Hello! Gosh I miss drawing and being online.. I've just been so fatigued and trying to be as healthy as possible for surgery

I got a surgery date for the latter part of this January, in a couple weeks!

The surgeon suspects I have Adenomyosis and diffuse Endometriosis, so recovery may be longer and more difficult than I expected

but I'm very happy I was able to get a surgery date so soon, I was expecting to wait much longer

I hope everyone had a great holidays break. I got to be cozy and got myself a vintage Fujifilm camera :)

love,
Kolae

Nov 2024-

I've made the difficult decision to move back home in order to get much needed surgery for severe Endometriosis.

Endometriosis is a complicated disease, it causes growths/tumors inside the body, and it can show up in and around ANY organ (including brain, lungs, heart, bladder, etc). it affects hormones and is also affected BY hormones, which is troublesome, especially as someone who has been in remission from a hormonal brain tumor since last year.

there is very little research and care done for endometriosis. it is difficult and sometimes impossible to find a doctor who will take you seriously and not just turn you away with birth control pills (which can make the condition worse!!!)

it can affect organs enough that it kills them or damages them to a point where they need to be removed. I have serious ongoing issues with my bladder, ovaries, uterus, intestines, stomach, etc and the pain has been absolutely unbearable. not sugar coating it anymore.. I've pushed through a lot of things and have had major injuries, I've been hit by a car, I have tons of cuts and burn scars from my life as a cook/chef, but none of that compares to the severity of pain I have from endometriosis. I've had fibromyalgia since I was a teen, so my pain tolerance is quite high too.


I have been struggling very hard this year, but the last few months my health has been deteriorating to the point that I have lost the ability to walk most days.

on my good days, I go to the gym, eat as healthy as I can and take care of myself as much as possible. but everything I've tried has not been pushing off my chronic symptoms.

it started as just a few days I'd have to force myself to rest here and there, but it has increased to most days I am unable to function physically and it has been taking my life away.

I've never wanted to move back home, but with difficulty finding a doctor to take me seriously and trouble with finding an adequate surgeon that takes my self-employed insurance, I've literally no choice anymore

that said, my commissions will be closed for a while and my activity in general will be limited. I will never quit art, but I need to go full time into recovering my body that is being strangled from the inside out.

I hope to spread awareness of this disease and hope people take it seriously and are able to get the care they need. do not wait and try to push through things like I have stubbornly done. if you have or know someone who has severe menstrual pain or pain that cycles with a hormonal cycle, please consider researching endometriosis. I have been misdiagnosed my entire life and am now paying the consequences of taking increasingly strong dosages of birth control for most of my life. no one ever warns you about these things ;_;

I have been slowing down a lot lately, but expect come December I will not be around for a long while

I thank you all so much for your support. I love to draw. I LIVE to draw. I will miss creating and posting often, but I am hoping I will be able to see a surgeon soon and get my recovery planned out.

I hope to be feeling better than ever. sooner than later. I will be back when I can, I know I will miss being here and drawing so very much

all I ask is for good vibes from here on out✌🏻

much love,
Kolae 💕💙

TL;DR I am moving back home in order to have a life saving surgery. my presence will be limited until I recover.

Ych: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/58564237/

I have been very sick the past month+ , i ended up needing surgeries on my jaw for an infection. It's been a lot more than i was told upfront so i'd love help out ;__; / + you get cool art!
win win!
<3

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soff woof :3 ty for looking!

Hello ;w;/

My dear friend Rina ( part of ) has been battling serious and severe health issues for years. She is one of the sweetest and kind people i've ever met. Rina has been supportive of me with my own health issues, even with everything she has going on. She has been trying to stay strong and working to pay for her medical treatments.. but i've watched as her conditions have worsened over the past year and she is struggling very badly. Rina has always been reluctant to ask for help, but things have really gotten bad and she can not pay for surgeries she desperately needs. She has been battling Endometriosis, Epilepsy, and now was diagnosed with a serious eye condition.. Her vision is now at risk and for an artist... that is a horrible nightmare many of us would not be able to live with.

Her art style is awesome. She has done some collabs with me in the past, and recently did this for me with her friend https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56822297/ <3 ;A;

If you can, please send her some support ;A;/ <3

You can join her Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/killays
Here is an explanation from her on her Patreon about her situation: https://www.patreon.com/posts/113153910
Some beautiful YCH's she has available:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56349143/ (pinup)
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/58267802/ (halloween)
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/58246028/ (halloween)
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/57831157/ (tummy theme)

And I will also be teaming up with her to do some collab YCHs in order to help fundraise her medical treatments

Even sharing this journal/her patreon post would help! Thank you for reading!
<3- Kolae

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:3

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ty for loking
-w- zzzzzzzzzzz

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woohooo!!

collab with <3~!

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shark shark!!
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bleaaaaaaaaat <3

https://piczel.tv/watch/kolae
NSFW warning

been a while since i made a new character design! ;w;

thanks for looking

link: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/57677934/

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/57666412/
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;w; thanks for looking!!

how do you feel about leaving comments on an artists work?

do you care if you get a reply from the artist every time?

or are you just happy expressing your interest publicly?

i want to know!!




regardless...


i read EVERY comment i get. every single one. im usually very busy / tired and dont get around to replying to them all. but your opinions and time DO matter a lot to me

thank you for all the comments i've ever gotten. i enjoy reading them. i spend hours on pieces these days, so feedback is awesome to get, even if its just "cute" "sexy girlllll" xD!

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/57486468/

thanks for lookin ;w;/

I've been sick with covid for a few days, thought I was getting better and it was overall mild- but it got much worse a couple days ago

having trouble sleeping with the constant pain from breathing. not fun

this is my 4th covid infection. woopee

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cutie dingo lookin for a home ;w;!~

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:3c

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come check it out :3c!

sketch:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/57003095/

price:
$200

any species / gender!

can customize the outfit / leash / collar! or make it nsfw :3!

finished art will be fully colored and shaded, with sketch lines and some painted elements

if you'd like to claim this commission, please comment or note me! thank you ;w;/

I'm open!!

headshot sketches

$15 a pop

you pick expression or I do!

to get one, please comment or note me!

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:3 char!!