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Posted a year agoFirst of all, welcome back to FA
Also, I’ve gotten a couple more expenses coming at me. After much contemplating, I've decided to re-open my commission queue as well as change my prices a bit.
Shoot me a DM if interested and I'll be sending out a google form for you to fill out.
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/24812645/
Also, I’ve gotten a couple more expenses coming at me. After much contemplating, I've decided to re-open my commission queue as well as change my prices a bit.
Shoot me a DM if interested and I'll be sending out a google form for you to fill out.
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/24812645/
im tired
Posted 2 years agoI'm Tired
And what I mean is that i'm frustrated of feeling like i'm reaching for the unattainable and still having faith in myself that it will happen someday. Here's the thing, I currently live in Southern California, turned 30 last year still under the roof of my folks, about 4-5 days a week i have to ballance my part time job being a caretaker for my sister as well as attend two art gigs at Furality and Helluva Boss, and usually on the weekends I try to catch up on finishing up commissioned artwork if I'm not babysitting my 2 yr old nephew. I had to quit doing customer service and food service jobs last year due to mental health and being at the tail end of college. I also don't operate well under pressure and high paced tasks.
For the past decade all i wanted to do is finish college and hopefully be able to move out and find a stable job being in a studio as a full time artist. At least that's what my follks wanted me to do. Dont get me wrong, to a large degree that's what I personally want too. But not once have I considered if that's what I want to do as much as i should. I regret not setting enough boundaries, I regret not having opportunities to standing up for myself when my folks tell me off.
For those who are unaware, I come from a filipino-american family. I'm also pretty sure many other backgrounds and generations can relate as well when I say this. I'm lucky that i'm part of a culture where living at home as an adult isn't as stigmatized as majority of western countries, but it also comes with a price where I can't feel obligated to set boundaries because I was taught that setting boundaries means disrespecting my folks. Up to this day i have problems saying no to people because deep down I feel that i'm letting them down and i'm in the wrong for doing that. I tell myself that i'm blessed to have friends to talk to so why risk loosing them by disappointing them?
My overall point is, I'm tired of feel like i'm falling behind. I don't want to feel like things aren't going to change on top of falling under the same routine just to get by. I wan't to eventually move out and at least be with someone I can be comfortable sharing a space with. I want to work at a job that i've been attaining for the past 10 years, I want to no longer think that the only easy way out is fucking death.
I'm tired.
And what I mean is that i'm frustrated of feeling like i'm reaching for the unattainable and still having faith in myself that it will happen someday. Here's the thing, I currently live in Southern California, turned 30 last year still under the roof of my folks, about 4-5 days a week i have to ballance my part time job being a caretaker for my sister as well as attend two art gigs at Furality and Helluva Boss, and usually on the weekends I try to catch up on finishing up commissioned artwork if I'm not babysitting my 2 yr old nephew. I had to quit doing customer service and food service jobs last year due to mental health and being at the tail end of college. I also don't operate well under pressure and high paced tasks.
For the past decade all i wanted to do is finish college and hopefully be able to move out and find a stable job being in a studio as a full time artist. At least that's what my follks wanted me to do. Dont get me wrong, to a large degree that's what I personally want too. But not once have I considered if that's what I want to do as much as i should. I regret not setting enough boundaries, I regret not having opportunities to standing up for myself when my folks tell me off.
For those who are unaware, I come from a filipino-american family. I'm also pretty sure many other backgrounds and generations can relate as well when I say this. I'm lucky that i'm part of a culture where living at home as an adult isn't as stigmatized as majority of western countries, but it also comes with a price where I can't feel obligated to set boundaries because I was taught that setting boundaries means disrespecting my folks. Up to this day i have problems saying no to people because deep down I feel that i'm letting them down and i'm in the wrong for doing that. I tell myself that i'm blessed to have friends to talk to so why risk loosing them by disappointing them?
My overall point is, I'm tired of feel like i'm falling behind. I don't want to feel like things aren't going to change on top of falling under the same routine just to get by. I wan't to eventually move out and at least be with someone I can be comfortable sharing a space with. I want to work at a job that i've been attaining for the past 10 years, I want to no longer think that the only easy way out is fucking death.
I'm tired.
Hello
Posted 2 years agoJust a reminder that I’m still around, just more active among other places on the internet.
Also the Halloween banner looks great! 👍
Also the Halloween banner looks great! 👍
STILL ALIVE, also BLFC
Posted 6 years agoHey guys!
I know it’s been forever since I posted art on here, but rest assured I’ll be continuing my current commission queue soon!
Things have been hectic for me from getting final college work done to prepping my suit for BLFC, but not long will those weights be lifted for me to start arting again :3 I deeply apologize for those waiting but I swear you haven’t been forgotten
And finally
Who’s going to BLFC this weekend?
I know it’s been forever since I posted art on here, but rest assured I’ll be continuing my current commission queue soon!
Things have been hectic for me from getting final college work done to prepping my suit for BLFC, but not long will those weights be lifted for me to start arting again :3 I deeply apologize for those waiting but I swear you haven’t been forgotten
And finally
Who’s going to BLFC this weekend?
--->COMMISSIONS OPEN<----
Posted 7 years agoHey everyone!
Thought I would open up my queue again to start off the new year. However; before you send me your inquiries I would like to point something out.
It turns out that doing these short comics really does take a toll on my motivation to get on with art, so I would kindly discourage, (but not fully prohibit) themes such as:
Short Comics
Vore
Heavy Fetishy themes (negotiable)
If you have any further comments or question feel free to let me know.
Now without further ado. Here's the queue.
PRICES SHEET: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24812645/
1. Digitalhowl @ Twitter
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dragonfireny
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ianp101
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Thought I would open up my queue again to start off the new year. However; before you send me your inquiries I would like to point something out.
It turns out that doing these short comics really does take a toll on my motivation to get on with art, so I would kindly discourage, (but not fully prohibit) themes such as:
Short Comics
Vore
Heavy Fetishy themes (negotiable)
If you have any further comments or question feel free to let me know.
Now without further ado. Here's the queue.
PRICES SHEET: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24812645/
1. Digitalhowl @ Twitter
[Two Character, No Background, Rendered]
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dragonfireny[Two Characters, Background, Rendered]
3.
ianp101[Ref. sheet]
CANCELING BOWSER WEIGHT GAIN DRIVE
Posted 7 years agoI’m considering canceling my Bowser Weight Gain drive in a week or two. Only one person has donated after a month since the second submission and no one seems interested in donating anymore. Refunds will be offered if canceled.
!! COMMISSIONS [OPEN] !!
Posted 8 years agoPRICES: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24812645/
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AMAZON WISH LIST
Posted 8 years agohttp://a.co/a6jPeqF
Why not, it's the season of giving and receiving. :)
This list is 100% vinyl records that I would like to own.
Also, by any chance this is also on my list.
https://www.amazon.com/dp/B008872SI.....OAMM&psc=1
And lastly, if you would like to share your amazon wish list as well leave it in the comments below ;)
Why not, it's the season of giving and receiving. :)
This list is 100% vinyl records that I would like to own.
Also, by any chance this is also on my list.
https://www.amazon.com/dp/B008872SI.....OAMM&psc=1
And lastly, if you would like to share your amazon wish list as well leave it in the comments below ;)
FURTHER CONFUSION ROLE CALL
Posted 8 years agoSo next January I will be attending Further Confusion for the first time. Which is also my very first furry convention i've ever been to ever so I'm pretty excited. I'm just curious who else is planning on going?
COMMISSION PRICES
Posted 8 years agoHey guys, it has now come to the point where I need to raise my prices on commissions a bit.
Also, I need you're guys' help on how much I should charge for each format: Line, Color, Shaded
If it's not too much to ask of course.
Also, I need you're guys' help on how much I should charge for each format: Line, Color, Shaded
If it's not too much to ask of course.
RIP CHESTER BENNINGTON
Posted 8 years agoChester Bennington from Linkin Park has passed away...
FOR THOSE WAITING ON COMMISSIONS
Posted 8 years agoDon't worry, i haven't forgotten about them. I'm still working on them slowly but surely. I just have one more week of the semester left. After that week is over i will work on them without any interruptions!~ So bare with me folks. Thank You.
HAPPY FORTH OF JULY!!!
Posted 8 years agoEnjoy all the fireworks, BBQ's, and late night quality times with your extended family and friends
<3
<3
*MAYBE* NO MORE FAT/MACRO ART
Posted 8 years agoIt has just come to the point where it only feels like a chore rather than something just for fun. What I mean is that I feel that I'm avoiding trying to grow and evolve into the creator I desire to be on the long run. And art is already part of my ideal welfare. If you stilll don't know what I mean, basically what I'm saying is that majority of my followers here only wish to see art that turns them on. And yes I did address the elephant in the room and I apologize if going to that extent has offended some of you. For a long time I wanted to avoid bringing this up because I feel like an asshole for taking away the thing everyone desires to see, which is fetish art. You might be sayin, "this is FA, of course people want to see pornagraphic art pieces most of the time". Of course I'm aware of that. It just sucks that not many of you, (not you specifically) don't wish to see what else I could do and what kind of art I wish to present in the real world. The obvious answer would just be something like, "then leave FA you idiot, go to a place where it isn't always cartoon animals all the time." But the thing is I ironically get more income for doing fetish work than work I conventionally do in my spare time. This may be selfish of me to say that no doubt, but right now I don't really mind. I'm not trying to discourage you guys from not commissioning me for fetish artwork (honestly that would be nice though) I just want to simply address my current view towards this. Because in the end I guess it's all about getting as much money as possible right?
Disclaimer: this is no intent on bashing on those who do request fat fur art from me, and i apologize in advance if that's what it seemed like to you. This is just a rant in hopes of people gaining more perspective on my current state of mind.
Disclaimer: this is no intent on bashing on those who do request fat fur art from me, and i apologize in advance if that's what it seemed like to you. This is just a rant in hopes of people gaining more perspective on my current state of mind.
Anxiety.
Posted 8 years agoA feeling that seems never ending and always bites us back in the ass whenever we assume it is done and taken care of. By now i've sort of ran out of words to justify my levels of anxiety even further. If you follow me on Twitter, or even Facebook, then you may be already aware that I tend to make short rants that relate to my occasional anxiety panic attacks. After a while I realized that this whole time I haven't mentioned the main elephant in the room which has motivated my anxiety in the first place. And that would be the fear of leading a conventional adult life.
To start things off, i'm the typical millennial. Someone who's between the age of 18-35 and is always looked down upon for having a naive perception on life. Not to mention I'm still living under the roof of my parents at the age of 23. It may come off as no surprise that whatever will come after this phase in life scares the shit out of me so that I would rather be off dead. I hear my friends talk about how hard they are dealing with financial issues, marital issues, taxes, bills, loans, insurances, political beliefs, contributions to the government, etc. but in reality those are just words to me. I try to sympathize with them of course but knowing that all of this falls under the category of living a conventional adult life means that I'm not prepared. Things I would never bring up in a conversation casually because I know so little about them. I have never had the audacity to talk this out to someone because their judgements would already tear me down. I'm tired of just nodding along to their words just so I don't appear to be naive and unaware of knowledge that I should've known in the first place.
Obviously I would never even considered mentioning this fact, because It isn't really a big deal to the majority. Many of you may out there have it worse no doubt, but even the idea that everything I see or experience now will eventually go away for better or worse takes a toll on my serenity. I've talked to people about this problem and their responses always fall under the phrase, "that's life, deal with it" or "grow up" which then allowed me to bottle up my "problems" and allow myself to go through some cognitive restructuring, which means taking a threatening situation and turn it into a non threatening situation.
People say that you should never be ashamed of talking about your problems, but it's also another thing to talk about a problem that isn't even a big deal to every one else. Why bring it up if there are other worse things I will eventually encounter? Why bother looking on the brighter side if it's only temporary? Just why?
If something like this takes a lot out of me, how do I expect myself to even bother continuing on...?
To start things off, i'm the typical millennial. Someone who's between the age of 18-35 and is always looked down upon for having a naive perception on life. Not to mention I'm still living under the roof of my parents at the age of 23. It may come off as no surprise that whatever will come after this phase in life scares the shit out of me so that I would rather be off dead. I hear my friends talk about how hard they are dealing with financial issues, marital issues, taxes, bills, loans, insurances, political beliefs, contributions to the government, etc. but in reality those are just words to me. I try to sympathize with them of course but knowing that all of this falls under the category of living a conventional adult life means that I'm not prepared. Things I would never bring up in a conversation casually because I know so little about them. I have never had the audacity to talk this out to someone because their judgements would already tear me down. I'm tired of just nodding along to their words just so I don't appear to be naive and unaware of knowledge that I should've known in the first place.
Obviously I would never even considered mentioning this fact, because It isn't really a big deal to the majority. Many of you may out there have it worse no doubt, but even the idea that everything I see or experience now will eventually go away for better or worse takes a toll on my serenity. I've talked to people about this problem and their responses always fall under the phrase, "that's life, deal with it" or "grow up" which then allowed me to bottle up my "problems" and allow myself to go through some cognitive restructuring, which means taking a threatening situation and turn it into a non threatening situation.
People say that you should never be ashamed of talking about your problems, but it's also another thing to talk about a problem that isn't even a big deal to every one else. Why bring it up if there are other worse things I will eventually encounter? Why bother looking on the brighter side if it's only temporary? Just why?
If something like this takes a lot out of me, how do I expect myself to even bother continuing on...?
PATREON SUGGESTIONS
Posted 9 years agoHey everybody,
So as many of you may or may not have known, I've created a Patreon account a while back. My only dilemma is that I have no idea what sort of perks I could add onto the homepage, how to manage any web settings in general, or even how it works. I vaguely understand it's purpose, however I am too anxious to start developing my Patreon homepage without any extensive knowledge from those who have already have experience.
So if you don't mind me asking you guys, may I ask help from those who use Patreon on a regular basis? I would like to receive suggestions on what kind of perks I can offer and/or what amount I could set as my monthly goal. I would also like to get informed about what Patreon is all about in your own words.
Hope this isn't too much to ask.
Kind Regards,
-Jarggy
So as many of you may or may not have known, I've created a Patreon account a while back. My only dilemma is that I have no idea what sort of perks I could add onto the homepage, how to manage any web settings in general, or even how it works. I vaguely understand it's purpose, however I am too anxious to start developing my Patreon homepage without any extensive knowledge from those who have already have experience.
So if you don't mind me asking you guys, may I ask help from those who use Patreon on a regular basis? I would like to receive suggestions on what kind of perks I can offer and/or what amount I could set as my monthly goal. I would also like to get informed about what Patreon is all about in your own words.
Hope this isn't too much to ask.
Kind Regards,
-Jarggy
RECENTLY I'VE ONLY BEEN MAKING SUPER SHORT JOURNALS
Posted 9 years ago...so here's another one.
How are you guys doing lately? :)
How are you guys doing lately? :)
THANKS FOR THE BIRTHDAY WISHES!!!
Posted 9 years agoThanks to those who made my day more special.
Means a lot ❤️
Means a lot ❤️
DISCORD!~
Posted 9 years agoSo, I've finally downloaded the Discord App for my desktop!
If you are interested in exchanging contact information, leave a note!
Thank you!
If you are interested in exchanging contact information, leave a note!
Thank you!
IF YOU'RE WONDERING ABOUT MY OPINION TOWARDS FA.
Posted 9 years agoI got nothing.
I use this site like it's meant to be used, nothing more.
That's is all.
You can commence your account migration/ artwork/ other.
I use this site like it's meant to be used, nothing more.
That's is all.
You can commence your account migration/ artwork/ other.
ATTENTION ALL CALIFORNIAN FURS
Posted 10 years agoAny of you attending the CTN Animation Expo by any chance?
If you remember this, then you are awesome!
Posted 10 years agoKNOWING THE ARTIST (ME)
Posted 10 years agoBasics
Name: Aaron Nicholas Orencia Bautista
Nickname: I used to have lots back then but I eventually grew out of them. So basically I have none atm xDDD
Location: The Hell side of CA (SoCal)
Age: 21
Height: 5'8
Religion: Possibly Pagan. Using Agnostic as a proper place holder for now.
Zodiac sign: Virgo
Pets: A Female Border Terrier and a red Beta Fish
Favorite thing about yourself: The fact that I refrain from being self centered?
Worst habit: Giving the most inappropriate reactions
Fun fact(s): Not about me but here's a fun fact. Women's genitals are called beavers because they eat "wood"
Identity, Sexuality & Personality
Gender identity: Male
Sexual preference: Unknown, and just like what I answered in religion I'm using Asexual as a placeholder
Romantic preference: Kind of stems from the previous question, meaning I'm not too sure yet.
"Kinsey Scale" score: Honestly don't know what this means.
Relationship status: None
Myers/Briggs type: WHUT?
Hogwarts house: Ravenclaw
Routine
"Early Bird" or "Night Owl": Night owl
First thought in the morning: Do I have work today?
Last thought before falling asleep at night: What did I do today?
School/Work
Do you work or are you a student: Both
Habits (Do you…?)
Drink: On special occasions, but I do consider trying to drink wine more often
Smoke: Marlboros
Do Drugs: Tried some weed once, t'was awful
Exercise: Yea
Have a go-to comfort food: Hot Cheetos, NOT the crappy puffy kinds.
Have a nervous habit: Anxiety
What is your favorite…?
Physical quality (in yourself): EVERYTHING, if I wasn't myself
In Others: The confidence in embracing who they are.
Mental/emotional quality (in yourself): Anxiety, Over thinking about the future
Drink: Green Tea (not the artificial sweet bottled kind) water, pepsi
Animal: Marsupials, canines, avians
Colors: Sapphire Blue, Crimson Red, Amethyst Purple
Artist/Band/Group: Avenged Sevenfold, Coheed and Cambria, Galantis, Knife Party, and a lot more.
Author/Poet: Harper Lee, Neil Postman
Actor/Actress: Don't really have one. I guess anyone who hasn't lost it yet.
Blogger(s): Again, don't really have one.
Name: Aaron Nicholas Orencia Bautista
Nickname: I used to have lots back then but I eventually grew out of them. So basically I have none atm xDDD
Location: The Hell side of CA (SoCal)
Age: 21
Height: 5'8
Religion: Possibly Pagan. Using Agnostic as a proper place holder for now.
Zodiac sign: Virgo
Pets: A Female Border Terrier and a red Beta Fish
Favorite thing about yourself: The fact that I refrain from being self centered?
Worst habit: Giving the most inappropriate reactions
Fun fact(s): Not about me but here's a fun fact. Women's genitals are called beavers because they eat "wood"
Identity, Sexuality & Personality
Gender identity: Male
Sexual preference: Unknown, and just like what I answered in religion I'm using Asexual as a placeholder
Romantic preference: Kind of stems from the previous question, meaning I'm not too sure yet.
"Kinsey Scale" score: Honestly don't know what this means.
Relationship status: None
Myers/Briggs type: WHUT?
Hogwarts house: Ravenclaw
Routine
"Early Bird" or "Night Owl": Night owl
First thought in the morning: Do I have work today?
Last thought before falling asleep at night: What did I do today?
School/Work
Do you work or are you a student: Both
Habits (Do you…?)
Drink: On special occasions, but I do consider trying to drink wine more often
Smoke: Marlboros
Do Drugs: Tried some weed once, t'was awful
Exercise: Yea
Have a go-to comfort food: Hot Cheetos, NOT the crappy puffy kinds.
Have a nervous habit: Anxiety
What is your favorite…?
Physical quality (in yourself): EVERYTHING, if I wasn't myself
In Others: The confidence in embracing who they are.
Mental/emotional quality (in yourself): Anxiety, Over thinking about the future
Drink: Green Tea (not the artificial sweet bottled kind) water, pepsi
Animal: Marsupials, canines, avians
Colors: Sapphire Blue, Crimson Red, Amethyst Purple
Artist/Band/Group: Avenged Sevenfold, Coheed and Cambria, Galantis, Knife Party, and a lot more.
Author/Poet: Harper Lee, Neil Postman
Actor/Actress: Don't really have one. I guess anyone who hasn't lost it yet.
Blogger(s): Again, don't really have one.
Confused again
Posted 10 years agoHey what's up guys.?
So...I've come into conclusion with myself as a result to recent events. And in those recent events I have to accept what's really going on here.
I've officially went back to being "sexually confused" once again.
In reality though, i've always been sexually confused ever since the subject became new to me. For the longest time I considered myself asexual because it's kinda like the most appropriate placeholder for me. No offense to those who really are asexual. It was almost like putting myself in the "waiting room" until something true and something that's right for me comes my way. I have to say that it really hurts knowing that i've already been past two decades without proclaiming what's true about myself to that extent. Compared to everyone else,I've noticed that majority have discovered it when their in high school or even before that.
Like everyone else, I was raised with the expectations of being straight, especially when you grow up with a very religious household. So i never really thought about being open minded about who i'm really capable of being attracted to.
This past, first half of the year, I told everyone in my family that I was asexual. I never really made it clear that I was still sexually confused because it's too humiliating to mention it, which also it contradicts everyone else's expectations. They took it well, but in the back of my mind I had doubts that they had no problem using their unconditional support and fully accept it. I even asked hypothetically to everyone about what'll happen if I ended up being homosexual. Being a lot more open minded than they used to, they said that they'll still love me even if that was the case. However; mother did mention that she hoped that I'll end up being straight... I don't blame her for thinking that because I have two other sisters and i'm the only son. It really would be disappointing if I had to let everyone down for not attaining my masculinity while being the only male in this family right? And if i did end up being gay, i would basically show that i'll give up on naturally produce grandchildren for them while I have a sister who has autism and cannot raise a family on her own and another sister who have my parents already doubting that she'll ever start a family.
I know that I shouldn't be living for anyone else but me, but at this point it's hard to do so otherwise. My family is the only closest people in my life up to now besides you guys. Adding to that I really don't have anyone else I know in real life that I can interact with and talk about what I cannot talk about around the household. I don't know if its too late to start developing a life long best friend who I can talk about everything with.
In conclusion, i'm confused once again.
Just letting that off my chest before I really end up just freaking shooting myself.
So...I've come into conclusion with myself as a result to recent events. And in those recent events I have to accept what's really going on here.
I've officially went back to being "sexually confused" once again.
In reality though, i've always been sexually confused ever since the subject became new to me. For the longest time I considered myself asexual because it's kinda like the most appropriate placeholder for me. No offense to those who really are asexual. It was almost like putting myself in the "waiting room" until something true and something that's right for me comes my way. I have to say that it really hurts knowing that i've already been past two decades without proclaiming what's true about myself to that extent. Compared to everyone else,I've noticed that majority have discovered it when their in high school or even before that.
Like everyone else, I was raised with the expectations of being straight, especially when you grow up with a very religious household. So i never really thought about being open minded about who i'm really capable of being attracted to.
This past, first half of the year, I told everyone in my family that I was asexual. I never really made it clear that I was still sexually confused because it's too humiliating to mention it, which also it contradicts everyone else's expectations. They took it well, but in the back of my mind I had doubts that they had no problem using their unconditional support and fully accept it. I even asked hypothetically to everyone about what'll happen if I ended up being homosexual. Being a lot more open minded than they used to, they said that they'll still love me even if that was the case. However; mother did mention that she hoped that I'll end up being straight... I don't blame her for thinking that because I have two other sisters and i'm the only son. It really would be disappointing if I had to let everyone down for not attaining my masculinity while being the only male in this family right? And if i did end up being gay, i would basically show that i'll give up on naturally produce grandchildren for them while I have a sister who has autism and cannot raise a family on her own and another sister who have my parents already doubting that she'll ever start a family.
I know that I shouldn't be living for anyone else but me, but at this point it's hard to do so otherwise. My family is the only closest people in my life up to now besides you guys. Adding to that I really don't have anyone else I know in real life that I can interact with and talk about what I cannot talk about around the household. I don't know if its too late to start developing a life long best friend who I can talk about everything with.
In conclusion, i'm confused once again.
Just letting that off my chest before I really end up just freaking shooting myself.
TMI TUESDAY AGAIN
Posted 10 years agogot any questions for the roo??
