So I play competitive for Rivals of Aether and a huge tourny GTX in Utah is holding a compendium where players are selected in order to get funded via their shop. I am looking to do whatever I can to get on that compendium so anyone with twitter please feel free to like and rt the tweet posted below.

Thank you so much!

https://twitter.com/Luciuseros7/sta.....13832703942656

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So I have a 4-day pass to AnimeExpo in Los Angeles but no way I am going there, selling it for about $50 right now, any takers?
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FC was a great time, as it always is for me and while I didn't have the usual cast of friends with me because of one thing or another, I really had a great time! Had frosticles for the first time at Psycho Doughnuts and they were soooo amazing, can't wait to have so many more of them next year!

FC:Unleashed was the highlight of my con experience and I want to thank everyone who came and watched me perform! I cannot express how wonderful it was to win both audience choice and 1st place and I am so glad to know that my piece touched the hearts of so many and was loved. I love being in this fandom and even though there are times where I really facepalm and wonder why I am still doing this, I remember just how awesome it is to be here and why I still am in the fandom.

I was nearly brought to tears with the amount of people who stopped me and thanked me for what I said, people who I didn't even know opening up to me about their lives and how the fandom and my piece has affected them and even some people having their interest revitalized in coming back to the con and enjoying what we enjoy best, having fun and being ourselves! Thank you so much for an awesome con and I look forward to performing next year!

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By the wonderfully amazing  SBPeriWolf12, she is a great friend of mine and her work is so awesome, it is a steal to be getting such great work at such an affordable price, so don't hesitate and get something from her 8D.

Journal is here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5748703/

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Turned 20 today, don't feel any different but hey doesn't mean I won't celebrate xD

Alrighty, so tonight i shall be performing for FC Unleashed. The show starts at 10pm eastern time and i should be on around 11pm for anyone who wants to watch. Refer to the link below to watch the stream and spread the word :D

http://new.livestream.com/furcon/FC2014

Yes I will be at FC and yes I will be rooming with a bunch of people (logistics are still being figured out) but I am more concerned with my impending performance at FC: Unleashed. For those who remember I was the dude dressed as Finn doing the Cartoon slam poem, this year I have something pretty similar but awesome for everyone and I hope it will be streamed so all my friends can watch. Expect to see more details as the day draws closer.

Alrighty so it is about that time again when I give a shout out to anyone who is looking for a room for Further Confusion. I have reserved a room in the Hilton which is connected to the convention center and well I am quite short on actually peoples. But that is where you come in. But to make this all easier.

Hotel: Hilton San Jose

Dates: Check in Jan 16
Check out Jan 20

Room Type: Standard 2 Double beds

Cost: With 5 people $140
With 6 people $120

This is my first time ever reserving a hotel but I am in no way not going to this convention because I already have plans to perform for FC:Unleashed and well FC and San Jose is just really awesome, so please if you are interested, note me.

Is it just because we assume that it is the right thing to say? Or is it just that we don't know what to say and we feel offering condolences makes us look good? If I noticed one thing about the way in which we respond to situations where someone is either venting or speaking about something stressful, sad, etc. we resort to default responses like "I'm sorry", "things will get better", "you'll find someone". Part of it I am sure is just a lack of understanding but I feel like we try to minimalize bad situations so that the person who is feeling said way doesn't see as negatively which in my opinion is irritating and just a show of misunderstanding?

Is it that hard to say "I don't really know how you are feeling and I can't really help" or "I can listen to you but I don't know if I can really offer you anything?" Because at least in that case I know you are being honest. Sometimes we aren't looking for a solution, we are just looking for someone to talk to so why do we assume at people want a resolution or that we need to solve something? Again I feel this is human nature, it could just be that you care so much that you don't want to seem like you don't care by not saying anything but how would we know if we aren't getting the information before we respond?

This is not really a vent more than it is an observation, sometimes it's better to be truthful then be "sorry" and offer condolences because we think it makes us sound like we are concerned or care.

Oh hey thank you guys for your comments on my last journal, oh wait no one commented, hence why I don't post journals here because no one gives a shit when you talk about your feelings, they only respond when it's stupid trivial shit or the chance to get dicks and commissions

Thanks guys, you rock

This Friday I went to see the Legend of Zelda Symphony Orchestra at Madison Square Garden and boy was it one of the best experiences I have ever had. I took my dad and my sister  midnightblue and the amount of times we squealed and giggled was insane. The instruments, the cosplayers, the memories all of these things were just flashing before me and before long the music had begun and I could not have felt any better being in there and seeing and hearing it all. Having listened to the beauty that is the Legend of Zelda Symphony Orchestra I have begun playing the Wind Waker HD for Wii-u with hopes to complete the game and enjoy its story and then I shall get Majora's Mask and complete that as well, being there has sparked this motivation in me to play Legend of Zelda and really feel like I am part of that journey.


Aside from that, I have been in the midst of a search for a significant other for quite some time now to no avail of course. And I get the same thing from everyone "you'll find someone", "give it time", all that poopy poop and while I get the truth in those words, I hate to think that I have to wait years when I am at a point where I really want to be with someone. To be honest all I really want is someone to cuddle with, have conversations, who's nerdy and it into more than just playing games or being inside all day. Walking or taking little road trips, or movies are fun too you know. Sex is not that important to me, sure having some moments of sexual contact would be nice but it's really not that hard to get someone to have sex with you compared to how hard it is for someone to be nurturing in such a way that is intimate and meaningful. I am just throwing this out there because it really is something that has been on my mind and bothering me, I have been trying, I have been putting myself out there but no one seems to want to bite the hook and even when I lay back and "let it happen" the catches just don't come along. I am not desperate for a relationship but I am at a point where it would really just help and it would really be nice.


The verdict I have come too on that is just human nature being human nature. Most of the times when I ask someone out the issue is this self-perceived idea of "worth". Hell I have had someone tell me straight up "you can do better" when I asked them out and it's this idea that really depresses me. I get that I am in a lot of programs, I do a lot of things, I have a "great" personality, but it seems the more and more I do these kinds of things and the more I put myself out there, the smaller the pool becomes. So many people having this fear of "inferiority" and well I don't see myself as superior, I try to treat people as equally as possible but I want to say it's the fear of "success" in play but then everyone is different. I don't want people to think so much on the things I do and the talents I have more of I want them to see what I can contribute to them as a partner and what they can give to me and well most of the time they feel like they can give nothing and that is so not true. It is just depressing sometimes that I see this pool of people just shrink and shrink the more I move forward.


That is all for today, it is rare i post journals anyway, hope some people take the time to read it and have a wonderful day

Friend Safari is awesome and I need more peoples so I have more Pokemon to catch so pleeeease add me my code is 2294-4318-3204 and be sure to give me yours

NO THIS IS NOT A JOKE, courtesy of  Vesperia soooooo yeah take your chances and go for it peeps, the journal be right here!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5121430/

I got a room this time for FC just to ensure that I had somewhere to actually stay for the con, I have the room from January 16-20th so that is all the days of the con for super awesome happy fun time.

Now I am hoping to get at least 5 people which would cost about $130 per person or 6 people which would cost about $110, which is pretty reasonable considering how long the con is.

So if anyone is interested feel free to comment, though noting me would be much better so we can keep in contact in a much more organized way. FC is by far my favorite con and I refuse to not attend no matter what happens xD

Considering there are still rooms available last time I checked, I have considered that if I don't find a room I can stay in that I might just get a room myself and hopefully get enough people so that it isn't super expensive, would anyone be interested?

Since my mother passed away... It's so hard to believe because it feels like it has been a century already, looking back at all the things I have done this year without her. It's painful, but I know that if I don't continue to press on and if I let it bring me down then I would only be putting her memory to shame. My mother was the nicest woman and the strongest, and she continued to fight no matter the adversity. I miss her so much, it's hard to bare sometimes, not being able to call her when something amazing happens, and only hoping that if she can see me from wherever she is that she saw.

It sucks but I am back in school now and I am going to continue to be at my best because even with the pain that I know will never go away, I have gained an even deeper strength and I know it is all thanks to my mother.

It is that time of year again guys and we could really use some peeps in our Fantasy Football League. If anyone is interested please note me your email address and you shall be added o3o

And here I am, back at home and again asking myself why? No offense to anyone but this con is very lacking in general and I found that I had way too much down time because of the lack of panels and well things to general, added with needing a car to get food of any kind, makes this con a bit of a turn-off.
At the con I roomed with  luke_delfino  theroop  jet-buizel  canasrenvall  themusicalhusky  meganovav1 and  keiththewolf who are a pretty fun bunch. Lots of laughs and random shenanigans but there were also a lot of things that I really didn't appreciate that went on and so with that I must again ask why?


Why did I register? Why did I go? It came down to just wanting to see friends but the experience really didn't make up for the time and money spent on the con and well next time I will fin other easier means to see my friends then sticking with them at a hotel for 5 days at a con xD.


I will say though that me and  meganovav1 spent about $200 combined on commissions from  sciggles. She is all of the awesomes, not just because her artwork is amazing but as a person, she was a pleasure to talk to, to hang with and to get to know within the time we did and I am more than happy to have gotten my sister  midnightblue her first badge from Sciggles. This was honestly my highlight of the con which in a sense is kind of bad considering why I came in the first place, but hey at least it was something to be happy about.


All in all, with this being my 3rd FAU with all experiences being pretty mediocre, I don't think I will be attending this con anymore and well while I had some fun times here and there, it really doesn't overshadow all the meh and annoying things that occured. Glad to be back home, and well 6days and I will be back to school, WOOT!

She is a great artist in the making and well she tries to hone her craft everyday, so watch her and encourage her, sometimes you need a nice group of people to tell yo something to help you move forward. SO watch her, she is  midnightblue

He is the cooliest, catchiest and the cutest of the musicians and he will sing sexy things about you if you join the raffle and pimp his page, so do it or you will have to answer to my "D"!

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10885168/

So Further Confusion is but a ways away from now, but considering I am set on going and considering I plan on performing again like I did last year, I kind of want to make sure I can get a room ahead of time, soooooo just to put this out now, if anyone has a room for FC and needs someone for their room, well then I will definitely be more than willing to take that spot xD.

Play it because it is really freaking awesome. I could compare it most closely to Muramasa or Dishwasher, it is a very fun game, the moves combos are great and keeps you into the game, the voice acting is actually really good, compelling story and awesome cute little furry navi like sidekick! What isn't there to love?! I have really been looking for a good single player game to play and I can tell you this is a great hack and slash game with level up customization, crafting, fuzzy characters and tons of quests to keep you busy. I could give this lovely game a 9.

I think we tend to stigmatize people who believe are childish when in retrospect these people are not childish but childlike. I feel we make this mistake because we immediately associate an adult who acts like a child as so,etching bad when there is a distinct difference between childlike and childish.

To be childlike has positive connotations such as being innocent or eager, it is exemplifying qualities of a child that aren't necessarily bad. It is is never wrong to have childlike qualities in fact it is a good thing because we all want to preserve a part of how we were as a child moving forward instead of pushing it all behind. I for one believe that an ad,t who is childlike is a step ahead because they are aware of the fact that age doesn't define who you have to be and that there is still a child in all of us.

However that doesn't mean that one should act childish. Childish has negative connotations and refers to things like immaturity and stubbornness. These are the traits you should probably leave behind as you shouldn't be a grown up person throwing tantrums.

The point however is that you should never let go of your youth no matter how old you are because it is still ok to be childlike as long as you don't act childish!

I just want to wish everyone and their mother's a happy Mother's Day, while this day may be a bit saddening to me now, I will not let it lower my spirits, I shall enjoy it and be happy as my mother would like.

Happy Mother's Day Mom, I know you are smiling down on me wherever you may be :)

I am demanding naughties, that is all >:C