With just hours away from 2025 I have to say I'm more than happy to leave 2024 in the dust.

It's been a mixed bag. Starting in January I found myself nightly caring for my Nephew's aging greyhound getting about 4 hours sleep at night and having to go to work the next morning. I'm not going into detail how Coal's health declined so quickly as it's been documented in previous journals.

Then came a slew of firsts. The first bladder infection, You reach my age and see blood in your urine you think it's either an infection, kidney stones, or prostate cancer. I got lucky and it was only an infection. Also had a ultrasound performed checking for Kidney Stones. Didn't find any so that's a plus.

Then Coal passed away and I took it really hard. He was the closest I ever came to having a dog of my own. He's in my thoughts daily.

Then came more procedures. Had a cystoscopy performed. Some of you are wondering, what the hell is that? Well I'm going to tell you. It's a procedure where they insert a camera the size of the tip of a pen into the urethra and passed into the bladder. They look for cysts and cancer. Fortunately they didn't find any. Also fortunate they numbed the area. All you out there fantasising about putting little furs down into your willy for pleasure YOU HAVE NO IDEA!

Also had my first prostate exam. If you ever wondered what it was like to be a Muppet, There you go. Why he had to stick his finger up there all the way to the knuckle I'll never know, but muh num a num.

It ain't over yet. Still need a CT Scan in the Spring.

Well here's hoping 2025 will be better.

47. Meaning 30 years ago today I was celebrating my 17th Birthday. Doesn't seem that long ago.

Other than that, what else is going on?

Still getting over Coal's death. I've grieved for that dog longer than I have people I've known. Guess I got more attached to him than I thought. It does get better but it'll never go away. Had a few dreams about him that have helped.

The first one I was on a beach I've never seen before other than in a TV show. White sand, warm weather. There he was. On a bed, not a white hair to be seen, he's got all his teeth and he's enjoying the warmth of the sun. I found out later Coal was originally from California and loved the beach. Now I'm not saying I got a glimpse of heaven or the afterlife but if there is a heaven then I would like to think for a dog that would be a place he was the happiest in life.

The second dream I was taking him for a walk. No leash or harness. He's trotting along side me and again there's not a speck of white on his face. He's in the prime of his life. We cross the road to a ditch and he does his business. As he does, I notice something. I exclaim "You got your balls back!" After his racing days were over they had him fixed.

I hope you guys are having a good day.

Hope you all have or will have a Happy and safe Halloween.

“A life is like a garden. Perfect moments can be had, but not preserved, except in memory. LLAP”
― Leonard Nimoy

The Vet said is quality of life was really bad and the decision I've been dreading for months was made. Rest in Peace Champ, I'll see you on the other side.

Well, I wish I could say I was traveling through Time and Space but that's obviously not been the case at all as much as I wish it were true.

It's been an exhausting four months. Since January I've been helping to look after my nephew's aging greyhound. A former champion racer that has enjoyed retirement from racing for some time. The last two or three years have been increasingly difficult for the old champ. I noticed a weakness in his lower limbs. A difficulty going up and down stairs at first. Then he began to have trouble standing just to eat. These last four months he's really gone down hill. it's gotten to the point where his back legs don't seem to have any feeling in them and he drags his back paws to the point he's worn his claws down to the nubs. He's crapped in his sleep and in the mornings he'll sometime just start peeing trying to stand up. He doesn't like the diaper and I can't say I blame the old boy but there's no choice in the matter. He's also begun to have trouble breathing when he goes for walks.

So with all these issues I've been spending the last four months sleeping next to him and getting maybe four hours of sleep a night and still have get up and go to work in the morning. Cause if he makes a mess in his sleep I clean it up. You only have that kind of dedication with an animal unless you really care for it and I love that old fart like he was my own.

Getting a vet appointment has been hard but a date has been set for the 18th of this Month. I did a google search of the symptoms and have come up with degenerative myelopathy which is basically a neurological degenerative disease of the spinal cord. I suspect that's what the vet will say, and if that's the case, the greyhound is going to cross that rainbow bridge I hear pet owners talk about.

Well, anyway that's what I've been up to. I'll try not to wait another four months to make another Journal.

Lets see what 2024 has in store. Hope you have had a good time over the holidays.

"I ain't as good as I once was, but I'm as good once As I ever was"

Yeah, It's my Birthday. According to legend Dad drove into town with Mom in a storm, bald tires, icy roads and slammed into two cars trying to avoid a drunk that walked out of a local bar and into his path.

Maybe that's why I'm so accident prone.

I bought a used OSVR headset and the screen orientation is at a 90 degrees when I hook it up to the laptop. I'm not exactly sure what's going on here. Any help or suggestions would be appreciated.

The rumors of my assimilation has been greatly exaggerated.

But what has been going on in my life? Why am I not on here more? It has a lot to do with just not having as much time to be here. A lot has been happening. Helped my brother move into the house our grandparents lived in and my dad was born and raised in. Briefly had a pet for the first time in my life, an orange tabby kitten that bonded to me. He has been MIA for months now and was probably eaten by predators.

Then there's the weird shit that's happened since I purchased a Vintage Astronaut Snoopy Toy,. I swear it's either the Snoopy or one of my Grandmother's dolls that is causing weird stuff to happen. Not scary, just weird. Like my bed curtain pulled aside during the night when I always have it closed and there's no one else who could've done it.

Experimenting with Character AI too. You can get a lot of good stuff if you are in the role play mood but nothing directly adult. It can be suggestive but that's about it. If you want Spicy though there's SpicyChat AI.

Hoping to get some art soon for the Christmas Holidays. I've got a new Bear model for DAZ studio's Genesis 9 That I want to try out so stay tune to that.

Macro March has come and gone so I thought I'd tell you about this new game I've come across over at steam. Ever wanted to play as a Macro destroying a city? Well this is the game for you. You have 4 characters to chose from and the goal is to destroy as much of the city as possible. I've only played it for a few minutes, but I have to admit the crush mechanics and overall destruction is really good. Better than what I expected for a game like this. No people in case anyone is wondering. If you want to check out the game, the link to it is here:

https://store.steampowered.com/app/.....wperty_Damage/

So to commemorate the beginning if this glorious month, I thought I'd share this clip from the Muppet Show that may or may not have been the catalyst of my Macrophilia when I watched it many many years ago.

It's very easy to put yourself in a dark place without meaning to. Like you have a thought that pops into your head and it just snowballs from there. Just a while ago I was thinking of a story idea about a man who loses not only his wife, but his unborn child. He becomes angry in his grief. Not just because his wife died, but he never gets to hold his son, or watch his son grow up to be a man. His son never gets to experience life....

Before I knew it I was on the verge of tears.

I suddenly realized what was happening and I had to snap myself out of it. That's never happened to me before. I've had emotional response from other people's stories but I've never had that kind of a response from something I've thought up on my own. I don't even know what brought it about.

Has this ever happened to any of you?

I got an email from from  yellow07 with a link that I refuse to click on in case it's something harmful. there's no subject matter or even a description of what the link is. Does anyone know if he's still around?

It's been one shock after another for me today. First I find out lanny poffo died (Younger brother of "Macho Man" Randy Savage, The Genius), Then I find out George P. Wilbur the stuntman who played Michael Myers in Halloween 4 and 6 died and to finish the day I find out a Youtuber that I've subscribed to for years has been arrested and charged with the murder of a woman and her unborn child.

2023 didn't waste any time.

It just occurred to me that I've been on FA for 13 years and didn't realize it. I've seen a lot of changes over the years. People have come and gone, some have passed away. Those have been the saddest moments. Been quite for a long time, but with this 11 year old gaming laptop I might be able to upload more. With any luck I'll be around another 13 years, unless I've been replaced by an AI duplicate.

Lets hope 2023 is a good year for everyone.

So, yeah. This is a clip from the episode of the TV show "The Boys."

Guy shrinks and goes up A guy's dick. I'm instantly reminded of EVERY single picture I've seen of macros shoving micros into their shafts.

If you want to click on the link, go right ahead. Just be warned it's not for the younger people out there.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r45.....ulianFromLegal

December 15th 1977 I arrived on this planet. Never thought I'd see 45, but here it is.

December 15th will mark my 45th year on this rock.

There was a ton of Damage to the surrounding area and a loss of power that lasted six days but I made it through. Did I miss anything?

Yeah, like many here I'm currently in it's path. It's supposed to become a Category 2 by the time it arrives, still a major storm but not as bad as a Category 4 or 5 so I suppose I can't complain. It's still going to cause a lot of issues and power lose for sure.

Everyone stay safe out there, I will be doing the same. Here's hoping the damage will be minimum.

Like many of you hear I scroll through Deviant art to check out new artist and such. I will come across something I don't like, say a hairy guy feet for example, and I'll click "Show less like this." Don't have a problem with Hairy Guy feet it's just not my thing. Come back later on, and what do I see when I scroll though the pics again? More more Hairy Guy feet. So instead of "showing less like this" they show you more.

Thought I'd share this interesting video for all those Macros and Vore fans out there.

Nichelle Nichols Passed away at the age of 89

"Nichols' death was confirmed by her talent manager and business partner of 15 years, Gilbert Bell, to Variety on Sunday. She died in Silver City, New Mexico."
https://people.com/tv/star-trek-act.....-nichols-dead/

This has been bugging me for a while and I think it has to be addressed. I'm talking about the laziness of some of the members of writing.com, specifically when it comes to interactive chapters. You find a good interactive with a lot of good stuff there and at the end of the chapter you have several chapter options. For example, something like "Sarah doesn't see billy and steps on him" so you click on that and this is what the next chapter looks like:

Will Sarah step on Billy?

Yes*
No*

Now what kind of lazy bullshit is that? You wanted to add a chapter but you were too lazy to put in the effort to write an actual chapter? Like ordering a bucket of chicken and getting just a bucket of bones.

One time while scrolling though the interactives I came across a interactive that had an interesting title and description. So I clicked on it and what do think I found? One sentence chapters like the one I just described. Not just one or two, but the entire feck'n interactive. A hundred or more chapters of laziness. That tells me that who ever made that interactive didn't want to put any work into it and wanted somebody else to do the work for them.

Now I know that not everyone can write multi paragraph masterpieces, but that one sentence bullshit doesn't inspire anyone to write. It's one of the reasons why I gave up role play because I'd write something with detail and length and get "Rubs you more." in response.

Am I the only one here? Anyone else annoyed by this?