I'm like: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q_gfD3nvh-8

But really tho, I've been absent from my home for a week now, and I gotta apologize for not leaving a little "I'm runnin' for mah life" notice here. Sorta panicked and just flew off. But I'm around now, no damage to the house, my neighbor lost a lot, but da lort said water be gone for us. *Salutes*

*Holds up le cup of tea.*

Also, I've got so much art on the sidelines to post up soon. Stay tuned.

Okay, on note one, my year old cheap little wacom passed away, (Rip), and there is already another in the mail! Cheers for that!

Character concept idea:

I'd like to order one Macro hunter/God-slayer please. One who'se sole existence in life is to life in the moment-- That moment the he's succeeded in eliminating a god/macro from the world. Now, what mortal would take on such a challenge alone? Why, a psychotic one! One incapable of existing in modern society without being condemned as a deranged murdered with a bad speech impediment. One who gets a boner from overcoming the improbable, and defacing the aftermath. Though mortal, this warrior brings whatever tools are needed for combat, depending on the roleplay/art he'd be featured in.

Of course, Macros/gods have unrealistic power, and to apply that a mortal would mean.. We're going "One Punch Man!" with this mofo-- Or several punch, and slicing and dicing. Of course, I respect everyone's characters, and would ask that they respect this as well. If ya want a deranged, efficient, hunter in the roleplay, expect some huntin' to be done. A solo composer with a violin of steeeeeel! *Pose!*

I've got no idea what this sorta character would appear like, but he's gotta be intense. Don't need to base his design on weapons, his fist are enough to break the earth with a punch, right? I'm lookin' for ideas. A friend offered "Goat man" because Satan and I'm like "Oh shit dat can go somewhere.

He can't just be a tiger, or a dog, y'know? Need to think outside the meta.

Shhhhh!

Tonight, I'm paintin' a lil somethin' to take a break from commissions. Been practicing the Zootopia style.
I'm dedicating tonight to a painting, and if ya want in on this club, post a ref below. It's free~
Just give me permission to use your character how I'd like. I know you character would never get in a taxi cuz he's rich as fuck but dog-nabbit he's ridin' in a taxi today!

Oh, right.

*KDBT VANISHES IN A PUFF OF "I GOT A DAY OFF OF WORK"!*

My new Desktop may take a week or so longer to arrive, and I've already waited a week, and I'm sorta goin' mad...

So! See as I CAN draw, despite the fact I can't stream on this temporary desktop, I've decided to open up commission and work in the shadows.

Commission me because I'm worth it.

*Vanishes in a cloud of failure.*

Phew. Alright, I'm posting this so I can shout this all out in a crowd and feel like I really expressed my negativity to someone. Imagine me poking my head into a room and yelling this all, then vanishing. Like, shhhhhh, lemme quietly get this out.


I got friends. Boy do I got a bunch'a friends. Let's spell 'em out.
Most of 'em don't know my real name.
Some of them haven't spoke to me in months.
Some of them appeared when I offered free art, chatted with my til I drew it, and vanished after the sketch was sent-- That shit hurt my self-esteem.
Some of them only speak to me when I'm online in a specific game.
Some of them have role-played with me twice.
Some draw with me. We've done art, likely twice, and that concluded our conversation.
Some invited me to group chats. Those groups are long gone, but I once felt a part of a gathering at some point.
Some randomly run into me. "Oh! Hey! It's been forever!"

These friends are fleeting, and I've grown used to it. I don't invest time into them.


Then, I got friends who're closer.
Some chat with me very often, but I type the same sentence three ways to ensure I don't lose 'em.
They'd send a hello everyone once in awhile.
We've roleplayed for a year or more.
Some tease me. Not once- Not twice. I can't go a conversation without lashing out at them for flustering me.
A few give me tips about my drawings, and pat my back often. "Dude, that's freakin' sweet. Draw more of thaaaat!"
Some know my real name.

I've invested so much time into the second category, and... It tears me a bit when they, disappoint me.
They do nothing wrong, oh no, but they don't do it completely right either.
If I were asked, "Karlos, who is your best online friend?", I couldn't give an answer. I've thrown in towel on a lot of them.

KDBT fantasies:
I'll say, "I want an art.", and they'll say, "I drew this stick figure on MSpaint just for you.", because I'd do the same.
I'll say, "Smash bros is the shit" and they'll say, "I got my fuckin' Ds on right now. Come catch these hands."
I'll say, "I'm bored.", and they'll say, "*Gropes you.*"
And then we'll laugh-- And possible flesh that 1-shot roleplay into some plotline about a blind mole who falls in love with a tree, and we'll categorize the tree as male because it only has 2 holes and then I'll draw that shit and they'll write that shit and we'll fuckin' ship it on FA SO DAMN HAAAARD.

Or just, ask what Kinda music do I listen too? I got 365 skype contacts, and (had) 1215 mp3 files downloaded. I can give you all 3 and make you go "WHAT ARTIST IS THIS" I SWEAR. Then we'd talk about Art/Internet/Community/Games/RlIssues for an hour or so.

No one just, reaches my expectations of a bff. I don't feel like, syncs me up with their priorities. Sounds like I'm looking for a boyfriend-- But I swear this should be easier then looking for a boyfriend (*Wink wink hint nudge awkward-attempt-to-bat-eyes*).

I just, have all these friends, but I don't have a best friend. A bud who would invest as much time as me as I would them. A friend who'd stop multitasking to socialize with 'lil ol me. And I get it, I'm not worth it. That's not an insult, I get that I'm not worth 'Best friend' title to a lot of people. We don't have the same interest. We can't find anything to talk about because our personalities don't mesh. Nigga can't speak fuckin' english-- Or maybe I'm not interesting enough. I get that-- BITCH FUCK YOU, I'M DA BEST!

Hah. So, that's my rant. It's scary. The friends who are putting the effort in these days... I feel like, they want something from me. Isn't the nasty AF? I've been denied so much, that once I'm getting a little interest, I get suspicious of it? Like, if I give into their attention, they'll get that sketch they want, and vanish again.

And to those friends, from way early past... The ones, I've known for years, who just, haven't spoken to me in years, or just, don't respond to me, or we could'a had it crazy rollin' in the deep but you abandoned ship and left me rollin' like rolling girl? Dis for you:
https://www.google.com/search?q=fli.....9PDh0Q_AUIBigB


Okay. How do I end this. Um. I once slept with two different male strangers within' 24 hours of each other. Both invited me to Watch a movie and chill but holy shit CHILL DOES NOT MEAN CHILL. CHILL=GROPE THE KDBT!
I've been wanting to tell that to a online friend for years but feared they'd judge me but Idgaf now

lmfao shit is lit!

As some of ya know, my laptop went ka-poot, and I've been left with the super slow family computer to doodle on while I await my semi-awesome Desktop to be built by a pal! What a run-on sentence!

Anyhow, I've already downloaded Sai onto this computer and can only run Sai if I want the strokes to not lag-- Haha. I'd love to have some characters to play around with, instead of creating my own, and now we're reached the point of this journal!

If you'd be a pal, share a ref below in these journal comments, and I'll silently doodle 'em! I've lost my old pen settings, so I'll be experimenting to get 'em back as well. All that nonsense. I'm available for skype of anyone would like to speak, but til I'm COMPUTER READY, I'll be checking this journal instead of browsing FA. The Cpu on this machine is realllly bad.

Baby didn't wanna turn on tonight and after fiddling with it for 3 hours I'm throwing in the towel. BUT, IT'S OKAY, THIS IS why I have a job. So! I'l be buying anew one soon, and trying to figure out how to extract my files from my old baby. No stream tonight, or the next night, or the next. Gimme some time to sort myself out.

#PrayForKDBT

I'll be open for 'em soon, but they're there for you to look at pals.

http://www.furaffinity.net/commissions/kdbt/

And I was wondering if after all these months you'd like to meet? To draw penises, and vags. They say my prices are to cheap, and I certainly agree.

Teaser image:
https://www.dropbox.com/s/2215s99u7.....attle.jpg?dl=0

https://www.dropbox.com/s/6tfxxpire.....ayene.jpg?dl=0

https://www.dropbox.com/s/1g7ukhkl6.....dpool.jpg?dl=0

HELLO FROM MY BEDROOO-- *RUNS*

Alright, let's see...

-Sfw tab unactivated.
-Dresser is prepped to barricade door.
-Enough food to last for 24 hours under bed.


I AM READY

Don't mine me. I'm just drawing stuff.
Yup.

*Cough*
Oh, how's your day?
I hope it's been good.

Oh, I'm being a distraction...
...

*Cough*

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5ls_x14_Pbg

Smile!!!

Hi I'm "EmperorJesse" please add me and kick my butt

I'll suck your high res pixelated D if you win
but if you lose I'll still suck your high res pixelated D, but with more vigor

But really, I have no Wii friends. Please help. :(

http://kotaku.com/nintendos-preside.....way-1717386412

A moment in silence for that fella who helped shape your childhood.

The Tahm Kench vore art is coming.
Those who play league, should have expected this.
Hug your loved ones, before it is to late.

*SuperMegaUltraUltimateVictorious-Dancinggggggg*

I gotta draw somethin' to celebrate! I gotta, do what I did when I reached 500 watchers-- Yes I must recreate something like
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14107842/

Yes, this friday. Yes, a free stream, a celebration! YES I WILL DRAW THIS ALL DAY.

Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaasssssssss.

Muscle. Muscles on top of muscles. Hyper muscles. I'm gonna give it a try tomorrow! Feel free to stop on by while I struggle with adding biceps upon biceps!

If you'd like your character sketched, it'll be $15 for a full body, with creative effects, added in. Nsfw is allowed.

And I'm so very thankful for that! :D

Thanks guys.

Makin' my way downtown,
Gaining pounds,
Crying sounds,
but I'm okay~
DANANANANAAAAA NA.
DANANANA NANA NA!

http://www.newegg.com/Product/Produ.....-595-_-Product

With a Summer startin', I wanna set a goal to spend at least $700 on a dasktop capable of running games smoothly, while streaming! I'm, horrid with the anatomy of PC's so............. -Slams fist on table- I BEG OF YOU! HELP A SEMI-GEEK OUT!!!!! -RIPS OFF SHIRT-

Because those are awesoooome.
Naw, I'd really adore "Fur" friends to help me delve further into the fandom. Maybe make some reaaaaally good friends.

Skype iz :Laison_Inonymous
Facebook is: https://www.facebook.com/profile.ph.....00008997634867
wat u thought id giv u my rl facebook gurl plz !

I'm really bad at it and I'll try to improve. :InsertMarioDeath: