Got someone working on a new ref for my wolf.

His purple mohawk is being brought all the way down his back to the tail.
A lime or neon green is also being added. I gave the artist my ideas about this but ultimately I gave them artistic freedom with adding green.

Excited to so how it comes out!

So.... I may be going to Rainfurrest in Seatle this year and Fur Reality in Cinncinati

hmm...... That would be 6 cons in my first year of cons..... 7 if you count C2E2

overboard....

I THINK NOT!!!!!!!!!!! =P

I really want a Kaiden wolf plushie to snuggle with at night......

Since I have no one else............... :/

I hate my mind right now...............................

So yeah... been getting counseling here at the University...
Found out the root of my depression is severe anxiety, mostly social in nature.


I need more than just another friend.... I need someone to get close to and love..... long term.....
I have never had that... I don't even know what that kind of relationship feels like... *wants to cry but can't*
I ran out of tears a long time ago..............



*Kaiden howls sadly*
arooooooooooooo.......

Shhh it's ok boy... you'll find someone..... hopefully

Just registered for AC!!! YAY!!!!!!

Down to 2 months away!!

So I now have 2 sonas:

Kaiden, my primary fursona
and
Kody, the aussie shep I got on Auction from  madefuryou


Both are playful, cool, energetic, etc.
Though Kaiden has a darker side/personality if you get to know him/get close to him.
He's protective of those he's close to and can also get jealous of others relationships.
Kaiden is quite the lone wolf at the moment looking for that someone.

He is an extension of myself ;-P

Kody is a happy and playful Australian Shepard and will serve has my suit until I can get Kaiden made.
I am adding a few things to his ref sheet so we'll see how that comes out....

Got an aussie shep on auction from  syber yesterday!! Thanks again!!
Just waitin on Fedex!

AHH I can't wait! I'm already starting to build a character around it.

Plan to wear it at AC, IFC, and MFF

I feel like I can finally stop looking for the place I fit in... a community of people I can interact and be myself around with out fear of judgement or embarrassment....


I got to suit for the first time at MCFC 2014... I wore a friends suit and tried to act like my friends fursona but naturally...... I acted like the character I created..... my wolf... Kaiden

IT WAS SO MUCH FUN!!! And being that character was so..... natural... I didn't need to think about it at all...
to be honest the whole time I was suiting... I didn't think.

I can't really explain it... The experience from the view of someone who has had trouble fitting in with people all their life.... this was life changing

This experience has helped me be my true self which I only recently discovered.... Being in suit has helped me discover my true self out of suit...

For those of you who have a true emotional bond with your fursona.... I know you understand exactly what I am talking about!


Furry For Life

Writing this in my android phone lol...

On the way back from Chicago to Muncie, Indiana after attending the Chicago Comic and Entertainment Expo. Had a lot of fun even though I'm not a big comic fan. I am a big Mass Effect fan and got some Mass Effect comics and an art book of the entire series!! Best part.... Dark Horse comics gave me half off everything!!

Also got a really cool backpack from Equilibrium USG local to Chicago. Seriously..... Google these guys they are awesome!!

Looking forward to C2E2 2015!!

Just got back from Motor City Fur Con 2014 in Novi, Michigan!! This was my first fur con since joining the fandom in January 2014.

It was unlike any other experience and I had a blast. I met a lot of cool and cute furries and look forward to seeing them again at future cons!