Well it has been quite a long time, about 7 months or so. But in that time I have slowly been dealing with lots of things. I was finally accepted by Medicaid, have been dealing with a lot of doctors, surgeons, and lawyers, latest of which is a neurosurgeon's office here nearby. My primary care doctor(finally have one thanks to medical insurance) referred me recently due to Bilateral Lower Back Pain with Sciatica. Have received several diagnoses including; Fibromyalgia, Scoliosis, and Sciatica. But I still have another 12-18 months to even get a hearing scheduled for my disability appeals, Parmele law firm took my case and even if we don't win there won't be a fee. So slowly i hope to pay back those that helped me, even if I can't remember every single person but, I'll go back through my messages and everything else to try and do so. Believe it or don't, I will do everything I can. I also have stories that need written and rewritten, there are a lot. Hopefully I can use the laptop here to do so, if not I'll try to use my Word program on my phone.

I am attempting to raise a total of $674 for a gluten intolerance test, celiac disease test, and a couple others they're wanting to do. I have to go see Dr. Christopher Cochran who is an internal medicine specialist in my area. I currently do not have medical insurance, so the tests are having to be paid for by myself, I did file my Medicaid application again two days ago, hopefully I will get it before too long. Another thing Dr. Michelle Sims thinks I have is Fibromyalgia, so she started me back on Flexeril 10mg three times a day, and Gabapentin 100mg three times a day for a week, then it goes to two pills: three times a day for another week, and it finally goes to three pills three times a day. If anything, please help to spread the word. My mom has a PayPal that she might be willing to let me use for payments for donations/commissions. I doy t that I will raise anything at all, seeing as the last journal I posted got no responses. But I can hope. Thank you for taking the time to read this.

Alright guys/gals, my grandparents are willing to take me to a place that would be a solid living arrangement. My goal is to move to a place with medical CBD that's been legalized. Sadly I don't think I know too many that live in those states. They're willing to help me if they can to get to a place where I can go see doctors/psychiatrists that hopefully are competent. I've gotten medical advice from a few doctors in emergency rooms and my old psych doctor Jesse Rhoads, to go get the "green" card and re-apply for disability. Because the last time I applied for SSD they said I was not "fully" disabled but I was partially so. Since then, they've diagnosed my scoliosis formally, as well as the chronic colitis/peptic ulcer disease. I've been through so many different medicines in the last few years that it's ridiculous, the typical anti-nausea meds don't work anymore. All of the Bipolar medicines that I haven't tried, are $151 per month(seroquil) all the way up to $3000 a month(InVega). So my goal is to try and find somewhere I could stay to see doctors/psych doctors, and maybe they'll have something that will work as opposed to the CBD treatment. But if I can't I've been told that I would qualify for one. Don't get me wrong, that'd be nice as it gives me an appetite, allows me to keep some food down better than anti-nausea medicines. Right now I'm working on some stories that I owe people who had helped me greatly in the last couple years, to those who I owe them, if you see this; I'm sorry that it's taking me so long to do this. I really have been fighting these stupid illnesses for the last few years hard, I have had them most of my life, they just seem to have gotten worse and worse throughout the last couple years. Maybe stress, lack of diet, or whatever else, but it's just developed into such a way that I can't do very much. I really hope that I can at least start to work on what I owe, even if I can't find a way to prolong the life I have left. I really am sorry that it seemed as though I was just trying to get money from everyone to fuck off and spend on things that weren't important, I do promise that I've really been using it to try and help my medical conditions. But again, thank you guys for all the help you gave me...if you hadn't, I literally would not be here to even say this....so thank you...

Hey guys...it's been a while. :( I've been in and out of hospitals, doctors offices and all that other shit lately...I was recently informed that my grandfather had passed away...;( I am taking donations and story commissions to raise the money I need to be able to go down there to my grandmother's house and attend the funeral...please anything you can do helps...note me or something if you can...have a good day everyone and sorry I haven't been around much...hope you're all well...

I made a Tumblr guys and gals. Follow me if you want. Vincent Dovurst :)

A friend of mine is having a fundraiser to help a friend, please go check it out! http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5491822/  gallowstyphoon Please at least go read this. Help out if you can.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5408430/ Check it out here. :)

Thanks as always to those who've done artwork for me. :) I really do appreciate all your help to bring my character to life. :3

Merry Christmas to all my friends and watchers. :) Hope you guys have a lovely holiday everyone. <3

Hey friends and watchers, go check out this damn good artist!  enviious

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After spending about two hours this morning calling over 50 different Oral Surgeons/Dentists in the area I live in, not a single one accepts financing/payment plans and want all the money up front. Estimates I've gotten range anywhere from $400-$600 for extracting a decayed tooth with an infection in it....I don't even make that in a month...The infection had gone away for like three days while I took the antibiotics and is back now, so the level of pain is equivalent to having someone stick an extremely dull knife with about 900 pounds of pressure into my gum. I don't even know what the fuck to do now...If the infection gets into my bloodstream it could be catastrophic on my body if it spreads further than where it already is. Any suggestions? And yes I have called the hospitals in my area and none of them have any oral surgeons....

Heh, thanks again everyone who's watched/commented/viewed my page and the biggest thanks goes to the ones who've done artwork for me. :)

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:b = We should get to know each other.
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Well, I'll be using my Steam more often now. I only have Skyrim at the moment though thanks to a friend who gifted it to me. :) Add me on there if you want? TamraDovurst

WARNING: Weird noise I can't get to stop, so you'll probably have to mute the stream. xD

https://new.livestream.com/accounts.....events/2555831

Yo, another awesome advertising journal for a good friend of mine because he also deserves attention. <3 He does coloring commissions, meaning he takes lined/sketched works and refines them for a small amount of money, he's very talented at what he does, so go check him out. He also takes story commissions like myself if you're interested. :3

 bhawkes

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5256317/ Details in their journal here! <3

I'm going to start attempting to draw, several friends of mine are going to help me on my attempt to learn. :) Hopefully I'll get better someday, I'm going to be starting with basic things from Dynamic Anatomy thanks to some advice from a wonderful artist known as  crunchbuttsteak /  beowulf and shall slowly proceed from there. :) Wish me luck.

" 'Cause the angriest bark is always worse than the bite. Like the ache in my chest in my heart my heart didn't invite. But if the prettiest romance, isn't perfectly right, that makes every love lost just a holiday every night." -Paper Tigers, Owl City

"Depression please cut to the chase, and cut a long story short, oh please be done. How much longer can this drama afford to run? Fate looks sharp severs all my ties, and breaks whatever doesn't bend. But sadly then, all my heavy hopes just pull me back down again!" -Tidal Wave, Owl City

" 'Cause these words are knives and often leave scars, the fear of fallin' apart! Truth be told, I never was yours! The fear, the fear of fallin' apart!" -This is Gospel, Panic! At the Disco

"Do or die! You'll never make me, because the world will never take my heart! Go and try! You'll never break me! We want it all, we wanna play this part! I won't explain, or say I'm sorry! I'm unashamed! I'm gonna show my scar, give a cheer, for all the broken! Listen here, because it's who we are! I'm just a man, I'm not a hero! I'm just a boy, I'm gonna sing this song! I'm just a man I'm not a hero! I DON'T CARE!" - Welcome To The Black Parade, My Chemical Romance

Fear is nothing more than a choice. Stop wondering "What if?" and move past that. Do you think that I would post half the pictures and stories if I was worried about what someone would think negatively? Hell no, I'd keep it in a private collection, and hide it. Fuck what people think negatively, do you think that some of the biggest named artists feared what others might think? Sure, they might have at first, but yet they've gone on to become some very talented people. Hell, how do you think that the first furry artist thought when he/she drew what they did? But they enjoyed it enough to share it with the world and not give a shit when they were told that they're fucked up for liking something like that? How do you think that great composers were ridiculed for inventing something beautiful that people came to love?

For now, this is the end of shit-faced/drunk as fuck rant. It's pretty amazing how literate I am while intoxicated isn't it?

How many of my watchers would like to see me start writing again? It's been quite some time now, but I kinda want to write again. I do need to finish a couple commissions first though. I've just been so busy lately with the move and trying to find a new job. (Both of which were successful by the way <3)

So what do you guys think?