Donation Run
Posted 10 years agoHello. I'm looking to do a donation run to help a friend of mine afford a new laptop. Considering my last donation run of the collect-a-thon had gone well, I am going to be doing another to help pay for a friends new laptop.
In the end, my commission prices are still the same. HOWEVER, since this is a donation drive, I am willing to take in donations as well as commissions. Please understand that my friend is in dire need of such things.
In the end, my commission prices are still the same. HOWEVER, since this is a donation drive, I am willing to take in donations as well as commissions. Please understand that my friend is in dire need of such things.
Financial Update
Posted 10 years agoamazingly...Everything is alright again just after yesterday. I jumped to conclusions about this when I left my father a message about my mom crying and worrying we have to move out. She worried about not being able to find a job to help keep the house going. When I left that message, my father was suddenly back in my bedroom in tears when I've never seen him cry before ...
So in the end, he needed time to think but it was making him hurt as much as my mom was hurting. I'm still keeping up my patreon and plans on consolidating more finance for more projects. Please feel free to continue commissions to help with seeing more great work from myself.
So in the end, he needed time to think but it was making him hurt as much as my mom was hurting. I'm still keeping up my patreon and plans on consolidating more finance for more projects. Please feel free to continue commissions to help with seeing more great work from myself.
Commissions needed
Posted 10 years agoHello. Right now I'm leaving a journal up about my current predicament as it stands. I need to collect some money in order to help keep a house paid for in bills. That house, happens to be mine.
I cannot explain my current predicament, but I'm left with my own devices in a situation where money now became an issue. I have to get more work in and I need all the help I can get with doing commissions and bettering myself at my work. I pulled off getting $800 bucks before for a big comic book commission, I figure I can pull the same miracle again with effort. I look to all the people who viewed me to help with making this possible.
My prices still stand.
I price traditional sketches at $5 bucks for one character.
Adding in inking, coloring, shading, a second character, or a background, increases the price by another $5 per option.
If you ask for this in a digital format, I charge digital drawings at double the price.
...I only pray I can keep myself and my family afloat. Because right now ... I need to work.
I cannot explain my current predicament, but I'm left with my own devices in a situation where money now became an issue. I have to get more work in and I need all the help I can get with doing commissions and bettering myself at my work. I pulled off getting $800 bucks before for a big comic book commission, I figure I can pull the same miracle again with effort. I look to all the people who viewed me to help with making this possible.
My prices still stand.
I price traditional sketches at $5 bucks for one character.
Adding in inking, coloring, shading, a second character, or a background, increases the price by another $5 per option.
If you ask for this in a digital format, I charge digital drawings at double the price.
...I only pray I can keep myself and my family afloat. Because right now ... I need to work.
Birthday Tomorrow
Posted 10 years agoWell tomorrow is going to be july 30th by the time that this journal is written. My family will be taking me out to benihana and most likely a nice movie view afterwards. I intend to imagine seeing Ant man finally, considering I don't want to miss a movie in marvel's lineup.
It's been quite a year since this time. I ended up getting $800 dollars to pay for a 42 page comic book commission I hope to let everyone see. I even got to further myself along in my artwork and art style from what I gather. In the end, I even expanded my connections list with more people than ever. I hope to keep progressing along from here and simply do my best with my artwork. I also hope to keep trying my hardest with comic book writing and making a great living with it.
Many thanks to those who stood beside me, and many thanks to those who look forward to my work. I will still remain open for art trades and commissions, and I hope that each commission brings me further along in perhaps making another comic story for all to enjoy. Who knows, it might just be a very swell encounter.
It's been quite a year since this time. I ended up getting $800 dollars to pay for a 42 page comic book commission I hope to let everyone see. I even got to further myself along in my artwork and art style from what I gather. In the end, I even expanded my connections list with more people than ever. I hope to keep progressing along from here and simply do my best with my artwork. I also hope to keep trying my hardest with comic book writing and making a great living with it.
Many thanks to those who stood beside me, and many thanks to those who look forward to my work. I will still remain open for art trades and commissions, and I hope that each commission brings me further along in perhaps making another comic story for all to enjoy. Who knows, it might just be a very swell encounter.
Skype on the fritz
Posted 10 years agoHi. I just started getting a big problem with skype. First it logs off on its own and shuts down. Then I suddenly notice that all my contacts were removed after about the third time crashing.
Month of July and Celebrations
Posted 10 years agoHello Everyone who has been following me as of today. This is the month of january and the month of celebrations and liberty. I am pleased to announce that the Collect-a-thon has come to an end, and the money required for the special 42 page comic book commission has been paid for in full. I thank all who have commissioned me, and will hope for their future endeavors in more of such should they wish.
I am also happy to report that I will still be taking commissions, but I will also be open again for Art trades all the same. I will intend to alternate between trades and Commissions for hopefully another endeavor should this 42 page comic see much interest. My hope is to be a comic book script writer, and mayhaps put more passion into character development as I go.
My birthday is coming up on July 30th, as per the usual, and I still hope to see much rejoicing over the full fleshing of everything before.
So here's to all who helped in giving me the chance to fully realize the hopes of paying for this comic. Thank you all, and I hope you enjoy the story when it comes out in full.
I am also happy to report that I will still be taking commissions, but I will also be open again for Art trades all the same. I will intend to alternate between trades and Commissions for hopefully another endeavor should this 42 page comic see much interest. My hope is to be a comic book script writer, and mayhaps put more passion into character development as I go.
My birthday is coming up on July 30th, as per the usual, and I still hope to see much rejoicing over the full fleshing of everything before.
So here's to all who helped in giving me the chance to fully realize the hopes of paying for this comic. Thank you all, and I hope you enjoy the story when it comes out in full.
Collect-a-thon Still On
Posted 10 years agoI'm bringing a re-listing of my commission prices to try and figure out how to do commissions proper. I'm also trying to properly explain my commission prices.
All I know is that my gallery is where all my sample work can be seen in terms of 'what you see is what you can choose'. Since I change my style up with variety depending on the subject matter, I am able to try and appeal to different types. I'm sorry I haven't figured how to properly imagine a 'commission price listings' picture like
jaeh or
greyofpta but I try.
My prices are simple:
For commissions, it's split into two categories. Traditional and Digital
Traditional Pictures start at $5 dollars for a 1 character sketch.
Digital Pictures start at $10 dollars for a 1 character sketch.
Additional options raise the price by the same base amount. An example would be a Traditional commission of $5 dollars, and you order for a 2nd character and want it shaded. Two extra options raise the price by $10 bucks. The end price results in $15 bucks. If you order from digital, then the base price is $10 dollars, where the same options will raise the price by $20 dollars. The end price becomes $30 dollars for a digital commission.
The options for either Traditional or Digital are as follows:
+ 1 character (max 2 character limit)
+ Shading
+ Coloring
+ Inking
+ Background.
My examples of my work are what you see in my gallery.
All I know is that my gallery is where all my sample work can be seen in terms of 'what you see is what you can choose'. Since I change my style up with variety depending on the subject matter, I am able to try and appeal to different types. I'm sorry I haven't figured how to properly imagine a 'commission price listings' picture like


My prices are simple:
For commissions, it's split into two categories. Traditional and Digital
Traditional Pictures start at $5 dollars for a 1 character sketch.
Digital Pictures start at $10 dollars for a 1 character sketch.
Additional options raise the price by the same base amount. An example would be a Traditional commission of $5 dollars, and you order for a 2nd character and want it shaded. Two extra options raise the price by $10 bucks. The end price results in $15 bucks. If you order from digital, then the base price is $10 dollars, where the same options will raise the price by $20 dollars. The end price becomes $30 dollars for a digital commission.
The options for either Traditional or Digital are as follows:
+ 1 character (max 2 character limit)
+ Shading
+ Coloring
+ Inking
+ Background.
My examples of my work are what you see in my gallery.
Collect-a-thon Open (Collect-a-thon)
Posted 10 years agoI finally got out of my idleness with commissions and am back to doing them once again.
Commissions Pause (Collect-a-thon)
Posted 10 years agohttp://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6534844/ back to the original journal.
I'm going to be taking a week off from commissions to write up how the story for the chocolate factory is intended. However, here is the big news.
The characters for the comic will be using OC's from people I've gained permission for. The ones featured in
greyofpta 's pictures will not be used except for the fanboys.
The characters will include people from these categories.
In place of Mike TV and Willy wonka...
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14560392/ myself and
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14631611/ Rena vixane respectively.
...YES YES YES giving rena that authority of power is going to really bite my tail in the end but DON'T JUDGE ME
The fanboys will still be featured as the oompas courtesy of
greyofpta
For the first segment of our little story... we have http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8315588/ Atauria stuck in the choco tube courtesy of
shikashi18
For the Golden egg room with Creme filled golden eggs being in the production line... http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14302955/ Chubeko koneko by
two-ton-neko
For the classic blueberry inflation, we have http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3955896/ Cassidy in fox form (not big starting, average starting) by
mcsteel
and the scene of the rising soda bubbles...we'll make into a gas inflation. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10516200/ JASMIN from
bestthe
This cast will be the used characters for the 42 page comic.
The script will be put into production, and I may even make sketch pages but that will be kept private as reference for each frame.
Oh and one last thing... my jam fursona is NOT going to get inflated or stretched... Just so ya know. I have a much worse...worse...WO-okay i have a more kinkier fate in mind...
I'm going to be taking a week off from commissions to write up how the story for the chocolate factory is intended. However, here is the big news.
The characters for the comic will be using OC's from people I've gained permission for. The ones featured in

The characters will include people from these categories.
In place of Mike TV and Willy wonka...
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14560392/ myself and
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14631611/ Rena vixane respectively.
...YES YES YES giving rena that authority of power is going to really bite my tail in the end but DON'T JUDGE ME
The fanboys will still be featured as the oompas courtesy of

For the first segment of our little story... we have http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8315588/ Atauria stuck in the choco tube courtesy of

For the Golden egg room with Creme filled golden eggs being in the production line... http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14302955/ Chubeko koneko by

For the classic blueberry inflation, we have http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3955896/ Cassidy in fox form (not big starting, average starting) by

and the scene of the rising soda bubbles...we'll make into a gas inflation. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10516200/ JASMIN from

This cast will be the used characters for the 42 page comic.
The script will be put into production, and I may even make sketch pages but that will be kept private as reference for each frame.
Oh and one last thing... my jam fursona is NOT going to get inflated or stretched... Just so ya know. I have a much worse...worse...WO-okay i have a more kinkier fate in mind...
Commissions Open (Collect-a-thon)
Posted 10 years agoHi. I'm hoping to open myself up finally to some commission work. My given artwork in question is shown in my gallery, and I am willing to shell out artwork 3 at a time.
This is an attempt at gathering up money for paying the tuition of commissioning
greyofpta for a comic book called 'CANDICE AND THE CHOCOBRA FACTORY'.
This money will not only go to making this comic come to life, but hopefully be what we've all been hoping to put our money into buying.
http://fc03.deviantart.net/fs70/f/2.....ta-d5egqt8.jpg
http://fc06.deviantart.net/fs71/f/2.....ta-d5d3fiy.jpg
http://fc04.deviantart.net/fs70/f/2.....ta-d5d4a6n.jpg
http://fc04.deviantart.net/fs70/i/2.....ta-d5dlqo8.jpg
These are links to the sketches in his DA gallery. As of before, they were just doodles. But now I've made up my mind to earn money for commissioning that these ideas be made into comic form!
The initial price range I'm hoping to collect for is 800$ on the dot. This is to involve the first 6 being 118$ with candy, the five contestants, and the fanboys. another 118$ for the same but one being eliminated... 115$ with a second eliminated... 112$ with a third eliminated, 109$ with a 4th eliminated, and 106$ with the remaining contestant left. then a 118$ input on what happened to the 4 others who got 'eliminated'. This would be a total of 796 dollars, rounded to 800 for my sake of money calculation.
My prices will be simple. I'm hoping to gear this towards pencil and color pencil drawings at most. However, I have tools to do inks, yet I am still at work with being adjusted to line pressure. Here are my prices:
Each commissioner gets to start with the price of 5$ for one character sketch.
Prices will increase as follows:
base: 5$ (Character sketch)
Traditional art add-ons(+5$ each):
Ink
Color
Shade
extra character (1)
background
Digital Art:
Base: 10$ (digital character sketch.)
Digital Art Add-ons: (+10$ each):
Ink
Color
Shade
Extra Character (1)
Background.
Additional note: Do know that the ink and color options are separate because you can then ask for a pic with or WITHOUT outlines... that's right...LINELESS work. Cheaper, and easier on my damn wrist > >...
Remember, this commission is not only to pay for your own pics to be drawn, but to put your money into value of commissioning greyofpta for CANDICE AND THE CHOCOBRA FACTORY.
For payment information, contact me on notes for paypal.
This is an attempt at gathering up money for paying the tuition of commissioning

This money will not only go to making this comic come to life, but hopefully be what we've all been hoping to put our money into buying.
http://fc03.deviantart.net/fs70/f/2.....ta-d5egqt8.jpg
http://fc06.deviantart.net/fs71/f/2.....ta-d5d3fiy.jpg
http://fc04.deviantart.net/fs70/f/2.....ta-d5d4a6n.jpg
http://fc04.deviantart.net/fs70/i/2.....ta-d5dlqo8.jpg
These are links to the sketches in his DA gallery. As of before, they were just doodles. But now I've made up my mind to earn money for commissioning that these ideas be made into comic form!
The initial price range I'm hoping to collect for is 800$ on the dot. This is to involve the first 6 being 118$ with candy, the five contestants, and the fanboys. another 118$ for the same but one being eliminated... 115$ with a second eliminated... 112$ with a third eliminated, 109$ with a 4th eliminated, and 106$ with the remaining contestant left. then a 118$ input on what happened to the 4 others who got 'eliminated'. This would be a total of 796 dollars, rounded to 800 for my sake of money calculation.
My prices will be simple. I'm hoping to gear this towards pencil and color pencil drawings at most. However, I have tools to do inks, yet I am still at work with being adjusted to line pressure. Here are my prices:
Each commissioner gets to start with the price of 5$ for one character sketch.
Prices will increase as follows:
base: 5$ (Character sketch)
Traditional art add-ons(+5$ each):
Ink
Color
Shade
extra character (1)
background
Digital Art:
Base: 10$ (digital character sketch.)
Digital Art Add-ons: (+10$ each):
Ink
Color
Shade
Extra Character (1)
Background.
Additional note: Do know that the ink and color options are separate because you can then ask for a pic with or WITHOUT outlines... that's right...LINELESS work. Cheaper, and easier on my damn wrist > >...
Remember, this commission is not only to pay for your own pics to be drawn, but to put your money into value of commissioning greyofpta for CANDICE AND THE CHOCOBRA FACTORY.
For payment information, contact me on notes for paypal.
Dingo Lass Biography
Posted 10 years agoName; Dingo lass
Species: Dingo/jackal hybrid
Alter Ego: Rena Vixane.
Abilities: Expansion gadgetry, Flexibility, Cunning
Likes: Inflation, big tits, pizza, Spice world, and being a sex machi-RENA!!!!
Dislikes: Popping, Diets, Beauty care products, and silicone... oh ha ha ha...
Details: Dingo Lass is the culmination of a special technology in her mask design. The special fibers woven with actual fanboy/fangirl fur dyed in purple, then given an added layer of cybernetics based on imagery design. When applied, it imbues the wearer with the species of the dingo/jackal, and alters their attire into the shown outfit depicted. However, The mask also has a side effect of imbuing the wearer with the habitual personality traits of the fanboy and fangirl mindsets. Prolonged wearing can, only occasionally, cause the wearer to become stuck as a fanboy or fangirl variant of their original species, with elements of their personality traits as would be considered for such a defect. Effects wear off after a duration equal to the same duration the mask was worn past the 'danger point'.
However, the mask itself allows Dingo lass to literally see the 'capacity for inflation' in the physical, AND mental sense. Her change in eyes signify her vision change that allows her to see which persons have actual capacity for being swollen, fattened, inflated, or outright size changed. That, and her own rena vixane nature lets her try to see into the persons mental mindset, learning more about if they are even mentally capable of taking in such an act.
Origin: Rena vixane was taking her time at a local gym one morning. One of the fanboys offered her a beverage of Hyper diet fizz, only for her to leave in a hurry before the gym had an explosion due to Bindi's antics. One of the fanboys had been injured, namely the one who gave her the drink. Nursing the fanboy back to health, she ended up imbibing the beverage for her own personal pleasure, swelling up to heavy proportions. Of course, this wooed the fanboy she saved, getting snapshots of every angle of her swollen state before she deflated.
After the other fanboys had come to collect him, they offered her a chance to audition for ACME Cylinders, though the audition was more so an excuse to have their way with her. Regardless of the playful, if not prankish, nature of the fanboys, they really did grow rather attached to Rena after she gave them affection where no other person would. She was hired as their caretaker to make sure they stood out of mischief, even though they hoped she'd be great as an inflated model otherwise.
After getting along with the fanboys so much, she actually wanted to learn more about their ways, as well as learn how to gain their relative traits akin to
tofer18,
captainfurry,
jaeh Hosemaster,
cevarity candy kaine, and other hefty named heroes of various expansions. With this, the fanboys had taken some of rena's spare goods provided by
two-ton-neko's two ton corporation, and ended up makeshifting a special mask that can give her the ability to 'see the world through their mind'. Upon wearing it, she became instilled with not only their prankish enginuity, but also their physical form from a glitch in the mask.
Originally, the mask was meant to work as a means of providing the wearer with tidbits of knowledge on the world around them in a fanboys or fangirls mindset. However, their haphazard method of crafting had wielded an unknown side effect which came off as a similar take to being more imbued with their fanboy and fandgirl nature. The only reason rena herself had been able to retain control of herself was due to already having personality aspects that matched their mindset enough to retain her sense of self.
Now we all know this goes into the 'The mask' reference of 'with these powers i can become A SUPER HERO! Able to fight against injustice, FRIEND TO ALL MANKIND! ... BUT FIIIIRST'... and yes it does go there...
Thus we have the Dingo Lass of here. Her adventures from this starting line have just begun, but only time will tell of what heroics, or pranksterish antics, she may get into.
Hero Personality: Every hero persona has their way of dividing from their alter ego. Rena's is no different. Her new form puts her into the mindset of said fanboys and fandgirls alike. Being female, her more fangirlish tendencies are what arise above the male variety dingoes. Often she thinks highly of herself, but can know when to be frank and honest about some of her faults. Her tendencies towards the swollen bustline often make her come off as either lesbian or bisexual. Bisexual being she often gets in such a mentality of attraction with male swelling as well.
Her mix of dingo personality ends up putting her in a pranksters mindset. Often when she is not heroing, she has her mask off. However, if her mask were on during idle moments, her fan dingo tendencies end up causing her to search out male or female victims to swell with her antics. Her targets, however, are often those of the inflation acceptance variety, as she makes assurance that she makes inflation come off with at least a good taste in the mouth. What spoils her antics for her are those who are more ungrateful of such actions, or would often be put at a point where they are in a lack of appreciation for it.
This is where she deviates from the dingoes and orients more around herself. She never victimises a person that doesn't have the capacity to grow to like it. Her actions try to praise inflation over bastardizing it for just random self indulgence. Often this morale act gets deviated once or twice, but the overall aspect of 'sharing the love' stays the same. Which is why she combats against villains who take advantage of others using said methods on victims. In her way of speaking...
"I fight for inflation because it's punks like you that give it a bad name."
So her reason for being a heroine is really to be the heroin that preserves the better parts of inflation rather than the worst. That is why she does what she does... and in a matter of speaking, she often uses great cunning psychology to even make most victims feel more inclined towards it. Again, this only applies to people whom she can literally 'see' having the capacity for acceptance of it.
Species: Dingo/jackal hybrid
Alter Ego: Rena Vixane.
Abilities: Expansion gadgetry, Flexibility, Cunning
Likes: Inflation, big tits, pizza, Spice world, and being a sex machi-RENA!!!!
Dislikes: Popping, Diets, Beauty care products, and silicone... oh ha ha ha...
Details: Dingo Lass is the culmination of a special technology in her mask design. The special fibers woven with actual fanboy/fangirl fur dyed in purple, then given an added layer of cybernetics based on imagery design. When applied, it imbues the wearer with the species of the dingo/jackal, and alters their attire into the shown outfit depicted. However, The mask also has a side effect of imbuing the wearer with the habitual personality traits of the fanboy and fangirl mindsets. Prolonged wearing can, only occasionally, cause the wearer to become stuck as a fanboy or fangirl variant of their original species, with elements of their personality traits as would be considered for such a defect. Effects wear off after a duration equal to the same duration the mask was worn past the 'danger point'.
However, the mask itself allows Dingo lass to literally see the 'capacity for inflation' in the physical, AND mental sense. Her change in eyes signify her vision change that allows her to see which persons have actual capacity for being swollen, fattened, inflated, or outright size changed. That, and her own rena vixane nature lets her try to see into the persons mental mindset, learning more about if they are even mentally capable of taking in such an act.
Origin: Rena vixane was taking her time at a local gym one morning. One of the fanboys offered her a beverage of Hyper diet fizz, only for her to leave in a hurry before the gym had an explosion due to Bindi's antics. One of the fanboys had been injured, namely the one who gave her the drink. Nursing the fanboy back to health, she ended up imbibing the beverage for her own personal pleasure, swelling up to heavy proportions. Of course, this wooed the fanboy she saved, getting snapshots of every angle of her swollen state before she deflated.
After the other fanboys had come to collect him, they offered her a chance to audition for ACME Cylinders, though the audition was more so an excuse to have their way with her. Regardless of the playful, if not prankish, nature of the fanboys, they really did grow rather attached to Rena after she gave them affection where no other person would. She was hired as their caretaker to make sure they stood out of mischief, even though they hoped she'd be great as an inflated model otherwise.
After getting along with the fanboys so much, she actually wanted to learn more about their ways, as well as learn how to gain their relative traits akin to





Originally, the mask was meant to work as a means of providing the wearer with tidbits of knowledge on the world around them in a fanboys or fangirls mindset. However, their haphazard method of crafting had wielded an unknown side effect which came off as a similar take to being more imbued with their fanboy and fandgirl nature. The only reason rena herself had been able to retain control of herself was due to already having personality aspects that matched their mindset enough to retain her sense of self.
Now we all know this goes into the 'The mask' reference of 'with these powers i can become A SUPER HERO! Able to fight against injustice, FRIEND TO ALL MANKIND! ... BUT FIIIIRST'... and yes it does go there...
Thus we have the Dingo Lass of here. Her adventures from this starting line have just begun, but only time will tell of what heroics, or pranksterish antics, she may get into.
Hero Personality: Every hero persona has their way of dividing from their alter ego. Rena's is no different. Her new form puts her into the mindset of said fanboys and fandgirls alike. Being female, her more fangirlish tendencies are what arise above the male variety dingoes. Often she thinks highly of herself, but can know when to be frank and honest about some of her faults. Her tendencies towards the swollen bustline often make her come off as either lesbian or bisexual. Bisexual being she often gets in such a mentality of attraction with male swelling as well.
Her mix of dingo personality ends up putting her in a pranksters mindset. Often when she is not heroing, she has her mask off. However, if her mask were on during idle moments, her fan dingo tendencies end up causing her to search out male or female victims to swell with her antics. Her targets, however, are often those of the inflation acceptance variety, as she makes assurance that she makes inflation come off with at least a good taste in the mouth. What spoils her antics for her are those who are more ungrateful of such actions, or would often be put at a point where they are in a lack of appreciation for it.
This is where she deviates from the dingoes and orients more around herself. She never victimises a person that doesn't have the capacity to grow to like it. Her actions try to praise inflation over bastardizing it for just random self indulgence. Often this morale act gets deviated once or twice, but the overall aspect of 'sharing the love' stays the same. Which is why she combats against villains who take advantage of others using said methods on victims. In her way of speaking...
"I fight for inflation because it's punks like you that give it a bad name."
So her reason for being a heroine is really to be the heroin that preserves the better parts of inflation rather than the worst. That is why she does what she does... and in a matter of speaking, she often uses great cunning psychology to even make most victims feel more inclined towards it. Again, this only applies to people whom she can literally 'see' having the capacity for acceptance of it.
Patreon of Vivienne medrano
Posted 11 years agoJust checked her tumblr recently. She's getting herself set up with a patreon account that'll be a hosting for all her work.
http://www.patreon.com/vivienneM
Please lend your support if you wish to help her progress in her work.
http://www.patreon.com/vivienneM
Please lend your support if you wish to help her progress in her work.
another month, another bday
Posted 11 years agoI feel stupid not putting up a journal for this before. My bday is in 3 days and I'm bothered I didn't put one up sooner. Considering how much I've improved and the watchers number I got, should've tried.
Pay for talk?
Posted 11 years agoI'm wondering about my time spent online so far. Everytime I see people on streams, I keep thinking that everyone crams themselves into one room just to get an artists attention. The only ones I see get words in edge wise are those whos commissions are being drawn on the stream. What makes my anxiety act up is thinking that they have time to do commissions and work together, but their time isn't available for anything else in between. I don't know if I'm the only one thinking this but I just feel like I have to be on the commissions list to get talked to by such artists.
Of course the way I'm talking, it's no secret. Another part of me feels bad like i'm being creepy or being too needy for attention. Referring back to 'what others never see', it's all more about some issues i have with my self esteem and lack of company or companionship to really feel like I have people who like having me around. I've been burned quite a few times and I've had times where I lost people along the way due to social awkwardity or personal choices I made that were either bad or questionable. What makes me worse is having no response back about my actions or impatience. So it just builds up to worse and worse symptoms.
I only wonder if anyone else has ever had that same situation with built up anxiety over misunderstandings or miscommunication. If so, let me know.
Of course the way I'm talking, it's no secret. Another part of me feels bad like i'm being creepy or being too needy for attention. Referring back to 'what others never see', it's all more about some issues i have with my self esteem and lack of company or companionship to really feel like I have people who like having me around. I've been burned quite a few times and I've had times where I lost people along the way due to social awkwardity or personal choices I made that were either bad or questionable. What makes me worse is having no response back about my actions or impatience. So it just builds up to worse and worse symptoms.
I only wonder if anyone else has ever had that same situation with built up anxiety over misunderstandings or miscommunication. If so, let me know.
a weird riddle
Posted 11 years agoI came up with something that sounds like a riddle, but can end as a riddle or a joke.
Show me a fish who can climb a rope and I will show you a man who can rival jesus.
Send me a note of your answer in private and I will reply to you an answer depending on what you tell me exactly.
Show me a fish who can climb a rope and I will show you a man who can rival jesus.
Send me a note of your answer in private and I will reply to you an answer depending on what you tell me exactly.
Random Curiosity
Posted 11 years agohttp://gallopingguitarist.tumblr.com/
I decided to begin putting my comic strip up on a tumblr account I had use of to recycle. Sure I could've put money into a website like
agouti-rex or
jollyjack but I didn't have the time or money for it.
Characters in use were given permission by
greyofpta so you could say this would be like a sabrina online thing...
Also, I have put this link on my websites link portion of my FA account.
I decided to begin putting my comic strip up on a tumblr account I had use of to recycle. Sure I could've put money into a website like


Characters in use were given permission by

Also, I have put this link on my websites link portion of my FA account.
Fanboys and Fangirls in general
Posted 11 years agoPeople have always been asking what fanboys and fangirls are since the making of them in Greyofpta's own image. From current speculation, fans of such caliber have been made into the image of jackals and dingo's that have the intense need to inflate others of the respective opposite gender. They come from a long and wide variation of different personalities and abilities that most people barely expect. Lastly, a fanboy and fangirl of any type can be anyone you know without realizing it. This is the analysis that has been gathered up from observation and investigation.
Firstly, lets discuss the species in general. Given the nature that the fanboys and fangirls are given the appearance of jackals and Dingoes, it does make light on the situation that these types of people have come from a long standing relation with such a heritage. Given their mannerisms and constant acts of prank and merriment, they seem quite intimately fond of the swelling and expanding of various types that range from the male orientation for fangirls, to the female population with fanboys. This may stem from the fullness of belonging and apparent peak of arousal that comes from the ever expanding firmness of the bodily anatomy in various shapes and sizes from perspective. In the end, it all wraps up to the fact that their purpose in this life is expansion of others through their own means.
The variety of each type of fangirl and fanboy is quite perplexing, if not surprising, of where they can all come from. Some variety of fanboys have the tendency of hoping to feel like they belong in society, while falling prey to their own desires and repetitive nature of slipping expansionist methods onto others. Female varieties seem to be more up front and quite vocal about their desire for it, giving way to the thoughts that they themselves know that the people out there love it and try to make them know it. Lastly we have nationality types, such as the mexican variety, who seem quite mellowed out to the ideas of inflation of others and 'slightly' respectful of it. If anything, the last thing about fanboys and fangirls may be shocking to all.
The final thing about this is that anyone...and I mean anyone...can be a fanboy or a fangirl. Whether your inner most desire is swelling up yourself or another partner of your own desire, it is that sensation of fullness and shapeliness that compels anyone into the act of it. There are some who even have no idea that they enjoy such a thing, or perhaps try to neglect it, where as it grows inside of them until it comes bursting out of the seams. Just because many of such fursons have no relation to the dingoes and jackals in blood, they do have a kinship in desire similar to
blackfox85 and his recent endeavor of showing his fanboyness as shown here. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11072938/
So to anyone reading this, here is a summary of what was touched upon so far. The fanboys and fangirls heritage of species and desire, their span of variety and personality of species and nationality, and the possibility that anyone can be one in heart or mind just like them. If anything, one would say that
greyofpta created a manifestation of some furries inflationistic desire and the expanding Id that is in all of us. So in any case, one must ask themselves this one question. Are you a fan, and how far will you go to show it?
Firstly, lets discuss the species in general. Given the nature that the fanboys and fangirls are given the appearance of jackals and Dingoes, it does make light on the situation that these types of people have come from a long standing relation with such a heritage. Given their mannerisms and constant acts of prank and merriment, they seem quite intimately fond of the swelling and expanding of various types that range from the male orientation for fangirls, to the female population with fanboys. This may stem from the fullness of belonging and apparent peak of arousal that comes from the ever expanding firmness of the bodily anatomy in various shapes and sizes from perspective. In the end, it all wraps up to the fact that their purpose in this life is expansion of others through their own means.
The variety of each type of fangirl and fanboy is quite perplexing, if not surprising, of where they can all come from. Some variety of fanboys have the tendency of hoping to feel like they belong in society, while falling prey to their own desires and repetitive nature of slipping expansionist methods onto others. Female varieties seem to be more up front and quite vocal about their desire for it, giving way to the thoughts that they themselves know that the people out there love it and try to make them know it. Lastly we have nationality types, such as the mexican variety, who seem quite mellowed out to the ideas of inflation of others and 'slightly' respectful of it. If anything, the last thing about fanboys and fangirls may be shocking to all.
The final thing about this is that anyone...and I mean anyone...can be a fanboy or a fangirl. Whether your inner most desire is swelling up yourself or another partner of your own desire, it is that sensation of fullness and shapeliness that compels anyone into the act of it. There are some who even have no idea that they enjoy such a thing, or perhaps try to neglect it, where as it grows inside of them until it comes bursting out of the seams. Just because many of such fursons have no relation to the dingoes and jackals in blood, they do have a kinship in desire similar to

So to anyone reading this, here is a summary of what was touched upon so far. The fanboys and fangirls heritage of species and desire, their span of variety and personality of species and nationality, and the possibility that anyone can be one in heart or mind just like them. If anything, one would say that

Assisting a commission artist
Posted 12 years ago
Hi. I'm looking for people interested in helping this artist pick up commissions to help move him along. I hope many can be able to find his artwork drawn well enough to warrant the attention.
Draw It Yourself
Posted 12 years agoI was curious to think over this while seeing how others put their work up to have others in FA pay for their job as artist. I also had the thought my father told me outright when I tried to donate for a drawing. 'Why donate money to an artist when you can draw what you had in mind yourself?'. I felt my art work wasn't as up to par with being able to make such an attempt. I like the artists work and I want to donate even though I could have drawn it. I just felt like I wasn't worthy of doing it. But then it hit me. if I could draw it then why would I need to pay for it?
I do want to see it but I can't have the chance to on account of complications that I didn't foresee. That and I felt like I don't want to be active enough to draw it. But why would anyone pay for drawings they can do themselves if they're good enough to? I hope I can hear other peoples thoughts on it so I won't feel guilty thinking it was lazy of me to pay for it. I just like others art so much I wanted to donate because I liked them. Getting a drawing out of it in return was just a perk.
But I would like to know how others view about paying for drawings they can do themselves. Would you do it or would you like to pay the artist out of charitable reasons?
I do want to see it but I can't have the chance to on account of complications that I didn't foresee. That and I felt like I don't want to be active enough to draw it. But why would anyone pay for drawings they can do themselves if they're good enough to? I hope I can hear other peoples thoughts on it so I won't feel guilty thinking it was lazy of me to pay for it. I just like others art so much I wanted to donate because I liked them. Getting a drawing out of it in return was just a perk.
But I would like to know how others view about paying for drawings they can do themselves. Would you do it or would you like to pay the artist out of charitable reasons?
Kitty Bobo
Posted 12 years agohttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tvQPn48Ss2U
If anyone remembered this, it was an episode which appeared on air when cartoon network was making a cartoon network big pick-a-thon for what may be the next TV series. It was able to run second in the nomination and yet it never had a chance of becoming a full fledged television series.
I wanna put up a petition that I'd like everyone to make a journal for. So if anyone is willing to, please put your name on this petition and pass it on through your journal. Don't forget to have the episode linked here linked on your journal as well.
kitty bobo TV show Petition:
:
julio:
If anyone remembered this, it was an episode which appeared on air when cartoon network was making a cartoon network big pick-a-thon for what may be the next TV series. It was able to run second in the nomination and yet it never had a chance of becoming a full fledged television series.
I wanna put up a petition that I'd like everyone to make a journal for. So if anyone is willing to, please put your name on this petition and pass it on through your journal. Don't forget to have the episode linked here linked on your journal as well.
kitty bobo TV show Petition:
:

MIGHTY AKITA EPISODE 1
Posted 12 years agohttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s8A9DgNyl68
THIS IS YOUR LOVELY ANNOUNCER J.A.M SPEAKING AND HERE HAVING FOR YOU A LOVELY NEW EPISODE OF 'MIGHTY AKITA!!!!' Those interested please clickith the link that it leadeth to immediately....eth.
Episode 1.
THIS IS YOUR LOVELY ANNOUNCER J.A.M SPEAKING AND HERE HAVING FOR YOU A LOVELY NEW EPISODE OF 'MIGHTY AKITA!!!!' Those interested please clickith the link that it leadeth to immediately....eth.
Episode 1.
What we want, a moment of perspective.
Posted 13 years agoWhat is the basic understanding of a want anyhow? I ask myself this in terms of wondering what makes me who I am in question. I want companionship because I'm lonely? I want role plays because I'm bored? Maybe I just want attention because I like it. Do I eat because I want to eat or because I need to eat? Do I want to breath air or do I need to breath air? Everyone always has a want and a need, but it makes me wonder what it is that makes up what a want or a need is.
By a dictionary term, a want is a desire or a need for something. But what is it that makes us desire something in life to begin with? Do we just 'desire' to eat out of hunger? Do we just 'desire' to breath out of lack of oxygen? Or do we just desire things that are shown to us in a way that makes us desire them out of interest or boredom? Sometimes a person would want, or desire, something for the sole fact they would not really have anything else to desire in life except such. I say a want would be 'something of interest that catches your attention' is more an appropriate way of looking at it.
Now a Need is a bit more odder. A need is written to be as 'a requirement, necessary duty, or obligation'. But what makes a desire a requirement? What makes an interest a 'necessary duty' to take? Why are we 'obligated' to obtain these things? I would imagine that if we needed something it would be something we cannot live without. We breath air because our body requires oxygen to function with. We eat food because our nutritional intake has to be at a level fit for allowing us to live longer. We drink water because our physical make up actually depends on it. Do we need television if we can entertain ourselves? Do we need homes besides living in shelters we can make ourselves to sustain us? Do we need to invest in things if we can make money ourselves through other means? One only needs what the body cannot live without to live is what I think. So I deduce that a need is more along the lines of 'what the persons physical make-up cannot live without'.
I might be going off on a nonsensical tangent but i wanted to just lay it out on the table and have it looked at for proper examination. But let me ask you, my fellow furries, this question. Can we not make these wants and needs fulfilled by ourselves? Do we need corporations to help us live? Do we need shops and malls to find sustenance we can grow? Do we need studios to entertain us for our mental health? If any of these are answered with no, then it means you have the ability to fulfill those wants and needs yourself. If any of those answers are yes, then perhaps you just want to rely on them for your own benefit. It's not a matter of black and white here though. It's a matter of what parts of society have become a need for us rather than a want. Do we simply want corporations or do we really need corporations? Do we want civilization or do we need it? I can't really answer this myself because I chose to want to live with my family from an interest in them and enjoyment. But what about everyone else?
What do you want and what do you need?
By a dictionary term, a want is a desire or a need for something. But what is it that makes us desire something in life to begin with? Do we just 'desire' to eat out of hunger? Do we just 'desire' to breath out of lack of oxygen? Or do we just desire things that are shown to us in a way that makes us desire them out of interest or boredom? Sometimes a person would want, or desire, something for the sole fact they would not really have anything else to desire in life except such. I say a want would be 'something of interest that catches your attention' is more an appropriate way of looking at it.
Now a Need is a bit more odder. A need is written to be as 'a requirement, necessary duty, or obligation'. But what makes a desire a requirement? What makes an interest a 'necessary duty' to take? Why are we 'obligated' to obtain these things? I would imagine that if we needed something it would be something we cannot live without. We breath air because our body requires oxygen to function with. We eat food because our nutritional intake has to be at a level fit for allowing us to live longer. We drink water because our physical make up actually depends on it. Do we need television if we can entertain ourselves? Do we need homes besides living in shelters we can make ourselves to sustain us? Do we need to invest in things if we can make money ourselves through other means? One only needs what the body cannot live without to live is what I think. So I deduce that a need is more along the lines of 'what the persons physical make-up cannot live without'.
I might be going off on a nonsensical tangent but i wanted to just lay it out on the table and have it looked at for proper examination. But let me ask you, my fellow furries, this question. Can we not make these wants and needs fulfilled by ourselves? Do we need corporations to help us live? Do we need shops and malls to find sustenance we can grow? Do we need studios to entertain us for our mental health? If any of these are answered with no, then it means you have the ability to fulfill those wants and needs yourself. If any of those answers are yes, then perhaps you just want to rely on them for your own benefit. It's not a matter of black and white here though. It's a matter of what parts of society have become a need for us rather than a want. Do we simply want corporations or do we really need corporations? Do we want civilization or do we need it? I can't really answer this myself because I chose to want to live with my family from an interest in them and enjoyment. But what about everyone else?
What do you want and what do you need?
MLP FIM Quiz test
Posted 13 years agoBirthday coming
Posted 13 years agoIt's almost my Bday and my family was opting to take me to the movies for it. I wasn't sure what else I wanted but I'm hoping it's a great Bday.
Roleplay attachments
Posted 13 years agoHave you ever been in a role play where you felt like it was real? Or odder yet, have you ever had a role play where you felt the characters you use have feelings behind them...real essence to their existance...or even opinions that they want heard? What about who you're role playing with. Do you ever question how they feel, how their day is, or what's going on in their day? It's an odd thing about the internet these days with situations like this. To me...It's like looking at a window into a universe i'll never understand.
The worlds everyone makes often reflect what go on in our minds in my opinion. The landscape, its atmosphere, the colors it represents, the dimensions and thematic. Simple scenarios such as a culdesack, to obscure and abstract ones like a hero filled city. Perhaps you like being in a world where you're the center of attention and everything revolves around you. Perhaps you like to make a world that accomodates others and lacks any sense of the word 'reality' behind it. But the more you make it, the more it becomes real to you in your mind. This can be easily summed up as making a simulated replication of your basic and most deepest thoughts manifested in text, drawing, or video imaging. In short, it's a world that's from your very mind itself... Whether it's ever changing due to inaccurate emotions on the landscape or life choices, or it's lazily done by hands made fit for only simple tasks rather than complex ones. Using another worlds land based design is often a representation of planting ones own attachments to anothers world made up, as that world is often based upon ideals that you yourself become familiar and attached to.
Then we have our characters...fursonas...personas...blank inserts... A character is a physical manifestation of ones likes, dislikes, tastes, interests, disinterests, or a piece that represents a part of our mind that has an interest in it. Giving a blank template character an interest similar to your own would be like giving it a heart of its own to beat to and be familiar with. From stereotypical actions and mannerisms, to unique and more 3 dimensional responses and simple understandings that make it mortal. A character could even have super powers that do or don't represent their base character, but doing so would often mean managing a lot of responsibility rather than planting them in an environment where situations wouldn't become worse for it. Maybe you just want the power to control everything...cause you yourself want control over every detail of another persons aspects for your own tastes... Maybe you want to just make yourself inflatable to expand your dimensions and inflate your horisons beyond other mortal people as well. How we imagine ourselves to be and how we want our lives to be are obviously interlinked with each other in a sense that they grow just like we grow with each interaction. In short, all our characters have a stemmed understanding of life from how we have OUR understanding of it. Thus, it imprints a first impression on others with how they see us through them, through how we REALLY are deep inside...
Things I would propose in honesty are some things others already do, don't do, or NEED to do in order to prevent missunderstandings amungst everyone.
1.) Know the person first. If they are able to grant and give a good understandable first impression, then you can make sure they hold true to it one day at a time. Their habbits, their manners, their likes, their dislikes. Get a feel of whoever you meet and make sure they have a reasonable, and honest, personality.
2.) Delve more into their interests and disinterests. Communicate with one another on whaty ou both enjoy and don't enjoy, and then stem branches from what you do enjoy to further detail how you would enjoy them. It doesn't hurt to have one favorite or many, but it does help that you also keep away from things they would otherwise dislike.
3.) Discuss times when either partner has available time or days when they can be able to spare a moment. Never try to discuss matters of such with them if they are in days of emotional termoil or loaded schedules. It will probably be a hinderance to them and yourself and it would also cause the mood to become rather forced between both people.
4.) Set the ground rules of the role play in any form possible. Make sure you use what you learned of their likes and dislikes, as well as their personality, to appropriately get a better understanding of how to accurately settle on what to role play about in question. It can be anything from dungeons and dragons to free form furry fucking for all anyone cares, just as long as it has a basis of understanding and communication. Never stop discussing this step as well, for changes in ones tastes and disinterests change as much as the years that pass by.
5.) Have fun. This step is always the last thing you should do before anything else. If you just jump to step 5 without following the other steps, then you yourself will be in a world of trouble. Also, never forget to make sure you communicate with your partner even durring your roleplaying hours if you have to, so that appropriate changes and decisions can be made without disrupting or hurting the other persons feelings.
Me...I made these very mistakes when i was with people a long time ago. I pushed myself before them, i played around with their roleplays like baby toys...i even hurt their feelings without any remorse on my own part. I never respected their privacy, their personal time, their need for understanding me, and i never ... ever apologized...or showed that i meant it. I was a bad friend to them, and I ended up pushing them away from me so they wouldn't have to deal with me anymore. Now there isn't a minute of my time that i regret ever doing that, nor has there been a time that I have ever...ever felt proud of it. I just felt alone.
So please...take these words to heart...and don't do the same things I did...
The worlds everyone makes often reflect what go on in our minds in my opinion. The landscape, its atmosphere, the colors it represents, the dimensions and thematic. Simple scenarios such as a culdesack, to obscure and abstract ones like a hero filled city. Perhaps you like being in a world where you're the center of attention and everything revolves around you. Perhaps you like to make a world that accomodates others and lacks any sense of the word 'reality' behind it. But the more you make it, the more it becomes real to you in your mind. This can be easily summed up as making a simulated replication of your basic and most deepest thoughts manifested in text, drawing, or video imaging. In short, it's a world that's from your very mind itself... Whether it's ever changing due to inaccurate emotions on the landscape or life choices, or it's lazily done by hands made fit for only simple tasks rather than complex ones. Using another worlds land based design is often a representation of planting ones own attachments to anothers world made up, as that world is often based upon ideals that you yourself become familiar and attached to.
Then we have our characters...fursonas...personas...blank inserts... A character is a physical manifestation of ones likes, dislikes, tastes, interests, disinterests, or a piece that represents a part of our mind that has an interest in it. Giving a blank template character an interest similar to your own would be like giving it a heart of its own to beat to and be familiar with. From stereotypical actions and mannerisms, to unique and more 3 dimensional responses and simple understandings that make it mortal. A character could even have super powers that do or don't represent their base character, but doing so would often mean managing a lot of responsibility rather than planting them in an environment where situations wouldn't become worse for it. Maybe you just want the power to control everything...cause you yourself want control over every detail of another persons aspects for your own tastes... Maybe you want to just make yourself inflatable to expand your dimensions and inflate your horisons beyond other mortal people as well. How we imagine ourselves to be and how we want our lives to be are obviously interlinked with each other in a sense that they grow just like we grow with each interaction. In short, all our characters have a stemmed understanding of life from how we have OUR understanding of it. Thus, it imprints a first impression on others with how they see us through them, through how we REALLY are deep inside...
Things I would propose in honesty are some things others already do, don't do, or NEED to do in order to prevent missunderstandings amungst everyone.
1.) Know the person first. If they are able to grant and give a good understandable first impression, then you can make sure they hold true to it one day at a time. Their habbits, their manners, their likes, their dislikes. Get a feel of whoever you meet and make sure they have a reasonable, and honest, personality.
2.) Delve more into their interests and disinterests. Communicate with one another on whaty ou both enjoy and don't enjoy, and then stem branches from what you do enjoy to further detail how you would enjoy them. It doesn't hurt to have one favorite or many, but it does help that you also keep away from things they would otherwise dislike.
3.) Discuss times when either partner has available time or days when they can be able to spare a moment. Never try to discuss matters of such with them if they are in days of emotional termoil or loaded schedules. It will probably be a hinderance to them and yourself and it would also cause the mood to become rather forced between both people.
4.) Set the ground rules of the role play in any form possible. Make sure you use what you learned of their likes and dislikes, as well as their personality, to appropriately get a better understanding of how to accurately settle on what to role play about in question. It can be anything from dungeons and dragons to free form furry fucking for all anyone cares, just as long as it has a basis of understanding and communication. Never stop discussing this step as well, for changes in ones tastes and disinterests change as much as the years that pass by.
5.) Have fun. This step is always the last thing you should do before anything else. If you just jump to step 5 without following the other steps, then you yourself will be in a world of trouble. Also, never forget to make sure you communicate with your partner even durring your roleplaying hours if you have to, so that appropriate changes and decisions can be made without disrupting or hurting the other persons feelings.
Me...I made these very mistakes when i was with people a long time ago. I pushed myself before them, i played around with their roleplays like baby toys...i even hurt their feelings without any remorse on my own part. I never respected their privacy, their personal time, their need for understanding me, and i never ... ever apologized...or showed that i meant it. I was a bad friend to them, and I ended up pushing them away from me so they wouldn't have to deal with me anymore. Now there isn't a minute of my time that i regret ever doing that, nor has there been a time that I have ever...ever felt proud of it. I just felt alone.
So please...take these words to heart...and don't do the same things I did...