well. See you later, shitlords.
Christmas is supposed to be a happy time, right? Filled with joy and giving and love and all that?
For some, maybe, but it's really looking bleak for me. My father has once again, freaked out on me after discovering a necklace and letter that I was going to send to my mate,
gokorahn. Tore him away from me, almost. He made it so I once again always have to look over my shoulder when trying to talk to him, and I have to live by his fucking rules, follow his religious brainwashing and basically have to further my career as an actor in the field of heterosexuality.Eh, it's nothing I can't handle, but it really fucking sucks when every damn time I watch the Yogscast, he curses me out and screams in my damn face because... heh, you know, EVERY damn British person is one of my old friends and I'm sooooo attracted to them that he can't trust me around a simple entertaining video.
(He does however let me watch Hannah's videos because she's female. What a fuckhead.)
So yeah, not only has he made things between me and James difficult and lonely-making, but he's also encroaching on the little things that give me any happiness at all. Total 10/10 father, am I right or am I right?
Oh, he's also a racist now because Obama got re-elected. No surprise there!
Fundamentalist Christians are what is destroying America, and my father is one shining example of that.
Oh well. See you later, shitlords.
Okay, things are looking good again.
Posted 13 years agoSo, I finally got mated, and I have to say, I'm genuinely happy now.
Eh, why not?
Posted 13 years agoOoh, look, a journal thingie. But don't expect it to be happy, because it isn't.
I'm tired. I'm lonely. I'm alone, though I think that fits well with lonely, damn it.
Most of all, I'm tired of being lonely.
I can't make a relationship last worth a crap anymore. Every time I try, it makes me happy for a little while but inevitably, it all comes crashing down and I'm left in the proverbial dust. Several times, I thought I had the one.
The one. Ha. What utter bullshit. There is no such thing as "the one" for me, there never has been. Because nobody wants to be "my one." I'm too much of a complicated person for that.
Let me show you how many times I fell for my thoughts of "the one" existing.
William - 06/17/2010-10/13/2010 (The worst.)
Max - 10/13/2010-9/18/2011 (Look at that, that actually lasted a long time.)
Dave - 10/18/2011-03/17/2012 (Ended mutually. He's my fur-brother, we weren't meant to be.)
Dratron - 03/04/2012-03/28/2012
Joey - 03/28/2012-05/13/2012 (May 13th, 2012 is a day I will never forget. That was the day my heart was truly broken.)
Yep. I know some of you will probably say it's my fault, and I know it is. It's my damn fault for ever letting that last one happen.
I'm tired. I'm lonely. I'm alone, though I think that fits well with lonely, damn it.
Most of all, I'm tired of being lonely.
I can't make a relationship last worth a crap anymore. Every time I try, it makes me happy for a little while but inevitably, it all comes crashing down and I'm left in the proverbial dust. Several times, I thought I had the one.
The one. Ha. What utter bullshit. There is no such thing as "the one" for me, there never has been. Because nobody wants to be "my one." I'm too much of a complicated person for that.
Let me show you how many times I fell for my thoughts of "the one" existing.
William - 06/17/2010-10/13/2010 (The worst.)
Max - 10/13/2010-9/18/2011 (Look at that, that actually lasted a long time.)
Dave - 10/18/2011-03/17/2012 (Ended mutually. He's my fur-brother, we weren't meant to be.)
Dratron - 03/04/2012-03/28/2012
Joey - 03/28/2012-05/13/2012 (May 13th, 2012 is a day I will never forget. That was the day my heart was truly broken.)
Yep. I know some of you will probably say it's my fault, and I know it is. It's my damn fault for ever letting that last one happen.
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