I now have reached the lowest of the low. I have no friends. No life. And I am sick and tired of this depression. Even I can't deserve more than a years worth of depression. I just wish I could die. I can't take this anymore.
I'm lonely. I cry. I have no control over anything. I really don't think that I exist anymore. I feel so out of this word. It's like I'm trapped in a bubble. I can't talk to people, and I can just think about things, without really being able to impact anything.
I am so tired of everything.
I fantasize about suicide constantly. If only I could but myself to sleep. Forever.

This amazing user  zhivagod has made a FREE reference sheet linework/template so all you got to do is color it in to suit you!
You can edit the reference sheet to make it look more like yours. It has several different animals, and fluffiness settings, and everything you might need!
So you don't know how to draw? It's okay, this sheet has it all! Just some coloring, and voila!

The reference sheet template
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8016880/

A tutorial for how to color it
https://www.fandomfashions.com/shop/?p=376

I am collecting funds for eurofurence, so the commissions are open! I will get to drawing next week, and I will be glad to work on your commissions

Artwork general:
Icon 5€
Badge, or one character commission, 10€
Every extra character is + 5€
Background + 5€
So a picture with your character in it with background, a full picture, so to say, is 15€ + 5€ for additional characters.
all pictures include coloring and complete line work.
I will draw everything except specific fetishes.

Dolls/ et cetera:
First 10 cm is "free" Every extra 10 cm is +10 euros.
Every main color is +5€
stuffing is 5€
Example: 20cm long skunk (like I did for skyetail) Main colors, black and white 10€+ extra 10cm 10€ stuffed +5€ = 25 € + possible shipping.

 tips

1. First thing you wash in the shower?
My hair.

2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
Black

3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
I might. I mean, I have no feelings towards the person, but I might kiss.

4. Do you plan outfits?
Only for important occasions

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
Accomplished

6. What's the closest thing to you that's red?
My cockatiel's cheeks

7. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
It might have something to do with asylum.
I'm okay, I swear. 

8. Did you meet anybody new today?
No new people for today.

9. What are you craving right now?
Maybe a drink

10. Do you floss?
Nah.

11. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
Cabbage rolls or spring rolls

12. Are you emotional?
quite.

13. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
I might of have when I was a kid

14. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
Lick of course.

15. Do you like your hair?
It's currently made just the right way to my tastes.

16. Do you like yourself?
I have learned to make do.

17. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
Nah. Boring and I am introvert enough to refuse.

18. What are you listening to right now?
The rustle of sheets and the ticking of clock.

19. Are your parents strict?
Nope

20. Would you go sky diving?
Sure

21. Do you like cottage cheese?
Dunno?

22. Have you ever met a celebrity?
I once met Ben Syskowitch.

23. Do you rent movies often?
Never

24. Is there anything sparkly in the room you're in?
Nah

25. How many countries have you visited?
6

26. Have you made a prank phone call?
I might of have as a child.

27. Ever been on a train?
Plenty of times

28. Brown or white eggs?
White

29. Do you have a cell-phone?
Who does not?

30. Do you use chap stick?
For special occasions

31. Do you own a gun?
Nope. I would have already shot myself were that the case

32. Can you use chop sticks?
Yes

33. Who are you going to be with tonight?
Alone

34. Are you too forgiving?
Maybe

35. Ever been in love?
Yes

36. What is your best friend(s) doing tomorrow (or the next soonest week day)?
School?

37. Ever have cream puffs?
No?

38. Last time you cried?
It has been a while.

39. What was the last question you asked?
would you pay this amount for this?

40. Favorite time of the year?
Fall

41. Do you have any tattoos?
I have wings on my back and arms

42. Are you sarcastic?
I joke quite often.

43. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
Yes.

44. Ever walked into a wall?
I walk in the dark and collide on walls quite often

45. Favorite color?
Blue. 

46. Have you ever slapped someone?
For fun yes

47. Is your hair curly?
Nope

48. What was the last CD you bought?
I got a vinyl for a friend. I also found one gorillaz single on second hand

49. Do looks matter?
No

50. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
Depends of the circumstances. I might forgive over time

51. Is your phone bill sky high?
No. I barely use it

52. Do you like your life right now?
Not particularly, but i manage

53. Do you sleep with the TV on?
At times

54. Can you handle the truth?
I prefer to know

55. Do you have good vision?
No.

56. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?
I guess I do. I dont talk to them thats all

57. How often do you talk on the phone?
Whenever my mom calls. Once or twice a month

58. The last person you held hands with?
 i honestly cant remember

59. What are you wearing?
Night shirt

60.What is your favorite animal?
Cokckatiel

61. Where was your favorite picture taken at?
I have no favorite picture

62. Can you hula hoop?
I can.

63. Do you have a job?
I have a profession. I am on sick leave

64. What was the most recent thing you bought?
Energy drink, bread snacks chocolate and donuts

65. Have you ever crawled through a window?
yes. I was quite an explorer as a child. Not a single abondoned house was undiscovered.

Fursona has been re worded to character because I copy pasted this from a person who felt the change necessary.

What made you choose the species of your main Character?
I love birds, and I have cockatiels of my own. I planned on having cockatiels as my first pets under my own roof. I ended up having lovebirds instead, but due to the sircumstanses, the love birds were not to last because of complaints over their loud noise. I now have cockatiels for stay.
Is your character just like you, or how you want to be?
Shes just like me except skinnier and more brave and outgoing.
Does your character have the same personality you have?
Like looking in the mirror.
Does your character have the same dislikes and likes as you do?
She is basically me so yes she does.
Does your character look like you at all?
We have same eyes and gender and hair I guess. She is the better me.
Is your character the same gender as you, if not why?
She is.
Do you have more then one main character?
No. I would never make more. I am comfortable with just one.
Do you have a back story for your character, if so does it have anything to do with your own history?
Only the fact that her wings are cut because of my depression.
Is your character mated, if so is it to your real life significant other? Yes. She lays eggs monthly, but they are not fertile if she has not mated. And I wait for a special someone for that.
If not are they looking for a mate, or are they a swinger so to speak?
Looking for mate.
Is there something special about your character that you think sets them apart from others?
Not really no.
Do you have much art of your main character?
Not too much. I plan to make more. I have yet to commission anyone.
Would you ever consider parting with your main character, if so, why?
Never.
If you suit, do you have a suit of your main character?
I have partial on the way. It will be ready this spring.
Have you ever roleplayed with your main character, or do you prefer not to?
I have not. But it might be fun.
Do you consider your main character to be a part of you in any way?
Totally.

I promised myself to draw at least one major picture on FA each month. I rarely do works with full background and character interacting with it, so I decided that I could use some training with that.
Also I want to complete the year review meme xD

I still do take commission and requests. Very eagerly to boot. If I have to draw mothly, I might as well draw for you! I don't have ideas for drawing that often, so I'm glad if you guys pitch in :)

I promised myself to draw at least one major picture on FA each month. I rarely do works with full background and character interacting with it, so I decided that I could use some training with that.
Also I want to complete the year review meme xD

I still do take commission and requests. Very eagerly to boot. If I have to draw mothly, I might as well draw for you! I don't have ideas for drawing that often, so I'm glad if you guys pitch in :)

Just ask me.
Seriously, I'm bored as balls while home alone after my therapy.
I'm currently on sick leave, and I have so much free time I have no idea what to do with it all.
So please do ask for free art, be it icons, ref sheets, full images anything.
I would appreciate getting something else to think about than me and my ever existing mental illnesses.

These arts, once done, are for your purposes fully. Once they are done, they are *YOURS* And you may do whatever you want with them. Post them on your gallery, post them ANYWHERE you want, do whatever you want with them, as long as you give me credit. So be happy with your free art, and don't feel ashamed to show them around proudly!

1. Why did you join FurAffinity?
I joined people. It seems that people recognice others by their FA page.

2. What does your username have to do with you?
It's me. I made it so people could recognize me in different sites.

3. What is your current avatar of?
my sona.

4. How many watchers do you have, and how many do you watch?
I have 53 watchers and I watch 157 peeps.

5. Do you have more than one account?
nope

6. Name 3 of your favorite artists on FA.
Demicouer, falvie and Moonrise studios - tofu93.

7. What artist do you admire because of their personality?
I would rather not know their prsonality, but I guess I admire felix the fox.

8. Do you comment, fave, or both?
I usually fave. I comment if I feel that the art/artist deserves it.

9. What do you typically post on FA?
Art of my sona.

10.What's your favorite submission in your gallery?
Best friends and enjoying the breeze are pieces that I always keep liking.

11. What are the things you wish you could draw better?
colors.

12. How many hours a day do you spend on FA?
I check Fa about thrice a day, just to see the new journals and submissions. I wouldn't say that I spent a lot of time here.

13. Are you a fast, slow, or medium typer?
medium or fast I guess? I don't use the 10 finger thingy tho'.

14. What is the most annoying thing people ask you?
Pictures of penetration from the inside view. I don't do them. But really, people do not ask me annoying questions really.

15. What is the most annoying/offending comment you've received?
The one person who thought I stole from her just by using the same pose.

16. What/who inspires you?
music, events and other people's art.

17. Everyone has considered leaving FA once or twice. Have you? Why?
guestion 15. She really couldn't be reasoned with.

1: Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a sigarette?
Sure, but for my depression.
Are you single/taken/heartbroken/confused?
Single
3: What if I told you that you were pretty?
I would thank you.
4: Ever been told “it’s not you, it’s me”?
Yeah. Doesn't help for shit.
5: Are you interested in anyone right now?
Nope.
6: What are you looking forward to in the next week?
Therapy?
7: Do you want to be single?
I dunno. Single is good, but I want to cuddle...
8: Did you go out or stay in last night?
I visited a friend.
9: How late did you stay up last night?
2am?
10: Can you recall the last time you realized you liked someone a lot?
When I was together with my ex.
11: Last three things you had to drink?
Cola, juice, cola.
12: Have you ever pretended to like someone?
Not really. I give people a chance to court, and they get what they get.
13: Have you ever told somebody you loved them and not actually meant it?
I use that word so rarely, I mean it if you manage to get me to say it.
14: Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past 3 months?
yeah. I do sleep overs.
15: Is it hard for you to get over someone?
Depends. If the break up is mutual then I'm okay like instantly. If i feel wronged, it will hunt me for a long time.
16: Think back five months ago, were you single?
It was my last two weeks together with my ex...
17: What were you doing at 12:30 this afternoon?
Sleeping.
18: Hold hands with anyone this week?
nope
19: Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol?
Yeah, but why bother.
20: What would you name your future daughter? Satu, taru, saaga or suvi. But taru is my dog's name.
21: Do you miss anyone?
Dunno. I'm feeling numb. Company would be nice.
22: Have you kissed three or more people in one night?
I guess not.
23: Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed?
no
24: Are you good at hiding your feelings?
Very.
 25: Have you ever cried from being so mad?
I dunno. Maybe?
26: Who did you last see in person?
A male friend of mine.
27: Are you listening to music right now?
no
28: What is something you currently want right now?
Sleep?
29: What is the last thing you said out loud?
*in finnish* taru, come here, jump. Good girl.
30: How is your heart lately?
Ilittle bit higher blood pressure than should, but otherwice fine.
31: Do you wear the hood on your hoodie?
No
32: Are you wearing socks?
No
33: What do people call you?
Kati kazhiru or kaz.
34: Will you talk to the person you like tonight?
Nope.
 35: Are there any stressful situations in your life?
So fucking many.
36: Who did you last share a bed with?
A person whon is on the court zone.
37: Did you do something bad today?
Nope
38: When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you?
Don't remember.
39: Do you get stressed out easily?
Yes, apparently.
40: Will you sing today?
No.
41: Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but didn’t?
All the time.
42: Who do you go to when you need to talk to someone?
Isispy.
43: Have you ever been taken to the emergency room in an ambulance?
Emergency room yes, ambulance no.
44: What are you listening to right now?
Shark tank on tv.
45: What is wrong with you right now?
Depression.
46: What is on your wrists right now?
A hair tie.
47: Where did you get the shirt/sweatshirt you’re wearing?
Mom got it for me.
48: What do you like better: hot chocolate or hot apple cider?
Hot chocolate.
49: Do you make wishes at 11:11?
Nope.
50: Are you a good artist?
no
51: Love really is a beautiful thing huh?
Bull shit.
52: Do you miss the way things were six months ago?
Yea..........
53: Ever been on a golf cart
Nah
54: Do you have trust issues?
Not really.
55: Ever stayed up all night on the phone, with who?
Nope.
56: Do you own something from Hot Topic?
Nope
57: Do you use chap stick?
No? Or do you mean the chinese eating sticks? Then yes.
58: Have you ever slapped someone in the face?
Maybe?
59: Do you have a little sister?
Hate every second of it.
60: Have you ever been to New York?
No
61: Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
I guess.
 62: Have you hugged someone within the last week?
No
63: What were you doing at midnight last night?
Sleeping
64: Have you ever regretted kissing someone?
Inguess so.
65: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?
My friends a dear.
66: Were your last three kisses from the same person?
No?
67: Have you kissed anyone in the last five days?
No.
68: Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone?
I Want to sleep with my dog.
69: Will next Friday be a good one?
A normal day.

1. Are you single or taken?
single

2. Chocolate or flowers?
As much as I adore chocolate, there is nothing better than recieving a bouguet of flovers!

3. Will you do anything special for Valentines Day?
I might ket something small for my friends : 3

4. Do you LIKE like anyone?
I wouldnät say LIKE LIKE but I'm giving them a chance. It's not like me to turn someone down without at least giving them a chance to court me first.

5. Were you dating anyone last Valentines?
I was...

6. Who do you want to spend Valentines with?
Anyone really. I wish someone would do something romantic for me, or at least invite me over as friends.

7. Do you make a big deal about Valentines?
Nah.

8. Have you ever had a secret admirer?
Mmmm. I guess I have fans for my stories, and this guy had a crush on me, but he managed to say it out loud.

9. Would you ever write someone a love letter?
Sure. I just don't see anyone to write one to.

10. Do you believe in Cupid?
Not in particular. No, I dont. I believe that people are completely responsible for their crushes. Seriously, if you fall in love with a taken person: ZIP IT!

11. Do your parents give you presents on Valentines?
no.

12. Do you still send out Valentine cards?
Sometimes to my friends.

13. Do you like candy hearts?
Candy is always liked!

14. What is something you got last Valentines?
heart shaped ice cubs. and marshmallow hearts.

15. Is Valentines depressing?
It's just a normal, commercial day.

16. How is your love life?
Boring. I'm not dating anyone, and I wish I could at least get laid time to time...

17. Have you ever been dumped on Valentines?
Thank god no.

18. How many roses would you want to receive?
Any number is fine! I have never recieved flowers. : 3

19. Will you have a girlfriend/boyfriend this Valentines day?
Dunno. Porbably not.

20. Do you look forward to Valentines day?
no.

21. Who was your last Valentine from?
my ex.

22. Who do you expect to get a Valentine from this year?
a text message.

23. Who would you most like to receive a Valentine from?
From the people I allowed to court me? My friends I guess.

24. How many Valentines will you be sending this year?
five? I dunno. I send a text to my friends.

25. Have you ever not received a Valentine?
Yes.

26. What was the most Valentines you received in a single day?
I dunno. five?

27. Have you ever received an anonymous Valentine?
No.

28. Have you ever sent an anonymous Valentine?
No.

29. Will you be sending an anonymous Valentine this year?
No.

30. What was the best Valentine gift you ever received?
I loved the screen cleaning buddy I got from a friend of mine... tii bad I lost it? Or then it's on my make up pouch... I have a feeling that it broke and I put it so safe keep.

31. What was the worst?
No valentine is a bad valentine.

32. Have you ever started dating someone on Valentines day?
Nope.

33.May I tagg someone?
Anyone is free to steal this.

I have really been depressed lately.
And when I say really depressed, I mean depressed enough to score 47/63 on depression test and enough to be sent on intensive treatment to prevent me from killing myself.
I just cant handle life anymore. I have completely turned incapable of taking care of myself and my earthy needs. I'm unable to go out and socialize, and I'm absolutely unable to feeling any other emotion except sadness, grief and detachment from my friends, life, and everything.
I cannot face everyday tasks anymore. I cannot read facebook or any other media anymore without finding some emotional trigger that sets me deeper in to self hate.
I cannot even describe my feelings anymore.
I feel like I have been completely detached from everything. I feel like my friends are drifting apart, and that they cannot help me anymore. I feel like I don't matter to them. I feel so lonely.
I cannot face my everyday needs. I can barely get myself up in the mornings. I have zero strength to deal with socialization, even if it were those friends that I so grave for.
I cannot go to the story anymore, because I cannot muster the physical strength of going there, and having to say hello to random people who work there/ want to discuss about my adorable puppy.

I have become completely unable to feel love. I have men wanting to be with me, wanting to love me and support me, but I cannot even force myself to reflect even a tiny particle of the love they aim for me.
I cannot get myself interested about relationship, I cannot feel any urge to try and follow my primal urge to love, be loved and mate.
I feel absolutely nothing when I have sex. My sex drive is completely dead.

I feel that I cannot get over my breakup with my ex. I feel that he as simply moved on, become happy and perfect. I feel that he has made his life perfect by replacing me with the person who actually is right for him. And I cannot deal with that. The breakup was so sudden. I thought that we were perfect. I thought that we were going to last. And then suddenly we broke up, I was forced to move, and he has a new girlfriend. I feel like the world is moving on, but I'm tagging along. I'm so jealous it's killing me,

I have simply run out of any primal urge to keep on going, to keep fighting and to fucking SURVIVE.
I'm so done with everything.

I'm constantly doped over Antidepressants and sleeping medication, that I should be doped over them, dulled by them, but they do not work.
I'm so sad, so depressed all the time. There is a small part of me that is still trying to ask for help, any help, but the much bigger part of me just doesn't care anymore.

I have been in the spiral of depression for months now. My life has no content. I wake up somepoint during the day. I may loiter in bed for another hour or two, and I might force myself on the computer to check my mail and tumblr. Then I eat more medicine, and I go back to sleep.
I repeat this cycle day after day.
I feel like everything is pointless, and that I'm just drifting.

And then on time the thought of killing myself found it's way in to my mind.
after moths of not having any purpose at all, having the urge to kill myself seemed to fill my thoughts completely.
I have a purpose: My purpose for the day, make my will. Gather equipment to do the deed. Kill myself.
The pure thought filled me with so much CONTENT I had never felt BETTER.
I have a purpose! I have to kill myself.
I have googled about the methods, and I know exactly how I want to do it.
I just need a place. Where.

I have tried to get my thoughts off of it by doing all the things that I somehow couldn't do before: Get myself a fursuit. Meet people I had not met in months. Commission works.
I tried to get the small buzz of the things that I thought would still mean something for me.
I'm surprised by how little they mean to me in the end. I get a small happiness. I feel like I have finally done something I have been holding back all my life. I use the money on sudden mood purchases to just get the buzz. It doesn't last for long. But it's something.

I just feel like I have no control of my life anymore. I know that people are going to miss me. I know that I have friends. I have those men who love me. I have parents and family who adores me.
I just don't care anymore. I cannot bring myself to care how they feel when I'm gone. I simply do not think their opinion matters. I feel so bad, that I jut want some relieve.
After all I have been through, I think that I deserve it.
They don't get to say over what I want.

I feel like I have fought in a hard battle. I feel like I have been holding my fort for so long, protecting what is important, but I cannot protect myself against the last blow.
I feel like I'm the casualty that the war inside me has caused.
I think, that on the inside I'm already dead.

1. Full Name.
Kazhiru. My front name is Kati, and that's all I'm comfortable with revealing to the internet.

2. Zodiac Sign.
aquarius

3. 3 Fears.
being lonely/friendless. Having to spent my afterlife alone. Squirrels.

4. 3 loved things.
Spiderman. Fanfiction/Gay porn. Internet.

5. Best friend.
I do not have just one best friend. I would share the position with 3.

6. Last song you listened to.
Probably some house electro or gary go. Can't remember.

7. 4 Turn ons.
Beard. Happy trail. Smile. masculinity.

8. 4 Turn offs.
I want my men to look like men. Ungh, feminine guys YUCK! If I wanted to date a pretty buy, I'd date a woman! A invasive behavior. Too much tongue. Too much bragging about your prowess in bed.

9. What colored underwear are you wearing right now?
Black and purple.

10. How many tattoos/piercings do you have?
No tattoos yet, And 4 piercings on each ear.

11. The reason you joined FA?
Followed the mass and to draw I guess.

12. How you feel right now?
Kinda tired. My new medication is making me tired as fuck. At least it helps a little with my depression.

13. Something you really, really want.
To die.

14. Relationship Status?
No interested. My sex appetite has died, and my interest in non-existent.

15. Meaning behind your username?
It doesn't really have a meaning behind it. It's just me.

16. Favorite Movie.
I cannot name one particular movie to be better than the rest.

17. Favorite Song.
Can't point out just one.

18. Favorite Band.
Nope.

19. 3 things that upset you.
People judging me.
People thinking/accusing me falsely about something.
People who wont listen to my side of things.

20. 3 things that make you happy.
Company.
My pets.
The thought of dying.

21. What do you find attractive about people?
Their nature. If I can feel connected to their likes and dislikes, I start forming feelings for them.

22. Someone you miss.
I don't really miss anyone at the moment.

23. Someone you love.
My heart is currently unable to feel such shit.

24. Relationship with parent.
I have good relationship with both of them. They are awesome.

25. Favorite Holiday.
I don't do favorites. Ungh. maybe christmas?

26. Closest FA Friend.
Isispy.

27. Someone on FA you dated.
Vin.

28. A confession.
I have been unable to enjoy anything during the last 3 months. The only time during those three months that I smiled a real smile, not just that fake grin I normally do was a week ago, when I truly felt happiness and relieve when I thought about burning myself alive.

29. 3 Things that annoy me easily.
When people make plans and cancel them suddenly/for no real proper reason.
Having to prepare for something only to be told that whatever it is I was preparing for is not happening.
When people judge me.

30. Favorite animal(s).
Birds.

31. Pets?
2 cockatiels, 2 turtles, and a dog.

32. One thing I've lied about.
I have no idea why the cash register is peeping when I walk by.

33. Something that's currently worrying you.
I stopped worrying. I don't worry about dying. I don't worry about therapy. I don't even worry about school anymore, because I honestly feel that I am A) Not going to make it that long b) Not in the shape to attend anyways so I won't enroll myself in.

34. An embarrassing moment.
When the bartender asked me what kind of drink I like, and I answered: "I don't know. I just go through the list one by one and then decide what I like the most." He must now think that I'm an alcoholic.

35. Where you work.
I'm a student.

36. Something that's constantly on your mind.
I want to sleep. Or maybe Watch Archer. Or sleep while there is archer on the background.

37. 3 habits you have.
I pick my scabs.
I bite my nails and the skin around it.
If I have a life I shower every evening.

38. Future Goals.
Let the therapists take me to intensive treatment. Survive that. And kill myself if I'm not cured. If I'm cured from my depression, then finishing school would be nice.

39. Something you fantasize about.
Burning to death, and having the scars.

40. Favorite stores.
favorite this, favorite that. just stop with all the favorites. I guess game store?

41. Favorite food.
Macaroni and ham slice sauce.

42. What you did yesterday.
I slept, watched archer, and made waffles.

43. Something you're talented at.
I'd like to say that I take good care of my pets, write well, crochet, and so, but I feel like I'm not really good at anything.

44. Your Idea of a perfect date.
Maybe going somewhere to eat, walking a bit, and seeing a movie.

45. Your celebrity crush.
Spiderman.

46. A photo of yourself.
Lol nope.

47. Favorite Artist.
Demicouer

48. Number of kids you want.
2 at least.

49. Do you smoke or drink?
On rare occasion. I only drink in parties that I attend very rarely, and I only smoke when I'm really depressed, and I mean about to kill yourself depressed.

50. THE END.
m'kay.

So these are questions to your sona. My sona is not a person in itself, but more like "Me portrayed in another body/form/entity". So basically these questions are answered by me, in another shape.

1.) What's your name?
Kazhiru

2.) Do you know why you were named that?
Well, I was wanting to create a name for myself. Something unique and something that I could use on places so that people would instantly connect it to me. I japanese spelling my name would be spelled as kachi. Kachi itself is boring, so I added another japanese kanji thingy, making it kachiru. But sadly said, I dislike japanese and their stupid culture, and I wanted to put weight on the fact that I'm european by having a letter from such countries, without adding a letter that would be unpronoucable by masses. So no äöå letters, but something cool, which would be z. And that's how Kazhiru was formed.

3. What is your status?
Status? Erm... single? ... what does this question mean... depressed?

4.) Have any abilities or powers?
Erm no. I'm an normal being without that attention seeking junk.

5.) Stop being a hornswoggle!
What's a hornswoggle?

6.) Uh... if you were to get in a fight with a strong wrestler, do you think you'd win?
I have a kick in me. I'm not sure if I'd win, but at least I'd put a fight until ONE OF US is unable to continue.

7.) Riiiight... Have any family members?
family... I guess I do have the basic set. Mother, father, sister, brother, grand father, two grand mothers, and so on. Although I have alienated myself from them, and I see them twice a year. I have become a loner.

8.) Oh? How about pets?
A zoo basically. Two cockatiels, two turtles and a dog.

9.) Cool, I guess. Tell me something that you don't like?
people.

10.) Something that you do like?
video games, fanfiction... writing drawing. I dunno.

11.) Do you have any activities/hobbies that you like to do?
I write, read and draw. I sometimes game. My days consist of waking up past noon. browsing internet aimlessly, probably 9 gag untill I have wasted enough time so that I may return to sleep and repeat. My days lack in content.

12.) Have you ever gone through pain yourself?
Physical or emotional? I deal with a lot of pain. I have many scars in my body to prove it, and don't even get my started with my mental problems.

13.) Ever had a strange dream before?
I have them all the time. But since Strange is a norm, then what IS strange anymore?

14.) What kind of animal are you?
I'm a bird. A cockatiel with a bit of lovebird in me. Mostly cockatiel tho'.

15.) Your worst habits?
I'm a typical pachelorette. I hate washing dishes, I'm lazy, and I lack the will to do anything.

16.) Do you have a favorite artist you look up to anyone at all?
Several. My absolute favorite is demicoeur.

17.) Gay, straight, or bi?
Straight. I'm open minded though.

18.) Do you currently attend college?
Yes. I'm studying to be an engineer.

19.) Ever wanna get married one day?
Yes. I need someone to take care of me, because I have noticed that I am in no shape to do so myself.

20.) Do you have any fangirls/fanboys?
some I guess.

21.) What are you most afraid of?
Loneliness.

22.)What colour is your hair?
Currently red.

23.) Eyes?
Blue.

24.) What do you usually wear?
Jean/cargo pants and a T-shirt. I like dresses too.

25.)What's your religion?
Evangelic Lutheran christian. In books though. I don't participate in any of the church activity ever. I believe good and bad in basic context, but nothing else.

26.)Do you wish this quiz is over?
No.

27.) Well, it's still not over.
cool I guess.

28.) Anyways, where do you live?
Finland.

29.) What class are you? (Low class, middle class, high class)?
Low class or middle. I'm a student who has no income, who struggles in everyday things and never has a money to spent. I'm studying for engineer degree tho', so I guess that should make it seem like i'm not a waste of space, even thou' I most certainly am.

30.) How many friends do you have?
Good question. Who are my real friends anymore? I am feeling so lonely, I'm starting to feel like I'm in this black veil of nothingness. I have so little human contact, that I'm feeling like a reject, an outcast of society. I'm trying to remind myself that I'm not, and that I do have people who care, but Every time when I don't hear from those people in months, I feel like I'm forgotten and abondoned. Number 3 is a number that haunts me though. I can always list 3 people who care, but no matter what friends I gain and who I lose, it's always 3, no more no less.

31.) If you could change anything about you, what would you change?
I'd be skinnier. Maybe a guy too. I'd also like to get rid of my talkative and zealous attitude. I would like to get rid of my depression, fear of touching and hyper sensitivity disorder.

32.) What are your thoughts on pie?
I don't usually eat any cake like things. I'm quite... I don't really care. I eat it, but I wouldn't say that it's my thing.

33.) Alright. What's your favourite food?
My mother makes spaghetti with ham slice sause. The sauce is very creamy and cheesy and delicious.

34.) Favorite drink?
energy drink or juice.

35.) What is your favorite place?
by my computer or in my bed? I don't really want to leave my house any longer...

36.) Least favorite?
a place with a lot of people where I KNOW I have do something. I know that people expect thing from me: Participating in conversation, doing household duties, the small things. Even if it's just that people expect me to NOT sulk in the corner. All that stresses me out. It took me a great deal of strength to go there in the first place, and it takes me a lot to just be able to STAY there and not completely collapse, and then they expect me to do BASIC INTERACTION?!?!?!? That makes me nervous, tense, depressed and constipated as HELL.

37.) Are you still wanting the quiz to end?
No.

38.) Well, it's over you bonkerballs!
That is sad.

1. Are looks important in a relationship?
No.

2. Are relationships ever worth it?
Yeah. One profits in nearly all of the cases.

3. Are you a virgin?
No.

4. Are you in a relationship?
Not now, no.

5. Are you in love?
Not yet no.

6. Are you single this year?
I was in relationship at the beginning of this year, broke up, and I now have 3 men courting me so I doubt it.

7. Can you commit to one person?
Definitely. Once I set my mind on one person, I stop eve thinking of other people (this does not include spiderman).

8. Describe your crush:
Hmm... I'm not in love, nor am I particularly "crushing" but I have ... intrigue to 3 people. I slightly chubby but lovely imaginative girl, A skinny, nerdy man ten years older than me with beard and a fascination towards army things and general geekyness. And A man around my age who is slightly chubby computer geek who we share a lot in common with.

9. Describe your perfect mate:
Has penis. Or talented tongue/fingers/ or will to use them or learn. Or will at least cuddle me goddamnit. All else is vocational.

10. Do you believe in love at first sight?
No.

11. Do you ever want to get married?
Yes.

12. Do you forgive betrayal?
Not really. Or it depends of the case. Some small ones I will frown upon and then set a time that I need by myself to get over with it.

13. Do you get jealous easily?
Not that easily no.

14. Do you have a crush on anyone?
Wasn't this covered previously? I don't crush at the moment.

15. Do you have any piercings?
4 in each ear.

16. Do you have any tattoos?
Not yet.

17. Do you like kissing in public?
It's cute.

20. Do you shower every day?
Every evening before bed, yes.

21. Do you think someone has feelings for you?
3 people do. One of them I am totally not giving any feelings back. The two others I have given permission to court.

22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
Yeah. One of the candidates is a victim of puppy love.

23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?
I did it for two years last time so Yes. yes I can.

24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
I hope so.

25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year?
I guess I do. I'm not sure if I'm ready for it right now, but it would be nice.

26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?
I guess some people have.

27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you?
Nah.

28. Have you ever been cheated on?
I guess not during the relationship?

29. Have you ever cheated on someone?
Never

30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body?
I would get better boobs or a fat suction. I doubt that I will tho'.

31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl? over love?
Definitely. Tell me about it ugh. Stupid break up.

32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love?
Love is such a strong word... I might of have?

33. Have you ever had sex with a man?
PSHHHH, yes.

34. Have you ever had sex with a woman?
does receiving a blowjob count?

35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
Yes.

36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends?
Yes.

37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?
No...?

38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?
Not really.

39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?
Spiderman, please! Climb through my window and rape me! But I know you can't do such evil deeds. Climb through my window and make love to me passionately!

40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone?
Nah.

41. Have you had sex so far this year?
When I was in relationship and once after that.

42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander?
I have never taken time? I usually like to hold on to when kissing.

43. How long was your longest relationship?
Two years... TT_TT

44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?
3

45. How many people did you kiss in 2012?
3

46. How many times did you have sex last year?
how many TIMES? Once every day, sometimes thrice...365 multiplies with two which is average equals... 730 times? Let's make that 500. My boyfriend was a serious nympho, and I delivered.

47. How old are you?
20

48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?
Okay, that's cool. I wont be fighting over your attention, but be happy with the one you got, yeah?

49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her?
It used to be his kindness and understanding and how he always cheered my up and assured me when I was down, and how he kept calling me Burd. *cries*

50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?
First TRUE love would be my recent EX. I was so madly in love with him that he could of have thrown me off a cliff in to glass sharps, walked over me with spiked boots while spitting on me and calling me names. He could of have been killing me the most insufferable way, and at any moment if he had asked, I would of have done anything for him.
If he walked back to me, after finally breaking my heart, saying that he was honestly sorry and that he DID love me after all and that his mind had just been a haze of delusion, and how he never felt anything with any of me friends he made fall in love with him, and if he came to my doorstep with a flower bouquet and a ring in his hands, I would cry, slap him, and then accept like the bitch that I am.

51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for?
At the moment... A childhood friend of mine has my sanity in a small jewelry box that plays nursery rhymes if you open it. If she told me to jump off a bridge, I would not even question her.

52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why?
I have given up on everyone, because I am sick of depression. I'm only recently allowing people chances.

53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?
No.

54. Is there someone you will never forget?
Who doesn't have someone like that?

55. Share a relationship story.
Was depressed, A cool guy came by. We had common ideas. We were happy. We never fought. He started to slowly move in to my 22 square meter flat where we lived together for a year. I had to deal up with the fact that his previous girlfriend died. It was hard for both of us. Then we moved to our own house. We were happy. I was planning family and wedding. Best friend fell in love with him. I had no idea what to do. I became depressed. School was rough. I loved my boyfriend, he supported me. Everything was great. Suddenly he breaks up with me after two years saying we would be better off friends. He takes the apartment. I'm homeless for a week. I find a new apartment. After a week from the breakup my Ex is together with my best friend from school. I get depressed as fuck.

56. State 8 facts about your body:
1. I am overweight.
2. I prefer to walk slow
3. I have a cute face.
4. My toes are hideous. They have lumps on the joints.
5. I have small hands.
6. I have short hair.
7. I have blue eyes.
8.I have scars. On my knee thanks to a biking accident, on my brow because I hit it in a basketball goal, and all the scars after fighting with my sister.

57. Things you want to say to an ex:
Crawl up and die. Be together with you dead perfect ex girlfriend, and leave my friends alone! I NEED THEM TOO. I still haven't gotten over you, because you took away every friend I had who could help me with this shit!
When will I get over myself?!?!?! FUCKING NEVER!

58. What are five ways to win your heart?
1. Approve my animals.
2. Approve my childishness.
3. cuddle.
4. Make me laugh.
5. Promise/Provide me support and security.

59. What do you look like?
a chubby female with short dyed hair. I have a nice smile, and eyes that are the most kind. I have nice glasses.

60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners?
4 years. If I get together with this person courting me, it will be 11.

61. What is the first thing you notice in someone?
Honestly it's their hair. I have a crap vision, so I point the first MAJOR thing that is not going to change in them. After that I'm full personality babe!

62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you?
He would wear the spiderman costume in bed, role play me spiderman, and not remove that thing during sex other than to expose the good parts.

63. What is your definition of “having sex”?
Intercourse. Penetration. Oral is not sex yet in my mind.

64. What is your definition of cheating?
Doing anything physically sexual without your partners consent. I'm fine with sex outside of marriage as long as my partner tells me that "HONEY! Is it cool if I go fuck my friends wife?" "Yes darling! Be home for dinner!". Kiss is okay if it does not have any feeling in it. Like goodbye kisses etc. All else needs consent.

65. What is your favourite foreplay routine?
Oral... Fingering?

66. What is your favourite roleplay?
Spidermaaaaaan~

67. What is your idea of the perfect date?
Sitting on a sofa, a soda and a bag of chips, honey in your armpit, watching movies while you cuddle.

68. What is your sexual orientation?
Straight.

69. What turns you off?
being too full of yourself.

70. What turns you on?
small lingering touches that promise me things.

71. What was your kinkiest wet dream?
I dream a lot, but I never dream of sex. I usually get very high emotions in dreams from besic things. I was about to die of content in a dream when someone hugged me.

72. What words do you like to hear during sex?
I'm a Fin. Fin's don't really talk during sex. talking is awkward.

73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you?
Buy me chocolate/candy/flowers to surprise me, or take me out to eat.

74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for?
I love beards and body hair. The more manly my men, the better.

75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you?
randomly bought me a plushie.

76. What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone?
I bought him matching rings in portal theme... *cries*

77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships?
As long as it's legal, nothing matters. My sister is 18 and is dating a man over thirty. One of my possible future boyfriends is 32 years old. At first it was a surprise, because I doesn't look like it, and I fear that he sees me as a brat, but if it works, then it works. That's that. Love doesn't look gender or age.

78. What’s your dirtiest secret?
Dirtiest in what way? I read a HUUUGE AMOUNT of gay porn in the internet? That's not really a secret but a well known fact...

79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why?
When my friend fell in love with my boyfriend during last winter. I did not know how to take it.

80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?
When I was together with my ex. I might of said this to a friend of mine when drunk too...

81. Who are five people you find attractive?
Names? Friends or celebrities? This seriously should be more definined guestion
Spiderman
Deadpool
Nightcrawler
Slade
Stiles.

82. Who is the last person you hugged?
Janika I guess. she's a good childhood friend.

83. Who was your first kiss with?
In junior school there were these games... I don't remember shit from so far behind.

84. Why did your last relationship fail?
He stopped loving me.

85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet?
Yes

I would want to draw so bad, but my tablet broke. Now I will have to wait for god knows how long until I get my allowance for the month to buy a new one. A new tablet is going to cost a hundred (I'm thinking about wacom bamboo pen and touch).
God only knows when I will get the new one, because It takes people so long to send my my monies >:C

Altough, if you are in need of my drawings, you can help me fund my tablet, and I will be sure to draw you whatever it is you want! Pay as you see fit!

I found and stole this from somewhere. I just love filling these up!

1. Do you usually sleep with your closet door open or closed? Closed. I hate it when my walk in closet door is blocking my toilet door.
2. Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotels? Like they need them anyway. I have worked at a hotel for 3 years, and I noticed that they really do nut need those small little waste of spaces. They have proper bottles to refill for their special stuff.
3. Have you ever ‘done it’ in a hotel room? My aunt owned the hotel... That would of have been kinky... Nah. I gotta do it sometime tho'.
4. Where is your next vacation? What do you mean of this? Next time I leave this city? Next time I have a holiday? I dunno. It's summer, so school's out. I have also planned to visit my parents sometime this summer... But other than that. I have no plans.
5. Have you ever stolen a street sign before? Psh, yeah, I have. I mean, they have these HILARIOUS look out for playing children signs, and I dunno. I just thought of it as cool and I wanted one. My dad returned it though.
6. Have you ever had a crush on a teacher? No. Ugh. Just... no.
7. Do you have a calendar in your room? Nope. My phone and computer has... Wait, I own an ... calendar book thingy? That counts.
8. Where are you? Home. Sitting on my computer, watching Iron man from telly. My dog is sleeping under my chair.
9. What’s your plan for the day? Nothing. Maybe baby my precious little baby doggy goggy a bit.
10. Are you reading any books right now? Dog training books and stuff.
11. What fandoms are you part of? I hate fandoms.... What does it really mean to be part of one anyway? Just the fact that I ship something from them or watch it? Or actual participating? Because I hate participating, and socializing to be more accurate. If it's just reading and shit... I dunno. Teen wolf, spideypool, HP shit, erm... this and that?
12. Who is your OTP? Toughest one ever. I have one OTP for every series. I don't think I have "just one".
13. Do you ever dance even if there’s no music playing? I sometimes dance. for no reason.
14. Do you chew your pens and pencils? Naw. I hate the paint that gets stuck in your mouth. yuck.
15. What is your “Song of the Week”? Either tähtipölyä by samuli edelman or firefly by owl city. Just because I fucking CAN. My ex used to hate listening to owl city because he had listened a lot of it with his ex. Now that we broke up, I can listen to whatever the fuck I want.
16. Is it okay for guys to wear pink? I think they wear the color better than girls do.
17. Do you still watch cartoons? Totally.
18. Whats your favorite love movie? Warm bodies <3
19. What do you drink with dinner? Juice. It's tastier, yet on the school menu.
20. What do you dip Chicken Nuggets in? Sweet and sour sauce.
21. Something I fantasise about? Something YOU fantasize about? Or me? I dunno. I have stopped expecting ANYTHING. I got a dog so... I dunno. I sometimes wish I could fall in a coma for half an yer. I could just dream this amazing dream, I would lose half my bodyweight, making me slim, and I wouldn't have to stress about all the fucking social life shit. Then I would just have to work my muscles and start again on a clean sheet. Jeez, I really wish to fall in a coma...
22. What movies could you watch over and over and still love? Disney? How to train your dragon, warm bodies, avatar, megamind, wreck it ralph and hotel transylvania?
23. Last person you hugged/kissed? Hugged? Erm... jeez... Em... I have a feeling that someone did this a while ago... Oh yeah! Poppis hugged me! It was nice seeing her after what, 5 months? Time sure flies! And the last kiss was probably with my ex over 3 months ago before we broke up.
24. What are your favourite smells? Opening a new, fresh bag of cheetos. unghahasjfhjhg. Or maybe a fresh book? my puppy's coat. my mother and my grandma, especially my grandma. fresh bread. OMG FRESHLY COOKED MOOSE! asdfgh... Christmas ham! Straight from the oven! OMG I LOVE SMELLS! Do you know, that my highest senses are my sense of smell and my hearing. I find objects solely based on their smell. If I lose an item, I sniff it out. If my friend asks me to fetch something of theirs from somewhere they forgot it at, I usually sniff every object in the room, finally finding the one with the familiar scent.
25. Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine? Why not.
26. When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper? A couple of years back. Me and some of my friends send letters every now and then just for the kicks of it.
27. Can you change the oil on a car? Yes.
28. Ever gotten a speeding ticket? Yes.
29. What do you normally order in a bar/pub? A couple of Salmari's and a long drink or a cider.
30. Favorite kind of sandwich? Something with a lot of meat in it, or at least teriyaki chicken.
31. Best thing to eat for breakfast? Cereal. jesus the luxury... Who has fucking MONEY to buy something as useless as fucking cereal?
32. What is your usual bedtime? I'unno? 23-01 usually.
33. Post a screenshot of your tumblr dash: Screen shot in FA? Fuck no. I'll just tell you: Deepshit has taken over my whole fucking dash with her constant posting.
34. Post a screenshot of your facebook newsfeed: Research shows that children from gay/bi/lesb/singe RAIMBOW families are more openminded and healthy. local beer ad. Picture of earth: SPOILER ALERT, EVERYBODY DIES, piture of my friend's dog with fresh prey in it's mouth, Yasha's ref sheet...
35. Do you have any magazine subscriptions? Nope. Can't affort that shit.
36. Which are better, legos or lincoln logs? Legos. I have no oroblem with the latter one tho'.
37. Are you stubborn? mmm. It deponds. I don't really want to decide anything, or stuff, but I walways want to make sure that my opinion is heard. I will not pursue, but I respect being listened.
38. What did your last text read? As in text message? "Thank you, I wish you the same : )"
39. Have you ever kissed a member of the same sex? Yeah.
40. Afraid of heights? Not really. My dad is a pilot. He made sure that my stomach could handle EVERYTHING.
41. Sing in the car? Yup. Loud and clear. But only if I'm alone, or with a REALLY good friend.
42. Dance in the shower? Nope.
43. Dance in the car? Not really. I don't call wiggling and wailing arms as dancing.
44. Ever used a gun? I think twice yeah. Airgun some times yeah, and a hunting rifle once by the guidance of my grandfather. I remember nothing of these events tho'.
45. Do you think musicals are cheesy? Depends. I usually don't like musicals, but I make an exception with starkidpotter.
46. Is Christmas stressful? Yeah. It is. I gotta visit parents, visit all the family and friends, and deal with the shit hole while shopping for presents I cannot affort but need to get anyways because I love those bastards I call friends.
47. What is your sexuality? straight.
48. Major annoyance right now? I need a new bed and I need to teach my dog to her business outside. She's too young to hold it yet : /
49. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? I had a friend book who asked this question, I wrote the answer to the next question on this line: Radio controllable car. I mixed it with my most wanted gift XD I seriously had no career plans as a child.
50. Do you believe in ghosts? Yes. And I'm fucking horrified of them. I need mental AND physical support if I suspect ghosts in my home. I also will take contact with a priest ASAP. I will NOT anger the spirits no matter what. If someone brings an ouja board in my house I WILL KILL THEM PERSONALLY! No excuses or an warning is needed.
51. Ever have a deja-vu feeling? Very often. Like all the time!
52. Do you take a vitamin daily? I barely remember to take my antidepressants and sleeping pills daily!
53.Wear slippers? I usually go barefood, but I wear them if I'm cold, or I need to take my dog out to pee.
54. Can I touch my nose with a tounge? Yes.
55. What do you wear to bed? A T-shirt and panties, or maybe a pajama if I feel grand.
56. Wal-Mart, Target or K-Mart? K-Mart is the only one of those three that exists in my country.
57. Did you fall for someone you shouldn’t? Nah. Don't think that I have. I avoid falling in love in general. I prefer staying out from people's shit untill the last possible moment. You have to pursue me, or give up. I'm as glueless as a fucking fish.
58. Cheetos Or Fritos? CHEETOS! Omg cheese snacks *DROOL!*
59. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds? peanuts. Not a fan of either, but if the peanuts have chili coat, then sure.
60. Would you ever use a dating site? Nah. I don't really pursue a relationship. I believe that everything comes when the time is right.
61. Ever taken karate? Nah. I'm not much of a sports gal.
62. Favorite season? Fall. I like the leaves. It's warm but not muddy. I hate spring.
63. Can you curl your tongue? Yeah if you mean the U shape?
64. Ever won a spelling bee? Don't live in the fucking states where people can't write their OWN GODDAMN LANGUAGE.
65. Ever cried because you were so happy? Every time I watch a movie.
66. Own any record albums? No. I don't really care about owning music physically. Only some rare exceptions, but the work rare is a little bit too grand to describe how rarely I buy music.
67. Are you allergic to anything? No.
68. Regularly burn incense? No. They all smell like burn. My sensitive nose dislikes.
69. Ever been in love? I regret every moment of it.
70. Did you brush your teeth this morning? Nope.
71. Tea or coffee? Tea.
72. Favorite kind of cookie? chocolate chip? NO! Filippinos.
73.Can you swim well? Totally. I'm a swimming MASTER. I can dive 25 meters at least.
74. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘J’? Yeah. A gay guy friend of mine was once drunk enough to kiss me.
75. Zodiac sign? Monkey/Aquarius.
76. Ever won a contest? Depends. I won a coffee packet once on my dad's name. I also won gold and silver in shot put and silver in javelin throw.
77. Ever had plastic surgery? nope.
78. Which are better black or green olives? I dislike all olives.
79. Describe your dream date: a hug.
80. Wash room or bathroom? bathroom.
81. Do you want to get married? I wish.
82. Who was your High School crush? I had no high school crushes.
83. Do you like to play board games? Nope. I don't have enough friends. You can't play board games alone.
84. Are you fond of romantic novels? yes. Sadly.
85. Last movie you saw in theatre? Iron Man 3
86. What was your favorite cartoon growing up? Power puff girls. courage the dog. Everything from cartoon network
87. Do you miss anyone right now? Not really, Fuck everyone.
88. Who do you want to see right now? Not really anyone : / Maybe this one person I have been having a conversation with over internet. He seems kinda cool.