So a month has passed since my last journal and I haven't said a word. Time to change that x3


Firstly, I'm done with exams, but the new term has started again, so my time is gonna cut significantly (once again woooooo). At least this time I got a better schedule than last year and that's something I really appreciate. I'm also trying to see how OBS works so I can try to stream in the future.


Secondly, I posted art for the first time in here! Yay. I've received some nice words about it and people are encouraging me to make more, so I'll see when I can do it. Those Art Challenges in one of the servers I'm in will definitely help :D


Thirdly, after being talking with people for a while and attending streams and stuff, I've decided to make (or rather, use since I already got it) a Telegram account! Because no joke, I didn't think many people used it, but turns out it's super popular in the furry community :O


And lastly, to follow on that previous point, I fully updated my profile, which was due for long! You can see the links to contact me in there over Skype, Discord and Telegram.


I will try to keep this a little more active, but these months I've been doing stuff have been great. I'm so glad I decided to become involved with people. :D

Hopes that this year is indeed way better for everyone!

I don't really have resulutions for the year. I guess just trying to get better at being myself in this community and maybe some day finally open up and start talking with my fur friends with my voice. Even if it seems awkward x3

I figured I should say something instead of keeping quiet for so long in here. Some days ago I began my Christmas break. And while I still gotta finish up some projects and study for January, now it feels far more chill and relaxed. Enough to do that stuff with no problem.

But what I really need to say is that I'm glad that a month ago I decided to finally break from my lurking habits. Now I talk with people I once looked up, share some words with them, favorite their stuff. Overall, I've felt way better since I opened up to people with my same kinks.

And what usually was a kind of boring holiday for me, since my family is... not really interesting to be around (still love them dearly tho); turned into a really fun Christmas, chatting with most of my new friends.

So I have to thank you all for making me spend a great holiday and making the last months of the year completely enjoyable for me!

Don't mind much this journal. Just me stating how lazy I get. Even if some people might not think it is that lazy.

Firstly, art. Been hella lazy with that. A few days started doodling a bit to get used to ClipStudio and since it's been... yep, a few days. And since last time I drew something, that's a month or two. Gotta break that habit and put some time into actually drawing stuf -w-;

Second, videogames. Even though lately I've been able to break a little the curse thanks to Pokemon Moon, I've always been lazy to play my videogames. I blame that on me being so hooked to watching LetsPlays xD

And in a minor degree, I mostly aim for the bare minimum in my degree. So far it's worked to me, but one day things will turn sour and I'll definitely stop being lazy about that.

What's the point of this journal then? Just saying, I gotta try not to be so lazy. And so should you too!

First off, I'll say that now I'm feeling better for what I'm about to explain here. So don't need to worry. I already put myself together and am much better now.

This happened yesterday, after a small discussion with my sister (which you don't really need to know much about, it was a dumb thing). I opened FA to read some journals and watch some art, like I do everyday. And I came to read one of my fav artist's journals. It was a journal talking how good their Patreon had gone for the year, something I obviously was pleased to hear. I really like that artists and learning he's being successful was great! However towards the end of the journal, he also thanked the people that stuck with him for a long time, his best friends perse.

That part is what made my mind break a little.

That artist had kept those friends for a lot of years.
Me on the other hand, I looked back at when I started interacting with people online and realised I hadn't kept any friendship from way back then. I didn't have any friend I considered a "close friend". Someone who would always be there to help me when I'm in need or who I would converse frequently with and just feel happy whenever I saw their words in my screen.
When I started in my first forum, I didn't keep anyone. When I joined another forum and started drawing for the first time, I met people I'd think I would keep in heart, but that wasn't it either.

Then I made a Skype account. I knew more people and for the first time I joined a group chat. I felt incredibly comfortable there and met even more people, some of which I still talk to just fine and I've shared a lot with.
From that I joined more groups and even discovered Discord servers where I got incredibly involved.

So why, even though I know wonderful people, still felt like I was alone? Why did my mind still feel sad? Well, I kept thinking. And thinking when you're sad is not good. Because I thought that over some time, I would lose all those friendships, just like it happened before. When I realised that I slowly was interacting less and less in some of those groups, that's when I couldn't take it more. And for the next hour, I cried, feeling completely alone, thinking I would never have anyone I would call close friends and keep them for as long as that artist had. For once, I felt jealous towards somebody having friends.


Come today, I've talked to some of those friends. I explained them those worries I felt, and in return, they showed kindness to me. I have nothing but thankfulness to know them, to have ever met them. And as the day progressed, that idea that I would lose those friendships became smaller and smaller. While I still wish I could keep any of those friends for a long time, now I'm grateful to know them in the first place!

I made this journal just to put my words into something that those people, old and new friends, can read them, instead of them being bottled up and locked in my head, where they would hurt. I've never done something like this before, so I can thank you all too for helping me come out my shell and express how I feel.

Thank you for reading~

Well, here I am a week later after that last journal. And gotta say, things have gone pretty damn nice!

Commenting on pics I like and favoriting stuff is way easier than I thought. I don't know why I didn't do it before.

Not only that, thanks to that and reading a bunch of journals, I ended winding up in a certain Discord server cool of other cool vore-loving people and even some artists I like! I thought it'd be a bad idea and I'd clam up. But it happened the opposite! I talk with them, we discuss stuff, I get to know them better.

To sum up: I am enjoying my time here now that I broke of this shell!

I might even try to get back to art, thanks to this :3

Hello everyone. I'm Jag

I doubt anybody really knows me, but it's alright, I wouldn't expect anyone to do so. >.>

I joined a long time ago and it was 2 years ago (or maybe longer) that I decided to start posting art and participating in the furry community here. However I never go to even start. I don't even remember what made me not do it, but it certainly stumped me for really long.

The main reason I want to push again to be active here is because in the last months I made friends. Really good friends that also share my interests, err, fetishes and have made me feel really good. So much that I want to try to get to know some people better.

So here I am again. I don't promise to upload art, because I know myself and I might end breaking that promise I've made many many many times.

Hope second time is there charm~