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Posted 10 years agoI'm rarely here anymore
alhazredshound.tumblr.com is where to find me
alhazredshound.tumblr.com is where to find me
PSA on Mary Sues
Posted 10 years agoHmmm PSA on Mary Sues. It always makes me angry on the Mary Sue’s creators behalf when I see people fling shit, or talk shit about Mary Sues. I mean girls are all about defending other girls riiiiiiiiiiiight? I wish people would stop and think that maybe some people have Mary Sues as coping mechanism.. for like being aromatic or asexual or being a survivor of sexual assault/rape. LORD KNOWS WHEN I DID IT HELPED ME. More so Alhazad which might be why I have all the fetishes that I have now, but was this safty net to explore things with myself and not feel shame or dirty or worried or whatever the fuck and all those horrible things that go through your head after that happens.. It was like HEY SOME HORRIBLE SHIT HAPPENED TO ME. Even though Alhazad and Verg were huge perverts in my head I’m sure Al wouldn’t make sexual advances unless given permission and Verg would crush the wind pipes of any disgusting human who assaulted a woman or man or whatever was apart of his harem. So… yeah it made me feel safe and its totally cool and even encouraged by me for girls (and boys too) to have they Mary Sues and imaginary relationships with characters from fiction.
fffffffffffffffffffffffft
Posted 11 years agoI know I joke about like, the end times a lot, boom The Black Dragon and Cthulhu and the Yellow King and apocalypse and Ragnarok. But if it happened tomorrow I'd be totally down with that.
Too many things happening too much work too many people at work and being an empath is having its toll I need a real vacation.
Too many things happening too much work too many people at work and being an empath is having its toll I need a real vacation.
Toes back to normal.
Posted 11 years agoBack on my feet, back on Florida, back to work. That was quite possibly on the list of really shitty things that have happened to me. Like. Fuck that no. I do not ever want to endue that again and wouldn't even wish that on the fucking assholes that gave me PTSD/PPD/GAD. And that's saying a lot.
Toe Surgery
Posted 11 years agoFor a while one of the nails of my toe looked really fugly (some of you may remember), and a abscess had started growing on it this summer. Dad was visiting in Florida around Halloween and suggested I'd get it looked at. So on November 4th, like a responsible adult. I went and saw a foot doctor.
He took the nail off, and cut the abscess out and booked me for a follow up. And I thought it was over with.
Ahahah ahahahaahah
lol.
No.
The 11th, I went back, and the abscess ballooned up, so he cut it off again and sent it to a lab to be tested.
Cue Panic.
A week went by, the like before, abscess returned, and he had the biopsy report. Good news it wouldn't kill me and wasn't cancerous. Bad news was, now that my nail wasn't there anymore to keep Yog Sothoth's bastard child from growing out of my toe. It was going to keep getting bigger and causing me A LOT of pain. And had to be surgically removed. So I worked for a week, popping vikes.
And as much as I would like to hump Hastur's mass of tentacles. When gross things grow outta my body and hurt. Its not fun :C.
So on the 21st, my dad flew down from Maryland and we got him from the airport, and surgery went under way shortly after. The doctor said the tumor was rather big, had blood vessels and everything. Was pretty deep. So I was gonna be out of work at least until Thanksgiving.
SHIT IT HURT. When the drugs wore off that Saturday morning I was pretty fucked up. Its all a haze because I was drugged but the drugs did nothing for the pain.
And.... soon... It was 26th.. the day before Thanksgiving and I could barely walk, was limping around, dad had a plane ride back to Maryland that afternoon-- because he assumed by then I'd be fine on my own.
But I wasn't, far from it.
He gave me that Dad Look. And said I was coming home with him and seeing a doctor in Maryland and I kind of couldn't walk so... I was flown back to Maryland (I'm still gonna live in Florida--I'm just home with the folks for a bit yet.) And a doctor up here has been looking at my poor toe.
Millions of phone calls later, Short Term Disability here. Wheee. Doctors poking there. Few glasses of wine.
Uh... stuff? A knee scooter.. crutches... shitty wound kits. Sobbing fits. Misery. (I hate my toes being touched) stitches came out today!! BUT. Its a nasty wound. Healing ass backwards, I have to keep it dressed and wear a surgical boot for a month. The doctor here in Maryland doesn't see me going back to work for at least another month.
I have short term disability insurance, so bills/rent should be paid. I have no idea how I'm gonna pull funds together for the doctor related shit (its gonna be about 2k I think.)
Arrrrfguuuuuuuuuuuugh.
With all that said PLEASE PPPPPPLEASE give
filthy thanks and art and whatever you wanna for helping my dad deal with me when I was in agony before surgery (couldn't take the vikes the day of) and helping afterwards because I was in Narnia after I woke up, and dropping by a few days here and there. AND BEING THE BEST FRIEND EVER TAKING CARE OF MY CATS WHILE I'M IN MARYLAND ;-; <3333333333333
He took the nail off, and cut the abscess out and booked me for a follow up. And I thought it was over with.
Ahahah ahahahaahah
lol.
No.
The 11th, I went back, and the abscess ballooned up, so he cut it off again and sent it to a lab to be tested.
Cue Panic.
A week went by, the like before, abscess returned, and he had the biopsy report. Good news it wouldn't kill me and wasn't cancerous. Bad news was, now that my nail wasn't there anymore to keep Yog Sothoth's bastard child from growing out of my toe. It was going to keep getting bigger and causing me A LOT of pain. And had to be surgically removed. So I worked for a week, popping vikes.
And as much as I would like to hump Hastur's mass of tentacles. When gross things grow outta my body and hurt. Its not fun :C.
So on the 21st, my dad flew down from Maryland and we got him from the airport, and surgery went under way shortly after. The doctor said the tumor was rather big, had blood vessels and everything. Was pretty deep. So I was gonna be out of work at least until Thanksgiving.
SHIT IT HURT. When the drugs wore off that Saturday morning I was pretty fucked up. Its all a haze because I was drugged but the drugs did nothing for the pain.
And.... soon... It was 26th.. the day before Thanksgiving and I could barely walk, was limping around, dad had a plane ride back to Maryland that afternoon-- because he assumed by then I'd be fine on my own.
But I wasn't, far from it.
He gave me that Dad Look. And said I was coming home with him and seeing a doctor in Maryland and I kind of couldn't walk so... I was flown back to Maryland (I'm still gonna live in Florida--I'm just home with the folks for a bit yet.) And a doctor up here has been looking at my poor toe.
Millions of phone calls later, Short Term Disability here. Wheee. Doctors poking there. Few glasses of wine.
Uh... stuff? A knee scooter.. crutches... shitty wound kits. Sobbing fits. Misery. (I hate my toes being touched) stitches came out today!! BUT. Its a nasty wound. Healing ass backwards, I have to keep it dressed and wear a surgical boot for a month. The doctor here in Maryland doesn't see me going back to work for at least another month.
I have short term disability insurance, so bills/rent should be paid. I have no idea how I'm gonna pull funds together for the doctor related shit (its gonna be about 2k I think.)
Arrrrfguuuuuuuuuuuugh.
With all that said PLEASE PPPPPPLEASE give
filthy thanks and art and whatever you wanna for helping my dad deal with me when I was in agony before surgery (couldn't take the vikes the day of) and helping afterwards because I was in Narnia after I woke up, and dropping by a few days here and there. AND BEING THE BEST FRIEND EVER TAKING CARE OF MY CATS WHILE I'M IN MARYLAND ;-; <3333333333333Strange Dreams...
Posted 11 years agoSometimes I dream I am Aubrey, like, I’m his spirit guide living in his head. I can’t remember all the details of this one.. but he was a younger guy, kind of a teenager I guess. He was at a mall and kids were picking on him. It was a store where preps would shop, right? But they had a bunch of Pearl Jam albums on sale, like they had came out with a new album and for some reason they were now popular with the prepy kids. He was looking at them and talking to me, inside his head, like I saw through his eyes even though he was 100% in control of his body. Redish skin, and fuzzy, like the cute Arab he is. It was… heavy. Feeling his emotions about being teased. I mean it was like facing what had happened to me as a kid, too. The same stuff, but it was happening to him. And I’m sure if I could remember the beginning of this dream I would be able to figure out what this all “means”.
I had a dream where this had happened before, too (its somewhere in some file some where.. maybe.. damn). he was trying to save this girl that was sexually abused by her family. I can only really recall now him breaking in and pointing my 38 at the people, breaking into the little girls room and scooping her up. She was being “punished” and forced to stand in a cat little box filled with cat shit. I think he may have actually shot the parents too before hand.. When he picked the kid up he was hiding her face in his chest and ran off into the night. Again I was seeing all of this through his eyes and kind of hovering over them to 'protect' them.
I had a dream where this had happened before, too (its somewhere in some file some where.. maybe.. damn). he was trying to save this girl that was sexually abused by her family. I can only really recall now him breaking in and pointing my 38 at the people, breaking into the little girls room and scooping her up. She was being “punished” and forced to stand in a cat little box filled with cat shit. I think he may have actually shot the parents too before hand.. When he picked the kid up he was hiding her face in his chest and ran off into the night. Again I was seeing all of this through his eyes and kind of hovering over them to 'protect' them.
Ask Aubrey!
Posted 11 years agoI made a tumble where you can ask Aubrey thiiiiings.
Whether they're life questions spiritual questions or just whatever the hell you want.
Do the thing.
Go.
http://askaubreyanything.tumblr.com/
Whether they're life questions spiritual questions or just whatever the hell you want.
Do the thing.
Go.
http://askaubreyanything.tumblr.com/
Assumption meme?
Posted 11 years agoThis should be good. That meme that's been going around and I'll tell you whether or not what you're assuming about me is true or not :X
About me meme
Posted 11 years agoThe Essentials
Name: Talathia
Nickname: Tala
Location: Satan's ball sack
Age: 30
Height: 5'6"
Zodiac sign: Scorpio
Any pets:3 cats.
Favorite thing about yourself: I have this uncanny ability to survive some mentally challenging shit.
Worst habit: Being paranoid and anxious about everything.
Fun fact: You tell me.
Identity, Sexuality & Personality
Gender identity: FUCK YOU.
Sexual preference: FUCK YOU ONCE AGAIN.
Romantic Preference: Alhazreds.
Relationship status: Married.
Myers/Briggs type: ...wtf is this even.
Hogwarts House: fuck harry potter
Routine
"Early Bird" or "Night Owl": Night owl
Bath or shower: I don't care.
First thought in the morning: Uuuuugh.
Last thought before falling asleep at night: Plz dreams plz.
School/Work
Do you work or are you a student: Home Depot Freight Monkey.
What do you do well: Drawing I would like to think I do that okay.
Where do you see yourself in 5 years: Not in Florida. lol.
Habits (Do you…?)
Drink: Ocassionally. Probably more than I should right now um.
Smoke: nope.
Do Drugs: no but I'm open to see if marijuana helps with my anxiety.
Exercise: When my foots not acting up or I'm not depressed I get enough.
Have a nervous habit: I get extremely anxious and pace back and forth when I'm on the phone with someone I don't know, I pick at my lip, I kind of stutter and fiddle with shit and crawl inside myself when I'm on flight or fight mode and people love to fuck with me when I'm like this.
:|...
What is your favorite…?
Physical quality (in yourself): my hair *hissssss* cut it and I'll kill you.
In Others: personality.
Mental/emotional quality (in yourself): loyal to a fault.
Food: CHINA TASTE ;________;
Drink: water.
Animal: all animals.
Artist/Band/Group: Foo Fighters, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Counting Crows, and many others.
Author/Poet: Neil Gaiman/Abdul Alhazred (what.)
TV Show: Vikings!
Actor/Actress: I don't like real people. Real people are full of shit.
Blogger: my wafiu Cypherwulf
Name: Talathia
Nickname: Tala
Location: Satan's ball sack
Age: 30
Height: 5'6"
Zodiac sign: Scorpio
Any pets:3 cats.
Favorite thing about yourself: I have this uncanny ability to survive some mentally challenging shit.
Worst habit: Being paranoid and anxious about everything.
Fun fact: You tell me.
Identity, Sexuality & Personality
Gender identity: FUCK YOU.
Sexual preference: FUCK YOU ONCE AGAIN.
Romantic Preference: Alhazreds.
Relationship status: Married.
Myers/Briggs type: ...wtf is this even.
Hogwarts House: fuck harry potter
Routine
"Early Bird" or "Night Owl": Night owl
Bath or shower: I don't care.
First thought in the morning: Uuuuugh.
Last thought before falling asleep at night: Plz dreams plz.
School/Work
Do you work or are you a student: Home Depot Freight Monkey.
What do you do well: Drawing I would like to think I do that okay.
Where do you see yourself in 5 years: Not in Florida. lol.
Habits (Do you…?)
Drink: Ocassionally. Probably more than I should right now um.
Smoke: nope.
Do Drugs: no but I'm open to see if marijuana helps with my anxiety.
Exercise: When my foots not acting up or I'm not depressed I get enough.
Have a nervous habit: I get extremely anxious and pace back and forth when I'm on the phone with someone I don't know, I pick at my lip, I kind of stutter and fiddle with shit and crawl inside myself when I'm on flight or fight mode and people love to fuck with me when I'm like this.
:|...
What is your favorite…?
Physical quality (in yourself): my hair *hissssss* cut it and I'll kill you.
In Others: personality.
Mental/emotional quality (in yourself): loyal to a fault.
Food: CHINA TASTE ;________;
Drink: water.
Animal: all animals.
Artist/Band/Group: Foo Fighters, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Counting Crows, and many others.
Author/Poet: Neil Gaiman/Abdul Alhazred (what.)
TV Show: Vikings!
Actor/Actress: I don't like real people. Real people are full of shit.
Blogger: my wafiu Cypherwulf
Name Your Price Commissions
Posted 11 years agohttp://www.furaffinity.net/user/knightoffenrir/
https://www.weasyl.com/~talathia
http://artoftalathia.tumblr.com/
You tell me how much you wanna pay, and I'll make something for you for about that price/we'll take about it.
GUESS WHO GOT TAPE WORMS!? Zoey. Because you know, I fucking need this right now. Yay. I take paypal---Contact me talathia[at]gmail.com (that's also the paypal address)
45 for the visit for them to TELL ME SHE HAS TAPE WORM ftftftf and 15 for her meds. Ffffft ffffftfftftftftf. Hiss coil ball.
https://www.weasyl.com/~talathia
http://artoftalathia.tumblr.com/
You tell me how much you wanna pay, and I'll make something for you for about that price/we'll take about it.
GUESS WHO GOT TAPE WORMS!? Zoey. Because you know, I fucking need this right now. Yay. I take paypal---Contact me talathia[at]gmail.com (that's also the paypal address)
45 for the visit for them to TELL ME SHE HAS TAPE WORM ftftftf and 15 for her meds. Ffffft ffffftfftftftftf. Hiss coil ball.
15 years
Posted 11 years agoAugust 1st is coming up and I need to do a thing... it will be the 15 year anniversary of when I became "aware" of Aubrey's existence and that kind of... spooky spirit guide relationship we have going... Was talking to a friend about this and he mentioned how this whole deal has outlasted most straight marriages... 8D; all things considering, even though he's not tangible, the whole shit load of ordeals we have had to encounter would probably break most people.
need to do an art, or something. Hmm...
need to do an art, or something. Hmm...
a song that makes you think about .... stuff.
Posted 11 years agoA boy with a coin he found in the weeds
With bullets and pages of trade magazines
Close to a car that flipped on the turn
When God left the ground to circle the world
A girl with a bird she found in the snow
Then flew up her gown and that's how she knows
That God made her eyes for crying at birth
Then left the ground to circle the Earth
A boy with a coin he crammed in his jeans
Then making a wish he tossed in the sea
Walked to a town that all of us burn
When God left the ground to circle the world
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KHw7gdJ14uQ
With bullets and pages of trade magazines
Close to a car that flipped on the turn
When God left the ground to circle the world
A girl with a bird she found in the snow
Then flew up her gown and that's how she knows
That God made her eyes for crying at birth
Then left the ground to circle the Earth
A boy with a coin he crammed in his jeans
Then making a wish he tossed in the sea
Walked to a town that all of us burn
When God left the ground to circle the world
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KHw7gdJ14uQ
a song that makes you think about .... stuff.
Posted 11 years agoA boy with a coin he found in the weeds
With bullets and pages of trade magazines
Close to a car that flipped on the turn
When God left the ground to circle the world
A girl with a bird she found in the snow
Then flew up her gown and that's how she knows
That God made her eyes for crying at birth
Then left the ground to circle the Earth
A boy with a coin he crammed in his jeans
Then making a wish he tossed in the sea
Walked to a town that all of us burn
When God left the ground to circle the world
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KHw7gdJ14uQ
With bullets and pages of trade magazines
Close to a car that flipped on the turn
When God left the ground to circle the world
A girl with a bird she found in the snow
Then flew up her gown and that's how she knows
That God made her eyes for crying at birth
Then left the ground to circle the Earth
A boy with a coin he crammed in his jeans
Then making a wish he tossed in the sea
Walked to a town that all of us burn
When God left the ground to circle the world
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KHw7gdJ14uQ
a song that makes you think about .... stuff.
Posted 11 years agoA boy with a coin he found in the weeds
With bullets and pages of trade magazines
Close to a car that flipped on the turn
When God left the ground to circle the world
A girl with a bird she found in the snow
Then flew up her gown and that's how she knows
That God made her eyes for crying at birth
Then left the ground to circle the Earth
A boy with a coin he crammed in his jeans
Then making a wish he tossed in the sea
Walked to a town that all of us burn
When God left the ground to circle the world
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KHw7gdJ14uQ
With bullets and pages of trade magazines
Close to a car that flipped on the turn
When God left the ground to circle the world
A girl with a bird she found in the snow
Then flew up her gown and that's how she knows
That God made her eyes for crying at birth
Then left the ground to circle the Earth
A boy with a coin he crammed in his jeans
Then making a wish he tossed in the sea
Walked to a town that all of us burn
When God left the ground to circle the world
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KHw7gdJ14uQ
a song that makes you think about .... stuff.
Posted 11 years agoA boy with a coin he found in the weeds
With bullets and pages of trade magazines
Close to a car that flipped on the turn
When God left the ground to circle the world
A girl with a bird she found in the snow
Then flew up her gown and that's how she knows
That God made her eyes for crying at birth
Then left the ground to circle the Earth
A boy with a coin he crammed in his jeans
Then making a wish he tossed in the sea
Walked to a town that all of us burn
When God left the ground to circle the world
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KHw7gdJ14uQ
With bullets and pages of trade magazines
Close to a car that flipped on the turn
When God left the ground to circle the world
A girl with a bird she found in the snow
Then flew up her gown and that's how she knows
That God made her eyes for crying at birth
Then left the ground to circle the Earth
A boy with a coin he crammed in his jeans
Then making a wish he tossed in the sea
Walked to a town that all of us burn
When God left the ground to circle the world
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KHw7gdJ14uQ
New Art Tumblr
Posted 11 years agoMy art tumblr is back
http://artoftalathia.tumblr.com/
also my main has changed.
http://alhazredshound.tumblr.com/
even if you were watching me before, you gotta rewatch me now because I deleted it to uh, get a fresh start. :U Looking for more artblogs to watch!
http://artoftalathia.tumblr.com/
also my main has changed.
http://alhazredshound.tumblr.com/
even if you were watching me before, you gotta rewatch me now because I deleted it to uh, get a fresh start. :U Looking for more artblogs to watch!
Venting.
Posted 11 years agoWhy is it that the moment somebody finds out someone else is gay (not so much anymore) but bi, trans*, or intersex there's usually a tonne of personal and uncomfortable questions that come out towards the person? Its fucking ignorant as hell. Its impersonal, its disrespectful, and people that go on asking and asking these kinds of really awkward and just, prying questions; treating the poor person like some kind of freak show should be ashamed of themselves. I mean, no one ever asks how a binary straight cis person what their junk looks like or how they have sex or asks them when they do something that's not "normal" for the gender they are (cis people are sometimes all "OH COOL YOU'RE BEING UNIQUE!") But when a trans-man likes something 'girly' or a trans-woman likes something 'manly' the cis gender police are all in their shit "BUT I THOUGHT YOU DIDN'T WANNA BE THAT!!!" or what the hell ever.
I've had a bad week inside my head. :|
I've had a bad week inside my head. :|
commissions will be opening around the 18th
Posted 11 years agosomethings have happened....
and i don't wanna disclose here... more has piled onto the pile of stress besides my kitty being sick so.
(if you watch my lj check that out)
so i will be opening for commissions when i get back to florida. at the moment i'm brain storming ideas.
so yeah... eh...:<
and i don't wanna disclose here... more has piled onto the pile of stress besides my kitty being sick so.
(if you watch my lj check that out)
so i will be opening for commissions when i get back to florida. at the moment i'm brain storming ideas.
so yeah... eh...:<
going home for a week
Posted 11 years agoreturning to the land of tweakers, toxic emissions from the long gone steelmill, crabs, and sports teams named after birds.
(Filthy is looking after the monster kitties <3)
(Filthy is looking after the monster kitties <3)
Thanks <333
Posted 11 years agoThanks everyone for the past comments over what has been the most emotionally trying week in my life. I get depressed and angsty at times, I kind of get mopey, and that's kind of my personality I guess? I don't know. But when September's health declined my world stopped. I wasn't here, I was somewhere else. Had I not had the other two cats to care for, and or not going home for a week. If September would have had to go to cross the rainbow bridge.......... I would have called the ward on myself because I wouldn't have trusted myself alone.
I love her so much. I am more attached to her than I think I was attached to Krystal. September has been my constant companion over the past 12 years. By my side, through every waking moment. Every victory and happy moment and good times as well as the bad horrible shitty shit shit-tacular moments of my life. Krystal was my best friend, too, but she was 'everyones' dog... September is <i>my cat</i>.
I got her when I just got outta High School, right before I got my first job (in HS I was involved in college level art classes so I had no time for a job), she was there, then on, by my side, through everything. This past year and a half when I moved down here she's been my rock. My security blanket. More so when therapy went up 100% (25 per session to 50).... she's just... the best cat ever... well... she's like me and Aubrey but as a cat... Pissy Face Miss Temby.
And when I thought my best friend was dying, laying there breathing heavy on a towel in the bathroom refusing to eat and just 'depressed'.... I lost my reserve, the ground beneath my feet gave away and I hated everything. I wanted her to be okay, I didn't care about anything else. I don't think I've ever been this close to another living being before, not even Aubrey.
But she's okay now, lively and happy and eating (thin, but I got some of her favorite food at petsmart (she loves minced Science Diet whichever and Blue Buffalo chicken)
I'm just so happy she's okay. If the plane ride wouldn't stress her out I would be finding a way to bring her home with me (I'm visiting my family/MD/buddies up north for a week).
This cat is my everything. Even if all I get with her is another year or or I don't know. That whole scare was so sudden and as long as she's happy and eating and happy to see me and miss pissy face September... she's gonna be just fine... She spent the night with me in my room and was all ":3333" and loving on me and active and... Aie. I was telling some friends of mine how she has my Will my undying Spirit that says "No, I <i>will not die today."
I hope she has many more healthy years, like one of those cats that lives to be in their 20s...
I love her so much. I am more attached to her than I think I was attached to Krystal. September has been my constant companion over the past 12 years. By my side, through every waking moment. Every victory and happy moment and good times as well as the bad horrible shitty shit shit-tacular moments of my life. Krystal was my best friend, too, but she was 'everyones' dog... September is <i>my cat</i>.
I got her when I just got outta High School, right before I got my first job (in HS I was involved in college level art classes so I had no time for a job), she was there, then on, by my side, through everything. This past year and a half when I moved down here she's been my rock. My security blanket. More so when therapy went up 100% (25 per session to 50).... she's just... the best cat ever... well... she's like me and Aubrey but as a cat... Pissy Face Miss Temby.
And when I thought my best friend was dying, laying there breathing heavy on a towel in the bathroom refusing to eat and just 'depressed'.... I lost my reserve, the ground beneath my feet gave away and I hated everything. I wanted her to be okay, I didn't care about anything else. I don't think I've ever been this close to another living being before, not even Aubrey.
But she's okay now, lively and happy and eating (thin, but I got some of her favorite food at petsmart (she loves minced Science Diet whichever and Blue Buffalo chicken)
I'm just so happy she's okay. If the plane ride wouldn't stress her out I would be finding a way to bring her home with me (I'm visiting my family/MD/buddies up north for a week).
This cat is my everything. Even if all I get with her is another year or or I don't know. That whole scare was so sudden and as long as she's happy and eating and happy to see me and miss pissy face September... she's gonna be just fine... She spent the night with me in my room and was all ":3333" and loving on me and active and... Aie. I was telling some friends of mine how she has my Will my undying Spirit that says "No, I <i>will not die today."
I hope she has many more healthy years, like one of those cats that lives to be in their 20s...
kitty update
Posted 11 years agoSeptember's not doing so well..
Posted 11 years agosomethings wrong with her, and i don't know what to do. i wish someone else was here to make this decision....
her kidneys are more than likely failing.
and i do not have the means or the money, or the heart to force her through that kind of life style change at her age. just to keep her alive because we can't let go.
:(
i can't do this. she is my rock. she's been my constant companion and pillow and rock and best friend for the past 12 years. she's my first cat. she's my baby. my little hell spawn :C miss temby.
her kidneys are more than likely failing.
and i do not have the means or the money, or the heart to force her through that kind of life style change at her age. just to keep her alive because we can't let go.
:(
i can't do this. she is my rock. she's been my constant companion and pillow and rock and best friend for the past 12 years. she's my first cat. she's my baby. my little hell spawn :C miss temby.
Flight Rising Dragons
Posted 11 years agoI'm on there as Talathia :U btw.
Some poor fuck someday is going to look at my dragons and see the names; Hastur, Alhazred, Shub Niggurath, Cthulhu, Azathoth, Dagon and then... see.. Checkers and other treats like BLEGPH... whom was named after this little gem :D
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3L7VJl76i9U
Some poor fuck someday is going to look at my dragons and see the names; Hastur, Alhazred, Shub Niggurath, Cthulhu, Azathoth, Dagon and then... see.. Checkers and other treats like BLEGPH... whom was named after this little gem :D
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3L7VJl76i9U
overcoming depression/weaning off meds.
Posted 11 years agotoday's accomplishments.
getting case of gatoraid for work.
getting a huge case of bottled water. for when ever i go outside into theRub' al Khali... uh I mean, florida heat. (its comparable.) i need to get a re-usable water bottle thing but some fuck bag threw mine away at work. and these waters were 3 bucks at costco. so. shh.
getting gas for the car.
so far, not dying.
treating self to starbucks because not dying is important.
getting case of gatoraid for work.
getting a huge case of bottled water. for when ever i go outside into theRub' al Khali... uh I mean, florida heat. (its comparable.) i need to get a re-usable water bottle thing but some fuck bag threw mine away at work. and these waters were 3 bucks at costco. so. shh.
getting gas for the car.
so far, not dying.
treating self to starbucks because not dying is important.
fun things that happened today
Posted 11 years agoso my toe nail is really infected and I'm on some super strong antibiotics and have to avoid the sun for 10 days. i also learned my copay is ass expensive for everything now so lolololol wheeeeeeeeeeeeee. *waves good bye to mental health*
also my break lights was out and i COULD HAVE DIED.... but some guy told me my lights were out and i fixed them. you know. when he almost rear ended me.
8| its 2am and I'm wide awake and need something to do.
must resist apocalyptic urges. *eye twitch*
also my break lights was out and i COULD HAVE DIED.... but some guy told me my lights were out and i fixed them. you know. when he almost rear ended me.
8| its 2am and I'm wide awake and need something to do.
must resist apocalyptic urges. *eye twitch*
