Has been a year (or over) since my last journal and looking back I was happy to be able to write it with what ever defiance I had left because after keeping my broken old body free from viruses and my mind remain stable enough to finally salvage the remains of several shattered personalities I feel it is time to stride forward into a brave new world.

Or in my case, revisit one so rarely explored.

After finding a Discord community after stumbling my way around the online gaming jungle I have been inspired to polish off my Twitch channel and set up a game stream in order to pick up on an entertaining career that was left broken after certain people in my life trampled it with their inconsiderate ways.

Yes...you heard correct. The Old Man is adding variety streamer to his resume.

The streams will be mainly games I currently have on Steam and Switch embellished with some writing advice (if anyone should ask for it) and talk of monsters from all walks of life.

The Jaffah's Twitch debut stream is on the 19th May at 5 pm Brisbane time and will look to run for a couple hours as this first few streams will be to see how well this idiot can go at different times of the day as well as how long he can stream.

No need to bring anything other than yourself and an open mind ... make that a very, VERY open mind.

Thank you and we hope to see you around =D

The Jaffah

https://www.twitch.tv/the_jaffah

It's been nine months since I posted a journal updating life and the fun things I have been through and I really must say some things have improved a bit. Been seeing a psychiatrist for a few months in the hopes of getting a diagnosis to let me apply for disability here and while at times it feels frustrating I am on the verge of getting what I need. From there it is just a matter of filing my application and convincing the proper government department...which will be an uphill struggle in itself. But this time I am no going to give up until all avenues are exhausted.

Physically my back is getting worse but I have been losing weight and this has been a little help in regards to the little things. First covid jab had been got a few weeks back and now I wait another couple of months until I get the next. Winter is hitting well here and I do enjoy snuggling up in a warm bed so I am revelling in that for the time being and I am please to say I have been walking more often, though there needs to be a lot of benches a long the way X3

Art wise I am still continuing to write my Monster stories and will be looking to produce more on a more regular basis. I also need to edit some of the earlier ones as several are parts of a bigger story while others are just stand alone tales that give insight to certain characters.

I am also trying to get back into adult stories as well (not sure how many times I have said this) but the ideas are here I just need to feel good in creating them.

Socially I still feel like a log stuck in mud thought I have been trying to be more active in some discord channels I am in and honestly if anyone feels like they want to talk with me then I won't say no, so maybe drop me a DM or something and we can work something out.

Anyway people, hope you enjoy my work and I look forward to entertaining you in the future.

Jaffah

Hello everyone just wanted to update and let everyone know I am still alive and kicking. Physically speaking I am still old and shuffling along while dealing with pain issues and internal stuff you get from living a less than healthy lifestyle.

Mentally speaking I have had much better days. I have been fighting depression n anxiety a lot n hearing bout friends who ended up contracting corvid did little to brighten any mood I had. But deep down I do know and believe they, and myself (mentally speaking) will come good and I feel that continuing to do what I love will help a great deal.

Managed to finish a story n post it and this time I will keep it up as this is my tale to tell, many may not see any messages contained but so long as they enjoy what I write then I will be happy. If you're not happy then I would like to hear about it. I use to write some damn good stories but at times I think I may have dropped the ball so-to-speak and lost people a long the way,

Still if you don't like what I do then that's okay too.

Socially I am trying once more to reach out, make friends, help others in a similar mental state which helps me as well. If I do reach out and you find yourself too busy to chat or something then don't fret, always be other times and I am quite patient =)

Anyway, thanks for sticking with me and I hope you enjoy my Monsters series, I know they might not seem like adult stories now but one will eventually take that turn.

In the meantime please take care of yourselves and stay safe.

=D

With the end of the year approaching I find myself full of dread at another christmas only this time I am not going to be burdened with the antics my family submit me to. This time there is just me and the realisation I am alone here. Wow, sounds pretty dramatic doesn't it? I guess there is a difference between the good and the bad but the problem is determining which is which.

Anyhow...

My health here has always been an issue and I have been seeing various specialist for dietary and exercise advice as well as my regular doctor for routine check-ups. I can't really say I am better but I feel better off...if this makes sense. I still see a therapist on occasions especially when it comes to thoughts pertaining to my family, geez, who would've thought these things would screw me up so much, ah well.

Writing I have been slowly working on Monster stuff as seen in my gallery which include some newer pictures I commissioned of some of the characters. I am hoping to add more money permitting but I will point out what I am hoping to achieve in the future.

With the Monsters idea, the main one I have worked on for some time, the world has changed to the point where people rarely believe in the creatures of myth n lore that they once created, so where does this leave them? Things that once existed still exist but many have decided to become part of the ranks of heaven and hell while the rest have decided to remain living amongst those who once believed in them. Thanks to a pact with Old Gods they can exist with little to no concern from those around them but this doesn't always mean those who chose to remain will do so peacefully. This is where our cast of misfits come in.

Tasked with keeping the balance (and entertaining some bored Old Gods) several monsters were given the job of making sure that those who were given the chance to live the life they chose didn't upset the balance of things, the balance between light and dark. And such we have the No-one, a former boogeyman who still lives with the reputation of his kind and Kayla, the angel fallen from grace. These two are enforcers for the dark and light who deal with the ones seeking to disrupt the world they, and many others live in.

The other series as some may have noticed has Amiee, a young homeless girl who knows very little of what she is meeting up with a very strange old man. These stories revolve around a home for some creatures who chose to remain in the mortal world but have had little success at finding a place for themselves so the Old man, or Caretaker, and his group see to it they have a place to stay while they deal with their issues. This series I will be looking at some darker and more adult situations that can arise.

And speaking of adult situations, I have found myself lacking motivation in writing more erotic stories but lately I have had ideas floating around which may seem weird or unusual and as much as I think they would be good to do I feel I should look to you the viewer and ask... Do you think you would be interested in reading them? I am talking stuff that seems a bit fetishy and bordering horror in a way. Also do you guys prefer just one off stories or like it when you see recurring characters in different situations?

I really am curious so please let me know. In the mean time I thank you all for sticking around and I do hope to get something good for you all to read soon.

Jaffah

it has been a while since i posted and honestly I am too tired to write up a full journal but I will in the next few days, fwlt it better to push the last one off n get rid of the negativity, will update soon

=)

...is a phrase I learned while doing comedy. It is used when a comedian is about to relay a longish story in association with a joke or gag that when fully told makes a funny story even funnier. Wish my story was funny to begin with....anyway.

Long version.

Over a month ago I cut ties with my 'family' but the detrimental things involving them had been happening for years, usually things that involved them reminding me of the bad things I did many years ago, looking down on me when I tried to move with the times and didn't do things their way, generally failing in their eyes, Largely because of this I have been seeing a mental health therapist on a regular basis where I have been told many times I have aspergers syndrome.

For a while now I had been trying to think of a way to tell my family without upsetting them and each time I had put it off because I felt both sorry and guilty for wanting to do it...until last christmas. I went to visit expecting the usual snarky bullshit I always did and my father hit me with something I did not expect. He told me he always forgets the bad things that happen.

Doesn't sound like much does it, but to me it was the years of having 'bad things' shoved into my face that more or less put me in the position I am now, it was the 'bad things' that I was constantly subjected to when I had to rely on my 'family' for help, the same 'bad things' they heaped on me when they did not want to take responsibility for themselves or to just make themselves feel better.

So yeah, after that day I lost all feelings in me. No love, no hate no sadness. I had a sense of clarity that scared the hell out of me and quite frankly I was afraid I would do something I'd normally wouldn't. Thankfully I thought it through best I could and saw this was the moment to tell them. So I sat down and prepared my thoughts.

Just over a month I went down there to talk and explain my situation and how I did not feel welcome there due to the things that happened. It did not go well. In fact it went worse than I expected and believe me I had some pretty bad expectations to begin with.

The things I mentioned my father claimed he couldn't recall or said he never did. Even the blatant vivid that I knew happened he denied ever happened. The more he dismissed my claims the angrier I got, I had never been so angry in my life. It felt like they had just forgotten the things they did to me, and yet these were people who could drag my bad mistakes up from ten/fifteen years ago and hold them over me, they couldn't even admit to something bad they did from five years ago.

Eventually I was told to leave and not come back.

So, to make a long story painful, as they say...

Couple weeks back my mother calls me out of the blue saying she was looking to work out what was wrong with me. Yes, you heard right. "What was wrong with me". And the same conversation started up again with me claiming things I know happened while she, like my father, claimed not to know or denied it happened, only this time she added something new. She repeatedly claimed while I was staying with them that I did no work and made no attempt to talk to anyone there. More claims I know are not true. I even pointed out times and case where I did do things but in the end she wasn't believing me. So I ended the call as I was beyond angry one again.

So now I am putting this down in a journal not to whine or complain but to get it out of my system as this will be the only closure I feel I will get in this matter. I am hoping this will mean more motivation to write now I no longer have to worry about it because right now I really need to get stuff in my head out and on paper...so to speak.

I know some will worry but take heart in knowing I am on the road to healing and putting this all behind me and I really do appreciate your concerns. I know there are a few people who worry a lot and who I owe big time for being there for me. I will pay you guys back in some way.

In the mean time take care and be good to each other. =3

Earlier today I went to visit family in order to explain a few things in my life. It turned out pretty much as predicted. My father was the only one there at the time as the others were out shopping and he wanted to hear it from me, so I told him.

I told him about the years of visiting a mental health therapist, explained that I no longer felt welcomed at their home and we he asked why I told him. About the way I felt after I last lived with them and things went downhill from there.

Now my father is a stubborn traditional based man and he countered the things I said only to have me counter back. (I found it typical how easily it is to forget things when it comes to me being right) And so the conversation became very heated. In the end I refused to call my mother by the term "mum" and this pissed him off so much he told me to get out and don't come back. Which was fine by me.

So yeah. I have cut ties with my family now.

Anyway, life goes on.

Been a while since I updated this and I will good n proper in a day or two, a lot feels like it has happened and i still am working some of it out, stay tuned.

Jaffah

Well, my birthday has come and gone and now I can officially claim to be middle aged. Turned fifty on the twentieth of August and spent most of the day drinking and coughing as I had some bug. Ah well, I will be uploading a few pictures I got over the weekend including my first ever character sheet. Wooo \o/

On a more serious note I have been quietly watching events and I am sad to say that hate stands out like a sore thumb. I know it is something that has been, and will always be, around but I implore you to stop and look at the reasons for the hate. It all boils down to something being different. Something that people think isn't normal and this is not right. Especially when there is no set standards for what normal is supposed to be.

Yeah sounds simple and, well, it is. What is normal?

I have seen people slandered and abused, religions insulted and stereotyped, races looked down upon and even considered for extinction and I have to say that this has never been any type of normal what so ever.

So again. What is normal?

For me, and this is my opinion, being normal is living a comfortable life where you are happy.

Sad isn't it? Where one man's opinion, and a simple one at that, sounds so much better

Now before you throw common sense out the window and try to argue with me think about this. Do you argue because of what someone else thinks and does? Did you personally chose your bias' or did you just jump on the wagon because it sounded like the normal thing to do?

I am not going to say "don't argue" or anything like that but before you decide to speak up ask yourself this...

Would you be happier with your life if you took all that time you wasted on hating someone else's life and used it to improve things for yourself?

Try not to hate others for being who they are, be happy for them, for yourself and for our future.

It's been too long, so long I may as well give up on the premise of monthly updates and resign myself to updating when I remember.

Well, March was the last one and I cannot convince myself I have done a lot because I feel like I have done little more than sit on my ass staring at a computer screen...but then I look at why.

Been working on a book keeping course for a few months now, I have been nervous and anxious because all the other times I have tried study it falls short. This time however, I may b behind and doing my best to catch up I have been submitting completed assessments on a regular basis and not been worried at all. The main reason I fall short, getting all panicky due to falling behind. It is easy to follow and I just need to keep focused in order to succeed.

Speaking of focus, one of my main focuses in my writing is still going albeit slowly, been having slight issues with a newer story introducing a cerberus girl but to me it means it is fresh in my mind and in need to serious work. I am looking at getting a character sheet done up of the main character for my Monster series and show off a little more of him and I am trying to get back into adult stuff.

One thing I would mention even though it's not something I usually do is mention my birthday. Most times I point it out on the actual day rather than earlier but I know in this case it is special (I guess) due to it being a kind of milestone. I understand people see it as a big thing and I am not going to deny anyone if they feel they want to do something for it.

Not too sure what else to put down here without it sounding like ... well I dunno. Always felt weird talking about myself like I deserved anything but one thing I will always be grateful for and this is all the friends I have made along the way and I will always be happy to step up and show trust to anyone I feel needs and deserves it.

Anyway, I gotta go and build some settlements up in Fallout...oh and yeah I will be looking forward to playing Monster Hunter World next month. Til then.

Be good but stay wary. =)

Ahhh the months roll right on, leaving the unaware behind...Yeah that was directed at me X3

February came n went and most of it for me was silently raging due to the fact they changed the requirements for some pain medication so now I need a prescription for it...and despite months of being told it was happening comes the day it changes and it turns out the new packaging hasn't been done...so the stuff I normally use wasn't ready and even now (a month after the change) I am still waiting on the new stuff to come in. Fortunately I have other meds to rely on for the time being.

Mentally speaking I am doing much, much better, a lot of this has come from dealing with and shedding the issues that have caused me nothing but anxiety n depression and I have never felt good like this in a long time. I know it is a hard thing to deal with and I will say if you have a way of dealing with it then stick with it til the end, it is well worth it.

In light of my better moods I have set up stream channels for me to stream both writing and games I play, will be mostly me yelling at stuff in game cause being old that is what I am good at. You can find me here from time to time,

https://picarto.tv/Jaffah
https://www.twitch.tv/damnjaffah

I am new to the whole streaming thing but not knew to entertaining others so I hope to see you there sometime. =)

Welp, Valantines Day has come and gone and instead of feeling down because I am single I felt...well hot and sore...No literally. I am not really bother emotionally cause I am alone because I have so many friends I love and cherish and after a few failed relationships I find this far more better.

The heat here has been horrifically hot with some days nearly reaching 40deg celcius. Paired with this my back and legs have been flaring up with pain and it has been very difficult for me to get any decent sleep, even napping is hard. Fortunately my doctor has prescribed a higher dosage of medication and for the moment things have settled enough.

Went through mi pictures (still haven't fully sorted them out yet) and post a few pictures done recently. I am hoping to get back into writing as I want to introduce a new character for the Monster series...as soon as I can settle on the proper name for her...

More to come thanks for sticking with me. =)

*runs a broom through cleaning up last journal*

Wow...August huh? Time flies when you're almost having fun.

Welp, fist and foremost, Happy New Year everyone, I hope it all went well for you, Mine turned out better than I expected with a Christmas visit to my family turning out to be more pleasant than it was a headache....despite the subtle and not-so-subtle jabs.

In regards to my anxiety n depression issues (thanks to my aforementioned family) has eased a great deal thanks to visit to a mental health nurse at a nearby church and thanks to these visits I am now at the point where I want to sit down with my family and get everything off my chest. From the way I was treated each time I had to rely on them down to the fact I am living my life for me and not them. Long time coming methinks.

Art wise I have been cleaning up my story and picture folders and have been finding stuff yet unposted so I will be gracing you all with some wonderful pics and thanks to my much better frame of mind I have more stuff planned for both my Monster characters as well as some random adult stuff I have had ideas for over the holidays.

I am coming up to my 50th birthday this year (yes, old tiger IS old) and I was playing on the idea of seeing if anyone wanted to ask me advice on things they may need help with. I'd like to know your input on this idea as it can be done anonymously or in private as I have experienced a lot and have been know to help others out where I can with advice. Just something I am throwing out there for the moment but let me know what you think,

Commissions...still not sure. Maybe in the future when things with my family have been dealt with on a level I am happy with and to be honest I will have to look into how much for what. I am not the sort that would want to charge a lot but I also don't want to take on too much as well.

Anyway, I know you have all been very patient and I do thank you for it.

Here's hoping 2018 brings all you need. =3

Well it has been a few months and despite the way I feel I think I should step up and post another journal.

Yes...today is my birthday but don't feel bad for not knowing as I myself don't really celebrate it anymore. Not expecting anyone to do anything nor will I ask as just having the friends I do now is more then enough for me.

For the past several months I have been on medical exception from work search due to depression hitting me hard, along with my back n leg issues it has dragged my moods down. Fortunately not all is bad as those I call friend have constantly made me smile (whether they realise it or not) and this has kept me in good enough spirits to keep my mind focused on some of my writing ideas.

Along with this and thanks to a little luck and kindness (from said friends) I also have a few new pictures that I will upload in the next few days. I am glad to say I am blessed with knowing some truly amazing people and I really appreciate all they do.

After talking with my doctor I realise I am ... well, fairly damaged in a way and I hope to start doing volunteer work at a nearby church just to get out in order to meet people and learn how to trust people properly again.

I would like to thank you all for sticking it out with me as I go through this and I hope to keep you entertained with some of the things I have been working on.

Take care and thanks again. =D

So yeah, my plan was to do this each month but it seems I haven't lived up to that.

Anyway time to play catch up.

I was doing a course on Digital Gaming but had to pull out as the studies become more advanced than I could handle. On top of that my health has been up n down as my doctor informed me that I have early stages of hardening arteries in my legs, As a result I have had nerve pain in my feet to go with everything else I have. This also means new medication to take that not only does a good job at alleviating the pain but knocking me around and making me drowsytired. On the plus side I have been losing weight on a steady basis so I am hoping this will help greatly.

I am sorry to my friends whom I keep forgetting to talk to just to catch up. I do worry about you all and will try to get in contact with you all as soon as I can.

Been working on some more monster stuff just to keep my focus and continue to move forward but the adult stuff eludes me as even though I have stories I can do the mood to write them is kinda low so motivation is hard and I appreciate you all sticking round despite my lack of erotic writings. I hope to pick up again soon.

In the meantime I will continue to post what I can in an effort to keep you all entertained. Thank you all.

Well, I was going to post this at the beginning of the month and spout on about how I was going to use the first month of a new year to clean up around here in both my home and computer but it seems the month had other ideas for me.

So...

I went to visit my family for christmas last year and despite all the BS I am usually use to dealing with from them, the visit turned out to be pleasant. No drama happened and I am fine with that.

New Years started off less than stellar as a nasty virus infected my computer and screwed up many files and programs. My anti-virus programs were a casualty of this and after saving what I could I had to wipe the system and re-install windows.

I am currently working on a Diploma for Digital and Interactive gaming and I feel I have fallen behind in my studies due worries, stresses and other fun things but now as I emerge from the dust that was 2016 I think I can catch up. Just hope you are all patient with me if I seem rushed or suddenly go quiet.

Though I still hope to do a monthly update journal.

So...trump is president of the US...but he will never, EVAAAAAH be leader of the free world. He just doesn't know what "freedom" is.

Will continue working on my Monsters to establish more of their personalities, motivations and origins in order to work on something big involving them. If you guys want to comment on them please do so, it would mean a lot to me to know what you think of them. I haven't done an adult story in a while and I do apologise for that and will remedy this soon.

Working on my health is probably one of the hardest things I am doing as I need...NEED to cut out junk food as it just aggravates my type2 diabetes and makes me irritable...then when i cut all the crap out I get irritable...win-win situation there for me but it is one I will have to overcome.

I am going to try and be more sociable when I have the time to spare so if you are on my friends lists then be prepared for a chat sometime. =3

Not sure ifn there is anything else to cover but until next journal, live your lives, never be afraid and remember you matter to someone. =D

Hello everyone, glad to see you are still around.

Firstly I would like to apologize for the lack of adult work recently, as some of you have noticed I have been posting stories about monstrous creatures. I really wanted to get these started as this is what I have been aiming for over the past several years and having gotten the main character to the point where I want him I have chosen to post stories not only introducing some of the characters but showing what they can do.

The idea behind these Monsters is to show what has happened to famous monsters from myth and legend (or at least the concepts we recognize) and how they try and deal with a world that no longer think they exist. The next few stories planned for them is to show how they came to be where and what they are and the reasons they aren't running around like they use to.

I will also be working on more porn and hopefully get the Heartbreakers up n running too.

Many thanks for your patience and I hope to entertain you more soon.

Jaffah

*sends in the dancing tigers* .... I was using them loong befor they were cool =D

...just so happens to be the same obstacle many of us have stumbled over at one time or another...ourselves.

Self Fulfilling Prophecy if you want to use fancy words but putting it bluntly it's when we fail before we try anything simply because we believe it won't work. Some of us, myself included, grew up with it. Those surrounding us who we hoped would be supportive and helpful just crushing our hopes with their opinion of our talents, skills and determination to stand up and do what we wanted. These people "trained" us to believe we can't do something simply by saying we couldn't. Not through their own experience, cause lets face it, these people never did anything worthwhile in their lives so they think everyone else seeking to reach high should just stay in the mud.

I'm sick of it, in fact I am more than sick of it. I feel I have pushed aside so many attempts to do good in my life just because of the hollow opinions of my family, the same people who cannot even take responsibility for their own misgivings. And the thing is I am not the only one who feels the weight of our families opinions and false accusations of guilt. We all know who we are and the things we can achieve when given the proper chance.

I've started breaking out of the habit of failing before I start and it started when I moved away from my family nearly a year and a half ago. I have shifted places twice and I am glad to say I have a permanent, stable home now. My next step is to finish a variety of half written stories that haunt my desktop and I will be doing them using heart and emotion to write.

I am posting this for several reasons but the one that stands out the most is because of those of you who not only read my works but encourage me to do more, whether you are my friends or not and I want to encourage others to stand up and pursue their own dreams as well.

So be proud of what you can do and who you are and don't let anyone tell you any different because in the end the only person who determines what is right for you, is you. =3

Okay so after a multitude of inept doctors I finally snag one who is down to earth and serious about the job she does and after several tests I have been advised to go on a diet in order to reduce my weight and help with several other things.

So today was my first day of serious dieting and I have stocked up on the things I hope will help me. My body is still expecting it's usual overdose of sugar but it is currently satisfied at having it's first real piece of red meat in a long time. (Previous doctor told me I had to stop eating red meat cause of elevated iron levels ... or something, he was kind of an idiot)

Tomorrow will set the pace for me and my current physician said if I was able to go three days without sugar it should curb the cravings my body has...three days seem like a long time now.

So I do apologize in advance if I seem a little snarky and snappy over the next week, it won't be your fault just me getting use to a more healthy lifestyle...go me. >__>

http://no-oneshome.tumblr.com/post/.....ome-to-my-home

=3

When I first moved into my new place over seven months ago I told myself I would change. Would do better to become better than I was. In the past months I had to deal with a lot of anxiety and depression issues, especially during certain time. The approaching Christmas being one of them.

I went to see a psychologist in order to get stuff off my chest and mind and one thing became more and more apparent to me. Special days and things that some people see as good and benevolent have slowly become twisted to me over the many years due to things I did not expect. Things like 'Love' took a similar meaning to 'hate' and 'family' wasn't the grand thing I had been lead to believe.

I felt I had to leave parts of myself behind, discarded due to them only weighing me down and hoped in doing so would see me rise above the sad mental image my own family chose for me. Along the way I got angrier than usual, more annoyed at myself and at others but decided not to say anything because I knew those I now associate with and talk to weren't to blame for the things that happened in my life, no. It was those people whom I realized could do for me what I thought may never would happen for me again.

Give me hope.

I owe a lot to my friends, and not just the ones I have had for many years but the ones I have known only for a few months or chat with in passing. The ones who dust me off when I fall (and chose to tell them) and the ones who simply ask i I am alright. It is thanks to these people and many others like them that I feel my heart mend a little more each day, fill with hope and a passion I longed to feel once more.

Am I a good man? I don't know. Can't really say. I've done a lot of things and made a fair few mistakes. Made promises I have failed to keep and helped people I thought were in need. I know my life isn't the best but I do my best to live it in a way that is good by me. After all that's all we can do.

We all have low points in our lives but we don't have to deal with them alone, but you need to remember it's a give/take sort of thing. You want people to give up their time, give advice or sympathy, but you have to take the advice, or take the hint that if someone, anyone stops for you then there is hope to be gained.

Thanks to you my friends, my watchers and to those who simply stop by to look at something done for me. I appreciate you all.

So, yeah. I have been watching the current series of Doctor Who and I really have to know... What the hell is going on?

Anyone?

When they brought Peter Capaldi in as the new Doctor they touted him as "The man who fights the monsters". And Yes, they started off with him going down this path. First of the Capaldi series had some good potential for some great stories ... that is until they turned them to crud.

Hide started out as a "monster under the bed" story only to end up as a "Clara influences the Doctors life...again" story. Flatline genuinely sent shivers down my spine, but not because of the two dimensional killers.

When the second series started it had Daleks, Davros, the FRIGGEN MASTER in it and they took two complete episodes to tell a story that couldve been done in one. I'm sorry but I don't see a man who fights monsters and is looking to fix his mistakes. All I see is a doddering old man making more mistakes and relying on Clara most of the time.

Dear God things better get better after Clara leaves.

*tiger grumps*

Seems like the best way to become Prime Minister of Australia is to join a ruling party and wait until the person running the country screws up so much you just tap them on the shoulder and take over. Former government it happened twice and now the current government, one who boasted on the stability of it's leadership, has seen it occur.

Am I surprised? Only by the fact it took so long to kick Tony Abbott out. I really was expecting this six months after he took office. I guess he screwed up so bad no one wanted to step in and try to make things right ... well not right for the Australian people mind you. Things got to the point where people I knew were certain Indonesia would declare war on us simply because the Mr Bean attitude that Tony Abbott displayed wasn't as funny as he, or his puppeteers thought.

Yeah, was always my belief that Abbott was a pawn who was told what to do and say from behind the scenes, hell just look at some of his speeches. He would pause, repeat some things , get confused and say something that didn't make sense. And if you were lucky afterwards you would see footage of him wandering off to stand alone pretending he was the only one around.

But the thing is even though he is now gone we still have the same party who are trying to put the screws on the poor, still have the same party who will do their best to suppress bad news stories about them, who will still sneer arrogantly at those who don't agree with their way of thinking.

So yeah, while some are dancing around singing "Ding dong the witch is dead" I am reminded of a line from another movie.

"Cut off one head, two more shall take it's place."

Is it obsessive if I keep track of the months since I moved out of my parents place to live a far better life for myself? If so I am obsessive cause it has been 4 months since I have moved out of my parents place to live a... well you get the idea.

Been going through some of the things I have down on paper here and have decided I will start doing random stuff for my stories. I still want to work on a couple of set ideas, such as the Heartbreakers, but I feel better at the moment in doing stuff to either entertain or just plain for the fun of it.

Wanted to also thank everyone for the birthday wishes both here and abroad. Have to admit I have never really been into things like that but since gaining social freedom it doesn't all feel that bad.

Thanks everyone for being patient with me and continuing to watch what I do. =)

Wine, cheese and crackers. Life is good and it's not even 8am yet. =D